#um. fucked up <3

[glitchydyke]

hiiii please tell me abt tiayf (i think?) bc that One Image That Is Apparently Themcore Fascinates Me <3

YES YES OKAY

SO tiayf is part of a set of ocs made based off of a dream i had a while back!! humanity has been ravaged by this undefeatable demonic parasite capable of possession + murder, and so to survive they’ve locked themselves away, in bunkers, warehouses, wherever they can. schools and hospitals and office buildings have been converted into shelters, which all have to follow main criteria - no cracks in the windows, no gaps under doors, no little ways to get in.

tiayf is that demon !! it doesn’t have a visible form, and appears only as a black cloud. it came to earth from the space between life and death, intent only on destruction. before it began to murder, it was discovered by scientists, caught, and brought to their lab to study as a new form of life. but it wasn’t really captured - it let them take it. it amused themself with their experiments for a while, before breaking containment and killing everyone in the lab, forcing one of the scientists who had originally caught it to kill the other.

from there, it began to bring the world to its knees, possessing people and making them do horrific things so then they killed themself out of guilt after the possession ended, or just killing people outright. once the destruction becomes more widespread, humanity begins to lock themselves inside - but it doesn’t help. tiayf still makes its way through the safe places that humanity has set up, waiting for someone to slip up and let it in - and they always slip up. someone always opens a window to get fresh air, opens a door to let in an abandoned loved one. humans always break the rules for their own benefit. it’s just a matter of time.

so tiayf continues killing humans, by bit, until there’s one safehouse left - the one a character called marcy leads. it waits and waits until something happens, and finally it does. a girl named halli, a human that tiayf missed, reaches the house. they open their doors to let her in, and tiayf slips inside. it doesn’t start the massacre immediately: over the time it’s spent on earth, it’s started to enjoy watching humans partake in their stupid little activities. so it waits and watches, as halli’s injuries heal. as she becomes closer with marcy, and the two develop a mother-daughter relationship and help each other through the crisis that’s befallen them. as halli is accepted and loved by the other citizens of the safehouse, and betters the lives of everyone inside. and then it strikes. it kills everyone in its path, except for halli and marcy, and leaves them stood in the middle of the rubble of the life they’d built. it swirls around them, cutting into their skin as they mourn, and as it leaves marcy clutches the bodies of her family and screams “this is all your fault!” and, previously nameless, tiayf takes this sentence, this agonised scream in the midst of despair, and turns it into their name.

it leaves halli and marcy to pull themselves back together, bandage their wounds, plan to bury their dead, and then it returns. it possesses halli when she’s defenceless, trapped in grief, and takes control of her body. with her hands, it kills marcy. while at this point it would usually leave its host, it keeps halli. releases her body just long enough for her to see what she’s been forced to do, and then takes control again. she becomes its new permanent host - she’s invulnerable while tiayf is inside her, so it brings her with it to travel the destroyed world, putting her in danger time and time again with no way for her to break free, trapped forever under someone else’s control, forced to relive her memories of marcy’s death on a constant loop :)

#um. fucked up <3 #SORRY THIS GOT SOOOO LONG #asks #anne 💗

[inkskinned]

you get used to it, but it's tiring, because they need you to understand your own life as a series of goalposts. what college are you going to, what's your major going to be, whatcha gonna do with that, oh where will you settle down, when can i expect grandkids.

for the longest time my goals have been so blurry that they track into each other, their undefined edges slipping quietly back into the soft night. today i want to be a writer; tomorrow i will want to be a doctor, later i will wish i took that law school free ride. how the fuck do people just know what they want to do with their life?

where do you want to be in five years? i want to be alive; which is a huge step for me. ten years ago i would have said i want to be asleep and meant i hope that i'm dead by then.

but i want a yellow kitchen and a stand mixer. i want a garden and a fruit tree (cherry, if i can make that happen) and a big yard for my dogs to play in. i want to come home and read poetry out loud to someone and have them close their eyes to listen. i want a summer watergun fight. i want to make snowmen. i want to be the house to go to for halloween. i want my life to settle around me in a softness, for it to lay down gently. if i am very, very, very lucky, i want to travel; finally go someplace overseas.

of course i don't know what i want to be doing professionally. what i actually want to be doing is curling up beside my dog, settling in to read. i want to be making myself a cup of good coffee.

i can't answer the other questions. whenever people asked me what do you want to be when you grow up, i used to say i hope i'm happy.

i hope i'm still kind, five years from now. i hope i never get jaded and mean. i hope i have stayed in therapy. what do you picture yourself doing? when will you actually be an adult about this? why are you so afraid of being ambitious?

am i not ambitious? the other day i rearranged my furniture which doesn't quite fit into my apartment. i watered my plants. i'm going to try to propagate a cherry seed. my five year goal is to spend more time laughing. to lie down in a patch of sunwarm moss. to relax for a minute. to close my eyes and think oh thank god. this is why i stayed. this is finally it.

#writeblr #warm up #something something something took a lot of words to say #um my goals are really specific quiet things #and they're still valuable #bc i used to literally only have the goal of <3 bad things <3 #i was like ''who needs to picture the future? imma head out before then" #good news!!!!!!!!!!! ur in the future!!!! and u stayed!!! and thank god u did bc u actually fucking made it kid!!

[cowboythewizard726]

BLOOD SOAKED FALIN!!! BLOOD SOAKED FALIN!!! BLOOD SOAKED FALIN!!! BLOOD SOAKED FALIN!!! BLOOD SOAKED FALINNNNNNNNNNN!!!

#FALIN FALIN FALIN #FALIN TOUDEN FALIN TOUDEN #FALIN TOUDEN #oh falin touden #falin touden #wow #soo cool girl #love the blood where'd u get it :3? #bonus the two bath scence screenshots i got #just for YOU farcillers #ignore the laios #oh but the one where shes all bundled up awh awh #and whnn and when she whsiper senshis name :(((((((( #abububbububbbububububububuuuu #OH BUT THE ANIMAITON WHEN SHE WAS RESSERUCTED??????? #THE WAY HER BODY CAME BACK TOGETHER??? #SO FUCKING COOL MAN OH MY GOD #WOW SHES SO COOL #i need to chew on her but far differently from the way i wanna chew on laios #but like the same amount of urge to chew on him too #gotta chew on these toudens #when the when the FUCK #edit um #forgot main tags #dungeon meshi spoilers #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon spoilers #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Game night ruined.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #wang lingjiao #If the assorted Jiang disciples look familiar it's because they are the same as the disciples in the LWJ in Yunmeng Jiang AU comics! #I decided that if I was going to have background characters come up a lot I may as well solidify a few designs. #We are following MLP background character rules in the sense there are more disciples around but these guys fill in for them #Do they have names? No(t yet). #I just think the jiang disciples are very sweet and cute in the audio drama. I hope nothing bad happens to them. #(let me have me fun and whimsy with them before...you know...) #I feel like I totally missed an opportunity to set WLJ up as an 'Um Actually" girl. #“you're hitting on my man? UM ACTUALLY get BURNT” #“You want to fly kites? UM ACTUALLY It's offensive to my sect so get fucked” #“UM ACTUALLY we're setting up a supervisory office here” #“You want me to stay? UM ACTUALLY I think we pissed off some ghosts so I'm outtie <3” #Do you see the lost potential here? I'm furious at myself for not seeing it sooner.

[archiephd]

So long as the political and economic system remains intact, voter enfranchisement, though perhaps resisted by overt white supremacists, is still welcomed so long as nothing about the overall political arrangement fundamentally changes. The facade of political equality can occur under violent occupation, but liberation cannot be found in the occupier’s ballot box. In the context of settler colonialism voting is the “civic duty” of maintaining our own oppression. It is intrinsically bound to a strategy of extinguishing our cultural identities and autonomy.

[...]

Since we cannot expect those selected to rule in this system to make decisions that benefit our lands and peoples, we have to do it ourselves. Direct action, or the unmediated expression of individual or collective desire, has always been the most effective means by which we change the conditions of our communities. What do we get out of voting that we cannot directly provide for ourselves and our people? What ways can we organize and make decisions that are in harmony with our diverse lifeways? What ways can the immense amount of material resources and energy focused on persuading people to vote be redirected into services and support that we actually need? What ways can we direct our energy, individually and collectively, into efforts that have immediate impact in our lives and the lives of those around us? This is not only a moral but a practical position and so we embrace our contradictions. We’re not rallying for a perfect prescription for “decolonization” or a multitude of Indigenous Nationalisms, but for a great undoing of the settler colonial project that comprises the United States of America so that we may restore healthy and just relations with Mother Earth and all her beings. Our tendency is towards autonomous anti-colonial struggles that intervene and attack the critical infrastructure that the U.S. and its institutions rest on. Interestingly enough, these are the areas of our homelands under greatest threat by resource colonialism. This is where the system is most prone to rupture, it’s the fragility of colonial power. Our enemies are only as powerful as the infrastructure that sustains them. The brutal result of forced assimilation is that we know our enemies better than they know themselves. What strategies and actions can we devise to make it impossible for this system to govern on stolen land? We aren’t advocating for a state-based solution, redwashed European politic, or some other colonial fantasy of “utopia.” In our rejection of the abstraction of settler colonialism, we don’t aim to seize colonial state power but to abolish it. We seek nothing but total liberation.

Voting Is Not Harm Reduction - An Indigenous Perspective

#indigenous action #2024 elections #voting #on one hand i think if one opponent is a mask off fascist white people have an obligation to vote against them As The Least We Can Do #but if that's all we're doing? that and bullying other people who see a futility in participating in a colonial institution of 'democracy'? #sorry but um. shut the fuck up #if we spent half as much energy on direct action to support each other in ways that help people REGARDLESS of who wins what election #as we did on yelling at Other Leftists about voting i think we would get a hell of a lot more actual shit done #and sure as hell help more actual real life people who we claim to be helping by yelling at other people to vote #i'm talking to me here like #our current blue harm reduction candidate actively supporting a genocide should make you feel like maybe this shit doesn't fucking work #because it doesn't <3 #harm reduction as the least we can do needs to be a call to action via vote AND actual action or it's not a call to anything at all #the least we can do needs to be motivating AND convicting #it's the least we can do so fucking do it. it's the least we can do so if that's All you do sit the hell down or stand the fuck up #for people who the status quo serves it needs to be the ballot AND the bullet or our ballot means fuck all for real liberation

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

people practice w Them <3

#posting this and then shoving my head into a hole Bye #i am! Not Confident!!! in my people scribbling abilities!! #but im trying!!! im fucking trying!!! #i already see improvement #not enough to make me go 'wee the masses are gonna love this' #but enough that i can fathom posting. i can handle it. i can do this #if i dont do it now then i never will!!!! #im still gonna scream into a pillow rip it apart and then eat the stuffing!!!! #ah... the mortification of Existing... of Being Perceived... #it is ever present and inescapable! youd thing id be used to it by now!!! #ill be on my death bed asking people to leave the room so that i can die w/o feeling horribly self conscious and Seen #no seriously every time i think about my potential death and or coma should that happen #i prematurely cringe at the Attention. people potentially crying at my bedside Eugh No Thank You Please Do That Elsewhere #either call me a loser and drop off a single flower or leave me be <3 #THIS IS A WELCOME HOME SCRIBBLE POST. IM SORRY I FORGOT #scribble garnish #uh um uh so uh wally and barnaby am i rite fellas- #in my mind they're picking up takeout for dinner <3 #yeah no im not tagging it with a fandom tag. i dont want to be perceived As We've Established #im somewhat satisfied with that first wally.... swag <3 #& do i have major gender envy for barnaby? yeah #im not used to drawing people but i should be... i need to be... #THERE ARE GUYS I WANNA DRAW! mine and others!!! ngl mostly mine!!!

[art--harridan]

[Image one: The first page of a digital comic about Miles Morales from the Spider-Verse movies. It begins with two panels of Miles' face resting on his closed hand. The first shows him in his school, wearing his uniform. He looks bored. The second has him in his first, store-bought Spider-Man costume. The forest surrounding Alchemax is behind him. Both of the panels cut off around his eyes. Next to them is two smaller panels, one showing someone in a classic Spider-Man costume swinging on a web, while the other shows their feet flying through the air. At the bottom of the page, there's Miles' legs flailing as he falls during the Leap of Faith scene. A panel is behind them, in a purple halftone gradient. Shards of glass surround the legs like lightning bolts. The page says "you always thought that the scariest part of a leap of faith would be the fall".

Image two: The second page of a digital comic about Miles Morales from the Spider-Verse movies. The first part of the sentence says "but really... it feels like flying;". This is interspersed with close-up panels of Miles in his first black suit. There's one of his outstretched hand, one of his chest symbol, one very close to his eyes and another of his outstretched feet. Behind the panels, there's a rock pigeon mid-flight. The sentence continues with "floating;", followed by four panels of Miles floating as his fall is flipped upside down. The pose is identical in each, but the background gets gradually darker for each one. Then, "free in a way that feels unnatural -" is written, accompanied by a panel of Miles in his school uniform. You can't see above his lips and he's sweating nervously, shoulders hunched. Scribbles, like the portals on The Spot, crowd around him. The sentence finishes with "you love it". The final panel zooms into Miles' hand clutching his backpack strap. His Spider-Man suit peaks out of his sleeve.

Image three: The third page of a digital comic about Miles Morales from the Spider-Verse movies. At the top of the page is Miles' shoes stood on the side of a wall, one foot hanging over the edge slightly. Above it, it says "the fear is in the precipice -". Below the drawing, it says "the edge", alongside Miles standing on a wall from behind, cut off around the ankles. The sentence continues "and what you gaze at beyond it", the last two words in a bubbly black and white font over top of a purple halftone gradient panel. Then, the sentence finishes "(and what you're scared will slink back in)". On the left side there's two panels, one a close-up of Kingpin's tie, and the other shows The Prowler's cape laying in a pool of blood. The other side has two panels set out the same. The top panel has one of The Spot's portals, while the one below it shows Jefferson Davis' glasses discarded and broken, one lens shattered and bloody.

Image four: The fourth page of a digital comic about Miles Morales from the Spider-Verse movies. It begins with Miles' shoes, one planted on the wall while the other hangs is elevated, hanging over the edge. Two panels beneath it show his feet with one lowered slightly, and then both planted on the wall. They're accompanied by the sentence "the hovering moment where you can still simply step back". After this there's two different Miles, standing with their bodies facing the viewer but eyes facing each other. The first is taller, unmasked, and wearing his outfit from the rooftop party. His expression is pinched together, worried. The other is in his ill-fitting store-bought Spider-Man replica suit, body posed as if he's been caught by surprise. His eyes, from what is visible, are wide. Two panels separate them - one is completely black, while one has a spark of blue lightning bursting out of it. Finally, the sentence ends "... but then you'd just be there; waiting, doing nothing".

Image five: The final page of a digital comic about Miles Morales from the Spider-Verse movies. It starts with Miles' hand in the darkness, unfurling as he reaches out his index finger. Blue lightning sparks off of it, leaving his finger like a claw. This is surrounded by the line "and you can't let that happen,". Below that, Miguel O'Hara's gloved hand creeps towards Miles, curled and claws out, like he's just failed to grasp something. It is large compared to Miles, who is swinging through the air, looking back at the hand. His body is fairly loose. The page ends with the line "even if the first step is the steepest".]

looking down

#miles morales #miles morales fanart #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse fanart #across the spider verse spoilers #spider man: across the spider verse #spiderverse fanart #digital art #☆ #blood #death #yippee!! did a comic again!!! yahoo!! #hopefully at somepoint ill finish this like 9 page one for a different number but im currently v busy 👍 #anyway love miles sm mwah and the new film 💛💛💛💛💛 #genuinely think he has an anxiety disorder <3 #um sidenote i fucking hate drawing shoes why did i plan so many shoes for this 😭 #if they dont look like real jordans dont come at me i emotionally gave up like midway through the first pair...

[catmanbowser]

Damian got taller (lol) to me he’s like 156-158 cm short king forever :p

His crocs grew tho teehee

#damian wayne #dc #catman's art #me?? drawing a full body chara?? yeah i was at gun point #tumblr fucks up my post i had to do everything all over sgain damn #‘he grew tall when hes batma-‘ shut up i dont care :3 #thihs is my headcanon and he is a short king end of story #it gives him advantages ok. like..um…umm..fits into ur pocket… #anyways i survived midterm and still have a week left i thought it was gonna b hard but tis just rlly tiring #doing the bare minimum here

[witchstone]

can i not even be a part of a whatsapp group about our local nature conservancy without that jumped up wannabe estate group in our area punting their shit

#they seem to be under the impression that they can form a private security company with the word estate in ot and that makes the area #an....estate #and that because 51% of residents signed up they can start putting signs up and demanding that all other residents must acquiesce #to their rules. um. no? #no offence but if you want to live in an estate you'd...live in an estate #also c'mon guys it's because the comrades are coming up #i am...58% reading too much into this but also it's been four years and i'm just fucking annoyed about it. go away. get out of my face #stop acting like other residents are deliberately going out of their way to sabotage your project when in reality most people are fine #not me though! i'm going to deliberately phone the municipality about their newest batch of signs <3 #apologies for the suburbia blogging; can you tell i hate it here? #will delete later

[turtletoria]

writhing on the floor in pain

#turtlearts #wordgirl #wg #dr two brains #hes rendered a little strangely since i was using jerma face cam as a reference. and as u all know that mans lighting- #is absolute dogshit #his facecam is like 144 hp with lighting that looks like hes streaming from chernobyl #but honestly thats the charm of jerma streams <3 the moment he fixes the cam its all downhill from there #also personally i dont think that 2 brains is stinky. hes a mouse/rat/rodent thing. and they tend to be very clean #maybe his clothes may be messy tho since mice dont um. wear clothes. so there may be less priority there #2 brains got a little snaggle tooth. teehee. crooked teethed guys for the win #you know when u look at something for so long that you can feel an art block coming on. becuase uh. uh oh #also the writhing on the floor in pain thing. its real physical pain not the hee haha angst pain #my bodys all fucked up man

[thecrowsart]

👁️🦎🎯

(crops under cut)

#natsume yuujinchou #matoba seiji #natori shuuichi #horrible exorcists #sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol #usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking #anyway FUCK architecture #really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand #but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol #ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene #and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself #but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos? #his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer...... #tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk #meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol #hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid #he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like. #it's weird for him to not be matoba #anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and #i had a specific composition in mind #i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo #but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably #btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage. #and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so #i chose architecture LOL #okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair #im doing my best LOL.........but boy #OKAY im done

[tarteggs]

room 276

#bibliomania #bibliomania manga #tw body horror #my art #lmk if anything else needs to be tagged u_u #this took so long…LOL #i’ve been working on it for like. two weeks but i’ve been wanting to draw it for MONTHS #it’s also probably the edgiest thing i’ve drawn. hm #i feel like..the dark evil fucked up hamburger helper mascot tweet…. #BUT STILL IT WAS FUN TO DRAW #i also loooove drawing skulls….something abt it is so satisfying to me #maybe cuz of how clinical ??? it is???? IDK #anyways ummm. um #pls read bibliomania it’s very good :D #also if u saw me post this last night. NO U DIDNT <3

[deathbypufferfish]

everything is fine probably

#puffer legacy #the sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 gameplay #sims 4 #simblr #ts4 legacy #plgen3 #marinella terzi #haru terzi #ume ikehara #tatsuki terzi #sakura terzi #this post is disjointed as hell but fuck it we ball #just know that marinella and ume keep arguing and making up #and haru and ume keep arguing #im only controlling like 10% of ume's mean interactions #the rest is all her <3

[cerealmonster15]

i forget where the origin of this meme comes from but ive had this vision in my mind for Months and i just keep forgetting to doodle it. do u understand. do u see. hello for the love of god can anyone hear me-

#twisted wonderland #twst #trey clover #um. i dont feel like tagging everyone you get the idea #but just in case ill tell u anyway sdjklfdslk #president is cater vice president is rook #second pic co founders chenya and riddle #third pic standard members lilia and vil ft the man himelf. trey clover. #and the tiny corner of adeuce bc they have to support their Dorm Dad. and also jade is there jkljfKLDJKLSDJFKLDSJ #kalims not here but i think he would want a shirt. he loves supporting friends and matching with beloved pop music club <3 #me looking up heights: ok vil is taller than trey by like a cm or two #me putting lines on the page: [trey has had a growth spurt] #DONT WORRY ABOUT. IT. KJFSDFJDKSLJF #i didnt bother with lilia and riddle. i went SHORT and left it at that man fuck trying to be consistent LOL it is funny tshirt doodles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[citrus-soda]

i recalled keroro gunso exists the other day (but could only really remember the designs of the main 5 aliens) so I did a messy redesign of em for practice and funsies <3

#myart #keroro gunso #ive started watching the usa english dub. it is fucking CRAZY. certainly not ghost story levels of dub crazy... but still bonkers. #i do wish the show would stop being so creepy towards women tho. sigh!!! #fun fact: at first i hated kururu's design but after tweaking it to have the legs even shorter i ended up really liking it. short rat man. #um if u dont know anything abt keroro gunso. kururu is the yellow orange one. second from the left. ok <3