#talking to myself mostly

[mewnia]

Got very passionate about hands on twit for a sec so witness my passion of how I think hands are fun to draw, actually, and that artists who are struggling should just worry about the shape and feel first before the anatomy and it might help with feeling a little more free because hands are expressive like faces and you should treat it as such and they are so cool

#talking to myself mostly #doodles #mewnia’s pawprints #hands #hands are cool #just draw five sticks and you’re good man #don’t worry about it #have fun first until you want to learn #then learn #and then go back to having fun #And just!!!!!! #don’t be afraid of error!!!! #I can’t emphasize enough how BEAUTIFUL human error in art is #it’s so cool #art is cool #anyway I’m tired but I just want to share how cool stylization and human-made things and imperfect things are #it’s cool #you’re so cool

[sweetpapercroissant]

come ON people we can do better than that

#talking to myself mostly #jensen ackles #ao3 #.txt

[scribefindegil]

Writing thoughts below the cut for organizing/externalizing purposes:

The Broccoli Small Gods Fic:

Pros: closest to being complete; I am allowed to be as earnest as I want; Important emotionally so unlikely to lose motivation

Cons: Important emotionally so I want it to be Good; need to decide what tense the dang thing is in; stressed about successfully getting The Point across

To Do: get all the bits into one document. Figure out which scenes you need that aren't written yet. Figure out the tense thing. Trace the big three Thematic Words and see if there are any gaps. Cry probably.

IT IS OKAY IF: it still takes a while; not everyone gets it; the prose is a little wobbly or overwrought.

THE POINT IS: holding the catharsis in my hands like a ball of light and feeling like I explained what it meant to me

The Post-Mogami Fic:

Pros: genuinely have a draft of Most Of This; Important emotionally; I am allowed to be as earnest as I want; not being able to finish before the show ended means I have better characterization since I know the ends of everyone's arcs

Cons: Important emotionally so I want it to be Good; feel like it might be controversial (so I have to work harder to make my point clear)

To Do: organize the draft I do have, write the Dimple section, figure out the middle (bullet-point outline with Themes is okay!!); remember that the themes of gentleness apply to you too

IT IS OKAY IF: the prose doesn't feel the way it does in your head; it still takes a while; not everyone gets it

THE POINT IS: HOLDING THE CATHARSIS IN MY HANDS LIKE A BALL OF LIGHT. THE TRANSCENDENCE OF THE RETURN. THE LOVE THE LOVE THE LOVE. the gentleness of being loved when you're recovering. the narrative that's already there

The Emergency Contact Fic:

Pros: aiming for more show-accurate style so it gets to be fun and silly! The prologue works as a standalone so you can focus on that! You love your plot ideas and your weird ensemble!

Cons: aiming for more show-accurate style which is SCARY! Even the prologue is long which is also scary! Lots to keep in your head! (Scary)

To Do: TRUST YOUR BETA WHO LOVES YOU AND KNOWS YOU ARE CURSED. Send a thing even if it's rough. Cover it in annotations about the parts you don't know how to write. Let it ramble instead of choking yourself trying to keep things compact. Also do a Real Outline in Excel with scene breakdowns. You know it will help.

IT IS OKAY IF: it takes a long time. (There will still be people who want to read it and you will be happy to have written it.) The writing is not as funny as you would like it to be or some of the characterization isn't perfect. (Snadge is funnier than you and will help. Also you will get better as you practice)

THE POINT IS: having fun! Literally that is the only point of this one!

A Secret Fourth Thing (various other ideas):

IT IS OKAY IF: most or all of these are just daydreams. you have no moral obligation to finish a fic, even if you really like the idea. It is also okay to be wildly self-indulgent. this is fanfiction for crying out loud. work on the ekurei disability fic with an audience of You; it is literally fine.

THE POINT IS: to have a good time with these characters that you love! To give your sad cursed brain something to play with even if you are just lying in bed thinking about it very slowly. escapism is a powerful force.

#curseblogging #talking to myself mostly

[carrieleblancart]

We all of ADHD anyways, so you should repost it so people can enjoy it again

#talking to myself mostly #catart #cat painting #digitalpainting #cats

[jojolalas]

✌️ had to take a few nights off from writing. My back is killing me so I've been lounging around like a victorian aristocrat's wife. Hopefully I'll be back to it tonight/tomorrow

#talking to myself mostly

[yuribeam]

for whoever needs to hear this:

starting HRT doesn't have to be a huge momentous all-or-nothing decision. you can just try it like you would an antidepressant you've been informed of the risks of.

there won't be any immediate irreversible changes overnight. you can always stop, change your dose, change your delivery system, decide it's not the right time. you can even microdose if you want to.

you don't have to tell anyone. you don't have to announce it if you don't want to.

stop waiting for a perfect time in your life because it won't come.

stop waiting to reach a mythical level of certainty that never comes to anyone, for anything.

you've been thinking about it long enough. if you have the opportunity, just give it a shot. you're worth the courage it takes to make a change in your life.

#yes im talking to you 🫵 #@ myself mostly lol but posting in case this resonates w anyone 🩷 #transgender #trans #hrt #hormone replacement therapy #estrogen #estradiol #testosterone #t #e #transition #gender transition #lgbt #lgbtq #nonbinary #genderqueer #genderfluid #agender #demigirl #demiboy #androgyne #androgynous #mtf #ftm #egg cracking #transfeminine #transmasculine #transfem #transmasc

[the-bibrarian]

I see a lot of incomprehension online about our pension reform and the anger it generates in France, and what it often boils down to is "why are they so angry, 64 is plenty young to retire?"

I don't agree, but even if I did I would still oppose the reform. Here are some of the reasons why:

We already need 43 full years of work and tax contributions to be able to retire. Which means college-educated people were never going to retire at 64 anyway, let alone 62. This reform is aimed at people who start working early, mostly in low-paying jobs.

There's very little provision made in this law for hard/dangerous/manual labour.

There's no provision made for women who stop working to raise their children (51% of women already retire without a "complete career," which means they only retire on a partial pension, vs. 25% of men).

At 64, 1/3 of the poorest workers will already be dead. In France, between the richest and the poorest men, there's a 13 years gap in life expectancy.

Beyond life expectancy, at that age a lot of people (especially poorer, non-college educated) have too many health-related issues to be able to work. Not only is it cruel to ask them to work longer, if they can't work at all that's two more years to hold on with no pension

Unemployment in France is still fairly high (7%). Young people already have a hard time finding work, and this is going to make things even harder for them

Macron cut taxes on the rich and lost the country around 16 Billions € in tax revenue. Our estimated pension deficit should peak at 12 Billions worst case scenario.

While I'm on wealth redistribution (no, not soviet style, but I think there should be a cap on wealth concentration. Nobody needs to be a billionaire.): some of the massive profits of last year should go to workers and to the state to be redistributed, including to fund pensions. The state subsidized companies and corporations during the pandemic, Macron even said "no matter the cost" and spent 206 Billions € on businesses. Now he's going after the poorest workers in the country for an hypothetical 12 Billions??

Implicit in all of this is the question of systemic racism. French workers from immigrant families are already more likely to have started their careers early, to have low-paying jobs, are less likely to be college-educated, more at risk for disabilities and chronic illnesses, etc., so this is going to disproportionately affect them

This is not even touching on the fact that he didn't let lawmakers vote on it, meaning he knew he wouldn't get a majority of votes in parliament, or that 70% of the population is against this law. Pushing it through anyway is blatant authoritarianism.

TL;DR: This is only tangentially about retirement age. The reform will make life harder for people with low incomes, or with no higher education, for manual workers, for women—mothers especially, for POC, for people with disabilities or chronic conditions, etc. This is about solidarity.

Hope (sincerely) this helps.

#long post #france #french politics #réforme des retraites #49.3 #pension reform #macron explosion #I know this post is mostly me talking to myself and preaching to the choir #but I needed to get it off my chest #up the baguette #upthebaguette #social justice

[thehallstara]

anyways happy pride to all my high risk queers out there, to all my disabled queers for whom events aren't accessible to, to my immunocompromised folks who can't risk attending events where people aren't masked or taking covid precautions! happy pride to my fellow cripqueers that want to be out there fighting and celebrating with their friends and family and can't because it's not safe for them to do so– you're not alone and you deserve to celebrate too. we all do.

#s.txt #okay to rb by the way #ngl this is mostly for myself but it's also something i feel strongly about #especially given everything i've seen lately talking about weighing risk vs pleasure as if they're mutually exclusive #or that there aren't high risk queer folks that deserve to access queer joy as well #i would literally kill to be able to celebrate pride with my queer fam this year and i can't bc i can't afford a reinfection #and it makes me so sad #queer #pride month #covid mention #covid isn't over

[emberglowfox]

to those who have been keeping up with my 3d modeling exploits

look at my table

#i no longer fear uv unwrapping. uv unwrapping fears me #turns out i can make myself enjoy anything if i make it into enough of a puzzle #sparks speaks #my geometry has also improved mostly! eeexcept on the frame thing of that house. we dont talk about that

[fudgecake-charlie]

shh i'm posting no one tell my professors or the projects im involved in

#art out the oven #hermitcraft #mumbo jumbo #bdubs #bdoubleo100 #today nerfed me so my brain could not do ANYTHING and then i had to try and talk to a 12 year old lmao. (it was mostly roblox) #shout out to that 12 year old you're cool i promise I just don't have a life #anyway yeah i managed to give myself some more enrichment with art rather than watching even more of beef's nnk playthrough #default CSP pencil and mechanical pencil 👍 #I need to start and finish writing a research paper in four days

[psymachine]

hear me out: you, me, dennis, and god all know he looks good in lingerie, but maybe he's a little bit unsure what mac "the problem is you're into all that early 80s glam rock femme shit; definitely had masc4masc in his grindr profile" mcdonald will think of it

#macdennis #macdennis fanart #still probably ooc but i don't care lol #this was mostly just an early bday/christmas present to myself but hopefully you can enjoy it as well~ #the time for lingerie dennis has finally come #the softest i've drawn them so far lol #the headcanon is that dennis just springs shit that he wants on mac instead of talking about it #that way if it backfires he can blame it all on mac being an idiot #but not this time reynolds------ #i have a very confident victoria torturing mac comic in the works to make up for this don't worry #rob can pry mac calling him “den” out of my cold dead little paws #machinegoods #suggestive

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

political opinion: fingers should have more joints

#not my only political opinion but. currently. my most FERVENT one #ok 2nd most fervent. actual most fervent is VOTE IN THE FUCKIN MIDTERMS U FUCKER MC FUCKENING FUCKERIST #anyway. ahem. fingers. more joints. self explanatory. #(also mostly unrelated but. when i was in. .. middle school maybe? there was a period of time where i fully believed 'Fervent' referred to #a species or genus or other grouping of mammal which included ferrets #like how Crows are a member of the Corvid family? yeah i thought Ferrets were a member of the Fervents #not my proudest moment yet i find myself oddly and ferociously proud #) #((no wait wait wait wait wait wait. FEREVENTLY proud)) #(((also until relatively recently i thought it was spelled Fervant but we don't need to talk about that)))

[goldensunset]

i looooove pokémon npcs whose team members subtly imply something about them that's never touched upon in the story or at least never outright said. i love villains having friendship evos. i love trainers who commit hard to one aesthetic or vibe with their team (beyond simply sharing a type) and i love it even better when there's one random exception especially if that's their ace. i love when later down the line someone boxes the cute fun soft baby pokémon they used to have in favor of a seemingly stronger or scarier one to show that they're getting serious. i love when they have a pokémon that's difficult to get and raises lots of questions about them. i love it when the lore behind a pokémon fits the character to a T and i love it even better when it appears to contradict them. give me the story-gameplay harmony but better yet give me what appears to be story-gameplay dissonance but might actually have implications if we're willing to dive deep into it

#to me this is more important than actually making the team hard to beat #but it's amazing if it is #as a new fan i only know so many examples of this myself but i would love to hear more from people who know more #volo and cyrus having friendship evos... #in particular volo having a rare togekiss which apparently only reveals itself in times of peace... lol #also volo/cynthia having spiritomb. i firmly believe cynthia inherited that same pokémon from him #but like volo where did YOU get that #i've heard oleana's team is mostly glamorous ladylike pokémon but her ace is her beloved garbodor #yessss that's what i'm talking about!!! #kieran boxes his furret and suddenly pulls out a scary freak like shiftry #also the evolution of polywag into poliwrath #i've heard hop does something similar with getting rid of his wooloo but i can't verify #as another small note: love when the type of pokéball they have their team in matters #like all of team star having a different type of ball that suits them #or sada/turo exclusively having master balls #y'all what is up... #pokémon

[natigail]

"I figured hey, if I'm here, I might as well be honest with myself. So I dug into the archives. And I found teenage Dan. Do you remember HELLO INTERNET? There I was, eighteen years old, your average caucasian British boy with your problematic vocabulary, just wanting so desperately to be liked. I then saw myself age twenty, as a student. Not that I was actually studying anything other than the male anatomy. I had no plan. No prospects. I was in desperate need of a haircut. Jesus Christ. No, look, that was not a hairstyle. It was geometry. My hair was a square. I then saw myself age twenty-two as an adult, just trying to make my way in the world, taking any job that I could, no matter how inauthentic or degrading. And look. I don't hate these past versions of myself, alright? Apart from the square one, it can get in the fucking bin. Mainly, I just feel sorry that it took them so long to work out who they are. I then stumbled across the video titled Existential Crisis. In which I utter the optimistic nihilistic epithet: 'embrace the void and have the courage to exist'. Embrace the void and have the courage to exist. It sounded nice when I said it but for some reason it just didn't hit. I had accepted the absurdity of the world but at that time, I hadn't accepted myself. Looking back at it, it finally clicked. Anyone who has suffered with depression or any kind of trauma that seriously affects your self-worth hopes that one day you're going to have this sudden revelation and then everything is fine. I had my revelation alright. I am unapologetically gay! Don't know if you hadn't picked up on that, so far in the show. But just having this revelation did not immediately fix all of my problems, because I still feel that inherent burnt-on brand that I am wrong. And that doesn't just go away. No, I know what my problem is, alright. My problem I am always living for the future. Every day I am thinking about this dream future where all of my dreams have come true and all of my problem have gone and everything's fine. And so, every day in the present of my life can be this joyless unrelenting grind towards that future. But it's okay. It's going to come any day now, right? Learning to look yourself in the mirror and being honest about what you've been through and keep living in spite of that can be hard. It takes a long time and a relentless persistent resistance against the way that you've been trained to feel by the world. But that doesn't just mean you should give up. Because, sure, sometimes in life, you may feel trapped. I felt trapped by my sexuality. You could feel trapped by your culture or your community. Hell, you could be literally trapped in an elevator but that doesn't mean that you shouldn't try to get out. 'cause, sure, when I look at the state of the world, I am very tempted to just go: You know what - we're all doomed. But that isn't courageous. That is cowardly. It's the easy way out. Even if it is, as I hope you'd all agree, a really fucking cool name for a show. So that's the thing. You can either say to yourself, every day is just a discontent emoji or you can find the courage to force your inner smiling cowboy hat, ye-motherfucking-haw! And just try to find in everyday life. Which is why I made this show. So I'm not living in the future but I'm just right here, right now, with you, just trying to have one good night. And look. Hey. Who knows, huh? We may all be doomed. Death may be inevitable. But first, we get to live. Life might at times be a struggle but just being here, to put one foot in front of the other every day is living. So please, do not let the doom drag you down. You are important. You matter. Please, stay hopeful for the future. Appreciate life. Embrace the void and have the courage to exist." - Dan Howell, closing monologue of his show "we're all doomed" (2022-2024)

#wad spoilers #dan howell #we're all doomed #talking in tags #i wasn't going to do any more but why not immortalise this #mostly just saving this for myself because it always got me #dan quotes

[kaldurcalm]

Hey does anyone have tips for keeping fleas off the damn dog while depressed and not earning your own money?

They're taking up residence on her tail.

#no i don't want to use essential oils. mostly. #it would be nice to just spray her with rosewater and be done with it. #i gotta get over the malaise and either schedule a grooming appointment or give her a bath #I've misplaced the flea medication i brought with me #seresto collars are at best over 40 dollars #fleas are learning to ignore certain medications #i need to bathe her like every week right? #please excuse me while my executive dysfunction despairs. #i gotta talk myself into being able to do this again. #it's just. so much. #the yard the dog the floor the dog all of the laundry the dog laundry again the dog the floor again the dog #those alternative collars don't really work. they just smell bad.

[jojolalas]

Why would I do something interactive for a fandom I've never posted in before ;.; so embarrassing and scary

#talking to myself mostly