lubelzoldyck-artworks - Tumblr blog

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 13 days

Text

📍 COLD FACADE ❌️ PERFORMATIVE PASSION 🃏

[Full pics and rambles under the cut 🌸]

HELLO 🌸

Here are a couple of clowns! I've been wanting to draw these two with clown makeup for so long 😩

I wanted to make Illumi some kind of Pierrot-Sad Clown-Mime mix. I Wanted his illustration to be almost completely in black and white, and in the end I just added a very, very tiny bit of green on the background, in his eyes, on his piercings, and a golden engagement ring <3 And for Hisoka, I really wanted to draw something that'd look really explosive and colorful compared to Illumi. I went with the three colors of the pansexual pride flag, plus a bit of light purple because I love purple ♡ each color was color-picked from Hisoka screencaps and modified a tad bit :>

Hisoka doesn't have his ring because he was too focused on his clown makeup and forgor!

(It's me. I forgor. But I'm leaving it this way because it fits him tbf)

Hope you like these two pieces! If you lile them and want to show your support please like, reblog, leave a reaction, share around, that would be really, really kind 🙏🏼🌸

For the whole next week I'll be participating in a small exhibition! I'm very excited about it! 🔥

Take care of yourselves!

Toodles! 🌈

17 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 16 days

Text

Un Petit Clown, Comme Ça 🌸

#wip #work in progress #fanart #hxh #hunter x hunter #illumi #illumi zoldyck #clown #clowns #mimes #pierrot #sad clown

6 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 22 days

Text

📍 INSOMNIA 📍

[Full versions and rambles under the cut 🌸]

.

HELLO 🌸 I'M BACK WITH A NEW PIECE!

Hope y'all have been doing well! I'm doing okay, surviving as much as I can and slowly getting out of my art block :)) I have been less anxious lately so it's less hard to actually work on art! I'm also being careful to not push myself too much. I think I've been trying to draw too often and I'm trying to take my time more, instead of trying to do a full art piece in like one day lol. I think these efforts are paying! This one took me a few days to completely finish and I am very happy with it ♡

I wanted to draw a visual representation of what panic attacks can feel like. This art idea came to me while I was out visiting an exhibition my best friend is participating in. There was a lot of people, much more than what I prepared myself for, so I had to walk away and sit down a bit after a moment. I took my sketchbook with me and so I got it out and scribbled a bit. I then decided to make a full piece with the tiny doodle :))

The lyrics are from the song Insomnia by IAMX. This is a song that is very dear to my heart. I relate a lot with it, and I often sing it! It's also a song that fits Illumi, in my opinion 🌸

If you like this artwork, please reblog it! You can also like it and leave a reaction, that would be really appreciated 💕 please give me visibility!

I am open for commissions as well! If you want to support me but do not want a commission, consider d0n4ting 🙏🏼

Take care! 🌸

23 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 26 days

Text

When you have a shapeshifting ability and a very unstable mental health

(WIP)

#I rly just felt like drawing Illumi in a pitiful state #sorry lulu :<#he havin a panic attack or smth #felt like melting would be fun to draw #also multile eyes because I love eyes <3 #wip #work in progress #fanart #hxh #illumi #illumi zoldyck #//gore #(?)#//face trauma #just in case it's unsettling #eyes #melting #// scopophobia #//trypophobia

27 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 28 days

Text

Hey ummm have some doodles

A Lumi 🌸

Couple of clowns

When you have shapeshifting abilities and a mental breakdown

French meme catchphrase

#wip #work in progress #sketch #sketches #doodles #hxh #hunter x hunter #illumi zoldyck #hisoka morow #//gore #//face trauma #// scopophobia

2 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 2 months

Text

Heyyyy reminder that if you're a pr0sh1pper or reblog pr0ship content and interact with me (like, reblog, reaction), I will block you for my own sake ♡

I check all of my notes. I block whenever I see sus content. If you're a pr0sh1pper following me and I didn't block you already I probably didn't notice (because I'm not a goddamn robot), and I invite you to respect my wish to not having to see pr0sh1p content and to unfollow + block me yourself. That would be the respectful thing to do. Not everyone wants to see problematic stuff as it can be triggering to some people. It is triggering to me.

Also maybe learn to read someone's bio properly ♡

#can't believe I have to give reminders on the risks of potentially triggering people on Tumblr of all places #this place is whack #of and if anyone reading this wants to send an ask to tell me how I'm being disrespectful and rooted in puritanism #or that pr0sh1pping can be used as a coping mechanism for some who are traumatized #yadda yadda #don't bother <3 I won't answer it #'Do Not Interact' works both ways so there would be no reason for me to answer #i am not seeking a discourse #i am curating my online space #anyway #not art #gab talks

1 note · View note

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 2 months

Text

📍 MURDER ON THE DANCEFLOOR 📍

[Full image and rambles under the cut 🌸

.

HELLO HELLO 🌸 Sorry I basically disappeared.for the past 4 months or so! I was caught in a deep art block caused by my current IRL situation, and around the same time I also decided to distance myself from social media. It was something I really needed, and it really did wonders on my mental jealth!

Things have beem really stressful to me, and I have to take care of so many things. The motivation and strength to draw basically went away. I have been struggling to finish something.... but finally, FINALLY I finished this!

Unsurprisingly, my first illustration of 2024 is Illumi 👁👁 I based it on a photo of Barry Keoghan, a.k.a Oliver Quick from Saltburn. Have y'all seen Saltburn?? PLEASE WATCH SALTBURN 👁👁🌸 this silly movie has been obsessing me. Well, not to the point of becoming a new hyperfixation, but, it is stuck in my mind! And I might have a tiny crush on Barry Keoghan... just a tiny one. 😔👉👈

It's based on this photo btw:

If you feel like helping a struggling disabled artist, I am open for commissions and also accepting d0n4t1ons 🙏🏼

PLEASE ALSO LIKE, REBLOG AND COMMENT THIS POST IF YOU LIKE IT! CONTRIBUTE TO MY VISIBILITY! 🌸

That's all for now. Take care folks ✨️

6 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 2 months

Text

A bit of progress has been made on this piece 🌸 lineart is done, coloring and rendering left!

This will probably be the first finished art piece of the year here... as well as the first finished piece in 4(?) months 😭

Please consider checking and reblogging this post on my main blog, I am in a financial struggle and need all the possible help! Please contribute to my visibility 🙏🏼

#fanart #digital art #wip #work in progress #sketch #artist support #disabled artist #queer artist #anime fanart #manga fanart #hxh #hunter x hunter #illumi #illumi zoldyck #barry keoghan #//blood #please watch saltburn please watch saltburn please watch saltburn please watch saltburn please w

2 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 2 months

Text

Please. Please take this wip. I'm doing my best to get out of hiatus. Have this WIP of Illumi based on a photo of Barry Keoghan because Saltburn kinda decided to stay in my brain since I've watched it. Times are very hard for me. Doing my best.

Based on this pic btw:

#fanart #wip #work in progress #sketch #hunter x hunter #hxh #illumi #illumi zoldyck #barry keoghan #saltburn #oliver quick #//blood

21 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 2 months

Text

HELLO, I AM CURRENTLY IN A GREAT NEED OF HELP ⚠️⚠️⚠️

PLEASE STOP SCROLLING FOR A MINUTE AND READ THIS POST 🙏🏼

Thank you.

My name is Gabriel, I'm a 28 years old disabled agender person. I have ADHD, BPD, generalized anxiety, chronic depression and untreated PTSD. I am an artist, and I have no other job besides this one, for now.

This is my girlfriend, Olivia. She is 30, agender just like me, disabled just like me. She has BPD as well as untreated PTSD, and she is autistic.

For the last three years, we were surviving thanks to a monthly allowance she was given due to her being disabled and unable to find or keep a job. This allowance has been stopped due to her being judged "not disabled enough" and "capable of finding a job". She isn't. I don't want to give too many details about our life, but she is currently deeply incapacitated and cannot work. She has asked to get her autism diagnosed on a psychiatric level, which is necessary for her to be given the proper care for her issues.

We will now be given an allowance for job seekers. But we have learned today that this allowance, for the next two months, will be much less than it usually is because of complicated details I do not have the right mind to explain right now.

We will be given around 700€ for a month. 1400€ total, for the months of March and April. You can imagine how 1400€ for two months is a ridiculously low amount of money for two people.

I will try to find a tiny job that is compatible with my own struggles. In the meantime, getting help from other sources will really, really come in handy.

I AM AN ARTIST. I DRAW DIGITAL ILLUSTRATIONS, AND I AM OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS. ALTHOUGH I AM STILL STRUGGLING TO GET OUT OF A HIATUS, I WOULD BE VERY HAPPY TO GET MORE COMMISSIONS. HERE ARE A FEW EXAMPLES OF WHAT I CAN DRAW.

AND HERE IS MY PRICE CHART:

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN COMMISSIONNING ME, YOU CAN CONTACT ME ON THIS TUMBLR ACCOUNT OR ON @lubelzoldyck-artworks , YOU CAN ALSO SEND ME A MAIL AT [email protected] 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

IF YOU ARE UNINTERESTED IN COMMISSIONNING ME, PLEASE CONSIDER D0NAT1NG, EVEN A SINGLE BUCK CAN HELP. YOU CAN D0NAT3 ON THIS LINK:

IF YOU CANNOT COMMISSION NOR D0N4T3 (AND I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY) PLEASE, PLEASE AT LEAST SHARE THIS POST AROUND. REBLOG IT, SHARE IT ON OTHER WEBSITES, GIVE IT VISIBILITY, I AM PRACTICALLY BEGGING HERE. PLEASE HELP US.

76 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 4 months

Text

ON HIATUS KINDA, UNTIL IT GETS WARM ENOUGH TO NOT HAVE HAND PAIN WHILE DRAWING BECAUSE OF THE COLD.

#gab talks #not art

1 note · View note

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 4 months

Text

Hope y'all had good end of year celebrations 🌸

I'm barely even in social networks anymore. Life has been bullying me and my inspiration and motivation are pretty much inexistant now. The only thing I manage to do is take care of the ton of administrative stuff I have to do to just be able to survive with GF as disabled people. It's completely draining me and all I am doing besides that is play games and watch videos. The heart isn't there. The will to draw isn't there and I feel it might not come back until all of this administrative mess is over.

We keep getting sent a money allowance we technically don't have the right for any longer, because the organism that takes care of it is overwhelmed by all of the demands they are receiving and didn't change our status. We are going to have to give this money back. We are in debt because of their own incompetence and unless we complain about it and they miraculously agree to wipe off this debt, we are going to have to pay it back. They will take a little sum of money on the monthly allowance we will have once they actually finally change our status. Which is like 200 bucks less than what we had for Gf's disabled status. This is money that no one, whether it be banks or other organisms, have the right to take from. But they can take from it, becauae they are the one giving you this allowance.

We are in deep shit because of these idiots and this idiotic system. And the more months that pass without them changing our status, the more "unallowed" money they will send us, and the more indebt we will be.

This is hard on my mental health. I am struggling to stay positive and not fall into despair. I am pretty much in a burnout situation. Pretty much sure I need therapy, but guess what. I cannot afford to just see anyone. Psychotherapy isn't covered. The few therapists who are covered, they might not be able to help me given my disorders and my ADHD. The risk to end up with a transphobic therapist is very much here.

I know it won't change anything to post this, it never does. But if by chance you are one of the few people who follow this blog and actually care about the fucking tired and struggling artist behind the screen, please, pretty please, consider d0nating, or even commissioning, if you feel confident enough to wait for be to axtually get back to art. Maybe even, idk, share this post? Whatever. Talking here is like talking to a wall anyways.

I'll be back. I'll post art again, eventually. I always do.

Toodles.

#gab talks #not art #struggling artist #artist support #help

0 notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 4 months

Text

WISHING Y'ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, AND CHRISTMAS 🎉🎄✨️

I have absolutely nothing to give for this occasion so I will share a few WIPs I have 🌸

[CW: gore ⚠️]

Clown Proposal (because of course Hisoka proposed first)

Clown Proposal 2: The Contract Has Been Fulfilled 👁👁

Hehe guts squishy

Me and The Boys

#WIP #work in progress #sketch #sketches #hxh #hunter x hunter #hisoillu #hisoka morow #illumi zoldyck #hisoka #illumi #// gore #// guts #// violence

4 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 6 months

Text

📍📍📍NEEDLE DAY📍📍📍

Full artwork and ramblings under the cut 🌸

[pov you are Hisoka and it's Illumi's birthday]

HELLO HELLO, I just finished this piece in honor of the Illumi Day, aka 11/11, a very popular headcanon birth date for Illumi 🌸 Illumi Day was a suggestion from the amazing @bungeepuppet and I am happy to contribute to this tiny event! Even if I am late, but uh, I suppose it became usual from me 🥲 I could have finished it earlier, but a close friend was celebrating his own birthday and I couldn't just be an ass and tell him Well sorry dude but I have this fanart that isn't even a commission to finish 😶

I drew the sketch for this fanart in september, when I noticed my headcanon birthday for Illumi (9/9). I was pretty sad to have missed it, and motivation to actually draw has been rather scarce since a few months. I wished to finish though, but I couldn't. But then I heard about the 11/11 heacanon, which I think is a brilliant idea, and I simply knew it was the perfect occasion to finish this piece!

I wanted to draw something among the lines of Hisoka gifting him something for his birthday. Since I wanted to draw Illumi in lingerie (again), I ended up drawing him in a lingerie and harness ensemble. I thought it funny for said harness to be pink because it's kind of Hisoka's color and, well, it might ce off a but weird to gift someone something /you/ like (but it sounds in character for Hisoka to do something like that 😂). But Illumi loves it. Maybe he just really loves harnesses. Maybe wearing it gives him the feeling of having Hisoka close to him. He would never admit it though.

I don't think Illumi cares about birthdays, even less if it's his own. When he was very young Silva and Kikyo probably offered him stuff but he was taught soon enough to stop caring about stuff that are simply futile and unimportant in an assassin's life. But maybe he might just start to do little celebrations again, thanks to Hisoka, the worst person ever but maybe the best thing that ever happened to him. 🥺

That Hisoka plushie thing has been made by Illumi and it's just a silly little idea of mine. Hisoka probably sweats nervously noticing it and the several needles planted in a very specific location... probably wondered for a second if Illumi cursed him or something, but, nah. Illumi's ability don't work that way and we all know the clown is just a horny mess 👁👁

Oh also uh I wanted to save a textless version but I forgor,,,

Might just do a continuation to this scene one day. 👀

If you appreciate my work please contribute to my visibility by reblogging this post 🌸 likes and reactions are also very appreciated ✨️

I am open for commissions 💕

.

[Written transcription:

Illumi: I still think birthday celebrations are pointless... But your gift is acceptable. You better make me scream.

(He actually Loves that gift.)

Hisoka: Oooh Illumi... Is that a threat? ♡

"Harness gifted by Hisoka" arrow pointed at Illumi]

14 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 6 months

Text

📍LOVE ME DEAD [REDRAW]🃏

Full artworks and the usual rambles under the cut 🌸

.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN Y'ALL 🎃

I am posting this during the night between October 31 and November 1, I finished these two pieces a few hours ago ✨️

These two illustrations were intended to be done for Hisoillu Week 2023, specifically for the Lover / Killer prompt. I was unable to do the whole week and had to stop before I could finish these because I was getting tired, so I decided to finish them for Halloween!

For the record, here are the OG fanarts:

I am so happy with the result! The original pieces are some of the first HxH fanarts I drew in 2022 and two of my faves from then. It was before the accident and I was also still very new at digital art, and I cannot look at the OGs without cringing a bit at how ugly they actually are 😭 I think I did a great job with the redraws!

I hope y'all folks had a fun Halloween this year! Currently I just finished watching Saw with my GF, and now we will rewatch Reanimator, a movie I have already seen and know I loved but I cannot recall a single thing from it 🙃 I will try to keep up drawing regularly!

Oh also if you are reading this, please know that I am in a precarious financial situation, and getting commissions or even just tips would really help me a whole lot! If you appreciate me, my art or both, you'd be a dear if you reblog and share this post around! Also please consider commenting, or even a like 🌸

5 notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 6 months

Text

tumblr as a company has clearly sided with israel (running pro-israel propaganda & misinformation ads, blocking/suppressing the palestine tag and many related tags) at this point if you pay for ad free browsing, badges, or merch you are enabling this. tumblr is not playing both sides, they are not acting neutrally, they are on the side of genocide. do not support this company

13K notes · View notes

lubelzoldyck-artworks · 6 months

Text

HISOKA AND ILLUMI STICKERS I MADE FOR MYSELF 🃏📍

Full arts and rambles under the cut 🌸

HELLO I DID TINY THINGS I PLAN ON TURNING INTO STICKERS FOR MYSELF 🌸

I doodle a bit when I'm outside at meetings or stuff like that. Most of my scribbles are of Illumi and Hisoka, and I thought heyyy why not making myself little stickers to slap on my laptop? So I did this.

The sketches are on paper. I take pictures of them and then transfer them to my laptop and line + color them digitally ✨️

The lyrics on the Illumi one are lyrics from Bust Your Kneecaps by Pomplamoose. AGAIN. I swear one day I will stop talking about this song LMAO and the lyrics on the Hisoka one are from the song Sick Bitch by LSDXOXO and the second ones are from a french song by Matyouz Ladurée called My Chatte. The lyrics basically say "my pussy is on fire" and uh I thought it really fitted Hisoka,,, I swear to fuck every time I hear a new sex song I slam it in my Hisoka playlist... My brain turned this man into a slut 😔 (or was he already one?)

I am not drawing much recently... I have been a bit stressed out by current events and focusing is kinda hard. I have a bunch of stuff to finish, including my Illumi birthday thingy. I think I will try to finish it for 11/11 which is another popular headcanon birthday date for him :> I also want to finish my fucked up Hisoka daki and some other stuff, and I have commissions to work on too! 😵‍💫

I hope the will to draw will stay.

Toodles 🌈

4 notes · View notes