Coil, launch, unwind again
The pressure valve slips
Move fast so nothing rips
Bubbles roil, threaten to tip—
Time it just right, right at the lip—
At last, done—enjoy your sip
i didnt sleep at all last night. a mockingbird was keeping me up. he sang all night. i was lukcy and fell asleep around 7am. I slept in till 1pm. I got more sleep then usual. I wish I could fall asleep at night but any sleep at anytime I am grateful for.
it's been warm. tshirt warm. almost all of my t-shirts are old and warn and I think it's about time to get some new ones. but today I wore my pink paint stained tshirt. it has a the human brakn on it and each section is labled. because its so warm I'm able to sit outside. thats what ive been doing for the past 2 days. sitting outside staring at the road and the trees and the creek. i wish i was able to go on walks in the woods like before. but sitfing on the porch is good enougth. only issue being the mosquitoes.they suck.
i baked today. we all did ela's boyfriend came over and he baked too. we all baked. except dad, he sat at his computer. he's almost always there. I know my brain works differently from the rest of my family but it still is bothersome. I asked for extra clarification and help because I was confused on how to braid the bread. I was just trying to understand. mom called me pathetic.
I feel clarity lately. atleast when it comes to my parents. before I used to be terrified of them and think that what they were doing was okay and I was in the wrong. that's what they wanted me to belive. it is frustrating having people decades older than you struggle with emotional maturity. I don't regret a single thing I did when I asked for help. the system and people failed me. but I did the right thing. threatening, using physical force, yelling, manipulating, and isolating a child is wrong. no matter the circumstance.
Sitting there staring, static in my ears. The TV is on in the other room and you want to go see what the people watching it are up too but you were angry earlier and it seems weird to see them again. The battery percentage was at 10 for exactly 7 minutes and 22 seconds. You sat here and stared. 9 percent lasts for 43 seconds. I’m still waiting for 8. My life is being shared with AI and I can’t stop it. Threads of my past tie me down to this ground. I’m sitting here when I should be catching up with friends. When was the last time I texted them? My beloved? I don’t even know if we are together anymore. It feels like I’m frozen in an iceberg and everyone is watching. They are laughing. If you are stuck in ice why don’t you melt it? They are probably just too lazy to care. The lights flicker and I am back, sinking into the ground as I decompose. At least some day soon I’ll connect with the ground.
Side Order brought back Inkopolis Square, and if you don't want to see what it looks like during a Big Run, i put the video below the caption. it's got this hiss in the ambiance, and i don't hear any noises of Runs in the background here.