#these are also topics me and Kate have rambled about

[burymeinwillow]

but re your tags, *would* you cover joe and candy and the topic of touching? please 🥺

SEE!! AGAIN!!! THEIR DIFFERENCES!!!! differences that align perfectly with each other......

It's my HC that both Joe and Candy are both touch starved and crave physical touch but in very different ways.

Candy doesn't know it's something he's starved of. He likes to keep a distance, both emotionally and physically. Whether that's because of his own bounderies or because he wishes to respect other folks bounderies (or both?). Once he gets closer with someone maybe he'll do friendly taps on the arm and things like that, but aside from that Candy is very reserved with his physical touch.

To Joe, physical touch comes very natural. He's been raised in a loving home where physical affection was very normal. (I say this beacuse in the show itself, SO OFTEN Ben shows affection to his sons via touch. Stroking their hair when they're ill, a reassuring or comforting hand on their shoulder or arm, etc etc). So to Joe, it comes very natural for him to do little touch gestures towards people he cares for, either romantically or platonically.

Candy doesn't realize he's starved of it until he meets the right person. Sure he's known Joe for some months, but during one random instance Joe placed a comforting hand on Candy's arm and at first Candy didn't think much of it. Until Joe removed his hand and it was as if his hand print lingered on Candy's skin. Lile a burning mark that wasn't even painful, but it's a wierd sensation that Candy has never felt before. He probably gets scared of it at first, doesn't know how to process those feelings or the fact that he wants to be close to Joe. Wants Joe to touch him again. Suddenly everytime Joe brushes into him or touches him, it's like tiny explosions or bursts of fires inside him.

To Joe it's the same, but in a different way. He's used to handling touch, but after a while he starts realizing he's touching Candy alot. Like he needs the reassurance of Candy's presence. At that point Joe probably gets very conscious about it and tries to tone it down out of respect for Candy. THEN it becomes this weird thing between the two of them, Candy wanting the touch but too closed off to say anything/approach Joe about it and Joe trying to minimize his touch because he wants to respect Candy's bounderies.

But naturally, they eventually get over that phase where they're both kinda circling around eachother and that whole subject. When they get to the point where they have a deep relationship, touch is a huge thing between them. Not just the casual touches, friendly pats and those kind of things, but we're talking the kind of touch that really reaches into your soul, the kind of touch that will ground a person and make them steady.

When Joe loses his temper and gets angry, Candy's gentle hand on his arm calms him down in an instant. Makes him think clearly again. When Candy starts to feel restless about being in one place and the instinct to move on kicks in, Joe's hands and arms around him calms him down. Joe's touch quells Candy's restlessness and makes him remember that he's home, reminds him that Candy is where he belongs.

Again this post is already so long but I could go on about so many things 😭 Candy having an obsession with Joe's hands and will occasionally take Joe's hand in his own and remove his glove just to feel his touch. Perfectly knowing the details of eachothers hands, each line and scar or mark. Using touch as a way to find eachother if they're hurt or ill. Fingertips tracing scars, etc etc etc

#ask answers #anon #Joe/Candy #im sorry it takes me abit to answer these I need like 1-3 business days to gather my thoughts from being a convulated mess #these are also topics me and Kate have rambled about #IT MEANS SO MUCH THAT YOU WANNA HEAR ME RAMBLE ABOUT THIS THO #-slaps the hood of Joe/Candy- this ship can fit so much

[ktaerssoi]

caught lacking

paige bueckers x fem!reader

summary: you get caught watching edits of paige.

notes: not proof read.

you had been getting edits of the team for a while, most of them were pretty cool and you liked to interact with the fans. that being said, some of the paige edits had you thinking about her more often.

you were in the weight room with ice, you had taken a little water break while she went off to finish some set. you hadn't noticed her walk over to you until you heard her laughing. you turn around quickly, shutting your phone off as you began to get flustered.

"it was on my for you page! it's not like i looked it up!" you were tryijng to defend yourself but you weren't helping much. "well your for you page is based off of things FOR YOU, so girl if you think paige is fine just come out and say it." ice smirks at you as you cross your arms, waiting to hear your confession.

"she's pretty yeah, but i wouldn't get with her. we're friends." you weren't even convincing yourself at this point, you knew you were in for it. "listen just please don't tell anyone else on the team, please."

because you have the best luck ever, paige, nika, and kk all walked into the weight room as you were speaking. your team was a nosy to say the least, so you weren't shocked when you heard "girl boo, i want to hear! you gotta tell me"

you shook your head at kk, sighing as you heard her start to complain about being out of the loop. you tense for a moment as you feel an arm around your shoulder but quickly relax when you realize its just paige, ice giving you a very obvious look.

kk, being the annoyingly observant idiot that she is gasps as she puts the pieces together. "finally!" paige and nika look over confused from the conversation they were having, and your face is paling considerably.

"kk bro shut up, its not what you think it is." you brush her off, going to focus back on whatever paige was talking about but she had taken her arm away confused. "wait what? i don't get it? what can't me a nika know?"

paige looks a tad betrayed, as if you holding information from her was a devastating loss. "it's nothing P, kk is just getting a head of herself." paige narrows her eyes at your excuse, not quite buying it.

"mhm okay," she goes back to whatever and it seems the topic is dropped.

-

a few days later you had gone out to dinner with the team, everyone had gotten up to get drinks but you, leaving you to entertain yourself for a minute or two. you pull out your phone, opening tiktok and seeing edits of paige and kate martin on your screen, scrolling for a little you find a weirdly entrancing edit of paige.

"hey, i know you said you didnt want a drink but i got you a dr. pepper.." paige's voice trails off as she notices clips of herself on your screen. you jump at the sound of her voice, causing you to drop your phone, the phone that it still playing once paige picks it up.

"i swear that was random, i almost never get those." you hurry to explain yourself, but are quickly cut off by paige. "dude, if you think i'm going to judge you based off the edits you watch of me, then yiou have never seen the ones of you. i mean seriously, you look good."

you nod at paige's words, a bit dumbfounded that the girl you had been slightly obsessing over just admitted to watching tiktok edits of you. "well, sounds like we should both get one of those privacy screen protectors." she laughs a little, nodding.

"also, um, sorry if this is weird but would you want to catch dinner some time? like just the two of us?? it doesn't have to be a date or anything," you cut paige out of her ramble, nodding as the team returned.

"sure P, just text me."

#wcbb #paige bueckers #paige bueckers fic #wlw #uconn wbb #uconn huskies

[crushedsweets]

If the demons n all are attracted to the forest due to "supernatural magnetism" you could always say it was supernatural fate that brought them there I guess, I'm thinking butterfly effect-

Like say a creep needs a job, kills someone for their position, is caught out and is on the run, hitchhikes with a random trucker, and they arrive at Tim and Brian's farm, a place to stay AND a job!

That's a shit example but it's just a series of a events that just so happened to bring them to the farm, but really it's just supernatural magnetism pulling them in creating fate or something. And it can obviously be much more detailed (less shit😭) and connected with characters backstories maybe ykyk??

Idk if this sounds dumb asf it sounded better in my head☠️

supernatural magnetism is such a good phrase im kinda obsessed w it actually . . perfectly describes what i have in mind LOL. ok ramble under cut

MMM i do think butterfly effect is how most of the human creeps end up in the story !! jeff, liu, nina, toby, jack, and natalie all ended up in the same area after a series of shitty events (maybe domino effect moreso than butterfly? dunno theyre all confusing to me). tim, brian, sally, and kate just happened to already be there

kinda off topic from what you said but the way i imagine creeped is. ok this is cringe. if i were to make a comic, it would be.... kinda episodic with theres the underlying plot that slowly unravels. , with each creep/ghost/demon having their own episode to reveal backstory. or chapter if its a comic. .? KINDA LIKE GIRL FROM NOWHERE AGAIN (this is my 2nd time mentioning it today lol) and the proxies/toby would be the main character(s) since they work for slender, who is. kinda the 'mastermind' behind all of this.

but the problem is, for the proxies/slender, they dont have much incentive to keep around slasher-type creeps. for jeff, its to keep ben happy. for clocky, its cuz she doesnt cause much trouble and toby heavily vouches for her (slender also knows he needs to keep his proxies relatively content). but beyond those two ? they'd rather just kill helen to get cops off the roads and patrolling their forest. so i imagine all the other killers(bloody painter, x-virus, nathan the nobody) are in different states or. dead .

ofc, the operator would play a huge part in rando killers and everyones backstory webbing together, but im fighting for my life to find a decent way to put everyone together

realism isnt exactly what im going for (i literally have demons) but i dont want it to just be another mansion trope yk ? sighs . . collapses.... life is so hard... jokes but yea

OK SORRY IDK WHAT IM EVEN YAPPING ABOUT ty for this anon it put good thoughts in my head. much to think about..

#asks #creeped

[starlit-hopes-and-dreams]

Happy STS, Anna! You mentioned recently that you were still getting to know your new character Riah (we’re so excited to meet her btw 😁). Has she revealed more of herself to you since you shared that? Anything fun or juicy you wish to/are able to share about her? If not, feel free to ramble about a topic of your choice instead. 😊

Happy STS, Kate! :D

Oh boy, this is a dangerous question. I just got refocused back onto HD arc 2, you know? You risk pulling me away from that to work on shattered kneecaps again LOL (somehow I don't think you would protest that lol) (and I am so excited to share her :D)

Under the cut bc it got long and I included some quotes :)

So. I have been rolling Riah's backstory around in my mind, trying to figure out where she came from. This is an unusual method for me, and may not actually work, but we'll see.

I don't think I've mentioned this outright yet, but Riah used to work as a prostitute until she was... acquired by her current, uh. person. It's a complicated dynamic :') Let's just say the place she worked was not the greatest, and she thought this person alone was the better option. Ooph.

Anyways, I've been thinking about how she became a prostitute to begin with. She is older than the characters I've previously written, in her 30's, so has more room for previous history, you know. I'm thinking she either ran away from an undesirable situation, or she found herself out on the streets for whatever reason and was forced to turn to prostitution to survive.

I'm also thinking she was raised in a respectable section of the city; perhaps the child of crafters or merchants. Not too high up in society, but not poorly off either. So how did she get to this undesirable situation or whatever? I don't know the answer to this yet.

Anyways, have a snippet that may provide a bit of insight into her personality :)

It took her too long. Too long to stand. Too long to work up the nerve to duck under the chain, making sure to only step on the blocks of stone. Too long to raise her head. She probably resembled nothing more than a frightened prey animal.  Annoyed with herself, Riah set her jaw and forced herself to look.

And here, have another from Nykim's POV, because I'm feeling nice lol

Nykim hadn’t expected kindness from her at all.  But the truth was, he didn’t want Shadow to stop staring at him, even if that did prolong his suffering. She was an excellent focus, and not just because she was nice to look at. There was something about her voice, something about the emotion behind her brilliant blue eyes, something about how she’d overcome her obvious fear of him enough to come around to look him in the eye.  Well, kind of in the eye. She’d been looking at some other parts of him too.  There was something about that smile she tried to hide from him after he’d purposely brushed his lips against her fingers.  There was something about the automatic fight or flight response she had when the door opened.  Fuck. 

#starlit asks #little-peril-stories #I do like characters that are meek or so beaten down they seem that way #riah is the latter #😏 #total juxtaposition to my other preference #which is violent over the top protective morally gray characters #lol #sts ask #wip: shattered kneecaps

[fortheturnstiles]

Hi :) do u happen to have any podcast reccs for lil old me

sure!! i don't listen to very many podcasts regularly these days but there are a few i know i like and would listen to an episode of at any time

i really love girls, guts & giallo by annie rose malamet, which is about subversive and controversial film, heavy on the horror but she covers all kinds of interesting movies. she has a lot of really great insight on the films she talks about and cool guests and is just really fun to listen to in my opinion. pervert critics make the world go around!!

for more sort of casual talk-y / pop culture discussion podcasts i like las culturistas and like a virgin! the hosts on both of those are all really funny, i don't keep up with them super regularly but whenever las cultch has a guest i like i'll usually tune in. and the vampire episode of like a virgin is so fun and basically got me to start watching true blood last year ehe

ok this is just kind of a one off thing but there's an episode of this podcast called punch up the jam where chris fleming is the guest and the topic of the episode is the kate bush song running up that hill (every episode is centered around one song and they sort of go thru the whole thing and break it down bit by bit) and it's one of the funniest things ever to me bc i really love chris and his taste in music is so interesting basically he understands kate bush in the same way i do and it made me feel seen. also he's super funny bc well it's chris fleming i love that guy

honorable mentions for more film podcasts i sort of drop into whenever there's an episode about a movie i like or am intrigued by: blank check, you must remember this, SLEAZOIDS, and two or three things i know (not sure how active this last one is anymore sadly)

ok this is a bit long and rambly but i hope these are interesting to u! thanks for asking eheh :-)

[markantonys]

I just want you to know that through your ramblings, I am a WOT book stan without ever having read the books (which I actually want to! bc of you! but my god! so many! so long! I’ll get around to it) but back to the topic at hand, please never stop, I love reading what you have to say about both WOT and other books, thank you for being on tumblr and shouting into the void <3

oh my god i love this so much haha i can't believe my WOT rambling is not only comprehensible to someone who hasn't read them, but interesting and enjoyable! thank you for the kind words, i'm so glad you've been enjoying my shouting into the void!! <33

if you're interested in starting the books but feel intimidated (i definitely did!! and am frankly amazed i finished them all because i NEVER thought i would) i would really recommend giving the audiobooks a shot! i'm usually not an audiobook person at all and it's true that i never absorbed as much as i did while reading the print book, but the audiobook really helped for getting through slower sections of the books/the character POVs i was less interested in that i would've put off reading forever if i was only reading the hard copy. if i'd had to read all of perrin's chapters in the hard copy rather than just having my dear friends michael and kate read to me whilst i did a fun thing like build a house in the sims, i would still be on book 4 jdkfjgjk i also checked the books out from the library rather than buying them so that i could use the due dates as deadlines by which i Had To finish the book. it is all about playing little tricks on my brain! it also helped immensely that i watched the show first and was already attached to the characters and eager to read about them - i'm not sure if you've seen the show or if truly Everything you know about WOT is just from reading my posts haha but if you haven't then i would recommend starting with the show to warm up for the books!

anyway, i hope you'll like the books if and when you do get around to them! and keep me updated, i would be fascinated to know if the, um, strong opinions of mine that you have likely absorbed from following my blog hold up when you read for yourself, or if you'll go "what was that clown talking about! min is actually amazing and gawyn sucks!" djkjfg

#i don't wanna brag but multiple people have told me that my pro-gawyn propaganda has worked on them a least a little #so i have hope that anon would go into the books with their third eye wide open and their heart ready to cherish him <3 #anonymous #answered

[amphibifish]

ramble about nicky and rod’s subplot /nf

-your number one pookie

(I HAD TO REWRITE THE ITEHR HALF OF THIS I AM MILDLY ANKOYED SO SORRY IF THIS SUCKS PAST A CERTAIN POINT)

ON IT BOSS !!!!!! this is gonna be very disorganized lmao

rod and nicky's sideplot works really well to sort of almost mirror princeton and kate's ? i think ive made like 20 posts about how similar they are so i won't go too in depth abt it but basically they follow a sort of similar structure.

fantasies come true is one of my favorite songs for like. so many reasons. i'm gonna try and keep this on topic 2 just rod and nicky BUT JUST KNOW kate is very important to this as well and i will end up talking about her lol.

aside from the fact this is the song where rod finally believes he isn't alone his struggles and believes that he's finally found someone to care for him just as he's cared for them, this song sets up for the end of act i so so much !!!!

this is the song that shows just how much kate and rod care about princeton/nicky, and how much they truly mean to them. princeton and nicky are the people they have been waiting for all this time, the people that would stay by their side and love them and care for them just as much as they do to them(princeton/nicky).

the ending of fantasies come true is also so so bittersweet. like rod gets awaken and all of his dreams are crushed !!! he goes back to believing he is alone, and not only that, he has to deal with the fact that him and nicky truly weren't meant to be, and they will never work out. the script makes this SO SAD. like look at this.

rods goodnight can be interpreted as him putting his fantasy (haha get it) of him and nicky being together to rest, and accepting that it will never be. despite this, he still longs for it, knowing it will never happen. ("he looks at nicky, wistfully")

this makes the end of act i so much sadder !!!! like kate thinks that princeton is just as dedicated to their relationship as she is then and then princeton ends up breaking up with her. rod also has it pretty rough.

already he's feeling lonely and envious (implied here but somewhat stated in act ii) of the bonds his peers have, and then his best friend, the person he though he could trust the most, goes ahead and betrays that trust by outing him in front of everyone. not to mention he's already mildly ashamed of the fact he's gay, and that christmas eve (indirectly) told him to stay in the closet + that he's good for nothing.

john tartaglia acting in the scene where rod kicks nicky out is so good btw ."!??! like when rod yells at nicky i jumped the first time i saw it, it gave me the exact feeling i'd have when someone starts yelling at *me*.

nicky doesn't quite understand the gravity of what he's done (ex. making a small joke out of rod implying he wants nicky to move out), so he's a little confused and very upset at these turn of events, but anyways act ii time.

act ii is pretty sad for the both of them. nicky getting kicked out of brian and christmas eve's place has some dialogue that implies a lot. when brian tells nicky to try staying with kate and/or princeton, he tells brian that he's already tried and they kicked him out too, most likely for similar reasons(being messy and not helping around the house too much). this implies that rod was the only one who cared enough about nicky to deal with all of his messiness and what not, despite the aggravation it caused him.

then nicky sings about schadenfraude with gary coleman but anyways let's just move along to rods one scene in act ii.

this is so so sad and made me almost tear up the last time i watched it so.

rod has the chance to take nicky back into his life, to mend their relationship, but he doesn't. despite him desperately missing nicky, he also doesn't want to swallow his pride and admit that he misses him after how much nicky had hurt him.

i'm gonna be honest i was a bit slow with this one but when rod goes to consult with christmas eve, it took me a second to realize that rod brought up nicky after his whole spcheel about wanting someone by his side that make him feel comfortable and safe not only because he loved nicky, but because nicky was the one who made him feel that way, and that's just so .? ? !.?!??

"why don't i have someone by my side? someone who makes me feel special and safe, someone who loves me the way i love them?" "i miss nicky."

nicky was that person for rod, the only thing was that he didn't, and couldn't, love rod the same way.

side note, this scene is also very sweet to me besides the sadder parts because it shows just how much rod trusts christmas eve. i mean he indirectly and very subtly comes out to her, something that rods been so so afraid of. also it's so so so funny to me that rods come to christmas eve with his problems so many times that she just started fuckin charging him money LMAO

the money song is nice because nicky and princeton sort of uplift each other in mending their relationships. i don't have much else to say about rod and nicky's plot in this since the song then focuses more on princeton/kate but yeah.

let's just skip to the end.

it's mildly fucked up but also sort of funny how everyone thinks that rod just fuckin killed himself at the end. especially christmas eve's "GOD DAMN IT" cause that implies she has had to talk rod off a ledge at least once which is like. damn.

anywho the end of rod and nicky's subplot is. well. look i do not mind ricky *THAT* much. i just think it makes the ending of their plot sort of weaker. it doesn't come to that satisfying conclusion.

i understand it's a comedy musical and it's supposed to be funny, which it is cause rods like all "ricky ??!? oh la la *heart eyes* let's go have gay sex" which makes me laugh every time BUT from the perspective of the story itself, it would have been a much more satisfying ending for rod and nicky to get together, or at least have some resolution to rods feelings aside from nicky vaguely implying he knew the whole time(or just missing the point ? i've seen some people say they though that the joke was that nicky didn't realize how similar they looked and just thought ricky was a nice guy but i'm more inclined to believe the former)

idk the ending just feels a little lackluster compared to how much rod went through in the musical, and how much it was shown that he loved and cared for nicky very deeply. plus nicky didn't have that much development as a character aside from that one line that's like "hey rod i won't be messy anymore thanks 4 all u do 4 me do u forgive me" despite having much more screen time than rod, and the ending just doesn't complete that very well. if nicky was also written as queer + closeted i guess it would've been a coming out story 2x but i think they could've written their way around that as well.

i've seen some peoples mention a ver their local theatre or something did in which nicky agrees to try having a relationship with rod, and seeing how well it works out, which i think provides that conclusion to rods feelings and also mirrors kate's "can we take it one day at a time?" very well, so it's too bad that is not the broadway version of the show lol

nicky being written just gay and closeted and just also hiding his feelings for rod would also make for a funny perspective on the story because it would seem like nicky is just hardcore projecting his insecurities onto rod. that's just my two cents though cause what's canon is canon and this musical is already 20 years old and i don't think they're gonna change anything about it lmao

anyways this is why we have the luurvefest "grow old with you" cover

this was much longer i think but then tumblr threw half of it in the trash so uhhh i might be missing half of what i said before cause i had to rewrite a shit ton of it lmao

#fish.answers #personal avenue q tag #i'm not maintaining this this is far too long and incoherent i think #EDIT I FIXED IT READMORE WORKS NOW

[thistle-and-thorn]

What's your favorite nonfiction book?

AHHHHH I read a lot a lot a lot of non-fiction (about equal with fiction I would say) so I am going to bombard you with recs, I am truly sorry, but non-fiction is a passion of mine so I broke it into the three main categories that I read:

To learn about a topic: Say Nothing (about the history of the IRA) & Empire of Pain (about the opioid crisis) by Patrick Radden Keefe. PRK is an excellent, excellent writer. These go super fast, he writes with an enormous amount of pathos, and I really, really enjoyed both of these. (I loved Say Nothing, but my recommendation comes with the caveat that I have problems with the end.) Under the Banner of Heaven (about polygamy and Mormon extremism) by Jon Krakauer is also great. I love how he uses the case to build a history of Mormonism but also questions religious extremism more broadly.

Memoirs I love include: City of Falling Angels by Jon Berendt. Another one I have read again and again. People think it's rambling and meandering but I find it charming. Ducks by Kate Beaton is a graphic novel about working in the Canadian oil fields and is really well-done. The Pigeon Tunnel by John le Carre has stuck with me more than I anticipated as well. One that I just finished this weekend and already want to re-read is Still Life with Bones by Alexa Hagerty about her experience excavating mass graves in Guatemala and Argentina. It's a beautiful meditation on science, death, power, and memory. The Education of an Idealist by Samantha Power is a non-traditional political memoir which gives insight into the philosophy behind Obama-era foreign policy but also...what it's like to be a woman in power?

3. I read a lot of literary criticism as well: Sex with Shakespeare by Jillian Keenan is a flawed, but compelling memoir/Shakespeare essay about how she came to terms with her sexuality and kinks through Shakespeare. On Stories by C.S. Lewis is a compilation of essays and notes on...well, stories.

Okay. that's like. 12 instead of one. i will cut myself off! But I cannot choose!!

thank you T-T

#asks

[brightbeautifulthings]

Hello, lovelies! Tell Me Something Tuesday is a meme created by Rainy Day Ramblings and currently hosted by Because Reading Is Better Than Real Life, That's What I'm Talking About, For What It's Worth, Book Girl of Mur-y-Castell and Offbeat YA. It provides weekly discussion prompts on various book and blogging topics with optional participation. You can sign up for prompts here.

This week’s prompt is: Share your favorite horror books or movies.

I talk about my favorite horror books regularly, so rather than let this post get out of hand, I thought I might limit myself only to the ones I've read in the past year or so. For a more comprehensive list of my horror favorites, check out this post. I update it at least once or twice a year with my oldest and newest favorites!

Rules for Vanishing & Our Last Echoes by Kate Alice Marshall These two books put Marshall on my list of authors that I'm willing to read pretty much no matter the content. She has a gift for uncanny horror and creating an atmosphere of general wrongness, and her plots are so original and full of twists that I almost never know what's coming next. I'm hoping for many more novels set in this universe!

What Moves the Dead by T. Kingfisher I've enjoyed all of Kingfisher's horror novels so far, but this might be my favorite one to date. It has a charming, often funny nonbinary narrator, and Kingfisher has a gift for unsettling descriptions. It's definitely one of my favorite horror adaptations ever, and my only complaint is that as a novella, I wanted more! You can also check out my readalike post comparing it to Mexican Gothic.

Even If We Break by Marieke Nijkamp This ventures a little more into thriller territory, but I feel like there are enough gruesome murders in it to make it count. It's a clever, creepy cat and mouse slasher story with an interesting backdrop of live action role playing, and a cast of diverse, sympathetic characters. Good representation across the board, and at least one "Oh, SHIT, that was creepy" moment.

Harrow Lake by Kat Ellis This is my first Ellis novel, and I'm eager to read more of them. While I would have preferred more definitive answers at the end, it’s a suspenseful, atmospheric, and at times downright creepy horror novel with a supernatural stalker that calls up classic monsters like the Babadook. (Ha, okay, more self-promotion, since I did a readalike for that too!)

Hellblazer, Vol. 1: Original Sins by Jamie Delano Wtf wtf wtf. I've been in love with the character of John Constantine for years thanks to the film and Arrowverse (which I understand are all their own interpretations), but this was my first venture into the comics and ho-ly shit, does it not pull any punches. It starts off grim af and doesn't hesitate to continue venturing into the darkest corners. Definitely *not* for younger audiences, but not to be missed for paranormal horror fans.

#tell me something tuesday #discussion post #booklr #horror fiction #horror #yrstruly

[chanelfunnell]

mail and the answers

A) Amanda Grahovec is Chicago born and a citizen of Chicago. Kaner comes from Buffalo, both Americans. His gf from Buffalo was alike of Amanda so he has a ,type,. No idea about Tazer's type. I think it's uncertain.

NoB) Miss or Mrs Anon, I know I have mentioned Meghan Markle as an example taking front and centre as a domineering woman but please refer to Canadian citizens taxpayers for getting huge bill for a person of non entity from USA just bedding a royal brat from a kingdom abroad and demanding a full police protection. Ask your Canadian and UK government and stupid British king who did not kick Harry with Meghan out of any title of duke. I don't think this ginger whinger is even his son I will not pay a buck for any chica bedding a governor of Nebraska and both Americans. Stay with a topic, please Markle is definitely not right in her head as deluded non entity but they let her to scam them$50 mil for her 3rd wedding in UK and other millions in Canada as just a bedmate. Your Marketa is on the topic if she takes reins of any ice hockey work otherwise -time outshe is more busy getting huge disier on Markle as Markle has contacted anybody for information and defamation and plotting how to be new Prime Minister of UK with her new political party, mocking Kate with her crotch watch to feet of Fergie and Markle for her comments on her social platform who is other PR cretin with own ideology barking in the tabs or who is showing real colours as a mocker of the posh accents and a thief of UK real estate assets. She pronounced herself as a new candidate PM for her new political party with expected sweeping victory and manifesto of border protections, limited immigration of just 5000 student visa and just 30000 work visa, self sufficiency of UK with food. Energy. Huge Corado Catani investigation into corruptions of outsourced contracts and stabilisation of NHs. Fight against woke. Strong army and UK with new strong industries. Rbbotisation, building new housing for growing population, finishing Vrexit and huge transformation of police force..she mocks anything what they publish with her calculations how much people pay and what they got for extra bucks and not huge energy companies taxed. Your M operates behind enemy's line and as silent superpower and an owner of social media platform that gives a power to UK but also to her as a person holding huge media influence. She just watched any bad steps and speeches by posing attention seekers and she can turn it into her advantage. Former Commandant RM who did not listen to her secret letter about a spy policeman targeting a naval officer is out for leakage. Markle apparently wrote the letter based on that to UK king and former UK Marines commandant leaked nonsense about marines apparently after his dismissal. I don't bother about their Game of thrones where even Marti Snow participated on her fictional Insta and who has dragons and walking naked a walk of shame. UK ruling Windsors are stupid and just posing in the press or at the glossy events instead of any proper charity work. Markle is their clone. Marketa is with her sweet face a processor in her head and iron wrist with willpower and an ambitious manipulator who is possibly winning with her chess board manoeuvres seeing 10 steps ahead as very good psychologist with her IT analytical mind to predict a behaviour of mentally unhinged non entities like Markle but at sexual ice hockey scandal of team Canada is up to Canada, your rambling and grievances about Markle up to Canada. UK and UK king to request wasted millions back and kick her out of any titled if she hates it so much and they go with her narrative and you paid for her police protection as unknown unimportant bed mate of royal brat who leaked to the press. Your head and heads of the heads of your countries have to be checked as well. It will not happen in USA. Only Game interesting to me is ice hockey. I don't bother who slept with dell Zotto and no security here and what grandfather had paid for a cup of Eastern Conference. They are posers without ability to skate, knowledge and achievements of anything, just dumb posers and M who is able to read games and rooms well, skate well and self made fancies herself she is Bedard with eyes in her back and McDavid ,Matthews .

#Michael dell Zotto #Nhl #Amanda grahovec #Patrick Kane #Chicago #Ice hockey #Crazies #Meghan markle #Taxpayers #Canada #Team Canada #Police protection #Connor Bedard

[poppyseed018]

First of Many

fem!reader X klitz (girl next door)

summary : klitz drives you home and finally tell each other how you feel..

word count: 1592

warning : drinking/semi drunk reader, mentions of nsfw, mainly gushy fluffy stuff

(sorry if layout is weird i write on my phone)

authors note: i think i want to turn this into a series or at least another part..? lmk pls!! also i just used two random names for reader’s friends, if that’s your name then i’m sorry!!😩

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jesus this music was loud. and why are there so many people here, seems like a fire hazard. i never should have let them convince me to come here. i only know the two people and both are talking to some random jocks, drinking who knows what. sure i could have said no but they told me he would be here and they knew i would cave to see him. or even talk to him.

i’ve been subtly scanning the crowd looking to see if he’s here. super casual about it too, definitely not frantically darting my eyes from one long haired guy to the next. although they never looked as hot as-

him, klitz…

it’s him, he’s here and he’s looking right at me. fuck. look away, play it cool, you look hot, its ok, you look hot. thank god i went home first and changed into a low cut top and an adorable pleated skirt. it was tasteful and sexy and i liked how it looked which is all that mattered.

omg are we still making eye contact?? how long has it been? an hour? it felt like it. ok look down then back up at him and smile, ya that’ll be cute. he smiled back at me and did a little wave. i waved back, maybe too enthusiastically but i gotta make a move sometime, he is leaving for college soon. shit. is he walking over to me? AHHHH HE IS….! ok, play it cool i’ve only had a major crush on klitz since sophomore year when we had a super long conversation about some random history topic. i don’t remember what about, just how handsome he looked while rambling and how he mindlessly fiddled with my sweater cuff.

“hey, y/n! i didn’t think you’d be here” he sits down next to me. this couch must be super old since the weight from him leans us down closer. very close…

“oh hey klitz! ya uh- Kate and Beth made me come but i don’t know where they went” i laughed after, hoping it would make that statement less sad.

“aw that sucks. i can keep you company if you want?”

“i mean ya sure- if you want to that’ll be cool”

“of course i want to. i barely see you now since school ended” he chuckles, elbowing me and frowning slightly.

“ya… are you excited to go to yale?”

“ya for sure, i’ll miss you though,” what did he just say. oh fuck i can feel my face getting hot. i smile and look up from my cup towards him, wait he’s blushing too…

*RING…. RING…. RING*

omg who is calling me at this hour??? oh dang it’s my mom. ok ignore. wait she’ll be pissed.

me: hi sorry i can’t talk rn me and Kate and Beth are at the movies. i’ll be home late. love you!

mom: ok well be safe and make sure that Beth drives safely when it’s dark

“um sorry- where were we?” i put my phone away and look back at him. was he staring at me this whole time…?

“was that your mom? do you need a ride home? i haven’t drank anything i swear! …and i don’t really wanna stay here with all these other people”

“really? you sure…?” omgpleasesayyes

“ya of course. eli and matt will figure something out” he smiled at me.

i smiled back and stood up. he got up too and we start walking to the front door. seriously why are there so many people and why are they all in our way!? am i dreaming or did klitz just take take my hand…. “didn’t want to lose you” he’s barely audibly now that we are walking through the sea of people. his eyes searching for the doorknob and finally we exit the house.

the music has faded but the base is still loud. we walked over to his car. it’s cute and old but i like it. he opens the door for me and says a sarcastic “m’lady”. god he’s so cute. once we’re both in the car it’s silent. the music is barely in the background.

“so uh- where do you live”

“i kinda don’t want to go home yet…”

“oh that’s ok. we can just drive around a little”

“ya that sounds fun” he starts reversing out of the crowded driveway trying to avoid the many people standing dangerously close to all the cars. he turns the music on to a rock station. this is kinda…. romantic??? i go to turn the music up and so does he and our hands touch..!

he’s warm. so am i.

“sorry” he says quietly

“it’s ok… i kinda liked it” i was joking but i could see he’s blushing. “that was joke”

“no i know!.. i liked it too” he laughed awkwardly… cool i ruined it!! “um i- i like your outfit. you look…really pretty”

“oh thanks. you look nice too. the flannel looks nice with your hair”

“really? i was thinking of cutting it before school”

“nono! it’s so pretty!! i really like it” i’m starting to feel the buzz of whatever was in my cup. i reach up to touch his hair and run my fingers through it. “so soft” shit was that out loud. how is it so soft.

“umm..” he’s blushing so hard now, but i can see him smiling

“oh shit i’m sorry” pulling my hand away with so much shame. i ruin it again

“no it’s ok you can keep doing that. it feels nice” oh he likes this too, that’s hot. what’s he doing now? he takes his right hand off the wheel and places it on my knee. who knew he could be this… bold? “is this.. ok?”

i just nod to him. loving every second of this. the small circles he’s making with his thumb are agonizingly slow. i need more of his touches. i need more of him. i wish i was stroking his hair like this with his head between my thighs… i grab his hand and move it a little higher on my thigh. did i just hear him whimper..?

“you’re skin is… it’s soft” he slowed down to turn and pulled into a park parking lot. what on earth are we doing here..?

“i think i’m drunk klitzy”

“i think you are too, y/n” he laughs at me but i like it

“i wanna kiss you” did i just- i didn’t just say that. i turn away hoping he won’t me see how red my face is getting

“no you don’t” he sounds almost disappointed. “i think it’s the alcohol talking”

“well maybe but i do want to. i have for awhile kinda” i turn back towards him and take his hands in mine. avoiding eye contact but i guess now is as good a time as any to tell him.

“are you serious?” shit he must not feel the same way. i start looking around to see where i am so i can sprint out of the car. i start to pull my hands away but he grabs them back. “i- i do too… and i have for awhile too. since like sophomore year really”

he’s looking right into my eyes now. there’s no need for me to run anymore. i wanna stay in this moment forever.

“i really like you klitz.”

“i really like you-”

*DING*

mom: is the movie almost over it’s getting late

me: ya just ended. on my way back, might stop for food

“i’m sorry that was my mom” it was getting kinda late. the clock on the dashboard showed 11:25 pm.

“it’s ok. maybe we should go back” i nod and he pulls out of the parking lot. he puts his hand back on my thigh, but higher up where i moved him. he gives it a small squeeze and moves up a little so his hand is just under the pleated skirt i was wearing. omgimsowetrightnow…. the drive is quiet and the car is filled with the sound of the soft rock. it’s a quick drive and after about a song and a half we’re in front of my house. he puts the car in park and looks at me. “you look so beautiful in these street lights” gosh he’s a nerd.

ya i love it so muchhhhh

“um i guess i should go inside...” all i do is blush and glance down… down at his pants omg he’s hard.

“ya i guess” he glances down to my lips then back up into my eyes, “i had a nice time”

“me too”

ok fuck it i have to do this.

i take a deep breath and lean forward to kiss him. he takes one of his hands and places it on my cheek, kissing me back. putting his hand around my head to pull me in closer. i remember him saying he hasn’t had his first kiss yet but damn he’s pretty good. it’s passionate and deep. he bites my bottom lip while we pull back.

“maybe we could hang out another time”

“ya id like that” i smile at him and go to get out of the car. as i stand out he grabs my left hand and kisses it

“till next time m’lady”

“till next time m’lord” i roll my eyes with a smile and walk up the sidewalk

watching him drive away, giving one last tiny wave. that kiss definitely made me drunker. definitely won’t be our last.

#paul dano #paul dano smut #klitz x reader #klitz x you #klitz the girl next door #klitz fluff #klitz smut

[yelenabelovasbxtch]

Secret Crush

Yelena Belova X f!reader

a/n: I just realized that I've never written a fanfic for Yelena, only one-shots so here we are! I had this fun idea and I can't wait to see how it plays out. Let me know if you'd like to be added to my tag list! Happy reading!

Concept: Yelena and Kate are...or...were your close friends. Now it's just Kate. You don't quite understand why Yelena has been ignoring you so much but Kate was determined to figure it out. With the help of another Russian assassin and a certain Witch, the three of them were able to uncover the truth about why Yelena was avoiding you.

Word Count: 1488

Part 1 of ?

Taglist: @jeyramarie @flosbelova @bridgecitybrad @justthis-stuff @chloe7076 @ailenepuff @3xbyrn320 @thorya22 @ravenclawbitch426 @mellowladyangel @wandanatvoid @amcg0615

Being a part of the Young Avengers team is a lot of work. Between training and missions, you have almost no time at all to yourself. A personal life outside of the Avengers compound is pretty much non-existent, therefore, your dating life is extremely dry. You’ve had a couple of crushes on some of your fellow teammates here and there but honestly nothing too heavy or meaningful. At this point, one of them could look at you a certain way and you’d develop a crush, yes, you are that deprived. Kate was definitely your best friend but you were also fairly close with Natasha and Wanda too. However, Natasha’s little sister…that’s a different story. For some reason, you guys had a really great start to your friendship when you first met then all of a sudden she stopped talking to you, hell she wouldn’t even really look at you. The relationship the two of you had was the definition of strictly business. This has been going on for about a month or so now and it has definitely felt weird and off. You’ve been so busy with working on a case that you haven’t really had the time to even think about it too much but it was time to talk to Nat or Kate about it. While you were in your own thoughts about this situation…your best friend was weirdly enough addressing the same topic…

“Yelena…what’s going on? I love you but look I can’t keep doing this. I miss being able to hang out with both of my friends at the same time. Y/n keeps wondering where I am half the time!”

“Then go hang out with her Kate Bishop, I’ll be fine. I like my alone time.”

“Lena. That is not the point and you know it. Just tell me what’s going on, did she do something terrible? Did she make fun of your vest? Did she kidnap your dog? OH! Did she eat the last donut?” Kate says as she rambles on trying to annoy the truth out of Yelena.

“STOP. Good lord, you’re like a little yappy dog who won’t shut up. Yap yap yap yap yap.”

“You know how you can get me to stop…?” She says with a big grin.

Yelena lets out a loud groan of frustration as she starts walking to the door so she can escape the Kate banter.

“I don’t think so!” Kate says running to the door to block her from leaving.

“Kate. If you don’t move out of my way, I will move you and you will not like how I do that.”

Contemplating how bad it could really be…Kate realizes it could definitely be really bad and moves out of the way.

“Thank you,” Yelena says as she walks out the door.

Kate was frustrated. She just wanted her two best friends to get along again and she knew that talking to you would barely help so maybe it would be time for more drastic measures. Time to go to Natasha and Wanda.

“Hey! Guys! I need your help with something.” Kate says as she walks up to Nat and Wanda enjoying lunch together in the kitchen.

“What’s up?” Nat says.

“Yelena is avoiding y/n at all costs. She’s acting like she killed her dog or something and I don’t know what’s going on. Do you guys know anything? I really just miss my friends hanging out with me…together.”

“Sorry Kate, she hasn’t said anything to us. Did y/n do something to upset my sister…?”

“Oh please Nat,” Wanda scoffed. “Y/n is literally the sweetest person here, she couldn’t do anything to hurt Yelena, even if she tried.”

“Exactly! That’s what I’m saying! See why it’s so weird? I just want to figure it out so I can help her.” Kate says.

Wanda turns her head and looks at Natasha with one eyebrow raised.

“Wands…no! That is a total invasion of privacy. You can’t.” Nat says.

“What what what? Can’t what?”

“Hear me out Natty…we bring Yelena here, then y/n walks in and I just poke around in her head a little bit until maybe something is uncovered?” Wanda says in an innocent voice.

“Wait– You can do that? YES! Do that!” Kate says with excitement.

“Okay fine– I want no part of this though because if Yelena finds out we– you guys did this…she will be pissed.”

“That’s fine with me!”

Wanda shrugs in agreement with Kate.

“Okay let’s do this. Nat, I need you to text Yelena and–” Kate stopped herself when she saw the blonde walk into the room.

“Why are you guys acting so weird,” Yelena asks when she sees all three of them looking at her.

“No reason,” Kate answers quickly.

Kate reaches in her pocket to pull out her phone and texts you.

Kate: y/n!!! 911!! There’s an emergency in the kitchen COME ASAP!”

“Okay, I just texted her she should be on her way, get ready,” Kate says to Wanda.

You come bursting through the door, “WHAT’S HAPPENING, IS EVERYTHING ALRIGHT?” you yell.

“Yeah, um, we are just out of uh donuts,” Kate says to you awkwardly as you’re standing there looking hot and sweaty from the gym. You were wearing leggings that definitely complimented your ass accompanied by a sports bra with your hair done in two tight braids.

“Katie– when you say emergency or 911 I think there are intruders. Please don’t do that if we have run out of donuts.”

“Yeah, okay, sorry. I just um, I thought that donuts or rather lack thereof were a…valid…emergency…” She trails off.

“Well, I’m just glad you’re all okay,” You say looking at them and then your eyes scanning over to where Yelena sat at a separate table. “I think that running from the gym to here was my cardio for the day, so I might as well grab something to eat with you guys while I’m here.”

As you say that Kate looks over at Wanda and she gives her a thumbs up.

“Sorry y/n! But we all actually have to go, enjoy your meal though!” Kate says as she rushes Wanda and Natasha out the door.

“So! What did you get?” Kate says with excitement in her voice.

“Well…I don’t know if you’re going to believe this or not but I think that Yelena might be in love.”

“In love?!” Nat chimes in with wide eyes.

“Yeah, I really do think so.”

“Are you sure? Wait, what exactly did you see when you looked in her mind?” Kate asks.

“Well, at first it wasn’t much. She was literally just thinking really hard about toaster strudels for some reason and then when y/n walked in BOOM her mind was flooded with about a hundred different emotions. At first, it was panic, she felt like she had to get out of there, then it was slight anxiousness as her heart was fluttering and then finally she calmed down and all she could think about was y/n’s smile…, her lips were very VERY prominent in her thoughts. How beautiful her eyes were, how her hair looked, and she was definitely super focused on her ass–”

“OKAY! THAT’S ENOUGH!” Kate says.

“Hey, you wanted to know.”

“Wow. I really did not see that coming.” Kate says as she crosses her arms.

“My sister’s in love,” Natasha says. Wanda and Kate both look at her because they forgot she was even there for a second. “I am honestly so relieved. I was worried she never had feelings like that. OH MY GOSH. She never has had feelings like that! With the mind control and everything, Lena never really got to think for herself so this much be so terribly confusing for her. No wonder she’s avoiding y/n!”

“Oh, shit– I never even thought about it that way. What do we do?” Kate asks.

“Nothing. We can’t interfere, it will scare her away.”

“Ah, I don’t know about that Natty, I think Kate should be able to say something, she is her best friend after all,” Wanda says.

“Yeah, yeah, yeah– no– for sure, yeah I can do that,” Kate says nervously as she thinks of ways that she can confront Yelena without giving away the fact that they totally invaded her privacy.

“You got this. Anyways, Natty and I have somewhere to be so keep us posted!”

“Yeah for sure. Um– thanks so much for your help.”

“Anytime!”

“Don’t say that, she’ll think we just read everyone’s thoughts,” Natasha whispers to Wanda.

“Wait! You’ve never been in my head right?” Kate says as they’re walking away.

“Never.” Wanda replies with a cute and guilty-looking smile as her nose scrunches up.

Kate starts to hype herself up so she can work up the courage to go and talk to Yelena. Oh boy. This is going to be a toughy.

– The End –

#florence pugh x reader #cooking with flo #florence pugh smut #mcu #yelena belova #florence pugh #florence pugh fanfic #yelena belova fanfiction #marvel #black widow #florence pugh fluff #yelena x reader #yelena belova imagine #yelena belova smut #yelena belova fluff #wanda maximoff fanfic #wanda maximoff #wanda mcu #wandanat #wanda marvel

[irishseeeker]

                                    i’ve been waiting for you

Summary:  Each time Anthony and Kate first meet their children.

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chapter 1: anthony meets edmund

Anthony meets Edmund Benedict Bridgerton on a sunny, Tuesday morning. He had been woken up by a heaving Kate the previous night, saying it was time. Anthony had completely panicked but had managed to compose himself to run for the staff to contact the doctor and wake Mary. Mary, Kate’s mother, had taken up residence with them three weeks ago to help her daughter through the birth.

It was considered improper for men to be in the birthing suite, it was considered inappropriate and nothing a man should be exposed to.

The fact had horrified Kate when she found out, pregnancy and childbirth was something she was completely naïve about until it was happening to her. She could not fathom going through anything anymore without Anthony beside her, especially childbirth. Anthony understood this, even when Kate did not protest the doctor’s instructions for Anthony to leave.

It was not advisable, but Anthony simply told the doctor to fuck off anyway.

No one told Viscount Bridgerton what to do, except his mother and the Viscountess Bridgerton. Kate. How was he supposed to wait outside while Kate, his Kate, was in agony for hours on end? He could not bear it. He would not bear it.

Before going into labour, towards the end of her pregnancy, Kate had expressed to Anthony that she wanted him there. They were wrapped up in bed one evening, murmuring sweet nothings between them until the conversation took a serious tone. Kate had told him how scared she was to give birth, that she knew it was silly but it still terrified her.

He had been at a loss for words, feeling horrifically guilty of this fear and there was not a lot he could do about it. So he would do anything he could to help her. They read books about it, they spoke with doctors, they spoke with Daphne about her experiences.

If Kate needed him there, he would be there.

Anthony was not physically or emotionally capable of denying his wife anything.

It was a long, tedious birth. Kate had been in labour for most of the night, walking around the birthing suite in an attempt to speed up the process or breathing heavily through each contraction. Anthony never left her side. His hand ached from how long Kate had squeezed it through contractions, not that he would dare admit that out loud.

Kate would definitely smack him.

Eventually, the doctor announced it was time to push. Mary was holding Kate's other hand, whispering soothing and encouraging words into her daughter's ear. Anthony had been screamed at to stay at Kate’s side and not dare go look between her legs. Anthony would not repeat the other things his wife cursed at him as she pushed, as much as they amused him. All he could do was hold Kate’s hand and rest the other on her back, supporting her back as she leaned forward. He did not stop speaking to her, telling her how incredible she was, how much he loved her, how in awe of he was.

Every time he thought he could not not love his wife more, she proved him wrong every time.

The piercing cry that eventually broke through the room in the early hours of the morning left Anthony without the ability to speak.

“You have a son,” The doctor announced, holding the baby up to the new parents. He cut the umbilical cord and wiped the wriggling, slightly pink and purple baby covered in a white substance and red splotches of blood.

“Oh my, is he alright?” Kate sobbed, collapsing against the pillows but her eyes did not leave her son. She looked so exhausted but elated, and the tears streaming down her face matched the ones on her mother and husband’s faces. Anthony did not try to hide his tears, how could he? He had a son. A son. “Oh, Anthony. Mary. Look.”

“You are amazing, I love you,” He whispered against her temple, pressing a kiss there but his eyes never left his son as the doctor returned with the baby wrapped in a white cloth, laying him on Kate’s chest.

“Oh darling, you did so well. He is perfect,” Mary said softly, peering closer to her daughter who had adjusted the baby in his arms. “Have you chosen a name?”

The name of their son had been a topic of debate between Kate and Anthony over the last nine months. They could not agree on a name, or one of them loved a name the other hated.

“We have,” Kate murmured, which caused Anthony to raise an eyebrow at his wife. As far as he was concerned, the topic was very much still up for debate.

“Edmund,” Kate declared, looking up from her son to stare at her husband, her eyes lighter than the heavens above and her smile was small and magical. “Edmund Benedict Bridgerton.”

Anthony was speechless.

“I will leave you two,” Mary said, pressing a kiss to Kate’s forehead and reaching over to squeeze Anthony’s arm before she turned to leave the room. “I will give you a moment of privacy. I will be back soon. Congratulations.”

“Kate,” He murmured, making absolutely no attempt to hide his emotions as he moved closer to his wife and son. He could not think of anything to say other than his wife’s name. He could not put what he was thinking and feeling into words.

“There was never another name for him. It is perfect, don’t you think?” Kate spoke softly, resting her head against Anthony’s shoulder. “A great man named after a great man.”

Again, words completely failed him. All Anthony could do was glance between his wife and son, nodding in agreement. It meant everything to him, absolutely everything to him. His father would have loved it. His mother would love it, as would his siblings. All Anthony had ever wanted in life was to honour his father and be the father he was.

In this moment, looking at his son, Anthony knew that was all he would ever try to do. He wanted to be a man and father worthy of Edmund, worthy of their future children, worthy of Kate.

“Here you are,” Kate said softly, snapping Anthony out of his thoughts as she moved her arms close to Anthony’s as she transferred their son into his waiting arms.

The feeling of his son, his son, being placed into his arms was indescribable. He was pink and loud, his little lungs screaming for air and possibly out of discomfort before settling once he was in his father’s arms. Did he know who Anthony was?

Anthony had never felt anything like this, looking at his first born son. It was not his first time holding a baby, he had held Simon and Daphne’s newborn daughter Amelia only last year. The first baby he had ever held was Hcyinth when he was just eighteen years old. He thought he had felt love then, staring into the eyes of his newborn sister that would never know their father and would only ever know him.

Except this time, Anthony was a father. The most important role in his life, not Viscount, but husband was now tied with father.

He was a father.

This tiny baby, with his slightly pointed nose that was Anthony's and cheekbones that were all Kate, was a part of them. Both of them. He was theirs. He was a Bridgerton.

“Wow,” Anthony whispered, terrified to move an inch as he sat perched on the bed beside Kate. One of his fingertips lightly grazed his son’s tiny cheek, which was not even the size of Anthony’s palm, and his delicate skin was so soft.

He was heaven.

Time had always been an enemy of Anthony's, something he was constantly fighting a battle against. He often wanted to reverse it. Except, this time, he didn’t wish he could reverse it. He found himself wanting to stop it, in this utterly distilling moment, wishing he could stay in this moment of holding his son for the first time forever.

“It suits you,” Kate said, breaking Anthony out of his trance as Anthony broke his gaze and looked up at her. She was the most beautiful thing in the world, laying against the pillows on the bed, her dark thick hair slightly matted and damp. She must be exhausted.

“What suits me?” Anthony asked, resuming his staring contest with his son, whose dark eyes were glancing around the room curiously before landing back on his father. “You should sleep, love. You need your rest to recover.”

“It suits you being a father,” Kate murmured, her eyes drooping closed as she settled herself against the pillows. “You were born for it. Mm. I am rather exhausted. For once, I shall not argue,” Her voice teased him, drifting off as she spoke, a small smile settling on her lips.

He loved her. Anytime he thought he could not possibly love her more, she always proved him wrong.

Anthony did not leave the birthing suite once in the hours Kate slept. He wanted to keep an eye on her, hours after the birth were important ones to observe in case something terrible happened. He also could not take his eyes off his son, or was capable of putting him down.

“I’m your father,” Anthony spoke softly to his son as he stood by the window, gazing out at the night sky. He had been awake far too long but the adrenaline running through his veins kept him awake. If he felt slightly drowsy, he just looked at his son and it sent a euphoric buzz throughout his veins. He brought Edmund closer to his face so he could lightly kiss his forehead. "I am completely yours."

“You will meet everyone soon,” He kept his voice low, cautious his wife was asleep close to them. He had been rambling for a while now, talking about nothing and everything. His son was a few hours old and Anthony wanted to tell him everything. “I promised your aunt Hyacinth she would meet you first, so she will come soon. Then there are your uncles and your aunts. There are a lot of people who love you,” He rocked his son back and forth slowly, watching his lips open and close as he shifted in his father’s arms. “You and I are incredibly lucky. We have an amazing family, but nothing compares to your mother. She is everything.”

“You should sleep, you must be exhausted,” Kate’s voice startled him slightly, and Anthony turned his back on the window to look at his wife. He felt his cheeks darken slightly, wondering how much she had overheard. She was sitting up, half-awake and smiling tiredly at him. “Come here. I miss you two.”

“I am well,” Anthony murmured, obeying his wife as he carefully climbed onto the bed, tucking Edmund against his chest as he did so. Kate carefully took the baby, holding him against her chest with one hand and holding his tiny hand with the other. “How are you feeling?”

“Exhausted and sore,” Kate replied honestly, nuzzling the top of Edmund’s head and pressing a kiss to his bald head with a few tufts of light hair. The baby began to fuss and Kate took that as a sign he was hungry, and she pulled down her nightdress to feed him. “I also have never felt happier in my entire life.”

Anthony chuckled softly, curling himself around his family as he pulled the sheets further over the three of them, carefully tucking his arm under the baby and Kate.

Anthony had never been good with expressing his emotions or dealing with emotions in general, but lying there, beside his family, he felt as if he would burst he was feeling so much. He had to say something. He was conscious of how he made Kate feel, given his opposition to any form of love at the start of his marriage. He never wanted her to feel as if he did not love her or appreciate her, but he still struggled with expressing his emotions. “Me too. I- Kate. Thank you, thank you for everything. For him. For being you. I love you, Kate. I love you both of you with every part of me.”

Anthony glanced up at his wife and his breath caught slightly as her dark eyes were glistening, and she motioned for him to come closer. “It was my pleasure, quite a painful pleasure, but I would do it a million times over. For you. For him. For us. We love you too, you sweet incredible man. Now, kiss me before you pass out.”

Anthony laughed, blinking momentarily to try take the sting out of his wet eyes. Anthony had never felt so much in his entire life and he really needed to stop crying. He would only cry in front of Kate, rarely, but he hoped it was out of his system. He leaned forward and kissed Kate softly, squeezing her hand which lay on top of his on their son’s back.

As Anthony fell into a much needed slumber, beside his wife and son, he had never felt so content in his entire life. This was always where he was meant to be.

He was home.

#posting two fics in the same day who am I #bridgerton #my fics #kate and anthony as parents makes me feel things #I could read five books about them with their kids #there will be 7 more parts with them both meeting each baby #kate x anthony #anthony bridgerton #kate sharma #kate sheffield #bridgerton fanfiction #ao3 #fanfiction #canon

[katierosefun]

so after one really big latte, a muffin, a run which resulted in a near accident with an oncoming car, and a shower in which i contemplated my own mortality, here’s my thoughts on the adorable me & au podcast, because babe wake up new hyperfixation dropped. very spoiler-y, i’m sorry in advance for how f*cking long this is, this might only have like two people reading this but i have many thoughts please listen to this podcast because it’s so cute and i listened to it all in about 2.5 hours? 

- firstly: the main character is super relatable. like, scary relatable. meet kate “acunningplan” cunningham, a gal about to enter her senior year of college and just kinda,,,lost. she works as a barista and very confused, very...stuck gal by day, fic writer (and still very stuck gal) by.........not barista hours. 

- honestly, i love kate. idk i’m about to enter my senior year of college, and bro i related so hard to her fears of “bro i can’t even think about next week without feeling overwhelmed”. she misses her best friend whitney a lot, who is currently on the other side of the country for an impressive internship. so that can be kinda lonely. 

- but fear not, kate has an escape, like so many other fic writers/fandom people: fanfic. this whole story references tumblr without actually naming tumblr (let’s be real....it’s tumblr, from the “notes” to “this stupid app keeps crashing”), and kate follows this tv show about werewolves and supernatural creatures. very gay. only problem is that there’s not a whole ton of people active in the fandom, since this show is relatively new. 

- however, in this small fandom, kate meets ella: otherwise known as “hella-enchanted”, who is another fic writer. 

- kate is very obsessed with the idea of alternate universes, and for that alone, i love her.

- okay, so even if you’ve never fallen in love with a person online/in fandom circles, i just wanna say that ella and kate’s interactions are still so super relatable. the shooting messages, the starting random conversations and getting a little thrill when you see someone liking your personal post or whatever. it’s very wholesome. 

- also, at the end of episode 1, kate goes on about how “yeah, fanfic is kinda odd, but it led me...to you” and it was so soft and gentle you just know your heart is gonna melt huh 

- at one point, kate decides to be vulnerable via vent post about something that came up on the show (and oh god yeah i feel...things. kate relates very hard to one character in the tv show she’s following, and tbh,,,yeah. i can’t quite word it right now, but i think anyone who feels kinda.....stuck? would relate.) 

- the “EXACTLY ONE PERSON ASKED FOR THIS ESSAY SO HERE IT IS” please

- also oh :’)))) kate talks about ella’s playlists and when i tell you i squeaked a little bit because oh hey--

- anyways lol yes can you relate to like,,,posting a vent post and forgetting to delete it and being mildly horrified (but also mildly touched) when someone actually responds?

- ella’s very sweet, just responds with “seems like one of my favorite fandom people needed a pick-me-up” and :’))) i would die for ella! (i mean, i would die for all the characters) 

- okay yes also all the bits where ella and kate scream at each other about fic. very relatable, very real, you can tell that the writers of this podcast really knew this feeling, and i just :’)))

- THE TWO DEBATE OVER TITLES,,,,,kate keeps sending in crack-y titles and also song lyrics, and ella comments on “well,,,i just read this whole wikipedia page, so i think i’ve lost the high ground”, so if y’all KNOW i started laughing at that 

- also LMAOOOO the moment when conversation diverts from fic and fandom to slightly more personal things! kate being like “oh,,,,,you have an actual job! like,,,you’re an actual adult and.....how’s that?” and then quickly rambling on via message “actually let me change the topic because that’s probably too personal”...

- okay so there’s this bit where ella drops the fact that she’s never read anne of green gables because “listen,,,,you have an ex-girlfriend who sang the anne of green gables musical all the time--” and kate’s “.......ex-girlfriend? you had an ex-girlfriend? girl--” (and BACKSPACING ALL OF THAT because “god i’m such a freak”) 

- much gay disaster

- so much gay disaster

- opportunity for kate and ella to meet irl comes up! at a fan convention! in toronto! (and kate lives in bc). kate’s best friend (remember, internship one?) invited kate over to toronto for this thing anyways, and then ella posts something about “heeeey i’m gonna be in the area so if anyone wants to meet up for the fan convention...” 

- let me just say......kate chucking her phone across the room because she freaked out about that. again. very cool, very nicely done, very relatable, etc. 

- ALSO,,,,i forget if this was one of kate or ella’s fics or if it was the actual tv show, but there’s this tidbit where the characters in the literal fandom has this conversation: 

“don’t waste your time.” 

“what?” 

“don’t waste your time on me.” 

and the way that reflects kate’s feelings-but-she’s-not-trying-to-think-about-it for ella please let me just die here

- okay, so kate does decide to message ella about the meet-up, and let me just tell you, kate’s inner monologue about the worst possibilities for ella’s responses: 

“1. no response. which is terrible. 

2. you find out you’re not wanted after all. :(((((

3. the most terrifying response of all.......” (an enthusiastic “yes i’m so glad we can meet up!!!”) 

- well, of course ella responds with #3. 

- gay disaster kate not knowing how to acknowledge her feelings for ella...she goes on this “you don’t wanna come across as....y’know because if they suspect that....y’know.....and like, i don’t....y’know--” oh my god kate 

- anyways, kate works at a coffeeshop, right? and her co-worker stewart (nonbinary pansexual co-worker! we love to see the rep!!) being like “oh yeah maybe you can bring over your friend!” and kate panicking because “ohhhhh i’m not too sure about that,,,,she’s,,,,,,,,,busy......” (ie. the awkward moment of having to explain that,,,,,,your online friend isn’t exactly someone you’ve met in real life,,,,,,,,and not sure exactly how to explain that so you just,,,,,,“ohhhh uhhh......y’know...............it’s really hard to.......get her out of.....work.....” 

- kate and ella video-chatting for the first time is very cute, very gay. very gay. 

- they swap “how’d you know you were gay / liked girls” stories :’))) 

- “that’s a cute story!” “you’re a cute story” [awkward silence] “please let me hide under the desk now” (have i mentioned that kate’s  a disaster? i love her, but you’re a disaster. we need to be best friends.)

- kate.....describing herself as “irl fanfic disaster waiting to happen” and the whole “i didn’t know we were actually dating until she asked if she could kiss me” lmaoooooooooo (but okay yes this is also a mood? like,,,,,,idk something about heteronormative standards so like,,,,,it’s so stupidly hard to figure out if a girl is flirting with you or if they’re just being nice i am glad kate’s such a disaster) 

- in other news: kate’s “how tf do i write a kiss scene i don’t like the word lips ughhhhHHHHH” (yeah, mood kate) 

- lmao stewart (kate’s co-worker!) just chilling with kate and being like “oh yeah i figured you had a girlfriend? the one you’re talking about? ella?” and kate blanking because “wait you thought ella was my girlfriend? she’s not....uhhh....” and then later drinking with stewart and rambling about ella and panicking because “what if she realizes i can’t talk about anything except this tv show what if she thinks i laugh too loud what if i have horrific body odor what if she realizes i have NOTHING to say what if our meeting goes SO terribly that i need to deactivate and change my name just so i could like her posts at 3 am” and then her small “please forget i said any of that” 

- oh kate :(((( 

- kate :((((((

- k a t e :(((((((((((((((((((

- anyways, kate does go to toronto. 

- meets ella. 

- very cute. 

- ella...........very gay. they go into a coffeeshop and kate doesn’t know what to do. 

- okay but what’s hilarious is that ella,,,,,seems so cool and suave and i too would be kind of intimidated by her but then these two idiots really talk about writing kissing scenes and the build-up and ella’s voice gets all,,,,,,suggestive and there’s this.....awkward gay silence between the two oh my GOD they’re both IDIOTS 

- also okay yes kate and whitney, a irl friend, having a heart-to-heart. good. we love that. also, whitney being like “I MISSED YOU!!! YOU IDIOT!!!! and i’m glad you have a new friend, and you’re happy, but I MISSED YOU!!! I HATE THIS CITY AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!!!” (whitney is also very relatable. ily whitney.) 

- they’re so cute. they hug, and it’s sweet :’)) also, then kate says in a stupidly small voice “i think i’m....kinda in love with [ella]?” and whitney being best supportive friend-- 

- OKAY so we finally get an episode of ella’s perspective 

- listen, you’re gonna think ella’s this cool, suave person who has all her own gayness put together (i mean, she kinda knew since she was 9 or 10 years old? she’s had a girlfriend? she seems like she has her life together? she’s waiting to get into grad school? she has a job? she just seems....cool and knows what she’s doing). 

- but then you realize. ella is just as much a pining mess. (her bullet point list/schedule in her head is so relatable. as someone who uses her notes and reminders app religiously, that was just :’))) 

- ella: reasons why this is not a date. and then....kate sends a message. (ella: reason why this....might be a date....kate keeps saying stuff like...that.) 

- kate rehearsing how to tell ella that she maybe kinda likes her? very cute. (”you know the feeling in your chest when....uh, you know when you feel like you have a frog in your stomach--oh god not the frog NOT the frog”) 

- the love confession is very cute, and also very relatable. “i like you a lot” “i like you too!” “no i mean,,,,like i like you. wait. which like do you mean? wait that’s not english. uh. what did you say?” 

- kate’s “I HAD A WHOLE DRAMATIC FANFIC CONFESSION PLANNED OUT” 

- kate and ella just spilling everything made me :’))) 

- “i like how your brain works” “i made so many posts hoping that you would just talk to me” “you always make me laugh” “you just make me feel...better” “you make me smile” 

- “this whole summer you’ve been making me smile and i guess it kind of freaked me out? ...i don’t know where my life is going but if i have a choice, i want to go in any direction you’re going because you are cute and smart and amazing and i like you a lot, ella. like that. so yeah. that’s what i was thinking i’d say.” 

- i essentially explaine dthe whole plot but 

- i love this podcast a lot

- it was very sweet

- and very cute

- very wlw 

- i don’t even mind that i almost got hit by a car while i was running and listening to this it was worth it 

- idk. just like. anyone who’s ever read or written fic or just like...not necessarily fallen in love with another person? but at least relating to that feeling of “oh god i am not qualified to talk to this person” and “oh god what if they realize i’m actually,,,,a loser” and “oh god wait how to friend” can probably hit a lot of people

- but that said. the romance was very cute, very sweet, makes me :’))) 

- okay i’ll stop talking now but i just. it’s very cute, very relatable, i wish we had a season 2 but i think it’s a limited series. (but they’re living rent free in my head! forever!)

#caroline talks #oh god.......oh god #i'm so sorry for how long this is #but in case you couldn't tell i have literally so many feelings #so many feelings #yo @ me and au creators: thank u for making me feel seen and wanting to cry because of it! #it's beautiful #and very gay #and like idk even if you've never fallen in *love* with a fandom friend i think you can still hardcore relate to this? #just because like......bro there's something..........so soft about this #also.....gay disasters #also really saying 'hey everyone's actually super awkward there's no such thing as being cool and suave' #also just......AGH no someone please scream with me about this #i am going to SCREAM about this forever #i also....once again: feel WAY too seen #like.....WAY too seen #anyways #me & au

[duchessofostergotlands]

What inspired you to start this blog and your page on Instagram? I've been curious about it for ages and thought I'd finally ask.

Hey :) So I’ve probably answered similar questions but I don’t think I have recently so I’ll answer again with how I feel now. It’s a bit of a long, winding journey so take a loo break and get a cup of tea before you start haha

My interest in monarchy goes back to my early early childhood, before I knew anything about politics. As a little kid I was very briefly obsessed with Diana. I distinctly remember a time when I must have been 5 or so and I was basically wrestling with my mum because she had put out trousers for me to wear to school and I insisted “princesses don’t wear trousers” to which she smartly replied  “Princess Anne does” and won the argument.. I also loved learning, I’d find a topic and immerse myself in it. From a young age I was fascinated by historical Kings and Queens. I had a book with profiles of all the English and Scottish monarchs and used to read it constantly. I fell in love with Anne Boleyn around that age and that’s never left me. 

As I got older and started to learn more about politics I realised that my view of the world and a monarchy didn’t really gel but I still found the whole thing fascinating and at that time I was more ambivalent rather than strictly anti-monarchy. The fascination probably ramped up with the engagement of William and Kate because I was a student at St Andrews at the time so they were a constant presence around me, I was very much at the epicentre of a lot of that excitement. I don’t know how many times I walked past the library where the international news vans were parked trying to get their attention so I could be interviewed hahahaha. 

I joined Tumblr I think in 2010/11 focusing more on movies and TV. I paid a little bit of attention to Kate’s work but nothing serious. I properly started becoming interested in the fandom in 2012 ish. I noticed there were a few blogs that had a very powerful position within the fandom and they kept saying things that I knew were wrong and not being challenged, or they would say something as a fact and not back it up with any evidence. And the more I saw it the more it aggravated me. I kept thinking “why are they getting away with saying this?” And then eventually in 2014 I realised that if I was sick of something going unchallenged, why didn’t I start a blog and be the one who does challenge it? And that’s when I created this account! I started my Instagram mainly because of the possibility of monetising lol. To be perfectly honest, that was the primary motivation! Things have changed over time - I’m much more interested in the SRF than the BRF now and I’m firmly against having a monarchy - so I’ve repositioned the way I view things now and as Dina said in her post the other day, I think of myself as someone who follows the royals so that I can keep an eye on what our unelected representatives are doing and hold them to account. I also happen to like some of them as individuals and enjoy following their work, even if I don’t like the institution they represent

Hope that long ramble answers your question!

#ask #anon #personal

[darkspeardrifter]

WA2 Rambling Time Number Whatever

I think it’s quite uncommon knowledge that both Kate and Amy actually have clear interests other than just using the talents as Telepath Mages (and the fact that they studied it at Sielje is even more uncommon if you don’t read the Complete Guide profiles, but that ain’t the topic of this post).

Kate is a shoujo manga otaku who cries easily over supposedly-cheesy titles, her favorite manga’s title translating to “Silhouette of the Cow’s Eye”. Meanwhile, Amy is a monster/kaiju fanatic, with her favorite kaiju being RAGU O RAGULA?! (To be fair, in the Complete Guide interview, it was stated that about 80% of the bestiary in WA2 is technically classified as kaiju.)

Like, K&A have jobs, but they also have hobbies???

Also, it pains me that the development team wanted to do more stuff with them like sidequests, but they couldn’t because of limited technical space.

#wild arms #wild arms 2 #wild arms 2nd ignition #kate lindbergh #amy fairchild #ragu o ragula