#very sad but also happy

[kamuucab]

Hello I died for a little but I’m back

Had some bad burnout over the summer due to juggling so many projects both personal and on ao3. I have the bad habit of making long form fics and writing everything out in one big rush, then running out of motivation to flesh it out. I can get like, a quarter of the way in and then I lose interest (definitely a neurospicy thing I’m working on).

And tbh I was really thinking about just discontinuing my fnaf works completely because of this. But there’s some really cool scenes that just wont get out of my brain that I really want to write. So basically I lived bitch, and I’m going to keep working on them!

Well, one of them. New Hire will, unfortunately, not be continued. Most of my interest lies in If You’ll Be My Star at this point. I’ll be posting all my notes on New Hire though, so anyone who wants to know how it was going to end can do so (and if anyone wants to adopt it).

Anyway, that’s it for this update. Expect a new chapter posted soon!

#kamu writes #very sad but also happy #also I'll be working on writing more oneshots/short form fics #I have some ideas for Sun n Moon that need to be put into the world

[wardingshout]

Zelda goes mushroom girl

#tloz #a link to the past #zelda #link #my art #I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one... #I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea #I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat. #it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd #if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl...... #I'm falling back into my old ways rn though #anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends #like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder #they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it #in a proper way that might make sense.... #if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth #and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without- #distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just- #super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff #i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i- #read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :( #SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!! #but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little- #break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think #ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for- #designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much... #WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to #umm. tags. #new life smp #smallishbeans #mythical sausage #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #inthelittlewood #my art #sketch

[creakincreek]

@somerandomdudelmao I suffer from big man brainrot. I literally cannot stop thinking about him, HE'S SO HAPPY TO JUST BREATHE AND DRINK AND JUST BE ALIVE!! :'D

#He makes me sad #But also very happy #I will cry over him #If he cries over water I can't wait to see his reaction over actual food #cass apocalyptic series #future raph #rottmnt #rise raph #tmnt #art #my art

[spacerockband]

Legend tells of the carp that leapt over the Dragon Gate at the crest of a river and became a stand up comedian.

#also toyed with calling this comic riddle of the sphinx #but that had a little too much reference already associated with it #comic #comics #sphinx #dragon #ive been thinking so much about humor as related to the tortured artist and comedians and poets as sad artists etc etc #and how often that can be true but how this predominant cultural vision pigeonholes comedy as a low art or even just one you have to just #'be talented' at intrinsically. or even 'be sad enough' to be good at #instead of a craft you hone and an artform itself #this comic isnt exactly about that. #but it's related #it's more about... two very different kinds of people. but who are the same kind of artist #if that makes sense #and literally being scared of what you want #art tag #sequential art #personal comic #quite happy with how this one turned out. im excited to have made it i feel like its really different than my usual comics

[gunstellations]

confessions

#hankcon #detroit become human #my art #hank anderson #connor detroit #this can be read either way #i initially started this out while i was sad and i drew connor #i think that if connor were to confess first he would get rejected at the beginning by hank deflecting it awkwardly #but then i was okay while drawing and somehow it ended up kind of sweet if you look at it from another angle #so that hank is the one confessing here #but also connor is going absolutely rigid in a very soft way #i like that intepretation because you cant see connors face so you dont know what hes thinking aside from what you can take from his body #language #its either a happy piece or a sad piece if you want it so! #i like to think it gets awkward at first but then they make up later #they both have a lot to sort out about themselves! but they bring out the better in each other #and in my timeline they are intertwined enough that theyre inseperable #thats enough ramblings for now love and peace 🤞🤞

[ansleof]

Someone needs to stop me from making so many animal AUs LMAO

Anyways here's the life gang as deer because!!! deer are cool!!! I'm pretty proud of the species choices if I do say so myself :]

#trafficblr #inthelittlewood #goodtimeswithscar #grian #tangotek #impulsesv #pearlescentmoon #bdoubleo100 #zombiecleo #ethoslab #bigbstatz #ldshadowlady #smallishbeans #solidaritygaming #jimmy solidarity #smajor1995 #dangthatsalongname #rendog #yes i gave pearl fangs i think she deserves them <3 #really proud of myself for assigning bdubs as the second smallest species of deer. look at that guy #i did assign mumbo a species but then realized id have to draw a deer with a mustache and. i didnt really want to do that #ALSO!!! I LOVE REEVES MUNTJAC #AND IM SO HAPPY WITH HOW WELL IT FITS TANGO #sad that i didnt get to have my fav deer species in here but tufted deer have very iconic eyebrows and none of these guys do so #rocketdoodles

[hotluncheddie]

having autistic high masking steve thoughts..

steve harrington who’s black and white is these are the rules and you follow them. you turn up at school, you show your face at dinner, you do your hair and brush your teeth and speak when your spoken to. steve harrington who doesn’t want to be alone at lunch, knows that making friends in important because it’s the only thing his mother asked him after his first day, and he wants to be able to say ‘yes’ if she ever asks again. steve who loves to swim but hates how the shower water beats on his skin after, how the shampoo always get all over his face and he’s never given time to wipe it off in the right way, can’t seem to say how it makes him want to scream. all he knows he can’t scream because that’s ‘bad behaviour steven’ and then he won’t be able to swim. so he swallows it, he detaches, he only half exists in the shower and he feels a mass of dark smoke churn in his chest.

steve harrington who heard what the other kids said, how they spoke about the older kids, how people spoke on the tv. learned that when he grew up that he’d need to talk to girls like he wanted to date them, kiss them. talk to guys like he enjoyed hearing about their weekends, even if they were mean and annoying. even is he didn’t care and noticed how they never asked about him. but you’re not allowed to say that; your annoying, i don’t care, you make me feel bad. you have to listen and smile and fit in and be liked. not matter what.

steve harrington who’s smart and sensible and is good at recognising patterns. who knows how to survive, no matter how uncomfortable he is. no matter how tired he is by the evening, mind blasting static, no room do anything other than lay there. he doesn’t really know what he likes because he has no energy to do anything, anything other than going to school and go on dates. he got good at hiding how reading takes so long and writing never comes out in the right order first time. how so often he feels like his skin needs to just come off. how that scream is still sitting at the base of his throat.

he dreams of running away, to hide and just, be quiet. everything just need to be quiet and dark, for a little bit. for a while. but it can’t be, because he has to show his face, has to do his hair.

and then monsters exist. and steve survives, because he has to, because he can. he knows his role in the story, so he fights and he cares and he protects and he keeps talking to girls and he keeps brushing his teeth and when he gets beaten up it hurts, it’s uncomfortable, but what’s more discomfort when every day is uncomfortable. he’s always been uncomfortable but how can he ever not be, he has to follow the rules.

hurt/comfort pt2 & snippet pt3

ao3

#sad stevie baby hours #hotlunch #autistic steve harrington #steve harrington whump #kinda #just #i dunno #it feels very him #not to project #and not to be too ooc i hope #maybe i’ll add and make this happy but for now he’s just uncomfortable #also #dyslexic steve harrington #my fic

[jadenvargen]

thanks so much everyone who was interested in a painting! most of them have been sold off and i'm in the process of making shipping labels rn. some are still left if interested. i'm rly happy everyone has been so supportive q.q most everything's been sold out, and i'm really happy to see it go to a better home.

the pieces that are left if anyone is still interested are as follows:

also, i thought to add some extra pieces that i initially didn't want to sell because i wasn't personally as pleased with them, but if anyone's interested:

G: 150 $ L: 30$ H: 80$ O: 100$

X: 30$ Y: 40$ Z: 20$ W: 30$

Plus this piece that I wanted to post but didn't end up happening. maybe someday. it's A-3 sized ds9 episode painting:

300$ because it's twice as large as most of the others.

as always, [email protected] for all inquiries !

bonus. if anybody's interested, i'm considering putting my 2021 sketchbook (full of saw art mostly lol) on ebay for auction, but idk if it's a good idea. LMK what u guys think! (here's a quick flip-through video of it. CW for blood and some nudity)

Thank you everyone for the support so far. Absolutely no pressure in buying, just if you want, it's here. lots of love.

#i had the sketchbook during a very important but also very very very sad time in my life. and im honestly happy to send it off.

[zephyrine-gale]

kiana bronya mei u will always be my favorite main trio

#honkai impact #kiana kaslana #bronya #raiden mei #my art #working on a shop update!! #i need to fill my void of hi3 merch #also!!!! im really happy with the backsides for these!!! very proud of myself ajkfkjh #also got lowkey sad @ honkai part 2 news.... #it doesn't look good to me im so sorry hi3... 7 years playing n it doesn't look like it has the same charm :( #i do think the game needs a UI update tho the games menus and shops r hella cluttered #but i hope they keep the main color scheme the games always had (iconic blue!!)

[bloobydabloob]

You got this brother

#keeping up the trend of dumb phrase Dirk sad captioning #homestuck #homestuck fanart #dirk strider #hs fanart #hsbc #tw #gore #suicide #blood #Drawn while listening to #Thought forms III by Andrew Bernstein on repeat #good song. Sounds like the hereditary soundtrack #Happy Birthday Isaac #Birthdaayyy #Also probably won’t be very active on here the next week or so. #I’m going abroad. I might post old art as filler but probably not

[sergeifyodorov]

gonna delete this soon probably but if u can't accept that other ppl will be sad about Their Guys leaving/retiring/getting dramatically traded/their team being bad now after being good for a bit/Losing In General then what are you DOING here please oh my god

#points to sign The point of sports is not that your team will win and you will be happy. The point is that you will be sad in a group #i also say this as a leafs fan who is very happy about having a dewey!!!! like people Will Be Sad!!!!!!! Don't Be A Dick About It!

[blackbackedjackal]

As a Gévaudan Lycan, June’s design is supposed to give off an unknowable and melancholy energy.

Gévaudan Lycans are mimics, and their emotions alter their form, especially if they have little to no control of themselves when they shift.

The way June was changed into a lycan and her experience during first shift were extremely traumatic, and over time, her lycan form reflected her feelings of loss and self-loathing. She fronts as this charming and confident woman, while holding back her deeper emotions that eventually leached into the form that reflects her true self.

Fear, sadness, loss, and rage all mixed into this one entity she cannot control. Once a month, she's forced into facing all of those emotions, reliving that trauma again and again for nearly 30 years.

#so when people say they like her design #it makes me so so happy #I put lot of thought into it #as I really wanted to reflect a top very near and dear to my heart #which is the lack of access and resources for black women (especially queer black women) for mental health #there's this kind of cultural thing #where your hairstylist is also your therapist #and June’s design and lore is a reference to that culture #all these hardworking women in the community who will just be TALKING about their experiences at hair salons #it's cathartic but also like #it happens because of how little professional help is available and accessible for the community #anyway June is a big sad cryptid werewolf and needs to not be sad :[ #she can still be a big cryptid werewolf but she needs lycantherapy #june kingston #strawberry moon

[arom-antix]

As part of a two-part reverse bang-bang, here's some more Valentines art to which @probablytoooldforthis wrote an amazing fic, Sweets for the Sweet! Please go check it out, I promise you won't regret it, and keep your eyes peeled for the second chapter - and artwork, of course - coming out on White Day aka the 14th of March!

Also, I this is an unrendered version, the finished version will be posted within about a week's time (hopefully) since I don't have access to digital drawing at the moment YuY

#this piece makes me so happy #and the fic even more so #i really wish i hadnt ended up on crunch time to even get this half finished version done but whoever said i was a responsible adult #whoever said i had time management skills #whoever said that was wrong #anyway THEYRE MAKING CHOCOLATES BECAUSE I COULDNT NOT #viktor is very concentrated UuU #also if any actual confectioners (is that the english word? idk) see this feel free to yell at me in the tags for everything thats wrong #my experience with making filled chocolates is extremely limited and very messy #so uh #this is probably not accurate #BUT THEYRE HAVING FUN AND THATS WHAT MATTERS #i like to think viktor has clips to keep his hair out of the way but he always somehow manages to lose them oh how sad how “unfortunate” #guess yuuri will just have to keep his hair up yet again how tragic YnY #also yuuri 100% knows viktors clips dont magically disappear but he cant get himself to say anything because does he really mind? #no #no he doesnt #not at all #he gets to lovingly brush viktors hair out of his eyes what in the world would he be complaining about? #yuri on ice #yuri on ice fanart #fanart #art #arom antix #arom antix art #katsuki yuuri #viktor nikiforov #viktuuri

[dolls-self-ships]

had the idea of a human au for my chicken run self insert (and all the characters really, more to come on that) for a while now and I’m so glad I finally was able to fully get their designs out on paper (or I guess screen)

#I wanted to give Daphne a very Audrey Hepburn Dior look mixed with a bit of southern cottagecore since she is very lady like but comes from #the country so I hope that translated ^^; #also designing Mac and Ginger was just such a blast I’m really happy with how they both turned out #I feel like I hc Ginger as a mixed girl. like back then it was really common for mixed race people to try and conceal the side of them that #was more ‘ethnic’ which is really sad so I think Ginger would happily embrace that side of herself #as an act of rebellion also just as a general form of self love bc I think she’s always given off the vibe that she’s just very secure #of herself and the way she is/looks #self shipping #self ship #self ship community #self ships #self insert #self ship art #chicken run #mac #ginger #aardman #lovebirds ♥️🐔 #oc x canon #chicken run oc #oc #chicken run self insert

[fantasykiri5]

A PressureBeast for day 10 of @hermitadaymay !!

#my art #Hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #stressmonster #stressmonster101 #stressmonster fanart #stressmonster101 fanart #she was SUPER fun to draw! Honestly I’m sad so much of her got covered up by such chunky clothes I was really happy with my shapes! #Also sadly I’ve resigned to having missed drawing Skizz… I hope to go back and get the ones I miss at the end of the month #so far I’ve only fully missed Skizz and TFC since I put the little extra keralis in xB’s so the list of things I didn’t get is fairly short #and I’m not busy much of tomorrow so I hope to get a head start on some of the upcoming ones #I’m VERY excited to draw pearl with her mail carrier fit and the solar punk stuff- I LOVE solar punk it’s so fun so that’ll be nice to draw #and I’ve got Sundays planned and hope to at least start on it tomorrow because I have work on Sunday. #ANYWAYS have an art