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This is your daily reminder to not be ashamed of making your life easy for yourself.

Cut your food into small pieces, make the font size 30 on your e book, use straws to drink, get a pen that’s comfortable to hold, take more naps, walk slowly, eat another cookie, buy velcro shoes, re-watch the part you couldn’t understand the first time, write things on your hands so you don’t forget it… whatever you want and/or need

Don’t let anyone tell you how you should be doing things. We don’t need to prove each other anything

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yall ever get so overwhelmed with the feeling of “i’m not doing enough” that you just do nothing at all

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but they’re never going to admit it to you, so have faith in yourself 

Your next chapter is going to cause some people to wish they had treated you better.

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My mental illness is turning me into someone I do not recognize. I used to try be a very kind and empathetic person but now my first reaction to any situation is not to be kind or empathetic. It is anger, being mean and a horrible person. There is so much anger and I don’t know where to put it, don’t know what to do with it, how to deal with it. I’m scared of the person I’m turning into because I do not like her way more than my older self who I already hated

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I am so done wasting all my energy on people who don't give a fuck about me.

-V. J.

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it’s so overlooked, that in recovery, you've got adjust a fuck ton to what others think is normal, because it hasn't been your normal for a while. Suddenly very ordinary tasks seem really difficult because its no longer in your muscle memory. You’ve neglected certain things in your depression and now you’ve got to relearn things. still to this day, a long list of tasks can seem so overwhelming because for years, I hadn’t had the energy to complete more than 1 thing on that list, but now that I have the mental capacity to do so, it’s still hard because I'm still learning how to time manage again, how to best direct my energy now that I have it. it’s very easy to get burnt out because essentially you think “I'm better now, I can return to a normal life”, but you haven’t exerted that much energy in quite some time so you’ve got to build up to it. Build up stamina again. Rebuild muscle tissue even. 

#depression #depressed #it gets better #get help #therapy #learning to love yourself #forgive yourself #obstacles do not mean the end of the road #ana #mia #anxiety #mental health #mental illness

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After depression, it's not easy to forge an identity when you don’t really connect to previously much loved hobbies or such things. I first had depression when I was 12/13, and I managed to recover by the time I was 16. But it was really hard to find my feet afterward because, outside my mental illness, I had no identity. I didn’t have hobbies or things that I loved. And I was having an identity crisis being like “I don’t have a personality” what the fuck do I do? I was lost. I didn’t want to return to my 12 year old self, of course not. but that was my only frame of reference for normality at the time. That was the last time I felt like a person. So it was really tough trying to discover myself, because I didn’t know where to start. and now I'm 19 and I still feel at a loss sometimes.

#depression #depressed #recovery #anxiety #get help #speak up #its okay to struggle #you got this #ana #mia

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                                                         If I find serenity

                                                         Will I lose my identity

                                                         If i find my sanity

                                                         I won’t be my enemy

                                                         I wouldn’t use my mind as weaponry

                                                         Or feel emotion in extremity

                                                         Now doesn’t that sound heavenly

                                                         But i know i have a tendency

To protect my ill health, defensively

I fear i have a dependency

And am obsessed with my own complexity

Whilst i strive to find a remedy

I can’t help but feel depressingly

That without a mental discrepancy

I don't have personality

#depression #depressed #sad #mental health #mentally ill #anxiety #ana #mia

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i’m so proud of you for trying to better yourself even when it feels impossible

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turn the volume up and show this girl much much love

trust me !!

#music #singer-songwriter #ukelele #song #original song #quotes #love #happiness #amazing #young #this is my childhood bff I miss her and she deserves the world #best friends #aesthetic #kindness #singing

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some of y’all are afraid to wear odd socks and it shows

#socks #it shows #for me #recovery #humour #funny #qoutes #it gets better #it gets so much better lol #just a bit of fun #but seriously #some peeps are too serious #wear off socks #stop caring what others think #literally no one cares #you do you

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I now know what it’s like to have trouble letting someone go. Just because you like someone’s company doesn’t mean they actually care for you.

#friendship breakups are worse #mental health #depression #depressed #ana #Mia #recovery #mental illness #anxious #it gets better

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Susan Sontag, As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh

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Guys, guys, guys. I’m acc so happy rn

I’m 4 years clean of self harm!!!!!!!!

Next year is gonna be a milestone. the big five

but I’m still excited today

#depressed #self harm #self injury #sh #depression #ana #mia #mental health #it gets better #clean #sober #recovery #progress

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I hate when people say “I promise it gets better”, “there’s a light at the end of the tunnel” or “give it time, it’ll all be alright,” because let me tell you those blanket statements can be very damaging. I developed depression when I was 12, self diagnosed, so I recognised what was wrong with me, yet I did nothing. I had, at the time, a mild depressive disorder. And well, following the advice above, I gave it time. And guess what? I didn’t get better, I got worse. Months later, I got assessed again and I had major depression. Much, much worse than a mild disorder, it was now major. There was no light, only perpetual darkness. Things didn’t get better and time allowed me to sink deeper into depression. The adverse effect of the statements above. See, you need to stop telling people with mental health issues that it “just” gets better or that “only” time will tell. Because it won’t. That’s unrealistic. Just like everything else in life, recovery starts with a choice. And to recover you have to consistently make the conscious effort to choose to get better. It’s difficult but it's a choice. Stop telling people to “simply” ride it out as if a chemical imbalance in the brain will fix itself or that ingrained habits will make you better in time. It doesn’t. Mental illness forges bad habits to entrap you within the illness and unless you target and try to actively reverse those habits, you’re only gonna get worse. So, no, don’t “just” give it time. You choose to see the end of the tunnel, it doesn’t just magically appear.

#mental health #mental illness #mentalheathawareness #mental breakdown #mentally tired #depressed #depression #Suicide #recovery #it gets better #with time #only time will tell #anxiety #anxious #ana #mia #help #self care #get help #talk to someone #therapy #counselling #help yourself #get better

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my anxiety is playing up big time right now and it’s so IRRITATING

#mental health #ana #anxiety #anxious #anxi4ty #anxitey #depression #mental illness #tw #recovery #sad times