#it’s sickening really

[bixels]

Just gonna have to wait and see, right? Just wait and see! Just gotta wait and see! Who knows, we'll just have to wait and see! It's anybody's guess, we'll just have to wait and see! The future is exciting, we just gotta wait and see!

#personal #my art #Fuck your fake ass 'i am very smart!' intellectualizing “observations” and open your god damn ears. #do something for fucks sake. it's sickening seeing videos of ai crap and seeing rows and rows of repliers using their one brain synapse #to type “wow! very exciting!” “haha this is kind of scary! but in a really interesting way!” #and then they go about their day without a second thought while creative industries burn around them #i go to one of america's top tech schools too and it's enough to make you wanna tear our your hair #every day it's seminars and talks about “the potential consequences of ai!” when the consequences are happening NOW #NO MORE DISCUSSING NO MORE INTELLECTUALIZING NO MORE SOCRATIC SEMINARS NO MORE DEBATING. ACT YOU COWARDS #people are getting hurt RIGHT NOW. stop pretending to care when you clearly don't! just be honest and say you wanna make money #my time here has really made me hate academic spaces. you people are so god damn useless and cowardly.

[antibayern]

xavi you need to tell me this before !! 😐 would rather see princess charles win than any of the other fuckers

😭 unfortunately ferrari hates to see princess charles winning

#it’s sickening really #asks #clara tag

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[edsbacktattoo]

season 2 Ed pining is going to be soooo fucking intense. like he clocks in for his 9 to 5 every morning, which is being the Dread Pyrate Blackbeard, and then he goes back to the revenge and makes Ye Olde Pinterest boards of his dream wedding and cottages he’d like to retire in and they’re all called some shit like “Just A Dream 💔🗡️🕷️🥀” and then he marks another day without Stede on his tally calendar. he’s the most real character ever put on television.

#i’m completely obsessed with him #he really really just wants to retire #my boy just wants to fold socks and paint minifigures for the rest of his life is that so much to ask #i’m so obsessed with him #a sickening infatuation perhaps #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 teaser #oh we thinkin?

[saltyfinalboss]

i really hope dead cells fans do not buy the 'windblown' game by motion twin just because it's "by the creators of dead cells", since motion twin actually cancelled evil empire's* plans for future dead cells content which was planned for at least until 2025 including at least one dlc.

(*evil empire have been developing dead cells since 2019/patch 1.3 of dead cells, for those unaware)

in this announcement post MT claims that they decided the game is finished as it is or whatever and don't want any more updates as to not make the game 'bloated', which sounds pretty reasonable until you remember that all the updates from evil empire are unique and distinct & that motion twin doesn't even make the game anymore as of 2019. so personally i think this 'reasoning' is just random shit they made up to not sound as evil as they are.

not to mention that the whole "by the creators of dead cells" thing they put in their marketing is VERY misleading. obviously motion twin initially created dead cells, yes, but by now there are only about ~3 ppl at motion twin who worked on dead cells. there are ~50 names in the credits of dead cells.

of course i can't stop anyone from buying whatever they want, but i urge people to at least read this blog post by a former dead cells dev. i feel like it's important context a fan might want to know before potentially buying motion twin's new game.

#i really want this game to suck & flop just because of what they did to the developers of dead cells (evil empire) #idk if it even needs saying but the fact they use 'by the creators of dead cells' in marketing after doing that is just sickening #dead cells #windblown #txt #evil empire #motion twin

[silverliing]

please tell me they went trick or treating in lenora

#happy halloween everyone i arose from my sickened slumber just to post this #will byers #jane hopper #el hopper #stranger things #i was actually working on a bunch of stuff to post this week including stuff for bylerween but then i got really really sick #and i just couldn’t even look at a screen for an extended amount of time #artists on tumblr #art #stranger things fanart #willel #el hopper fanart #will byers fanart #halloween #fanart #illustration

[almond-gallery]

happy valentine's w yhk <3

#omniscient reader #orv #yoohankim #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung #kim dokja #just finished my orv reread. miserable #but aside from that. yhk in love <3 #absolutely sickening that i must not only work but also take an exam on this valentine's day. and i'm sick #but it's ok. rotating them in my mind to make it through #edit: i'm really mad. i forgot hsy's beauty mark...

[thecommunityoftrustworthysinks]

dukat is such a fucking insane character. like SUCH a well written villain. the way he so so deeply hates the bajoran people and also ends up fetishizing them EVERY single time he turns around, his nearly psychosexual obsession with sisko because he's in the position with bajor that dukat really wanted. his insistence that he was good for bajor and so desperately wanting their love, but never once respecting them. it grows and grows throughout the seasons, culminating in the pah-wraith cult and the surgical changes to make him appear bajoran, like the way he has himself SO convinced that he believes what he is doing is right, and yet never is able to stop being nefarious at his core

#deep space 9 #dukat #star trek #star trak ds9 #x #there's something there that could be elaborated on much more fully but i can't quite grasp it #something something oppressors obsession with their victims #i mean it's fucking disturbing really like #sickening

[vulpinesaint]

off of last post! do ace people know about the black ring on the right middle finger!! are the kids aware!!! do you guys know that we have a community symbol that you can wear out in public without scrutiny? do you guys know that we have something physical to tie us together? a way to recognize each other???

#i just think it's SO important #i wear my ring every day just like. for me. it makes me feel like myself. #and also i live in hope that someone will recognize it someday :) #it's just. it's really good. #i get emotional about the black ace ring. #come on asexual community let's get sickening #ace #asexual #asexuality #ace pride #aroace

[rewritingcanon]

scorbus but it’s interchangeable

#i feel like scorp is usually the one being carried. hes so aware of his own looks and grts self conscious 😭 #whereas albus just accepts that hes mid looking but he doesnt really percieve attractiveness in other people #and then both of them view the other one as the epitome of beauty like theyre so obsessed with the craziest parts bro #albus just stares at scorpius knees and fingernails and throat #scorpius is so obsessed he be liking albus’ stink 😭😭 and then he’ll blame it on his pheromones 💀🙏 #harry potter #hp #hpcc #cursed child #scorpius malfoy #scorbus #albus severus potter #rewriting #i love reading a scorbus dynamic and theyre so sickening sweet and down bad for each other ahhhhh

[yashley]

laura bailey in grounded II: making the last of us part II

#last of us #ygifs #laura #it's fine i've just waited so long for abby mocap content!!!! her eyes are so!!!! her performance!!!!!! #also lmao this doc was actually really difficult to watch. all that she was put through was sickening then and completely heartbreaking #the putrid hatred just robbing her of all pride and safety and joy in this exciting project it's just. heartbreaking. infuriating. #just by her own phenomenal performance she changed their minds and got the role they didn't want her for #just by her own phenomenal performance she made them Not kill her character #she bore the cross of this most hated character and only by her unparalleled talent did abby even reach redemption #the fact that the hate robbed the celebration of her caliber I'll never let it go #her Crying during ashley’s performance i’ll never let it go #anyway part 3 queen

[jsctens]

what if i just

#have we discussed this yet #this parallel is sickening cruel vile #they were really fucking with us all the way from s1 #GOD #WHEN WILL I BE OVER IT #NEVER!!! #merlin #bbc merlin #bbcmerlin #merthur #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merlin x arthur

[meredithbeckham]

when you grew up like we did, it… it impacts how you see the world. everything is filtered through a very specific lens. and ward got that.

i think it’s important to realize you can miss something, but not want it back, paulo coelho.

#daisyjohnsonedit #daisy johnson #aosedit #daisy x ward #anti skyeward #to be clear this isn't meant to romanticize them it's just exploring a facet of their dynamic i find interesting (and utterly terrifying #and sickening) #how much of daisy's connection to ward to begin with was in their shared abusive backgrounds #how he specifically could understand how she grew up and the impact it had on her and her worldview #it physically hurts me to think about how vulnerable she was with him and how much she trusted him with as her s.o #how much she would have felt for him in regard to his own abuse and wanted to help him and what a role that in of itself would have played #in their relationship and in her feelings #something i think aos does really well is allude to daisy's history - how clear it is that she is a survivor of abuse and how consistently #present that is in how she perceives and navigates the world #it's subtle but so very there #her face in that scene where ward goes off because of the staff. CHILLS #and it hurts me so very much to think of how connected she felt to ward in that regard while he himself was preying on and manipulating her #tucking away every vulnerable detail she shared for later use #how he convinces her to trust him and that he won't turn his back on her just to be yet another person who has abused her #how when he starts talking about how he isn't a good man it must be so easy to think he's just like her - thinking she's bad and worthless #and wrong and unlovable because that's what abuse does that's what it does to you #and daisy is so keenly aware of that so much more self-aware than she's given credit for #abuse / #daisy who is actually able to articulate what ward was to her and who maybe misses what she thought he was sometimes because how could #it not be nice to for a moment have someone who understood #but who is also so keenly aware of who he is and what he has done

[uncanny-tranny]

Love (sarcasm) when people go, "we should normalize fatphobia LOL 🥺". Fatphobia is the norm, you just don't like that fatphobia has the possibility of people realizing that you aren't as decent or well-rounded of a person as others might have thought before. If it's such a problem that people don't like you for your disgust and hatred of others, then your only options are to either accept that or, better, work on your biases. That isn't the fault of others, and it's certainly not other people's responsibility to coddle your hang-ups with other people's existences.

#politics #fatphobia #fatphobia tw #'we should normalize thinness and fatphobia 🥺🥺' babygirl thinness and fatphobia are SO normalized it's KILLED people before... #...so i'm really not buying that these people's problems are that SOME PEOPLE don't like fatphobia #how long will it take for this post to inevitably get fatphobia because OBVIOUSLY fat people are so inhuman... #...that you can ONLY care about fat people if you're also fat. y'all truly tell on yourselves. perchance. #like every single time i talk about these issues i'm ~accused~ of being fat and... #...quite frankly i think it's because y'all genuinely do /not/ see fat people as human. lol. lmao. it's actually sickening honestly #you aren't special for being fatphobic. you're just another fatphobe. like the rest of 'em

[kcciny]

Someone please educate me on how lolis are part of Japanese culture because some fgo fans keep saying that and as far as I know it’s not. How is sexualizing children a culture? Also why do they speak like they know about it yet they always seem to be from the USA.

#this is a about this certain Twitter post but Christ #kawaii culture? what has sexualizing children have to do with that??? #it’s also scary how many there are of them #i really hope these people never get kids or are near ones #this is sickening #fgo #fate grand order

[smokestarrules]

Someone in the TOH fandom theorized to Dana one time that Lilith was never given an EC sigil because Belos hated her so much that he didn’t even want to give her the “honor” of being included in his genocidal draining spell. Do you think this could have a grain of truth to it?

I think that a lot of Lilith's life is what you could call a self-fulfilling prophecy, including that detail itself.

I've always kind of gone with the assumption that Philip recognized Lilith as the woman with "Luzura" from all those centuries ago, and he'd probably understand the significances of finding her again. Her being allowed into the Emperor's Coven in the first place was very likely on purpose, and her becoming the Head of the Coven was definitely on purpose. Philip wanted her close, just in case.

And he also probably remembered that she didn't have a Sigil when they first met.

#but that also doesnt necessarily rule out the other theory #it just adds something to it. I think at least #I just really like the idea of lilith being So Intertwined with this person and having No Idea. its sickening it's horrible it's EXTREMELY #interesting to think about #toh #the owl house #lilith clawthorne #philip wittebane #emperor belos #smokey answers #lordjarman