#He wants to stay in space

[yuwuta]

yuuta exhibits such previously abandoned, recently adopted dog behavior. incredibly anxious all the time, even though nobody’s out to get him or leave him behind. waits for you to return home or from school or from work excitedly, just to see you when you walk through the door. follows you around senselessly, hovering in your space just for the sake of companionship. initiates affection in prodding ways—starts off next to you, then a hand on your thigh, then deems it safe to lay all the way down, then slowly pushes his head into your lap. gets up whenever you need to get up, and resumes his position as soon as you’re ready. brings you gifts as a sign that he’s thinking of you, and maybe because he likes the affection it brings out in you, maybe because he likes the gentle affirming touches of a hand in his hair or a pinch to his cheek. rests his head on your stomach or his chin on your shoulder when he’s sleepy, stays there, immobile, and will not move unless absolutely necessary. sometimes he gets surprised when he hears you calling for him, there’s a moment of disbelief as he thinks “me? really? you need me?” but it’s very quickly overshadowed by this compulsive need to show up, to please, to do anything for you, which is why he always answers when you call. he doesn’t realize that he has puppygod eyes, especially when he’s excited or confused, but he does and it’s incredible endearing. very reluctant to share your space or attention after a while, considers that to be sacred and he won’t risk being let go or lost again, so as a safety precaution, he keeps himself right by you, waits for you always. 

#atp i need to shut and write the omega verse fics that consistency plague my mind #but while im here time for my obligatory megumi mention bc i mentioned dogs teehee #yes megumi attack dog hes megumi grumbly yes megumi bark bark bite bite BUT BUT BUTTTT #megumi is also used to like... hm........ taming? having? caring for? people in his life and also literal (divine) dogs #so for him yes he bites and barks #but he also... he gets confused if YOU dont follow him around like a puppy bc everyone else in his life has so why not you? #gojo's always been the annoying yapping pomeranian chewing on his arm even if he didn't ask #always in megumi's space even tho he didn't ask but he learned to deal with it #won't admit it but knows that too much attention is better than having someone who couldn't give a shit about you #yuuji is the golden in everybody's life and megumi is no exception #unmovable unshakeable and incredibly addictive even if he doesn't mean to be #and very very attached to the people he cares about so yeah yuuji is loud and annoying but he's also loyal and megumi respects that so fine #nobara is like... she decided she liked megumi and was upset about it so she bit his ankle and he tried to kick her off but she has too muc #pride to get shaken off by someone as scrawny as megumi and somewhere along the way megumi became impressed that she was still there even i #it hurt a bit and she was a little rough it's not like he was worse so fine whatever she can stay too #so if you like... if you dont hover around megumi if you dont pry if you dont prod then he has to be the dog smh #now he's gotta bite for your attention and nudge you and how annoying. he's gonna keep doing it tho. as long as he has to #or until you learn to fall in line and accept your leash too whichever comes first n e way.... anyway............. #somebody's pampered omega always gets what he wants megumi complex is showing...... #this was about yuuta right? ok i'll put his tags now.... #juju #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk x reader #jjk smut #jjk fluff #jujutsu kaisen x reader #yuuta okkotsu x reader #yuta okkotsu x reader

[natjennie]

"is my god kristen?" "she is your president" LISTENENNNNNN the fig and kristen dynamic is sooooooo

#WAHHHHHHH #but like. the idea that fig's power comes from her relationships with her friends #and gorgug's rage is used to protect people he cares about #and kristen constantly reaches out to others to extend divinity when they need it #and fabian wants to make a space for people to stay with him and #like. the way all of their motivation and abilities come from the strength of caring about people. #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[silentreigns]

1 year contract with no job security? Is this not what happened to Valtteri before he went to Alfa Romeo? You can build the team up to win 7 championships but the second they "want to go in a different direction" they will kick you to the curb

#f1 #nobody better question lewis's loyalty ever #the team he gave his heart and soul to didn't want to give him the ambassadorial role he asked for? #ome of my biggest takeaways are that you should just exit the spaces you're not happy in #don't settle for less because there are going to be people who would want you #if they can try to force the most successful person in the sport out then they will definitely do it to anybody #formula 1 #lewis hamilton #don't stay in the name of loyalty as loyalty doesn't pay the bills #someone said that he wanted end his career at mercedes. but mercedes wanted to end his career #which sums up a lot of what just happened

[ghouljams]

reading the fae au has my daddy issues REELING-

i dunno do i want to be held and comforted by one of them or fucked dumb😭🙏

could you maybe do some like paternal/father figurey stuff with any fae boy you want… cant prove the stereotype daddy issues right guys please im more than wanting old me to make me worse…

As previously stated I asked my friend for help writing the original fae!Price post. Gave me the main pointers on how it all worked.

Do you want more actual dad stuff with Ghost and baby? Or is this just wanting older men to be nice to you?

I'm just gonna have Price run some aftercare on his Witch.

You're still a little floaty, still fuzzy at the edges from having your own magic turned against you. You hear Price opening a window to let the smoke out, and you feel sort of cold without him holding onto you. Your whole body aches like you just finished working an overly complicated spell. You turn your head to rub your cheek against the couch, the worn fabric just rough enough against your skin to start to ground you back in your body.

You've done this enough times. Grounding. You stretch your fingers out and- oh, hm. Your hands are still tied behind your back. That explains the ache in your shoulders. Right. Right, you remember. You were bad at following orders, so Price had to- Why does that thought make your heart hurt a little. A small noise escapes you, somewhere between upset and need.

Price is by you in an instant, crouching to be sure he can look in your eyes as he slips his hand under your cheek to hold your face. "You're alright sweetheart," He tells you softly, "we're done, you did good."

You roll your shoulders wordlessly, your throat hurts, he nods and pushes up to reach over you and untie your wrists. You sag with a sigh feeling the pressure around your wrists disappear. Price reappears, looking over your face, checking for signs of distress. The gentle touches are so far flung from the bruising grip he'd had on you not long ago.

"You ok to sit up?" He asks, and you nod, "Good girl, up we go." Price helps you ease into sitting, his hand pressing between your shoulders to take some of the weight from the movement. Your head spins a little, and you make another upset noise at the pain of it. "I know, sugar, I know." His arm slides under your knees, the other wrapping around your shoulders.

You haven't been lifted in years, but your brain is a little sluggish in processing the soft grunt from Price before you're no longer on the couch. You rest your head against his shoulder, ground yourself a little in his scent. Or you try to, but the lingering tobacco and morning glory give you another shot of the brain fuzzies.

You drift for a while, settled at some point on the edge of your tub. The rush of water and smell of sachet herbs doing little to pull you back to earth until you are actually submerged. Magic sloughs off of you as you sink under the warm water. You hold your breath and stare up at Price through the refraction.

When you pull yourself back up to oxygen you feel like you're in your body again. At least magically. Price's hands catch your shoulders before you can tip forward back into the water. "Easy sweetheart," He tells you, his hands are rough and calloused, another feeling to ground with. You take a deep breath, trying to pull yourself from the non-magical portion of this. The soft dreamy space you'd settled in, the need to please him with little care to your own needs. "Not in a rush," Price presses your shoulders back against the end of the tub, "Just breathe, I'm not going anywhere," You close your eyes, rest your cotton stuffed head against the edge of the tub, "You did so good, I'm so proud of you."

You don't really know why he's telling you that, but it helps. Makes your ribs unwind a little. He pulls one of your hands from the water and digs his fingers into your palm, dragging and rubbing the ache from your hand before moving up to your wrist. Price pulls the pain out of your limbs as easily as he pulled the thoughts from your head, whispering soft sweet things to you until you're starting to doze.

"All mine," He murmurs, pressing his lips against the pulse in your wrist. You hum assent. All his.

#He only wants to make her worse in a fun sexy way #he wants her to stay kind and soft outside of their sessions #because that's what he loves most about her #fae!Price #aftercare #john price x reader #john price #captain john price #john price x you #x reader #f!reader #oc: witch #wow baby's first time experiencing sub space #Price should really have like a conversation with her about their play #she doesn't know shit about shit Witch is just vibing and having fun #also no shade but like #i do not have daddy issues #do y'all actually want him to act paternal? #never got the whole daddy kink thing either #this is a “sir/ma'am” kink household

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

#lay rambles #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it #theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences #with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever #they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key #and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever #hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do #mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself #(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently) #so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc #also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house #(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol) #also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space #he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet #always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like #food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind #and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them #(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc) #lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies) #but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa #dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever #however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults #also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt #not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself #oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages) #also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse) #...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD

[rox-of-iu]

the same clownery as usual lads 🌳🍑

!spoilers (but not for today's upcoming chapter lol)

'cultivate' by amazing wonderful talented @neonghostcat

#cultivate #cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain #liushen #listen i know the space between posts is shorter than usual but I had these done and didn't want to hold onto them so uhm everyone hush #anyway hsdkj #i know ive already said this before but youre gonna hear it again aha i loovee shen jiu and esp how he's written here he's so fun #💞💓💖💕 bastard meow meow #hes such an ass but he means good deep down 😭😭 #anyway rip to SY's most probable aneurysm once he reads how SJ decided to sign himself lmao #and also congrats to SY for his first child in a rebellious teen phase ahhasjdh #but tbf xiao draco does scare me to death fr fr troublemaking children are terrifying stay strong shen yuan hdjsah #and thats about it im gonna go take a nap now cheerio everyone

[unexpectedbrickattack]

heehee (pepstavo under the cut)

#arts #mine #saucy #pepstavo #easing everyone in w the cute shit first #can u believe i forgot about this???? CAN U BELIEVE IT ??? #this is like one of the first things i drew back in like April i think #i still love it tho #recently i have been drawing them doing some heehee shit instead of the cutesy shit so i need this to stay humble #remember my roots… #anyway if ur still reading this hooray u get bonus stuff like usual w my tags #giving him a huge praise kink. he is doing SUCH a good job he is doing the best job EVER #this would be a bit further in their relationship (pending™️) where the intimacy walls are slowly being worn down #so hes seeking out touch and affection and all that goodness instead of reflexively flinching away #and gus SEES this so hes trying so hard to encourage him like BLEASE….i did not dick around for months for this to NOT pay off #he is a patient man but theres only so much patience one Can have #and that patience IS rewarded #its funny bc i write gus as like. a top. a general Dom bc he is both patient and assertive #and hes met someone he GENUINELY w his WHOLE chest wants to bottom for and he cant do it bc this bigass dude is a lil princess™️ #and so for now he is being the big boy but hes like counting down in his head when theyre able to get to a space comfy enough for him #where he gets to get his back blown out (its soon) #i hope that doesnt make it seem like hes only being nice to get dicked down bc he is actually always this nice #and full of love bursting at the seams #which results in endless praise and pdas and being a bit more playful than usual (bc he is a silly lil joyous gnome; its built in his dna) #so peppino will simply have this forever :) #okay mwah #i will slowly upload my stuffs since twitter is exploding and anyone who isnt niceys about this will be obliterated #like for reals

[ternterntern0]

gagagabababa i have another doodle page :3

#my art #oc art #digital art #oc #artists on tumblr #rkgk #doodle #my oc art #original character #illustration #rakugaki #digital doodle #doodles #doodlysketch #sketches #sketch #drawing #autodesk sketchbook #aababababbababababababbabbaebbebebeebeabababa #i'm insane about him as usual...hahahhhh #i really really do have to draw him once evry day #or the day is not over...!!! #hahahashbashsababababababababababebebhbbfbe i want him to suffer i hate him so much --> because of this he is my fav oc #horrible dude really! #blah blah sorry for yapppingggg goodnight everyone im ;eepy #oh that's a lie i wanna sleep so bad but im probably gona stay up till 4 mindlessly spacing out on socmed lol

[flamingredanon]

"I once thought of you as my weaker half, the part of me that I needed to be rid of so that I could lead the Toppat Clan without weakness.

However I was foolish in that decision and paid dearly.

But you Henry, you have done what I could not and shown yourself as not only the stronger half between us...

...but you have become your own person throughout your struggles."

#henry stickmin #terrence suave #doodle #henry is surprised to see terrence while terrence is just beaming with pride with henry #au idea where terrence and henry were once whole but terrence decided to throw away part of himself so that he would lead the toppats bette #this failed spectacularly and terrence was dethroned by reginald #meanwhile the other part of terrence found himself taken in by gadget gabe #who decided to give this identity the temporary name of henry stickmin and let him stay at his lab for a bit #with henry finding himself testing inventions ever so often for some money before deciding to go see the world for himself #and soon henry would find an apartment and then get the idea to rob a bank one day and setting his path before him #terrence originally wanted revenge against the toppats for dethroning him and wanted to fuse back with his other side #but after seeing the toppats get to space and henry earning the respect and friendship of reginald and the clan he decided not to #only wishing henry well before going off to figure out what he wanted to do now #rambling in the tags #retro anime aesthetic #fake anime screenshot

[stubz]

Log date 510: today human Max is not here and that is disappointing as I have tremendous amounts of fun when he is here

Log date 511: human Max is still not here, maybe he is sick? I will ask Giver what helps humans get better when sick and then have my drone deliver it to him!

Log date 515: …human Max is still not here and it is the end of the week as he would call it…I miss him

Log date 518: Human Max is here! I have missed him greatly for he is the most fun one! We will play catch and build and draw and, and…human Max is sad today…

Log date 520: He is still sad. He plays catch and draws and builds but is still sad…this is not fun for me. He is not fun.

Log date 522: ….human Max lost his Giver. His Giver was hit by a transportation vehicle and died in the medical bay. He couldn’t say good bye as he is here and she was light years away in Earth…

Log date 522-b: I told Human Max he is not fun. That he is sad. He lied and said he was okay and forced a smile. I told him he is my favourite because he is the most fun but it’s okay to not always be fun… I asked him about his Giver and he told me stories of her. Soon everyone sat down to hear the stories and still stayed when he cried.

Log date 523: Human Max will be gone for a while until he is better. I miss him because he is fun but I want him to be better because I have the most fun when he is feeling well. He lost his Giver and that will take a while for him to be okay…and I will wait patiently for that

#I just remembered when I was in second grade my teacher was gone for a week or two #I missed her cause loved her and even called her mom a few times #When she came back she was trying her best to not cry and told us she was gone bc of what happened to someone important to her #He died in a car crash and that was why she wasn’t there for so long and may stay home for a bit longer #And I just remember feeling so sad bc I missed her and just learned about a terrible thing that happened to her and then I felt weirdly cal #Bc I missed her but I wanted her only come back when better. And I’m happy she told me and treated us like adults #The adventures of Kim and max running a space child care centre #humans in space

[veone]

an ordinary night.

#ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #sunbleached:extras #idea is to shoot people just living and occupying a space they live in #jamie is sleeping over for a change she usually stay with her boyfreind most night but wanted to sleep alone for a change #vics drawing and chatting with jamie in whispers because nick fell alseep watching him draw and was listening to their convo #i like to think seung is having a moment and concerning andrezej but he's listening to her vent about how shitty things are #he getting ready for bed but is gonna end up sitting up all night talking to her in this bathroom #sis is having a moment she wanna take a long nap #andrezej pitrowski #seung ra #jamie yager #vincent dasilva #nicolas ishida #them two may be listening to their convo though thin walls #jamie's playing music though its in the link #it raining the power kinda went out but the led lights still work for some reason and so candle light!

[urostakako]

eid mubarak!!!! <33

bonus:

#hey if you see any goat inconsistencies theyre irrelevant this is a space goat #'hey why are there goats on noman's land that doesnt make any sense' its a space goat it doesnt have to make sense #it doesnt make sense that gunsmoke has two suns and five moons and the same night and day cycle as earth but here we are #'why is meryl smoking' 'why does vash have that hair and that prosthetic' i can do what i want also 👍and it looks good #anyway. eid mubarak!!! have a great day eat good food stay happy and peaceful 🫶 love and peace!!! 🤞 #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #milly thompson #meryl stryfe #millymeryl #vashwood #'omg wheres wolfwoods cross hes a catholic' #um acshually at the end of trigun he leaves the eye of michael and converts he told me himself ☝️ #hanancouldyounot #hanancouldyoudraw

[synonymroll648]

from a vibes perspective, i totally understand why so many people look at keefe and go ‘this guy would be the male equivalent of a wine aunt when he’s older’. 

but. but. 

taking lore into consideration, in my heart, he’s terrified of alcohol (even if he tries really hard to hide it). because. like. his first exposure is almost guaranteed to be through cassius, and cassius canonically threw a glass extremely close to him at least once when he was, like, 8. maybe cassius wasn’t always extra nasty when he was drunk, but there’s gotta be a correlation in keefe’s brain between risking getting seriously hurt (emotionally or physically) and alcohol consumption that’s really hard for him to shake. 

#tw alcohol #tw child abuse mentions #lmk if there's more trigger warnings i should put #i have a thing for hurt/comfort lmao #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #this is brought to you by: #that one fic my brain started writing internally where it's sophie's 21st bday and she's like man i #have saved the world so many times we've all lost count. i want a fucking drink #and keefe's internally like OH GOD OH FUCK in a bad way but externally he's like yeah babe whatever you want!! #and then she's like. i don't wanna do anything super stupid though. and drinking alone is super stupid when you've never drank before #will you stay w/ me? please? #and keefe's like. i cannot say no to that face #so he spends the night doing an increasingly bad job of hiding how bad he's freaking out #because sophie is a safe space and alcohol is not safe and he doesn't know how to deal w/ the two colliding #ESPECIALLY since sophie's just getting dorkier and sweeter as her filter goes down instead of throwing insults or objects at him #(i feel like sophie would be the kind of drunk that's very impulsive and says EVERYTHING that comes to the forefront of her mind #and stellarlune was more than enough to prove that she sees keefe and a lot of the time her brain just goes hnnngh soft little tortured #artist. MY soft little tortured artist.) #yeah but even intoxicated sophie can tell something's wrong even before he flinches super obviously at an empty glass falling over w/o #breaking. and so she's like nah man it's hurt/comfort time and he's like BUT YOUR BIRTHDAY and she's like do you really think i'm #gonna just let go of the fact that i know you're stressed? i'm not a dickhead keefe #so yeah it ends in cuddles. because of course it does #keefe sencen #annnnd out of the drafts this goes. post!

[tiptapricot]

Thinking ab Liu Kang… thinking about a god who thinks he has lived this new life well, has learned the rises and falls of divine existence and knows what to expect, only to remember he is just a boy given too much power when he reaches a present he cannot control. Faces he used to laugh with, people he has seen grown old, different and changed, but so much the same. Events he thought he had avoided repeating themselves, his timeline slipping from underneath him for the first time possibly in millennia. What is a god meant to do when he cannot escape his own mortality, cannot escape the ghosts yet to come, the blood he must prepare to have spilled at his feet? What is a god meant to do when he cannot fathom his own power? When he is still just a boy so scared to be champion, but must now hold the weight of the universe on his shoulders?

#liu kang #mortal kombat #mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #characters that make me want to shoot myself into space #god…. I cannot fucking imagine what it must be like. to see people that are your friends but also souls you made #a world you shaped but not down to every detail #who you thought you’d grown to expect the shifting nature of only for it to be altered so fully #does he look at Kung Lao and wonder how long he will stay laughing at Raiden’s side #does he look at Raiden and wonder how long he will stay calm before the shadows come for him #does he think of children yet to be conceived #bodies yet to be broken #and mourn them before their time? #does he remember the split memories of the netherrealm and his death at Raiden’s hand? #does he remember all the good from his young self? #the friends banding together across timelines and the friends he saw fall at his side? #can he go through that again? again and again and again? #what do gods fear? #the fruit is talking again

[insanityisdivine]

You tell me that you're leaving...

#mykissposts #kiss #paul stanley #starchild #ace frehley #space ace #spaceman #can't get over this was before he left #pretending everything was alright #Creatures is such a good album #would have been interesting if he stayed on longer #“You want to be free” #I need Paul's jacket #starry eyes #starlovers #starsluts

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st