#tagging this so people can tell me what THEY do cuz my current system is noooot working
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Hello! I hope you're having a good day!
So many people in my life seem to be going through something right now, and I just wanted to give you an opportunity to share anything you might be going through. Good or bad, as specific or as vague as you're comfortable with. Or feel free to ignore if you'd rather not. No pressure at all!
I hope things are going well for you! But if not, I'll be sending prayers your way if you're comfortable with that!
I am... not.
and i haven't for a long time
I'll preface this entire post with a warning: THIS IS A VENT POST
the only tags will be trigger warnings
I thinks i've said it once or twice, but I started school this year. This is my first year in college after taking a gap year and also telling everyon i wasnt gonna go. I know jack shit about what im doing and its fucking exhausting. Theres so many things that i feel like I should know but dont because all the college information given out in my highschool was geared toward the college in that town specifically, which is not the college im going to.
I've also moved. im entirely on my own, physically and financially. I just met with my job and am starting very soon which is not good because my sleep schedule is all wrong. I may be switching jobs soon, but i can't just quit becuase, like i said, im on my own.
and those are only the big two. lets speedrun this. my anxiety, my autism, i need new glasses, my feet hurt more than i think they should, im a system, my eating disorder, my aversions that make it hard to drink the water up here, the burnout, the exhaustion, executive dysfunction, i also likely have adhd which mean rsd. im touch starved and touch adverse
those are just what i can think of off the top of my head
but all of this had been leading to what might be a pretty nasty breakdown and soon.
im so fucking tired all the time and that makes it hard to draw, but thats one of my only ways to relax. i like playing mc, but i get bored easily and also i cant sit at my desk for long becuase it feels like my head is too heavy for my neck. it hurts. everything hurts and my job doesnt help me at fucking all.
i was able to draw tsob while dealing with most of my issues becuase all i had to worry about was work. looking at my current schedule, i can find the free time. the issue is using that freetime to draw and not just sleep or dissociate. finding home is very dear to me, but drawing it the way i am can be exhausting and i dont want to start hating it, so i just.. dont draw it most days
i stress constantly about how i appear on my blog becuase i want so badly to do this right. i want to be good at something, like, as a person, not just as an artist. but i hate myself too much to believe in any progress i make.
i know its the rsd mostly but i see groups and i feel gross. its not as bed now (any of you beans that have made it this far, ily /p) becuase i found a community i can actually interact with, but it still comes up, especially because i've moved away from all my irl friends and its so fucking hard for me to make them in the first place. like.. actual friends, not just people i can work with at school
if i keep going i'll probably talk myself in circles, so ill stop it here. theres a lot more but im not going to ramble about my suicidal, intrusive, or sh thoughts on this blog. this is a post to inform you guys of the state of mind im in. im lonely and sad and its all building up to a massive breakdown.
im not going to be leaving tumblr or giving up on my comic, but i probalby wont update as often as i did tsob. i just dont have the energy.
i also will probably post some of my traditional art cuz i gotta fill up a sketchbook for my animation class, so that also takes away from the time i use to draw digitally.
im so tired
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Spewart, how long have you been trans, if you don't mind me asking?
Spewart: "Um... that's a complicated question. It was a slow transition that lasted multiple years, and went by in stages. Uh... how do I explain it..."
"Well, it all started when I was around six or seven. We were in the foster care system for quite a while. At the time, we had just moved into a home, which had, of course, the four of us bunnies, and three boys the parents already adopted. Since Hariet and I were the only two girls, when we all played together, we pretended to be boys. Like... playing pretend. It was just a joke we had. But even when we moved out of that foster home, I still liked pretending to be "one of the boys." Whenever we played games or anything, I would have everyone call me Stewart. It became somewhat of a nick-name for me. Hariet didn't use her boy name much after we left that foster home, though..."
Hariet: "My nick-name was Fernando!" *Snickers*
Spewart: "Every time us kids would play any game together, I would use the name. Every. Single. Time. Even if it was just tag or something. One night, when I was maybe nine years old, I got an idea. I... never told anyone, because it sounded ridiculous, and I wasn't sure how to explain it... but I thought about it a lot. Then one night, I stayed up late with my foster parents, watching an adult TV show; I don't remember exactly what it was... but that night, I learned a new word. "Transgender.""
"Once I knew the word, I began doing some research in my free time. I still didn't tell anyone... but I had continued thinking about it for years. I...... I knew that this was what I wanted. Soon, we moved to a different foster home, which was on Yoshi's Island. Eventually, I built up my courage, gathered my family, and I told them. I wanted to be male. It was one of the most... tricky and nerve-racking things to explain in my life... but thankfully, my siblings were completely supportive of me, and my foster parents were perfectly fine with that! So-"
Topper: "-Something you should know about Yoshi's Island! It has a very low population, very low amounts of authorities, and VERY low legal ages for stuff, if any at all. A ton of kids will go there to "legally" do dumb stuff. Legal drinking age? 13. Age to drive? 9. Age of consent? 11. Age to buy tobacco products? There is none! Age to-"
Rango: "AS SPEWART WAS SAYING!!!"
Topper: "Oh, right, sorry to interrupt!"
Spewart: "It's okay! Um... Topper is right. Very low legal ages. The minimum age to get surgeries, extreme medical procedures, and other stuff like that is ten. I was twelve at the time. So... a few weeks later, I got my phalloplasty done."
Hariet: "Some people might not know what that means. Can you explain it, just in case?" (:3)
Spewart: "Uhhh...... I got my genital surgery done......" *Flustered*
Hariet: "Okay, perfect, carry on!!"
Spewart: "Um... anyways... just one year after my... ahem... surgery... we moved out of that foster family, and came into our current home, with our aunt, Madame Broode. I was very nervous seeing her again, since the last time I saw her was WAY before any of my surgeries n' stuff. But luckily, she was also super supportive and glad about it. Only two years after that, I got my top surgery done!"
Hariet: "Which means??"
Spewart: "Um... breast tissue was removed, so my chest is more flat and masculine looking. That's what the scars are from."
Rango: "Tell them how you chose your name!!!"
Spewart: "Oh yeah, um... well, when I told my past foster parents that I wanted to be male, they asked me what I wanted to be called. I thought for a long time, unsure, when Hariet suggested my nick-name from when I was a child! Stewart! So that's what I was called for a couple years. Then one day, I uh... accidentally vomited onto Topper, due to my CVS... and he said-"
Topper: ""We should call you 'Spewart' 'cuz you're always friggin' spewing puke everywhere!!""
Spewart: "So he called me that for the rest of the day. But... I actually kinda liked it! It has a nice ring to it... it's unique, and funny. So... I asked Hariet and Rango to call me that, too. I've been going by Spewart longer than Stewart... ha ha..."
Topper: "I can't believe I teased you, and you STOLE my idea, and made it your identity!!! Ridiculous..."
Spewart: *Snickers* "Well... that's how I became Trans! There's... not really a specific age, like I said, but more like a time period... and... even though it took a while to get like this... I'm happy with the end result!"
Hariet: "And we are, too!" *Hugs Spewart*
Topper & Rango: *Hug Spewart, as well*
Spewart: "Awww, you guys!" *Blushes*
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Idk what this is but here's some liushen(ish... hopefully more than ish)
read it on the AO3 here
by Idk_but_ANIME111
This is my first work please be nice Also, I wrote this with ChatGPT (as LQG) cuz I don't have energy for more than 2 people (SY and I are taking that energy)
We’ll just have some tea! Or...you wanna play a game? I know a fun one to get to know each other better! It's called truth or dare! Of course, you don't technically have to tell the truth. But there's an agreement between the players to follow the rules and tell the truth.
We can enjoy a cup of tea and engage in conversation, but I'm not certain if truth or dare is the best game for our current situation. We are cultivators, so, it's important to maintain a level of dignity and composure. Let's get to know each other through genuine conversation instead. That way, we can foster a better understanding between us without compromising our principles.
That's no fun though! Plus it's easier for me to really open up in a game... less awkward. But! If that's what you want we can do that!
*Considers Shen Yuan's words* Very well, Shen Yuan. We can play truth or dare. But, let's establish some ground rules. We will answer truthfully. Dares will be kept within reasonable boundaries. Let's proceed with respect and mutual understanding.
Words: 3681, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English
Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Categories: M/M
Characters: Liǔ Qīnggē, Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū
Relationships: Liǔ Qīnggē/Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū
Additional Tags: Mentioned SQH, slight mention of uncomfortable situations, Like I mention it without explaining it once and probably wont bring it up ever again, Tags May Change, Other Additional Tags to Be Added
read it on the AO3 here
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I was wondering if you'd consider doing a Hotch x plus size reader? Totally fine if you're not up for it! I have this idea where the reader is a tech person like Penelope & she's around the same age. On a number of occasions she'll stay later to finish her work and it's only her & Hotch left. So she starts this cute little friendship where she'll make him coffee before she leaves. That turns into a crush, then she begins to avoiding him cuz she's shy, then he confronts her saying her likes her.
Late Nights
Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x PLUS!Reader
Warnings: None
WOWWW this is a long one hope you guys enjoy it 🤗💜
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“You know, working this late should be against the law for single parents” walking in Hotch’s office I shut the door behind me
“You’re working late again?” he looked up from the file on his desk smiling at me
“My stupid systems chose today of all days to act up, I had to upgrade the software and all the fun stuff” placing the extra coffee cup on his desk I plopped down in the chair opposite me
“It’s taking a while to get back online but hopefully I’ll be out of here in the next hour or so”
For the past couple weeks Hotch had been working late nights and I thought that I’d stay back also in case he needed someone to talk too. As a profiler he sees and deals with a lot of gruesome things that would keep a normal person up all night. At first it was innocent, I’d pop in to check in on him to distract him for a bit or make him his coffee when he insists on staying in the office later than usual but as we grew closer he started opening up more to me. He started talking about the things they saw and did on the case the team had worked on and then we started talking more about Jack and how he’s doing at school, more personal topics
“I know I’m not the most open when it comes to expressing feelings but I just want to say thank you” Aaron took a sip of his coffee before placing the cup down, eyes glued to my frame
“What are you thanking me for?” he smiled and I couldn’t help but swoon a bit. Aaron doesn’t smile much or show us his soft side so it’s nice to see him this relaxed around me
“For being a friend, for working late nights with me and all the coffee” my stomach fluttered as he went on
“The coffee is good” chuckling I brought my cup to my lips and took a sip in order to help hide the blush that heated up my cheeks
“It is, oh I forgot to ask you, Jack has a soccer game this weekend and he insisted that I asked you to be there” he fiddled with his fingers waiting for my reaction
“Of course, I’ll be there”
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“Of course, I’ll be there. That’s what I told him, oh God what if I’m reading into this too much”
I’m currently pacing the floor of Penelope’s bat cave as we waited for the coroner’s report to come in. My phone buzzed for the tenth time today, looking down at the screen I sighed letting it go to voicemail
“Hotch again? You know he doesn’t smile nor opens up so easily to anyone besides you, I wouldn’t be surprised if he likes you” Penelope got cut off by the ringing phone on her desk
“Speak and be heard oh mighty one”
“Garcia I need you to dig deeper into our victims background” Hotch’s voice filled the room and I immediately sat down
“Sure, anything specific I’m looking for sir?” she started tapping away at her keyboard doing exactly what he said
“We need to find the connection between all three of them”
“Okay sir, I’ll call you back when I have something”
“Penelope wait, don’t hang up” she paused with her finger over the end button looking over at me
“Is Y/N with you?” I frantically motioned for her to say no and thankfully she caught on
“No sir, want me to pass on a message?”
“No, no, uh thanks Garcia” he sounded so defeated and that only made me feel even more guilty. For the past three days I’ve been avoiding Aaron for as much as I could ever since the night in his office, I realized that I was setting myself up for heartbreak. The call ended and she glared at me
“You are hurting that man”
“I know and I feel terrible but I need to put some distance between the both of us”
“He’s in Nevada with the team right now how much more distance do you want?” she deadpanned looking me in the eyes
“It’s complicated alright”
“It really isn’t” she turned back to her set and started working on the case ending our conversation
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“Welcome back my heroes!”
Garcia held a box of cupcakes up welcoming the team back as they stepped off the elevator. I stood a few feet behind her smiling at them as they grabbed a cake and filled into the bullpen. I was about to follow behind them when a hand held on to my wrist keeping me in place
“Is everything alright?”
Aaron
“Yeah, everything’s fine, why would they be?” I started rambling removing my hand from his hold, avoiding his gaze
“You say that but I don’t believe you, let’s talk in my office” he opened the door for me and we headed straight to his office. I saw Penelope shoot me a small smile before I entered the room. I took a seat on the sofa as he moved to his desk.
Aaron dropped his go bag on his desk and removed his jacket before joining me on the sofa. He stared into my eyes trying to get a sense of what’s going on, profiling me
“Is there a reason why you’ve been avoiding me?”
“I haven’t been avoiding you sir” I couldn’t help but pick at my fingernails as nervousness washed over me
“Sir? Y/N, it’s just the two of us and yes, you haven’t even returned any of my calls or texts” I wrecked my brain trying to come up with an excuse but I couldn’t
“I know that there isn’t any other way to say this but, the other night when we were in here I had to tell you something but I didn’t know how you were going to take it, I still don’t-” he rambled scratching the back of his neck
“Aaron” placing my hand on his knee I cut him off, he took my small hand in his gently brushing the back of my hand using his thumb
“I like you” he blurted and I froze, my heartrate sped up the longer we sat here staring at each other
Say something idiot!
“Why me?”
Dear God, you should’ve stayed quiet
“What do you mean why you?”
“I’m not your type Aaron”
“What’s my type then?”
“Someone like Emily, brave, courageous, can actually shoot to save herself, skinny, gorgeous” I mumbled the last two hoping he didn’t hear them but he did
“You don’t have to be skinny to be gorgeous and besides, you are perfect, you’re funny, sweet, caring, determined, charismatic, I could go on” he smiled giving my hand a gentle squeeze as we held each other’s gaze
“Most importantly, you make me feel safe” my breathing hitched as we sat here, neither one of us wanting to break the moment
“I like you too Aaron”
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The referee blew the whistle ending the soccer match and Jack jumped with glee with his team as they were the winners. I cheered and clapped happy for the little boy who scored one of the winning goals as he ran directly to his father. Smiling I made my way over to the Hotchner boys and Jack broke free from Aaron’s arms and rushed over to me
“Good job buddy, you did so great!” wrapping my arms around the child I kissed the top of his head
“Did you see me score?” he pulled back enough to look up at me and I cupped his flushed cheeks in my palms
“I did and that was an excellent bicycle kick”
“Jack!” one of his teammates called him over for a group photo and he ran off. A pair of arms snaked around my waist pulling me flush against the owner, Aaron
“You did great with them” spinning around I wrapped my arms around his middle
“I did the best I could with a group of ten year olds”
“Thanks for coming it means a lot to me and I know it does to him too”
“No need to thank me, I had a good time listening to chatty Cathy to your left go on about how hot you look in those shorts” he laughed pulling me in closer to him
“Join us for dinner tonight, it’s been a while since he’s seen you and it’ll be good to have you around more”
“Sounds like a plan” pushing myself upwards I kissed him and he immediately responded. I swear I was about to explode from the electricity that flowed through my body from having his lips on mine
We were so wrapped up in our moment that we had forgotten about the crowd of people that surrounded us until they started wolf whistling and cheering us on. Breaking apart my face became heated from the blush that overtook my cheeks. Aaron looked down at me with a boyish grin clearly enjoying the moment
“How’s that for our first kiss?”
“Not quite what I was expecting”
“C’mon let’s head back to my place” taking my hand in his he called out to his son and we headed to his car. The both of them quickly fell into conversation and I must admit, seeing Hotch domesticated has got to be the hottest thing ever
The bond that these two have is very special and I can’t wait to share more moments like this with them
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Incoming sad rant about the spn ending. Don't read if you're not interested in reading something like that, but I literally don't know anyone in real life I can talk about this with, and I really need an outlet:
Sometimes I can put the way SPN ended out of my head and think "it's just a stupid show. I don't have to accept the finale, and the writers/network are wrong." But other times I just get gripped with really intense sadness at the disrespect that was done to my favorite characters. To the point where I'll sit still for hours a day, just wallowing in it. It ruins my whole day and mood. And then I think to myself "I'll just find some other stories that end better!" but then I get sad again, cuz I don't think I will ever love other characters as much as I love Dean and Cas, and then I spiral again thinking about all the potential this unique beautiful love story had, and how we're never going to get the closure we deserve.
I really hate that after all this time, I'm a grown ass adult getting sad over fictional characters. I know it's not that trivial, but I sometimes wish it was so I could get over it 😞
Hi hi, and first of all *socially distanced internet hugs* I’m sorry you don’t have an outlet, but you’re always welcome to chat with me (if you come off anon we can talk privately if you want. My DM’s are always open, even when it takes me a bit to reply. no one should have to feel alone in this.)
I’m actually gonna start at the bottom of your message and work my way up, because I also, as a grown-ass adult, get sad over fictional characters. And I need to emphasize that this is the *point* of fiction. A well-written and developed fictional character is *indistinguishable in our minds from an actual real human being.* The way we react to them *feels exactly the same to our brains and bodies* as how we react to real people, and that’s a testament to just how well developed Dean and Cas were in canon.
I am not a young person. I have engaged with a lot of media over my life, and have *never* felt this strongly about fictional characters before, so I understand what you mean when you struggle to think about finding another story that ended better, or struggle to think about finding other characters you might become this attached to or experience this sort of emotional investment in. And I think there is another factor you didn’t consider there: The vast majority of other media I have engaged with, I was able to relate to on a level of “oh that’s nice for them” or “wow that sucks for them.” I have never, and possibly never will again, feel so utterly invested in fictional characters, to the point where it affects my real life as much as Supernatural has. Period.
I will likely never experience *literal physical lovesickness* over two fictional characters ever again. I hadn’t ever experienced it *in my own real life* before, and yet 15.18 triggered all those symptoms in me. As an aromantic person, this was pretty shocking to me. It also says a lot about just how real these characters feel to us, and how important they have become to us. They make us feel this! This is not an accident. It’s *incredibly difficult* to create fictional characters with this range and depth of emotional connection, and yet here we are.
I think that’s the biggest evidence possibly to present in defense of the statement that THIS IS NOT JUST SOME STUPID SHOW.
Other evidence: this fandom, still going strong after 15 years. Look at every SPN convention for proof. Look at AO3, where there are more posted stories about Dean and Cas than literally any other pairing on the planet (by a not-small margin, too). If that isn’t enough evidence, we have fanart to look at as well. Look through @theroadsofararchive where at the time of this posting there are over 40,000 artworks catalogued, and more being added all the time. Same with @canonspngifs where you can search through through nearly 75,000 gifsets organized by an excellent tagging system and made by dedicated fans out of love for the thing. This is all proof that you are not alone, that so many of us care just as deeply about them as you do. Not even mentioning the people who have written hundreds of millions of words of meta, articles, and even masters theses and doctoral dissertations on Supernatural and the fandom. This is a unique thing, even within the larger fandom culture. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that your feelings for it are stupid or irrelevant or wrong.
But also don’t let anyone try to convince you that you must accept the finale as part of the story if you don’t want to. Don’t even let *yourself* believe that if you don’t want to. This show has done more to play with the themes of “what is reality” and “who gives a story meaning” and alternate universes and curses and djinn dreams to easily account for whatever the heck the finale was.
my current go-to theory: everything after Chuck’s defeat takes place in the Mockumentary Alternate Universe... it fits way too uncomfortably well... and then I just apply the fic I received in a cosmic transmission from the actual supernatural universe wrote detailing the events of what *I* hoped would transpire afterward. I know this doesn’t work for everyone, but it works for me, mostly because it *has* to. It means far too much to me not to.
You are not alone in having invested yourself into this story, and these characters. Your feelings about them are not wrong or stupid or frivolous. And the proof is everyone else who feels the same exact way, who connected to this story (and to each other through this story), and whose lives have been forever altered through this journey together. The fact that Dabb turned out to have been Chuck Junior and couldn’t see (or was prevented from showing us) what Team Free Will would’ve chosen to do with that after defeating their original creator just stands to prove to me that the finale can’t possibly be The Truth, you know?
I don’t know if any of this will help you, or provide you some small comfort right now, but maybe it will eventually. We’re all processing the loss of the show and the abject failure of story that was the finale in different ways, and I’m sure our emotional reactions will shift over time. It was just A Lot to process all in the span of a few incredibly emotional weeks-- not even mentioning how all of that emotional response was compounded by the american elections and surrounding nonsense, the general stress of enduring a global pandemic and all that entails, and *waves hands around broadly at everything else contributing to the trauma occurring in the collective of humankind right now.* We’ve all been emotionally compromised, so be kind to yourself in how you feel you’re coping with it all.
And know that no matter what, you are not alone in how you’re feeling. The grief is real, and our brains don’t care if it’s felt for fictional characters or real people. This was honestly a once in a lifetime experience for a lot of us, and not even the wtf of the finale can kill it for us if we don’t let it. I reject that particular piece of rusty rebar and choose to believe in a just and narratively coherent resolution. To do anything less feels like dishonoring the story and characters who have drawn me in and made me feel so much for them over the years. If the story itself couldn’t honor them properly, then I can choose to do so myself.
<3
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thanks for the tag @bringingglory !
1. name/nickname: maya
2. gender: she/her
3. star sign: cancer
4. height: 4′11 lol
5. time: 1:17pm or EST
6. birthday: July 14, 2002
7. favorite bands/groups: uuhh idk ill listen to the ABBA discography every so often. also Fun. and Queen but thats mostly for the lead singers
8. favorite solo artist: bill wurtz, louie zong, cavetown, zaz, watsky, stromae
9. song stuck in my head: im currently listening to he 10 hours it do be like that sometimes. i am approaching 7 hours (i took like a day long break though)
10. last movie: i think it was ghost in the shell? strange movie i should probably watch it again cuz honestly i have no idea what happened
11. last show: wizards of arcadia! I’ve been watching all of the arcadia shows with my sister and we’re almost done now hehe they’re fun
12. when did i create this blog: spring 2016
13. what do i post: “anything I find interesting, important, funny, or nice.” (from my about)
14. last thing googled: Fun. (i was making sure they were a band and not a solo artist LMFAO)
15. other blogs: a billion event blogs and a billion more potential event blogs and also some side fandom blogs ive abandoned and i also have a writeblr i use to reblog resources and my portfolio blog i havent posted anything on because i never promote the shit i do on social media. oh and my liveblog that i abandoned. maybe one day ill go back to that
16. do i get asks: not unless i do an ask game or occasionally when angel memes me
17. why did i choose this url: i used to make a lot of “im already dead” jokes and call myself a ghost, hence ghostmaya. i dont do that anymore but i do still like ghosts
18. following: 1126. hm i should probably do a spring cleaning soon
19. followers: 638 although im pretty sure only like 20 of you actually interact with my blog
20. average hours of sleep: idk 5 probably
21. lucky number: 84
22. instruments: i can play violin but not very well
23. what am i wearing: sweater and sweatpants baybee B)
24. dream job: probably a director of an animated show or something like that? just being in a position where i can work with a bunch of likeminded people to tell a cool story without being censoured
25. dream trip: either japan or india
26. favorite food: as a person with adhd it changes like every other week but my grandma’s chicken soup is always up there
27. nationality: canadian
28. favorite song: bohemian rhapsody - lots of good memories tied to that song
29. last book read: im going to count Life to Noah Vale aka a serialized novel one of my favourite authors is publishing on their patreon - it’s really good you should check it out!! https://www.patreon.com/Nikanaiko/membership
30. three fictional universes you’d like to live in: i said this the last time i did this and ill say it again, the mlp:fim universe fucks and i’d love to be a unicorn pony stfu and other than that probably atla or the grishaverse but like not during wartime just for the magic systems lol
tagging @peachie5000 @qutiepai @leeshuh @raq-attaq @omgchyeahplease if u want!
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this is a collection of theories as to who I think Tozen's ( @italian-pastry ‘s creation) parents are; no I don't have to make sense thanks (its a lot)
Kiribaku Family:
Tozen is a runaway from the Kiribaku family, [runaway because he's on his own page] due to the red hair and the inherited instinct to dye his hair red I guess; he also looks like he has that kind of bakugou "I'm better than you" face. Also, @Pizzilosnacks said in a retweet that Tozen, Mieko (kiribaku fam), Toshi (tododeku fam), and Arisu (tetsukendou fam) are all part of the same friend group, which could help the theory that Tozen and Meiko are related cuz they're introduced to the same people (being the same age). P-dizzle is also very partial to Kiribaku in general, what's stopping the influx of kids? I want to include this despite @Pizzilosnacks saying this ain't it; Mieko and Tozen look super similar and are the same age twins???? clones??? I would say he's manufactured to fight Mieko which is already insane but if they're part of the same friend group he's probably friendly to them, at least in the beginning. And I think integrating yourself into a friend group while being a killbot comes after the redemption arc not before, and we don't even know Tozen's anything- so the friend group lore has got to be something from the past or present, probably past tho as he has a serious case of villain vibes. Anyway,
Shigaraki x Dabi
HEAR ME OUT! Shiggy's got red eyes, yes? and this is basically all I'm basing these theories off of. Ipso-facto; this is valid. Furthermore, both Dabi and Shigaraki dye their hair, genetic trauma is a thing! Also, the piercings on Tozen's lips and nose could be a clue or tribute to Dabi (btw holy shit Dabi backward is "I Bad") "Tozen" could be taken from the word Tōzen in Japanese which means of course and deservedly; this word is used as a title for the Tozen Japanese labor union founded in 2010, 7 years from his birth year, and he has a seven on his shirt. Period. (the seven is probably just a wrinkle tho, if it weren't then Ezumo would be wearing an S) Assuming the labor union thing is important, this could be a clue to his parents fighting against the current hero system for their perceived justice. [as P-pop is recorded putting thought into the names of characters] Flaws in this theory include the issue of the friend group; how would he be good friends with the gang while also being a part of this villain league? It would be outlandish to imagine a world where the Pro Heros responsible for Mieko, Arisu, and Toshi aren't aware of the parents of Tozen. Maybe Shiggy and Dabi are reformed? or Tozen has escaped them, or they're dead ahahahaha h a. Or! Shiggy and Dabi go into elaborate disguises for each parent gathering.
Tokoyami
Red eyes baby. The piercings and choker are reminiscent of Tokoyami's style, and Tozen's debut was in the era when P-sauce was only posting 1-A families (excluding Shinsou lmaooo) The main issue with this I'd say would be the inherent desire to draw bird features on an OC, and the fact that Tozen has NOTHING alluding to bird really puts a wrench in this. But look at Tokoyami's history! He was a bird and Became human, maybe through breeding his quirk advanced and Tozen was fully-fledged. Now I'm realizing though to make this possible Tokoyami probably had to fuck a bird. So,
Aizawa:
Yes, literally just because of the eyes. But! Consider this, the "Doesn't Matter". What does "Doesn't Matter" mean? How could the biggest mystery here not matter? Maybe it's referencing his parents, how they don't matter in relation to him, he is his own person. (runaway from kiribaku, descendant of evil shigabi) Maybe, it's referencing his genetic makeup; on how it doesn't matter how a bird could have sex with a bird and create an edgy human; or MAYBE. It's a clue, and a tribute, to the parent alone. What questions do you have when looking at Tozen? The whole premise around these fan kids ARE the parents. We can know nothing about Tozen without his genetic makeup being revealed. So WHAT does the visionary P-pastry do? Clue us into the parent, with huge lettering right in front of our eyes; "Doesn't Matter". That's got Aizawa written aaaaall over it baby he's suuuper depressed. The main issue with this is that I'm spewing bullshit; and the age range is all wrong. It'd definitely go against Aizawa's character to not only have a kid but to be friendly with his students outside of class; he's not even friendly inside of class. Tozen could also be adopted, which if so; hswhdajhdwiasjdhewuajk
Here's my general breakdown; The parents should be around the same ages as the parents of Toshi, Mieko, and Arisu- which would make the parent most likely part of UA. P-Pee pays attention to detail with eyes and names a lot, so 1. RED EYES HAS TO HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT ITS GOTTA BE DONT TELL ME HE'S WEARING CONTACTS OR CAN SHAPESHIFT and 2. I didn't really google Tozen a whole lot so idk maybe somewhere it means child of the bird.
There is a game-changer though and that's introduced here in the tags, OCS!!! that could create the perfect character for every requirement and would be impossible to predict; either way this was pog thank you for your time.
#the nicknames got increasingly more offensive i promise i was going for humor#mha fankids#i wanna drawwwwwwwwww shit#sorry for @ing you three times :D
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The Support System (Ch:2)
SUMMARY: The Avengers have managed to collect all the infinity stones across the universe, and are currently keeping them in far corners of the world, only for research and to see if they can improve the planet and its people. Reader is a researcher with Tony Stark and Bruce Banner, as well as a field agent. Loki is currently serving time for his actions in New York City in 2012.
A/N: Thank you for the love on the first chapter! You can find the same on AO3, if you prefer that. Let me know if you like this and I’ll keep posting more :) Also, should I start a tag list for this? I’m still navigating this platform, and I see many fic writers having a tag list for their fics. Anyway, enjoy!
Chapter: 2/?
Warnings: N/A
Audience: general.
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Tony likes to hand out the agendas of the day to the Avengers personally. He jogs around the tower with a stack of papers, wearing his tracksuit and headphones, a habit Pepper encouraged, since he never actually leaves his lab to do anything physical.
He gently opens the door and places the sheet on a table placed right next to the door. That table is specifically for the agendas. You once threw your keys on it and Tony passive aggressively made a point of picking up your keys and placing them on the floor to place his sheet.
You’re still in bed with Loki, who is facing away from you and snoring lightly. Tony opens the door to place the sheet and notices two heads instead of one in your bed. He moves closer to see Loki, widens his eyes, and promptly runs out.
‘What?’ Nat asks, running past Tony, then stopping.
‘Loki!’
‘In her room!?’
‘Yes!’
‘I…’ Nat is trying to peer in through the crack Tony left open. ‘Are you sure!?’
‘Do YOU want to look?’
‘No!’ Nat nearly shouts.
Tony shuts the door. ‘I’ll talk to her about it later’.
‘Good, I’m not going to’ Nat says, then places her headphones back and continues running.
xx
Around 8 AM, after Loki has left your room, you change into your field uniform and walk to the kitchen. The rest of the Avengers, including Loki, are in there, and the cook is making bacon and eggs.
‘Hi Samantha’ you greet the cook. She smiles back at you. You pour yourself a cup of coffee and Tony grabs your arm, making you nearly spill the coffee.
‘Hey man!’ you yell.
‘Please tell me you aren’t sleeping with Loki’ Tony hisses.
‘What… no! I’m not, let go of my arm!’
Tony lets go. ‘I saw him in your bed’.
‘Yeah, we just had a heart to heart about our past and fell asleep, it’s no big deal’.
He narrows his eyes at you. ‘You confided in Loki about your past?’
‘Well, him more than me’.
‘Uhuh’.
You raise an eyebrow at Tony. ‘It’s fine’ you assure him. He doesn’t believe you, which is clear in his face, but walks back to the dining table.
You grab a plate for yourself and get some fruit, eggs and bread. You take your seat at the table and join in on the conversation everyone’s having.
xx
‘Right’ you announce, walking into the lab with Bruce and Tony. ‘TODAY is the day we speak to Harry’.
‘Harry?’ Tony asks.
‘Yeah. The Reality Gem’.
‘You named the Reality Gem “Harry”?’ Bruce asks.
‘Yes. You know, the redheaded prince of England. And the Reality gem is Red’ you grin, proud of your name. They roll their eyes but laugh, and go to their respective workstations.
Doctor Strange had found a way to speak to the Time Stone, and provided everything he could for you to be able to do the same with the Reality stone. He had done everything save for actually coming down the lab, which he couldn’t because he had to be at the Sanctum Sanctorum. But you had gone through every single paper he sent, every theory you talked over, and every idea you shared. After a while, it was clear that the code to cracking all the stones wasn’t the same, and so you’d have to start from scratch for every stone.
Frustrating as it was, you did love a challenge.
‘Maybe we should just build a body around it like we did for Vision and let it literally speak to us’ you say, frustrated, a few hours later.
‘We did consider that. We even have the technology for it, but we can’t have six people walking around with stones in their heads’ Tony says.
‘Oh, is THAT the problem?’ you chuckle. ‘Not the insane amount of power and resources it would take, not to mention how the costs outweigh the benefits’.
‘She’s right, it took Thor to open the cradle last time’. Bruce says. ‘And if we give the stones a body, it could do anything’.
‘At least the stones restrict movement’ you say.
‘I don’t think the lack of a body would stop the stones’ Tony says. ‘Besides. Strange got his to talk while it still sits in that necklace, so I’m sure we can work it out. Did you read through the papers he sent?’
‘I did’ you say. ‘Twice over, made some notes if you’d like to see’ you project the contents of your laptop onto a hologram before Tony. ‘We’ve tried it the few ways Strange suggested, but what he actually did is very particular to the Time Stone’.
‘Series of time loops and manipulations in the mirror dimension’ Tony reads. ‘We can’t do that, of course, we don’t even know how to use it’.
‘Can’t we take the reality stone into the mirror dimension?’ Bruce asks.
‘What then?’ you ask. ‘It was purely an accident that Stephen even managed to speak to the stone. He managed to reverse and study his actions somehow to write a paper’.
‘So we’re stuck in the lab, then’ Tony sighs, and turns to walk to his table.
‘Unless you just want to take it to the mirror dimension and just mess around with it’ you say, half-joking.
Tony stops in his tracks. He promptly turns back to face you. You see the look on his face and push the hologram aside. ‘Tony, you know I love a mystery, but I wouldn’t advice getting stuck in the mirror dimension with an Infinity Stone unless you REALLY know what you’re doing’.
‘Strange did it’ he scoffs.
‘Strange knows what he’s doing’ you say.
‘Are you saying Strange is smarter than I am!?’ Tony demands.
Oh dear.
‘I’m saying he knows more about this’ you walk back to your computer and pull up another paper he sent you and project it to a hologram. ‘Read that’ you highlight a line using your fingers. ‘The mirror dimension is linked to the dark dimension, playing around with an Infinity Stone without understanding how to use it could not only trap you in the mirror dimension, it could draw you into the dark dimension’ you swipe the hologram away. ‘And I hate to bring this up, but after New York, this should be the last thing you throw yourself into’.
Tony sighs. ‘You’re right, kid’.
You close the holograms and walk back to your desk. Tony’s still standing in the same spot though. You sit down and pull yourself close to the desk.
‘You’re smart’ Tony declares.
You smile at him.
‘So I can’t understand why the hell you’d spend the night with Loki’.
‘You did what?’ Bruce shouted.
You glare at Tony. ‘THANKS’.
‘YOU SLEPT WITH LOKI!?’ Bruce’s voice is unnaturally high pitched.
‘I did no such thing, we were talking and fell asleep!’ you defend yourself. ‘Can we get back to the stones’.
‘Just…’ Tony leans over your table. ‘Promise me you won’t let this be a thing, he’s dangerous’.
‘Hey, I can take care of myself. And he’s more like you than you think’.
‘I take offense to that’ Tony says, without actually sounding or looking offended.
‘You don’t like being compared to a God?’ you ask teasingly.
Tony smirks. ‘You got me. I’m going back to work’ he finally turns away to sit at his desk. The three of you continue working.
xx
At last. The training room. You walk into the roomy glass cage that has an arsenal of knives, swords, spears, guns, and other alien weaponry lining the wall. You feel at home.
‘What we feeling like today?’ Natasha’s voice comes up behind you.
‘I’m feeling the katanas’ you say, your hands running over the colourful handles of the katanas.
Nat takes a pair for herself, and you take yours. ‘Hand to hand first’ Nat says. As is usual. You place the katanas in the harness strapped to your back and take your fighting stance.
Nat goes to punch you and you block it. Her other hand comes to chop at your neck, which you also manage to block by holding her wrist, then flipping her over so she lands on her back.
‘At least give me a challenge’ you tease.
‘Just getting your ego up so I can bring it crashing down’ she smiles, as she gets up. You know she’s not lying.
‘You’re terribly mean’ you say. You take your fighting stance once again.
Two hours later, after your session with Natasha ends, you place the Katanas back on the wall. ‘Can I take these on the extraction mission?’
‘You can take anything you want. Just don’t take too much, we don’t want to be weighed down’.
‘Right’ you look at the katanas. They really are gorgeous. ‘Where did we get these?’
‘They used to be Lady Sif’s. She left them with S. H. I. E. L. D, and S. H. I. E. L. D gave it to Tony’.
You touch the handles again, which has some Norse story etched on it in gold and red tones. ‘They’re beautiful’.
‘They are’ Natasha agrees, unhooking her harness and placing it on the wall as well. ‘Do you know the story?’
You nod. You’ve grown up reading stories of Greek and Norse myths. ‘This scene is Odin stealing poetry from the Giants and flying back to Asgard with it’ you point at something in the handle. ‘That’s earth. As Odin was flying over Earth, some of the poetry spilled here, which is how we have the art form’.
You stare at the handle a while longer.
‘Do you have a thing going on with Loki?’ Natasha asks.
‘What! No! How many people has Tony told?’
‘Just me. I happened to pass by when he left your agenda’.
‘Bruce knows too’.
‘Bruce!? Why?’
‘Cuz Tony can’t shut up’ you say.
‘Does it bother you?’
‘Him not shutting up or people knowing about it?’
‘The second one’.
‘I don’t really care’ you shrug, knowing that it was inevitable, ‘But I know how silly rumours can affect people, so I wish people would stop spinning it like that for Loki’s sake’.
‘Right’ she nods, understanding. ‘I’ll make sure no one else knows’.
‘Thanks Nat’ you smile at her. ‘I have to shower and go back to the lab. Bye!’
‘Bye!’
xx
‘We’ve made progress!’ Tony yells at you as you walk back in.
‘That’s excellent!’ you know Tony is absolutely dying to tell you what he uncovered, but you aren’t going to give him the satisfaction of telling you immediately for outing your little sleepover to Bruce. ‘But you should eat first’.
‘Yeah yeah, listen to this, so Bruce said…’
‘No, I literally meant eat first, talk later’.
Tony looks like you’ve just slapped him. ‘It’ll take a second’.
‘I won’t hear it until you’ve had something to eat’ you unwrap the falafels and shawarmas you got from the food truck downstairs.
He glares at you, grabs a falafel, takes the smallest bite and sets it back down again. ‘Now…’
‘Actually, I could eat too’ Bruce walks over to grab himself a shawarma, and proceeds to open the wrapper very, very slowly.
You grin at Tony. Understanding that there really is no way you will listen, he sits down to eat a proper meal.
After throwing away the wrappers, he comes and sits down next to you. ‘Bruce said it would be so funny if we got Vision to talk to it like it’s his cousin, and I got an idea’.
‘Okay?’
‘They’re family!’
‘Ohana’ you say, still chewing and looking at him with dead seriousness.
Tony glares at you again, the occasional eating noises from Bruce making you internally lose it.
‘As I was saying, we don’t have to use the same Time Stone method, but we don’t have to completely abandon it either’.
‘But they do vastly different things from each other, we even tried all the…’
‘Yes, but you haven’t tried combinations’ he runs to your laptop. ‘I was going through your notes; look at what you’ve written here’.
You read it: "So basically it’s like those old rotary phones. Strange ran the dial to 6, then 4, then 9, then 1, until it dialled a number and made a call."
‘I was really sleepy when I wrote that’ you say.
‘We can’t crack the stone, we have to learn to first use it, then connect with it’.
‘We’ve been over this, Tony, none of us know how…’
‘No, I won’t do it’.
You were fully ready to shoot Tony down, but damn, he decides to be reasonable!?
‘I was thinking we can just put Vision in the mirror dimension and ask him to use it in a combination of ways. See what clicks. I mean if anyone would know, it would be Vision, right? Maybe if there’s a way to speak to him while he is IN the mirror dimension, we can remotely control it’
‘I’ll have to ask Strange first’.
‘DO THAT’ Tony screams and Bruce jumps. ‘LET ME EAT MAN!’ he yells back.
You chuckle. ‘So… I'll email Strange then, shall I?’
‘Yes. And kid?’
You roll your eyes but smile at the endearment. ‘Yes?’
‘You did good. I couldn’t have done it without you’.
You take the laptop from Tony’s hands and sit down to write the email to Strange.
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#loki#loki x reader#loki x you#marvel fan fiction#avengers fandom#loki fanfic#loki fandom#tom hiddleston#marvel avengers#loki fluff
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OKAY MOO, I’M CURRENTLY READING UR FIC “Home” AND I’M— THE END OF THE FIRST PART WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. “he always comes home” -> IT’S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL CONTRAST TO THE BEGINNING!!! he gets lost in his OWN fields, and that’s saying something. however, despite that, the reader still being reassured (or as much as she can reassure herself) that he always comes home = he has the red string to BRING HIMSELF BACK TO THE READER = ALWAYS COMING HOME. I’M!!!! and i love the silly banter that opened the story. aLso HIS HESISTATION OVER TELLING THE READER THE JOB HE WAS ASSIGNED... BECAUSE HE WAS WORRIED ABT THE READER.... AKDKSKKSKS. the fact he didn’t accept the offer immediately DESPITE being so in love with the sea and waited for reader’s permission is such a SMALL thing, but when you describe his love for the sea as superior, that action shows he loves the reader even more and i just- SLKDKAKDKSK. i might be over-reading and i apologise if i do bUT DO COMMENT ON IT THANK U!! 🤩💜 - ava
u sent me these eons ago and i promise i wasnt ignoring you ive just been working like 10 hour days and i am Exhausted 😭😭 but all of these messages legitamately give me life, i am so incredibly grateful! <3 im so so glad you enjoyed this fic!! and you are NOT OVERREADING I LOVE TO SEE YOUR INSIGHTS!!!! it makes me fall back in love with the fic all over again! <3
i am SO glad that him always coming home comes through! because it gets kinda dire in the middle of the fic so i wanted there to be that hope at the back of your mind that knew he always came home. but i wanted you to be stressed about it still so :) and silly banter is my favourite part of writing this guy, i had so much fun with it alskdf.
and ok i love u, you got everything i was trying to do there <33 like i was struggling to find the balance between her reluctance and supportiveness. thats a fun (and tricky) thing about established relationship fics i find... theres that depth of understanding that can make the interactions more interesting, but so much of it is unspoken. it was a good challenge! so its so GOOD to hear that it vibes right hehe
THE WAY KUROO PLAYS WITH THE STRING!!! THAT WAS SUCH A FOND MOMENT OMG AKDKSKDK. and it’s so interesting that it appeared before kuroo even left 👀👀👀
she already missed him 🥺🥺 i originally had him tug on her hair and then i went!!! wait!!!! we can do better than that!!!!!!!!
READER IS LOST WITHOUT KUROOO!!!! AKDKSKSK and i also love the little addition where despite it being a POUT, she holds it close to her heart. with the context of their banters + that little scene, it just shows me how much each appreciate every ounce of the other party which makes me SO SO SO SOFT AKDJSKDKSK. and then hitting me with the scene where reader is eating a meal alone??? a punch in the gut. when she realised she’s alone I TOO remembered that kuroo is gone and that softness established in the previous scene is sUCKED OUT—ASKDKSKSKSK.
im just a little obsessed with the little things and gestures that make u fall in love with someone? like the specific way my friend twirls her pen while were in lectures, or how my dad has that one little smile when hes amused himself with his own joke... and for that to be a last lifeline for her to hold on to before he leaves :’))) I JUST LOVE EST RELATIONSHIP FICS OK?!
hehehe yes im sorry about that puch to the gut oops 😇 that was a scene i had super clear in my head before i started - the bright, bright string against the relative drab of the table and room.
i’m at the part where reader gets lost and let me tell u, the fact they have a WAY to communicate via string pulling alone is SO ENDEARING and just subtly hints they have been at this whole red string thing for AGES (or at least enough to form such an understanding). that’s ADORABLE and really strengthens the bonds they have together
yessssssssssss as soon as i thought of this idea i knew it had to be an established relationship. i have it in my brain they have been married maybe 2-3 years?? i am such a sucker for unspoken understanding relationships :’)
“You push hurriedly through the crowd, ducking between market stalls and wagons. There’s no string to follow, but you don’t need it to find him today.” THIS SENTENCE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL in the context of the entire story. and what a perfect way to describe/show the reader that it’s THE DAY. MOO, you’re really serving such great kuroo x reader stories please continue AHHAHA
this entire fic was so self indulgent please dshlfkljadsb but im glad u like this line!! i tend to try visualise the scene like a movie first? and then write it, and this was also one of the first scenes that was super clear in my brain :D
402 DAYS!!!! I SEE WHAT U DID THERE 👀👀 also, is this is a little hint to how u had to wait until the end to see timeskip kuroo? HAHAHA that wld be adorable
WAIT YO THATS CLEVER? I DIDT EVEN- ava when i say that is a COMPLETE coincidence... i literally just picked a number that was longer than 365 days... breaking news i am a secret genius JKBDSCN
i also really liked the “in-between”: of reader’s life without kuroo. u can really see how integrated they are to each other’s lifestyle, and not only that, the scene where reader handles a twin’s birth (to me) strengthens how they’re reallllly soulmates. there is a low chance that kuroo knew reader was in a desperate situation, yet he pulled on the string at the time reader needed it. it’s just—telapathy but not really + soulmate system = SOULMATES. do i make sense? and i really love the details, like how we can trace back kuroo’s scar to a moment of reader’s life in the fic. putting it at the end sort of makes me reflect on their situations that happened simultaneously yet not really. it sort of fills me in with this,,, space. that the earth is so wide. i understand deeper what reader means by “oh he’s going to be gone for so long”. it’s just. wow. the earth is so big yk.
YES YOU MAKE TOTAL SENSE!!! it's such a lovey way of looking at it :') can they communicate and understand eachother like this cuz theyre soulmates? or just because they love each other and have learnt the other inside out?? hhnn this is why i love soulmate aus, theres so much to pull apart!!!
and ok yes on the topic of how big the earth is... im so glad u mentioned this, its my favourite part because (not to get like... super sappy or anything) i was writing this through the toughest stages of our second lockdown. our restrictions got to the point we werent allowed further than 5km from out homes, so writing about freedom and big spaces and exploration of far off places was such a nice escape for me :’) this fic has ended up very close to my heart. (plus i was reading @/w-yuren’s hq0819 series at the time so i had travel and adventure on the brain hehe)
THE ENDING.... THE ENDING.... THE WAY KUROO ASKED READER TO KI** HIM—IT’S LIKE THE KUROO IN MY HEAD YESSSSS. Gosh, this line too “when he kisses you he tastes like the sea; like salt-spray and dry rations and freedom.” may i have a director’s cut abt it :3 AND AKDJSKSK. i really love how the string appeared even tho they were together (the scene before kuroo docked on the ship) and once again, they are together, but none of them are lost because they r together-together. do i make sense? am i overreading things??? again, i have to comment on the banter. it’s simply amazing. kuroo’s replies are so,, KUROO, and they are filled with such FONDNESS I’M SO AKDKSKSK.
IM SO GLAD HE VIBES THANK U I THINK THE FONDNESS IS MY BIAS SHOWING BUT SHHHHH ;P you have picked one of my favourite lines out heheh it was one that just flowed out and wasnt one i particularly had to think about which is always nice. but i think it is a combo of me trying to be fancy lol and me being a huge fan of fantasy-books-set-on-ships. think like explorers or pirates, some rag tag bunch who have to set off on some quest and come back with some of that wildness imbued in their very being... yeah this line was definitely born from me Yearning i think :P
ooo do you mean the wedding scene? that was me trying to hit the ‘feeling lost in a crowd’ idea. you know when youre surrounded by people and joy and laughter and you just feel very small and disconnected? that.
ALSO READER’S DYANAMICS WITH KARASUNO CHARACTERS IS ADORABLE AKDKSKSKK. the festival scene was such a breather and it was adorable to see her interact with those characters. it feels like a snapshot in her life i simply adore that :3
ahh yea! i wanted her to have a life, you know? shes not the type to mope around, like life goes on. that doesnt mean she doesnt miss him oof but theres a whole community around to support her too!! and im very fond of takeda in this scene :’) he takes care of his crows <3
I RAMBLED SO BAD BUT THANK U AGAIN LOVELY I CANT EXPLAIN HOW AMAZING THESE ARE TO RECIEVE <3
#ava <3#i know u are offline rn but i hope everythings going well with u!#i cant believe ur out here validating all my anxieties oof <333
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@mytalkingraccoon nominated me for this shit ugh
1. think of the last person who said i love you, do you think they meant it? he did, unfortunately i didn’t.
2. would you date an 18yr old at the age you are now?
i mean i’m 18 so
3. when was the last you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
like a month ago during s
4. would you ever smile at a stranger?
yeah and i do cuz i’m a nice fucking person
5. is there someone mad bc you’re dating or talking to the person you are?
not currently no
6. have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
yeah and i’ll link it
7. what exactly are you wearing right now?
an old volleyball shirt and that’s literally it
8. how often do you listen to music?
practically every waking moment
9. do you wear jeans or sweats more?
jeans fo sho
10. do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
i mean
11. are you a social or antisocial person?
i’m a hybrid
12. have you ever kissed someone who’s name begins with the letter a?
yeah and that was def a mistake
13. what about the letter r?
no i don’t think so
14. can you drive a stick shift?
yes but will i crash it? also yes
15. do you care if people talk badly about you?
not really, just have the balls to say it to my face if you do
16. are you going out of town soon?
no i don’t think so
17. when was the last time you cried?
months ago
18. have you ever told someone you loved them?
mhm
19. if you could change your eye color, would you?
yeah maybe like a greenish color
20. is there a boy who you would absolutely everything for?
my dad ig? maybe my guy bsf?
21. name something you dislike about the say you’re having.
my skin is dry but that’s it
22. is it cute when guys kiss you on the forehead?
i guess
23. are you dating the last person you talked to?
nope thank god
24. what are you sitting on rn?
the floor lmao
25. does anybody regularly tell you they love you?
nope
26. have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
who hasn’t
27. who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
my f*ckbuddy
28. do you get a lot of colds?
no i have an immune system like the fucking navy seals
29. where is the shirt you’re wearing from?
from my high school
30. does anyone hate you?
probably?
31. do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden in your room?
no i throw them away cuz i’m not a pussy
32. do you like watching scary movies?
yeah sometimes
33. do you wanna get your tongue pierced?
god no
34. if you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
i mean they all suck but sophomore year of high school ig
35. did you have a dream last night?
yes it was a weird ass dream with bucky the winter soldier and ben hardy archangel ok
36. when was the last time you told someone you love them?
two days ago
37. do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
god i hope not marriage is for the weak im sorry
38. do you think someone has feelings for you?
yeah. feelings of hatred
39. do you think someone is thinking of you rn?
yeah probably
40. did you have a good day yesterday?
yeah it was decent
41. think back 2 months ago. were you in a relationship?
no
42. in the next 48hrs, will you hang out with a girl?
yeah my sister lmao
43. has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
yeah but i don’t think they meant it
44. what’s the best part about school?
LEAVING lmaooooo
45. do you have any pictures on your facebook?
pft who has facebook anymore
46. do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
no i just text them lmao
47. do you replay things that happen in your head?
yes constantly it’s a problem
48. were you single last summer?
nope
49. is anything in your life like it was 2 years ago?
god no everything is different
50. what are you supposed to be doing rn?
nothing?? i don’t think??
51. do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
no i don’t have daddy issues
52. are you nice to everyone
hahahhahahahahhaha
53. have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
unfortunately
54. did you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
yeah? what kinda question
55. are you good at hiding your feelings?
sometimes
56. do you think you like someone?
i do not
57. have you ever kissed someone who’s name starts with j?
no i’m pretty sure i haven’t?
58. do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
boys, girls are too sensitive and too gossipy and too
59. has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
LMAO YES AND THIS IS A FUNNY STORY BUT
60. do you hate anyone?
no, i got no room in my life for h8 ;)
61. how’s your heart?
i mean i got low blood pressure it could be beating a lil harder
62. is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
several things
63. have you ever cried over a guy?
yes and i’m not ashamed
64. who is probably talking a load of crap about you rn?
one of my exes maybe
65. are your toenails painted pink?
no. oddly specific question
66. will your next kiss be a mistake?
possibly?
67. do girls love it when their bfs cry?
no?!?!?! what the hell
68. have your pants ever fallen down in public?
no geez
69. who was the last person you were on the phone with?
my dad
70. how do you look rn?
fresh asf you already know
71. do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yes idgaf i’m myself around everyone
72. can you commit to one person?
yeah
73. do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
yes and these questions are getting kinda repetitive
74. have you ever felt replaced?
several times
75. did you wake up cranky?
no
76. are you a jealous person?
generally no
77. are relationships ever worth it?
yeah and if you don’t think so your relationships have been toxic sry
78. anyone you’re giving up on?
not rn
79. currently wanting to see anyone?
yes, literally anyone. i’d like to see another human being
80. name something you have to do tomorrow.
hydrate lmao
81. last person you cried in front of?
oh geez it was
82. is there someone you’ll never forget?
yeah i have a good memory
83. do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
i ain’t got feelings
84. if the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing rn?
chillin& stuff
85. are you over your past?
is anyone?
86. have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
yeeeet yeah
87. is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
mhm
88. if your fist true love knocked on your door with an apology and presents would you accept?
AAHAHAHAHHAHA hellll nah
89. so the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3am, do you let them in?
yeah they’re just coming over to f*ck again
90. have you ever liked someone who your friends hates?
yeah
91. will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
hope not
92. is there anyone you know with the name michael?
probably shout out to micheal
93. have you ever kissed a matthew?
ugh no but i’ve been tempted to
94. were you in a relationship in january? how was it going?
yes& great!
95. were you happy with the person you liked in march?
no i was not
96. is the last person you texted attractive?
eh
97. who do you have texts from?
my mom, my guy bsf, and my f*ckbuddy
98. if the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
“oh, cool!” (and also move on lmao)
99. have you ever kissed someone older than you?
mm yeah
100. who’s in your pfp with you?
no one???
101. ever kissed under fireworks?
yes i have ;)
102. has anybody ever given you butterflies?
ofc lmao
tagging - the person reading this muahahahahahaha
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Author Interview
I was tagged by @peacheat and @dear-mrs-otome THANK YOU GUYS!!! (I also added more Qs if you want to answer those as well *sweats*)
Name: Ash Knight
Fandoms: Now: MLQC, Ikemen Revolution, Ikemen Vampire, Ikemen Sengoku, Mystic Messenger, annnnnd one or two other otomes I like lol.
Want to do in the future: Obey Me (Currently playing) Ikemen Genjiden (translating got to be too much but its GOOD!) Tokyo Debunkers (when it comes out in April!!!)
Where You Post: Mostly Tumblr but also Ao3!
Most Popular One-Shot: By far Victor x MC “In This Moment.” I’m glad cuz I spent a lot of time on this one and I love the concept of Victor stopping time because he know’s he’s going to miss MC <3
Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: Mmm, I don’t have any muli fics yet BUT I do have 10 chapters of my blood thirsty fics! they are all oneshots though.
Favorite Story You Wrote: Its actually my first Oliver fic I posted around Aug of 2018 (Omg have I been doing this for that long???) It needs to be rewritten BUT heres the link. Oliver x MC “Giving Up Control” I still think about this fic often lmfao. Femdoming Oliver is 🤤👌
Story You Were Nervous to Post: Ooof, a recent Oliver fic. Only because it had alcohol themes and smoliver asking her on a date. Just due to his curse and things I didn't want to change too much but it was all consensual with adult Oliver. I was just nervous some people would read into it and take it the wrong way :( Oliver x MC “In A Perfect World You’re Happy With Me” (Looking back at it, it actually got a good response! I am surprised cuz I posted it then tried to put it out of my mind lol. #thanksanxiety
How You Choose Your Titles: First thing that comes to mind. Song lyrics, one word that sticks out in the fic. Or if its a common word or a word/title I’ve used before I put it into One Look Reverse Dictionary and find a similar word that means the sameish thing. I don’t dwell on titles too much tbh.
Completed: Last I counted, I had over 500 short stories under my belt. You can read them all on my blog but not everything was put into my masterlist. This was just due to the tumblr purge we had and I had to make a new masterlist since a lot of my fics got shadowbanned due to the tagging system back then. I didnt wanna repost them all lol
Incomplete: I have an entire spreadsheet that I plop all my ideas on... and it is FULL. I organize it by fandom, suitor, and fluff vs. smut. Ummmmmm.... See below: Coming soon lol.
Do You Outline? I usually start writing when I have an idea and if I need to step away from my computer I will do a quick outline. AKA just some quick bullet points of what I was thinking would happen next lol. If I ever take the time to properly do a full outline, I 100% go off the rails and do my own thing away from the outline. I am what is called a ‘discovery writer’ lol. I discoverer my own story as i write it then go back and edit it and act like I knew what I was doing all along lmfao.
Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: I have 3 substantial WIPS (like 2-3k words) I bounce between that I’m working on. Victor x Mc, Vincent x MC and Faust x MC.
A plan to do part 2 of Gavin x MC’ s ”Distortion” .
I also have an long running AU fic with Gavin x MC (8k currently) but that is far away from being done lol.
There is also an 11 chapter fic I am planning. I have 2 chapters written but I cant seem to figure out one major plot detail and its keeping me from getting it done anytime soon :(
There is a chapter fic im writing for a cradle born MC, however its a mesh of our MC and my OC and its kinda complicated. Also its fluff and I’m less interested in writing that BUT I really want to share this story <3
Valentines day is actually prob going to be the next thing yall see from me tbh and that is TBD
Do You Accept Prompts? I used to every once in a while but I have so many WIPS and no personal computer at home rn. (SOON THOUGH!) So I don’t have the chance to write as much in my free time as I used to. I’ll take prompts but I let them sit in my ask box until I am able to write them <3. I am not the person to ask people to stop sending them, cuz I like to see what yall want me to write and take that into consideration for sure. I like taking asks for Thirsty Thursday (even if its not thurs, I will hold onto them until then) and answer them 😍 I love those because more people are involved other than me and I like being a part of something bigger than myself 🤗
Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: My Victor x MC story. Its UMMMMM........ ITS SLOW BURN YALL. LIKE WHO AM I?! lmfao.
*(I am going to personally add a few questions to this tag that I am interested in knowing about others as well lol)*
What do you use to edit?: I pay for Grammarly (its AMAZING even the free version is super worth it)
For word meanings, synonyms, and better wording I use OneLook Reverse Dictionary ALL THE TIME for every single fic. (and like I said before, to help with titles)
When I feel like something is off and grammarly doesn’t quite know and I don’t know, I put the fic through Hemmingway Editor. It tells you HOW readable a sentence is. If its hard to read I rewrite it and make things a bit simpler for the eyes. Its free in the browser.
Writing setup: Ideally, the sun is coming in through the window, It’s cool inside, I’m wearing a fuzzy sweater, I have hot coffee or tea, and my head phones are in.
I listen to lofi music station on youtube but If its distracting I put on lofi without lyrics. I love THIS playlist. (this is live so it’ll prob break but here’s an alt link to their offline playlist) If I am in an upbeat mood I like “Electropose” music. Or I listen to the ‘setting’ a fic is in. Like if its raining in the story, I put on rain ambiance and things like that.
Do you use a beta reader? No 😬, not really. Anytime I have someone beta read and they comment on the content and not the editing I get way too nervous to post the fic and suddenly it get sick to my stomach laskjdlsdj. I trust a couple gals to beta read in an editing mind set but I don’t bother them all the time. I like to go balls to the walls and trust grammarly, post the damn thing, and bite my nails hoping for the best.
Where do you get your writing inspo?: Bruh, #1 READING! Reading books, reading fics, reading summaries for things. Also, reading the routes in otomes, watching anime, and letting my mind wonder lol. I also like to chat with people on discord and let the stories unfold. Inspo has also come from a lot of my dreams tbh. My dreams are hella vivid and I try to write them down when I wake up if they are interesting lol.
Can we get a quote from an upcoming WIP?:
[ Without cars and crowds, the evening wind picked up nothing but serene sounds. Crickets gently chirped and leafs quietly brushed one another. The branches rustled together, making an organic symphony that the wind carried up to the balcony you leaned on.
*****’s warm hands ran up and down your forearms, warming your chilled skin. From behind, he bent forward and nipped at the shell of your ear.
“Is that better?” His silky hands moved faster, creating heated friction.
“Mmm,” You relished in the sensation. “Much better.”
His gentle chuckle against your pulse made you wiggle into him. ***** pressed his solid chest against your back and sighed. “Maybe if you were wearing more than just my shirt, you wouldn’t be so chilly.”
“I just want to be out here for a moment. The fresh air is nice.” You pressed your lips together into a small smile and angled your face up to him. “Don’t you agree?” ]
tagging: @somethinglacking @pseudofaux @tarralin @steph-writing @kiarigirl @otonymous @jennacat84 @xathia-89 @toloveawarlord @moonlit--river @thequeenshuntress @thirstyforbishiesimagines <3 Honestly I want to tag more people but I don’t wanna be annoying SO if you do this feel free to tag me cuz I am soooooo curious about other writers! Lets be friendsssss <3
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An actual Pros and Cons list of Tumblr beta
Cuz all i hear is people complaining and cussing endlessly like if that ever works for anyone, so here is a list of pros and cons, judged by my personal experience so far, plus a few general complains that i’ve seen through the tags
Pros:
Liking the new palette options and that they added more than expected, some dark themes and light themes, loving the low contrast one so far
Images seem clearer? i don’t know if this is just me but usually tumblr resizes images very awkwardly
they added an activity tab, much like the DM tab, like that it’s a tab and doesn’t pull me to another page, makes it quick and easy to check.
Slight modification to the videos buffer bar, it has a slight blurry border all around that makes it easier to see over white, also seems to load a lot faster?
The tiny person button now also has a keyboard shortcuts tab, good cuz i always forget them and they were awkwardly hidden in the activity page for some reason.
They seem to have added new shortcuts too, for the images slideshows and even to change the dashboard palette, also the quick reblog shortcut works again, it stopped working some time ago and it was a very sad loss
The tag viewer they added a while back still works
Cons:
It currently only works with infinite scrolling, which as expected is taking a huge toll on my computer. Just get rid of it please it never works, with tumblr working at a much higher rate than twitter for example, it means that the farther you go the slower it gets and it’s just doesn’t work here.
Images take a lil longer to load or won’t load at all, will blame the infinite scrolling for that once again it’s no good and i don’t want it in my house.
That activity tab is going to be very distracting i won’t lie.
Text is still too small, apparently smaller than before now? I can’t really tell to be honest, the text was always a bit difficult to read.
You still have to manually reblog stuff to your sideblogs, wish they would use the system they have on mobile where you press and hold the reblog button and your other blogs show up so you can select where the reblog goes
It’s glitchy, but it’s a beta what can you do :v
That’s all i can think at the top of my head, it could work but it needs lots of polishing first, also miss xkit cuz i don’t like sponsored posts shoved in my face and making my timeline longer :v
Anyway that’s all bye
@staff @support
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Being in the blogging business for around 8 years now I came to learn a lot. Let’s hear from the old bitter blogger about the difference between being an ambassador and being a customer. When you’re investing more than you’re gaining from the collaboration it’s not really a collaboration you’re looking for.
There is a new trend going around social media, especially Instagram. I’ve been getting collaboration offers on a daily basis even pre COVID times but now the amount of pseudo collaborations increased.
Hands down it is an incredible business strategy from the business point of view.
Everyone wants to be an ambassador.
Ambassador became an even more prestigious title than an influencer. Influencer posses some sort of responsibility for their actions whilst ambassador is just being paid for simply being.
Who wouldn’t want that?
Many brands use this knowledge to the fullest and offers these pseudo collaborations.
So what is a pseudo collaboration?
Well, it starts off by being contacted by a brand.
You’ll receive a ctrl+c ctrl+v message from a brand-name-scout. The message contains several cute emojis and addresses you as a gorgeous, pretty, cutie, love, honey, sweety, and if they really want to get you, even by your Instagram name.
It’s usually followed by a bunch of compliments about your fashion style, vibe, Instagram, or whatever. Then there is a lie about following or just generally noticing you for a while without ever seeing your insta story, like any of your posts, or even actually following you.
Now it’s time for an offer beneficial for you.
Usually, it’s free products, a way to earn a commission, or just the sheer option to be able to call yourself an ambassador. Every single brand out there offers a “support” like anyone really knows what’s that supposed to mean. I had several ones even offering me a travel trips, but never elaborated on it after my further questioning.
Now comes the hook with a “do you want to learn more?” question.
If you think I’m exaggeration for the story and I can’t be generalizing all of the collaborations offers into a simple standard form I wish you were right. Here are some of the screenshots of my current Instagram DMs:
You might think: “What’s wrong with that? They’re trying so don’t be mean. Just ignore them.” let me remind you how dumb Instagram algorithm is.
If your account is followed by bots, messaged by bots, liked by bots Instagram assumes you’re one of them or you got hacked by them. Sweet of them for trying to protect you thought, but holy hell did that made everything super complicated for me.
I got several messages from the brand scouts messaging me again because their previous account got deleted.
No shit Sherlock, it’s like you can’t keep creating accounts, following and messaging a bunch of people at once and ask for money anymore.
So now every time my account gets suspicious activity such as too many likes/follows/messages Instagram suspects my account got hacked. Each time they require I change my password and let me tell you I ran out of password ideas months ago.
That’s not the worst part though.
After each time I change my password I’m blocked for 7 days from liking, following, or adding tags to my posts and that sucks. Just to get a better picture of this issue I’m blocked approximately once sometimes twice per month.
The block comes hand in hand with a shadowban that lingers for god knows how long, meaning Instagram is not gonna support you in any way. That’s why I have around 40 likes on a posts with 47K followers most of which are bots anyway.
I loath Instagram app yet I spend hours a day on the hellish site and I’m not only one.
We spend so much time on Instagram anyway so when a chance to earn money form it comes along you’re tempted to take it. Brands know that.
Imagine you’re a small-town girl with around 400 followers on Instagram. You already feel pretty popular right?
Now imagine you get the messages I shared above but you get just one. Someone out there thinks you’re so popular they want you on their team, you are just like the big influencers, you get job offers for being an Instagram star. You’re the next Kardashian.
You can have all of the things they said to you BUT you need to do something for them first. You have to pay for it.
And here is the catch with all of the pseudo collaborations.
What they don’t say to you in their first message is what it’s gonna cost you.
Many offers you free stuff but you need to pay for the one-time shipping. Some brands offer you a unique discount of around 40-60% off so you’ll pay just a part of the price and you can call yourself an ambassador.
I don’t know about you, but I thought that was called the customer. You buy a product, you wear it and occasionally you take photo of it on your social media sites. The new term is an ambassador apparently.
I get why so many people agree to this kind of collaboration. It’s new for you. It makes you feel good and successful in your friend’s and families eyes. And there is that hopefully undertone of making money from it.
Aren’t the brands unprofitable when they give away discounts and free stuff?
In a theory, yes, but there is one thing all of the brands that messaged me had in common except for the audacity.
Overpriced products.
I got messaged by jewelry stores, fashion stores and gym equipment stores most of the time. I took the time and did my research on every one of them.
When a store sold jewelry, they had the same products as the rest of the jewelry stores I got contacted by. A small variety of around 8 products most of them sold out anyway. And let’s not forget the ridiculously high prices. You can’t charge a cheap Chinese necklace you can get on amazon or aliexpress for under a 1$ for 40$.
So even if you’re paying just around 30$ for your ambassador order they are still making a profit on your wannabe Instagramer need cuz they purchased said items for far less.
Well, I’m being a little miss know it all right?
How can I talk about pseudo collaboration like this when it’s all based on assumptions. Well you know me, I’m curious as hell and I actually went through 3 pseudo collaborations myself just to prove a point.
I literally spend money so I can tell you about it right now so here is how my 3 pseudo collaborations went like.
All of the ones I choose were jewelry based pseudo collaborations. With the corona times, post offices are overwhelmed with parcels. I ordered big parcels in recent times and they arrived with around a month delay. I figured smaller jewelry in an envelope form would be quicker to arrive and I was right.
Pseudo collaboration number one VONACHI:
A simple yet luxurious-looking website with very few decent pieces of jewelry, offered me 3 free pieces to take a photo in and promote. I would also get a 60% discount code and every time my code would be used I would receive 30% of the money amount. Incredibly overpriced amount in the first place.
Here is the list of all of the benefits they offered.
The scout that approached me was very eager. They kept insisting I place my order right away. No time to waste.
To make it clear I got a simple code to apply in a check out that subtracted the price and I got the pieces for free. All I had to do was pay a 20$ shipping fee what seems like nothing but for 3 small necklaces, it is way too much.
Another thing that was odd was that I was required to take a screenshot of my order and send it back to scout. I guess to prove I was legit.
After bunch of further compliments and claims how excited they are to be working with me we ended our conversation.
If you think I was being reckless to give my credit card and home address to such a questionable site don’t be.
Honestly, I trust zero people, sometimes I don’t even trust myself. I used a card I have no to very little money on and I got it shipped to a work address.
My parcel from china arrived in around a month and a half. I got one black box with one necklace and the other 2 necklaces were in small plastic bags. I received a note about welcoming me to the program and asking me to contact vonachi’s official Instagram account for setting up my discount code and that’s exactly what I did. The official page responded after longer time period with just a “this is your code” message. I took a photo, tagged vonachi as a business partner, and shared my code. I did my part and I was never contacted by them again.
My 60% code is VONAMBNAT and as you might have guessed no one used it so far.
Or at least no one told me it was used. If someone were to use my code I would be contacted by vonachi and here is the problem. I’m supposed to trust them with their credibility cuz there is no other way for me to check it for myself. This is what it’s missing from the old Time collaborations of mine. I would get a tracking code, an account login, graphs, statistics, and one on one communication with a brand in my previous collaborations. But you know Golden times for influencers are long gone.
Now I’m left to just simply trust them.
Why would they ever confess someone used my code? If a customer gets 60% off and I’m getting 30% from already discounted item there is just a very little left for vonachi. They don’t say anything and get to keep my 30% share.
They didn’t put much effort into tracking system cuz they are not expecting their ambassadors/customers to make any sales anyway.
The products were not that bad. They came in a bit rusty and tangled but I was excepting much worse.
Hell, I was not expecting them to legitimately arrive.
Pseudo collaboration number 2: ENGELSINN
I initiated this pseudo collaboration myself. Engelsinn paid a significant amount of money to Instagram promoted post and that’s where I found out they are looking for ambassadors.
I filled out an application form.
This one felt more legit cuz they actually asked for followers count and all of the communication occurred via email. Automated emails but still it reminded me of good old days.
I was given a 40% discount code to use on my first order. The shipping was free but it still cost me another 20$ to get the product. Since placing my first order I got a 20% discount code “nat7x20” for my followers to get 20% off their engelsinn order.
When my code is redeemed 2 times I get one jewelry of my choice for free.
Do I even need to mention that I didn’t get any email since?
Well, that’s not exactly true I got 2 more emails each with another discount code I could use for 24 hours and buy more of their stuff. But none about redeemed code.
Engelsinn is a german based brand and living so close I got my parcel in around a week. I got myself a rose gold knot bracelet and I feel like a hypocrite but I actually really love this one and wear it every day. I know I wouldn’t get it if it wasn’t for the research but I’m glad I did.
Btw the ad about engelsinn looking for ambassador is still up there and it still says they have only a few places left. It’s been 2 months.
Pseudo collaboration number 3: CUZETTE
I got messaged by them on my Instagram and their offer was super confusing. They promised it all. 3 free stuff now, free stuff every month, paid trip to several destinations, and even 50$ voucher. The scout called me sweety exactly 9 times during our conversations. It was super annoying.
So I choose another 3 free items and paid another 20$ for shipping. When I asked about the 50$ voucher I was told I would need to refer 5 friends who would also become cuzette ambassador or delegate as they named it, to get the 50$. No info about the travel trips though.
I was told to contact the official page for more info but it took days for them to finally reply with nothing new just more compliments and excitement about the future. It’s been 2 months and I still haven’t received my order just as I was expecting.
Later on, I endorsed in conversation with several other brands asking for more info, looking for something different than standard copy and paste form. Unsuccessful.
Every time I asked how many ambassadors they have in their program the answer was always “around 3000“. Once again, you have 3000 customers and not 3000 ambassadors. If the only people who buy from you are people you ask to buy from you, you’re doing something wrong.
But your business plan is on point.
When I asked about who and where makes their products I was either met with a silence or a sweet talk about a responsible brand.
These brands are providing people with content. You get to take photos of the items you ordered and you get to be as creative as you want. In these COVID times so many brands had to cancel or postpone their collaborations with bloggers or Instagrammers. I saw huge travel/luxurious instagramers switch form hotel and travel collaborations to promoting kitchen wipes. Times are tough and you got to do what you got to do.
Yet these small businesses with hight prices are thriving?
You know it’s not about the product but about the potential.
Profiting on greediness.
So smart.
To prove my point even further I got to confess one more thing. I mentioned before that I manage Instagram accounts for different brands and among them is one fashion store. I was not only at the ambassadors’ side but on the scouting side as well.
All I had to do was search for people who looked like they would be willing to become an ambassador for our store and had decent amount of followers. I had saved message form and all I did was try to guess peoples names so the message seemed more personal. Once they agreed to a discussion I let my boss take the lead.
So yeah, try to really think about the offers you get.
Look at it from all points of view and ask yourself if it’s profitable for anyone else but the brand.
If you want to have offers pouring your way try adding #ad #spon #collab to your next Instagram posts. That’s how they look for their next ambassador.
Everyone wants to be an ambassador.
Pseudo Collaborations- Everyone wants to be an Ambassador Being in the blogging business for around 8 years now I came to learn a lot. Let's hear from the old bitter blogger about the difference between being an ambassador and being a customer.
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Hi Aeraaa. Sorry it took me long to replay, but I’m glad that I finally can do it =) I just hope tumblr won’t delay my asks further more. I get why you would expect me to major in humanities, actually there’s an area in finance called behavioral finance, and I find it one of the most interesting areas in finance, I guess we can see a pattern in here hehe. What you said about ur major and what do you like about it seems really great, and the flexibility is indeed an advantage. 1
Maybe it doesn't seems like it but I understand the hassle you mentioned. Especially with the older people. B4 I major in finance, I was planning to major in MIS which is a new course in my country. I would then get a similar reaction to the one you mentioned since it isn’t accounting or finance lol. Even though these reactions can be discouraging, it isn’t really important, what’s important is that we’re comfortable with our choices, and I’m glad for that =) but yeah, i kinda get it
And Sure, I can tell you more about what I remember about the two courses. For business communication it was more about how to use the best practices in communicating with other within the organization, like how to get your message delivered, for the sake of getting the best possible result for yourself or for the sake of the organization. Things I remember about this course were like how to make and deliver a good presentations. How to right emails and good resumes. Attitudes and body language
and stuff like that. THH reminded me of a lot from that course :D. It was relatively an easy course but important and effective nonetheless. I took this course two years ago and I kinda wish if I took it like last semester cuz I think I’ll be able to remember better how to write a good resumes lol since I’m graduating this semester. Organizational behavior course was more interesting, it was about applying psychology in understanding the behaviors of personnel so one can manage them better.
The most interesting lecture that I still remember from this course was about many kinds of human bias and how it can affect the process of decision making. People can think that they’ll be able to notice these biases and tendencies easily but the reality says otherwise. That’s what I find is interesting the most. I really like what you said here. “ I think the world actually heavily relies on stories” and I think I agree with that. :)
You’re most welcome dear aera =) I don’t know how I did that but I’m glad for sure that my words made you happy and reached your heart. This’s great and it feels satisfying =). I’ll be back again to write about my thoughts on My time pt.2 after I read it! I’m excited. & Maybe I’m late but all the luck with your projects and finals dear, fighting!
Aseel!!!! Sorry this took so long!!! I got caught up with finals drain and writing slump and writing! But anyway, here I am!!!
OMOMOMO you're finally off-anon! Can I tag you now whenever I get tagged in fun tag games? I wanna know more about you!
I never heard of Behavioral Finance before. I used to think Finance is everything about money and budgeting and practicality and business. I didn't know there's an area like that. I just searched it now and it's about the influence of psychology on investors and financial analysts 🤯 That sounds do interesting!!!! I just recalled that someone uploaded their books in their Psychology major to our uni's online library and rn I'm studying Forensic Psychology! Since I'm currently in the psych area, I think I'm gonna look into Behavioral Finance, too!
Oohhh MIS? Like Management Information Systems? (Had to Google it zjsjksks) That actually sounds so interesting! And yeah, people's - especially older generation's - opinions on what you do can be quite discouraging. But you're right. It doesn't matter as long as we're happy in what we're doing! Talk all they want how sciencey courses are better than humanities, I'll just flip my hair and study how most human communication goes downhill 💁🏻♀️ skskks.
OMYGOD Business communication is like essentially my course! Were being tsught how to say things more correctly in preswntations, speeches, arguments, in whatever setting but it tends to usually focus on business (since a lot of organizations run in a business manner). One of my majors even focused on training us how to handle crisis in organizations and we were made to attend a "How to Properly Craft E-mails 101" class. It's amazing and funny at the same time. Amazing bc omygod after that class, I was making really convincing emails that helps me get what I want from my classmates (for class works) and from my profs whenever I have inquiries. Lmao bc of this class, I got more thick-skinned in facing profs and asking them what the hell do they mean in their vague instructions. Of course not literally this way, but this is the mood HAHAHAHAHAH. After that class, I made a joke that my future job is decided: an e-mail-er. Yep, yep. Corny joke. I'll see myself out 🤣🤣🤣
I'm glad you were able to remember business comm in THH. I did a lot of research in how offices function and I had a personal experience in entering one and I hope I was able to translate them well into writing. So knowing you remember a course about it, just makes me feel warm and utterly satisfied 🥺🥺🥺
Oh and you're graduating! Advance congratulations! 🎉🎊👏 I think there will be more opportunities to learn more about writing resumes so don't lose hope! You're still young! (And with the quarantine I think there'll be more online classes about it too!)
And yes!!! Organizational behavior is hella interesting! You're right! People like to disdain bias. They herald unbiased reporting, unbiased essay, unbiased judging (in contests), and etc. When bias is inherently ingrained in humans as it is inevitable to have preferences. And bc they are inherent, it's harder to identify them. Just like how people find it hard to explain why they became the way they were now bc it's difficult to pinpoint something muddled in the surroundings that have long immersed them. I don't think this makes sense but you get what I mean?
Apart from comm, our course usually focuses on the psychology behind comm so we also get to study about behaviors as well and goddamn I was able to better understand people after I learned about it!
Oh hon, you don't know how far your words affect me. But the answer is simple. You just motivate me with these kind feedbacks. And you craft your feedbacks with such thought and dedication and sincerity that it just makes my heart explode bc how?? Did?? I?? Manage?? To have you as my reader?? It astounds me in so many levels. You're clearly so smart! And I'll forever be privileged and happy to having met you (even in just online!) It's a joy to talk with you! I always have fun whenever we exchange long chains of messages! It's okay! Don't pressure yourself to read my works ASAP. We all live lives apart from this site. Just know I'll always be here whenever you wanna talk about just - whatever! Thank you for wishing me luck, Aseel! I really need lots of them bc I got tons of projects ahead (in life in general but also in my writings here 😉). Thank you so much Aseel for brightening my day! Hope you're doing okay! Here's some hearts! (/ ° O °)/ 💕💕💕
#aseel 💛#aseel97#HON!!!! SORRY THIS IS SOOO LATE#but anyway. thank you for warming my inbox while I'm away#your letters - i call them like that from now on - always has me smiling#so thank you thank you thank you so so much 🥺🥺🥺#aera blushes#love letters 💌
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and ALSO sry to post bs on main im mostly just talking to myself in my personal tag half the time so yolo, no need to respond to this or reassure me or whatever but these days i licherally question how much of my - sry to sound like a broken record - bs is dépression or just my shité mentality, like i rly was not designed to last, huh? physically or mentally? lol. like who gets motion sickness on swings lmao anyways. i think i give up too easily. theres a bunch of reasons y but i dont feel like saying. its a different thing to kind of kno something, and to admit / speak it (confront it). i could psychoanalyze myself all day and tell u exactly why some things are the way they are but its too unpleasant to neatly state stuff like that u kno?? like... *i kno* but im not gonna say i kno. anywho, i digress. so i give up easily and kind of have a defeatist mentality too, its so exhausting lool. actually its weird cuz duality of man, i'll be rly determined / stubborn abt doing some stuff and not care abt fear of failure with certain things but when it comes to My Life / My Future i just think i cant rly do anything? i mean that literally like i got no skillz *laugh crying emoji* not particularly good at anything, and art - the only thing im maybe arguably ok at - i dont wanna do as a career, that is art therapy for me i dont feel like commercializing it. not interested in working in my major, maybe things wouldve been different if i went to culinary or cosmetology school?? that sounds fun. or if i majored in bio cuz i was so good at that, or even if i majored in japanese language or literature or idk. but no regrets tho cuz i learned a lot abt drawing in art school which i can use for myself. and hmm i like staying home and not rly going out of my way to meet new ppl so connections what? i h8 hearing how most opportunities come through the ppl u kno cuz its true and ik like 10 ppl tops so hm very sexi of me :^) i just feel like im p much f*cked and it rly doesnt help that i have no functional dreams, goals, or aspirations nor the confidence and drive to work towards anything so ah ok cool. u kno suga's songs "the last" and "so far away" ? that p much sums up my feels minus the part abt having to deal w fame obviously LOL. its so easy being a student (for me at least) but being a good student isnt really worth a whole lot in the """""real world""""" and the current education system doesnt even rly prepare u for reality or w.e like Deep Sigh also the political climate rly lookin like shité out there like hmmmmm do i even wanna try so hard to be here anymore tho??? also going back to the self confidence thing, ya idk her LOOOOL like it doesnt very much bother me tho? i really, honest to god have no idea what my redeeming qualities even are. being nice? and my mindset re - tolerance and compassion for others, etc, ya im rly proud of that actually but besides that i mean like what can i Do tho like hm im not particularly good at anything also im hideous like uglee but thats ok too like none of this Bothers me, thats just literally how i Am so ok fine, but i feel like it makes it hard for me to exist in the world i happen to be in??? and i realize im speaking with a huge bias here cuz my brain is totally out of whack im p sure if some1 saw me / read this they would lit be like um u literally do not have it hard girl, which is fair ur kinda right actually from an objective pov, probably? its amazing how um. hard? of a time my brain is having given my relatively ok circumstances but thats just how it is ig. and if i may quote shakespeare - o full of scorpions is my mind. and its weird cuz duality of man - i actually have a lot of good times w friends and whatever i have a lot of fun, im not even very Sad or in Agony its all very a mild? sensation? but that might be because my plan b is to simply *** so nothing rly fazes me anymore lool.
its usually a v confusing emotion, im either feeling happy, or if not that, very ???? im literally that duwang quote get a feeling so complicated its just "ajdjsjsja" idk its not overly repulsive and upsetting im like :s LOL u kno wat at this point idek what im even saying anymore but its good that im writing whatever cuz im gonna need to look back on this later and organize my thoughts for presentation cuz remember i have a s.o now???? i wanna let them kno so we r on the same page, and i dont feel like im tricking them, i thought it over more and there are like 4? major cards i wanna lay out on the table early on and they are 1. im not that close w my family emotionally so do not seek their approval or expect to deal with them much. 2. personal ideology / political views like im bi lmao and pro lgbt if that wasnt obvious also i dont rly wanna be around racists / terfs etc and if ur right wing or not on that respect women juice uhhh bye.. 3. my weak ass mentality how i might Maybe *** in the future like no promise but errrr theres one more but its a little more negotiable and also too early to discuss so i wont mention it but i already got the first two outta the way so ya. theres the most troublesome of all, #3. the last thing i wanna do is traumatize someone that loves me (and i love back) with that kinda thing, its too late for my dear friends whom i love, sorry i didnt kno i was gonna be like this LOL yall already got attached but its a little different with my s.o cuz i feel like its not too late to uh.... stop getting as attached LMAO like dam i've known my girls for almost 10 years whereas i've only known my s.o for like a month.
and this is totally not gonna come across right but if my s.o very understandably desides to dump me id be SO RELIEVED LIKE WOOOO ok cool cuz like essentially what i'd be saying is you are getting attached to someone who's future is not as stable as other people, including u. *huge exhale* from the bottom of my heart, my bad lol. and then i probs wont ever get involved w. a s.o again, sorry to reference snk in 2020 but remember how e*win smith is single cuz he doesnt kno when he will ***? big mood. i have never acted out on my interests before but i was like ok for once lets go off the shits and do smth ooc, i uh... didnt expect for it to actually go anywhere tho so now im like ???? i shouldve thought it through more tho, like i felt low key irresponsible af and selfish and dumb for getting involved w. someone even tho i Know how I Am like...... Also i just lov being single and staying home and chilling alone lmao like i seriously...... never get loney....
ok so what was i talking abt? how the passage of time makes me nervous cuz idk how i can manage to keep up w it??? how i feel like i cant do jack shit???? that life is hard???? and maybe a bih just wants to rest? permanently?????? i think the most irritating part of all for me, like what i am most mad about at myself is that i have no dream. yikes. naruto, do u think thats sad? well yoongi said its okay, and what counts is just being happy, so i will console myself and forgive her and idk just try my best for the time being??
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bro im so pissed i literally wrote out this whole post and then tumblr deleted it. dies. anyways the very very sexy @kitten-of-the-universe tagged me in the very very sexy quarantine survey so here’s me🥵
where are you isolated?
twin cities babieee with my goddamn family (internet stalkers dont come for me🥺🥺)
what are you currently reading or watching?
me and my grandma have a book trade going where every week she brings me one of her fav books and i bring her one of mine so i’ve been reading lots of fun funky stuff...so far i recommend red clocks, a brief history of time, and how to be an antiracist! (also, i reread the vegas chapters twice.)
if you can go outside what do you like to do during this time?
i’m only allowed out twice a week to go to dbt but i really look forward to it and get starbucks before (which my parents would not be v happy about if they knew about it lmao) (they dont want me having contact w people AT ALL cuz my dad is v at risk but im gonna lose it man)
any fascinating concept you’re studying?
uh. i’ve been learning lots of new sewing techniques!! im making one of my best friends a vest atm which has required lots of learning cuz its not like anything i’ve made before
a song that resonates with your state of mind at the moment?
cult boyfriend by jeffrey lewis/creep by radiohead/i dont trust u anymore by left at london. i feel like a lonely fucking weirdo
favorite impulsive/bad coping techniques?
who are you? dbt facilitator catherine [redacted] from mental health systems? im not telling you shit
idk how many people i’m supposed to tag but uhhh @naturalskincarebitch @ironicshuffling @alien-pixels @ajh-aaa @aartvark @babytoadz go my children
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