#not me crying at this storyline

[bemtevis]

it's the burns brothers forever

#I WOULD DIE TO PROTECT EVERYONE IN THIS FAMILY #WHICH IS HARD CONSIDERING THIS FAMILY IS TRYING TO KILL EACH OTHER #first kill #first kill spoilers #not me crying at this storyline #SHE IS THEO'S MOTHER #HE'S HER BABY #I CANNOT FUCKING DO THIS

[nothatsmi]

You are light...

I'm at the chimera ant arc and every episode my heart crushes a bit more tightly. I suspect it will soon explode.

I really want to do more fanart, hope I will find the time (I wanna draw Kurapika sm). I actually have several complete HxH animatics in my head that I cannot do, it's frustrating af (literally the only free time I have I spend it watching this shit, i'm doomed).

Anyway this anime has occupied my entire brain lately. Or maybe 80%, the 20 other being a random book I'm reading (that I will soon do fanart of hopefully).

#hunter x hunter #hxh #killua zoldyck #gon freecss #killugon #you are light #man these scenes in watercolor where killua rambles about gon being his reason for living #this shit manages to make me laugh and then bam the most tragical thing happens #they made me CRY jesus fuck #i really am invested in this #everything #from every characters to each storyline #immaculate truly

[stick-ball]

Hi! I'm about to end my whole career!

Here goes the Riko rant that dear @capcavan asked, demanded and begged for.

You know, I get it.

So here's the thing. I get it, Riko sucks. He is the bad guy we all got hung upon. Why? Because he is a rival for our protagonist. He is an angsty, young guy, born into wealth that came from money laundering and human trafficking. It's despicable, the Ravens are bullies and he himself makes lots of bad things happen. Yeah sure, I get that, whatever.

Being raised as a superstar must've been really, really difficult for you.

But I want to really dig deeper right now, this is a Riko rant after all, and you need to really know your fighters. So, to start: a huge trap in toxic families is that the children, even when grown up, will refuse to identify their parents and guardians as negative and toxic people. Not even outside influence can really sway them, usually. Kids that get away from a sinister situation can later tell they were abused, that it wasn't right, but still, they don't get the specifics of what and why, and they are doomed to repeat the same abuse and call it good. Call it right. And sometimes that's substance abuse, sometimes thats domestic abuse, sometimes that's racism and sexism and xenophobia they will grow into believing as the way the world works. Sometimes, thats nepotism and sadism. Only thing that can help is therapy and an environment removed from the control of the original abuse, lots of therapy, lots of space, years of it. A perfect case of a typical toxic family is Aaron.

A perfect case of that could also be Riko.

And here you can call bullshit because Neil had such a fucked up, abusive father and he *knew* it was wrong. Yes, he knew it was wrong for his father to hurt him to the measure he went. Why? Because his mother protected him, because his mother feared his father, not adored him. Because his mother took him away and kept running. A mother, a role model a child feels very strongly about, subconsciously.

Riko was taken from his mother. He was pushed aside by his father and left in the care of a family member, who was easy to glorify for an impressionable child. Because he was a legend. In fanon I often see Tetsuji's character taking a very background role in everything, and sure, he seems pretty background to Neil, because every bad guy seems background to Neil in comparison to his Father - besides Riko, who is the one dangling that threat in front of him. Tetsuji just wants his property back, Riko is playing with fire though. So yeah to us, reading the story, Tetsuji is a total asshole among many such men in the book.

But to Riko he must've meant almost everything for a long time. A crucial thing about Tetsuji is, he is a sadist. Oh sure, sorry, it's only called sadism when done against his team, right? Against Jean or Kevin or Neil? When it comes to Riko, who was in his care for all of his formative years, it was just strict childbearing right? He is a Moriyama after all, so he is evil from birth.

Yeah, I must've mixed something up about Riko being beaten to unconsciousness several times being mentioned in extra content. You think that was a one, two, third times the charm occurance?

Always a commodity, never a human being, not a single person in your family thinking you’re worth a damn off the court— yeah, sounds rough.

I always wondered how sarcastic Neil was saying this. I mean, he definitely meant to land a punch where it would hurt. And he actually knew Riko as a little kid, so he knew more than most.

Stockholm syndrome is very common among victims of childhood abuse. I would know, anyway. It's like the most logical option - the survivior is living in a dual reality. These people are my family, the care for me. They provide for me. They want me to be the best. They also abuse me. They hurt me, but it's for the best. Hurting me is a expression of love. I am grateful to them.

I often wonder how many people who read the books know what a commodity is. A commodity, in the most basic terms, is a basic good that can be used in ccommerce to interchange with goods of the same type. A commodity is not a king, or a queen, or a bishop or a knight, or even a rook. It's a fucking pawn. It's cannon fodder.

Riko is worthless to his family. Riko is just a tool to Tetsuji to generate profit. Riko wants to be worthy to his family. Riko most likely loves his uncle and is ready to do the most insane thing if only it gives him the one thing he desires, which is being seen as worthy by his family.

Kevin and I talk about your intricate and endless daddy issues all the time.

Then there's grooming. Grooming is more obvious when it's done by a stranger who sees the child randomly or in some intervals of time. It's much harder to resist when it's constant. To Riko, Tetsuji is a good person, he is a hero, he is his family, he cares for him, they have a common goal. Riko wants to be what Tetsuji wants him to be. There is a price to pay for it, of course. There is a price for everything. But the price doesn't matter. Riko wants to pay the price he has to pay, to be what Tetsuji wants him to be.

And the thing is, do you think Riko learned how to use his money and crime connections to control others? How to gain power through fear and pain? You think spending his whole life locked in a fucking stadium he taught it to himself how to break people in body and spirit? That torturing them was his special interest? Or maybe are you forgetting that amongst valid responces to trauma, besides fight, flight and freeze there is also fawn? Don't you think it's much more likely, being groomed and enamoured with his captor (bcs thats what Tetsuji is to me, their captor) he impersonated him to the best of his ability? That he learned every leaf in the book from him, because he was his only connection to the family, to his father, to his brother. He was a legend, the creator of exy. Wasn't he always trying to be worthy of him? To be good enough to be loved and wanted? To be great full enough?

I am not saying this absolves him of any of the things he did, but people do insane things under lesser influence, things they would never do otherwise. And I am not talking of people groomed from early childhood, I'm talking of sane adults, being dragged into dangerous and destructive ideologies.

I know it’s not entirely your fault that you are mentally unbalanced and infected with these delusions of grandeur, and I know you’re physically incapable of holding a decent conversation with anyone like every other normal human being can, but I don’t think any of us should have to put up with this much of your bullshit.

Because it isn't, is it? The things HE does ARE his fault, definately. But the reason why? That is not that easy to pinpoint. And Riko is so unstable it hurts. He is so far removed from real life he is completely incapable of conversation. He is a child brought up in a grave, but...

Pity only gets you so many concessions, and you used yours up about six insults ago.

To me Riko is besides all other things, wasted potential. All the things he dreamed of? He could have had them. He was talented, he was determined and had a lot of courage, but all of that was utterly wasted in the violence and malice he was soaked in. In all the violence and malice he created in return.

So please, please, just shut the fuck up and leave us alone.

The most interesting thing about All for the game though is, that in every other book Riko dying would've been the big bad wolf being defeated. But here, that's just a bleep on the radar. Because Riko was a product, not the producer. What I love about All for the game is it shows none of the madness and evil in life started or ended with me or you, with Riko or Neil. Not even with Keylight or Tetsuji. Fuck it did not even end with Nathan dying. It all ends how it begun. With a deal with the devil made in the back of a car, bought with blood money.

#i said what i said and you can cry about it #no vacuum storylines here thank you good-night l #this one is gonna make me so popular with enemies of the state i can feel it #riko moriyama #riko moriyama headcanon #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #aftg headcanon #aftg rant #trauma discussion

[white-weasel]

Okay but now that the live action titans is over and young justice has been canceled (again) when are we getting the tv show featuring the young justice (1998) crew as the main cast

#screaming crying begging for dc to do something with the original young justice cast PLEASE #look me in the eyes and tell me an intergalactic baseball episode wouldn’t go hard because it would #heck I don’t even need them to just redo comic storylines I just want the tone of these comics because theyre perfect for an animated show #tim drake #conner Kent #kon el kent #cassie sandsmark #bart allen #cissie king jones #greta hayes #anita fite #slobo #young justice 1998 #dc

[liquidstar]

speaking of missing a3 dearly, i still love that bc it had such a huge cast they really had to get creative with each character's personality type so they'd stand out. so they just made one of the guys obsessed with triangles. and hes actually the best character. not in even the best in the game just in general. 🔺

#a3 #i still love you misumi #ill think of you every time i see a triangle forever and still get emotional at paper planes #his whole storyline w madoka STILL kills me to this day to think abt honestly. wanna see how hard i can cry?

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

Ah, Major Winchester, the party of one! Dinner is served.

#MASH #Maxwell Q Klinger #Charles Emerson Winchester III #MASH gif #MASH TV #THE THINGS YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET TWO DIFFERENT BITS OF SEQUENTIAL TEXT ON ONE GIF.... PHOTOPEA VIOLATING THE GENEVA CONVENTIONS AGAINST ME #I was so torn on the caption also. Could NOT decide between that and ''Sorry sir; no hemlock. But I can get you some ketchup.'' #but the opening line is sooooo fucking much.... the party of one.... the way Max always fucking Gets It #anyhow. Merry CharMax Eve! #who was it who did the excellent analysis of how the big serious A plot of Death Takes A Holiday actually sucked #come forward I need to reblog that post while I rewatch the ep but specifically only the CharMax storyline #because again: the A plot is nothing but nonsensical and frustrating #Starky's Original Posts #BTW SERVING DOS A COURT SUMMONS VIA OUIJA BOARD SO I CAN PROSECUTE HIS ASS FOR THE MICROEXPRESSIONS IN THAT LAST GIF!!!!!!! #DOS; world's greatest actor and horridest menace: and now Charles will aaaaalmost give in and smile #to express his genuine love and affection for someone. But not quite! hehehe ;P #me; crying: he can't keep getting away with it!!!!!! #charmax #HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO MY BELOVED K <3<3<3 let this gifset symbolize a passionate embrace of consummation betwixt us two #unless that was a weird and too much thing to say in which case [explodes]

[whatkindofnameisella]

so adaine and alewyn only got a month together before they were separated again. you're telling me adaine and alewyn only got a month together before they were separated again. so what im hearing is you're telling me adaine and alewyn only got a month together before they were separated again. im not sure i heard you right you said that

#fantasy high #I LEGITIMATELY STARTED CRYING DURING THAT SCENE. ADAINE WALKING INTO A BEDROOM WITH AN EMPTY TOP BUNK. YOU SEE THE WALLS COVERED WITH #ABJURATIVE WARDS. #ME WHEN I THINK ABOUT HOW ALEWYN IS AN ABJURATIVE WIZARD I GO FUCKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!! #4EVER OBSESSED WITH THEIR STORYLINE

[zhongrin]

the smell of tea wafted in the air. familiar and comforting, like the glittering gold filtering through the vitrage.

meirin sat up on a bed far too big for herself and rubbed her eyes. her muscles ached, and her head felt heavy but also clear at the same time — the clearest it had been for the past few days, in fact.

“how are you feeling, tiánxīn?”

a name sat at the tip of her tongue, and the syllable rolled off her tongue as smooth as warm osmanthus tea sliding down her throat.

“zhongli…? when did you get back?”

she rubbed her eyes sleepily and felt the gloveless hand on her cheek; the wedding ring engraved with the countless manmade lines embodying the countless lifetimes spent together pressing against her skin.

“just yesterday. how are you feeling?”

she tilted her head at the insistence in her husband’s steady voice, and decided to try and humor him a little, lighten the creases in his eyebrows, “like i just woke up from a nightmare. it’s been a rough few days, but i feel a lot better now…”

“good.”

a forehead kiss and an affectionate stroke of thumb on her cheek later, she watched her husband stand up to pour her a glass of water from the bedside table. it was then she noticed the state of the bedroom - every surfaces cleaned and every objects put back neatly, unlike what she remembered last time she—

“wait, what happened to m—?”

“hush, dear. for now, let’s just say it was all a long nightmare,” he sighed wistfully as he handed her the glass of water and a medicine pill, “please, rest your mind and take this for now. i will tell you everything in due time.”

“….. okay,” meirin sipped on her water, and obediently gulped down the capsule, knowing how stubborn he could be sometimes, “…. thank you, still. whatever it was, i know you saved me somehow.”

“it was a collective effort,” zhongli’s eyes soften, molten ambers mirroring the gentle rays of the morning sun, “and there is no need to thank me. though i may be retired, i don’t plan on infringing any contracts i made…. and certainly not our sacred contract.”

the woman averted her eyes shyly, opting to stare at the glassful of water within her hands, receiving an amused chuckle from the ex-archon.

“i’ll fetch you your breakfast. with your favorite osmanthus tea to go with it, perhaps?”

“oh, and tiánxīn?”

“hmmm?”

“i think we should include ‘narwhals’ in the ‘not allowed’ sign.”

“…… ah?”

#rin plays ebg #rin writes #rin selfships #zhongrin #I CAN FINALLY USE THE TAG AGAIN PRAISE BE REX LAPIS #as for how we got here..... i'm letting yall pick whichever storyline you saw as the 'canon'. risu's? psy's? dresvi's? crys'? #take your pick ;> #also risu i *swear* i wrote this before you wrote that in the server STOP TAPPING TO THE SAME BRAINCELL AT ME DANGIT /silly

[quinnigallagherjones]

i just rewatched s2 of heartstopper and mannnnnn 😭😭

#it's such a good show #but it makes me cry so much #s3 is gonna be Rough #charlie's storyline is going to destroy me i know it #heartstopper #tv #text

[martianbugsbunny]

Love how Episode 5 felt like Clone Wars not just because it was magical and psychological and everyone was being their slay-ass Clone Wars selves but also because of the emotional damage I missed that

#there are multiple storylines in clone wars where I will cry literally the entire time I'm watching them #which is why I'm not allowed to watch them anymore on my own authority because they make me too sad #and also tears are kinda hurty to my eyeballs #don't ask me why aren't they supposed to produce those but anyway #also I feel sick if I cry too much so basically it's just for my overall healthy feelings lol #the mortis arc #umbara #oh yeah the wrong Jedi arc #season 7 #so many tears #so much emotional damage #cried through all of episode 5 as well #the whole thing #ahsoka show #ahsoka series #ahsoka tano #anakin skywalker #captain rex #clone wars #star wars #Star Wars the clone wars

[dingdawny]

Sunshine Institute story?? ‼️ OH OH I’M EXCITED-

Built so much for this silly story and in the end it's an oc x canon 🫶 cowardly old bald man filled with regret and a longing for something more, doomed by the narrative and forced to conform to the will of a god who is no longer himself... meets a tired soul who has spent his whole life in the shadow of those above him, sent below the bedrock, submitting to the will of the universe with no real idea of what he had just done... only to once again be placed second in the ranking, an even darker shadow cast over him.

It's ok tho they're just silly billies !!

#I'll introduce Vice soon I think. He's very silly I think you'd like him #basically Vice is the Warden's erm.. Vice Warden.. bc of a big dramatic crying session from the Warden after Romeo tried to replace him #he made Vice second in command instead bc he didn't want to deal with his whining #also bc the institute was falling apart at this point and Romeo didn't want to deal with it #but he knew he could drop the workload on the Warden and Vice without argument #plus Romeo likes to prove himself right #so if Vice could handle things better in five minutes than the Warden could in fifteen years #he'd feel that rush of power again #there is a LOT more to it than that #like derealisation. the Warden losing his eye. there's a genuinely important game of chess in the void. it's a crazy intro #and like Vice's bacstory in general deals with Ellegaard and I have a whole thing built with the warden and carmine OUGH there is a lot #but the main story generally follows the Warden and Vice falling for each other and understanding each other's struggles :] #the power imbalance quickly fades as the warden starts realising that woah.. this guy respects me beyond me just telling him what to do... #wahhh I don't want to give away all of it #but I got like. a big oxblood story in there too. he has a big storyline with Vice. #OUGH I'm TERRIBLE at explaining but I PROMISEEEE IT'S SO MUCH COOLER THAN I EXPLAINED #very silly but also genuinely tragic story #romeo just didn't predict the old man yaoi when he appointed Vice

[crunchycrystals]

i just threw my fucking laptop when i heard a rat grinder was a cleric of helio

#crunchyposts #THEYRE ALL GENDERBENT VERSIONS OF THE BAD KIDS IM GONNA KILL SOMEOENFJEVSGHAJKVDGKSABHJFDGASHFJKDSAHFJKDSA #kristen's storyline this season is going to kill me i think #i love it so much already especially the bucky stuff and her calling them the butt fuckers in front of him made me cry #d20 #fh #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high junior year spoilers #anyways this isnt a lie i did throw my laptop but its fine i threw it onto the bed lol

[malefactus]

alois trancy truly left a lasting impression on teenage me because i watched s2 over a decade ago and i still feel bad for that boy

#his storyline was so sad and his theme makes me want to cry #kuroshitsuji #alois trancy #delete

[fadeintolight]

did they like forget to write a plot for the last season of young royals im so confused

#watching the last ep now and im like??? literally nothing is happening #except for the same characters running the same circles while the rest of the cast #has ZERO storyline to ride on they are just standing there like 🧍🏼‍♀️ #i expected smth …. more #also they fully ruined simons character for me #man does nothing but whine and cry and act like a bimbo in a comphet relationship #when both of their personalities were so much deeper and way more shaded #anyway #sad #young royals #they did felice so dirty too share one thing that happens to her this season

[paleshelter29]

Am I upset about how the TWD writers just killed off the potential badass storylines and character arcs of all my favorite characters??? No. What gave anyone that impression? ​*Sobs* in Carl, Henry, Enid, Beth, and Benjamin deserved better

#the walking dead #my meme edit #my meme #twd #benjamin sutton #benjamin twd #henry sutton #enid rhee #carl grimes #beth greene #the wasted potential and storylines of twd characters #no I’m not still salty about how they left it with Benjamin and Henry #no I’m not sitting in a corner wrapped in a blanket crying my eyes out Nope that’s not me #*Sobs* in Carl Henry Enid Beth and Benjamin deserved better

[himbohargreeves]

truly it is poetic cinema for Diego to end up with the closest semblance of his own family when out of all the siblings he never once questioned the legitimacy of whether they were a real family or not.. the champion of team zero.. who will fight to the death over the fact that Grace is their MOM.. he loves this weird fucked up little family so so much and now he’s gonna have a baby with the love of his life and I’m sobbing over the fact that the guy who in s1e1 appeared initially to be the most abrasive and distant from his siblings ended up being the biggest family guy of all of them

#‘lila pregnancy is a bad storyline’ TO YOU he deserves this so so much they both do they’re gonna have a lil family #screaming crying ripping out my hair he’s gonna be so happy #this is stemmed from me thinking about Klaus and Five discussing what family is vs Diego they came to MY house and attacked my FAMILY #diego hargreeves #the umbrella academy #tua3