maybe nobody noticed, and honestly i don't think i really mind nobody noticing. but there's something that i've realized about having an ED : i have a lot more followers, a lot more friends.
and sorry if thats super fucking boring or lame to be called a friend by someone you barely know. but thats what i feel.
when i made this account, i felt super alone in it all. my mom told me not to eat certain foods because i'd end up fat, and that ended up with me not eating at all.
but having as many followers as i do now, i feel like we're in this together. even if it can get a little 'toxic' with the berating comments.
another thing i've realized tho is that maybe the reason i have more friends on here than on my 'normal' accounts is that i'm really boring and annoying. i don't know who i am outside of starving myself.
anyways, i just wanted to come on here and say that i'm alive and not dead. my body just really wants me to live and i guess thats okay with me right now. who knows if maybe i'll relapse into a big depression and get worse at college.
oh yeah, i'm going to college by the way :). and you want to know something ironic? - my roomate is a culinary major.
does anyone know any GOOD work outs for collar bones ;_; ugh i'm so big that my collar bones are literally drowning in my skin. my friends laughed at me for it like???