#you'll lose it

[roydeezed]

One thing for those who have watched The Boy and The Heron or will watch it. The Japanese title for it is How Do You Live? And Miyazaki stated he was leaving it for his grandson, saying, "Grandpa is moving onto the next world soon but he is leaving behind this film".

The deaths of contemporaries and friends such as Satoshi Kon and Isao Takahata and also the expected successor of Yoshifumi Kondo were things that have always weighed heavily on the back of Miyazaki's mind.

He recognizes the industry and the occupation for how soul crushing it was, grinding up either the spirit or the physical body of those who work in it. He loves and hates the industry he stands on the peak of and fully recognizes how it will probably be the death of him. And he knows it'll leave him unable to say a lot of things to his Grandson.

So How Do You Live? is a lesson. For his grandson. For himself. For his two sons. And probably for anyone else willing to pay attention.

Hayao Miyazaki is a flawed man that makes things so important to so many people. And I think more than any other film of his, in this you get to pull back the curtain a bit and see him at work. And what should be this giant unblemished titan can be seen for what he is, a sad old man who had higher hopes for himself and has even higher hopes for the people he makes his work for.

It's a beautiful thing to see another's humanity in their work. To look past the artifice and glam of commercialized art and find humans behind it. And humans willing to show their humanity and mortality is even rarer. And something to be celebrated. So when you watch it. Or if you've watched it already. Understand that this film is Miyazaki kneeling down, weary after years of weaving dreams and making mistakes, reaching out and saying to you that he hopes you can do better. It's an old man who's made all the mistakes of the world passing it on to you, hoping you do better, and making sure you know it's okay if you don't.

How do you Live? By making mistakes. By messing up. But still moving forward. And still reaching out.

#the boy and the heron #how do you live #hayao miyazaki #i love you old man #i know you'll be back but if we're talking to each other through screens then thanks #if the wind rises was him exposing his mistakes then this is his apology #i really dislike the popularization of ideas like “parasocial relationships” and “seperate the art from the artist” and how it seeps into #the discussion of art. While people should be maintaining a detachment from people they don't know I think blunting arts impact by not #acknowledging the human behind it is a disservice to art. And you lose the beauty behind someone as flawed as you making something beautiful

[honeylemonbutte]

2022 Year in Review

I don't plan to do this every year. In fact, this might be the only year I ever do this. BUT

I didn't draw for years and I started drawing again this year. I mean it! I barely even doodled.

I stopped posting on tumblr 2020-2022. It was a weird bad time. I would go home from work... still look at stuff on tumblr and then leave. I didn't even click the heart button to like stuff.

I started reading IFs (interactive fiction) regularly. I started drawing again. And when I started drawing again after a multi-year creative dry spell, it's like I caught fire. (Even though honestly I think I suck more now and was better at art a decade ago.)

I drew so much this year. Compared to the... 5 or 6 pieces per year I did prior 2022.

My most popular art post is the Blood Moon 3 Years Later fanart. I'm pretty proud of it, not gonna lie. (If you've never seen my pinned post, help i'm drawing is the tag for my original art)

My most popular post is a locked tomb post (NTN Griddle tasted like toothpaste post). Gotta love the locked tomb girlies.

Other Life Shit

Do I regret not drawing for years? Yes and No.

YES, I feel like my skills deteriorated for sure in that time

NO, I didn't want to draw so I'm glad I didn't. I don't regret not forcing myself to draw.

My computer broke, I lost all my shit on my C:\ drive. Farewell art on my desktop and farewell my extensive bookmark list of to-read IFs and my 100s of reference image bookmarks

My STORAGE DRIVE BROKE. Farewell everything else I was saving!!! (IT ACTUALLY WAS A LOT OF DIGITAL ART)

Back your shit up. Seriously.

2023

Back to basics I think, real art foundations crap. Anatomy, expressions, perspective.

MAYBE I'll make some real MCs, but I probably won't.

I will someday draw my Project Hadea MC, my Exile Commander, my Mind Blind Button... the list goes on.

Tag stuff better? I suck at tagging fashion and barely started tagging refs and tutorials. My tags are all over the place.

Dig a grave and bury myself until Alecto the Ninth comes out.

#personal #help i'm drawing #i post so much about not being discouraged about art and other hobbies #because I know #I've been there #p.s. back your shit up #put it on the cloud put it on a external hard drive #you'll lose it #and then you'll be mourning FILES #but those files meant something

[skltart]

rip castiel, you would've loved girls against god by florence and the machine

#like literally OH GOD YOU'RE GONNA GET IT. YOU'LL BE SORRY THAT YOU MESSED WITH ME!!! #yknow he'd lose his shit #art #my art #fanart #spn #supernatural #castiel #castiel fanart #spn fanart #florencenatural

[faunandfloraas]

tfw you got brave and flirted with the producer while you were in the recording booth but now you have to come out of the recording booth and look him in the eye and theres also 15 people and a camera

#bashful seungminnnnnn you'll be the death of me #you think chan will watch the vid and be like... you never giggle and blush and say you lose your strength when i compliment you </3 #kim seungmin #skz #skz gifs #bystay #stray kids #kpop edit #stray kids gifs #seungmin edit

[outerspace-iiinnerspace]

Ain't Got No Body - Cynthia McQuillen and Dr. James Robinson

#don't ever lose your body 'cause you'll miss it when it's gone #and when you have no place to go eternity is long #my art #locked tomb #nona the ninth #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #pyrrha dve

[yashley]

I turn and I leave.

#critical role #cr lb #ygifs #cr3 #laudna #marisha...... girl...........girl.. #the absolute crushing grief of laudna just clocking me over the head #her human desperation to belong damning her to never belong even when it first feels like she will and the loss is unending #they will like you and one second will pass and then they won't. you'll do something wrong and lose it and it's your fault #you deserved not belonging you deserved being cast out and you deserve that sadness to never leave you #it's fine laudna angst is fine I react finely to it it's really really good and it really really hurts

[seventh-fantasy]

圣人有情而无累

dihua + 情 | 莲花楼 mysterious lotus casebook

#莲花楼 #mysterious lotus casebook #asiandramasource #dailyasiandramas #cdramasource #asiandramanet #cdramagifs #cdramanet #gifshistorical #cdrama #cheng yi #dihua #lhlgifs #jielin's edits #my posts #情 sentiments (not romance or love) / 圣人有情而无累 a sage possesses feelings but is unburdened by it #sgm lxy was described to be cold and unfeeling to the extent he's likened to a ''dead person'' #not bc he was above feelings. bc clearly when he was made to face it...it went very badly #so llh ending at the point where he's so composed and at ease despite having to leave everything he cared about behind. yeah. #one would think llh would have been dead from bicha by then. but he's never been more alive tbh #very much a xianxia/cmyth narrative. by the theoretical definitions of xianxia/cmyth #it's a dihua thing to me also since it is them that evoked in one another each of their own ordeals with 情 #dfs said to lxy that 你的弱点就是喜欢当英雄. what is good pretending your motivations are so noble #bc dfs had lived his whole life for himself and only himself. he does not pretend to be more than that #and the interesting thing is when it's followed by 一个剑客不该有弱点 as if he's speaking as the 理 of wulin. #being weak is bad and it means you'll lose. that's just the rule of wulin #he is that sort of paradoxical existence... #lxy goes on to prove otherwise as llh. while existing to bring to surface the 情 in dfs #-> just know i do not know what i'm talking about anymore i just have lots of convoluted thoughts about these two im incoherent about #uhhh enjoy some nice gifs!

[oozeandgoo-art]

Stubbornness.

#oc #haven #i worked genuinely hard as fuck on this one #tfw you follow someone to their home to demand they speak with you face to face because you want to commit extreme violence on them #over a business dispute. and because they do not want you to do this they simply do not come outside. and you eventually make it clear you #will not be leaving until they come outside so you can discuss (read: harm them over) said business dispute. so they turn on their #sprinkler system and go to sleep. and you decide on the spot that this isn't that big a deal and if you leave now you'll lose ALL #credibility FOR EVER. so you decide to stand around and wait until they come out and . by the time the morning arrives you have #contracted Hypothermia and The Beginnings Of Pneumonia and also Did Not Maul That Guy #started this as a proof of concept test of doing an overpainting on super vivid red #expecting to spend like #maybe forty minutes on it #and then about uh.... like... at least seven hours later i was like okaayyyyy now im done #stay tuned i have two variants that didnt make the cut also #also the picture is big as fuck so i recommend straight up opening it into a different tab to look at details #not that there are that many #i painted it 80% at zoom-out scale

[guardian-of-da-gay]

inspired by this post cuz the only thing I love more than my OP blorbo losing it and going apeshit is my OP blorbo losing control completely

also this is my first Sonic fanart yay

#when you're having a bad quill day and your friends come over unexpectedly #but seriously yall #it's about #*clenches fist* #your own power making you feel helpless #you are your own rock and you fail #and the fear that you'll take others down with you #so you lose that last bastion of comfort #and become completely adrift in your own panic #*chefs kiss* #knuckles the echidna #sonic fanart #knuckles #knuckles fanart #the master emerald #the ME #my art #angst #knuckles angst

[everysongineverykey]

genuinely killing undyne in a neutral run and then walking through hotland later and seeing alphys' posts go "just realized i didn't watch undyne fight the human... well i know she's unbeatable i'll ask her about it later v . v" completely unaware of what's happened is one of the most unpleasant and harrowing experiences in undertale and i am not kidding even a little bit

#undertale #she doesn't fucking know. #that's part of why undyne's no mercy death is in a way less heartbreaking than her neutral death #partly because in neutral she didn't expect this. she had no clue you would be powerful enough- experienced enough- to defeat her #and she dies terrified of what you'll do to her loved ones #while in no mercy she gave it all she had and she dies knowing alphys has a plan to evacuate everyone if she loses #AND alphys at least knows. like. watching your best friend and the one you love die horribly in real time #while you're powerless to help obviously isn't fun. #but is it worse than having no idea she died until after you've unknowingly befriended her murderer #and helped them in every part of their quest? #is it worse than only finding out what's happened after they've gone and you're truly stuck there with her gone and them untouchable? #despite everything. undertale still makes me insane.

[ruanbaijie]

CHENG YI + 💋 cheng yi on variety [2/?] @asiandramanet jan-feb creator bingo board ⎈ free choice full translation below the cut

dumping this here in case the subtitles were too tricky to follow please watch the actual video (18:21) with sound on and all it takes me out all the damn time

[1] Cheng Yi’s cards: Ultraman who went on a blind date and got stung by a bee and got sausage lips Cai Wenjing: (in terrible Cantonese accent) A man and a woman - what do their parents arrange for them to do together?

[2] CY: processing CWJ: When two people meet for the first time, a man and a woman He Jiong the host: already dying

[3] CY: still processing CWJ: If they get together, they are lovers HJ: still dying

[4] CY: (itCa) Sei… Sei… Sei… CWJ: anticipation CY: (itCa) How many characters are there?

[5] CWJ: (itCa) Two characters! CY: (itCa) Lovers. CWJ: (itCa) The step they have to take before becoming lovers

[6] CY: (itCa and with absolute fucking confidence) Friends! CWJ: literally hanging on by a thread at this point (itCa) They started as friends HJ: (in Mandarin) A verb. They go to a place to do what?

[7] CY: PROCESSING aha! (itCa and still with absolute fucking confidence) A park! CWJ: (itCa) Ok let’s not talk about that anymore HJ: cackling in absolute sadistic glee CWJ: (itCa) There’s a small kind of animal in the garden

[8] CWJ: (itCa) Like that. It’s a… Its body is like what you’re wearing. It’s yellow. Yellow, black, black, and it has a pair of wings

[9] CY: got it! (itCa and with the most fucking confidence known to mankind) Cow! (lit: yellow cow) CWJ: (itCa) There’s a tiny bug CY: still processing (itCa) Little yellow bug

[10] HJ: spits CWJ: (itCa) Not a little yellow bug. There’s a bug that might sting you and you will swell up CY: (itCa) Bee! HJ: (iM) That’s right! There’s progress, friends! “Bee.” There’s progress!

[11] Tan Jianci: completely enjoying this circus CY: secretly pleased CWJ: (itCa) Then what will the bee do to you? CY: (itCa) Sting me HJ: (iM) Ah that’s right, that’s right, that’s right

[12] CWJ: (itCa) It stings your mouth–oh no, no! Game rule: can’t say the character that appears on the card CWJ: (itCa) This area will… ooOOOOOoooo Show effects: kissing sounds CY: (itCa) A bee stings my mouth du du du

[13] TJC: having the absolute fucking time of his life HJ: (iM) Yes, yes, yes, what do you call lips that go “du du du”? CY: (itCa) Du du lips. Bee du du lips

[14] CY: rapid fire beings (itCa) Bee sausage. Bun! I think I got it (itCa) Bee sausage ah! Oh! A bee stings the lips of a sausage?

[15] HJ: what the fuck is going on CWJ: what the fuck is going on x2 (itCa) Bee… gives up TJC: (iM) The lips of a sausage?!

[16] HJ: (iM) Your lips, your lips CY: (itCa) Oh! A bee stings the lips of a sausage and causes me to have du du lips? CWJ: K.O.

[17] Wang Hedi: losing his shit CWJ: (itCa) Then you will look very sexy lor! CY: embarrassed send help

[18] CY: (itCa) It’s too difficult, let’s change to another one CWJ: (itCa) We’ll guess this (card in his left hand). This is easy to guess. Pew pew pew! Pew pew pew! CY: (itCa) Ultraman! HJ: (iM) That’s right! Good!

[19] HJ: (iM) Now we’re just missing a verb. The verb in the front CWJ: (itCa) Just missing a word. Your daddy and mummy tell you to go and meet a girl today. With me… what do you call this action?

[20] CY: (itCa) Ultraman’s action? CWJ: (itCa) Not Ultraman!!!!!! HJ: dies in background CWJ: (itCa) Nothing to do with Ultraman anymore!!!!!! Yang Di: Aaahhhhhhh!!!!!! WHD: SHOOK

[21] TJC: (iM) Oh my god! I can watch a whole season of them playing this! CY: god save me CWJ: (itCa) There’s no more Ultraman now!

[22] TJC: can’t even sit in his fucking seat anymore CWJ: (itCa) Now it’s me and you. Then Daddy and Mummy tell me you are a handsome boy, that you are going to be my boyfriend CY: (itCa) Date? HJ: (iM) Before a date

[23] HJ: (iM) The first date CY: (itCa) Strangers? eyes sparkling with hope HJ: (iM) AhhHH yes–yes… The two strangers go to the park for a first date that was arrange by their parents. That’s called… CWJ: anticipation TJC: does he finally get it

[24] Show effects: tense piano music CY: (itCa and once more with ABSOLUTE fucking confidence) Park. HJ: K.O. of the century

[25] HJ: (iM) Can we get Cheng Yi to be a regular? Just to play this CY: SHY TJC: in proper Cantonese The second word is… Show effects: kissing sounds

[26] CY: (itCa) Kissing ah? They’re meeting for the first time and they’re already kissing ah? TJC, WHD: ABSOLUTELY FUCKING GONE HJ: choking goose INTENSIFIES

[27] CY: SHY (iM) I’m wrong, I… HJ: (iM) Blind date YD: (iM) Blind date! Blind date!

#userdramas #asiandramanet #hello saturday #你好星期六 #hi6 #hi6edit #*transl #*gifs #adnbingo #wang hedi #zhang linghe #cheng yi #tan jianci #cy variety #tuserashinlae #roserayne #useryd #lextag #every time i watch this I FUCKING LOSE IT #pls watch this i swear you'll have the time of your life

[shadebloopnik]

There's just something about Floyd being unhinged in fics that just gets me.

Like yes he gets portrayed as a sweet frail uwu boi most of the time, which is also niceee and all, and would also suit his sensitive title. But then there are fics where Floyd is absolutely off the rails at times; where Floyd is nearing losing his voice being the loudest in a shouting match, where Floyd nearly bites someone's head off in anger, where Floyd tries to sneak out of his room multiple times even when his body still very much recovering from greeting his grandma, where Floyd wrestles with his brother on the floor because he's about to do impulsive sht for the people he cares about, fics where Floyd absolutely LOSES HIS SHIT

And the best part is that none of it is out of character for him at all. In fact, it'd cement his title as the sensitive one even more. Being sensitive isn't just about sad and mopey. Sometimes its about being nuts, and paranoid, and being impulsive when your loved ones are in danger and being so so angry that you'd yell and cry from the frustration. Not that he's always feral and wild- because he's def the one to mediate most of the time, but in situations where his loved ones are in danger, I just love when he's unapologetically emotional in every aspect about it, when he's sobbing and yelling without abandon.

There's something about Floyd in fics letting his emotions speak in such a powerful, feral way that gets me.

#Floyd losing his shit in fics just provides an unimaginable catharsis #And You'll Never Ever Wanna Let It Go by Salem_V #it has such an amazing scene of Floyd going apeshit and going nuts with worry i love it so much #boi was prepared to fist fight his way through his brothers and a horde of bergens #Gimme a Hand Would'ja? by tea0W0stache #has Floyd which is shown to be very caring and understanding of his brothers emotional needs. the usual Floyd stuff which makes us love him #but it also has scenes of him being so weak that he has to be dragged to bed #but still needs Bruce to keep an eye on him bc mans will crawl his way out the bunker to escape and do shit- #floyd #floyd trolls #trolls floyd #trolls #trolls dreamworks #trolls band together #brozone #ao3 #fanfics #fics #fanfiction #archive of our own #love this feral emotional emo #floyd appreciation #bloopnik rambles

[k-wame]

Barry Keoghan & Jacob Elordi at 'Saltburn' Première at The Theatre at ACE Hotel in Los Angeles, California, 14.11.2023

#cling onto him barry! bc you'll lose him forever if you let go! [insert walter white screaming from moving vehicle meme] #it's barry going straight to jacob & paying no attention to THEE margo robbie whom he's busy hugging im crine #barry keoghan #jacob elordi #saltburn #red carpet #saltburn premiere #homoeroticism #celebs #jacobelordiedit #barrykeoghanedit #affection #margot robbie #archie madekwe #paul rhys #emerald fennell #tom ackerley #beautiful men

[papa-evershed]

👁️🫦👁️

#rob james-collier #robert james-collier #rob james collier #robert james collier #blah blah i'm excessive blah #couldn't remember if i'd ever giffed a gigantic version of these #so here they are #📢NECK FRECKLES #fuzzy underchin #congrats on your you #i'm in an evershed mood leave me be #couldn't stand jules but at least she had enough sense to ride the— #his hair is absolutely stunning and i will fight anyone who says otherwise 💪 don't try me you'll lose

[marmastry]

do you have any tips for an artist that wants to draw comics?

I honestly still dont see myself as a comic artist, anon, but what i do know is that the hardest part is starting one.

When you're new to it, you gotta learn how to make it easier for yourself because if you're aim is to make a fully colored 20+ pages comic, you will burn yourself out before you finish a single page.

Dont put too much expectations on yourself. Let it be your aim to finish it rather than perfect it. Once you finish it, don't dwell too much into it. Don't let engagements be the measure of its value. The best part of finishing something is looking back on them and learning what you can do better next time.

When you're new, you're also building your stamina in the process and when you understand how much you can do in a certain time, you will learn how to pace yourself better. For ex. In my earlier comics, like my abandoned zelda AU, i didn't really put much thought in the specs and dimension of my comics. I didnt even draw it well lol. I limit working on every entry under 2 to 4 days and that includes the writing. I spent less time on it and it shows! Compare that to my splatoon comics, they're more organized and put together in comparison. This is because I saw what I can do before, I learned what I can do better and it made me put more time into them. I don't really wanna rush myself as much as possible because i dont really earn from this rn lol but most of my entries lately takes 1 month to draw with drafts Ive written 3 months earlier. I work very slow but more robust than before because of all the stamina I accumulated with other finished work :)

I hope this helps at least haha

#i think being excited with your ideas is important too #it's literally your motivation #but that feeling will not always be there once u start working. #most of the time you'll be questioning why ur doing this and lose steam #this is why i think building a stamina for something new is important #building that grit to finish a work is important! #so far working on comics made me appreciate my art more #because everything i reread them I get so proud that I finished them and it's entertaining me now as well #but yeah #i think it will be worth it if you can start first #good luck OP!

[angelsdean]

not 2 be a clown but i really Do in my heart of hearts believe that destiel was supposed to go canon more explicitly with, if not full reciprocation from dean, then at least very obvious subtextual reciprocation. and that’s why everything is so messy in the last two eps. like i think about LAMP and that whole dance sequence and the subtext was THERE. dean’s aborted confession in the trap. dean questioning what’s real and the answer being ‘we are.’ it was all THERE and building. the confession, as much as we love it, was choppy as FUCK. it was badly edited, the shots are all over the place, extreme close-ups jumping to wide shots. the goddamn shove to the wrong wall. not good cinematography. and we know a lot of dean’s reactions were cut. we pretty much figured out the ‘don’t do this cas’ was supposed to come before the ‘i love you.’ we know cas was supposed to be in the last two eps. we Know he was meant to be in the finale. and i have Never bought the “jimmy” explanation for that either. i’m sorry but that does not make sense at all and it’s 100% in my opinion a lie they told to keep fans from being even more enraged abt cas being cut from the finale. like if he was never meant to actually be there then ok fine, sucks but ok. but if cas WAS meant to be there and they CUT HIM ??? RAGE !!!! like it makes no sense to bring back jimmy for the series finale even if they wanted to go the super tragic route like....noah fence to jimmy but who tf is thinking abt jimmy novak in 2020. and esp since cas was supposedly out of the empty and had ‘helped’ rebuild heaven....he’d literally be there !! people lie ok and they lied abt that jimmy ending lmao. esp after misha said there was ‘another ending’ where cas is in the roadhouse with dean and it’s in sam’s pov meaning years after dean died, meaning they’ve been in heaven together a long time at this point. anyways, my third eye is open and i’ve Seen the truth and i Know the real ending (which still would not have been great at all bc they’d be DEAD) involved dean and cas together at the roadhouse (i saw you funko pops) being no-so-subtextually flirty and sam showing up and kansas the band plays while deancas play footsies at the bar. but the see-double-yew killed it bc they suck and hate love. but i SAW it. i know it’s real. apollo prophecy ball hit me. 

#when the spn tell all book / documentary comes out you'll all see #sorry i'm losing it #destiel nov 5th breakdown is really hitting #vic.txt #deancas #destiel #nov 5th #spn 15x18