#and I’m like yes exactly

[duckyfann9871]

The asexual x allo dating dynamic is so wack because you guys will have sex like once a month and they’ll be really needy for you but you’re like “?? We literally JUST had sex!” And they’ll be like “no we didn’t, it’s been like 2 weeks” and you have to remember how some people literally do this like every other day HOW

#lol but Fr tho #like my partner will be like pleaseeeee duckyfan let’s make love #and I’m like #but we literally just did that #and they’re like no it’s been three ENTIRE DAYS #and I’m like yes exactly #it’s literally not even been a week #just ace things #like I have to actively remember that some people actually crave this more than once a year unlike me #I wonder how much of this is actually my asexuality and how much of it is the internalized sex repulsion pushed my purity culture #i guess we’ll never know #anyways #Demi #asexual #sex neutral #sex positive #idek #sex neutral asexual #asexual x allo #asexual christian #ik most Christianity is averse to anything queer adjacent #but ​I’m still a Christian #and I happen to be asexual/ Demi. the terms really resonated with me #you know what I mean #? #anyways gonna go watch ER and go to bed before I meet the Dean tmmrw about my grades :’) #sorry for the novel in the tags #if you made it this far #you deserve a lil treat go get one

[bbreaddog]

Practising Goncharov Theme by @caramiaaddio on violin bc I thought it would add an extra layer of haunting…ness (is that a word?)

Here’s the excerpt I’m playing in the video:

Despite it being in a fuck off key for violin it is a really beautiful piece and it’s absolutely worth the trouble of practising in second position (world’s most hated position) and I’m HOPING 🤞 I can record and (maybe) post a full cover of it someday

#goncharov #music #violin #goncharov theme #oh man i have not posted my face in a very very very long time #possibly years #am i freaking out about it? a little #could i have converted this to audio instead? #well. yes but. it’s not exactly awesome quality in this practise room lmao #i so so badly wanna write out all the technical things I’m doing/focusing on here bc GRRR TECHNICAL WORK IS SO INTERESTING TO ME #but i would be typing out a whole essay probably and i don’t think my followers really. care that much about violin tech #lest they also play violin #i have one (1) known mutual who plays violin and that’s IT #apologies for the metronome ticking in the video #it can be very irritating to listen to #alas… it is also important for not speeding up when playing #anyways #hi caramiaaddio you don’t know me but big fan of what you’ve written here #ESPECIALLY THE CHROMATIC BITS OUGHHHH #the little semiquavers that poke their heads through like TWICE are surprisingly hard #but also they sound extra creepy in a good way #BIG fan #wait wait WAIT WAIT #i think this is my first time posting any of my violin playing here like. EVER. #I’ve been here for OVER A DECADE #AND I’M POSTING MY VIOLIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. FOR FUCKING. GONCHAROV. #i don’t have the right emoji for how I’m feeling rn #personal #mine #my face

[poppitron360]

Husk and Angel were born around the same time, but Husk died later so he’s in his 70s when Angel is in his 30s.

#hazbin hotel #vivziepop #vivzieverse #angel dust hazbin hotel #hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin art #hazbin hotel fanart #Yes I know that I just posted exactly the same thing but I’m doing a experiment. #so the in the other post I noticed that Angel's hand was messed up #so im posting it again to see if it gets any more likes #husk hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #huskerdust #husker #hazbin husk #angel dust x husk #husk #angel dust

[boynextdoorcoverpoison]

myung jaehyun is absolutely, hands down, the best leader for boynextdoor.

I always stand by the leader of groups being the best leaders for their groups, but it’s definitely a role that they have to grow into and improve constantly on. just like any other position in the group. just like any other thing you do.

that said, until the fanmeeting, I didn’t quite have the words to truly express why I feel so strongly about jaehyun’s role as the boynextdoor leader—especially as I think to a lot of non-onedoor, it can seem a bit confusing or not apparent at first. which mostly comes from jaehyun sitting outside the norm for a leader (particularly in hybe bgs) at least in personality.

jaehyun is loud. that’s like… something well known about him. he’s talkative and playful and despite being shy, he’s definitely the kind of person to enter the room knowing no one and leave with at least 5 new friends. his approach to people is one that feels very open and bright.

for this reason, I do think many people might not first associate him with the leader role. with most groups, the most energetic member is probably not the first considered as “oh yeah that’s the leader”. jaehyun is all the playful and energy-filled that usually comes with the member who the leader needs to keep an eye on the most and eventually has a bunch of youtube compilation videos.

that said, these qualities are exactly why I think he makes such a great leader for boynextdoor. as mentioned in the fanmeeting day 2 ending ments, the members of bonedo are the type of people to put up a straight face and keep their struggles to themselves. as woonhak and they have expressed, an example being woonhak putting on a smile and performing, despite dealing with grief. they’re very much the people to not make their problems someone else’s and to maintain a collected image in front of others.

while I also think jaehyun does this, as most people who are leaders may tend to for the sake of their groups, he’s also very very very unapologetically himself. he feels so much. his tendency to cry being a prime example of that, though not the only. the point is that jaehyun is expressive and open and in this, jaehyun contrasts with his members.

as woonhak has stated before, jaehyun has expressed that it’s okay for him to cry, to need to take a break, to sit this one out. jaehyun in general approaches his members with a lot of care. but overall, the stand out is that I believe jaehyun navigates along the lines of… feelings are meant to be felt. he has no qualms with any emotion being felt the way it occurs to us. yes there are ways to handle them, but ultimately, the feeling—whatever it may be—is there to be felt and expressed.

this is also seen in how he interacts with his members. in his very tactile approach to express the love and care he has for the rest of bonedo. the pride he feels for them. whatever words I’m not able to formulate to describe the whole yeppi exchange between him and sungho in the 3rd comeback show special.

it’s also in his loudness and energy. it’s all about expression. he’s so much, but it only feels that way, in my opinion, because he’s overwhelmingly unafraid and unapologetic of being himself, in a way that the industry might otherwise discourage. he’s not against expressing how he feels and while it likely won’t be the most apparent until later in their careers, I do think he’s the type to speak his mind.

all that said, the point is that these qualities do exist in contrast to his members and thus… encourage them to do the same. maybe not to be speeding around all over the place, but rather to allow themselves the space and time to feel as they do. that they don’t have to keep it all inside to avoid making it other peoples problems. they’re a team, if nothing else. and it’s in jaehyun being so so so much himself, being exactly the person he is, not something specially crafted to fit a particular image, he encourages the other members to be the same.

jaehyun helps to curate a safe space within their group by exhibiting that there’s nothing wrong with being the person they are. to feel whatever they feel. to express when things are going good or bad or somewhere in between. to approach things as they come and take them in stride, even if it’s without prior planning. that if a leader is meant to push a group forward and help them grow, then jaehyun steps up to the plate in that art cannot be made without emotion and so to become better artists, to continue being artists, it’s so important to find the safe spaces of being able to express and feel everything as they should be felt.

this is why I think jaehyun has some of the strongest lyricism currently in the group. it’s why I think he was a powerful force coming into KOZ and bonedo, and sort of the missing piece. he feels so much and he allows himself to feel all of it. in turn, as the leader, it’s something he encourages in the members. it’s leading by example. jaehyun builds a safe space for them to express, by being open himself.

but beyond that, jaehyun being unapologetically himself becomes an unstoppable sort of barrier between the group and outside the group. while not as apparent now, I do think it’ll grow into him being a strong adovcate for each of the members and the group as a whole. the group matters to him. his members matter to him. jaehyun’s never going to act as if they don’t, so long as they do. as such, he’ll put them first. he’ll encourage them and their best interest. he provides space and works to create and maintain that space for them to express themselves and be themselves. it’s what makes jaehyun the best leader for bonedo now, and it’s what will allow him to continue to do so.

#boynextdoor #myung jaehyun #not door agenda #from behind the door #about the neighbors #worm leader #disclaimer is that i’m sick and writing this so idk if it’s actually very cohereant #the thoughts were clearer yesterday #but anyways #the point is that in the very way jaehyun contrasts from the group #is the way he leads them the best #and that comes with everything jaehyun is #and how unwaveringly jaehyun is exactly the person he is #that encourages the members to do the same #that he reminds them feelings are there to be felt #bc i think particularly in kpop #leaders don’t necessarily need to be the ones wrangling the group together when they’re running all over the place #they’ve got managers for that LMAO #they’ve got eldest members for that #like yes it often is the leader but that doesn’t need to be the case #in bonedo it’s probably jaehyun who needs to be brought back to topic #but it’s like bonedo doesn’t need to be lead in terms of navigating idol image #they don’t need to be directed on what they can or can’t say or do #they seemingly have enough training to know #it’s moreso being guide towards the opposite… in a sort of… expressing themself way #it’s being able to tap into what makes them different and everything they feel and how they each feel that differently #that will allow them to establish their artistic identity #and i think jaehyun’s a very strong component for them being able to do so

[doomed2repeat]

When people try to insult Colin Bridgerton by saying he’s too nice and he’s a nerd and a loser and that’s literally all the reasons I love him:

#my sick attraction to kind men with big gorgeous eyes lock me up #the bad plant puns really get me going #polin #bridgerton #bridgerton season 3 #luke newton #colin bridgerton #when people say he could never be like his brothers I’m like YES EXACTLY

[jacarandaaaas]

“Isabela and mirabel made up too quickly it didn’t make sense!!”

y’all do not know what it’s like going from screaming “I HATE U” at your sister to laughing about it 10 mins later💀

#encanto #encanto disney #disneys encanto #mirabel madrigal #mirabel encanto #isabela madrigal #disney’s encanto #I’m sorry I always found it so funny how mad people would get #because I just went omg finally REAL sibling representation! #it’s funny because people would be like well that’s not normal that’s weird like calling random strangers toxic because they fight w sibling #SOOO DUMB LMAOOO #anyways sorta hot take people expected d*sney to show Isa and Mira’s relationship like Anna and Elsa’s and were shocked it wasn’t that #so they got mad #like I know so many people who’s relationship is exactly like theirs! #AND THEY DONT ACTUALLT HATE EACHOTHER LMAOO #it’s 2024 I think calling isa and Mira’s relationship toxic over a bit of bickering is silly #yes their relationship is strained but its clear they don’t actually hate eachother! #I might make a post on this at some point because I’m convinced y’all watched a different movi

[ninacarstairss]

there is a tremendous lack of chloe green and shara wheeler content on this app and we should be fixing that

#i’m sorry but why???? #i’m not exactly the best person to raise this argument since i’m reading this only now like fifteen months later #but??? what is this lack of content for them??? #GIVE MY BABIES SOME LOVE #also heron and rory?? summer and georgia??? please i crave people to project this obsession onto #i crave posts i can reblog millions of times #yes you could argue ​i could make the content myself #but 1 i don’t have any artistic or creative talent whatsoever at the moment #and 2 i am too lazy to do stuff #but i need more of my new babies #i kissed shara wheeler #iksw #casey mcquiston #casey mcquiston verse #shara wheeler #chloe green

[betterthanbatman1]

Okay, I don’t know if I’m looking too deep into this but this made me really sad and uncomfortable.

I mean, Jason could say something along the lines of “don’t kill the kid, kill me instead” but he said “I’ll do anything you want, anything”. Him repeating the word ‘anything’ wasn’t a stutter from the fear kicking in (they used ‘-‘ and ‘…’ to portray the stutter/ repetition of words due to strain/exhaustion). But this word was written so clearly as just a repetition to emphasize that he meant anything. What ever it is that he was implying, is very upsetting nonetheless.

Then the way Scarecrow held Jason’s face. That could easily just be a villain trying to make their victim weak, holding them firm, leaning in close-invading their space, and ensuring they feel vulnerable. Yeah okay I get that.

But then Joker walks in and calls Crane a pervert. And sure you can argue that Joker is just throwing names around. But this whole multi interaction caught me off guard and yeah maybe I’m reading too deep into it. Maybe Jason just felt helpless and spewed out words? Idk.

Whatever the situation was, still hurts to read. I don’t know, it just felt so wrong. Even if he wasn’t implying anything, Scarecrow and Joker are still taking advantage of a vulnerable person. Which obviously is awful and disgusting,

#I just want my poor boy to be okay for once #Oh also #People who throw around the term ‘trauma porn’ - Yes I know DC likes to do this sometimes #No I’m not trying to add some SA to Jason’s story. #I’m just telling you what my thoughts were when I read this #If people want to make it into a hc I get that it could add to an interesting story but Only if it’s portrayed accurately and with respect #Which is exactly what dc doesn’t do #I’ll admit that I love angst-I really do. But this was just horrible. #Fuck you batman #Jason wouldn’t be in this situation if it weren’t for you #jason todd #red hood #batfamily #dc #dc comics #scarecrow #jonathan crane #dr crane #joker #tagging as sa just in case #Threat of SA #tw sa implied #sa mention #Red rambles #holy queue batman

[nothinggold13]

“Creator of children’s show reboot reveals why reboot was cancelled—” GOOD

There are few things I hate as much as shows for children being rebooted as shows for adults. “But it’s for the people who grew up with the show and are adults now—” I don’t care. I think things that are good and pure and safe should remain good and pure and safe for the next generation. I think if adult fans cannot appreciate a clean show about their favourite characters from childhood then they can go watch something else that was never meant to be safe for children in the first place. “But it’s more realistic if—” Not for me, and not for the characters as they were originally written. Just admit the characters don’t matter to you as much as capitalizing on nostalgia to make another adult sitcom that’s exactly like every other adult sitcom, and while you’re at it, that you don’t think today’s children should be able to enjoy the same pieces of media that you grew up with. Like, when all that is said, who is this ACTUALLY for?

#not naming names but I think people who know will know; it’s not exactly subtle #this is also the kind of take I think plenty of people are going to get angry about #(or accuse me of being childish/a prude about) #so I’m being vague on purpose and if you disagree kindly just keep scrolling #I’ve already got all the evidence I need that The World does not agree with me 👍🏻 I just wanted to rant #(Yes of course this is influenced by my Christian Values but my goodness some people act like liking clean things is a new kind of evil)

[disco-elysium-sideblog]

Fascinated by how the game rarely distinguishes between what you say you believe and what you actually believe. There’s a degree to which that’s just practical, of course, it’s already a very complex game and adding in some way to signal that you’re only intending for Harry to pretend to hold a certain belief would be extraordinarily difficult. But there’s a degree to which it’s thematically relevant too- you can’t pretend to take on Measurehead’s belief system to get past him. You believe it or you don’t. Characters will ask you constantly about your political opinions and if you only ever answer what you think they want to hear the game will start calling you a centrist or boring or both. You don’t get to pretend to be something you’re not in this game. If you say centrist things, you’re a centrist. If you say boring things, you’re boring

This is partially a side effect of the game trying to make Harry’s beliefs effect what choices are available to you (there really aren’t many ways of tracking what the player is having Harry believe outside of dialogue options) but I think it’s illuminating about Harry as a character too. He wears his heart on his sleeve. He’s not one to hide what he believes, no matter what. He’s the type of guy to ramble about policing being a corrupt institution while very much being a cop and planning to continue being a cop.

He is constantly lying to himself and simultaneously nearly completely incapable of presenting a false version of himself to anyone. It’s neat!

#i’m still bitter about being given an achievement for being boring #disco elysium #de #harrier du bois #harry du bois #i might come back and edit this post later I feel like I didn’t phrase things exactly right #and yes there are times the game gives you options to lie but I don’t feel those contradict my point

[little-lost-canary]

Uhhhh I feel this speaks for itself. Sorry?

#ghost art #ninjago #like I loved this show so much as a kid #then we stopped having cable after like season 3 so I could no longer watch it #there was a hot minute with the movie #idk if this is an unpopular opinion #but I liked the movie #I thought it was really funny #anywho you should know where this is gonna be going by now #I’ve got opinions #& I’m gonna make a damn super complicated AU that rewrites the entire plot for them #yes I know it’s not cannon #I’ve studied that god awful Lego cannon so hard specifically so I would know exactly HOW I was gonna throw it away #anywho this is a part 1? #it’s where I’m starting #there is a backlog of crappy stuff in my poor book that is now going to see the speckled light of day #this is for you @definitelynotyourcousin #you better see this June or I’ll end your puny life

[bluuscreen-png]

bit of an experiment using (a rough design of) janus from an au of mine that i’ve barely touched since like 2019. he’s a witch :]

#tss #sanders sides #janus sanders #thomas sanders #smoking tw #well it’s kinda from the au. he didn’t really have a concrete design originally #but yeah i reread some of my old fics which lead to me rewatching a bunch of sanders sides videos #and i’m also rewriting at least one of the fics because i still rlly like the concept #and that’s the fic this is from #and yes the big hat did come from his skirt photo. i don’t think it’s exactly the same i honestly wasn’t even #directly referencing it #it’s more just the idea of a big hat

[padfootastic]

thinking of toddler harry who’s very, very attached to his godfather sirius (as he should be, really) and gets pissy whenever he goes for work. (yes, sirius is a 9-5er here. suspend all disbelief, folks)

so, to get a handle on the tantrums, sirius dresses harry in his own little formal clothes, robes and over cloak and silver clasp and fake wand holder and all.

‘look, siri, im just like you!’ harry says, every morning like clockwork. once they look absolutely alike, hair combed and tied neatly (little butterfly clips in sirius’ curls, ofc), they set off for the day. sirius conjures a little size-appropriate desk for him that he can sit at, gets him a briefcase and all. when u open it, it has all sorts of colouring materials, beads and strings and charms for DIY, and a little notepad with a pen for Serious Stuff.

throughout the day, sirius gets his work done while harry carefully does his own stuff. whenever he gets too fidgety, sirius sends him out on a ‘mission’—going out and evaluating how the rest of the employees are doing their work. harry, of course, takes his task super seriously and tries to emulate sirius’ Grown Up Face very diligently, walking with his hands behind his back and an adorable little frown on his face. of course, he’s so short he can’t actually see what anyone’s doing but everyone’s accommodating enough that he has enough information to relay it back to sirius in his office.

at the end of the day, both of them take their cloaks off the hanger, simultaneously sling it over their shoulders, and wave a goodbye to the remaining members in the office. when they get home, harry is still meticulously copying sirius’ actions so he neatly sets his shoes to the side, hangs his cloak on the rack, and falls face first into the sofa with an exhausted sigh of relief.

‘being a adult is hard, padfoot,’ is the last thing he says before drifting off to sleep.

#harry potter #sirius black #good godfather sirius black #i know i haven’t interacted w this side of the fandom in a hot sec #but man i haven’t had an original thought in weeks lol #hoping to slowly work up to writing fic again #i can’t decide if this is a jily lives au w third parent sirius or a canon divergent au where sirius raises harry hmmm #both work really #and ykno i’m always a sucker for more james #but yah. this one’s just our fav boys spending some quality time together #i’m just imagining harry dressed up exactly like sirius #and sirius going to his super professional job with kids hair accessories and glitter on his kids #his eye lids* smh #also yes harry is an unnaturally well behaved child here but that’s the beauty of fiction 🥰 #sirius’ job is not specified for a reason #being that i couldn’t decide what it was lol #i was thinking lawyer? but yeah it’s irrelevant #also didnf know how to end this. guess we’re back on our bullshit 🥰 #pen’s notes

[why-the-heck-not]

>:(((( I have a phonecall today that I have to answer, and ofc some other random phone call came in and I answered bc thought it was that. >:((( it wasn’t and now today’s total is going to be 2 phone calls. this is my nightmare

#it was some customer review thing idk #I can’t hear ppl to well on the phone idk why #asked my email & address and like I’m not giving those on the phone to some random bc like idk if that actually was legit #so I had a real awkward tinfoil-hat question of ’’so… what’s this for exactly?’’ and ugh #but he didn’t ask those again and if he would have I think I would’ve just hung up the phone #I did google that phonenumber now and it was a legit one and so I’m hella embarrassed now :D super!! #I’ve become way too wary of phonecalls bc like 90% of them are scam attempts #so I avoid saying my name or too clear yes/no and it’s like a fucking mindgame answering phonecalls #february 2024 #2024

[whitmore]

really actually kind of enjoy how the big lore moments are sort of quiet on a singular stream (or a small group!) instead of the events solely being the lore; i think there would be this hesitation to develop anything solo if the server reinforced this idea that Big Lore could only happen during scheduled events and days. instead the more narrative-progressing moments (take the baghera hybrid experiments revelation or the philza birdnapping for recent example) are very low-key and almost unhyped up— there’s no expectation for that kind of lore necessarily at the time which makes it more rewarding to experience as a viewer. big fan of how they do the events as player bonding time rather than serious narrative progression because it allows all the players (especially the ones who don’t engage in the rp side that much) to participate and get to know each another more; it’s very neat it’s really smart it’s nicely executed

#eleanor.txt #qsmp #tag expansion time get ready for the nuance #do i think that the events could be executed better in terms of like. coding / design. yes on occasion #i’ve seen some frustration that some players don’t take the events seriously enough and that it’s frustrating as a viewer #which i understand and empathize with i think there’s definitely A solution somewhere but i’m not sure exactly what it is tbh #i try not to criticize what i cannot personally solve i think they’re doing their best with what they’ve got #i also do believe that like the Expectation for Big Lore almost always backfires #it’s something u cannot win i think . the expectation will always in some way let you down #(especially re: character involvement seriousness of the stream amount progressed narratively contribution to general plot etc etc #there’s so many variables when you expect ‘lore’ and what that means to people) #i think there’s always some disappointed group when Big Lore starts to be hyped up & teased #whereas i see a lot less general complaints when it’s an unexpected moment (other than people upset they missed it— #arguably unavoidable whether you advertise the stream as lore focused or not) #there’s still Lore during the events things still occur information is still exchanged #but it’s not structured on lore. lore isn’t the foundation for the event it just occurs by implication #anyway. very good job qsmp impressive stuff very enjoyable

[neriumdelusion]

People need to stop acting like Charles is in any way misguided or naive for getting with Kevin. He knew EXACTLY what Kevin stood for. He saw Kevin giving a speech about how important it is that everyone dig a hole. Charles went oh that’s very attractive. Charles is not stupid and he knows exactly what kinda guy Kevin is. And he finds it hot. And he’s right.

#wtnv #wtdb #kevin desert bluffs #charles the theologist #I’m sick of like ‘oh poor Charles doesn’t know what he’s getting into’ yes the fuck he does #he may not know about strex but he knows exactly what he’s getting into #frequencies #dbgirlmoments