#I might be a little bitter

[xofeno]

JESSE LEE SOFFER acting his talented heart out in the worst ever episode of CHICAGO P.D. (10.03 "A Good Man")

#i might be a little bitter #but look at him though #jesse lee soffer #jay halstead #chicago pd #cpdedit #chicagopdedit #tvedit #cpd 10x03 #eyes #stubble #jayhalsteadedit #jesseleesofferedit #mine #S10 #cpd 10.03

[thestarlightforge]

NOTE: I’m not asking which you would like to see. I’m asking which you think we will most likely see.

Reblog after you vote to increase the sample size :)

#I might be a little bitter #marvel mcu #mcu #queerbaiting #young avengers #kate bishop #yelena belova #America Chavez #lgbtqia #billy maximoff #billy kaplan #tommy maximoff #tommy shepherd #teddy altman #wiccling #Phastos #mystique #mystique x destiny #valcarol #carol danvers #valkyrie #sylvie #the marvels spoilers #I forgot about #kamala khan #and for this I deeply apologize #feel free to reblog with your write-in votes

[aroanthy]

kiryuu sibling stasis post-32 is so interesting to me. nanami tries to leave and is (temporarily but also, crucially, violently) prevented from doing so by touga and akio. after this experience she puts distance between herself and them: she leaves touga’s phone in the car, she resigns from the student council (though she dons her old uniform still), she repeatedly dismisses and undermines the authority of the rose code, of end of the world, of akio, of touga. but she’s still in ohtori, isn’t she? uncomfortable with the idea of leaving, uncertain if it’s really possible. she tried before, and it hurt her. deeply. it’s so interesting to me, nanami’s agency and how she limits her exertion of it after 32, when she realises it for what it is. contrast that with touga, who accepts this weird stalemate between them, who is, really, uninterested in having any relationship of any kind with nanami if he can’t gain something from her. he’s very passive with her after 32, compared to the passivity he’d always feigned towards her before in order to stoke reactions from her and then exploit them. i was thinking about how touga has always been able to sever his relationship with nanami, but chosen not to; first out of a sense of obligation (‘we should live to help each other’) then a realisation of how that could be exploited. i was thinking about how nanami has never realised her ability to leave, in part because it is limited by touga and the harm he does her. i was thinking about the desperation and confusion akio calls out to anthy with as she leaves. i was thinking about how different that is to the kiryuus’ strange semi-breakdown; touga doesn’t want or need nanami, and nanami might love her brother but she cannot trust him or feel safe around him, doesn’t want to see him anymore; she’s itching to leave, and just a little scared (you know, because last time she tried that her brother assaulted her), and he’s not doing anything because ignoring her means he doesn’t have to deal with the emotions of her leaving or staying. something something gendered power dynamics something something tragic siblings

#local kiryuu sibling enjoyer has thoughts about them #i wrote this like three days ago but it’s getting posted now i have to speak my truth #touga loves a bit of inaction #nanami doesn’t but what the fuck else is she gonna do?? be brave? she tried that already #and she WILL try it again and i don’t think touga will try particularly hard to stop her #i think he might try a little but in doing so he’ll just become more aware of how much he doesn’t want to do that #and is only doing it bc of a vague sense of obligation to a perspective on life that he’s already questioned a la utena #im just. i have so many feelings about them. i bet none of you were aware of that fact already #i am once again wondering: does touga love nanami? what does that mean for each of them? #and im concluding: i really don’t think he does #i think he’s felt obligation to her and turned bitter towards that emotion and her in turn #i think he has no idea how to feel about her so he ignores the problem and exploits HER feelings as he thinks he understands them #until he realises that he doesn’t and has to deal (a little bit) with the ramifications of that #touga and anthy when nanami makes them self reflect. or swagever. the 32 way. neither of them would ever admit this but it’s true #dais.txt #her tragedy her triumph

[galedekarios]

thinking thoughts about what scenes i would have liked to see with gale if we lived in a parallel universe where larian cared about all their characters equally instead of favouring just one 🤡

#imagine everyone having 9 scenes with 6 of them possibly romantic #i might do a little write-up tbh #anyhow i will be Bitter forever #text: personal #larian critical #discourse for ts #just to be safe

[duckiemimi]

i'm never logging back on twt, tell me why i just saw someone say i support naoya, twt is the trenches how do ppl survive there

#and i know you might be lurking here little akgae #there are better things to do than check up on what i do on tumblr i promise #man people say they like the shit you write and here come the little bitter ones #leave me alone hop off of me #this goes for the little anons in my inbox too

[skitskatdacat63]

Hey, do you remember that really homoerotic scene from Skyfall? No? That's okay, here's a Vettonso version of it :)

- explanation & w/o text:

Hi hello, finally my weird psychosexual relationship with Casino Royale has come to fruition. Yeah this is directly based off a scene from Skyfall, but I def envision the vibe as being more like Casino Royale hehe. I can't believe I made that inspo board for this AU almost 4 weeks ago, and then ended up drawing a four panel "comic" about it. Ahhhh proud of myself, a bit, a tad. I think this took 20+ hours across the span of a week? God. Anyways I digress! The AU!!

First of all, their Bond song would be "My Way of Life" by Frank Sinatra. It's so toxic, codependent and obsessive, I'm in love with it. And it really suits Fernando and his motivations and outlook in this AU. Basically, MI6(in the context of James Bond) in this AU is an analog for Ferrari. It picks theses guys up, tells them that they're Ferrari MI6's most special boy, chews them up, and then spits them out when they're finished extracting all their talent and skill and life force.

Much like with Ferrari, Seb in this AU replaces Fernando after Fernando loses favor and becomes undesirable. Now Seb is the new golden boy, and Fernando has turned to a life of crime! Fernando resents Seb for this of course, but also becomes obsessed with him and the idea of him , and how they are connected. It's weird to watch someone else basically go down your exact same path and unknowingly make all the same mistakes(buying into the mysticism of it all too much, being overly cocky, having naive beliefs and goals, etc.) He is caught between wanting to doom Seb even more but also wanting to "save" him, by corrupting him and convincing him to work together.

Basically: He's both a Bond girl and Bond villain.

Fernando is in such a weird place in this AU. I think he's just very dramatic. Seb is just casually living his best 007(005?) life, and Nando is watching him with binoculars, whispering to himself: "DOESN'T HE UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE NARRATIVE FOILS!?" Yeah he hates Seb, but like the song lyrics say, their lives and dreams are inherently tied up together. He would feel lost without Seb, because Seb basically, unknowingly, destroyed and then took over his life. Maybe he'll feel satisifed if he manipulates Seb into going down the exact same path a bit better.

About the drawings themselves. Still can't believe this scene is a real thing that actually happened, insane to me. But in this AU, after the events of these drawings, Fernando definitely kicked all his henchman out of the room, and fucked Seb in the chair. And then against the wall. And then on the floor. Hey man, Seb is already looking mighty delicious with his unbuttoned attire and being tied up.

I think the general plot would be that Fernando keeps trying to seduce him to the dark side, and Seb keeps making him think it worked, only to escape at the end of the encounter. Leading Fernando to just come up with increasingly more violent and kinky traps. Seb goes along with it(read: enjoys it), leaving Fernando satisifed, only to somehow escape and wink and make kissy faces at Fernando in the process. (Fernando smoking cigarette in bed: "How do I make him stay. Sigh.")

I like to think though that Fernando does win in the end, by realizing, ah wait shit I do need to actually explain my motivations to Seb. And Seb is so worn down by his job, not Fernando, and how he's being treated, that he listens, really actually listens, and realizes Fernando does really have valid reasons. And then they become evil crime husbands yayyyy. Wow you thought this was a espionage AU? Well it is, but just not the outcome you'd expect.

#ah well this was certainly a project.... #rn i feel like im devolving into illness so im glad i could finish this up before it possibly gets worse #this is my magnum opus as of rn. just bcs ive not really drawn such a longform thing for them!! happy w it :) #i think i def like the first one the best #it made me suffer so bad but i think i soften on my own art after a few days #like i finish it and know its 'good' but cant help but critique every little thing #but ive had that one done for almost a week so now i look at it and really love it #i was originally just going to draw that one only but then realized i really like the full dialog so. might as well. #generally i liked this though bcs even if it ws difficult. it was nice to have really direct and clear reference #like ah ik where im going w this rather than it being an image in my head that i cant represent the way that I want #ah anyways all my vettonso aus tend to be just wanting to explore specific dynamics of theirs #and this one is basically how i feel about their mutual relationship to the institution of ferrari and how it affects their dynamic #basically: THEY'RE MIRRORS!!! #there's always something to be said abt nando being resentful abt seb bcs of 2010/2012/etc and then seb taking his seat at ferrari #but then witnessing seb basically go thru the same trials and tribulations and failures at ferrari #and realizing huh wait maybe he's not who i was villianizing him as. maybe hes at my level too. maybe he's not infallible. maybe hes like m #a very bitter nando who has to fight btwn his impulse to ruin seb further or to relate to him and start to like him #so yeah that's ^ basically what i want to portray in this au(just like all AUs tbh) #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.rambling.txt #catie.art. #vettonso #bond au

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

pacing back and forth in front of my laptop like a caged tiger debating on making an amazon account

#on one hand: god no fuck no ive held out this long #on the other hand: i need very specific things that stores usually only sell online #and the nearest stores that Might have them are over an hour away and that takes so much fucking gas which is Expensive #not anywhere near worth it for a maybe #like. im. im stuck in a corner #absolutely unprompted #i dont want to contribute to amazon but there are things i cant get otherwise ive Checked the other online stores that would have them #and it can have lower prices and Sales... #fuck. well im contributing to late stage capitalism merely by living in the usa so might as well #i will use it as little as possible. i swear this to myself #i will only use it when im sure that there are no other options #THE DAY'S WHIMSY IS FADING RAPIDLY!!!! #i am no longer sipping at this tasty beer like someone Indulging #i am taking Swigs like someone trying to forget #it really is delicious tho. very bready and not too bitter <3

[joycrispy]

I have (very minor) surgery tomorrow to repair the last (I hope) of the physical side-effects of 2022. Which means a significant source of chronic pain will be gone, and also, that's one more thing about it all that I never have to think about again.

Good riddance.

#about me #one day I might write about the full extent of how badly ptsd just Fucked Me Up #but for now --even now-- most of what I feel is relief and determination and focus. I've found peace and I'm digging my heels in. #not much time or inclination towards bitterness #this post is one last snarl for the road #I think it will be very cathartic to have something from all this LITERALLY cut out of me actually #anyway. I'm bone tired and a little sick/sore From The Thing but it's been such a good week; despite despite despite #the work continues

[junesprince]

bitter choco decoration

#persona 5 tactica #persona 5 #toshiro kasukabe #i was gonna make a whole video but i lost motivation. i might come back to it another time #this song is LITERALLY HIM!!!! #i have to do it before anyone else does #i was listening to bitter choco decoration and i was like....oh my goddd #IS THAT TOSHIRO KASUKABE #so yeah #the guy with the hands is his father cuz. you know #the angle in the first redraw is a little off sorry i dont know how to draw perspective #i never have original ideas im so sorry #i wanted to study anatomy w the mv n stuff so ya..

[3llix]

                                          ✨🎲 King of Games! 🎲✨

Nemesia King! Another illustration featuring her younger self. I had a lot of fun making this, I love this piece a lot, maybe because I let myself take as long as heck finishing it, instead of rushing it.

#Digital Illustration #digital artist #my art #Impcorperated #Illustration #monster girls #original characters #and she becomes a bitter and jaded villainess #I think that might be a good tag for her #there’s also a little bit of symbolism in the cards #I wonder if anyone can tell which cards #:3c

[cxparadisi]

honestly what kills you as a seeking-/post-bottom surgery trans in the online transmasc community isn't even the open disgust people have for your body or how quick they are to spread misinformation bc mysteriously their trans sex positivity only applies to transition they personally want/are attracted to. like yeah that stuff hurts, the fact that every couple months a post about how it's TOTALLY FINE to be grossed out by my body and assuring trans guys NOBODY wants to look like me gets 10k notes sucks, but that's actually a minority of the problem. the killer is that disgust towards bottom surgery is SO normalized that, in general, people just assume that no post-op people exist in transmasc spaces, if they think about them at all. you're just left out of everything by default.

jokes? sorry, every transmasc joke assumes you have a boypussy and menstruate and the only surgery you've ever had is top surgery and if bottom surgery does crop up it's a joke about how you'd never get it. sucks to suck! fictional representation? no post-op characters exist and in fact any characters that mention their junk specify that they're non-op just in case you were worried about that. sucks to suck! fictional character headcanons? i mean, sometimes you could imagine that the shapeshifting characters might change genitals...? the medieval fantasy characters DO get top surgery scars though, so really it's just an excuse not to have to think about how gross bottom surgery is even if you acknowledge the desire to swap your junk. sucks to suck! positivity posts? nope, even ones specific to surgery don't bother to acknowledge anything below the waist. sucks to suck! discussions of transmasc sexuality? hahahahaha yeah no, those are even more inaccessible to anyone without a boycunt. sucks to suck! discourse about obstacles to transmasc transition? nope, again, that just removes the possibility that people could care about you since not mentioning you in this context means they definitely just aren't thinking about it at all. sucks to suck! discourse specifically about bottom surgery? congrats, people acknowlege you...... as a 3rd party who can't possibly be present and definitely fits into the .01 x .01 inch box they have in their heads of the Cis-Passing Binary Transsexual Male who only wants to get bottom surgery to lick cis boots, and "discourse" is kind of a misnomer because in reality what that means is "discourse about how gross it is that people think me, a trans man, might have gotten bottom surgery". sucks to suck!

naturally i need to add a million disclaimers about how i don't think transmascs who don't want bottom surgery are any less trans than i am(true) or that transmascs who don't get bottom surgery face as much transphobia as i do (so true bestie) and i'm saying this as a reflection of my own personal experiences even though i'm sure you personally have nothing against us genital-mutilators. that same grace has never once been extended to me though so i will be cranky about it.

#transmasc #phalloplasty #metoidioplasty #u might say im just a bitter hater. astute observation indeed i am #if it helps i can be your angle or your devil and the quickest way to get me to shut up abt this #is to draw fictional characters with phallo scars sometimes #thats it. you dont even have to care abt the high cost and legal barriers to our transitions #or help debunk misinformation abt our ability to have sex and counter fearmongering against scarring and EDs #just put a little rectangle on that fictional mans arm/thigh. it doesnt even have to be in the right spot.

[frozenartscapes]

Dedue: *turns into a Demonic Beast*

Dimitri: Dedue… Your sacrifice shall not be in vain! I will fight by your side ‘til the end!

Edelgard, remembering Azure Moon: Oh sure. When he does it he’s “noble” and a “valiant soldier” but when I do it I’m an “abomination” and “a crime against nature”

#I like world building when the characters remember past routes #especially since with Byleth and potentially Edelgard it could be plausible #Edelgard might be a little bitter #fe three houses #edelgard von hresvelg #100% sarcasm btw #meant to be a joke please don’t look any deeper into it

[funforahermit]

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#just some thoughts #that might not be what people want or need to hear right now #but i need to say them and who reads this anyway #i'm sad that the show is officially over in spite of all the efforts to turn it around #of course i am #i love the story and the characters so much #but personally i find easy consolation in looking forward to whatever else rhys will do in the future #stede might be gone but rhys is not and everything he learned is not #i will see him act again and i'm so excited about that #so that's the good part of my thoughts #the bad part of my thoughts is fear tho #i fear that max is being a bitter little shit to us on purpose #because we dared to push back #we made it a Big Thing and made them look bad and now they're hellbent on making sure we get nothing #that's what it feels like #maybe other streamers wanted to take over but they made it impossible in one way or another #and then the headline about them targeting fanartists #idk the timing is suspicious idk #and maybe they even have the power to make sure we never get a dvd just to fuck us over #i don't know how these things work but i am afraid #and that's everything off my chest kthanksbye

[lavenderjewels]

I actually really like Yuuta in this fight against Sukuna despite hating his role in kenjaku’s death. I am a little worried his powers could overshadow other characters, since he can just copy Sukuna’s or Angel’s and use it against Sukuna. I don’t want it to enter in a territory similar to the Gojo fight where eventually something has to happen to kill or weaken Yuuta just because he’s overpowered either. Love the team up, just wish there was a way to make his role slightly less prominent and to let other characters shine, especially since the other characters could do well with having more development and spotlight

#jjk spoilers #I honestly DO like yuuta as a character #it’s just a combo of him being overpowered and feeling a little??? detached from the main story?? #its hard to explain #it’s also a personal preference #this fight actually Does work great for Yuuta’s character (outside some potential issues) and doesn’t make me bitter like the kenjaku endin #im just hesitant #and don’t need some grand fight or development w him #vs so many other side characters who would be So much better with more focus!! #idk #might delete #also idk why but every time there’s a yuuta fight I immediately lose some interest #happened during the uro and ryu fight too where I stopped reading and then caught up after 😭 #maybe I just like him as a character outside of fights?

[daz4i]

i will say tho i'm p proud of myself for managing to be relatively non judgemental and mostly keeping my tendency to assume things abt strangers at a minimum. ik we all do that but i also know it's not the healthiest thing especially when it just makes me feel worse too, but i've been practicing it for years and i think i'm doing well at it. like even well enough that it's noticeable to other people and they point out how nice it is. i dunno i think it's cool i think it's a good thing abt me

#i work really really hard on being nice and seeing people in a... not negative light when i can ajdkfllhj #i try to go the extra mile to see where ppl may be coming from even if i disagree with them #(not so i can agree. but to humanize them. i think it's important) #and ofc while there are certainly people i still hate or hold a grudge against. the number is lower than it used to #and it does feel better this way i think #and it also feels nice when ppl say i make them feel safe bc i don't judge them #ig i do gotta give props to dbt for helping me with that 😔 #but. i did most of the work myself. still doing it. it doesn't end but it gets easier with time #i do recommend trying it. at least with little things. especially if you think of yourself as bitter but want to change it #(feel free to hmu for tips and pointers btw. it might be mostly examples for things to do but it helps get the general vibe)

[whamss]

i know the epilogues are bad yadda yadda yadda but ahhh every now and then i think about meat rose and sigh this wistful little sigh...

she's so sad to me. a woman suffering so much being taken advantage of by the only person who she thinks can sympathize with her situation... so vulnerable and desperate for a way out, a way to fix things so she can be happy with her wife and live this peaceful life being denied to her because the game still haunts her after all this time

rose and dirks convos in the epilogues are still so good imo i don't even care what anyone says. rose deserved so much better but oh maaan i think about it so much. a cruel father and a desperate daughter. i think a lot about the weird tenderness in those scenes between them, the way dirk uses rose's weakness to take advantage of her

i love to dream of a world where post canon rose grows and learns from the people who took advantage of her as a child, and through that prevents cycles of abuse from perpetuating in her adult life. but also i rotate the way that rose's fall from grace caused by dirk in the epilogues parallels with her plunge into grimdarkness via dr scratch in homestuck proper all the time and idk. i cant help but think it's a little clever

#homestuck #rose lalonde #talk tag #i love rose lalonde so much #it's been so long since ive given the epilogues a proper read through and most reflection on them leaves a bitter taste in my mouth #but the little things... i think about them often. i think for all its flaws the epilogues serve the rose fan in me quite well #i love when my blorbos suffer #anyways i 100% acknowledge that i might be reading too much into the Homestuck Epilogues #but what is homestuck if not making up a bunch of shit #also im trying to yoink things from drafted twt threads onto here #bc i realize twitter is a cesspit and none of my twt mutuals care abt hs anyways #so to account for any sloppiness that is why