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#unfortunately it didnt work but i HAVE to get it done
amicus-siderum · 11 months
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You know what's not nice?
The education system.
#fuck the education system#I'm here forcing myself to stay awake at 3 in the morning just so that i can finish flashcards for a topic i have an exam on#my adhd ass tried to get it done earlier at a more reasonable time#unfortunately it didnt work but i HAVE to get it done#because if I dont i get bad grades and that fucks me over like pretty much lifelong#and you know what makes it worse#the examiners dont even appreciate that i actually UNDERSTAND the topic just because i dont use the STUPIDLY SPECIFIC phrasing they require#i know its been pointed out by multiple people many times now#but it really is just about memorising shit and not actually learning it#teachers also dont appreciate the effort put in#i know because i have a friend who puts so much effort into like further learning and making all her work really detailed#and the most acknowledgement shes ever received is like maybe a verbal “well done” in the same breath as a reminder that theres homework du#“the student experience” is known for the frequent all nighters and borderline caffeine addictions#and nobody is concerned about this!?#all this shit about implementing mental health campaigns and support and whatever and still so many students are fucking struggling#if not mentally then physically#do you know how much strain this type of lifestyle puts on people's bodies!?#i think i get maybe 5 hours of sleep on average and my bodys gotten used to that now. what kind of effect will that have on me in 5 years??#heart problems? digestion issues? cognitive disfunction? weakened immune system? All of those are possible effects of prolonged exhaustion!#i know im tired and im ranting#but i am genuinely pissed at how horribly wrong the education system is and how normalised all the things that stem from it have become#alright rant over.#thank you for listening
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northern-passage · 10 months
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;-; I was on my way to replay faith for like the 34895487 time and it's gone ;;;;;;-;;;;;;
it was one of the best pieces of the jam
are u ok?
thank you this is very sweet :-)
i did take faith down... the short of it is just that faith got a really weird reception and it made me feel really weird and just overall, while i don't regret the experience, i think i had different expectations going into a jam and because of that i just didn't feel good about it in the end. i think i have just learned that game jams are not for me hahaha
this isn't me trying to discourage people from participating or anything (it was still fun making something like that) but it's just my personal experience. if you want to join any jams you should try it for yourself and see, i know a lot of people had fun with this jam so i'm not generalizing at all & you may have a different experience than me. and it was still really cool to see all the different stories that came out of it :-)
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swordsmans · 9 months
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CON CRUNCH IS REAL I THINK IM GONNA JUST START HOT GLUING SHIT TOGETHER TONIGHT FUCK IT WE BALL!!!!!!!
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silverislander · 3 months
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symptoms disorder is causing symptoms of a disorder to me once more. shocking and tragic. who could have predicted this
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tianhai03 · 1 year
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I hope you have a peaceful, good rest of your day! I wanted to ask if there is anything that you’re working on that you’d like to gush about? Mahalo!
thank you! if youre talking abt the drawing side of things, i havent been doing anything at all bc ive been focusing on my job </3 ive just been doing small doodles and sketches here and there
i guess i'll talk abt stuff im doing for my job then! im currently interning at a 3d animation company focused on making 2 original animated series, theyre like. funny shows with slapstick comedy aimed at kids and teens? i started working there with just making some props, but ive been learning how to animate and do actual scenes on my own. my boss has been considering getting me to help with the voice acting too and thats also smth ive wanted to try for years so thats exciting!!!
i'll think about posting the links to the episodes ive worked on once they get uploaded if you guys are interested to see what ive been doing :)
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homestuck--edits · 1 year
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hey!! i feel bad coming in and requesting so much stuff, so if you dont want to do it, its fine! could i possibly get a talksprite of my oc aontwi with a damara base? she is a limeblood if that helps! thank you so much for all your hard work!
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her :))
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#mod davesprite#homestuck#talksprite edit#talksprite edits heart heart#anyway had comp today#i wasnt allowed to participate but i have a fun story abt finding a place#so last year we hosted at the college which we could do because they had the security guard there on saturdays#this year they didnt meaning wed have to pay his salary for the time he was there#unfortunately we recieve 0 district funding#so we had to find a new spot. tried to go to the ymca#held one comp there (my last one uh. Ever. but we did the best weve ever done !!)#and then this time. six days before competition. they said wed have to pay 50 bucks an hour to compete there again. its a 9 hour competition#so we had to find somewhere else. which i was tasked with#i called: hospital‚ pud‚ civic center‚ city hall‚ local lumber company‚ library‚ tax place‚ senior center‚ fire department‚ and six churches#oh local bus company also#anyway finally person from tax place recommended a coffee shop downtown thatd charge 75 bucks a day for a decent size room#so me n gf went down to check it out. unfortunately theyre only open five hours a day. for a six hour competition. so they couldnt do it#our last options were... visit more churches. the cops ? and... that was all. so we went to get coffee#coffee shop that gave me my cute lemon bracelet :DD! so anyway was complaining to the store owner abt not having a place. and she went#oh would here work? and i went uh. yeah? is it okay if we bring computers? and how long are you open?#she said yeah the computers are fine and we can be open as long as you want ! and i went oh okay. so how much do we have to pay#because wed be occupying the whole place all day. and she said oh no worries :)) free !. and . holy shit. so she called her daughter#who stayed like three hours late today. unpaid. for us to compete#fucking insane this coffee shop has done more for us than the school district has ever. and it was great!!#a lil cramped but cozy and also Coffee. we spent probably 200 bucks on coffee altogether?? hope it was profitable for them they were so nice#gave some of us free stuff fucking insane honestly#also shoutout to the dairy queen for not killing us for walking in with 67 dollars and going give us all the chicken strips this will buy#it was 44 btw. and they gave us a free burger some guy named alex made. i dont know why they did but they wouldnt take no for an answer#anyway im not in a good mood but fuck dude i love local business. i also got a tiny palm reading book to carry around :>
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#i finished these last week but forgot to post them lol#self heal didnt turn out great#i was working on it at my great grandmas on Christmas after drinking a highly caffeinated latte and pinching a nerve in my back#which made me a little shaky#also those little henbit type flowers are hard to draw#but everyone who saw me drawing said it looked good so 🤷‍♂️#also realized i accidentally left 2 plants thst were in the table of contents out of the pages#(when i first put the pages together i went through and labeled each page a drawing would go on with a plants scientific name)#and i had to get out my larger pad of this brand of water color paper and cut it in half to make 2 more signatures#and because the 2 that were missing were not at the very end and also werent on the same signature i had to shift some things around#thankfully all my page labels were in pencil#also im aware that signatures are generally more than one piece of paper but this papers so thick and the pages are so small#i felt i would lose page space if i made actual signatures#i just dont know what else to call them#if they were individual pages i would just call them that but its technically 4 pages (two pages front and back using one piece of paper)#so signatures it is#unfortunately did not achieve my goal of finishing the drawings by new year lol. got distracted by video games#only 12 more left! (14 left to post but i have 2 from the next group of 10 done)#then i can start painting#then the tedious part of gathering all the information i want to include about each plant and copying it into the book by hand#and then i can FINALLY bind it
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orcelito · 1 year
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WHEN I MAKE IT... FUCKING BIG......
I realized that like if I finish college and get a good tech job I'll not only have more free time (bc no school lmfao) BUT I will have more money
Which would introduce the possibility of me getting commissions done for my fics. Which would be . A game changer .
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kawaiianimeredhead · 9 months
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Ughhh
#had to come into work on my day idd#off** which tbch i meant to prepare myself a little more for that possibility because one of my coworkers had a heart thing recently#which resulted in his heart stopping for a moment so he wasnt able to come back to work when he was expected to#and today was going to be his day back but he had an issue so he couldnt come in#and on top of that my other coworker called my boss crying because he dog ate something#i dont know what but she is incredibly and understandablely upset about the health of her dog#so he didnt think she was going to come in but when i got here she was#which i had hoped meant something good but i saw Nick ask her if he was doing ok and she just broke down crying more#i cant (but actually can unfortunately) believe he had her stay and do the longest thing we have in the morning to do#when he saw me he mentioned he was greatful we both came in cause hes got a doctors appointment#but im certain he still could have done the longer thing because trash on tuesdays is nothing#he came in last night and got some!#and he was like 'yeah she said her dog got into something that was in aluminum foil? maybe it was chocolate or something but-'#'- she said shes gonna take him to the vet as soon as she gets off. i think shes worried hes gonna die'#and like he heard all of that probably through tears and didnt send her home! or offer to help her at all#cause like i said he hardly has anyyhing to do#i cant imagine his doctor's appointment is before 9am naybe 830 at the earliest#which everything we do can be done before then#im so mad about it#trying to help her where i can but feel like i didnt do enough#cause im very unfamiliar with the floors and i had a smaller broom to sweep with#but he knows how much her dog is a big part of her world and he can hear that she thinks hes gonna die today and just be like#ok well thanks for coning in and please do the floors#shes probably worried hell die before she even gets home of shes that worried about him#i dont think it was chovolate he got i to but i didnt wanna ask becauss i know shes really trying to just push through the morning#if i had to take an absolute wild guess id think he ate an edible of some sort but thwy usually have gummies so i dont know why itd be foil#dont mind me#tag rambles
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i-like-gay-books · 9 months
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realized that my nose piercing might be migrating and everything online says once a piercing starts rejecting its very rare that it can be stopped i want to cry
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klonoadoortophantomile · 10 months
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lost like allllll my motivation for making art what the fuck =(
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alm0staliv3 · 11 months
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this last week has been the absolute Worst for me mentally and also made me feel like I'm despicable as a person and don't deserve anything nice and I'm not even that glad it's over for multiple reasons
#so the last half a year me and my friends were expecting to go to this animation festival in zagreb in june#we'd hoped our uni would sponsor us but that didn't work out#whatever#but another thing was that i am Not From Here and i need Visas to travel Virtually Anywhere in europe#and my passport had expired so i waited for 3 months to get a new one (thats how long it takes normally through the consulate of my country)#basically i got it like a week before the fest and the croatian embassy was booked til JULY. no visas for me.#plus i found out my id had expired too so i couldn't even get another Schengen visa or to go Anywhere At All before i renew it#which also takes a month and a half because foreign citizens don't deserve things done quickly i guess#so i didn't go and two of my friends went to the fest anyway#the festival week was absolutely excruciating to get through with constant reminders that they're there and im not#a wild mix of fomo and envy#and i obviously dont want to shit on my friends for sharing how the fest was going because i genuinely want to be happy for them#and they have all the rights to share and get positive feedback from people they love#but i cannot find enough virtue in me to support them in spite of my Unfortunate Situation and#i fully believe that im not a good friend or a good person in the first place because of that#they came back last night and i cant even respond to their “so sad its over” stories with genuine sympathy because im still#so fucking bitter. that i was not there with them. and they had fun. and i didnt.#why am i like this and how can i stop being so fucking disgusting at this point i doubt if i even deserve any friends#why cant i just be happy for them.#lets hope none of them see this#feel free to reply#lord knows i need any support i can get i am Not Well#vent#personal#ellis.txt
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darkniters · 8 months
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jschlatt who whispers to you
twitch dot tv slash jschlatt is online, and you’re well aware due to the loud personality voice schlatt has put on in the other room.
“WHAT THE FUCK!” he yells, the sound echoing throughout the house. you usually check into his streams, but right now your busy figuring out your hours for work and are in no need for distractions.
you look around the living room quickly for a red pen, needing to circle something on the page, but your efforts deem useless. you suddenly remembered schlatt took one into his office with him to do a bit.
you didnt want to find a different red pen because you knew where that one was, so you quietly make your way down the hall before schlatts office.
his fans figured out about you through a lot of bits schlatt would make where he would tag you on twitter or tag any girl he posts on instagram with your username, so you weren’t a private couple, but you still weren’t twitch or youtube public.
you open the door timidly, trying to bring as little attention to yourself as possible. unfortunately for you, the shitty tiktok schlatt was watching just ended, and his spiel afterwards was done.
his head whipped to your direction, and he gave you a grin. you gave him a smile back, and he reached his hand out for you to grab.
you grab ahold of it and make your way behind his chair, head resting on the back of it as your hands snake their ways around his neck.
he speaks briefly to his audience, as he rocks the chair gently from left to right, moving your head along with it. before he looks up at you, eyes full of stars like he’s seen the greatest thing of the entire universe.
“whats wrong?” he whispers, gently. its not a breathy whisper, its just making his voice quieter so the mic can’t pick it up as well (it does still pick it up)
“i know you have a red pen in here and i really need it” you whisper quieter, the mic unable to hear you at all due to you being farther away and also a lot less loud than schlatt.
“oh right yeah,” he reaches to the left of his desk, and grabs the pen. “just be careful its a bit finicky.” he mumbles. his hands reach up to where yours rest around his shoulders, and he gently brings it to his lips, kissing the back of your palm gently.
you smile, take the pen from his grasp, and then peck your head down to kiss the crown of his head, his hair ticking your face. you then break away from him, and thats when you remember he was still live. your face briefly flushes.
schlatt also seemed to have forgotten, as he stares at you grinning as you leave, before he brings his full attention back to the screen. the chat is running like crazy, simply saying your name in all caps and many awws. schlatts cheeks are painted red.
“alright alright chat moment of weakness, lets get a move on.” he continues to stream, but it seems after that encounter; he seemed much happier for the remainder duration of the time live.
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feelbokkie · 10 months
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When They Notice That You're Not Around
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☀️Feelbokkie M.list☀️
**Requested**
Ooh i got idea, so you have crush on this skz members and you try flirt with him for at least 1 month and he always ignore you until one day you playing trick on him by you being cold to him and didnt give him attention even when he is around you and from that he is trying to get your attention again
genre: fluff (felt nice this time), slight angst, friends to lovers, some crack
pov: 2nd POV
description: After all of your failed efforts of flirting with friend!skz
pairing: friend!skz x reader
warnings: swearing
word count: *listed below* (unedited)
a/n: I genuinely don't remember what I wrote originally so I'm pretty sure some of these are completely different from what I wrote originally.
©feelbokkie (2023) — all rights reserved. reposting/modification of any kind is not tolerated.
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방 찬(Bang Chan) (323 words)
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"Why are you all the way over there? Come here," Chan waves you over to to the chair that he had placed right next to him.
"I'm good," you flatly respond.
You spent the better part of a month going straight to the studio or the dorm to hang out with Chan and shamelessly flirt with him. You would often pull up the chair that was in the corner and sit next to him, placing a cup of coffee in his line of sight, with a flirty joke or message on it, and sit quietly as he worked. After two weeks of noticing that, he started leaving the chair next to him for you and a clear space for the coffee. You didn't know it, but it was his favorite part of the day.
But today, you decided to fuck with him a little as revenge for not picking up your signals. So instead, you walked in, placed the cup at the edge of the desk, and laid down on the couch behind him. He pushed it off as you being tired and left it alone. That is until he picked up his coffee and saw it was noteless.
"Nope," He sighs, standing up.
He turns around and quickly picks you up before you could question what was happening and puts you in your chair. He takes a marker from a the pile of stuff he has on the desk and places it in front of you, along with his coffee cup. You stare at the cup, completely dazed from everything that just happened in a short amount of time, while Chan grabbed all you stuff from the couch and place them near you. Once he was done, he sat back in his chair pulled your chair closer to him.
"Don't think I didn't know what you were doing. Now go ahead, write your flirty little message. I know you were dying to."
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이 민 호 (Lee Min-Ho) (331 words)
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"Hello?" You asked, picking up your phone without even checking who was calling.
"Oh, so you do know how to use your phone." You hear an annoyed Minho on the other end. You silently curse to yourself and hang up the phone, knowing that it would piss him off more.
You had been flirting with Minho for a month before you decided to see if he would notice that you stopped. It's only supposed to be for a day and since you spent so much of your free time with him you thought it would be best to just stay home. You'd break immediately if you were hanging around him. He would purposely get in your face until you stopped ignoring him. You know he would, he's done it before. You knew that he would just leave you alone if you stayed home.
A few minutes later, there's a pounding at your front door. When you open the door, Minho let's himself into your apartment.
"Not one single stupid meme or dumb pick up line from you in 16 hours. I thought you were dead in your kitchen or something. And then, when you hung up on me, I thought you were being held hostage because why else would you hang up." He huffs.
"I--"
"Do you not like me anymore?"
"What?"
"Do you hate me?"
"Can we back track for a second? You knew that I have feelings for you?"
"You have feelings for me? Ah, that would explain a lot."
"What is happening right now?"
"You like me."
"We've established that already, unfortunately."
"We're dating now."
"What?"
"You like me and I spent nearly the entire day panicking because I didn't hear from you for one day."
"I don't see what that has to do with us dating?"
"I'm trying to tell you I like you too."
"Can't you tell me like a normal person?"
"Nevermind, I change my mind. I'm breaking up with you."
"Minho, wait! I'm kidding."
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서 창 빈 (Seo Chang-Bin) (317 words)
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"Are you mad at me?" Changbin asks, coming into the kitchen. You were helping Minho and Felix cook dinner like you normally did when you went over for group nights.
"No," Your eyes don't leave the potatoes you were peeling.
When flirting with Changbin for a month didn't work, you decided to see if ignoring him would do anything. And boy did it. He got annoyed immediately at the gym when you would purposely go to machines that were far away from him or ask either Chan or Jisung to spot you. And then when you decided to go all the way home to shower and take a nap instead of going to his dorm, which was way closer, he was left completely stunned. He knew you wanted to take a shower as soon as possible after working out, which is why he offered to let you take showers at the dorm instead.
The last straw was when you went over to the dorm for dinner and greeted everyone except him. You even refused to look in his direction before heading off to the kitchen.
By the time dinner was finished, you were the last one at the table as everyone helped get the food and you were double checking that everything was off. There was only one seat left at the table, between Felix and Changbin.
You took the seat and made it a point to scoot it closer to Felix, who didn't mind. Changbin watched as you talked and laughed with everyone else at the table. Quickly becoming jealous, Changbin pulled your chair closer to him. He placed a firm grip on the back of the chair so you couldn't move and leaned in by your ear.
"If you have feelings with me, don't play games and just tell me." He whispered. Everyone looked on in confusion as they watched your face turn beet red.
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황 현 진 (Hwang Hyun-Jin) (317 words)
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"Hyunjin, I said I was sorry." You whine.
"Do you guys hear something? I think a mosquito got in." Hyunjin says, not looking up from his phone.
You are currently on your knees in front of him, begging for his forgiveness and he is not having it. Yesterday you decided that today was going to be the day you were going to ice him out after flirting with him for a month. Hyunjin did not like that one bit and started ignoring you back immediately. Somehow you forgot how incredibly petty Hyunjin could get.
"You know he's an idiot, maybe you should have just told him instead of icing him out," Seungmin calls from the corner.
"You," You turn to point at Seungmin, "shut the fuck up. It was your idea to ice him out!"
"It was your mistake to go to me for love advice in the first place. You're both idiots, you're perfect for each other." He shoots back. Chan, who was sitting next to Seungmin, hits him in the back of the head.
"Love advice?" Hyunjin asks softly. You and Seungmin both freeze, too caught up in your bickering to realize that Hyunjin was still in the room.
"Shit," You mutter under your breath.
"You went to Seungmin for love advice instead of me?" He scoffs.
"Oh my god, he really is an idiot. Permanent president of baboracha." Seungmin laughs.
"Wait a minute..." Hyunjin pauses. You could practically hear the gears turning in his head.
"Kill me now," You whisper.
"There he goes," Chan adds.
"You like me? Is that why you're alway hanging around me?"
"I'm going home."
"No, wait! I like you too."
"You do?"
"Congrats, you two finally realized that you two like each other. Now can you two please shut up so I can eat in peace?" Seungmin says dryly, earning him another smack from Chan.
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한 지 성 (Han Ji-Sung) (292 words)
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You were honestly confused when you opened your front door to find Jisung standing there, holding bags of food. After countless failed attempts are flirting with him, you decided to see if giving him the silent treatment would do the trick. Tonight is supposed to be movie night but you decided to stay home instead, claiming that you weren't in the mood.
"Why are you here?" You ask softly.
"You're mad at me, clearly, and I'm trying to make up for whatever I did."
"What if I say no?" You question, amused by his persistence. He's been texting you non stop ever since you told him you weren't coming to movie night.
"Please, let me in. I'm really sorry." He whines. You hold back a laugh and let him in.
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You two ended up watching a few movies while eating. You were quiet while Jisung was doing his usual commentary. You were now watching a movie you picked that coincidentally had a plot where the female lead was consistently flirting with the male lead with not avail.
"That guys is a dumbass! How can he not see that she's clearly in love with him? She's literally looking at him with heart eyes." He whines. You try not to scoff at the sheer stupidity of Jisung.
The next scene is male lead realizes that he's in love with the female lead after she stopped giving him attention and moved on. You feel Jisung's body become rigid next to you.
"Fuck," You hear him mutter. You turn to look at him to see what happened, thinking he dropped food, only to be met with his lips literally crashing onto yours. He pulls away and gives you a sheepish smile.
"Sorry for being a dumbass."
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이 용 복 (Lee Felix Yong-Bok) (287 words)
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Felix sat on the edge of the couch pouting and head tiled in confusion, the space he left for you empty. Everyone else around you shared confused looks as you sandwiched yourself between Hyunjin and Seungmin instead of taking your normal spot next to Felix.
Felix had grown accustomed to the attention you had been given him over the past month. Everyone knew that you liked him, except for Felix himself. In fact, Changbin and Jeongin thought you two were dating already. So when you decided to not sit with Felix during game night, it left everyone bewildered.
You had been avoiding Felix all night, favoring spending time with the other boys over him. He didn't mind it at first, you were friends with everyone and it wasn't like you two were dating. And he was confident that you were going to be in his group like always.
Fed up with you constantly ignoring him, he got up from his spot on the couch and came behind you wrapping his arms and legs around you like a koala.
"Lix, go find another group." You sigh. You were adamant about icing him out all day after a failed month of flirting with him.
"No," He mumbles into your back.
"What do you mean no?" You ask trying to unclasp his arms and legs from around you unsuccessfully. His grip tightens a bit to make sure you couldn't pry him off.
"Mine," He lifts his head up and speaks loudly, making sure everyone in the room heard him.
"What's yours?" You ask confused.
"You," He says before pressing his lips to your cheek.
"Fucking finally! Have fun third wheeling, Hyunjin." Seungin shouts before moving to be next to Innie.
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김 승 민 (Kim Seung-Min) (320 words)
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"For the love of fucking god, will you two just make up and kiss already?" Minho yells.
You and Seungmin were at a standoff. Two days ago you decided to ice him out to see if he would notice that you were flirting with him nearly everyday for the past month. You somehow forgot how petty and stubborn Seungmin could be and now you two were genuinely ignoring each other. And unfortunately, all of the other guys were stuck in the middle.
"Y/n started it," Seungmin says simply, refusing to look up from his phone.
"Learn to take a fucking joke." You throw back, refusing to look up from your phone as well. You just finished photoshopping a picture of Seungmin's face onto a donkey and was in the middle of sending it in the group chat with all nine of you.
"Oh real mature, Y/n." He scoffs.
"I'm sick of this shit. Seungmin, Y/n likes you and the only reason why she ignored you two days ago is because you weren't picking up on the fact that she was desperately flirting with you every day and wanted to see if you would notice. And Y/n, Seungmin likes you and the only reason he got mad is because he's jealous that you're not giving him attention anymore. Kiss and get this over with, I'm hungry!" Jisung shouts, his skills as main rapper clearly coming in handy.
Both you and Seungmin stare at Jisung, who threw himself on the floor after exposing you two, before looking at each other. You both silently nod before getting up to silently jump Jisung.
"Someone help me!" Jisung screams.
"Knock it off," Chan says lazily. Both you and Seungmin stop and just look at each other.
"Want to dich everyone else and go on a date?" Seungmin asks.
"Sure," You shrug.
"What just happened?" Jeongin asks as you and Seungmin leave.
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양 정 인 (Yang Jeong-In) (310 words)
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"Hello--"
"Chan hyung says that you like me. Is that true?" Jeongin cuts you off as soon as you answer the phone.
"I didn't say that!" You hear Chan yell in the background.
"Uh..." Thrown by the sudden question, every word you know seemed to disappear from your brain.
"He said that you were flirting with me this whole time and I was being clueless. Is that why you were avoiding me yesterday?"
You pull the phone away from you ear and look at the time. It's definitely too early for this. You sigh before sitting up and turning on your bedroom light.
"Yeah," You mumble, defeated and still not awake enough.
"Why didn't you tell me?" You hear a chorus of 'I told you so's' in the background.
"I did," You get up and drag your feet to the bathroom to splash some water on your face.
"You did? When?"
"Last month, after you walked me home from the movies." You never imagined that this is how you would be confessing to Jeongin. You had several more romantic scenarios in your head that were more palatable than this.
"I thought you meant as a friend."
"As a friend? I kissed you!"
"Not as a friend?"
"Are your friends just kissing you platonically?" You scoff.
"Did you forget who I live with?"
"Oh right,"
"I like you too. Not as a friend, obviously. More than that." He whispers, probably so the boys don't hear him.
You nearly drop your phone in the sink full of water, the shock of hearing Innie say that he likes you too woke you up fully. You freeze, scared that if you moved an inch you would wake up from a dream. It wouldn't be the first time.
"Ah, Y/n, I have to go. Let's go out on a date tonight and talk, okay?"
Buy me a coffee?
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graymanshoots · 1 month
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FWB!Ghost x GN Reader x pastHookup!Konig
Tags: Hookup,semi public sex, regret, angst, yelling, ginger konig, konig doesn't wear his mask constantly like ghost (Only on the field), vulnerability , crying, arguments,no beta we die like men
Part: 1 - 2
A/n: I finally finished this on two days of no sleep and a missing beta reader. Hope guys enjoy the tad bit of spice at the beginning and as needed 18+.
Seeing the head of ginger hair standing out not only cause of its color but because it belonged to the tallest person in the room, filled your stomach with stones.
The memory of the familiar face shot through your mind like a bolt of lighting igniting your nerves as you tensed next to your teammates.
You were all shipped up and sent to a warehouse a couple of weeks after finding out you’d be working with kortac.
Having arrived days before they had you were granted time to stop for a drink with johnny and kyle. Price didnt join claiming he wanted to be prepared and if price isn't coming neither did ghost much to your benefit.
Maybe if he had come you would be piss drunk with the team probably getting dragged back to the warehouse by the man himself, instead you were barely tipsy with your cheek pressed into the leather seating of a stranger's car.
His broad chest rubbing against your back with each harsh thrust, the car surely visibly shaking on the outside.
You dont even have to guess how fucked you would be if he remembered you and decided to ope his mouth.
You cross your arms over your chest and lean against one of the metal support beams that the building had an abundance of.
Despite your wishful thinking the red headed man's eyes fell on you and you knew he knew.
You were quick to notice the slight quirk in his lip before going stoned face once more.
He introduced himself as “konig” before introducing the rest of his team, his eyes occasionally flicking over to you.
“Fuck sake, this guys huge.” Kyle whispered to you coming around to your side.
Kyle had no idea how true his words were, the phantom feeling of being filled by Konig's thick cock.
You nod in acknowledgement to what Kyle says letting out a sigh, “Laswell described him as a battering ram, yeah” you say.
You don't fail to notice the way Konig eyes you up every chance he gets like he had done in the bar nights prior. When you saw him in the bar he was far more blatant with his staring, his interest apparent as he shifted his stance debating on whether to approach you or not.
Rubbing the sweat built from nervousness off his palms and onto the tight cargo pants he wore he finally came over when the boys were getting another round of drinks to approach you.
The conversation between you two was short as you both seemed to have the same goal in mind: get laid.
After Simon you hadn't slept with anyone else but it was a welcomed gift to feel wanted again.
Konig was definitely someone you found attractive, you wouldn't have had breathy moans pulled from your throat in the back of his car if he wasn't.
But he wasn't simon.
A small piece of you felt guilty while the rest was saying fuck it, ghost ditched you not the other way around.
You mentally return to the conversation when you hear your name being said, you realize price is introducing the team and you give a small acknowledgement, your fingers twitching at your hip.
“Oh, I’m familiar.” König responds to your introduction with quick ease causing your teammates eyes to fall on you. Johnny gave you a knowing look of mischief, his bright blues having seen you with the man before you disappeared from the group.
“Just a brief meeting in a bar, unfortunately I did not stay long enough to meet the rest of you.” He clarifies noticing your subtle glare.
The encounter was anything but brief, you thought to yourself as the conversation was then drawn off of you.
It’s wasn’t until later that you bumped into the behemoth of a man.
“You were so vocal a few nights ago now you walk around quiet as a mouse.” He comments a smirk playing on his uncovered lips.
“You pester all your random hookups?” You retort your lips stretching into a thin line as you looked up at him.
“Just the ones I have to work with, mein Freundin.“ he chuckles ignoring your unamused expression.
“Well if that’s all I’ll be going.” You sigh not wanting to get involved any further.
But as you pass his hand grips your wrist and suddenly your back in front of him with his other hand at your chin.
He forces your head to the side and a smirk comes to his lips as he looks at the newly exposed skin .
“So schön, sie sind wie eine Blume .” And then he’s gone and already halfway down the hallway by the time you gather yourself.
Ghost walking down the opposite side of the hallway having seen the interaction from a distance. His eyes arrow on you and then the retreating redhead.
You let out a huff of frustration when you see him and reluctantly start walking in his direction.
“You two seem close, got anything you want to share?” He questioned you his tone accusatory. After weeks of barely speaking to you he breaks the silence to ask about a personal situation.
“It doesn’t concern you lieutenant.” Your quick to respond but he doesn’t want to take that answer.
“It’s concerns me when it’s involves an enemy and You.” He grumbled crossing his arms over his chest.
“Why do I concern you Ghost? I’m just someone you used to use so fuck off cause I already know what your thinking.” The words come out harsher and more bitter than what you intended. Your frustration and resentment to the man you wish you didn’t love coming out almost full force.
Ghost stiffened at your words, his jaw and fists clenching as you brushed past him.
Once he could no longer hear your steps his entire body deflated his shoulders feeling heavy with shame.
He was being unfair to you and he hated himself for it but he felt so selfishly it was hard to stop.
Ghost adjusted his mask and shook off the guilty feeling that loomed over him before continuing down his path.
You could feel your skin buzzing with irritation, your palms stinging from being squeezed into tight fists. Why did he have to make everything in your life harder every time?
No matter how many steps you take away, ghost manages to still be right on your tail. You found yourself spacing for the rest of the day until your sat across from the same person you didn't want to see again that day.
Ghost sat across from you staring you down as you ate the unappetizing food served in mess.
His gaze was unrelenting; he looked as if he was aching to say something but stopped himself instead opting to tap his finger on the edge of his empty plate idley.
“Y’think Lt’s mad at ye?” Johnny questions quietly from his place beside you. You narrow your eyes at the sergeant, “Why would he be?”
Johnny had this look on his face like he did something he wasn't supposed to as he clicked his teeth and shifted awkwardly in his seat.
“He asked aboot whit we were up to at the pub, an i think i might ‘ave talked ye into some trouble.” he confessed glancing over at simon who was still boring holes into the side of your head.
You didn't have time to retaliate against your teammate for his loose lips before simon was standing from his seat arms crossed. “We need to talk, now.” His tone was sharp, his words spoken in that usual gruff manchester accent.
You sucked your teeth and agreed not wanting to make a scene in the mess hall, mentally you vowed to eventually get johnny back for damning you.
After leaving mess ghost lead you to an unoccupied meeting room shutting the door behind the both of you.
“Looks like you got a type.” Ghost started leaning against the door with his arms crossed.
“Don’t fucking start with me ghost, what i do outside of work is none of your damn business.” you hiss plopping down on one of the many chairs in the room.
“Don't tell me it's not my business when you have a drawer of shit at my apartment.” he retorted, his eyes narrowing on you. His body was tense and his shoulders squared like he needed to move but wouldn't allow himself to.
You could feel your eyes burn as your frustration grew, your fists clenching and unclenching.
“You can throw all the shit away, i don't even know why you still even have it.” you mutter looking down at ghost’s shoes avoiding his glare.
“I kept them because i ca-” you cut ghost off before he could say anymore, “Dont you dare fucking do that to me simon!” you snap meeting his glare with glazed eyes.
Standing from the seat you approached Simon's further tensing figure. “You're a jackass, Simon, y’know why? Because i told you how i fucking felt and you fucking left. Now im living my adult life and you want to act like im your fucking girlfriend or something, let me move on!” you were borderline shouting the frustration bleeding out of your eyes and into your voice.
Simon couldnt hold your gaze anymore he couldn't stand that look in your eyes or the dampness of your cheeks. He could feel the words crawling into the back of his throat but none of them were the right thing.
What could he say to fix this, what could he do when your fury spoke so loudly that he wanted to shrink away.
“I…” he took a breath “Im sorry” his arms hung loosely by his side, fingers tapping rapidly at his palm.
“Sorry doesnt change the fact that you left, then treated me like nothing, and ar now trying to grill me about my sex life when you removed yourself from all of my personal life.”
You wiped your face as your tone came down, the short burst of aggression dying down with it.
“I'm tired simon, I devoted so much to you for so long for it all to end because you cant figure yourself out.” You bring your eye’s down to the ground again before back up at simon.
“You’ve had years of us playing this cat and mouse game, if your still confused, if your still unsure, if you don't want…” Your eyebrows pinch together as you clench your jaw.
“If you don't want me, then why are you here? Why are we even having this conversation if your actions speak your truth, because that's all I have to go off of?” Your question struck Simon and his breath caught in his throat.
He rubbed his face over the mask, the feeling of the fabric suddenly becoming so suffocating.
The rough material rubbed uncomfortably on his skin as he pulled it off his chapped lips parting for a heavy breath.
He disheveled with his messy blonde hair and eye bags that seemed deeper than usual.
“You’ve ruined everything for me…” he starts your eyebrows furrowing at his words.
“Everything in my life is so fucking mixed with yours and i can let it go. I thought avoiding you would help make you leave every piece of my being but it just made it worse. You know what happened to my family, and i dont want to use that as an excuse but im fucking terrified of seeing you in my nightmares.” Simon's lips are drawn into a thin line and his body slumps into the wall, his shoulders dropping.
“I know im an arse and big fucking mess and selfish as all hell, but i feel different for you and i dont know what to do with it.” his shaky hands clasped together in front of him.
“You have no idea how many times we’ve been together and i just wanted to have all of you, how many futures that have lingered in my mind over our years together. I want you for the rest of my life but I don't know how long that life will even be.” simon looks to you with a tired sigh.
You feel frozen in your spot the bitterness and frustration in your chest deflating into an equal exhaustion.
“Where do we go from here simon? I love you and I've loved you for over a decade but I can't keep going if you’re going to take years to tell me what you want.” You say stuffing your hands into your pockets unsure what to do with them.
“I like who i am around you, and i dont want to loose one of the only good things left in my life cause im being fucking daft. Am I too late?” his tone was soft almost a whisper. It felt so uncharacteristic for a man like simon ‘ghost’ riley to say something like this, to speak so softly and seem so nervous. You almost felt unsure about how genuine his words were but his glazed eyes had crushed your doubt.
Bringing your hands from your pockets you hesitantly grabbed simons hands before pulling them around you. He immediately melted into the hug, his hands gripping at you as if you'd disappear if he didn't hold you so tightly.
You could feel his relief as you held onto him his shaky breath evening out and his muscles going almost lax.
“We can try again.”
[Good ending] :)
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thechekhov · 12 days
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so ive been following you for years now and i love your comic but mostly what i see now adays is your awesome reactions and asks and stuff - which is great! - but i decided to break down and read your comic on tapas. i didnt realize how much i missed and the impact of just sitting down and reading it is much more intense. youre a very talented storyteller and i knew that but im still blown away by this. thank you so much for sharing your skills, time, energy - especially since i saw you recently say you basically do this and work and nothing else. which makes me wonder what are you gonna do when you're done with WD!Steven? like do you have other projects youd like to work on and i just missed you saying so? whatever you do take care of yourself!
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That's very kind of you.
I do indeed have SO many projects I want to work on.
Unfortunately, I'm a bit committed to WDAU at the moment. I am trying to draw other stuff on the side, but it's very difficult to fit stuff in.
One project I wanted to do was a little slice of life comic series about my partner and I living in Japan as a mixed couple.
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Another was an original comic that I still hope to have the time to launch someday.....
And there are actually other projects, like an SU ttrpg that I wanted to put out, which is currently on hold because... Again... I'm too busy to finish it.
The reason I haven't talked about these projects much is because I feel incredibly embarrassed about posting anything that isn't at least some level of completed-ness. I don't want to announce something that I'll never get to finish. So unless I have a good head start on something AND I know I have a few things lined up to share, I kinda keep quiet....
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