#pray for me though

[elialys]

Let me say this. I just finished rewatching Peter. Yesterday I somehow got through Jacksonville. I've never been this slow watching Fringe. I used to average 5 episodes a day during my previous rewatches, easy. Often a lot more. It was like a sport. "How fast can I get through the first half of season 4 hahaha!"

But it's been SIX YEARS. I hadn't let myself feel the fringe feels in 6 years. And it's hitting me all over again. Most of the time right now, I finish the episodes in tears, and I just sit there crying for five minutes, absorbing it all, because it's liked I've received an emotional punch to the gut.

I'M ONLY MIDWAY THROUGH SEASON 2

#im a fucking mess #but in a good way? #i love this fucking show so much??? #its so good and beautiful and flawed and glorious #pray for me though #fringe #fringe rewatch 2023

[neutron-stars-collision]

The bad news is that I’m absolutely beat and there’s still one day till the weekend.

Another bad news is that this Sunday we have parliamentary elections in Poland and it can either go very well or very bad and the uncertainty is killing me.

The good news is the next chapter of ‘Deadlines & Commitments’ is almost done and should be out tomorrow night or Saturday.

So… yay?

#pray for me though #Sunday is going to be intense over here #like depending on the results we’re either going to start rebuilding or continue the road to ruin #so you get it #personal bs

[emo-batboy]

A Wild Battinson (Social Media AU)

Part 43 (Masterlist)

(Part 44)

Me, to myself: I just think the series was better when I posted several times a week because the pacing felt more natural, and it translates better when people binge it.

Also Me, holding two jobs and a bat: If you try to post once a day again, I will disconnect your head from your shoulders—

@bruciemilf guess who’s back

Anyways, folks! :D So I'm thinking of a new upload schedule where I spend a bit preparing the next ten or so parts then post it all in two weeks? I think that would be fun (and much better for my creative process.)

I’ll be posting the next part very soon :) But it's going to be drastically different from what I've done before. Let’s see if anyone can guess why.

Yada yada don’t die LOVE Y’ALL

#also since I posted so much more I felt less guilty putting filler stuff in because you'd get more tomorrow #but NOW that feels like cheating because you waited a whole week (or three months whoopsie) even though when I look back at the older parts #-the filler bits were always the best #also the lore is just exhausting sometimes #I'm not writing the MCU here I need to calm down #I'm literally rereading my own series five times trying to think of more cute filler because that's CLEARLY what I'm missing #and pictures of him #I'm running out of pictures of Robert Pattinson it's finally happening #pray for me #a wild battinson #battinson #bruce wayne #batman #the batman 2022 #batman 2022 #the batman #dc universe #dc #battinson needs a hug #gotham #soft bruce wayne #gotham city #only in gotham #gothamite #social media au #social media

[a-sketchy]

fine, i’ll will her into existence myself

psst, full version here

#hamuko arisato #kotone shiomi #wip #my art #uh. i guess? i’m painting directly over the p3r minato battle outfit art #so it feels weird taking credit for it #but on the other hand i’ve spent like 6 hours on this so far #rendering is soooo fucking hard. not having to vibe out the forms of an anime face is nice though #i should do paintovers more often they’re real fun #god i don’t wanna do her fucking bow and hands. and legs and skirt. and naginata #fuck. pray for me #p3r

[thattheater-kid]

You know what’s wild about being a fictive? Missing your old life even though it was shitty because it’s a shittiness you were used to. The life you’re living now is a new kind of shitty that feels unpleasant in a different way.

#maybe it’s stupid to miss the life I had #it sucked #so much #I hated it actually #I prayed every night that I wouldn’t wake up the next morning and cried when I did #I’m still doing that tbh #this is a different kind of suck though #I want my old life back #those people were shitty but they were MY shitty people #maybe I just got used to the horrible conditions I was living in #and now I miss it even though it was horrible #just because it’s familiar to me #maybe it’s the difference between the physical discomfort I felt in my old life #vs the emotional discomfort I feel now #maybe I should talk to my therapist #or go to bed #did system #plural #plurality #actually plural #actually did #plural system #system things #dissociative system #fictive #fictives #fictive culture #system culture #plural culture

[lucabyte]

sorry loop if this looks gay to the viewers

#[deranged asexual artist voice] i can eroticise nulls in ways your mortal mind cannot begin to comprehend (i pick an appeal point and pray) #sifloop #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #siffrin #lucabyteart #HAVE I DRAWN IN THE SAME ARTSTYLE TWICE YET. GOD. WHY AM I LIKE THIS. WHAT IS THIS. WHERE AM I. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MOE BLOBS? ? #anyway. you guys thought the stupid chest star headcanon from my doodles was going away? nope. call me chekov baybeeee #jokes aside though this is sooooo tame. hope you all like it lol #also . loop body horror feetie pyjamas . my infinitely worse headcanon. there are NO DOGS here actually. SAD!

[sevinite]

honda and her future ex girlfriend pray-tell’s first encounter 🫶🏽❤️ it is so important to me that i get to go crazy with lighting at least once a year

#illustration #digital art #ttrpg oc #oc art #i do hope they get back together. i truly do. #our party hasn’t haven’t played about three weeks everybody pray for us #don’t gotta pray too hard for me though i will be joining another game soon to fill the void #yes i stole the name pray-tell from Pose bc i liked it sue me if you must #my art

[heartscrypt]

jamil viper cringe compilation ft other people i guess

#twst #twisted wonderland #jamil viper #ruggie bucchi #riddle rosehearts #ace trappola #kalim al asim #heartscribbles #jamil and ruggie arent praying on aces downfall. they're certainly betting on it though #they are best friends to me guys yall dont understand #the jamil with the electric fly racket is based off real events #there was a fly in my house i was cussing it out so loud like it could hear me

[pachirobi]

Agent 4 tries the grimace shake

Happy birthday grimace ^-^

#this is how I beg and pray that she appears in side order #even though I know she’ll get her shit rocked if she does #Nintendo please give my baby more love please thank you #Splatoon #Splatoon 3 #agent 4 #Splatoon side order #side order #arg… that be me art matey

[navnae]

Everyone talks about Eddie being a biter and how cute and sweet it is when does it to Steve, like every now in then Eddie would give Steve a little nibble on his cheek which makes him laugh.

Fair.

But what about Eddie biting Steve and having no filter whatsoever. Meaning that whenever he bites Steve he genuinely leaves a mark and it fucking hurts. The man has some chompers on him so it’s very likely that in the midst of him biting Steve that he’s just went ham at least once. Of course Eddie doesn’t mean to hurt Steve but now they have limits when it comes to the biting chaos.

#steddie #Eddie bites #like really hard #owie ouch ouch #poor Steve #I’m sorry #don’t get me started on when kas Eddie bites #Steve has to fight for his life #pray for him #they’re so cute though #I love them #couple goals #hmm #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #steddie headcanon #steddie hcs #steve x eddie #idk what else to tag #help lol #please #come on #manifesting #power #so cuuuute #lmaooooooo #that is so funny #wow #hmmmmm

[capriciouslyterminal]

Listen Jon Matteson’s first note on the line “I’m not a loser” in the titular song of Nerdy Prudes Must Die was worth the price of the digital ticket and was worth it again that shit’s staying with me.

If you haven’t seen the show on YouTube PLEASE do yourself a favor and let the note enter your mind and stay there. It’s haunted me since!

#nerdy prudes must die #team starkid #jon matteson #richie lipschitz #I can’t even finish the show tonight I’m too overwhelmed by my musical theater thoughts #maybe I should throw it all away and go into theater because god DAMN #just IIIIII’M NOT A LOSER!!!! #also Jon Matteson your begging for your life was…dare I say…kinda hot #in how hard it had me by the throat #als though #WHO WILL PRAY FOR ME? WHEN I’M GONE

[iscariotapologist]

#just curious :^] #i do occasionally but it always feels very intimate and audacious lmao so only sometimes #i don't go to church though i imagine if you do go to some kind of service you pray aloud much more regularly #you guys wouldn't believe the amount of polls i almost do on this blog but then overthink and don't post #me #poll

[tethered-heartstrings]

this will either be the best or worst thing I have ever consumed

#pray for me #i have hopes though.... some #the speaking clown #will update

[plan-3-tmars]

My Theory on Kazui's Parent's.

Q: Is there a meaning behind your name?

A: It's cause I'm the eldest son. It seems like my father was also wishing I'd be "a strong man."

The wording of Kazui's answer here really makes me think. We know that Kazui is strong. He defended Fuuta against Kotoko and even talks about having "never gone up against a woman [like her]" in his VD, implying that he has gotten into fights before (most likely at work - either in the field or in training.)

It seems like, to me, Kazui has parents with very traditional views. Kazui's father wishing that he would turn out to be "a strong man" could imply that he places value on the old-style gender roles in family or society in general. Yes he most likely thinks that being strong physically is important, but also being strong mentally. A 'normal' man who doesn't cry, doesn't show emotain. A man who provides for his family and sticks to tradition, simple as. A son who does what's expected of him - that kind of strong.

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I also think the way Kazui talks is linked to his family's old-school beliefs. Despite only being 39, Kazui always refers to himself as an "old man" and says things like "when your mature/older like me," etc. It's a bit odd, though it might be a cultural thing. Kazui does call himself immature though, so for a man who believes he has only grown up in terms of his age and not his mind, he puts an awful lot of weight on what it means to be an adult. Can you see where I'm going with this? Yup it's back to his strong man comment baby!!!

In that previous qoute Kazui says how his father was also wishing he'd be a strong man. I think the other person Kazui is referencing might very well be himself. I think if Kazui has been taught these old school gender-roles since he was a child, then he might hold alot of weight to them. He wouldn't know any different if that was all he heard about what it meant to be a man as a kid, and therefore wants to live up to that expectation his parents hold of him. He, however, quickly learns that he is not this way and internalises it as something being wrong with him, something that isn't normal that he must fix. Which brings me to my next point...

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I think that Kazui's family are more important to understanding his crime then we may think based on what's been shown to us so far, and I'd even go so far as to say that their beliefs might've been a very big reason/the reason on why Kazui felt the need to lie and marry Hinako.

If we take a situation where Kazui has very traditional parents who want him to grow up quickly, get a nice job and settle down young, it might make sense on why he felt obligated to marry Hinako. In Half he talks about how he's confused on why he doesn't feel happiness in their relationship, as "isn't this what happiness is?" I believe these ideas came from Kazui's parent's. That perhaps they unknowingly (or full knowingly) drilled the idea into his head that a perfect looking couple such as he and Hinako is the ultimate true love, the true happiness, and that he should follow in those steps if he wants to be happy and successful as it in turn will also make them happy and proud of him.

#i left out how this could tie so fucking well to the gay theory because thats theory ON theory speculation aka. a seperate post #(that i will probably rant about once we learn more about kazui's family) #but just know that i see that comment about him being an embarrassment to his family. #i see how growing up around old-school expectations of marriage and gender roles may lead to internalised homophobia. #i see the connections. in these two theories. #any ee way sorry this is late its still technically posted 'tomorrow' though so!! ♡ (its 11pm) #i have a maths test tmr pray for me. also if u have any other thoughts on this topic pls lmk i am so curious about his god damn family #i wanna learn more so badly #GOODNIGHT!! #milgram #kazui mukuhara #milgram theory

[infinitesimalvermin]

babe come over and listen to nine inch nails with me. babe please I'm not trying to flex on you babe please please I just like analogue technology I'm not flexing babe babe I'm not flexing babe. babe please. please

#my collection is actually not that great. ill get there someday though #i also have with teeth but i cant find the disk 😓😓 its in my dads cd case i think. pray for me #nin

[vatrocvet]

accipiter, accipitris (m.)

design of harrow hawkshaw by @/whisperingrockers

#detective grimoire #tangle tower #detective hawkshaw #harrow hawkshaw #alright so. i skipped school to finish this piece. and i stayed up till 5 am to finish it. Haha #it was supposed to have a custom frame done in gold but alas #these are 3 of my usual in one piece. FINALLY!!!! A TRYPTICH!!!! or however you spell it in English #also i read that accipiter is a name for a bandage that gets placed over THE NOSE in the shape of a hawk's claw.... #couldn't find any pictures though :/ #i hope the birds feel overwhelming. like they're weighing down on her despite her size. #they're meant to symbolize the weight or her persona. hiding her. sitting on her shoulder peering right through you #and they all have a notch on their beaks. or noses. for good measure #I'm just blabbering. Have this and pray for me #i have drawn something