#I am genuinely fearful

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[strawberrybabydog]

if we keep doing uwu soft little vampire and big strong dumb werewolf how are we going to ever break out of gender binary

if i see 1 more artist make the masculine/larger/stronger human partner into the werewolf im going to freak out

lycanthropy is about losing yourself. please i am begging you to make someone random, someone unequipped, into a werewolf. please. small scrawny werewolves who are weak and scared, feminine werewolves, werewolves who struggle with the idea of taking something's life (even another animal for food) werewolves who refuse to get dirty because they're averse. werewolves need more than 1 mental illness yall

its kind of a joke at the beginning but not really. make an insane jacked vampire and her petite femme werewife with braided patterned fur or something; make the vampire a seamstress who wont quit until her werewife has the perfect fitting dress for her new furry body. stop with the "oh this character is butch/masc, CLEARLY they would make a good werewolf" shut uuuuupp be a LITTLE more creative. come on!!! do you really think every single werewolf has a premium gym membership? quit drawing them like it !!!

#this post has been brought to u in part by cinnamon #have none of u considered that if u give a werewolf a Different set of problems they will be way more interesting #how many times have i seen the 'lycanthropy is a good metaphor for everything' post and agreed #but still im only seeing jacked violent huge strong animalistic werewolves. whyyy #how can you say this is basically a universal experience and then only assign 1 body shape and traits to a character Forever. #like yeah thats very 'diverse experiences' of you........ to only portray the everyman in the form of a werewolf...... sooo representative.. #like genuinely who are werewolves supposed to represent because allegedly its me and i have yet to truly relate to a werewolf in media #i do not relate to wanting to mercilessly slaughter or being powerful or striking fear in others or being ripped and violent #maybe im missing the point or something but.. i AM a werewolf :0/ #just 1 nonmasc werewolf. please. that is all im asking for. idc if theyre androgyne or a void. idc. just NOT a gymbro as a werewolf. #idec if they fill the stereotypical traits of a werewolf just NOT A GYMBRO!! #werewolf posting #woof

[calebsrottingcorpse]

Collector redraw with Kid Belos 🙏

#genuinely ignore if the lineart isn’t clean and is inconsistent #my uterus is clawing out my insides rn I could care less #me when they have the same va #and similar features #and abandonment issues #and are a lil screwed up #he looks dumb #I hate him #I hate Philip Wittebane #I am number one Philip Wittebane hater #i fear I’m yapping in the tags too much #OH I FORHOT TO TAKE MY ADHD MEDS DAMMIT #HOLD ON #the owl house #toh #philip wittebane #emperor belos #my art #kid Belos #collector toh #collector #ok I took them we’re good

[jestroer]

Here's @mcyt-yuri-week day 6 - Outfit swap/Cozy!

I think pink-loving, constantly afraid, tall-men-scaring women should hang out!

#To my knowledge they never interacted. But they should! #could you imagine Stress and Lizzy interacting. I would so anything for that #the tall men they are scaring are Doc and Es2 Joel #love the fact that Stress is genuinely terrifying to some hermits. They should fear #mcytyuriweekvalentines #stressmonster101 #ldshadowlady #lizzie ldshadowlady #i am once again not sure what the shipname is if there is one #but ill call them #stresslady #because its hilarious #court jester's art #strizzy #as well #just iconic names all round #hermitshipping #idk what else. lizzie isn't really from one smp is she now

[valentimmy]

rebirth launch day yay !!!

#timmy draws stuff #fanart #digital art #my art #ff7 #ffvii #ffvii rebirth #ff7 rebirth #sephiroth #final fantasy vii #final fantasy 7 #ff7r #I hate rendering this guy please ignore how the background looks #blood #<- ?? idk the background is supposed to be like Jenova tentacles or something #ignore that see he befriended some birds :) #im genuinely so excited about this game I’m trying to be normal rn but I am Failing I fear.

[anonymocha]

Bluepoch gave us the gift of barely-subtext tragic sapphic-centric media do NOT throw that away.

Context regarding PJSK and Undertale under cut.

Project Sekai cast is dominated by female characters but mlm is more popular, meanwhile Undertale has canon wlw rep and oh my god they’re at the bottom. I have nothing against these fandoms or media (I’m literally currently/was in them) but yeah. I just HOPE r99 doesn’t end up in a similar state.

#mochagaming #if r99 ever gets even more popular and people somehow manage to out-yaoi the yuri i may actually buy a gun #‘write more yuri then’ I AM <3 AND LETS KEEP WRITING YURI R99 NATION #this is an irrational fear btw #especially since the fandoms i previously in kept fixating on the men in women-centric media #which is not bad #good for them #but its alienating for me LOL #thankfully rn r99 fandom is still diligent woman appreciators so thanks guys #keep it up #I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST MEN OR MLM #I JUST REALLY NEED THAT SAPPHIC SPOTLIGHT #LET THIS DESPERATE LESBIAN DREAM THAT HER FAV GAME STAYS YURIFUL #(because fandom activity genuinely affects the game itself so…) #reverse 1999 #I am not trying to discourage any form of fandom content #But if I see someone complain about ‘lack of men’ in this game I… I genuinely dont know??? what to say??? #we dont even have enough lesbian rep. it is always cast aside. #it should be prioritized (by bluepoch) i think #like to charge reblog to cast

[moonlitswimmingpooltv]

me rn

#i am genuinely fearing for my life #dan and phil #my chemical romance #fall out boy #phil lester #dan howell

[shibuiking]

#twice dead king #oltyx #yenekh #necrons #40k #i finished tdk reign yesterday and i fear if i get into how much i loved those two books ill end up writing an entire essay. so i wont. #loved it tho. cried a little. #also too overwhelmed at the first time im seeing a genuine appreciation and care into writing smth about what its like to be undead and its #in a series with robot skeletons not actual ones #on behalf of undead afficionados everywhere. nate crowley i owe u my unlife. #i wanna draw spoiler stuff too bt i feel like who even is blocking the spoiler tag for this. bt if someone sees and gets spoiled id feel #SO bad. SOOOOOOOOOO bad im am sooooooo glad i didnt get spoiled #AUGH anyway this is getting long #IF U LIKE UNDEAD READ TWICE DEAD KING. I DONT CARE IF UR NOT INTO 40K. GET INTO IT AND THEN READ IT. #SO PROUD TO BE A ZOMBIE RN

[sanjarka]

i'm gonna start being mean. if you have enough understanding for katniss's depression then how are you calling katniss's mom selfish for her response to her husband's death. you do understand what catatonic depression is right? you understand that she didn't purposely abandon her children?

#i would also argue that she didn't even abandon katniss after prim's death but was actually protecting her #sometimes it seems like some people genuinely feel like she didn't love katniss as much as prim which is so... #she was afraid and she knew that if she were to return to 12 everything would repeat again #and yes as a mother she should take care of her daughter but she's also just a woman #how can two sick people take care of each other like literally how??? #and maybe she should've tried harder and not focused on the fear BUT I AM REPEATING DEPRESSION IS NOT SOMETHING YOU JUST CHOOSE TO HAVE #the only thing she's certain of is that the possibility of disappointing and hurting katniss is to high to risk it #and there are things to criticize her for surely but i just don't see any of her mistakes being a result of not caring for katniss #or not loving her #that's not it #I WILL PROTECT THIS WOMAN UNTILL THE END OF TIME #thg #everlark

[lovereadandwrite]

my bby has done nothing wrong ever in his 1000 years of life THIS IS SLANDER !!!😩😬

#in the midst of my celebrations Dazai WOULD try to humble me with these horrific theories🧍🏻‍♀️🫠 #Fedya is great with kids…😬 #(we adopted Karma together he’s FINE) #listen this randomly entered my mind while discussing the ch with friends & it has haunted me since #*grabs Fyodor & runs* #anyways I genuinely don’t believe this is where the flashback is headed but I still had to put my fears somewhere #(tbh I kind of assumed Bram’s family was already gone by the time he was a vampire😪) #anyways WAY more 113 art to come but FOR NOW #I was so much faster putting my 113 Fyodor cosplay together than I am getting more 113 art pieces out YEESH #bsd 113 #fyodor dostoyevsky bsd #fyodor fanart #fyodor dostoevsky #bsd fyodor #bungou stray dogs fyodor #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs fanart #bungo stray dogs fanart #artists on tumblr #anime #bsd manga #fyodor dostoevsky fanart #fyodor dostoyevsky fanart #bsd chapter 113 #dazai #bsd bram #meme redraw #bsd memes

[the-scungles-of-crungles]

Been lookin at a lot of @gooseworx's art and some of their character designs are so silly (I love them all of course)

Like basically:

And then

#I'm facing my fears and just tagging them. I am genuinely petrified of interacting with artists I look up to but here I go #Yes I hve interacted with Gooseworx before but still I'm afraid lmao

[nothingbizzare]

Cheetos Fugio :))

#i wantet to experiment with some brushes here and there and i love soo much this orange fugio arts i am soo happy #the second one gio might look like having neutral emotions but #with genuine pain and fear and sadness #let them have a hug #jjba #nothingbizzare art #giorno giovanna #pannacotta fugo #jojo bizarre adventure #fugio #jojo no kimyou na bouken #vento aureo #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba fanart #jjba golden wind #jjba vento auero #golden wind #jojo #jjba part 5

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Can we talk about how Barry's worst nightmare was being unable to save Wally and losing his humanity

BRUH THATS WHAT I'M SAYING

I'm fucking unhinged over this. Like genuinely. Best thing to come out of that event like hands down. That was such a Dad™ moment. A certified Dad™ event.

#bruh like seriously how am i even supposed to function in daily life knowing that Barry's worst fear is failing to save wally #and losing his humanity and harming wally #like GENUINELY #WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK #the MOST TRAUMATIC THING TO THIS GUY IS FAILING HIS SON. THATS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN TO HIM #and thats just #... beyond beautiful to me #because genuinely this man has been through hell and back so this isn't his worst nightmare out of lack of imagination #or naivety #his son is just THAT important to him #makes me wanna cry

[purrvaire]

no but ewan mcgregor was so right when he said he was terrified by vader while shooting bc at first I was like <3 ahah pathetic meow meow on a murder spree <3 and then I was like OH FUCK PATHETIC MEOW MEOW ON A MURDER SPREE OH FUCK

#genuinely scared the living shit out of me #WHEN HE DRAGGED OBI WAN THROUGH THE FIRE FUCKING HELL #THIS IS THE EMPEROR'S FIST THIS IS THE MAN WHO WAS FEARED THROUGHOUT THE GALAXY #they really went there im so delighted #in need of a diaper bc i shitted myself #dont get me started on i am what you made me bc ill cry and ill claw my face #obi wan kenobi show #kenobi spoilers #kenobi series #obi wan kenobi #darth vader #anakin skywalker #star wars #hayden christensen #ewan mcgregor #lidia watches

[fate-defiant]

These four wormed their way into my head last night and would not leave me until I spat something out so here's some assorted headcanons, a comic that I'm not sure I understand the punchline of myself and the youngest inn-bling(ba dum tss) in ten to fifteen years.

#princess tutu #author #malen #i didnt really stop to think of the tots' names. #i honestly dont know what their parents would name them! #i mean so far we've got an author and we've got a malen. absolutely bonkers combination mama and papa innskeeper what were you on #also i just found it hilarious if they had a ridicilously small age difference for siblings thats it #like not even a full year and he's acting all high and mighty lmaooooooo #i fear i am genuinely being too mean to author this time #i am sure he didnt mean to alienate himself from his family- #-by diving headfirst into researching its dark spooky past- #-to the point of forming his own self-contained cult of a sort. #thats just puberty. teenagers need to be agressively weird its enrichment. how else will they find themselves? #no seriously i am asking #so far i havent seen a different method #anyway #fanart #my art #i think ill tag stuff specifically tied to these four as #the inn-blings #i feel like i had more to say in the tags but i forgor #OH OH OH #i didnt! say anything! ABOUT MALEN #like hwllo this makes her involved in the whole spooky fucking writer drama?? osrt of? #.i mean #its implied that authors father was adopted and theres no direct blood relation #or something of the sort #either way the innblings have no hereditary powers #author is just a big fucking nerd #so like.