#those kinds of regrets...

[ministarfruit]

day 15: haunting ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

#HALFWAY THROUGH??! #minifemslashfeb2024 #ace attorney #lanamia #lana skye #mia fey #rotating them in my head #what if ghost mia DIDN'T agree with lana #I should add that my original concept for this was #that ghost mia is just a projection and lana is just imagining her spite post-mortem #as one does when they are not in a good state of mind #but I also think if mia genuinely disapproved of her actions... that would be so interesting #either way I think it should haunt lana #I just think that would be interesting #like what if mia asked about it when she was alive and investigating corruption #and lana deliberately lied to her #those kinds of regrets... #I love ghost stories... #me wanting mia to actually haunt the narrative...

[ariadne-mouse]

Still thinking about just how deep in it Liliana Temult is. Like in the eyes of the narrative she went from

absent & possibly dead, very sad -> alive just estranged?? mysterious! -> possibly involved in a cult, tragic, can her daughter reach her? -> uncomfortably high up in said cult -> the cult's goddamn General and striking such terror into the local population of the Ruidus that they are afraid of even her appearance or someone who looks like her

Ordinary people who are trying to resist the dictatorial Imperium/Ruby Vanguard alliance and their iron control of the populace are terrified of her. You don't strike terror just by "being there". Terror happens because of actions. And it leaves us to wonder what exactly Liliana Temult has done during her time on the moon to make the citizens fear her so much.

#all of this has happened so fast #but I wonder whether Imogen mourns the version of her (dead/vanished) mother that she held in her mind #the one who was ostensibly good in that way children hope their lost loved ones to be (or at least not full ham evil) #Liliana has at times given off this vague air of regret - mostly regarding Imogen like 'i wish it wasn't like this but it is' #but in general that all this violence and terrorizing Ruidus and killing all the gods - it's unfortunate but part of the Greater Purpose #and that makes her all the more detestable tbh #she sees and understands and maybe even empathizes with those that have been or will be hurt by this campaign for Predathos #and has decided that it's still necessary. unfortunate but necessary. this sort of quiet and awful conviction #the kind of person who will hurt you while telling you it's for your own good and it's better this way #cr spoilers #c3e88 #critical role #liliana temult #op

[reineyday]

how cute is it that sanji's promo poster has him wearing a ring with zeff's cook pirates jolly roger logo? :') im so soft

#one piece #opla #one piece live action #sanji #black leg sanji #vinsmoke sanji #taz skylar #red leg zeff #THAT'S HIS DAD YOUR HONOUR #rei rambles #mb i will look it up next time to see if it's in the show but like #what if that's zeff's captain ring or smth and he gave it to sanji when he got old enough for it to fit on his finger 🥺🥺🥺 #mb sanji's having one of those days where he just feels so bad that he's kind of the reason zeff never restarted his crew #and continued looking for the all blue #and then zeff is like 'no eggplant you and the baratie staff? YOU'RE my crew and i dont regret a single day of raising you' #and he gives him the ring #and then sanji cries a little and laughs and makes a joke abt how he might not regret raising him but he definitely regrets hiring him #and zeff rolls his eyes fondly #oh by 'it being in the show' i mean if zeff is wearing the ring in the flashback where he comes onboard baby sanji's ship #i digress

[theheirofthesharingan]

“Tell me, father, which to ask forgiveness for: what I am, or what I’m not?

Tell me, mother, which should I regret: what I became, or what I didn’t?”

- source

#i realized i almost never do anything with itachi and his parents so this one post is dedicated to them #the regret of killing them would have killed him before his actual death #what kind of child he was to raise a sword against his own parents? #his parents weren't even angry that he'd betrayed them at last #all the nightmares that would have followed him in which they hated him for everything and he would have no defense #who held him when he cried thinking of his mom? who comforted him when he choked on his tears thinking of his father's last words? #who was there for him when memories of his family became too much to handle and he would just collapse unable to breathe #maybe just maybe when the first symptoms of his illness showed he thought #that it was just one of his regular coughing fits that came with the onslaught of the memories of his parents #did he ever want to crawl back to sasuke and tell him how miserable he was and how much he missed their parents #where did the strength to be entirely indifferent and inhuman composure come to him #how much practice did it take? how many days? months? years? #did people around him ever suspect how much he was suffering? #all from thinking about his dead parents whom he killed #whose blood never left his tiny fingers and soaked into his flesh and blended into his own #how much misery was encapsulated into those expressionless features that never gave away even the slightest hint of pain #itachi uchiha #uchiha itachi #itachi #mikoto #mikoto uchiha #fugaku uchiha #fugaku

[singingcicadas]

Your boss can be friends with you, but you can't be friends with your boss.

Perfect example of different expectations of different societal roles. Considering everyone a friend is the quality of a good leader, it demonstrates affinity and empathy to the people of which he leads, but at that level no one can ever consider him a friend back, at least not on an equal degree. There's no closeness, no real camaraderie. The position of Prime always takes precedence over any personal relationships. He is a Prime before he is his own person.

This is also the reason why I think Optimus can never go back to being Orion. Why an ending for Optimus as the retired common citizen is never an option. He's been exalted as a political/spiritual symbol for four million years, used to a position of power, it's not something he can simply renounce one day and expect people's perceptions to change. It's not even possible to change his own perceptions of himself, however much he might like to. You just can't erase four million years of ingrained mindset. He will be viewed as a threat to those in power and undermine their presence just by existing. People will flock to him regardless whether he wants it or not. On a personal level, he's never been the kind of peaceful obedient citizen who takes comfort in trying to live a normal life. Giving up being Prime means giving up control: he will never be content to pasture himself out and wait for other people to make decisions for him when the next crisis arises. He will never be content to have his words hold no weight when he speaks out against the next injustice.

Being Prime is not just a job, it's an identity. One that's defined by four million years of experience in a niche societal role with very specific expectations, of which he'd molded himself to fit. It's a lonely, crushing burden, associated with war and the old order and the question of whether one person should even have that kind of power - but for good or bad it's also a part of him. Taking that away would be truncation, not freedom.

#idw transformers #optimus prime #maccadam #transformers #I think it's as impossible for Optimus to go back to being Orion as Shockwave is to go back to being Senator Shockwave #Or as Megatron the tyrant is to going back to being the Megatron in Maccadam's #There's mindsets you can't undo #experiences you can't unlive #People like that in real life rarely retires peacefully of their own violation #Those that do eventually comes to regret it #Because relinquishing your power also means relinquishing agency over your own life #it's the kind of life that seems beautiful in theory but would be stifling in reality

[idolomantises]

there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities

#txt #was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn #and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting? #i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings #im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to #overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do #its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice #the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you #still lack #even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is. #and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included) #i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at #such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them #i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own #personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes #people really do find things that they love within them. #anyways I know this is getting long but I’ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art #sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on #and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me #but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back #and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit #that it’s all worth it. ya know?

[ritaerr0r]

Day 5

Dark cream week belongs to @zu-is-here​

A king should replace his solider for a queen. But a lover will make his solider a queen

#dark cream week #darkcreamweek #dreamtale #xtale #dream #cross #shattered dream #actually inspired by fic where nightmare started relationship with dream and ended up thinking about his mistakes and regreting them #it suits shattereds outburst #and how he tried to make it up to cross after #being left alone with those kinds of thoughts is the worst punishment #deserved but harsh #yeah i'm making stuff as i go #don't judge XD #undertale #au #fanart

[hello-starlingfics]

Just had a batch of people with ‘wincesties dni/jump off a bridge etc’ bios reblogging a post of mine and now I see the appeal of having blog title like ‘Dean-loves-Sammys-massive-schlong’ or similar as a kind of repellent.

#wincest #i regret to inform you that those brothers are fucking #if you hate me and My Kind so much just block me and don’t reblog my shit #Dean loves Sammy’s giant schlong tho #it’s just facts

[dailydegurechaff]

You don't have to reply to this, but I am very happy to stumble across a non-problematic Youjo Senki fanpage. 💖

Thank you very much!! I'll continue to do my best!

#ask #anonymous #not a daily post #“ask sent 3 months ago” oops #sorry again ;; #im cleaning up inbox ok. or trying to #this is the last one tho i just. needed to express how much everyone being very kind means to me #confession: sometimes i kinda resent this blog for no good reason. its kinda tragic #suffice to say i regret taking on this project sometimes and i get in these downer ass moods #but like. i remember there are people who do actually like the silly time im having here #and it makes me feel better. so i need to express that. thank you. to the people who sent messages to me but also just like everyone lol #if these tags read as kinda corny im sorry but i just am in one of those sappy moods yknow and i need to share it #sorry i love u all. as if its my fault </3 /j #anyway see u all tmrw for dailydegu once more. itll be the last day of huevember!! #it uh. might be late bc im tired

[stop-or-ill-tell]

I hope I marry someone like Lee Uk someday. Hell. I hope to be someone like Lee Uk.

#castaway diva #he is the man of all time #the amount of unconditional love he shows #the goodness and kindness he has #he would do anything for those he cares for #hes not bitter or resentful or regretful #hes thankful and strong and open #i would have followed you out sooner #are you kidding me????? #no cake writing isnt tacky and writing i will always love you isnt tacky #if he fucking dies (which he wont) i will mourn him for the rest of my life #i am so happy everytime hes with his family

[una-hive5]

Giyuushino brain rot: Giyuu changes of perspective toward Shinobu.

Kocho Shinobu. One of the demon slayer corps.

We were always assigned together to kill demons.

We are comrades.

I started to enjoy her company.

She is chatterbox, hardworking, and calm.

Somehow.

I grew attachment toward her.

Somehow.

I feel blissful when I see her.

Somehow.

I got itchy inside me when I see someone else getting closer to her.

We are partner.

She is a chatterbox.

But never about herself.

She is a hardworking person.

And always exhausted.

I'm worry.

She is calm.

But she have her limit.

We are friends.

She love teasing me.

Poke fun at me.

Poking me.

She help me a lot.

She is caring.

She is lovely.

We are close friends.

Somehow,

Something about her,

I care about her more than anything.

We were best friends.

This feeling.

Something about it, when I found out she passed.

I felt regret.

Why?

Regret of wasn't there to save her?

Regret of wasn't there to see her for the last time?

Regret of never said thank you after she treated me?

Something.

Something about her.

That I never realized.

When I see her, my heart is pumping.

When she is talking, I listen.

When I look at her, I can't help but felt distress.

Those eye bags. Your face getting pale. Your muscles aching. You lost focus easily. Your reflexion quit slow.

"Kocho"

"Hm?"

"......!"

"....."

...

"Take care."

....

"I'll be fine, don't worry."

#this is ass but at least i got the ideas out of my head #to those who don't get it: Giyuu unsure what kind of feeling he has toward Shinobu #he always thought they're just close comrades/partners/friends #when she passed giyuu start to feel regret but doesn't know what he regret #also yeah he started to have little crush on her but never knew it eas love until it's yoo late #homeboy just learned romance in his twenties #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #giyuushino #tomioka giyuu #kocho shinobu #i try my best write little dialogue to fit giyuu personality more #sorry if its too out of character

[everlastiingiimmortals]

wishlist — is it weird that i want someone to be rude to Jing Yuan? i want someone to try to provoke him, not through threats to him or his loved one but insults, derogatory assumptions slung his way, comments on his appearance or his demeanor or his behavior. i want someone to drastically underestimate him, and maybe not even realize how grossly incorrect they are in their assessment of him — because that's canon. whether it's because they don't really know a part of him, or all of him, or because he's no longer the person they once thought they knew, i want that conflict. i want that misunderstanding. it doesn't even have to be significant or particularly hurtful, but i want to showcase his tolerance and the way he looks at you so evenly, that in the silence following your words you realize you made yourself an ass for assuming. assuming what? anything. relationships, habits, personality, his pacifism as a general, truly anything that could be found or misunderstood to be a fault simply because you don't know him is on the table, but you cannot apologize because before you can even say sorry he's brushing off your words like he's heard it tens of thousands of times.

#//wishing star; (WISHLIST) #this is a tall order because im not asking for enemies #i'm asking for friendly/neutral/etc muses to fuck up in their understanding of him #and in that mistake make a gross error #what i want is the /judgement/ flung his way as it is in canon because truly nobody really understands the depth of jing yuan's life #not even his son #i want someone to assume this man has never had a lover in his life and receive no answer in response and just regret what left their mouth #i want someone to comment on his size or how much he sleeps and assume that he really is just slacking off because he will not correct them #BE PROBLEMATIC TOWARDS HIM!! I PROMISE IT IS OKAY #THE WHOLE POINT OF HIS CHARACTER IS HOW MUCH DOGSHIT HE'S WEATHERED OUT OF SHEER LOVE AND MF WILL NOT STOP NOW BC #THOSE UNDERESTIMATIONS SERVE HIM SO WELL #honestly u dont even gotta be /problematic/ because theres so much of him that could be very innocently misunderstood #pls just gimme those kinds of conflicts pls pls pls pls YALL LOVE HIM TOO MUCH

[thissmycomingofage]

The thing is that the tgw deluxe tracks are the regular tracks' kids and there's actually a family tree :

Holy revival : coming of age/tgw

Yoko : two weeks ago/wendy

The Song: watch/lost the breakup

Guy On A Horse: yjab(aiktm)/BSC

Truth is : therapy/there it goes

The last one : the band & I/history of man

#holy revival : moving forward while never forgetting the scars and knowing the power of writing #yoko : (THE MELODY/PROD OF THOSE THREE!!) regret + acknowledgement of both parties' wrongs and the toxicity that came out of it all #the song: I watch and suffer doing so but I'll be ok one day #guy on a horse: you're a pretentious piece if shit #truth is: the kind of letter you write in therapy to let it all out and hopefully let it go #the last one: no matter the unmovable truths I'll forever fight for better and for YOU because YOU deserve it and YOU will go far #I'm right btw #artist: maisie peters #maisie peters #album: the good witch #the good witch #the good witch deluxe #song: holy revival #song: yoko #song: the song #song: guy on a horse #song: truth is #song: the last one #text #meta #oli schist!

[gideonisms]

Breaking news bad option nobody wanted you to pick still feels better than good option nearly everyone else wanted you to pick and in fact your whole society is set up for you to pick and if you don't pick it there are mental and financial consequences but crucially, it feels worse

#when you live in a society. #this is a little bit about the time i'd had enough one semester and knew that if i didn't turn in my essay i'd fail the class #but i really wanted a nap. so i had a nap and failed the class #and i still don't regret it at all #everyone i've ever told gives me things i could have done could have emailed the professor could have called in to work #no. you don't get it. i'd done all of those things that same semester in different classes #i WANTED a nap #anyway sometimes your whole life kind of feels like this. yikes

[s-guacamolearts]

I remembered seeing some theories about the SOUL being the same entity in both UT and DR universe so I decided to make something regarding it

Background version:

#undertale #deltarune #utdr #undertale neutral route #undertale pacifist #undertale genocide #deltarune vessel #vessel #vessel deltarune #the theory that the soul is the same entity in both the ut and dr universe kind of mskes sense #since dr was intended for those that played undertale #i mean #look at the dialogue options #like sans #we knew him from ut but he's seeing us / kris for the first time #but knowing toby he'll probably subvert our expectations one way or an other #or not #and as you can see I've had a blast of a time making this #despite this drawing taking around 7 1/2 hours to finish i don't regret spending any secondon this

[youchangedmedestiel]

I did my own research about Cas feeling longing. And I found an old meta that satisfies me. I'll have to think more about it but for now I decided it will be my canon. Especially with my current rewatch, I'll keep that in mind for when I reach season 4.

Anyway, that's not my point. My point here is that it isn't really the same definition I choose to work with for my current fic. But I hope in the fanfic itself it will make sense and that you'll like it. I'll post it as soon as I'm satisfied enough with it, this weekend at the latest. Promise.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #writing fanfiction #this is kind of a new type of fic for me #cas feels longing #it's smuttier #I'm shy about it #but I'm working on it #I hope you'll like it #it happens in season 12 #before episode 12x10 #Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets #cas and dean bickering #they are not talking to each other #cas is sick of being ignored by dean #so he tries things #those things work like a charm #dean is weak for cas #who can blame him #i don't #my destiel fanfic