#why am i here. just to su-

[novantinuum]

it's late, post Steven focused SU edit wips

#su #su future #steven universe #su edit #wips #jen rambles #this one will get Melancholy real quick folks #which is tbh why i thought this song was perfect... #has a happy beat... but the underlying lyrics are ripe with emotional strife #and eventually even the happy vibe crumbles under the pressure by the second verse/chorus and bridge #just like steven himself #god i am so excited to eventually finish this one #i am literally giving my shitty ass iMovie a workout here #(i do not have access to anything better and it KILLS me)

[kaimactrash]

Finally got around to doing that meme where you draw your comfort characters as Garnet and Steven in that one awful SU 'fan' comic.

Both of my comfort characters are kinda bad people, but even so, I feel like they'd be fairly enthusiastic to kick anyones ass.

The mall goth is Amber Sweet from Repo! the Genetic Opera and the emo is Matthew Patel from the Scott Pilgrim franchise.

Amber encouraging all of Matthews's worst character traits could be a crazy but fun few days for them, and terror for anyone in their paths!

I used to draw these two a bunch and it was SO much joy to work on them again! I love them both with my whole heart and I will excuse any misdeed they do. (joke)

#no genders only alternate fashion sub cultures :P #amber sweet #matthew patel #scott pilgrim #repo! the genetic opera #RTGO #I have the biggest crush on both of these weirdos #I couldn't really think of anything snappy or funny for matthew to say so fuck it lets do it! #youre lucky the scottish in me didn't have him say here we fucking go!!! #also just to make it clear I fucking hate that SU comic I am not approving of it by making this just doing a meme #and yes ofc I ship them why would I not ship two of the only concepts I'm attracted to??? who cares about universe limits #IDK if its true but I once heard repo was set in Canada too so they're not even too distance in space just in time #btw I dont think he'd natrually be much shorter than her but she wears like HIGH high heels so she looks taller than him

[thoughtfulstudentsalad]

I am pissed at Su-Won this chapter (RANT) ch 242 spoilers *Don't read if you don't want to be spoiled*

See stuff like him disregarding the state of Kuuto, the Earth Tribe, and the dragons really makes me think ONCE again that his ambitions are about doing what his father wants rather than for the “country” which is actually giving him such an awful look this chapter dude…

Like I get he's ill, and that's likely making him in such a rush to get to the South Kai capital and make Kouka the glorious empire that his father wished it to be....

But he’s not thinking about the casualties on Kouka’s side at all. What happened to

Huh????

Like I cannot tell if this is a writing problem or a Su-Won problem. Either way I am PISSED off at this character. It's off when not only Kija, but even Su-Won supporters like Judo, Kye-Sook and Geun-tae are going "Uh, Heika? Wtf are you doing :I"

And it's like "Su-Won are you REALLY doing this for the country boy???? OKAY, then why is Kouka in such a bad shape right now????”

Edit: So I made a mistake, even “keeping sacrifices to a minimum is my job” was a bluff. Maybe this is consistency? I guess I might just hate Su-Won LOL, cause I don’t see how he’s being “intelligent” as he’s proclaimed to be at all.

#akatsuki no yona #yona of the dawn #su-won #sorry I am SO annoyed with him after reading the Japanese raws #I want to understand his side but he just seems like an asshole who enjoys making life harder for Yona #like his entire character can be chalked up to “Yu-Hon's slave” here #and his OWN supporters are noticing it #Even Kye-Sook was like “Heika why aren’t we sending out a search party is this wise…..” #Istg if he monologue about boxes opening only to be a douche towards Hak next ch- #he def KNOWS Yona is prob crying somewhere like when Hak went missing AND HE DOESN'T FUCKING CARE #I can’t believe i’m saying this but I actually feel bad for Yona #look Yona was NEVER obligated to “support” her dad’s killer who won’t even help find the dragons

[frazzledazzlin]

ever since i realized i rly only wanna be active on twt is because of copperright was when i have had less of a headache being on that site help

#here too im just less on bc i dont wanna see half the stuff about thsc #but i gotta come back for shark's art and copperright every now and then teehee #i like ive got this blog for every single fandom but for the past 2 years almost now its just been thsc so thats why i dont post that often #am not as energetic as i was back with su and gravity falls #but even thrn im not letting rhm and reg go ever lolz

[nonestcurrentis]

oh the JGY edit i would throw on y'all right now if i could edit videos / it wasn't a 2000s ass hungarian song cause i found the PERFECT JGY/3Zun song randomly last night and i'm kicking my feet twirling my hair

imma just translate the chorus for y'all here

"when i look in your eyes, [i see] a beautiful rainbow, a rainbow

it shines in the light like my grave made of marble, of marble

your love claims its victims, princess, princess

and i, too, am caught in your epidemic, princess"

EXCUSE ME??

like...? Wen Ruohan?

Mo Xuanyu?

Qin Su (and their son)?

NIE MINGJUE???

ignore my shitty ass screengrab gifs i made at like Fuck Me O'Clock last night, but my man Jiggy's love is literally claiming victims left and right, THAT'S 👏 HIS 👏 SONG 👏

#why am i getting emotional over a song from 2003 help me #song is 'királylány' by hooligans if anyone out here is hungarian / supporting my delusions #i'll just shut up now #mo dao zu shi #mdzs #the untamed #cql #meng yao #jin guangyao #xiyao #nieyao #3zun #the venerated triad #wen ruohan #qin su #jin rusong #mo xuanyu #nie mingjue

[thinningoutgypsy]

#help plz #i don’t want to be here #i wanna be her #i am sorry #im dying #i hate this #this is a cry for help #i cant handle it #why can’t i just be okay #not pr0 just for myself #k!ll me now #nobody can save me #nobody can stop me #su!cidal #su!cide #tw death #i dont deserve to live #bpd problems #bpd feels #living with bpd

[flowered-mp3]

#hi guys... i know that i havent been the most active lately... mostly because work is hectic right now and all my free time is spent with #family friends and my bf #to be honest i don't know if i'll return to writing... I've slowly been losing motivation but it really is a shame #i've loved my time here and i don't know where my journey will go next #but i will keep my blog up for now and reblog stuff occasionally. #honestly it seems that since full time work and bf got combined I've had less and less time! its just a part of life #and i'm incredibly grateful for those who gave me advice durinf my online dating era... it all led up to my life right now and i couldn’t #be happier. sure our relationship isn't perfect and he isn’t but i truly feel that he's perfect for me. i'm the happiest that i've even been #and i'm thankful for u all that commented on my shitposts and talked me through it all. it got me through and even my bf thanks u all for #getting me through it as well :) #idk why i feel so sappy right now but i'm just feeling grateful. #and happy hehe. my bf met one of my oldest friends from my hometown and he just. idk. after we drove back he told me that he realized that #he's v protective of me when he's walking dt with me lol (it's filled with very strange people that yell) and i could tell lowkey because #his hand would squeeze mine and he would pull me toward him or beside or infront when we talked past sus people #and idk he was looking at me a certain way and i was like stop looking at me (he was gonna make me blush lol) but he just said 'why am i not #allowed to look at my future wife' ! #and u guys i wanted to SCREAM like... wow my bf lowkey has rizz tf lol #idk i'm happy 😊 thats the life update see u guys sometimes :) #e.txt

[kayhusky]

thought this was funny to post it here :]

#huskay talks #no but seriously why do most toh fans get so up an arms with shit like amity's chin #yet when people point out gus' hair animation in ttlgr or willow being skinny in that wad promo they call those fans chronically online #like PLEASE think for a second here #it's just like su where they ignore every problem in the show because it has queer rep #[keep in mind i am a longtime toh fan that's been here since the greenlight announcement]

[dimonds456]

sorry if i've been quiet, the anxieties have me.

but I have therapy tomorrow :) so hopefully things only go up from here.

#vent (kinda- happy ending) in the tags #filling in spaaace filling in spaaace #uh when i say “quiet” i mean like. in general over the past year #this time last year i was convinced i was going to die- among other things #the fact i'm still here is something i'm thankful for every day #something does not want me alive and every day i'm here is my way of giving whatever the fuck that is the middle finger #i'm here and i'm alive so fucking deal with it #that said; my mental state has been fuuuuuuuucked #also this time last year i was trying to recover from a really traumatic experience that lasted for 9 months #i'm still not recovered from it actually not even fucking close #i'm finally getting to a place where i feel that i can start talking about it (not to randos online tho sorry) but it took ages #but just knowing that the anniversary of it being “over” is coming up is like. doing something to me. #i still have a month- that anniversary is in August but like. shit. #this is why i haven't been uploading art like i used to when i was in the su fandom #i've been drawing slower and less frequently #and the art i do draw i don't always post (which was true even back then i probably only posted half of what I drew) #so i know that- at least back then- people have been worried about my sudden slowing down of artwork. this is why. #that said i've slowly been getting back into it. i actually got the urge to write today while i was at work (tho it faded when i got home) #which is a huge improvement #i am doing better! #the askblog has been helping a lot actually #even if it... does remind me of a different time (before everything went to shit). but like i think that's *why* it helps y'know? #but it also gives me a lot of anxiety so i can't do it all the time #my anxiety in general has gotten really fucking bad over the last month and a half and i'm not sure why. like it's always been there but. #but now it's like a hunched beast and literally appears out of nowhere #at least before i was always pretty sure what was causing it but now i have no idea #but thats what the therapy is for. that and the trauma fdgshajk #no doubt the two are linked probably #but soon i'll be better. soon i'll be able to move forward on all the projects i wanna work on #soon i'll be free y'know?

[hellphrog]

Just watched the spiderman movie. Miguel is a universe vampire who feasts on anomalies. Yall heard it here first.

#he's a vampire and everyone just acts like it's normal?? that ain't sus to you? #they wouldn't make him a vampire if it wasn't important #it would detract from how crazy he is on his own #we see him in the film about to bite the paper vulture #if i am remembering correctly #and when he reveals his tragic backstory to make himself sympathetic to miles #IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE #SIR WHY WERE YOU LOOKING AT OTHER UNIVERSES IN THE FIRST PLACE #and spiderman. doesn't. die. #mile's spiderman was an EXCEPTION #so there's no way the version he replaced was a spiderman (unless miguel killed him) #miles scares him as he is living proof that anomalies/canon events don't destroy the universe #furthermore the FORESHADOWING #sad peter asks him why he isn't funny #because spidermen are supposed to be funny #hell #miles goes riGHT OUT AND ASKS #IS HE EVEN A SPIDERMAN AT ALL #anyway had to get this out here you go 😘 #spiderman across the spider verse spoilers #theories

[gayestblogthesite]

Everyone else: Hannibal holding Will’s neck and staring lovingly into his soul was SO gay

Me, a clown: *misses the gay every time cause I’m too busy laughing myself sick at the look on Hanni’s face when the social worker struggles out of the dead horse*

#like yeah I love the gay too but I’m really just obsessed with Peter and His Antics #but in all honesty that’s genuinely the funniest shit I have ever seen in my life #and it’s followed directly by the gayest shit ever that whole scene is just chefs kiss af #su zakana #hannibal #why yes I am rewatching the show for the millionth time #I love getting back to the good shit in life #I’m here for clown moves not the metaphors lol

[cheekblush]

need a lobotomy asap <3

#i have a horrible migraine once again #but i know it's self inflicted bc i spent the whole day in bed on my phone... #when i was supposed to be studying 😐 #i hate myself so much #i have a test on tuesday and an exam on thursday and i only have this weekend to properly study and i've just wasted the whole saturday.. #.. just rotting in bed giving myself a migraine #and i know i won't manage to revise everything tomorrow bc it's soooo much... #why do i always do this to myself i truthfully hate myself so much like i have no discipline #but i also just want to rest on the weekend bc the school/work week is already exhausting enough #i feel so stupid complaining about this bc i know people who get so much more done than me + manage to have a social life #and here i am with absolutely no social life and i don't even manage my tasks and chores i'm constantly overwhelmed #simply existing takes up so much of my energy like i am tired all the time idk how other people do this i'm just not made for all this #i have absolutely no energy!!! and i know it's the untreated depression but i just feel like such a lacking person in general #this makes me think of that kafka quote.. #'i could've built the pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling to life and reason' yeah... that's how i feel all the time #the other day on my commute to school i saw this beautiful sunrise & all i could think about was su*cide like i almost bursted out in tears #like... i am just not meant for this world for this life... i am not well.... #☁️

[myriadof-fandoms]

mimi watches season 4 - episode 1

#alright spoiler warning #i like documenting my thoughts #||bc i think i'm funny and i love reliving stuff|| #so i'll just be screaming in the tags #stranger things season 4 #so thanks to my friend i got to go to the premiere earlier this week right #here are the main things on my mind #STEVE AND ROBIN STEVE AND ROBIN STEVE AND ROBIN #i am so scared for max #the floating after seeing chrissy #is just even more sus #if they touch my daughter i will scream #also if that jock dude dares to mention my son again TO FUCKING VALIDATE BASKETBALL i will kill him #apropos #why do they think they can make me care about sports i was so bored #the horror of it all like !! #the last 5 minutes are so good #did i mention STEVE AND ROBIN #will and eleven friendship for life #eddie munson is my new son thank you for your time #yes i have already ordered a hellfire club shirt nobody look at me #as usual i simply don't care for nancy #erica <3 #FUCKING TAMMY THOMPSON? #yeah #jonathan as a stoner my beloved #eleven better finally get some peace #M U R R A Y #okay i think? that's all i have to say let's go #also going to this premiere was hands down one of the best experiences ever

[jojos-bizarre-sims]

Dio: *bobbing around to music casually*

Vanilla: GO WHITE BOY GO WHITE BOY GO WHITE BOY GO!!!

#bizarre sims #bzs #vanilla ice jojo #dio brando #i am so sorry- #why are we still here just to su- #JoJo's Bizarre Adventure #jjba

[mazojo]

I rly rly hope Aqua doesn't 'end up' with either girl, it would be less creepy if the mangaka didn't keep bringing up the fact that he IS an adult and both of them are teens. Like Kana becomes an idol specifically bc of a crush, and Akane is openly called a kid. And that scene in the diner, where he says he used to play around w girls? Amazing, a harem manga where the LEAST creepy ship is the guy and his mom

AKKSKKSKKWK ANON YOU ARE SO RIGHT BESTIE !!!

Ngl all aqua ships have always rubbed me the wrong way and made me uncomfy. Like I know he has the body of the same age as the others and what not but I can’t stop thinking of him as his doctor self so it just makes me incredibly off put. I like his relationship with Kana as friends because I think he does help both her and Akane in his own kind of weird way to grow as individuals but romantically it ain’t there for me

Specially because he kept using them and like idk,,,,,, they both deserve so much better

#just to anyone reading who ships it pls know I ain’t here to bash or argue with others about this #you are free to ship whatever you want but I agree with anon it’s super weird how he has his old conscience and keeps using this girls #he supposedly cares about and now is romantically engaged with one and they have no chemistry either :/// weird to me #but hey you are all free to ship what you like it just ain’t my cup of tea I hope this doesn’t get anyone mad lmao #AnYways anon clink clink here is to Kana and Akane popping him off and kissing the true endgame am I right #manga #oshi no ko spoilers #oshi no ko #anti aqua #i guess?? i don’t know their ship names lol #anon #ask #also the su community that ships aqua and ruby? now THATS fucked up don’t do that #sub** #if anyone ships that pls unfollow me because ??? why. #i saw an edit the other day of them and I had to reflect on everything wrong with the world for a moment

[thinningoutgypsy]

leave me alone, let me die in peace

#ready to die #i wanna die #su!cidal #i am done #dying alone #i cant do this #i dont deserve to live #why cant you love me #im alone #i hate my brain #i hate this #i hate myself #i don’t want to be here #i cant stop crying #i cant take this #i cant handle it #i wanna be her #self h@rm #su!cide #why can’t i just be okay