#the joys of living alone

[myriahkamm]

Been struggling with a very annoying sinus headache for the past several days. Theoretically it'll go away eventually. Just really annoying that it kinda ruined my weekend and is gearing up to ruin my week.

#myri speaks #my parents are on vacation out of the country and i normally call my mom almost daily #so that is another thing about this that sucks #because i could ask her for more ideas about how to deal with it #I'm sure it'll get better soon though #the joys of living alone #adulting #adulting is hard

[pichitinha]

my shower just fell down out of my wall. what the fuck is one supposed to do in this situation. i don't even know who to call. ghostbusters?

#seriously being an adult is just not worth it #i texted my dad let's see what he says #personal #the joys of living alone

[clownsuu]

Small detour of what I usually post, but I absolutely wish (other) clown the best of luck during these confusing and almost hopeless times- nobody knows how to deal with such amount of attention in such short amount of time- a blessing and a curse to behold

#Seeing their posts absolutely shattered me #I may never be able to relate to how he’s going through rn but at least I can relate to the fear of living in absolute fear #the fear of unable to be yourself in your own home with creative and personal freedom #The fear of being terrified that the thing that gives you the most innocent happiness will be heavily demonized and threatened #The fear of getting caught doing something you love and being yourself with your found identity #The fear of destruction #I relate heavily to this and to feel you are going to be caught doing anything that isn’t a crime hurts #I wish him safety and love during these stressful days #He’s brought so much joy to my life that I must keep private irl too #Whatever he decides for the fandom I will fully support it #I will still continue posting of course unless he wishes otherwise #If he sees this (which I doubt) hey other clown lmao- you are loved and not alone #It may be scary but you are not alone- you will never be alone #There will always be people out there who love you and there will always be those who are not even worth giving time of day #The internet is both a blessing and a cruel cruel unforgiving place #I hope it doesn’t deter you from doing what you love and hold dear #I hope you have anyone you can be with online or in irl that can give you the comfort you need #You deserve peace and security #Do what you feel is best #Welcome home

[im-still-watching-anime]

sasuke: i’m still glad we made up and all but….

naruto: …..but?

sasuke: us killing each other would have been SO romantic

naruto: i was JUST thinking about that—

#naruto #naruto shippuden #naruto incorrect quotes #sasunaru #sns #uchiha sasuke #uzumaki naruto #the way their brains work is The Same™️ #also i think they frequently think about the homoeroticism of their attempts to murder each other #i CERTAINLY do #it’s one of those things i try to sneak in whenever i write fics for them but i dont think it EVER comes across #i want to write a full fic dedicated to it one day cause #UGH #the joy that you get to keep living together versus the regret that you couldn’t die together #the knowledge that the life you were so determined to claim #that you alone wanted to take #will likely be taken by something else #and you’re happy you don’t have to do it but you’re devastated something else will #UGH a favorite theme of mine #i want to explore it narratively i want to explore it narratively SO bad #sorry if this sounds off my meds wore off like three hours ago #and im going insane thinking about their dynamic to distract myself ig

[3-aem]

me thinking my cat is being so impolite constantly meowing while im trying to cook vs him thinking it’s completely inappropriate for me to then pick him up, likening it to mrder for the the crime of speaking his mind.

#delete later #hes like no!!!!! its not hug tim i want food!!! #problem is living in a studio is its all technically one room so me putting him on one side of the apartment like leave me alone rn he just #walks back over #unrelated though it brings me untold amounta of joy when i watch the footage of him pit patting into the kitchen and back everytime his #autofeeder goes off #😭😭

[omitbs]

if i’ve said it before i’ll say it 29394947 times. i really don’t care at all for joy’s characterisation of charles’ “flaws” because to me that old man is clearly autistic or neurodivergent in some way. she basically admitted to knowing him for 30 years and in all that time was waiting for him to change traits about himself that are clearly a part of who he is

#charles haden savage #joy omitb #omitb spoilers #omitb #3x05 #it’s also the insinuating that him wanting to continue living alone and (originally) not wanting to get married makes him ‘self-absorbed’ #when really they just want different things #(dont say it dont say it)

[samarecharm]

I should add poledancing to the list of odd talents that Akira has but has no business having due to growing up in a small suburban town. I only had access to it bc i had a YMCA that had a MASSIVE gym (in a criminally underfunded part of the city); there were poles put up alongside some other structures to allow counselors to make up some shit for us to do lmao

Hes got a flair about him; speaking from experience, it is FUN to do gymnastic shit like that, and its really really REALLY good for ur core. Other things on the list are basic gymnastics (he hates that shit tho, the classes he took sucked ass), Parkour (loves this; less about running and more about utilizing ur core and bracing for falls), and Knife Flipping/Spinning. Theyre all odd things that coincidentally ended up being VERY good experience for the metaverse :) YEAH the metaverse makes it easier to pull off tricks, but he already knew how to do all those things; you cant get Ryuji or Yusuke to spin kick off a pole wo having them fall and bust their ass- Its ALL skill babey

#chattin #akira #i also hc him as someone who Can do yoga but hates doing it alone bc its boring #but he LIVES off of attention #and being good at doing extreme yoga poses will give u ppls undivided attention LMAO #hes like. before i learn this thing. is it Cool? and will it make people say ‘what the fuck?’ out loud? #i feel like he wouldnt tell anyone about anything voluntarily #ann makes a comment about pole dancing bc shes seen some of the older models do it #and it just seems so impossibly out of reach for her. and hes like. do u have a trainer? i could help #‘what do u mean help???’ ‘what else would that mean? help you Do the Thing bc i know how to Do it’ #ann is the only person whos seen it outside of the metaverse. hes a bit clumsy w more extreme poses but hes good at spinning :)! #she manages to get herself upside down and they both scream in shock and joy #the whole time ive been writing im like. i wonder if theres some people i can find in my area #im working out again and pole dancing would be fun #or rock climbing tbh #i just like climbin on shit like a little monkey lol

[rovermcfly]

got tired of all the misanthropic customer service memes, I love getting to talk to people of all walks of life and getting to help them out and learning about regulars' lives. people are wonderful and diverse and kind and the handful of mean ones can't ruin that

#I enjoy working saturday mornings bc that's when we get the most customers #of course I also very much like days when we get very few and I can read a book or something #but I love talking to these people #and some of them really seem to need someone to talk to #especially older people who live alone are beaming when I can give them 10 minutes of my day to have a chat #or show some patience when they're confused or lost #what a privilege to bring small mundane joys and get paid for it

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #9318

  Creating my own happiness even if things aren’t perfect yet. – Guest Submission

(Please don't add negative comments to these posts.)

#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #creating #happiness #happy #joy #enjoyment #life

[statementlou]

why do you think louis said this might be the only time he plays at the hollywood bowl? do you reckon it might be because his tickets sales aren’t going well and he was told that it won’t be possible to book venues like these next tour? that made me kinda sad :((

every day I get asks being like "do you think [random thing that happened in the last 24 hours] is because Louis' ticket sales are so bad?" and it's obviously just annoying harries with nothing better to do than try to make people unhappy (TPWK!!!) and maybe they're just getting cleverer here and have tricked me, but this sounds like it might actually be a person who they are getting to with this garbage and have made unhappy so fine, I'll bite-

Louis' ticket sales are going FINE!!!! He is playing great shows every night and is on target for the tour he has booked and everything he's doing is completely sustainable and if nothing changes (which it will, for the bigger; he has been picking up more fans every year) he can keep touring like this (and playing these venues) indefinitely! The idea that every show that doesn't sell out is a failure is made up and makes no sense- if every show sold out there would be people who wanted to give them money but were unable to do so. That is not how capitalism (and growing your fanbase) work for any working musicians outside the top .00001% biggest in the world! If your venues sell out, then next time you book bigger ones, and you keep doing that until you hit a size where it doesn't sell out so everyone can buy buy buy those tickets. I can't know for sure why Louis said what he said; but he is constantly in disbelief that things are going as well as they are for him and while this album and tour especially he seems to have finally started to believe we really do like what he does and aren't going anywhere, I think that's still there and that's what I heard with that. I mean also it could be next time he plays LA he ends up in an equal size but less iconic venue and booking never lines up with that space again or something, for all I know it's really hard to get on their schedule. Hollywood Bowl is a historic and renowned venue and Louis was excited to play on a stage that has hosted so many famous people and moments and was trying to be in the moment and appreciate it (as he has been focused on making an effort to do lately) because the future is a mystery and anything that is ever happening might never come around again, but I don't think it's cause for concern.

#I've been a fan of Louis for a long time and there were definitely times when that meant being sad and worried #and it wasn't just fun and good times. #so I wouldn't tell someone who was having these stresses oh if you're unhappy just go! or anything like that #I get it #but also these days for me it's just JOY for him things are going SO WELL and it makes me sad #to see people missing out on that because they're listening to the gloom and doom squad #what do people get out of catastrophizing everything? always finding something to worry about and then telling other people #they should also worry about it? let alone making them feel guilty if they don't #it seems like a terrible way to live #and I'm sorry for the fans who are being negatively effected by these sour people #blah blah blah

[areyousanta]

Now I remember why I don't draw in front of my family, I get yelled at for it!

#stfusanta #had to shut down a lecture from my grandmother this morning #she was so disappointed in me for not making art my career #'no i wont accept that its your hobby' #'hobbies aren't real! you need to make it your lifes work' #like damn i just like drawing my little silly blonde men #leave me alone #but seriously #the reason i dont is because drawing is the first thing that gave me pure joy #like i get warm and tingly when a drawing turns out the way i want #or mastering a skill ive been working on #and im not harping on people who do art for a living! i think that shits awesome! #but i just dont want that #some people read a book and get lost in it to have their me time #i draw #my moms the same way #both of them say 'i never had a hobby why do you need one!!' #its not my fault you made you life all about work #my grandmother and my moms siblings shame my sister for her hiking #like they think she is insane and irresponsible for working for a few years to save money #and then quitting for a year to hike the AT CDT etc #because she loves it so much and shes lucky that the company she works for will take her back for her job everytime #cause its kinda niche and shes really good at it #but were shamefull for having a hobby that doesnt really run a profit #shame on us i guess

[frogmanfae]

Rest in peace David Jacobs, you would have loved The Beatles

#i wont wxplain why but this is true #... #who am i kidding im buzzing to talk about this #he gets kidnapped by the lyrics #lyrics like #“I don't know why nobody told you How to unfold your love I don't know how someone controlled you They bought and sold you” #and #“We would shout and swim about the coral that lies beneath the wavesOh what joy for every girl and boyKnowing theyre happy and theyre safe” #and he cant leave even if he wanted to #he has spent HOURS sobbing to the beatles songs #only when hes completely alone tho #he schedules it #jack: can you hang out on saturday? #david (knowing he'll have the apartment to himself on saturday so he can cry to I Am The Walrus): no i have to study sorry #newsies #david jacobs #livesies #davey jacobs #newsies live #uksies #92sies #newsies uk #newsies 1992

[blujaydoodles]

thinkin about pre-campaign Elyss and the early days with the Darkwind Regiment 😌

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #character art #illustration #genasi #water genasi #half elf #sorcerer #bard #paladin #I dunno how quickly khemed and taldian adjusted to elyss #but since they were the first members of the party and jermaine was the last I figured I could have him the only one Nervous regardless lol #elyss is weird and offputting NOW that she's comfortable with these people and has literally any social skills at all #she joined the regiment out of necessity FRESH off a twelve year run of living completely alone in the woods #so you can imagine #very few people in our home continent have ever even heard of genasi so there's also [gestures at all of her] you know #anyway this whole thing filled me with joy and love for my girl and her friends #(including those not pictured cause I ended up going back through aaaall my art for this campaign) #I know for a fact Jermaine was intimidated by her at first cause Justin and I have talked about it and now that's her best friend 🥺💕 #I love them.... #jermaine #khemed #taldian #my OCs #elyss #darkwind regiment #dungeons and doodles

[pepprs]

ok. im going to make this post but i REALLY shouldn’t but i just am so devastated rn and need to not be alone in it and you guys are the only people i can talk to candidly about moving stuff rn for a lot of reasons. the reason im crying rn is because i just found out i made a massive error in my budget and it turns out that my net pay is barely over minimum wage and i cannot afford to live by myself. at all. unless i live off of savings in addition to income but even then that’s only going to help me for a couple months and anyway it’s extremely unwise bc i should save that money for getting a car etc etc. this is not entirely a bad thing because a) at least i can afford to… you know… live. and b) living with roommates will not be bad especially if i live with friends and/or strangers i come to be friends with. it’s just i really… i don’t know i just feel so sick to my stomach. it’s just that recent events have made it so clear to me that i need to teach myself how to live independently before i can live with other people (let alone function in the world, heal from trauma, etc.) healthily. i know it so deeply. and it can’t happen for me. this is confirmation. this is confirmation and there’s nothing that can change it. rent is too high (even for shitty apartments in the area which let’s be real most of them are… it’s too high!) and over half of my income is going to taxes and deductions and bills and student loans. i feel so hopeless

#an di still have homework to do LMAOOOOOOOOOOO as if im not having a crisis over this issue which is more important than any hw assignment #will ever be. fuck my stupid baka life but i mean it so sincerely. #purrs #delete later #again. i know even being able to consider living alone is a MASSIVE privilege and there will be joys in having a roommate especially if it’s #someone i love. but it’s going to create sooooo many more steps in this process for me and i will have to compromise my needs yet again ( #even if i genuinely want to!) when what i need right now is to have as little compromise as possible. to FINALLY experience what it’s like #to live without having to share (most) things or silence myself. moving out at all is going to be huge and helpful no matter if im living #with roommates but. god god god. this feels like thinking a door is open but it’s just painted to look that way. im so sad #also btw i found out that i am not actually being overpaid im being UNDERpaid. which is a solvable problem that will be fixed this week but #even when that gets corrected i still am making a little over minimum wage so. 😃🔫

[lucky-clover-gazette]

uh oh! well-meaning coworker genuinely asked if you’re doing okay, and elaborates that you’ve been quiet and seemed down for the past few days

#i never know what to do when this happens #i can’t be emotionally repressed i’m so bad at it honestly if someone notices i’m sad it mostly just makes me feel oddly comforted #of course i said i was okay and i am. i will be. i’m just working through a thing #but yeah yknow what it does feel some type of way to be Noticed #i like living alone and having a life that i get to control but sometimes i just feel so… unseen #so for someone to be familiar enough with my behaviors and the joy i usually spread just by being myself #that they notice when i'm having an off week #it's nice. thanks [name of coworker]

[antisisyphus]

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#its very difficult for me to deal w these new feelings of depression & (passive) suicidal ideation that dont stem from mental illness #but just abject despair from the world around me. #how can i want to live in a world where suffering and loss and evilness has permeated every corner of life? #when my existence depends on the suffering of others & there truly is no way for me to stop #sure i can mitigate it somewhat. but every coffee i drink has been touched by slaves and underpaid workers #by children abused by the system. that i stand atop of #when the fruit i eat has been picked by people who only want to live in peace and comfort yet who are hunted by my goverment #i dont want to die. i want to be alive so much. but it is almost unbearable to live like this. #i can only say that this feeling wont last forever #that tomorrow i will live in the same world i have always lived in and yet i will be capeable of hope and joy #i wish i could go out and lay down in the road and dissolve in the rain #okay. #okay #soon nathaniel will be over and i wont be alone