#NOT ELEVEN

[estrellami-1]

If I Should Stay

On the 15th, as promised! Ngl, I definitely almost forgot this. I have SO many feelings about this one, y’all check the tags if you want my ramblings. Buckle up. Also, happy stabbing Caesar day.

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Steve works his jaw, staring at Will. “Yeah,” he whispers. Will looks down. “Hey,” Steve says gently. “That’s not on you, okay? And Jonathan’s a really great guy. He and Nancy both had a lapse in judgement. They got together a while later and they were better for each other than she and I ever were.”

“But they hurt you.”

Steve chuckles. “In the moment, sure. But I’m fine now, I’ve moved on. It surprised me just now because I didn’t expect her to react like that. I know that’s not who she is as a person, and I’m sure as soon as Joyce talks to her about it and she’s had some time to think about it, she’ll come apologize. But none of that is on you, okay?”

Will shrugs, playing with the hem of his pants.

Steve glances at Eddie, who winks and plops down cross-legged next to Will, nudging their shoulders together. “My dad’s in jail.” Will looks up at him, surprised. Eddie shrugs. “I’ve had time to process, but it took me a while to realize he just isn’t a good person. Now, my momma was an angel among women, she just had a disease. It didn’t make her a bad person. But they’re my parents, so that must mean I’m a bad person with a disease, right?”

“No!” Will says emphatically. “Just because they-” he pauses, mouth a perfect circle, before flushing and ducking his head, smiling a little. “Okay. I get it.”

“Good kid,” Eddie says fondly, ruffling his hair. “Now, back to the planning?”

“Probably,” Steve nodded. “First things first, who wants out?”

“Papa hurt El?” Mike asks. Steve nods. “Then let’s kill this fucker.”

“Language,” say all the adults, and Mike rolls his eyes.

“I’m in,” Will adds.

“Me too,” Dustin says, and Lucas nods.

Steve looks around, and all the adults present nod at him. Robin squeezes his hand, and Alli pulls him closer to her by his shoulders. “Alright, little brother,” she says. He elbows her. “What’s the plan?”

Steve sighs and looks to El. “What do you think, Ellie?”

“Everyone else is dead,” she murmurs. “But if I go into the rainbow room, I will see them.”

Steve’s heart breaks. “You don’t have to go anywhere you don’t want to.”

She smiles sadly at him. “You cannot promise me that, Steve.”

He meets Robin’s eyes above El’s head, watches her heart break. “Watch me.” He looks back to El. “I know what he put you through, El.”

“He loves me.”

Steve takes a breath, shuts his eyes for a moment. “Remember what I told you, last time you said that?”

El nods. “You thought the same thing about your parents.”

“Exactly. It took me a long time to learn, but they don’t love me. And there’s nothing I can do to change that. Even if I was perfect, that wouldn’t be enough for them. Does that make sense?”

She nods. “You love me differently from how Papa loves me.”

“Yeah,” Steve whispers. “Which do you like better?”

“Yours.”

“Do you know why?”

She thinks about it for a minute. “You love me because you see Ellie. He loves me because he sees Eleven.”

Next to him, Alli makes a broken sound. Steve reaches back to hold her hand. “Yeah, Ellie. That’s exactly right.”

“I do not want to only be Eleven anymore,” she decides. “I want to be Ellie.”

“And that’s why I’ll do all of it myself if I have to,” Steve tells her. “So you can be Ellie. You don’t have to go in the rainbow room, okay?”

“Okay,” she nods, wiggling around until she can bury her face in his neck and whisper, “I trust you.”

He blinks quickly. “I’m glad,” he whispers back.

“Ellie,” Wayne says, voice not much steadier than Steve’s. She shifts to look at him from where she’s tucked into Steve. “We all want you t’be just Ellie if you want it. We’re all gonna be right there with you.”

“Thank you,” she says quietly. “Steve?”

“Yeah?”

“I won’t be strong enough. If I see Papa.”

“That won’t be a problem,” Hopper says, checking his gun. She shifts to look at him. “He’s not going to hurt you again.”

She frowns and buries her face back in Steve’s neck. “I’m happy,” she murmurs. “But I’m also very sad.”

Steve sighs and hugs her tightly. “I know how you feel.”

“I don’t like feeling this way.”

“I know, El. I don’t think there’s really any way to get rid of the feeling, though.”

“Just life,” Alli says quietly, scooting closer and laying a comforting hand on El’s upper arm. “I know it’s a cliché, but it’s true.”

El looks up at Alli. “Okay. What’s a cliché?”

Alli meets Steve’s eyes, a smile starting to spread, and Steve thinks everything’s going to be okay.

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#stranger things #if I should stay #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #robin buckley #Allison Harrington #el hopper #will Byers #ok SO. Will. he’s defensive of Steve not Jon bc Steve helped save him from the UD #this is very near and dear to my heart #also EL #WANTING TO BE ELLIE #NOT ELEVEN #YALL I CRIED WRITING THIS #I BROKE MY HEART EDITING IT #this is the singular best character study I have EVER done #I am. SO in love with her jfc #If Steve had a mean bone in his body THIS would be his villain origin story #fix it #fix it fic #time travel #time travel fic #time travel fix it #time travel fix it fic #starambles

[enamouredless]

the fact that mike think that WILL’S FEELINGS FOR HIM are el’s and he gave that monologue (right after will reminded him he’s the heart, by the way) is even more interesting and proves byler so much more honestly

i know its insane.. and even if mike currently had absolutley no feelings for will i just feel that the story is set up for him to develop them anyways?? like this is your avarage ben and beverly situation from it, your blair and dan from gossip girl, laurie and amy from little women...

#like will is the person that made mike feel seen and understood and LOVED!! full stop #not eleven #and he was so GRACIOUS ABT IT #he didnt want anything in return he just wants to be mikes friend #CRAZY #ask #byler #anonymous

[browsethestacks]

Arthouse Muppets

Art by Bruce McCorkindale

#Comics #Arthouse Muppets #Bruce McCorkindale #Film #Muppets #The Muppets #Sesame Street #Jim Henson #Art #The Good The Bad And The Ugly #Seven Samurai #Network #Ringu #The Ring #Pulp Fiction #Ocean's Eleven #Clue #Princess Bride #An American Werewolf In London #Star Trek II The Wraith Of Khan #The Wrath Of Khan #Star Trek #Humor #Humor Comics #Bert And Ernie #Statler And Waldorf

[artharakka]

“Äiti itki. Isä lähti huoneesta. Vivian istui nurkassa ja kuunteli vaiti. Kissamme Minni hyppäsi vuoteelle ja käpertyi jalkojeni päälle ja kehräsi, sillä kehräämällä parannetaan sairaita.” — Emmi Itäranta. Kuunpäivän kirjeet

“Mom cried. Dad left the room. Vivian sat in the corner and listened quietly. Our cat Minni jumped on the bed and curled up on my legs and purred, for through purring the sick are healed.” — Emmi Itäranta. The Moonday Letters. Quote tranlated by me (unofficial)

#my beloved baby Minni passed last weekend and it has been rough #I loved her so much #I've grown so much since I first held her when I was eleven years old #she was with me so long and still it came too soon #I still love her so much #it's a silly little pillow but she liked to sleep next to it #@artist-rat 's grandma bought it specifically for her #tiny cat pillow for tiny cat baby #animal death

[oswinian]

#eleven got reckless with others so twelve chose his face as a reminder to save others #thirteen got reckless with herself so fourteen chose his face as a reminder to save himself #but both faces were chosen because of donna

+ the realization:

#dwedit #doctor who #fourteenth doctor #donna noble #tvedit #tvarchive #dailydw #timelordgifs #usersophie #userars #userdiana #smallscreensource #usersource #chewieblog #filmtvcentral #dailyflicks #scifiedit #**katas #this is no hate to eleven or thirteen #but the parallels where twelve and fourteen inherited faces #from their pasts that were meant to remind them #it just gets to me okay #the twelve realization gif was impossible to color I will admit I gave up

[gay-fae]

part of what made across the spiderverse so perfect was that it was largely centered on WHO spider-man is, in EVERY universe. not just Miles, or Peter, or Gwen, or Miguel. Spider-Man. it was about the ESSENCE of Spider-man. Spider-Man is love for humanity. Spider-Man is having to sacrifice and lose everything you love for the mask. Spider-Man is rebellion against the powers that be. Spider-Man is about trying to do both, in every universe. about not taking no for an answer or listening when everyone tells you your destiny. refusing to choose between the things and people you love. that’s why Spider-Man is so compelling: they want everything, even though everyone else tells them they can’t have it. that it’s not meant to be. and they just. keep. trying. keep getting back up. they just keep going, man.

#im going crazy sorry #as a Spiderman lover since I was eleven years of age #this movie changed my entire life #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse #across the spiderverse spoilers #atsv #atsv spoilers #into the spider verse #into the spiderverse #itsv #itsv spoilers #fable’s stuff #spider man #spiderman #miles morales #gwen stacy #peter parker #miguel ohara

[mollymurakami]

were we just kids, just starting out

#stranger things #steddie #ronance #jargyle #fanart #eddie munson #nancy wheeler #robin buckley #steve harrington #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #erica sinclair #dustin henderson #eleven #jane hopper #will byers #mike wheeler #jonathan byers #argyle #mollymurakami

[nat-20s]

If someone tells you to skip the ninth doctor they're a bastard and a cop!!! However if someone tells you you can skip the eleventh doctor genuinely they are looking out for you

#the thing about eleven is...i remember almost zero of his run ..and it doesnt matter at all lol #doctor who

[pangur-and-grim]

Pangur and Grim had their annual vet check today, and they both seem to be in great health!

#eleven years old & going strong 😤 #pangur #grim

[zazrichor]

B A D W O L F

#doctor who #rose tyler #ninth doctor #bad wolf #dw fanart #dw art #procreate #zazrichart #timepetals #ninerose #nuwho #u do not want to know how long that seemingly simple background took me #so i didn’t expect dec 2023 to send me down a nine spiral?? #i thought i was DONE with dw tbf #but after seeing some nine slander i had to rewatch #i originally started watching back when s5 was airing iirc #& stopped during s7 after watching s1-s4 #lmao @ me for getting into a series with eleven and stopping watching with eleven #s1 best season #i want to watch fifteen but #BUT #i have to catch up on a lot and uhh 🫥🫥

[cynthicaster]

oestrogen could've saved them 😿

#nine eleven #the tragedy was what we did after #shitpost #never forget ��🇸 🦅 🛩🏙

[kidovna]

medusa and her blind lover but make it elmax

#happy women’s day #!! #elmax #el hopper #eleven #max mayfield #stranger things #artovna #medusa #both of them cursed by vecna and doomed by the narrative finding love in each other

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #matt smith #david tennant #peter capaldi #alex kingston #jenna louise coleman #catherine tate #dw spoilers #ok i thought about waiting until saturday to make this #so that i could have a better quality one of fourteen and donna #but i couldn't do it!!!!! #the context for all of these kisses on the hand are so different i love it #but clara definitely got her fair share of them lol #also thought about including eleven and amy's forehead kisses but.... idk #anyways i'm very excited for saturday ahhhhh

[carricfisher]

Doctor Who Vincent and the Doctor | 5.10

#doctor who #dwedit #moffatedit #tvedit #scifiedit #userteri #usertennant #underbetelgeuse #miatendos #tuserpris #userlanie #winterswake #useraurore #eleven #eleventh doctor #amy pond #dw #eleven x amy #*edit

[kaleidoskuls]

Dustin: are any of you straight ?

Robin:

Nancy:

Jonathan:

Argyle:

Steve:

Eddie:

Lucas:

El:

Max:

Will:

Mike: *raises hand slowly*

Will: *grabs Mike's hand, interlocks their fingers and brings it back down*

OR

Mike: *raises hand slowly*

Will: *walks in* hey, everyone

Mike: *lowers hand slowly*

#literally no one is straight #thank you for coming to my ted talk #will byers #eddie munsen #steve harrington #robin buckley #dustin henderson #max mayfield #nancy wheeler #mike wheeler #jonathan byers #steddie #stonathan #ronance #elmax #byler #eleven #byler better be canon #mike wheeler is not straight #it's so obvious #i feel bad because i didn't add lucas here #but i didn't because he's straight ? in my opinion ? #edit: nah lol lucas is bi as fuck #jargle #stranger things #remi's greatest hits

[imfinereallyy]

El being wholesome with Steve. El being wholesome with Steve. The weird sibling duo we didn’t know we needed. I need more of it. I might do it….no I’ve done enough of them…

Okay, okay. But just picture this:

The kids trying to embarrass Steve all the time with photos and stories to Eddie, but El ruins it every.single.time. because she is so unbelievably wholesome when it comes to Steve.

Here is everyone pulling out scoops photos (which Eddie actually loves thank you very much) and sharing stories about his failed dates. Dustin tells Eddie specifically about the time he was teaching Lucas basketball and Lucas threw the ball too hard at the backboard and hit Steve in the face.

So they are all poking fun at Steve in his and Robin’s apartment (because in every universe these platonic soulmates live together) and there is just El who randomly chimes in:

“Steve took me to this thing called a ren faire once. It was very fun. We both looked really pretty.”

Eddie absolutely melts at the story and gushes over the photos she has.

And everyone gets quiet every time, because no one wants to criticize El, but one time Max gently goes, “You know that’s like….nice right? We’re making fun of him.”

Everyone one expects her to being embarrassed or confused but instead she simple says.

“I know. I don’t like it. Steve’s nice.”

And she embarrasses everyone, except Robin and Eddie who are the only ones Steve never gets upset with when they make fun of him. They all mumble out apologies, and Steve turns to Dustin and goes:

“This is why she gets a special section in the freezer. All different flavors of eggos.”

El’s eyes get wide. “Even the blueberry ones?”

Steve gives her hair a tousle, “Especially the blueberry ones.”

#el and steve have a sibling relationship #steddie #stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #el hopper #eleven hopper #the party stranger things #platonic stobin #my writing