#actuallydissociated

[what-if-i-dee-eye-do]

#who's fronting? #for later me #other #negative #kinda? #memes #I am aware of the overlap btwn being a system and being trans lol just enjoy the meme #osdd #did #dissociation meme #actuallydissociative #actuallydissociated #dissociative identity disorder #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #did meme #osdd meme #dysphoria meme #I'm having. a bad time after using the bathroom lololololllll

[unstablemotions]

Hey, you! You who suspect you might have PTSD, DID or another trauma disorder, but you think you didn't experience trauma "bad enough" to have developed a mental disorder from it? Let me suggest looking at it differently:

"If there's smoke, there's fire"

Do you experience symptoms of PTSD, such as hypervigilance, trouble sleeping, flashbacks, memory problems, dissociation, ect? Then yes, it was "bad enough". Maybe you don't remember anything "really bad" happening or you don't "feel like" it affects you, but listen to your body. The body remembers and the body doesn't care if you think it is "stupid" or "weak" to have a panic attack when someone touches you or that you still have nightmares about that thing you saw when you were 4 years old

Trauma isn't what happened. Trauma is the reaction to what happened. So what I'm trying to say is that if the reason you think you can't have PTSD/DID/OSDD/ect is because you didn't go through anything horrific enough for that, then maybe forget about what happened to you for a moment and just look at the evidence your body and mind are showing. And then, most importantly, be compassionate with yourself. You're going through a lot and it's gonna be okay in the end. Take it easy, okay? <3

#posting now instead of forgetting it in a draft per usual #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually did #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually dissociative #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallyosdd #personal #my posts

[chemicalcarousel]

It's fucking funny when you start to notice the "tells" of certain alters, such as speech patterns, posture, voice pitch, accent, hand gestures, ect.

Like "wait a minute... why am I fucking man spreading like a fucking clown.... oh.... oh it's him."

#idk if this makes sense lol #ours #actuallydid #actually did #actuallyosdd #actuallypdid #actually cdd #actuallycdd #actuallydissociative #actually pdid #actually osdd #actually dissociative #did things #did stuff #cdd things #cdd stuff

[councilsys]

system ask game for traumagenic systems <3

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

remember that this is just for fun, and if anything feels invasive you do not have to answer the question! feel free to replace any question with a fun fact about your system or anything if you don’t feel like answering something! take care🫶🏻

#also this was done quickly so if any questions are weirdly worded or something that’s why! #endos dni #non traumagenic dni #did osdd #polyfrag did #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually did #actually traumagenic #actuallydissociative #system ask game #ask game #cdd system #actually cdd #cdd community #cdd #complex dissociative disorder

[subsystems]

Things that can happen in DID/OSDD but people don’t talk about them as much:

An alter being co-conscious or influencing you without you knowing.

Being aware of a co-con alter but not knowing who they are.

Having difficulty telling apart your inner experiences. (Was that an alter or was I just feeling differently or was I just daydreaming?)

Having difficulty identifying your own emotions. (I feel “something”)

Knowing how to do something yet feeling like you don’t or shouldn’t know how to do it. (How do I know how to use this phone? I feel like it’s 1998 when I didn’t know what a phone was yet.)

Being in a familiar place/situation yet feeling confused, like it’s unfamiliar. (I’ve lived in this house for 7 years but I feel like this is my first time ever being in it.)

Being confused that your body is smaller/taller than you thought.

Feeling or being unable to do things that you normally can do at other times. (I just couldn’t drive the other day. I don’t know how. I just forgot how to do it.)

Things that happened a few days ago feel like months ago, or things that happened months ago feel like a few days ago.

Experiencing pain, headaches, visual impairment, or other physical symptoms that doctors can’t find a cause for.

Waking up as a different alter than the one who went to bed.

A co-conscious alter being able to influence or take control of certain body parts (like using the arms to hold & comfort you).

Being unable to tell if you’re dreaming or awake.

Feel free to add on!

#actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallydissociative #actuallytraumagenic #dissociative identity disorder #sunflower posts

[sysmedsaresexist]

#system memes #did #OSDD #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallymultiple

[justanothersyscourse]

Hi! On anon for my safety, but I saw the ISSTD tweeted smth on the etiology of DID and I wanted to know your thoughts on it? Mostly for processing’s sake as well, as I can struggle with understanding studies now and then

The link to the paper! http://ow.ly/r40x30mZF79

The paper is Revisiting the etiological aspects of dissociative identity disorder: a biopsychosocial perspective. A very good one that I recommend to anyone interested in the causation of DID! I don't think I can do it justice if I tried to summarize the entire thing, so I'll just write down some bullet points of things I found interesting:

What is DID?: 

DID is a complex, posttraumatic, developmental disorder that is caused by trauma in childhood (usually very early childhood).

What causes DID?:

DID arises when a child’s ability to develop an ordinary sense of self in relation to others is impeded by unintegrated trauma.

Emotional neglect by parents and/or siblings is the strongest predictor of DID (and any other dissociative disorder).

More covert trauma such as dysfunctional communication in families or subtle emotional neglect can lead to milder presentations DID.

DID VS PTSD:

Switching between alters is considered to be a more elaborated version of PTSD intrusions & avoidance.

People with PTSD & DID generally experience the same amount of feeling shame, betrayal, self-blame, anger and fear.

People with DID tend to experience more feelings of alienation, loneliness, and disconnection than people with PTSD.

DID VS normal experiences:

The human mind is naturally made up of multiple interconnected “modes” that make up their whole self.

Trauma & dissociation causes modes to become decoupled and start existing in smaller, isolated pockets.

In DID, the modes have become so disconnected that individual modes start functioning as if they, independently from each other, are the whole self.

In a non-DID brain, new modes are always being created and old modes are always being updated.

In DID, this process is impaired. New modes are created in a disjointed way, and old modes don't get updated correctly if at all.

#mod robo #actuallydid #actuallydissociative #actuallytraumagenic #did #osdd #dissociative identity disorder

[lemon-tea-leaves]

If you're gonna go around talking about how invalid self-diagnosis is and how you should ALWAYS just go to a doctor because they're the experts, consider doing the following instead:

Reminding yourself that no doctor is infallible, and unfortunately there are shitty and VERY misinformed doctors out there

Advocate for the spreading of accurate information about the neurodivergence or illness or disorder or etc.

In that same vein, dispel myths and misconceptions about said Brain And Body Things™

Advocate for easier access to evaluation and diagnosis

Support people who have been medically gaslit in the past and just want to know what's going on with themselves

Support people who have had their life affected by their symptoms (despite not knowing what was causing them) and just want to know what's going on with themselves

Support people who just Feel something Wrong and just want to know what's going on with themselves

Just fucking support people and stop tearing others down because you're white knighting

There are people intentionally making a mockery of things like DID or being autistic, among other things. And there are people who mis-self-diagnose (usually due to research that isn't deep enough) and are fed misinformation which leads to them misrepresenting the disorder.

But there are also people who have the symptoms, looked into the symptoms, found something that matched the symptoms, and maybe FINALLY felt they had an answer when they couldn't find one because they didn't have the means or whatever the reason.

And you're telling them that they're making a mockery of a disorder because they wanted to find a reason. And it's because you associate them with the people on TikTok that you roll your eyes at. And it's fucking annoying.

TL;DR:

Maybe instead of being a dick about self-diagnosis, you could help set a path towards making it so people don't have to in the fucking first place.

(Also, as for my opinion on self-dx, self-dx with a good amount of research from verified accurate sources = A-OK. I'm saying this as a professionally diagnosed person who has had to self-dx in the past. I've been wrong about some things and right about others, and professionals have been right about some and wrong about others. But it helped to set me down the right path. I wouldn't be where I am if I hadn't.)

#day.docx #actuallydid #actually did #actuallydissociative #actually dissociative #actually autistic #actually autism #actually adhd #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #autism #autism spectrum disorder #adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #i am so. fucking. tired of this shit. #i am incredibly privileged to have been able to get help #ESPECIALLY being black and AFAB #and having cfs—a disorder which doctors often don't understand—makes me particularly passionate about it #bc a lot of doctors do “well you seem fine. you're just tired? have you tried more physical activity?” (lmfao) #either do something about it‚ however small it may be‚ or just fucking stop #it's getting old #it's BEEN old

[system404singletnotfound]

What I thought a system journal would be like: communication, talking about important matters, and learning about each other

What I got: someone wrote down the phrase “vampire cowboy” over and over again

#did #system #osdd #dissociative identity disorder #did system #dissociative system #meme #memes #mental illness #did meme #dissociative alters #actuallydissociative

[switchcase]

There will always be people who have it worse than you. There is not a point in time where you are going to look at your experiences and think it is the worst anyone's ever gone through.

If you are stuck in the mindset that disability and trauma spaces are competitions and people who have it worse than you are your competitors, you have Got to take a break from said spaces until you figure out how to stop comparing. It's not fair to people to have you project your insecurities onto them just for existing, and it isn't healthy For You to be in that mindset or to have social circles that encourage you to think like this. If you are actively saying that you feel pressured to be more disabled or more traumatized, you NEED to stop and get out of those spaces. It's not about belonging or not belonging in those spaces: Staying will affect you badly, and will affect the people you're around badly.

#cripple punk #cripplepunk #dissociative identity disorder #actuallydissociative #.log #I've seen multiple posts talking about this to an extent and it's just. You can Leave!

[webkinzpossum]

#opossumcore #opossum memes #possum memes #possumcore #recovery #recovery memes #healing #complex ptsd #cptsd #actuallydissociative #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallytraumatized #ed recovery #ed recovery memes

[what-if-i-dee-eye-do]

#who's fronting? #for later me #other #posting this to my main as well just thought I'd mention #osdd meme #did meme #actuallydissociated #actuallydissociative #dissociation meme

[unstablemotions]

I want every mental health professional that has treated me through out my life to get into a roman amphitheatre with a weapon of their choosing and the winner will decide what disorders I have

#actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #actuallynd #actuallytraumatised #actuallybipolar #actuallydepressed #actuallyplural #actuallymultiple #nd memes #actuallyadhd #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallypdid #actuallyosdd #actuallymanic #my posts #personal

[chemicalcarousel]

#edited in ms paint bc im too lazy to open a real editing program hhdhkhd #actuallydissociative #actuallydissociating #actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallypdid #actuallyosddid #did memes #osdd memes #dissociation memes #depersonalization #dissociation #actually dissociative #actually dissociating #actually did #actually osdd #actually pdid #actuallytraumatized #trauma memes #ironically enough i think im lowkey dissociating rn :skull: #ours #idk who's here #i think it's sof #yo its sof

[councilsys]

fav blogger turns out to be endo positive, 372718 injured & 3616 dead

#anti endo #endos dni #did osdd #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually did #polyfrag did #actually traumagenic #actuallydissociative

[subsystems]

Infographics from Beauty After Bruises's article on complex post traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Please read the full article here!

#dissociative identity disorder #complex post traumatic stress disorder #cptsd #ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #actuallydid #actuallytraumatized #actuallyptsd #actuallydissociative #actuallytraumagenic #mental health #mental health awareness #DID awareness #trauma #complex trauma #dissociation #beauty after bruises #sunflower posts