#actually tired of this bullshit

[boldandburnt]

I worked so hard to destroy myself, why would I get better?

#actually mentally ill #i wanna be perfect #rant post #@n0r3xia #@na trigger #ana trigger #st4rv3 #tw disordered eating #ana bllog #ana tricks #ana rant #anatumblr #ana meal #ed bullshit #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues #mentally fucked #mentally tired #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable

[fiercynn]

wait you mean this part of voting is not harm reduction: an indigenous perspective???

We don’t dismiss the reality that, on the scale of U.S. settler colonial violence, even the slightest degree of harm can mean life or death for those most vulnerable. What we assert here is that the entire notion of “voting as harm reduction” obscures and perpetuates settler-colonial violence, there is nothing “less harmful” about it, and there are more effective ways to intervene in its violences. [x]

wow way to cherry-pick a single line and ignore the ENTIRE FUCKING POINT

#i didn't rb the post because i'm too tired to deal with people lol #but i wanted to share so that people do actually read the original piece #rather than believing this person's bullshit take on it #voting is not harm reduction #setter colonialism #us imperialism #indigenous justice #id in alt text

[bucephaly]

It's kinda shocking to me how few people seem to know how prevalent the 'my great grandmother was cherokee' myth is and how it's almost never actually true, especially when it comes with things like 'never signed up' or 'fell off the trail' or 'courthouse burned down destorying the documentation' etc etc.

People just don't even seem to know the history like.. when the Trail happened. My great great great grandfather was 2 years old during Removal in 1838, so peoples 'my great grandmother hid in the mountains!' is so clearly wrong. And we have rolls. From before and after removal, rolls done by cherokee nation and others by the government, rolls that were not stored in one random flammable courthouse. It's not difficult to find the actual evidence of ancestry.

And just.. there are lots of ways those family stories get started. It was a practice during the confederacy to claim cherokee ancestry to show one's family had 'deep roots in the south' that they were there before the cherokee were removed. Many people pretended to be cherokee and applied for the Guion-Miller payout just to try to steal money meant for cherokees - 2/3rds of the applicants were denied for having 0 proof of actual cherokee ancestry. [We even see lawyers advertising signing up for the Miller roll just to try to get free money.] And the myth even started in some families in the cherokee land lotteries, where the land stolen from us was raffled off, including the house and everything that was left behind when the cherokees were removed. We have seen people whose families just take these things stolen from the cherokee family and adopt them into their own family story, saying that they were cherokee themselves.

If you had some family story about being cherokee and you wanna have proof one way or the other, check out this Facebook group run by expert cherokee genealogists that do research for free. Just please read the rules fully and respect the researchers. They run thousands of people's ancestries a year and their average is only around 0.7% of lines they run actually end up having true cherokee ancestry.

#and ive heard even dumber origins of the cherokee family myth #such as an ancestor having a silly sounding name so the descendents just go 'oh she mustve been an indian!!!' #i was one of the few people who had my ancestry done on the facebook and had genuine cherokee ancestry #[though i had found it before it was just really validating to get it double checked and i started finding cousins (:] #like. i was told once when i was a kid by my grandma that my dad had cherokee ancestry and i didnt believe her. its wild that so many peopl #will make it a Fixture of their identity [or even just smth they bring up ever] with Zero proof #at least for cherokees from what ive seen its usually considered really disrespectful to claim to have cherokee ancestry without #actually having the documentation [like ancestors on the rolls] #and no a dna test doesnt count. nor does 'my dad is Clearly not white!' or 'high cheekbones' or old family photos or anything #i had this discussion with someone recently whose dad had been calling himself 3/4 native but didnt know exactly what nation ???? hello? #and its like... sorry but ur dad is like. italian lol. #[and blood quantum is bullshit anyway im tired of the 'im 1/16 cherokee' comments its dumb #cherokee nation does not have a blood quantum requirement. its pointless bringing it up in the discussion of who is or isnt cherokee] #also mandatory disclaimer that im reconnecting. i didnt grow up connected to the culture of even knowing my ancestry #this is all from my looking into this stuff over the past year or so. i cant claim to be an authority over anything regarding this #this is p much all my repeating things ive heard said by people who know a lot more than i do haha #man. and this isnt even starting to get into the fake tribe stuff. the only legit cherokee groups are the 3 federally recognized bands #cherokee nation of oklahoma. united keetoowah band. and the eastern band of cherokee indians. #any others that are state recognized or not at all arent acknowledged as legitimate by any of the legit cherokee groups #anyway. my final message goodb.ye #cherokee #tsalagi

[antianakin]

It's really depressing that the only real Jedi centric and Jedi positive show in existence is written for preschoolers, while many of the more "adult" shows are edgy and about morally ambiguous or straight-up evil characters. As if lessons about being kind and selfless are somehow not important or relevant to adults just as much if not more than they are to children.

It feels like characters who are unambiguously good are seen as only enjoyable by the very young and adult viewers will only actually appreciate characters who are cruel and selfish (and the requisite "tragic backstory" that always goes with it to help excuse their cruel and selfish choices).

It's just really sad and disappointing.

#star wars #listen i love andor #i really do #but i'm seeing a pattern of shows aimed at older audiences always always ALWAYS having moral ambiguity as a central theme #the good ones like andor always keep in mind that these people are doing awful things #they're not necessarily heroes even tho they're on the right side #the bad ones like ahsoka and acolyte find ways to send the message that being selfish is actually the right thing to do sometimes #i'm just so tired of the jedi getting relegated to the side because no one can see nuance in unambiguously good people #like at best they are just not there at all #at worst they are turned into the villains specifically for refusing to stop practicing their culture even in the face of persecution #give me my adult jedi show #GIVE ME THE REVA SPIN-OFF I DESERVE #STOP GIVING ME THIS JEDI CRITICAL BULLSHIT #IT'S ALL HORRIFICALLY BAD #I DON'T CARE HOW GOOD YOUR CGI IS THE STORY IS NO LONGER STAR WARS IF YOU HATE THE JEDI #GO MAKE YOUR OWN SCI FI IF YOU CAN'T RESPECT THE JEDI

[sprinkle-jay]

if you really think about it, kalina and the night yorb are like. kinda opposites. i mean, kalina loses power the more people who can see her at once. and. the night yorb gains power each time its name is said. idk. much to think about!

#jay's bullshit tag #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #d20 kalina #night yorb #i need to make stupid posts like this again #calroy as the anti-murph... gilear being the nightmare king based on fig's oyster... #anyways. something something. um. kalina is. shy. and hates attention. and. um. the night yorb wants to be famous. or whatever. #<- i'm a little tired and silly i don't actually think this

[honeypleasejustkillme]

“i’m sorry you feel that way” “i’m sorry i upset you” “i’m sorry if..” just say “i’m sorry” and that’s it. you’re just triggering me to believe that now it’s my fault i feel that way, that i made myself upset to spite you. i have bpd. i already am upset and you adding on “you feel that way” makes it seem like you truly don’t give a shit. i don’t need extra words, i just need you to acknowledge that you were wrong and made me upset so you should apologize.

#splitting thoughts #i’m so fucking tired of his stupid fucking apology bullshit #either say you’re sorry and leave it at that or fuck off #this goes for everyone around me too #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd shitposting #bpd mood #bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd splitting

[wildwren]

anyway halbrand is a mood

#this is stupid but i dont care #i am tired #you are not morally superior for attacking people on the internet for liking a show that you don't #that is not fucking praxis #get the fuck away from me #the rings of power #rings of power #salt warning sorry i know actual fans just want to move on from this bullshit #but i couldnt resist

[canidance]

I really like Mothra and Shimo actually.

#I’m still learning how to draw shimo #And mothra #Mothra in my au is just tired . She’s js sick n tired of all this bullshit #Shimo #godzilla x kong #godzilla x kong: the new empire #mothra #mosura #mothra/shimo #I THINK THEY SHOULD KISS ACTUALLY #Sorry this was rushed

[daeughterr]

IM NEVER GOING ON INSTAGRAM AGAIN

I made the mistake of reading the comments under the post of a disabled woman’s video with her baby

“Her husband does 90% of the work”

“How did you even make that in the first place?”

“Guys will literally hit anything.”

How fucking brain dead do you have to be to comment shit like that?

Someone is sharing their journey as a disabled parent and their first impulse is to ask intrusive questions about her sex life?!

I’m fucking disgusted. I physically cannot even comprehend this right now. Hundreds of years later and disabled people are still seen as a fucking spectacle!

#actually disabled #physical disability #disabled #cripple posting #cripplepunk #rant #i am so fucking tired #i’m so done #actually autistic #physically disabled #actually adhd #the ableism is astounding #ableism #ableist bullshit

[crybaby-bkg]

I wish more media understood that you don’t have to include unnecessary racism in order to make a show more interesting or appealing 💔

#I literally just got so upset #bc I fucking loved this show #it was so satisfying and GOOD like I was genuinely interested every week #and boom here’s a shit load of racism that’s so blatant it’s supposed to be satirical #but atp it’s not!!!! it’s just tiring and frustrating cause we’re already living in these times!!!! #you think I wanna see more in the shows I watch to escape from that bullshit!!!!! #so frustrated and like actually hurt a lil bit LOL #that sucks bawls #tw: racism #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[coolauntlilith]

I like how I'm an "Izzy Hater" just for the fact I didn't become delusional and hinge the entirety of a show on one of the antagonists living or dying. 🙄

Like I legitimately liked Izzy. I was actually very sad he died.

But Izzy isn't the main character. Today I'm seeing posts that are of the sentiment, "we never said he was," but the hard core Izzy stans sure have been acting like this is equivalent to, idk. Killing Eve.

There's been great posts discussing Izzy being the show's antagonist within the crew and discussing the toxic dance that was Blackbeard and Izzy Hands. A very solid argument has been that Izzy couldn't be around for Ed to be Ed.

My personal argument is that Izzy was fated to die all the way back from S1. That he is the representative of "piracy." And as piracy is ending or dying out, Izzy dying represents that.

I do have problems with Izzy dying. But also I don't have enough of an issue to have deluded myself into calling this Bury Your Gays, I don't think Jenkins is a homophobe or transphobe like I've seen him be called on here, and I don't think it's transphobia just from a viewing perspective of Jim being trans and having had a beautiful arc both seasons and the Wee John being Calypso and not dying either??? Like the entire cast is queer, yall are so off your rockers with some takes that I have no sympathy for even though I was upset too.

It's genuinely concerning just how differently you all watched the show.

And as like a final take away - I guess the canyon happened bc people were horrendous to Izzy fans. That's not acceptable, I'm sorry that happened. This is an ahistorical romcom, the other extreme end of this fandom is wrong as well but in this case worse imo. That's shit behavior and true Izzy haters deserve to trip and knock out their front teeth for online harassment like that.

But having fucking critical thought (having a small opinion in my case) isn't hating on something. Damn. Throw your diploma away because it's fucking useless if this is your reaction to anything that doesn't fit into your fanon.

Jesus fucking christ. Drink some damn water and chill out.

#im really tired of yall and cant decide if blocking is just best route at this poit or not #you didn't watch the actual show imo #its just so immensely obvious how ignored everything else was for the love of Izzy. its fucking wild #fandom bullshit #ofmd #ofmd s2 #our flag means death #izzy hands #aunt posting

[glowingsand]

the shadows around rei’s eyes are pretty much gone. just putting that out there.

#cause he was never dark and gloomy in the first place just TIRED of everyone (his dad’s) bullshit canon CONFIRMED #i am reading so deep into this. also i’m annihilating kazuki’s goatee with my laser beam eyes #<<<< gonna make a dumb comic about that actually #when i wake up. its half past 6 in the morning and i am still trying to sleep. good night. #buddy daddies #suwa rei

[acediaedeus]

this does contain them sweet

SPOILERS

what I find really upsetting about Ichigo’s dynamic with his friends/family/mentors is how they treat the fact that he’s part-Hollow. especially when it comes to the Visored and Orihime.

bc yeah, the Visored did struggle with their Hollows, bc they already lived hundreds of years without that aspect. they were comfortable with their shinigami existence, but then this hollowfication bullshit drops on their heads and suddenly they’re not only barely in control of themselves, constantly in a fight with an inner “demon”, but also there’s no one to support them AND they’re getting fucking exiled and then they exist as this tightly knit community of eight for a fucking century with no one to understand them but each other. I’d hate the Hollow in me too, probably.

BUT, then there’s this fresh guy, that hasn’t accepted the fact that he’s now an amalgamation of a million different things, including something that he has been told he has to fight and exterminate, that they have to teach to manage the hollowfication bullshit™️ so what do we do? correct, scare the shit out of him and present existing with a Hollow as amensalism (one is harmed, one is unaffected) or parasitism (one benefits, one is harmed) when it’s more like commensalism (one benefits, one is unaffected), in which the shinigami is clearly the one who’s benefiting from this.

(although we could argue that for the Visored this is a symbiotic relationship in which both are getting harmed, but even then the shinigami still gains benefit and the Hollow gets nothing but hatred, so like, fuck them, lol (I’m advocating for inner-Hollow rights 💀🙏🏻)).

biology lesson out of the way, they essentially do not teach Ichigo anything that would bring long-term benefits (we see this when Ichigo is unable to complete his training with Squad 0, bc he has no fucking idea who Zangetsu (or he himself) actually is (this is, of course, in part his quincy power’s doing, but I wouldn’t say his supposed “mentors” helped much).

in conclusion what does Ichigo get out of this? self-hatred and the habit to suppress what is, whichever way you look at it, a big part of his being, thus blocking himself and Zangetsu from reaching their full potential.

but I guess you can’t teach lessons you haven’t learnt yourself, so there is that with the Visored.

now onto my dear Orihime, who I love dearly (this is a disclaimer). for someone who, supposedly, loves Ichigo more than anything and who we have to take seriously as not only just a potential love-interest, but the actual, one-and-only lover, she is a little bit too scared of Ichigo.

this, of course, for me, begs the question of how am I supposed to accept a love-interest who is consistently terrified of the mc? not a single battle with Orihime present (and Ichigo using the mask) without her shaking in fear and having to be reminded by others (who have known him for much less time than she has), that not only is it still Ichigo in front of her, but he’s also fighting and pulling out the mask he himself doesn’t like much, in order to protect her.

it’s plain and simple upsetting how there’s absolutely no one to accept and embrace the essence of Kurosaki Ichigo. everyone around him wants the shinigami and human in him, no one is interested in the Hollow (except for *ahem* Grimmjow *ahem*), all they do is reject and cower and isn’t that fucking hypocritical after hiding behind his back and begging him to save them?

everyone around Ichigo just really pisses me off with their constant whining. I feel like the only ones who love and cherish Ichigo for the absolute gem of a person he is are Chad and the fucking Arrancars 💀🙏🏻

as I mentioned in the ALT to the last photo in this parade of idiocy: trying to separate and think of Hollow Ichigo and Ichigo as two different entities is crazy and delusional behaviour, bc we have been told countless times, that a person’s inner Hollow is a manifestation of all repressed emotions and traits that they view as unsavoury. which for Ichigo happened to be aggression, cruelty, being merciless and thirst for bloody battles.

let me remind everyone that you cannot truly love a person w/o accepting and acknowledging all their flaws (including yourself).

this is not me trying to say Orihime doesn’t love Ichigo, it’s not really about the characters, more so the writing. I am actively trying to square up with Tite Kubo. for many reasons, but this is one of the ones I pay most attention to.

Ichigo is someone who is in perfect control of himself, who protects no matter what, bc even when he turned into the vasto lorde (after getting his heart ripped out of his chest) it was all his Hollow, yet it still carried out the mission of protection seamlessly, that’s how strong his will is. Kurosaki Ichigo deserves ppl who actually love him around, thank you.

thanks for coming to this ted talk, love y’all!

#bleach #kurosaki ichigo #inoue orihime #ichigo x orihime #kind of #but not really #bc I’m being a hater about them #it’s actually much more #grimmichi #I can’t go a single post about Ichigo without mentioning Grimmjow #they are very dear to me #also #they are in love #visored #I’m an opinionated bitch #can you tell? #literally don’t piss me off about this #I don’t play about Kurosaki Ichigo or Hollows #this is NOT me hating on Orihime I love that girl #I just hate the treatment Ichigo has to endure #my friend had to listen to different variations of this same rant 20 times I think #she’s TIRED #oh also #Chad is mentioned bc I love what he has with Ichigo #truly beautiful #this is what true male friendship looks like #overuse of coloured text for a bigger oomph #surprisingly no italics? #random biological bullshit #this got long

[bienmoreau]

It's the "do my friends hate me or do I just need to go to bed" meme except actually no. My 'friends' do actually apparently hate me and also I need to go to bed. Fukin love that for me.

#so fun getting to relive the same bullshit from my undergrad with this lot. #(hugely sarcastic) #living my best lifee. this is just what i wanted from my masterss #im so fuking tired and i was having such a nice day. i fukin hateeeeeee thisssss #personal #random chatter #when will i find humans that actually like being around me and dont feel the need to bitch about me as soon as i leave a room?

[amber-angel]

Ok. Watcher. The criticism they were getting was mostly valid, they listened, and they made adjustments. So now stop.

#stupid flighty bullshit #watcher #if youre still not happy then just dont watch their stuff anymore #i just see the internet pedestal to punching bag cycle happening here and honestly are we not tired of that #they listened. they apologized. they made actual changes #thats the accountability we wanted right? #so now we stop

[vitamin-zeeth]

experiencing fhjy while currently being in the equivalent of junior year is so. Yeah that's what it's like that's how school treats you that's how I'm feeling RIGHT NOW. I love how perfectly accurate it is and I also hate it so much because they don't deserve to go through this shit

#like fuck man #im currently fucking struggling through school clawing my way to exams so i can stop dealing with all this bullshit and have a life #and i cannot WAIT until its over cause next years gonna be the chillest #but fuckin hell man some of these moments #adaine struggling cause the school just won't provide the resources she needs. fabian dealing with a 150% workload + ecs. #kristen being genuinely gifted but finding the paperwork so awful that her grades are plummeting. #gorgug being told he cant do what he wants to do because they want to keep him focusing on the path he chose when he was 14. #riz trying to keep his friends together because if they separate he doesnt know what hed do #ough #kristen especially is resonating with me HARD her entire energy is so fucking relatable rn #its giving burnout its giving tired undiagnosed teenager its giving doesnt know wtf theyre doing #shes strongly considering dropping out but then looking back and going FUUUCK I KNOW I GOTTA JUST PUSH THROUGH #shes hating the work its making enjoying the subject harder shes needing a break and nobodys willing to give her one #shes so me this year actually. realest ever I'll defend her til i DIE #d20 #fhjy