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lxhxsxhxs · 3 months
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suddenly developing an obsession for this girl's songs
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lionhearttt · 5 months
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lonelyartist788 · 9 months
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audiophiliacfan · 10 months
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우울해도 돼 다 괜찮아질 거야 슬퍼해도 돼 다 지나갈 거니까 말해줘도 돼 너의 비밀 같은 것 내가 다시는 안 아프게 해줄게 네가 아픈 것 다 이해할 거야 네가 슬프면 내가 달려갈게 네 마음에 어떤 상처 있어도 내가 마음먹고 낫게 할거야
우울하면 내게 달려와 슬퍼지면 내게 달려와 우울하면 내게 달려와 다 새까맣게 까먹을 수 있게 해줄게
아파해도 돼 금방 나아질 거야 쉬어가도 돼 너무 달려왔잖아 원망해도 돼 네게 상처 준 것들 내가 다시는 혼자 두지 않을게 네가 아픈 것 다 알아줄 거야 말 안 해도 내가 알아채줄게 네게 날카로운 가시 있대도 내가 마음 열어 사랑할 거야
우울하면 내게 달려와 슬퍼지면 내게 달려와 우울하면 내게 달려와 다 새까맣게 까먹을 수 있게 해줄게
우울하면 내게 달려와 슬퍼지면 내게 달려와 우울하면 내게 달려와 다 새까맣게 까먹을 수 있게 해줄게 다 새까맣게 잊고 살아가게 해줄게
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hollisonceagain · 10 months
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some songs for june day 23: mingginyu - dear my all
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lovebesblog · 1 year
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Watch "[Official Audio] Mingginyu(밍기뉴) - Dear My All(나의 모든 이들에게,)" on YouTube
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purple-haven · 1 year
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나랑 도망가자 (Run away with me) by 밍기뉴 (Mingginyu)
나의 모든 이들에게(僕のすべての人たちへ)に続き、二曲目の밍기뉴の作品です。簡潔でわかりやすい表現と構造の歌詞でありながら、一つ一つの表現に胸を打たれます。
“세상은 널 잃어 마땅할 거야”は直訳すると「世界は君を失って当然だ」という意味になります。一緒に逃げ出してしまいたいような世界は、「君を失って悲しむ」だろうが、もともと君がいていいような世界ではなかったのだから、という意味でとってみました。「一緒に逃げてしまいたい」という感覚と、それが叶わない嘆き、受容。2分弱の短い曲に宇宙が広がっているかのようです。
나랑 도망가자 이 세상을 뒤로하고
一緒に逃げてしまおう この世界を置き去りにして
어둠을 뚫고 사랑하는 거야
暗闇を切り開いて愛するんだ
혹시나 과거에 얽매인대도
もし過去に縛り付けられたとしても
너의 상처들을 감당할 거야
君の傷だらけの体ごと受け止めるよ
나랑 멀리 가자 현실을 뒤로한 채
一緒に遠くに行ってしまおうか  現実を後に残したまま
불안을 뚫고 살아가는 거야
不安を乗り越えて生きていくんだ
혹시나 우리가 이별한대도
もし僕たちが袂を分つことになろうとも
너의 죽음은 날 울리고 말 거야
僕は君の死に嘆くことになるだろう
(Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo)
(Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo)
(Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo)
(Woo-woo-woo-woo-woo)
나랑 떠나가자 속세를 벗어던지고
共にここを去ろう 俗世を脱ぎ捨てて
모든 게 뜻대로 흐르질 않으니
何もかもが思うようにはいかないから
혹시나 나만이 살아남아도
もし僕だけが生き残ったとしても
세상은 널 잃어 슬퍼할 거야
世界は君を失って悲しむだろう
세상은 널 잃어 슬퍼할 거야
世界は君を失って悲しむだろう
세상은 널 잃어 슬퍼할 거야
世界は君を失って悲しむだろう
세상은 널 잃어 마땅할 거야
この世界など君にはもともとふさわしくないのだから
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auroraofmind · 2 years
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Eu sei que você me confunde
Eu sei que você faz meu coração palpitar
Mesmo se você agir como se me conhecesse
eu gosto de você o melhor
Eu gosto de você o melhor deste mundo
Eu te amo mais do que qualquer outra pessoa
Eu quero viver pensando só em você
eu gosto de você o melhor
Eu só quero ver você
eu somente amo você
você é o meu tudo
- only you
Mingginyu
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lyrics365 · 1 year
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무기력한 나 (helpless me)
무기력한 나 (helpless me)
너무 무기력해 내가 아닌 것만 같아 허무한 하루 끝 왠지 나 답지가 않아 무더운 날씨 탓을 해 그게 가장 쉬운 핑계니까 무심하게 변해버린 너넬 탓할 수는 없으니까 빚져야 하는 건 싫고 밖에 나가긴 싫어 무기력에 빠져버린 난 너무 지쳤고 해야 하는 것들이 자꾸 떠오르지만 미안해 다 하기가 싫어 무더운 날씨 탓을 해 그게 가장 쉬운 핑계니까 의미 없게 하루를 버린 나를 탓하기는 싫으니까 빚져야 하는 건 싫고 밖에 나가긴 싫어 무기력에 빠져버린 난 너무 지쳤고 해야 하는 것들이 자꾸 떠오르지만 미안해 난 하기가 싫어
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hwaightme · 3 months
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Burning
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🔥 pairing: best friend!mingi x gn!reader 🔥 genre: fluff, healing, friends to lovers, slice of life 🔥 summary: down winding roads, through the golden fields and into the shimmering night, you and mingi embark on a journey to live and love once again 🔥 wordcount: 5.5k 🔥 warnings/tags: editing??, language, indie film style, loosely inspired by murakami's 'barn burning' + youth mv, injuries/scabs, band aids/treatment, escapism, restarts, running away, love through hardship, healing, implied trauma, food/eating, reflecting on the past, mingi would do anything for you, arson 🔥 taglist: at the bottom of the fic 🔥 a/n: happy birthday to @byuntrash101!! my most wonderful cat, i love you, thank you for every moment and here is to many more <3 hugs to everyone, all reblogs, notes and comments appreciated! 🔥 playlist: the last stop of our pain - hanroro, the setting sun - the poles, bye - car the garden, summer night - jeon jinhee, 14:30 - damons year, silence - sunwoojunga, so life goes on - heo hoy kyung, dear my all - mingginyu
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You looked down at your hands, spreading the fingers out and relaxing them again, watching the movement of every line and wrinkle. Band aids bent and took on the shape you commanded; the one in an off-white shade after having taken on the brunt of the physical burdens, - a ring that was wrapped around the middle finger of your right hand was frayed at the edge, having had to through the test of the elements and of haphazard lugging of items in and out of the white car on which you were sitting. The other, skin toned, sturdy and strictly not letting anything dare infect you, hugged the side of the same hand and spread a little to your palm. The markings of a person who ‘could’, and a person who ‘did’. 
Gaze travelling downwards led you to a leather bracelet with a silver charm - a simple accessory, but one that held years of history, meaning and memories that tied you to the original owner. You were never one for big celebrations, having gotten used to treating every day the same as the rest - a uniform, dark reality where you were nothing but a little cog. The only mission you had ever had before this moment was to keep on turning. This bracelet was a promise, and a hope for a new beginning. 
Golden fields and a warm grey sky blending into a hazy blend of yellowish green and burnt sienna. A tired breeze that had long lost its fight reminded you that you could still feel, running through your hair, dancing across your skin. The sweater you had borrowed was much too loose at the shoulders, and thus offered little to no protection from the elements. Nonetheless, the comfort it offered, along with the aroma that had permanently intertwined with the threads of the cotton fabric brought more than enough warmth to your heart, and caused a blush to rise on your cheeks. It was a considerable contrast to your still slightly tear-stained, exhausted eyes around which the signs of last night’s terrors were still remaining. But even then, the despair that had come with the sensation had been washed away by a caring thumb, a loving hand, a single impression that solidified that you were never going to be alone.
You moved to run a finger across the plasters, curious as to how the cuts beneath were healing. Little scars of a warrior. You had fought for your way and for your life and for your right to smile and breathe and enjoy the earthly wonders. The last days before your final decision to escape were somewhat of a whirlwind, tainted by persistent insomnia, demons that haunted you day and night and the yelling of far too many people, projects and parasitic ponderings. Even the things that had been under your control grew minds of their own and searched for ways to destroy you, be it in hiding a mistake in a word, an error in a table or a fiendish administrative problem. Those days were a countdown, until in one last effort to survive, you cried out for salvation and admitted that it was all too much. And in that chaotic flood that was threatening to swallow you whole, one person had been waiting, and before you knew it, you were safe, had someone cheering for you, sharing your anguish.
“Hey don’t do that. We don’t have any band aids left and I’m not about to go Rambo mode and go picking grass to wrap you up,” you turned to follow the sounds of the low, raspy voice, smiling softly as you met your friend’s mildly concerned expression. Black hair, softly tousled; you barely could restrain yourself from reaching out and ruffling those locks. Beauty marks like stars on that wonderful, charming face. Slightly parted lips that appeared to be holding back sagas and everlasting tales. Lips that you could watch move forever.
“It’s fine, Mingi, I was just checking.”
“That was some intense checking you’re doing, refrain from it,” he retorted and crossed his arms while pinching the sleeves of his black knit sweater so as to not let them slide up.
“Says the person who keeps picking at their face like no tomorrow. Without bandages, mind you. At this rate-”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, I’ll sort myself out, alright?” Mingi winced as his tongue darted to the scabbed over gash on the side of his mouth, making you exhale sharply, bemused. You could sense him taking his words back with a shake of the head. One step back, another, and in a quiet mumble he added: “...at the next rest stop we’ll fuel up the truck, fuel ourselves and maybe get a proper first aid kit.”
“Sounds good.”
Turning one of the many rings on his fingers, your friend could not hold your gaze and resorted to studying the ornate silver patterns and precious embedded stones. It had been the same when he had first offered this way out for you. A man, supposedly tall and impressive in physique, but appearing so small as he stumbled over his words, one idea pouring and drowning another out until they connected like a puzzle and formulated a vision that was somewhat concrete. Though, even if there was no final agreement in his mind, you would have agreed anyway. All that mattered was that each sentence carried a ‘we’. And with that, you were more than happy.
Was it long ago that you had met him? It felt like eternity. You could not imagine any other life, at least not one where you had a chance at happiness. Sure, you had your fights and squabbles. It would be a big lie if you were to say everything was sunshine and rainbows. Both snappy and hot headed at times, you had each said a fair share of things you did not want to say. But it was the awareness and growing from mistakes that had led you to where you were now. You had both walked through some dark times, and ended up in the golden hour, surrounded by an equally glowing expanse of flora, reaping what you two had sowed.
“What are you looking at me like that for?”
“Hm?”
“I don’t get it, I know I have the thing on my cheek but… hate to break it to you, you don’t have healing powers,” ever so logical, Mingi was, once again, trying to establish a chain of thought. You had gotten better at explaining your thinking out loud, as did he, but in times where you were particularly wistful, words escaped you.
“I don’t know…”
“As if I do. Are you hungry?”
“I’m not a cat-”
“Then why?” he chuckled, lips automatically stretching into a toothy grin as you chuckled.
“‘Cause I can.”
“Okay then,” a breath escaped you as you stared at his hand, suddenly falling to meet the car’s surface and looked up to see him leaning over, staring intently at you. Through you. Like he could read you. Any courage you had disappeared, and you shook your head in defeat.
“Fine, fine,” how could someone put into words the feeling of wanting to picture an individual in everything and everyone? 
How could you say that even in the grass that surrounded you, in the long winding roads, in the cloudy skies you were glad to be able to see Mingi. It had been a lifetime indeed. A lifetime of seeing him without realising it, a lifetime of looking forward to being together with him and falling apart when you weren’t, and now, when you were side by side with only the sun, moon and empty fields to bear witness, you were scared to blink. Like all this time would disappear. Priceless seconds. Mingi was merciful enough to note a tinge of nervousness, and backed away. It was obvious enough that he did not quite let your reaction go, but neither you nor him were ever ones to push further than necessary and beyond the other’s personal limits. 
“Right, time to get going if we want to make it to the barn by midnight.”
“Okay.”
“Want to ride in the back or-”
“With you,” you did not mean to sound so ambiguous, but thankfully as Mingi was busy opening the door to the driver’s seat, he did not catch on, or courteously did not pry.
“Ah, you’re right. It’ll be getting cold pretty quickly, won’t it?” 
As if you were not wrapped up and huddled in the bunch of blankets, backpacks and crocheted pillows just last night when you were parked at the last rest stop, silently accepting your friend’s reassurance as you mourned a past you were not going to miss. He knew what you were going through, and so he stuck beside you instead of heading for those plasters when he technically could have. 
“A few hours won’t change these little cuts, but they can change you, and I’d rather be here so you’re not alone.”
The phrase resonated in your heart as you took your place beside Mingi, staring out at the windshield. With a quick glance to your left you could just catch his reflection in the glass, and with another tilt, the man himself. His plush lips, the beautiful curve of his nose, how the black-framed glasses that he had fished out of the cupholder between you suited him so well. Focused, he turned the key until a satisfying rumble consumed the vehicle, signifying its awakening. On instinct, Mingi’s arms flew to their respective positions, and he drove out of the improvised parking spot back out to the infinite line of cement - the one sign of civilization that had the ability to assure you that you were indeed going in the right direction. Since Mingi was familiar with this part of the country, however, you would not have minded even a sudden, more wild change in the scenery. 
Choosing to not surf the radio stations in search of something remotely tolerable, you drove to the sound of your musings and let the last of the grey haze wash over you before the sun that was concealed by the thick cloud would inevitably fall into a slumber. For the first time in a while, you could enjoy the quiet without it being interrupted by a cacophony of inner qualms and disturbing rage. You could catch the occasional note from Mingi’s humming - a habit of his that you had grown to love. Every time, it was something unexpected. Be it a tune he was making up on the spot or one that you were familiar with, you never tired of how his thoughts travelled, and were delighted by the soundtrack which he was subconsciously crafting for the life you just so happened to share. Serendipity, writing a future that Mingi was taking you towards.
The idea he had proposed might have been radical, but it was the only one that made sense. Besides, it was not going to cause any harm. At the end of the day, the property belonged to a distant relative, said relative had no use for it, so… the conclusion and final decision basically made itself. The act to mark an entry into being your new self had to be grand, a lot more grand than what you had already done, and Mingi, being a creative mind, of course could be trusted to invent a performance of the century. Just for you.
A dreamlike day turned into an equally surreal evening as you halted at the gas station attached to the last rest stop of your adventure, with Mingi’s call dragging you out of your thoughts. You confirmed to him that you were fine with a quick smile and followed him out of the trusty Dodge. Patiently, you idled about as Mingi unscrewed the opening to the fuel tank and reached for one of the nozzles, rolling a stray piece of gravel under your shoes. Crickets, a myriad of crickets hidden under the cover of nighttime launched into a crescendo of their trill song, so much so that the buzz of the fluorescent lamp that illuminated the lonely station was almost completely drowned out. A light touch on your upper arm alerted you that Mingi was done, and you promptly followed him to the convenience store.
As though by newly found habit, he gravitated towards the bright red canisters lined up by the register, while you gave him a wary glance before ambling towards the ready to eat meals. Soon enough, Mingi joined you, satisfied by his quick perusal, and with a basket in his hand. Without a word, he picked up your favourite snack and was about to toss it in:
“This one, right?”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
It never failed to be amusing how, despite the innumerable occasions when you two had eaten together, Mingi still liked to check with you that your favourite foods were, in fact, still your favourite foods. You had to admit that it was very endearing and comforting to you. Without even considering it, he always gave you room for change, in every way you could imagine. Or maybe you were exaggerating and letting your fantasies speak for themselves. You could not help but dart your eyes at Mingi when he turned his back to you, spotting the two beaded necklaces you had made for him some time ago still being a part of his usual outfit. And so, you wondered, how large was the room for transformation? What could this brand new future of yours include?
“Ah… wait… band aids… should we get that… What was it? Antiseptic-”
“You said a whole kit.”
“Right. Let’s go try and find it… wait what if they don’t stock one?” eyebrows weighed down with doubt, Mingi looked at you like he was about to apologise. You sighed, moving to run a hand down his back. The gesture startled Mingi, but he did not stop you, instead choosing to wait it out and see your intentions. You noticed him lightly biting his lower lip as he stared back at you, perplexed.
“We’ll find the essentials then. It’s not like we are disappearing from society for the rest of time, yeah?”
“Yeah…” had he continued, you swore he would have expressed his wish for what you had joked about to be the case. Luckily, you were pleasantly surprised by the wide selection of items to pick from, and left confident in the remainder of your trip.
In the fluorescence of the small store, and then inside of the parked car as you devoured your pre-made dinner, you were suspended in pure bliss. To your right was your partner in everything, friend or however your silly racing heart wanted to call him. Above you, the stars - a vista worth driving further out from the rest stop for. Propped up on the cushions, this was your definition of heavenly and healing. Colours had regained their vibrancy, and finally, you were no longer too fatigued to notice the intricacy of things that had previously passed you by. Who could have guessed that the packaging of the sandwiches you used to buy before work to throw in the office fridge had changed? And apparently a bit of time ago, too? What else have you been missing? For certain, you had been missing out on times like this, where you could hold a comfortable pause with Mingi, simply enjoying each other’s company while digging into your meals. It was astonishing to think how many breakfasts, lunches and dinners that you could have had with the one person who always believed in you were ripped away from you by obligation and unwanted routine. Not for longer. 
“Mingi.”
“Hm?” he hummed while chewing, eyes widened as he turned towards you. Quickly enough, he swallowed the bite, and waited for you to continue.
“I’m glad… that we can be here like this.”
“Oh… I…” at a loss for words, he let himself swim in your spontaneous confession.
“I am just… happy. Very happy. Thank you. Thank you for being the one who I can trust, thank you for sticking with me through complete and utter chaos, thank you for being you,” the words came naturally, buried under layers of hurt that needed time to evaporate. But now, the ritualistic expedition was wondrous in combating your inner demons, and in turn, let you speak for yourself, for your own feelings rather than those of illusory authority that had previously spoken for and was in charge of your every action, whether you were aware of it or not.
“No biggie. Things get in the way sometimes, but we’re here now, aren’t we?”
“Yes, that we are.”
“It’s going to get even easier soon, just you wait.”
A hand in midair, waiting for you to lift yours and meet it. Confused, you did so automatically, yelping when Mingi moved it closer to himself, and in a swift motion planted a soft, almost shy kiss on the back. He was careful to not put any pressure on the cuts which he had just re-cleaned and covered, along with the miniature wounds that only found themselves under the stinging alcohol solution, but kept on holding onto you, debating whether you would let him stay like this to his heart’s content, or if you would pull away. The tips of his digits reached the bracelet, and you could imagine a thrum of kindred energy reconnecting the item and the man. Shock prevented you from acting rashly, and so you simply read the fire in Mingi’s sparkling eyes, your favourite blaze that helped you out of a chasm, one that you would protect with your entire being until the world collapsed on you. And even then, you would stand up and try again.
Relief was evident in his features, from the curling of his lips to the relaxing of his shoulders. Clearly, an unfathomable pressure was lifted from his exhausted body. Every mile travelled, you were making revelations, it seemed. Venturing into the unknown, you were not quite sure who you were looking at anymore. Of course, you were confident in his name, in his presence, in his significance, but the many roles which he played in your years on this tiny planet left you struggling for words. Who was Mingi to you? Who were you to Mingi? Long gone were the days where you two had been moderately content with a distant and rapidly cooling friendship separated by glass and busy schedules. You were close. So close, that if the recklessness of acting on instinct caught up with you, you would get burned. 
Burning, like your hand despite Mingi having let it float in solitude some time ago to stand up and hop out of the back of the pickup truck. Set ablaze like your heart and soul that were feverishly awaiting a shining dawn. Your tired eyes could only watch your one wish turn the key in the ignition again, determined to help you start over. Could he be your sun? If you were to say anything more than a hollow whisper to the moon, would you fall away and lose him? You were about to bring the fingers of your left hand to run over the other, but you stopped, remembering Mingi’s comedically stern words. Instead, you imagined him pressing his lips against it again, heat rising to your cheeks upon recollection. A quick glance to the driver’s seat, and you could swear you caught the ghost of a smirk dancing across your so-called friend’s face, but chose not to comment so as to not spark a conversation you knew you would not be able to continue. 
“We’ll be there soon. There’s a neat shortcut we can take so it shouldn’t take us more than an hour.”
You nodded, trusting his judgement. Your thoughts were elsewhere, anyways and could not offer many suggestions in terms of the journey. These parts were foreign to you, and your decision-making here was as good as whenever you had a professional point to prove or a dream to follow; both flew out of your hands to be smited. At least in the case of the meandering roads, you had Mingi to shield you, letting you wander in your own mindscape for as long as you needed. The mind was a mysterious place, traversing memories both from years ago and ones that documented your most recent escapades much the same, though, maybe now they were all in brighter hues. The last of what was tying you down was packed and stashed right behind you and Mingi, both in the tiny space between the seats and the back of the cabin as well as in the exposed trunk outside. The monochrome madness stuffed into rucksacks, swaddled in sheets like a crying infant manifesting your prayers for the noise of a prior existence to cease demanding your attention. You were ready to let it all turn to ash, and be reborn.
It was fascinating how quick Mingi was to jump into action. Part of you wondered whether it was due to the times you had helped him, and he wished to somehow repay you. Or was this a genuine devotion? As the road turned into an unruly dirt path, you were certain it was the latter.
‘It’s our journey. I might not know everything that’s going on behind your forehead, and you would not know that about me, but the least we can do is stick through the worst storms.’
The grumbling of the engine turned into a roar as Mingi’s heavy combat boot pushed down even stronger on the accelerator. When people spent enough time together, they were bound to become more and more similar; such was the case with you and him. Parts had been exchanged, parts blended, and it was hard to think of a picture where there was a lack of the other’s presence in some form. Be it in behaviour or in little bits of jewellery. Mingi was driving selfishly, because he was driving for you and for the few breaths of air you had remaining in your lungs after holding up boulders of others’ opportunities at the cost of your own passions. There was experience, there was development, but there was also a need for self-preservation and a necessity to stop for the sake of health and mental clarity, and Mingi was not about to lose you. 
“D’ya want to roll the window down? You…” used to do that when you and him were teens. He did not have to say it. No matter the weather, even if for a few seconds, you wanted to be one with the air, a flightless bird that finally got a chance to glide with the wind, pleasantly lost in the elements. Maybe one day you could return to that same carefree nature. You shook your head.
“It’s a little cold outside.”
“How about this…” while slowing down a little to not lose control of the car, Mingi reached around and behind his seat, fishing for something. Finally, having found what he was looking for, he flashed a triumphant grin and produced his dark grey denim jacket, letting it land on your lap.
You raised an eyebrow, unsure of what your friend was implying. But as soon as the first hint of a breeze hit you and you saw the window start its slow descent under Mingi’s command, a chuckle escaped you. So it was not a question after all, but an encouragement, perhaps even a challenge. Giving in, you pulled the jacket over yourself like a blanket, and stared at the all-knowing constellations that decorated the cosmic expanse - the best reminder of just how small you really were, and to what priceless insignificance your troubles amounted to. In the grand scheme of things, nothing really mattered, and so, you did not see anything as ‘too out of pocket’ anymore. Might as well enjoy life instead of letting it race past you for once.
It was a mystery to you when you fell asleep; you could only recall the ghostly pale silver and ashen blue that spread over the wheat fields and another serene, barely audible serenade hummed by Mingi. But just as quickly as you had drifted into a dreamless slumber, you jolted awake at the sound of your name being repeated once, twice by your best friend. Momentarily lost, you waited for your vision to focus before following the sounds of the truck door clicking shut and of rubber soles hitting gravel by fumbling for the handle. As soon as you opened the salon, you were embraced in full by the omnipresent hum of wildlife and distant rustle of leaves and tall grass, the field at which you stopped having been long abandoned and left barren, with only dirt to present as a fruit of labour.
Stepping onto the soft earth, you could feel the cool dampness beneath your shoes, a tactile reminder of the quiet countryside that surrounded you as far as the eye could see. Mingi, his presence like a comforting shield in the stillness of the night, paused in his search for the tools he had packed. A profound hush settled over the landscape, prompting you to tilt your head and look on further, to spot the target barely a couple hundred metres away. So this was it. The promised sacrifice. The place where the past could finally quit holding on to you and tearing you apart. The abandoned barn loomed ahead like a relic from another universe and a time long gone.
The moonlight painted the barn in ethereal shades, casting a melancholic beauty upon its worn facade. Mingi's eyes held the weight of a thousand untold stories and observations, and in the quiet exchange of glances, you detected a shared understanding – a recognition that you had the right, and more than deserved to forgive yourself, and throw away the hurt you had accumulated over the years with a light heart. He stood beside you, holding onto the sacks that you had stuffed full of items that haunted you, mutely berated you and induced agonising ruminations. Papers, trinkets, utter garbage that you had never been able to throw out on your own, all collected like nightmare capsules and you were more than elated to bid them farewell.
He had not yet taken off his glasses, eager to move onwards and upwards. One of these days you might muster up the courage to tell Mingi just how handsome he was in whatever style he chose, but that was a mission for a more courageous you. From tonight into the myriad of tomorrows. Your partner in self-revolution stretched his arms towards you, gingerly passing the hefty items over and waiting for you to get a better grip. To think that there were clouds of buzzing paranoia and dread attached to either one - suffocating, persistent.
While regarding Mingi’s tranquil resolve, you discovered a sliver of a near-boyish excitement, so characteristic of him before growing pains had changed your relationship and all that came with it, that your heart ached, and a prickly sensation made itself known on the back of your hand where he had left a solitary peck. And yet, he still was not giving up on you. From the pocket of his jeans - appearing to take on the shade of a washed out chrome under the shining skies, Mingi produced a box of matches, and upon leaning closer to the truck, grasped the handle of a stick protruding from a miniature canister. More than enough to carry out the impending transformation. Mingi’s stunning orbs met yours, and without words, he conveyed a mixture of determination and sorrow, a silent promise and cheer for the grand finale.
"Here’s to letting go, and to holding on to the things that make us right," he uttered, his voice carrying the power of a truth that echoed in the night air.
“Then… I’ll be right back.”
“I will be here. Cousin said everything’s unlocked. Put things in places where the fire’ll reach.”
One step. Another. Walk turning into run, you chased after who you wished to become and propelled yourself with unprecedented pride. You could do this. With one quick push the door to the barn creaked open, and you made haste in lining the walls with who you used to be. You could taste ash on your tongue and see the fire in your pupils even though you were consumed by pitch black; here, you had the final say. Upon throwing the sacks into whatever direction, you felt your way back out, and returned to Mingi who, apparently, had the time to reposition the car a little to have the back be facing the barn. With a mischievous grin he greeted you, and pulled you into a quick embrace before giving you a matchstick and the box and leading the two of you to the structure one last time.
This had been an agreement between you - you were the one to light the first flame, and he was the one to do the rest. Though this was a journey of healing, he did not wish for you to delude yourself into a guilt-ridden state. Mingi could bear the brunt of that for you and wear it like a badge of honour. As though patrolling the grounds, he went in a circle around the barn, leaving behind the acrid stench of splattered gasoline. Suddenly, the act felt more and more real. A yelp caught in your throat as Mingi shoved the empty canister inside through a loose wooden board, now only holding onto the unlit torch. Gazed at you, awaiting the monumental execution. 
Trembling just a little, on the third try you managed to light the match, and stepped to the building full of your painful memories. the flames danced in the blackness like whispers of farewell. As you approached the ancient barn with Mingi in toe, the match's glow illuminated the grains of wood that had weathered countless storms. The night seemed to draw its breath, as though it sensed the profound act about to unfold. Outstretching the judgement between your fingers, you hesitated for a fleeting moment. The gravity of the act hung heavy – the acknowledgment that setting fire to the past was a painful necessity for new beginnings. Nevertheless, you were certain. The barn, with its history that you will never learn, became a symbol of surrender, resilience and perseverance. Holding your breath, you dropped the match, but when the result did not satisfy you, you sensed a wave of rage. You wanted more, you needed it all gone from sight and experience. 
“Mingi.”
“Hm?”
“The torch, please.”
“Oh?”
“Please.”
With a silent understanding, Mingi raised the torch, the flames licking eagerly at its edges, and passed it to you. The blade that would slash through it all. The full stop at the end of this turbulent chapter. As you touched the fire to the barn, a crackling symphony echoed through the night. The dry wood, with the base generously coated in gasoline caught quickly, and soon the barn was ablaze, a kaleidoscope of oranges, reds, and yellows against the backdrop of the moonlit fields.
The flames danced with an insatiable hunger, consuming the old wood with a fervour that mirrored the intensity of emotions in the hearts of the witnesses. Shadows flickered and danced on the ground, casting ephemeral images of what once was, each crackle of the fire a poignant reminder of the release happening before your eyes. Mingi turned to you, his eyes reflecting the blaze that mirrored the intensity of his and your emotions. In that poignant moment, the warmth of the fire contrasted with the chill in the night air, echoing the bittersweet nature of letting go.
"We are making room for something new," he whispered before pulling you into a long-awaited kiss, as searing and filled with longing as the soaring flames that illuminated your bodies. The crackling fire served as a cathartic release, and in its glow, you saw promise. As soon as you parted, the two of you rushed to the truck, climbing to take the front seats to admire the masterpiece, not daring to sit apart, holding onto each other through it all.
As the fire continued its dance, the night bore witness to the act of relinquishing the old, a solemn ritual that paved the way to more and more. Together, you and Mingi stood amidst the mesmerising spectacle, your hearts intertwined with the rhythm of the burning, ready to step into the unknown and shape a destiny yet to unfold.
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wecandoit · 2 years
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~ 30/100 ~
29.08.2022 // i was so swept up in my work and also had my head up in the clouds today. please have this picture of my in-class doodles because i forgot to take proper pics
🎧: despite it all by mingginyu | ☕ | ig: _hermit.studies
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17.03.23 The edges of Winter with Dorian Gray.
Today, I felt like spending my free time annotating my copy of The Picture of Dorian Gray. I've had this book for years but wanted to get to know the novel more. There's something so therapeutic about analysing books in this manner, you pick out so many more things than you would reading on a whim. There is so much depth to this book, far more than I realised.
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justimagineok · 11 months
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astronauts series - Netflix and chill pt 2
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the follow up from this
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"My unreachable heart
Sadly has no roots
No matter how much you water a wilted flower
You know very well that it will never wake up"
- Flowering by Mingginyu
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"Thank you for inviting me," Seokjin said as he rested his head against Haru's shoulder. She thought about pushing him to be funny, but she couldn't help but feel a fuzzy feeling from his touch. "Don't thank me. It's weird," she grumbled, and Seokjin laughed. After discussing for 30 minutes about the scariest movie, they finally chose the IT movie since neither of them had watched it yet. Seokjin refused to budge and admit he was scared, so he kept quiet, focusing on anything else BUT the movie. He was surprised, to say the least, when Haru was the first to pick up the conversation during the movie.
"Why do you smell like that?" she asked, sniffing his hair.
"Like what?" he frowned, still looking at the uneven side of the carpet.
"Nice," she confessed after sniffing him again. "Your hair smells nice."
Seokjin got up fast, his ears turning red in seconds. "YAH!" he yelled, making her jump a little. "Don't say things like that to me," he covered his ears quickly. "It makes my ears burn," he pouted.
Haru laughed at his reaction and made a mental note to compliment him more often. "Fine, Mr. Worldwide Blusher, let's keep watching the movie, okay?" She signed for him to come back to his previous position, and Seokjin didn't hesitate.
They stayed like that for more 20min, Seokjin staring at the carpet and completly ignoring the movie and Haru looking at the spider web she's been meaning to clean for a week. The spider became her friend by now. She named her Cruela.
"Haru?", Seokjin called her for the second time, since she was too focused on Cruela and how much a spider could aford to pay for rent.
"Hm?"
"what are you looki- YAH!", Seokjing got up again, turning on the lights of the living room. "aigoo, I can't believe it!", he points at her and then at the spider web. "Seriously, I'm experiencing emotional trauma from this film, and you're having a profound moment of existential contemplation over a spider?!"
Haru couldnt hold her laughter, watching how adorable he looked when he was frustrated. The way he mumbled a zilion words in full speed as his ears turned red made him look so funny and yet so sweet. Haru tried to hold back that thought. Why was she thinking like that? She souldnt be thinking about cuteness or anything like that. Not after everything she's been through. Look where thinking good things about people brought her.
However, whenever he smiled, it felt as if a cascade of kittens performed synchronized acrobatics within Haru's heart, defying logic. His contagious laughter was another point of contention. It possessed a mystical power capable of curing the common cold, much to Haru's amusement. Nevertheless, Haru's heart interjected, highlighting his captivating blush whenever praised. Witnessing his cheeks transform into the shade of a spontaneously combusting tomato proved irresistible and undeniably adorable.
"You're cute," she blurted out unintentionally, as if she were thinking out loud. Haru quickly covered her mouth, but it was too late. He had already heard.
"what?"
"What what?" she feigned ignorance, but Seokjin was too sharp to fall for it.
"what did you just say?", he frowned, wanting to hear it again.
"I said you look like a fruit. Happy?" Haru retorted, dimming the lights once more and sitting back on the couch. "Let's pick another movie, okay?" She handed him the remote.
Seokjin took the control and set it on The Office. He didn't pick on her when he heard Haru humming in satisfaction. He sat on the couch again, this time not resting against anymore. "Why didn't you watch what you wanted from the beginning?" Seokjin asked, and he couldn't help by notice the way she shifted, clearly uncomfortable.
"Because it's a series.", she shrugged.
"and? What about it? ", he didn't get it. Haru breathed deeply before speaking. "Why would I waste my precious the-office-watching moments with someone who won't be a constant presence when I can enjoy a movie with its complete story in one sitting? It's like starting a TV marathon with a remote control that keeps disappearing. Pass the popcorn, please."
Seokjin was stunned. Like a switch being flipped, Haru could shift from embodying utmost wonderfulness and kindness to unleashing painfully direct words without warning. She was always ready for what followed. The cold looks, the answers as hard as hers, the looks of suffering at being mistreated. She was already used to all this. She had seen this before. On YN, when she said some harsh words, on her co-workers, when she rudely put down anyone's attempt to get to know her better, on her dates, when any man suggested anything other than a one-night stand. Her words cut like a razor. They hurt the people around them, the people she cared about the most. But they also protected her. You can't be hurt if you're alone, correct?
Some brave ones like YN and Jungkook stayed by her side, even with that horrible personality trait that Haru had. But not all were like the two. And she didn't know if Seokjin would be too. It was better not to risk it. Except, he wasn't having it.
"Who says I won't be a constant presence?"
Haru pretend she didn't hear it, choosing to focus on the TV instead. "I know you're listening to me, you know?", he smiled as he watched her glancing at him quickly. And there it was, the flipping switch again.
"I'm not going anywhere, Haru.", he said so quietly, she almost missed it. "I wanna be your popcorn partner", he stated, still looking at her, and Haru finally turned to look back at him. She wanted to ask if he meant it, if he wasn't joking or pranking her. But she didn't.
She didn't have to. He could see it in her eyes that she was asking if it was real.
"I'm always on your corner, grumpy.", he teased, reaching out for the popcorn bucket. "If you don't believe my words, just watch me."
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우울해도 돼 다 괜찮아질거야 슬퍼해도 돼 다 지나갈거니까 말해줘도 돼 너의 비밀 같은것 내가 다시는 안 아프게 해줄게 너가 아픈것 다 이해할거야 너가 슬프면 내가 달려갈게 네 마음에 어떤 상처 있어도 내가 마음 먹고 낫게 할거야 우울하면 내게 달려와 슬퍼지면 내게 달려와 우울하면 내게 달려와 다 새까맣게 까먹을 수 있게 해줄게 ​ 아파해도 돼 금방 나아질거야 쉬어가도 돼 너무 달려왔잖아 원망해도 돼 네게 상처 준것들 내가 다시는 혼자 두지 않을게 너가 아픈것 다 알아줄거야 말 안해도 내가 알아채줄게 네게 날카로운 가시 있대도 내가 마음 열어 사랑할거야 우울하면 내게 달려와 슬퍼지면 내게 달려와 우울하면 내게 달려와 다 새까맣게 까먹을 수 있게 해줄게 다 새까맣게 잊고 살아가게 해줄게
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hollisonceagain · 1 year
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december songs day 29: mingginyu - i do not bid farewell
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libriumfosoul · 4 months
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ничего страшного если ты подавлен
все наладится.
ничего страшного, если тебе тяжело
потому что все пройдет.
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