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astriefer · 1 year

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Thomas writes songs about Alastair in his head, we all just know it. They're sweet and revering, a potion made of love and trust.

Now with Cot out, let me add the bitter, more angsty version: Thomas writing songs about Kit.

After things settle down and they have time to process what's happened, Thomas is a trainwreck, he's gasping and crying at the funeral and he cannot pick up the shreds of his heart, left beyond repair and scattered on the ground to cut at him each time he breathes. His sister died. His world collapsed. He tried to build himself back, slowly, with cuts on his hands, just for the world to crush him under the sole of its fit.

So he joins patrol after patrol. This evil is different, but what does it matter? It came from the same source. So Thomas fights.

At some point Alastair confronts him the way he deals with the agony is destroying him, gnaws at him, and it must stop. He encourages him to find an alternative. He guides Thomas to bed very gently that night, telling him he loves him and that he must try, that there's always a different way.

He eventually settles on poetry.

Thomas's way of grief is coming up with songs and poems in his head about what he feels.

Thomas made them in his head for some time. He told no one and shared them with no one. He didn't think they were very good, or that he had a poetic mind as good as others. But he does it anyway if only to try and pour his pain into the world and set it free.

The sharp agony, the feel he is stumbling on his own without Kit, without him to make him laugh and smile, how much he misses him and how the world seems lacking without him by his side. He breaks down and pieces himself together every time, all the time. Because like a broken clock, time has flown differently since his cousin, the brother of his heart, has passed.

Alastair returns from patrol one day to find Thomas sitting on the couch of their flat, face in his hands, a single piece of paper with barely a sentence written on it. He can only rock Thomas, lull him to restless sleep full of bright lilac eyes full of laughter he used to see all the time.

On other nights, Thomas is drowning in pages of pages of words he wishes he could say. Regret, for all the times he listened half-heartedly. Anger, that Kit slipped so fast from life's delicate hands. He isn't mad at his Kit, he is furious at life, that let the kindest and brightest man he knows slip away. Wistfulness, for he wishes he could hear the laugh of his cousin - no, brother - one more time, like he used to do all the time.

He finally shows one to Alastair. And he has to look away because the crushing sadness that settles on his lover's face is just too much to bear.

Alastair composed melodies to some of Thomas's poems, each note stark and bare and full of meaning, with the thought of a hole in his and his loved ones' heart that would be empty forever.

They play one of them to the family on Kit's anniversary day. Cecily and Gabriel's sobs can be heard starting the second verse, Anna is hugging herself, and Thomas is in shreds. They all are. What can be said, now, that would make it better?

Nothing, Thomas knows, while the notes and the words he wrote are echoing around them, surrounding them. Nothing will change the fact the the brother of his heart is gone.

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 days

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Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

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adobe-outdesign · 1 month

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hey Neopets can you explain why you have an unreleased petpet that's just a human man on all fours

you can take your time but I do need an answer

#neopets #neotag #petpets #outdesign posts things #this seems like one of those random weird early items but the art style is entirely too recent #greatest hits

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ash-and-starlight · 6 months

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humble contribution

#basic: interpreting mizu’s gender based on what u think fits best #based wired inspired: interpreting mizu’s gender based on the ship so that it’s always a gay relationship #also whoever drew taigen’s nose Like That..#i am forever thankful i need to kiss them with tongue #ode to taigen’s nose: page 1 of 204737835737493 #did i spend too long on this instead of just simply grabbing screenshots? look away #blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #taigen #taigen’s top knot before it met its early end teach the angels how to sing baby 😔🙏#ringo #my art #yuri is when there’s blood and themes yaoi is two blokes who do fuck all

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konakoro · 11 months

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The world was so ungrateful to you...

#animation #2d animation #disney #dreamworks #warner bros #early 2000's 2D animated movies fucked so hard and the public was too cowardly to admit that #they let several great movies die a bad man's death and i will always be furious about it...#hall of infamy

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council-of-beetroot · 2 months

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"Kill them with kindness" wrong. 10 PLAGUES OF EGYPT!🩸🩸🩸🐸🐸🐸🪰🪰🪰🐅🐅🐅🐂🐂🐂🥵🥵🥵⛈️⛈️⛈️ 🦗🦗🦗 🌑🌑🌑🪦🪦🪦

#passover #pesach #never too early #j #jumblr

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lelelego · 1 year

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ain’t that a kick in the head

#fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #courier six #eyy here's my courier oc! hes eli hes early-mid 20s and hes ready to stumble around and get offed bc of that 3 END #i'm thinking about preparing an info sheet for him too but hhhhh. saints row hyperfixation.............#also no offense these go pretty hard thank u <3 #doodly thingy #oc: eli #fallout tag

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evankinard · 23 days

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I know I KNOW in my BONES that tommy is eventually going to leave after helping buck realize that eddie's the one he's in love with but god I hope we get at least a couple more episodes of buck and tommy together with tommy showing buck everything he's been missing. including more kisses. maybe even a make-out session. at the very least some implied fade out sex. show me buck getting to bask in this glow for a while longer before it gets complicated and hard to breathe again.

#the problem is i dont want buddie to be rushed i think they should take their sweet time #but i also dont think theyre gonna bring in a random guy for buck after tommy before buddie goes full swing #which means if he leaves too early i will be deprived of more mankissing for way too long #911 spoilers #evan buckley #weewoo brainrot #911 abc

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zeph-phyr · 1 month

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how did marcille's tired and defeated expression and dark eyebags turn into barely visible pink under eye shadow..

#perhaps im judging too early but damn she looks so normal(deragotry) in the second pic #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #zeph text!

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javertisgay · 2 months

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if I ever manage to own a house or flat the first thing i’m doing is making the bathroom polar disaster themed. like how people have beach/ocean themed bathrooms. but I’m hanging up ‘man proposes, god disposes’, the goodsir daguerreotype is gonna be there like a family portrait, i’m painting it the iciest colour blue possible and breaking the heating so it’s always cold as hell. every winter i’ll get to roleplay being sir john stuck down the ice hole

#the terror #early 1900s antarctic expeditions are welcome too

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bucky-thebae-barnes · 6 months

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the inherent homoeroticism of "no one gets to kill you but me"

#blue eye samurai #this too is yaoi #mizu/taigen #enemies to lovers #🤞🤞🤞#no one else gets the honor of killing you but me #no one else gets the exquisite pleasure of killing you but me #no one else gets that power that control of you but me #i don't trust anyone else with your death #blue eye samurai spoilers #although it does happen p early on #my post

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shegananigans · 5 months

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