#and explains a bit more my recent activity (and even some from the past)
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do you have any directors commentary on the recent two updates? 👉👈 the color palette is absolutely lovely! and and and WOLF!! :DD
OH BOY DO I
In the original draft of this chapter, Wolf stays a, uh, wolf until like the 4th update. Instead of actually managing to get his teeth on the master sword, Loft threw him off immediately. The Deku Tree still said the line about all three of them being heroes and Slate is like. “Including the fucking dog????!” I thought it was very funny but a) it made some scenes later down the line a huge pain and b) I was tired of drawing wolves ALDKDKD
You may have noticed Wolf’s scowling in the bg of almost every panel. That’s kind of just his face, but also right now my guy is nursing the world’s biggest migraine from popping the shadow crystal out of his skull. He can stay wolfmode for a while, but it’s still technically a curse. It’s not consequence free, and there’s an upper limit for how long he can spend in that form. Anyway, cut him some slack if he’s a little prickly for a bit.
There were a lot of comments about Loft being strong enough to toss a wolf over his head lol. My hc is that he’s one of, if not the strongest Link sans any magic items like power bracelets or gauntlets. He’s actually not even as strong now as he was during his quest. Wolf maybe has him beat now, but he can still get tossed lolol
It might seem like Slate’s really taken everything that happened at the end of ch1 in stride, but don’t worry. He’s simmering. Loft is grateful for the opportunity to get distracted by something else. Maybe that’s why he was so willing to approach the wild animal he’s never seen before lol
This maybe goes without saying based on the events of the last two updates, but Slate never had wolf link with him during the events of botw. He doesn’t recognize Wolf.
I’m really glad ppl seem to be liking the colors bc I struggled with them so hard on both updates 🫠literally days of me turning to my roommate and going “I think I’ve never made anything worse” and them going “it looks good stop being dramatic” WKDJDK I have this thing where if I had an idea in my head for what an update should look like, and what I produce doesn’t meet it somehow, I start seeing in fucking. shrimp colors. Posting always gives me a confidence boost back lol.
these pages were cursed in general bc like. this doesn’t usually happen but I think I redrew every panel in this update at least 5 times each. that’s part of why it ended up being late SKDJF
I REALLY like the idea of being in the presence of the Triforce and having access to its power being this eldritch, divinely horrifying experience. The sort of thing that is impossible to explain to anyone and also haunts you forever. Loft spends a lot of time actively trying not to think about the Triforce. Just, like, remember that about him.
Like how tears in reality are shown through holes in the literal comic panels, I tried to show the concept of reality bending in the form of a panel stretching and twisting like a ribbon ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ I hope that came across. Triforce lore varies a bit from game to game, but I’ve come up with my own internal logic for bonus links that combines all the ideas I like lolol. We’ll learn more about it in due time!
I also really like this parallel :D I intentionally set up the panels so past and present loft would line up like this. i love getting to draw flashback links it’s so fun to think of ways to convey what they used to be like, and how their quests might have gone for them. Past Loft’s not having a great time by the time he reaches this point lol
I think that’s all I’ve got for now. Thanks for asking :D
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You are an exorcist that specializes in exorcising demons.
Currently, you are investigating a small town that's had an unusual amount demonic activity.
You questioned the towns people, however, most seem unwilling to even mention the stranger going ons in their town and simply avoid your questions before quickly walking away.
Lucky for you though, you manage to overhear a few of the towns folk gossiping with each other.
Apparently, for the last few months, a terrifying creature has been roaming the streets seemingly search for something. What it is looking for no one wants to know...
Even more terrifying was that anyone foolish enough to still be out at night would go missing. Only to be found the next morning unconscious with their clothes in tatters.
You then visit the local church to see if the priest if he knows anything.
The priest is surprisingly welcoming of you. Quickly leading you inside and even offering some refreshments.
You explain why your here and ask if priest may know of anything. But the priest sadly shakes his head.
With a sigh, you get up to leave, but are quickly stopped by the priest. He says that it is too dangerous to go out this late and that you should stay in the church with him at least until sunrise.
Deciding it's probably a good idea, you agree.
That night as you sleep in the bed given to you, the priest silently creeps into the room. He stares down with glowing red eyes at your sleeping form.
He so desperately wanted to crawl on top of you and rip that teasingly thin layer of clothing from your oh so tempting body and fuck you until your moans like a bitch in heat.
But ah, he can't. Not yet at least. It simply wasn't the right moment.
It ironic really, before he would have condemn such lecherous thoughts. Back then he was a devout servant of God. A truly holy man.
But that was before he got possessed by the demon. Before his mind and soul were beyond redemption.
Now he was nothing more than a monster that indulges into his own sin.
For the past few months his demon had been searching for a mate, but has had no luck.
None of the humans he found were right. Sure they were decent fucks, but they broke way too easily and left him unsatisfied.
Then you appeared.
The moment he saw you, he knew you were perfect. A single whiff of your scent was enough to have the demon in him purring.
Oh he couldn't wait to see you round with his offspring! All in good time, love~
Kissing you on the mouth anon this is so good-
Of course, in the morning the priest would offer up the bed for as long as I needed to rid the town of its demonic influence. And of course I'd suspect nothing from a holy man. The next few days would go on much the same, getting nowhere with the locals during the day and sleeping in the church at night. The priest taking every opportunity to leer at me while I sleep, weakening my defense slowly with his unholy magic. At least The townsfolk seemed to ease up a bit with the lack of recent attacks.
It was only when I'd finally gotten frustrated with getting nowhere and decided to go out at night myself that I'd catch a glimpse of anything demonic. A huge hulking beast unlike anything I'd seen in all my years as an exorcist with a goats head and huge bat wings. The most I'd ever dealt with was a tiny imp. So I panicked.
All I could think to do in the moment was run for the church, the beast lazily keeping pace. It was clear as it followed me onto the holy ground that there was nothing I could possibly do. The sudden hint of arousal mixed into the fear the beast could smell of me finally became too much to bear- lunging forwards and easily catching me in its claws.
"I've waited so long for this" a rumbling deep yet somehow familiar voice purrs in my ear as long claws shred my clothes like butter. My attempts to flee were quickly stopped by an ungodly long tongue licking down my neck and a sudden weight on my stomach.
Risking a glance I felt faint. The demons cock was so huge there was no possible way it could fit inside me. Though he seemed intent on trying, pulling back and lining up with my cunt.
Without warning half the huge rod slammed inside of me, the stretch unimaginable. He wasted no time in pulling out and jackhammering back in, each thrust forcing more and more of his demonic cock in me. It was only then that I dimly became away of the familiarity in the demons voice; the priest. He moaned how I would be such a good broodmare, taking his corruption so well.
All night he fucked me, never once slowing down. Pumping me full of his demonic seed over and over again until sun rise. Leaving me with my stomach huge and swollen with cum, no doubt already knocked up, to go get ready for Sunday mass.
Nine months later I'm showing a group of church woman my engagement ring, stomach round and tight with twins. How lucky I was, the ladies cooed, that the priest was willing to marry me pregnant with an exes child. Not many men would, but he was just so good and holy.
If only they knew they knew they were praying with the father of the hellspawn kicking in my stomach
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Another thought just popped in how about some possible more interaction with old Predacon buddy and the other cloned predacons maybe just predacon buddy just trying to make sure the other predacons don't get into trouble and basically grounding them
More Old Predacon Buddy coming up! Quite the popular Buddy I see.
Hope you enjoy!
Bot Buddy the Old Predacon with Predaking, Skylynx, and Darksteel
SFW, Platonic, Cybertronain reader
TFP
Buddy needed to take a break.
They had been couped to the base for the last 3 months and hadn’t been able to fly due to the amount of work that needed to get done on base.
The recent Decepticon activity, everyone was on edge.
And Buddy’s patience was running low.
It was bad enough they had to deal with the constant bickering between their teammates over stress, but now they couldn’t even go out without someone telling them otherwise.
Well… Buddy needs their little flight break.
Right.
Now.
“I’m heading out.”--Buddy
Ratchet looks at them.
“What do you mean out?”--Ratchet
“I’m going flying Ratchet.”--Buddy
Ultra Magnus stands in front of them.
“We are to stay in the base until its time to deploy. You especially given your alt mode.”--Magnus
Buddy straightens their back struts and looks at him dead in the optics.
“I am going to go flying Magnus, or are you going to try and stop me? Because believe me, I need an outlet for everything that is being pent up in my chassis. Do you want to be that outlet?”--Buddy
“Let the go Magnus.”--Ratchet
“Ratchet—”--Magnus
Buddy moves past him and runs to the entrance of the base and shoots for the sky.
Magnus just looks annoyed at Buddy’s form.
“Trust me Magnus. You do not want to have Buddy get like that when they are already looking for peaceful solution.”—Ratchet
Magnus grumbles a bit, but silently agrees with Ratchet as he walks back to his habsuite.
Buddy knew better than to go flying to densely populated airspace and areas.
But they did know a place that hardly anyone went to.
To their surprise, someone was there.
Well, more like several bots were there.
It was Predaking and… two other Predacons?
Buddy immediately shot down and surprised Predaking when they landed next to him.
“Predaking.”--Buddy
Buddy walks over to their fellow Predacon.
Predaking nods curtly.
“Buddy.”--Predaking
Skylynx and Darksteel are still tussling around.
“Who are they? I didn’t know there were others like us.”--Buddy
“Shockwave.”--Predaking
“Ah… that explains it.”--Buddy
Buddy tries to introduce themselves but the two are suddenly interested in fighting them.
Predaking is about to lash out at them, but Buddy makes him stand down and dares them to attack them all at once.
Predaking is a bit stunned by the dare but knows full well that Buddy could handle themselves.
“Now boys, on the count of three, I want you to attack me in any way you see fit.”--Budy
“Buddy…”--Predaking
“Its fine Predaking.”--Buddy
“You want us to attack you?”—Darksteel
Buddy stretches out their wings.
“Yes.”--Buddy
“Deal old timer.”—Skylynx
Buddy gets in the ready stance and nods at Predaking to start the count.
“3…”--Predaking
The two Predacons get ready to pounce.
“2…”--Predaking
All their limbs are ready.
“1.”--Predaking
The two Predacons leap at Buddy.
They don’t last 3 minutes.
Buddy standing over them.
“Now, what do you have to say about this old timer?”--Buddy
The two Predacons beneath Buddy are in awe by how this clearly older Predacon managed to handle two younger Predacons at the same time.
They try to edge Predaking to fight Buddy.
Buddy playfully edges him too.
But Predaking already learned his lesson from last time.
The four of them fall into a comfortable conversation before Buddy needs to head back home.
Buddy says goodbye to the others and flies back home.
Buddy lands outside the base entrance panting a bit.
“Buddy!”—The kids
Buddy looks up to see the kids running up to them.
“Why hello to you too.”--Buddy
“You just got back?”--Miko
“Yes…”--Buddy
Buddy takes a sharp intake feeling the dent on their side.
Jack is the first to notice.
“Woah… Buddy are you okay?”--Jack
“I am fine Jack.”--Buddy
“That doesn’t look fine to me.”--jack
“I’m an old bot Jack, I’m bound to get some dents that take longer to heal than others.”--Buddy
“Yeah, but that one looks like someone rammed their head into your side.”--Miko
“…Anyways—”--Buddy
“Don’t change the subject!”--Raf
“…What if I told you tomorrow instead? I’m about ready to drop into stasis.”--Buddy
The kids look a bit unsatisfied but let Buddy go on their way.
They will get the answers one way or another.
#transformers x reader#maccadam#bot buddy#tfp#tfp x reader#tfp x platonic reader#tfp predaking#tfp predaking x platonic reader
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omg i loved your hamzah fic! every time a hamzah fic shows up on the tl jesus sheds a tear!!
feel like it’s so awkward to request but would love for u to write about dating hamzah on the dl & being a guest on the patreon pod
giving relationship advice to some sad slushys while being all sweet n giddy with each other……
STAWWWPP I LOVE THISSSS I GOT U!!!
✶ sweet nothing — hamzahthefantastic x reader
WARNINGS: tooth-rotting fluff, i used the name junia for the slushy that msgd and reader has a dog named loki
A/N: i'm not subscribed to the patreon and i don't entirely know what goes on there BUT i just know hamzah's alone for that???? even in a fictional universe, hamzah still can't read too BAHAHAHA also sorry if this took so long, i had this in the drafts for a while but just finished it now!
the whole day, you’ve been overthinking about being on your boyfriend’s podcast.
you’ve been on out of character before but martin would also be there with you and hamzah.
so here you were, zoned out while your boyfriend explained everything you're gonna do for this episode.
"okay, so... are you ready?" he finally finished talking, now looking at you and then seeing the state you were in. his eyes soften and he walks toward you.
"what's wrong?" he held your hands in his as he tried getting your attention. you look up and give him a smile.
"just a bit nervous," you force a chuckle then he pulls you in to kiss your forehead. "you think they'll notice we're.. y'know." you tilt your head, placing a hand on his chest before wrapping your arms around his neck.
he shrugs in response, hands now on your hips, caressing the exposed skin from your top. "i don't know honestly but i don't think it'll be a big deal for them cause i love you."
you giggle before pulling him in for a kiss.
"okay let's start then!"
the podcast went on like it usually did, you and hamzah spoke about everything and anything you could think of — from the recent movies you've watched to activities you guys have been doing.
the next part of the podcast's segment was introduced by hamzah, he pulls out his phone and looks at his instagram messages.
"okay so this is the first one, i'll read it first and tell me what you think."
you nod at him to start the he starts to read.
"hi hamzah, i'm f-17 and i finish high school very soon. for the past year, i've realized that i lick—oh sorry it's like my best friend who's m-18 and he's had girls chasing him for a while now and he was entertaining them but ended up not having anything with any of the girls. but recently he's been hinting at liking me and flirting with me playfully i guess i don't know if i should let him know i like him, help me please."
you look at him to see if he was finished then he puts his phone down, now turning to look at you. “okay so you like your best friend that sounds familiar,” hamzah gives a teasing look to you with a smirk on his face.
you roll your eyes playfully, inching closer to him on the sofa until your knees are close to each other.
“i can relate to this, i was clueless too if he was flirting with me or not,” you glance between hamzah and the camera as you speak, holding the mic a bit closer. “but in the end it still worked out and he’s… well my boyfriend now!” you both chuckle and you feel yourself blush, hiding your face with the mic.
hamzah places a hand on your thigh which thankfully wasn’t caught in the frame. “oh my god okay, since you’re sooo happy talking about him, continue the story and give our girl… uh… wait what’s her name—oh there it is! junia!”
you get closer to hamzah, now shoulder to shoulder, and interlocking your hands with each other.
“okay so before i dated my boyfriend, he really wasn’t entirely my bestest best friend but more like a close best friend? he had a special place in my heart–”
“oh really what kinda special place?” he nudges you which you ignore.
“and even before i realized i liked him, it was like i’m always wanting to be around him or talk to him a lot.” your gaze was entirely on him as you said this, completely forgetting about the camera recording and a smile started to grow on hamzah’s face, looking down at his lap to try and hide it.
“i’ve known my boyfriend almost 5 or 6 years before we started dating and it really took me a while to realize i was in love with him.” you were already smiling at him, rubbing circles on the back of his hand.
his head shots up and looks at you, eyes a bit wide.
“wait you were in love already?”
you bite your lip to try and stop yourself from smiling bigger. “yeah, dude, i’ve told you this before!” you let go of his hand, the smile still prominent on your face as you punch his arm playfully.
“okay loser, just continue,”
you roll your eyes and scoff jokingly. “but in all honesty, i know i barely talk and post about my boyfriend but he knows i love him soooo much,” you look up at hamzah who was trying to hide his smile by biting the insides of his cheeks.
you lean closer to him before continuing. “so junia! if you really think you both like each other then go for it! you never know what could happen.” you said and it was like you had hearts as your eyes as you looked at hamzah.
he indistinctively puts an arm over your shoulder as the podcast continues, reading more of the messages and giving the viewers advice.
“oh hamzah! i think this one you can help with,” as you were about to show hamzah the message, your dog, comes out of the room and tries pulling you away from hamzah.
“jesus christ, loki, stop stealing my girlfriend.” he muttered but was still heard on the microphone.
you leave the couch for a while and place your dog in the room.
“okay so here’s the message.” you hand him the phone and he reads it.
“hi hamzah, i don’t know if you’re taken or single cause honestly you’ve been sending us mixed signals at the moment but if you are taken, can you help me flirt. i start college soon and i still don’t know how to talk and flirt with girls—okay i see what you’re trying to say here y/n what the hell.” he glares at you as he finally finishes reading and you stick your tongue out at him which he just smiles at.
"just a tip to everyone who's watching, never ask hamzah how to flirt cause this boy can't flirt to save his life!" you laugh as you said the joke, hamzah putting the phone down and covering your mouth to stop you from saying anything else.
the recording went on for a few more minutes, you ended the episode on a positive note since all you did was tease and make fun of each other.
"i don't think i'll ever be invited back here again after that, so bye you guys!" you blow a kiss to the camera before standing up and stopping the recording.
✶ taglist — @cdbabymp3 @noturbabe22 @dabuggh3 @kingvioleta @tumb1rgir1z LMK IF U WANNA BE ADDEDDD!!!
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chapter 145 thoughts!
what even was this chapter, y'all. i'm getting a migraine.
While it certainly wasn't actively bad, it basically hits on enough of the issues I've been having with the Movie Arc that if you've been reading my chapter reviews lately, you could probably write this one yourself. Weird pacing, skipping over interesting parts of the movie, continued framing of AQRB as a shallow gag and failing to follow on any of the implied development from or literally any referenced fallout of the kiss in 143? It's all here, babes. It would ultimately just be boring and redundant for me to go over all that at length again, so I won't.
I will however say that I'm pretty disappointed we're blasting through what had the potential to be some really interesting bits of postmortem characterization for Ai, even filtered through 15YL. I don't mind the manga breezing past scenes we saw firsthand but like… how did Ai react when she realized she was pregnant? How did she feel, especially given that Spica once again emphasized her longing for a family of her own? IDK. The way the story is suddenly jolting forwards in these last few chapters and skipping such huge chunks of Ai's life ultimately feels very strange and I don't know what to make of it yet.
Everyone reacting to Crow Girl's acting was pretty funny though I'm kind of exhausted with Ruby's Gaga-For-Oniichansensei Gag Character flanderization. IDK if my tolerance for it is just decreasing or if it really is amping up, but at least in the 125-137 stretch I at least got the sense that they could be in the same room and have a normal conversation but ever since 139, it feels that bit more relentless. I imagine this would be less irritating if we knew how the aftermath of 143 had played out but it really seems like the manga is going to drag this out until we're all old and grey.
THAT SAID, this chapter does confirm that Aqua's hoshigan stayed white after that chapter and… eh. Who even knows what that means lol. It does at least imply that his talk with Ruby has brought him back to Baseline Aqua but Baseline Aqua is still a guy with every single mental illness on planet earth so I don't know if that's the world's biggest W quite yet. It certainly implies an improvement over double black hoshigan but… again, with Aqua being so totally cut off from the readers this whole arc and no idea of what happened in the aftermath of 143, it's impossible to make a meaningful guess as to wtf is going on with Aqua right now.
Oh yeah, uh. This chapter also I guess constitutes the reveal of how the AQRB reincarnation happened. I guess LMAO. Honestly, I don't have much to say about it other than it feels like a bit of an anticlimax for me? The idea works fine, the execution just left me… idk. Whelmed at best, underwhelmed at most. I feel like this backstory and the implied deep fondness for GRSR -> AQRB it implies doesn't really like up with the personality she displays in the Private arc but like, I kind of feel like she was tossed into the story without Akasaka having a clear idea as to what her role was even going to turn into so maybe that's not a surprise LOL
I will say I'm glad this seems to quash the theory that Aqua and Ruby were secretly capital-G Gods, instead framing it as a Tsuru no Ongaeshi type return of kindness to two otherwise mundane people. There was some fun fan theorizing around the idea, but for me personally, Oshi no Ko is most interesting when it focuses on that aspect of the story Akasaka highlighted in an interview recently, of human relationships being warped by the entertainment industry and I think an explosion of the emotional stakes to the cosmic scale of AQRB (or tbh any of the characters) being Secretly Gods All Along would be a bit of a shark jump for me and would really shift away from what I like about the series most.
That's kind of it for this one…! Not really a lot to say about this chapter, which is why most of this review was me explaining why I didn't have a lot to say about it.
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Pokémon Imagine: What if both you and Arven were traumatized, and in a relationship?
TW: mentions of trauma
As someone who is still processing trauma of my own, I think about this sometimes because poor Arven has had so much trauma in his life. What would handling trauma look like for the two of you?
Gn headcanons because I need to branch out more:
Depending on what that Trauma entails, you both handle it differently at first
Between the two of you you were lucky enough to have a therapist/supportive figure to walk you through some of it
Arven was not as lucky, so between the two of you, you are more likely to have coping strategies
You begin to pick up after Area Zero that he shuts himself away from the world when faced with relapses in trauma
You worry naturally, as one does, and visit him in the lighthouse
You find him a mess, and he’s to embarrassed to speak full sentences
He’s also crushed from the recent events, the poor boy
But that doesn’t matter to you, you love him so much
You help him clean up, wiping tears gently and very gently coaxing him towards self care tasks
You spend at least half the day in silence with him, other than some basic communications on where some spices are/where the soap is, etc. so the two of you can spend a day together just eating good food, cuddling, etc.
If you have coping strategies, you’ve offered them to him at the end of that day
Even when those don’t work, you can hold each other close if either of you has a response to trauma
Holding him is a comforting sign to him that you’re not going anywhere
Saying that also works too, but just being able to feel the comfort in your warmth is nice.
Words of assurance work well for him: he needs to hear that he’s valued and wanted
Occasionally Arven will find himself lost in the few memories of his parents
Just holding him and reminding him that he’s a good person helps him calm down
Reminders that it was not his fault what his parents did are very important: you know as well as anyone else who knows of his story, but sometimes he needs to hear it from someone who has actively been there for him (I.e. you)
Now when you have your first breakdown or trauma response, the poor thing panics internally
He follows your example in holding you gently
He will make you food, and at first he’s not sure why you are reluctant to eat until you explain to him how it affects your appetite
Next time he’ll wait a little bit before making your favorite food. He just wants you to feel loved and cared for
He learns to be very patient, listening to you when you talk about what’s hurting you
Will absolutely respect if you don’t want to talk about it, and will offer snuggles/a nap/ his Mabosstiff, or to go find a spot in Paldea to gaze at together
Validates your emotions 100%, even if he hasn’t experienced it himself
Snuggles/cuddles galore
If your trauma involves a past relationship, you best believe he’s going to be 100% more protective with you
He’d even fight the person in a Pokémon battle who hurt you if he found them: who dare hurt one of his best friends and partner?
“I love you so much, and you’re not a burden” is something you will hear often if you break down
Even if he’s not sure what to do, you will always see the gentlest care in his actions
He may even carry you to your bed so you can rest (all you need is to ask)
Gentle forehead kisses, and having a soft cloth to wipe your tears is a must for him
He just wants you to feel better; he loves you so much
He’s a sweetheart at the bottom of his core; will learn to do as much as he can to help you, even if it takes some time
Hope you all enjoyed!!!
#pokemon arven x reader#arven x reader#arven fanfic#arven pokemon#pokémon x reader#arven x oc#arven x male reader#arven x female reader#arven x gn reader
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fandom stories that have been on my mind recently…. 📑
as what the title says, cpn things that have been living in my head rent-free for the past days/ weeks. i just need a place to write them down and let them shine on their own ✨
same disclaimer applies. for cpn-loving turtles only. please don’t ask me to elaborate cause as i said, i have very minimal information on hand.
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• The one thing that inspired me to make this post, a bit about WYB’s side account. It’s not a secret that he has one, probably even multiples but for some reason this one got leaked. especially back in 2019 when his phone number got leaked and some people allegedly verified that this same number was used to register the account. they noticed it followed a couple of motorcycle related accounts, bobo’s true love at the time lol and well the most juicy thing here is that he was visiting the bjyx supertopic.
Then by the end of 2019, it gained followers. WYB might have noticed that he was somehow discovered so the account cleared all it’s watch list and never moved again. Everything is gone. That freakin moon profile picture does not help at all cause we all know his fondness for it and how it’s one of the fandom’s symbolism. The way it was created on 3/14 is also very sus.
We have all CPN’d that he visited the ST and why not tbh. Even if you don’t believe in BJYX, i think you can say that he has visited it and at the very least knows of it’s existence. I wonder what he saw tho. LOL. I would love to get more information on this account’s watch list and it’s just so funny to have some confirmation about one of his side accounts.
no i’m lying, there is another alleged side account from 2018. A weifen gave the tip ( allegedly lol i’m gonna use this word a lot ). It is also cleared but people did capture that he kept an eye out on XZ and XZS, and also liked a motorcycle video that was not really popular. So maybe someone who knows about the moto world would recognize. I just noticed the times both accounts were created. I don’t think WYB has the time to maintain his side accounts anymore with how busy he is but i imagine this gremlin having all the accounts and just looking at everything out there.
maybe i can make a post about all his alleged side accounts one day. 😂😂😂😂
• I have always loved personal stories from turtles and while I am wary of some, there are ones that particularly make me soft. this one for example:
My uncle is the kind of staff who works with the crew, he is ten years into the circle. I usually ask him about gossip in the circle. This year (2019 ) I carefully asked Bojun Yixiao if it was real. Uncle said he didn't know them that well, but he knew that the relationship between the two is very good. It is said that WYB & XZ are modest and polite. They have no personality problem and have always been real and not fancy.
He also said (emphasis!) he will help me get Xiao Zhan’s autographed photo in October. The time was right to take advantage of the work appointment, and after the end of XZ’s work, he signed one, my uncle said that “my niece likes you two very much”. Xiao Zhan raised his head in a daze, and said, “huh” My Uncle was about to explain, Xiao Zhan laughed a bit and said, "Is it Wang Yibo?" Uncle also laughed.
What gets me in this is how XZ is confused then it immediately clicks for him — is it WYB? ☺️ I mean, granted that 2019 was such a big year for them as a pair and who could someone be referring to when talking about “you two..” This exchange ( true or not ) lives in my head rent free. and the fact that people in the industry have nothing to say but good things about them really says a lot.
• The COVID test schedules that were leaked actually showed it was the same date and time. down to the second 02:23:38. I know this is bad, people shouldn’t actively seek out things like this but my brain won’t let this piece of information go. 💀💀💀
• WYB’s “Changsha” residence when he was still actively working in TTXS was provided by Hunan TV network. It’s not his, it is located very close to the station to make it easier for him. Other staff also stayed in that same area. The candy is, XZ allegedly sends things to that address.
• This video and fake rumor that is going around recently. People are speculating that WYB’s reaction in this routine was because of something that happened and that the dancers are actually teasing him. The rumor is XZ visited the set of SDC and he was just lounging, WYB was there and was about to kiss him but some dancers saw them, and our boys ended up being embarrassed.
you can definitely give a more plausible explanation of why he reacted like this but that’s not the point of this whole post. it’s the cpn that could be connected to it. and i mean if had someone like XZ, the love of my life just lounging, looking all gorgeous — how can you blame WYB for wanting to kiss him 🥺
• I’m not really a kadian enthusiast like all the other BXGs but the recent 232323 timing is making me 👀. Yes we know you Love Zhan.
Time is 14:30, but it can be 2:30 so it keeps up with the 23. I think the reason why i’m drawn to this CPN is it was posted a day after the whole yibo relationship rumor. If you look at YBO’s page, after the post saying the rumor is fake, the next one is this. So it’s like saying, those rumors are false and I only love XZ. 23. 🤍
• the emoji similarities between xzs and ybo used in their douyin posts. not only that, it’s a match for ones during OOL ( Gu Wei ) and BAH ( Chen Wei ). I mean, do they ship them too?
• I don’t really believe in 🍉 unless they are about upcoming product endorsements cause I think those can be leaked by the brands themselves. but during HB’s initial run, there was one with 2m followers who shared that XZ bought multiple screening slots for the movie.
The melon didn’t say he bought it because of WYB, it only mentioned WYB because let’s face it— his name is associated with it and he is actively promoting. What’s so entertaining to me and makes me grin when i think of it are the people’s comments. HAHAHAHAHA! They know what is being implied. You all know deep down there is some truth it but you refuse and say all kinds of things.
- END.
#yizhan#bjyx#there is no science here folks im just clowning like i always do#cpn talk#a whole chunk of my brain power is devoted to xz and wyb
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seventeen: your friends with benefits
pairing: 95 line x gn! reader
genre: romance, fluff
warning(s): suggestive language, swearing
request: Hey omg I love your blog sm already and I can’t wait to see what u make in the future :) I was wondering if u could do a svt reaction/head cannon to y’all being fwb but they catch feelings? 👀 if not I totally understand/gen 💙
note: omg hi!! thank you for the support, i really appreciate it! here’s 95 line; i originally was meant to write for the entire hyung line but these got a bit long for my taste lol :^)) feel free to request for the others <3 ALSO i’m finally back from dying over finals, please expect more work within the next few weeks :DD my requests are open as always!
seungcheol
two friends that just needed a way to blow off some steam
while this setup of yours with seungcheol was exciting and fun, the two of you agreed to keep it a secret
you both valued privacy, and neither of you wanted people to know about your business
that meant you guys would always be lowkey when in public; leaving the bathroom at separate times, wandering hands from under the table
while you seemed perfectly fine with keeping things hidden, it was suffocating seungcheol
even before your current arrangement with him, he always thought there was something special about you, something that drew him closer and made him want more
and getting to see you, all of you, made it harder for him to remember that there shouldn’t be any feelings involved
one night, he calls you, asking you to come over
when you get to his apartment, you can tell the mood is completely different from the past situations when you’d visit
it’s evident on his face that he called you over for something way more serious than just hooking up, and you begin to grow worried
“cheol are you oka–” “we need to stop this."
“i can’t keep doing this anymore. being able to touch you but never actually have you, it’s fucking with my head. knowing that behind closed doors, i have you all to myself but the moment we’re outside you’re no longer mine, it hurts. i’m in love with you, y/n.”
jeonghan
100% obsessed with you behind closed doors but acts like you’re strangers out in public
but recently, it feels like you guys are strangers on all levels
every time you’d hit him up, you’d get the same response
“busy 2nite, sorry”, “my roommate’s home”, “i have hw”
at first, you didn’t mind his excuses
it’s college, of course he’s busy
but after two whole weeks of blowing you off, your patience was wearing thin
it wasn’t like him to just cut things off without an explanation
he never even messages anymore, so at this point, you guys aren’t even talking
you haven’t seen him in so long, so the moment you run into him outside the library, you corner him to ask why he’s been avoiding you
he’s awkwardly fidgeting, avoiding eye contact, but you won’t leave until he explains himself
he knows you won’t give up, and he tells you with frustration evident in his tone
“i have feelings for you, okay? i knew that if we continued what we were doing i’d only fall deeper. i thought the only way for me to get over you would be to cut you off, but i realized it just made me miss you even more. is that what you wanted to hear?”
joshua
childhood friends that both wanted to lose their virginities, but the sexual chemistry was good so you guys just kept going
everyone knew you guys were close, so no one really questioned why you’d spend the night at each others’ places so frequently
after another night of your usual activities, you guys have pizza delivered to joshua’s apartment
when the food arrives, you answer the door, clad in one of shua’s old shirts
the delivery guy thinks you’re cute, and he even asks for your number
you’re about to give it when joshua takes the pizza box from the guy’s hands and slams the door shut
he looks annoyed, but you’re annoyed too
“what was that for? i was about to give him my number”
you’re just waiting for his reply, and he looks at you with an unreadable emotion in his eyes
desperation, maybe?
“please don’t go out with someone else. i’m in love with you. i think i have been ever since the start. i want us to be more than what we are right now, if you let me. i’ve already gotten a taste of how it feels to be with you, and now i can’t imagine ever letting you go.”
#svt x reader#seventeen x reader#svt imagine#seventeen imagine#svt headcanons#seventeen headcanons#svt headcanon#seventeen#seventeen s. coups x reader#seungcheol imagine#seungcheol x reader#seventeen jeonghan x reader#jeonghan imagine#jeonghan x reader#seventeen joshua x reader#joshua imagine#joshua x reader#choi seungcheol#yoon jeonghan#joshua hong#seventeen 95 line#seventeen 95 line x reader
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Silence in Glamour's Wake
→ Osamu Miya x Fem ! Actress Reader
Summary: Miya Osamu finds himself a reluctant guest at an award function, accompanying his brother, Atsumu. Lost in a sea of opulence, Osamu's disengaged gaze lands on an actress whose name eludes his memory.
Content Warnings: after party, fluff, swearing, underlying angst on osamu’s part, osamu miya needs some sleep, atsumu is shirtless at one point because yes
Word Count: 1.5k words
Author's Notes: This is painstakingly a first draft but I'll edit it soon, I promise. Enjoy!
Also, this is how I imagine Osamu in this story. Hugh Grant, my beloved <3
Read on AO3
His eyes take in the imagery of the entrance to the avenue. He takes in the scene – the event is one of ostentatious glamour and blinding jewels; with actors and actresses scattered across much like priced antiques at a flea market. They stand in their spots for the onlookers to gawk at, to be interviewed, and to eternalise. They will remain ageless and timeless in the photographs taken today. Their photographs will make it all the way to eternity. His will age and weather to dust in the confines of his shop, and perhaps, with luck by his side, his photograph may even make it into a small crevice within his grandchild's house.
His gaze shifts to the flurry of activity where the photographers are crowding at. He moves his head to see past the heads blocking his eye-line and he sees more people racing around her, people assisting her with her dress by straightening out the creases at the edge of her seams and another rushing to touch up her makeup. He realises he’s seen a movie or two with her in it, but he can’t really recall her name. People scramble to make her look picture-perfect. But she isn't, he decides.
He notices a soft smudge in her makeup, the trembling in her hands, and a look of wrapped-up confusion on her face. It fades — very quickly — into a big smile, he almost thinks he must've imagined all the imperfections. He doesn't think anyone else noticed, aside from the ones who tried hard to fix them, but he does because he supposes that is what disengaged onlookers would do.
If he’s being honest, he’s been flitting rather mindlessly from one overstimulating scene to another, staggering behind his brother and his brother’s co-star. That is if he could even call Atsumu a star at all, at least in the realm of acting.
Atsumu recently cameoed for a brief few seconds, seconds so short you could almost miss it unless you truly cared about him, or about the film. The film later went on to gain one too many acclamations, and in turn, the organizers of the event decided to extend an invitation to Atsumu, and one lucky guest. The guest was hand-picked almost instantly, explaining Osamu’s current predicament.
Osamu tried to turn it down really, he had firmly decided and he walked up to Atsumu with an apology ready and everything but once he looked at the stupid ugly grin adorning his face, he soberly agreed to join him. He found that he could rarely ever say no to Atsumu when it came to certain things.
His eyes flit up to the actress, and he notices that her smile is still present but not as big. He also notices a soft slump in her back when the cameras move to the next star — an actor this time. He doesn’t turn to look back at you, now enamoured by the actor, noticing his tastefully coordinated outfit embellished with a sweet leather jacket. He’s always wanted one, but could never truly bring himself to buy one.
—
The award function went by in a swift few hours, what with Osamu being asleep for most of it. He really should have taken the day off work yesterday, he thinks as he dawdles at the bar of the afterparty. He felt bad, but he has an inkling that Atsumu barely cared about his presence after a bit, what with him cozying up with a certain actress he seemed to recognise from a few movie posters that have been on the billboards of late. But he did learn the actress’ name, the one from the red carpet, when she cascaded up the stairs to pick up her award — her first SAG award, she exclaimed and went on to speak an eloquent few words, thanking so and so. He doesn’t remember the rest, but it seemed to be something akin to the dozen other speeches he heard today.
He dawdles across, not really knowing how to interact with the people, they’re all so — trained? He’s not one for networking, he’s good at socialising, but not networking. He moves from room to room, trying to find one that’s empty, or at least almost empty.
He’s tired and he wants to sleep but he also doesn’t want to half-ass this. And frankly, he thinks if he falls asleep before 1 am today, he will have to consider it a personal failure. So, he walks out of the room and moves on to another. He can’t tell if he’s already been here since they all look a bit alike — white walls, fancy couches, dim yellow light, sometimes a dim blue light. He walks in, and his fingers may as well be crossed, and… it’s empty.
He hears a clang, just then. Well, almost empty, he thinks.
He looks up, and it’s you — the SAG award winner, the eloquent speaker, and the red-carpet actress. You’re wearing a different outfit now, a lot less glamorous but still something an actress would wear to an event.
“Shit!” You exclaim, but before you could bend down to pick up whatever has fallen, he picks it up instead. It looks like an earring, an intricate one at that.
“Here,” he gives it to you, and he almost drops it again, it’s surprisingly slippery against his fingers.
“Fuck,” you half-laugh in relief. “Wouldn’t want to drop that.”
“Oh?”
“Yeah,” you say as you delicately place the earrings in an embezzled case of silver. “I’d have to buy it then.”
“It’s not yours?” He asks, rather confused.
“Nope, just on loan for now.”
“Okay.”
“I don’t really like it,” you say.
“Okay,” he responds.
A few beats later, he asks, out of sheer curiosity, “But you could buy it, right?”
You look up, a bit surprised, but you reply, “Yeah.”
“Okay,” he says.
“Wouldn’t want to though,” you add.
“Fair enough,” he shrugs.
He isn’t really sure if he should leave the room, or if he should introduce himself, so he just stands there with the drink in his hand. He becomes all too aware of the precipitating water leaking around the rim of the cup and his fingers. He feels like he should place the drink down at before the cup slips past his fingers, so he does, and that somehow prompts you to sit.
He promptly takes a seat on the sofa adjacent to yours. You and he sit in silence, you nursing your drink just as he nurses his.
“I’m Miya, by the way.” He says after sitting silently for a bit. He finds that it’s nice — the silence, you look like you wanted it — but something prompts him to talk so he did. “Miya Osamu,” he clarifies. He always does.
“I know,” you say.
“You… do?” He asks, letting the confusion sit on his face, with a tilted head, and squinting eyes.
“Yeah,” you say, and he waits. A beat later, he realises that you are probably not going to elaborate.
“How come?” He asks, feeling a bit too curious for his liking.
“Hmm,” you say inquisitively. “So… you’re telling me you’re not the blonde guy dancing shirtless on top of a kitchen table,” you ask.
He looks confused but he peeks out the window, which displays another room in sight, one that has his brother, joyously, and drunkenly dancing atop a cluttered table to a crowd of people. The amusement in your tone is not very evidently present, but he supposes that makes it all the more amusing.
“Yeah,” he chuckles and shakes his head. “Yeah, that’s not me.”
“Right,” you smile. “Good to know.”
The two of you sit again in the gregarious silence as you take a sip of your drink and slump further into your chair, twisting a bit till you found a comfortable position.
“I could tell though,” you say after a few moments of silence, and he looks up at you again. “When you walked in,” you continue. “I could tell you weren’t Atsumu.”
“Could you?” He asks, interested again in this conversation, and in you.
“Yeah, I have had the pleasure of meeting Atsumu Miya, and you, well, you aren’t him.” He isn’t sure how to take it, he never is sure about that, but he decides to take it with grace per usual, as he prepares his words.
“You have a calmer quality to you,” you say before he could say anything.
He doesn’t say anything. He takes a sip of his drink, “You could tell that with… what? All of the 5 seconds I took to walk into the room?” He asks, earnestly.
“Yeah,” you respond almost instantaneously. He looks up at you now, and he finds that you’re staring at him.
“Okay,” he says.
You smile and go back to nursing your drink again. He continues to stare at you, and he sees a tinge of smudged makeup around your upper lip, but your hands are firm now as you take a sip of your drink. And he smiles, he thinks you look properly beautiful.
#osamu miya x reader#osamu miya x y/n#osamu x y/n#osamu miya x reader fluff#haikyuu x reader#haikyu x reader#haikyuu x y/n#osamu miya x you#osamu miya x reader angst#meet cute with the one and only#miya osamu x y/n#miya osamu x you#miya osamu x reader#miya osamu fluff
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Pls pls pls tell us how do you think clones react to trauma PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
Full disclaimer, this is probably a lot of projection on my part in regards to coping with my own trauma and just seeing subtle things in media that helps me process a lot of thoughts I've had in regards to past negative experiences.
I am not an expert on trauma, and I am missing a lot of tcw lore because I haven't watched the full series, but I figure maybe I'm onto something on some aspects...
Anywho:
The clones are traumatized.
That much is a given, considering their entire existence and undying loyalty is based on a set education/training/indoctrination regiment that's undoubtedly traumatizing.
They live and die for a government and people that don't really care for them (we've seen so many subtle and not so subtle instances of it, with the most recent additions to the roster being the clone veteran on Daiyo, and Riyo Chuchi fighting for the rights of the clones during the rise of the Empire)
And the clones are essentially forced to understand and accept this wholeheartedly from an early age.
They have no basic rights, citizenship or even an actual home/lifestyle/traditions to return to once the war is done.
Everything that is "theirs" is borrowed from someone else (Kamino, the Mandalorian ways they learned from their trainers, and what other bits and pieces they meshed together to to form into their own culture from the natborns they have limited contact with).
Not even their lives, their bodies, are technically theirs. They are property in every sense of the word, and being forced to accept that so willingly and unquestioningly is not easy on the mind or heart.
It could break a lesser being really...
But it's all they know. And that's one of the cores of certain types of trauma, and the basis of how you react to said trauma.
Because is it really torment if you're born into it? If you don't know anything else? How do you want better if you don't know there IS better?
As someone who's been put through the grinder myself, I recognize reactions that are definitely born out of trauma. I'm most familiar with two very specific reactions that I do often write about: Silent complacency (which is a more passive defense mechanism in situations of stress) and outbursts of irrational anger (which is a more active defense mechanism in situations of stress). These are things I do on a daily basis that I can't help doing...
Most clones fall on the former over the latter, with just a few actually reacting in true anger when they are challenged in ways they can't really explain away, process, or deal with cleanly.
Even so, silent complacency does have subcategories, so they way clones deal with their trauma is really up to which subcategory they fall into.
Rex for example, is complacent to a certain degree but not enough so that he isn't rebellious when things go sour. Even so he makes it his goal to try to fix things in the least disagreeable way possible (finding makeshift solutions to problems, trying to find the middle ground even if he doesn't entirely agree with how things are, generally trying to maintain the order of things by making himself useful in some way), even if it means sacrificing others's respect of him and risking going against his own moral compass (Krell, I'm talking about Krell here).
Echo is paradoxical in both being complacent to how things are (letting TBB do nothing for far too long, and sticking around in this sort of stupor of denial and uncertainty of how to proceed, because he honestly went through way too much and hasn't had much time to process), but also being rather obviously angry about how things currently are, and wanting to use that anger constructively (eventually leaving to fight for a cause he can believe in).
Dogma was truly complacent, submitting to the will of his superiors without question because he was taught that this was how you survive long enough to make a difference in war (I won't call it cowardice like I've seen some people do, Dogma was not a coward, far from it, but he was too blinded by his own dogmatic thinking and misplaced loyalty). He was a clear product of upbringing and trauma, and survived by the means that were provided for him since his very birth. The veil was only lifted when things got so bad that there was just no going back... And he still accepted it. He accepted his own death with open arms.
Slick was absolutely enraged by his and the others's unlucky lot in life because, for some inexplicable reason, he was able to see past everything he and the others were taught was their life's mission. Their unquestionable right. And it sucks that we don't know much about him besides what we got, so we don't really know what pushed him to rebel so furiously and so impulsively (endangering the lives of hundreds of clones and the Jedi WAS an irrational thing, but the reason behind it was not), but the fact of the matter is that Slick saw that there was something better than what he and his brothers got, and he was ultimately disgusted by how little their lives mattered in the grand scheme of things. Slick didn't want to die for the republic, didn't accept that he was going to die for the republic, and still died for the republic. There was no way around it. It NEVER mattered whether or not he fought against his set destiny.
There's others who react in different ways to their trauma as well.
We have Cody who's coping mechanism is a sort of nihilistic acceptance that clone lives don't matter in the grand scheme of things. Not 100% blind to the fact their entire existence is a bit of a sham, but also not 100% ready to accept they are now part of the problem until he stops to fully evaluate it. He can't fight the injustice so he accepts it for as long as he can manage.
Even if it hurts to live with the fact there's no real better tomorrow for them, and that they're forced to make very difficult choices that are not morally correct.
The best he can do is think there's a better tomorrow for the galaxy instead, that his service counts for at least those he serves and protects... He'll float along but never really want for more. At least not for himself.
We also have Wolffe, who eventually becomes so paranoid that he risked losing the one thing he still had: The respect of his brothers. He's lost everything and he's too scared to lose everything all over again, so he protects it tooth and nail without relenting. Protects others from themselves, because he's seen what's beyond the veil of lies and he's unwilling to have anyone else see the rot that has crushed his very soul. He's afraid and angry. Most of all, he's terribly tired of conflict that he'd rather run away from if it means his remaining family lives...
We have outliers like Gregor who have so many reasons to be resentful, but who instead take every given day like it's a blessing.
Even if everything goes to hell tomorrow, he still smiles and jokes and deals with everything one step at a time.
He is protective of others, that much is clear, and he can get a little lost in his impulsivity, but he doesn't let the trauma rule him or his emotions. Not entirely at least. He's got way too much on his plate to stop and think about existential horror and the injustice of a cruel apathetic galaxy.
We also have the entitled (TBB) who make their trauma everyone else's problem rather than deal with it like adults. Why be altruistic and mindful of your own faults when you can point the finger at your perceived enemies? They're traumatized just like every other clone, but they don't try to process it or even sympathize or empathize with others. They're even apathetic enough that they do many things that undermine one of their own (Echo).
In their own eyes they have suffered more (false) and deserve to be regarded as more worthy of praise because they are different.
Just... The clones being traumatized from day one.
Behaving based on their traumatization.
Instinctively striving for minimal forms of control through naming themselves, altering their appearance and the paint on their kits.
Never really knowing that there's better in life than that which they all intimately know. Never even really getting to thrive because that was never in the cards. Not even when they had someone fighting for them...
There's so much to talk about...
And it might just me reaching hard and empathizing with characters that are undoubtedly tragic, but I just... I donno. I want things to end well for them. Even if I know that's not the conclusion they'll get.
#star wars#the clone wars#food for thought#of clones and trauma#milfcutlawquane#captain rex#arc trooper echo#clone trooper dogma#sergeant slick#commander cody#commander wolffe#clone commando gregor#the bad batch
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I read the previous ask and i would like to give my opinion on something! I see many Jikookers who are of the opinion that Jikook are trying to let us know who and what they are to each other! So many pple believe that they are trying to tell us or leave clues! While I don’t completely disagree, I don’t completely agree either.
This is the thing, i think Jikook would love for their supporters and fans to know but I don’t think they are trying to get us to know! I know that in the past and even recently , they did certain things which were very loud and revealing about their relationship but I don’t think they did them because they were trying to tell us! They are hidden and that could really be frustrating at times cuz they would like to just love each other openly and freely so sometimes their emotions get the best of them and that is when we have those extremely loud moments! The other more subtle moments we get are either from muscle memory or them just acting like they usually do when they are alone, or just simply because Army have 20 20 vision lol! We literally catch everything! Some other times are just moments we were not supposed to see or know about, for instance; Car Selfie, Jikook getting into Jk’s hotel room 2gether, Jhope JITB party etc. I have also seen so many Jkkrs saying that Jikook intentionally wanted to show us the hickey Jm gave Jk but i really don’t think so! I know my opinion is unpopular but I don’t think Jk was proudly showing us what his baby did to him the night b4! I’m not sure why he didn’t cover it up, (he honestly might not have noticed it, or maybe he didn’t think it will call attention, or maybe he did notice it but forgot to cover it up) but I don’t think he intentionally left the mark there for the world to see!
You may ask why i think they are not trying to get us to know and my answer would simply be, Because there is alot to lose and alot at Stake! Them being outed will not only affect them! It will affect the group, themselves, their families, friends and loved ones! Plus i am sure they know that I-army doesn’t really support them as a pair based on all the hate Jimin gets! Now why do i think so, mainly because of panicky Jk! JM is a bit more relaxed and it is hard to pick things up with just Jimin because he is affectionate with everyone( even though there is a difference with Jk) but the person who gives everything away almost always is Jk! And it is ironic because he is the more panicky one, yet he is the one who really put Jikook on the map! The moments he initiates are literally the loudest and most telling Jikook moments and when you think about panicky Jk it is really surprising some of the loud things he has done for Jimin. This all made a lil sense to me after i saw that interview with Calvin Klein where Jk said, even though he is extremely shy, he gets really bold when it comes to things he wants and desires! Jk has never been as bold with or for anyone as he is with Jimin! Also if we have to go by the narrative that they are trying to let us know, then it will negate these moments when they are clearly being extra cautious and we (jkkrs) risk sounding like (Tkkrs) who claim Tk are open one day and hidden the next depending on the interaction they see. Those moments when we get raw, loud Jikook are just moments when they give in to their feelings and emotions and let go of logic, not moments when they are actively trying to be loud or open! In situations like this, those moments are bound to happen. It’s just like they have held in alot for so long and sometimes they have to relieve themselves and that’s when we get PG 18 Jikook lol!
So like i said earlier, while i do accept that they would love for us to know once and for all, they are not trying to let us know. Maybe not as much as we think they are anyways, if not, how do we explain those moments were they are so cautious that it almost looks awkward? How do we explain the BTB where Jk went to JM’s rehearsals? Truth be told that interaction was awkward as hell and hard to watch! Jk couldn’t stop staring nervously at the camera and he was so stiff and didn’t look relaxed at all! We all know it’s not because he hates Jm like the cult claims, so what other reasonable explanation do we have for that other than the fact that they were trying so hard to act normal around eo so as not to give too much away that it just ended up looking painfully awkward? They seem to have completely forgotten how to behave around eo when infront of the camera especially when the other members are not around! This is just my opinion ofcourse!
Anon u misunderstand. I go into detail about Jikook taking advantage of the FS narrative here. Of course not all moments is them trying to tell us. But some loud moments they definitely were. Like RB and Hickeygate. So on that I disagree heavily with you. What do u mean he didn't notice it? What do you mean he forgot to cover it? Anon this makes no sense. This is you explaining this away when it was clearly done on purpose. He did notice it. Kept pressing on the thing and they explained to us about it twice! That shit was intentional. If they forgot to cover it, they would not have drawn attention to it. Jikook have had many hickeys over the years but they didn't talk about them. Instead we had them doing things like this
That is so off brand for JK. Have we even seen him do that again??? The bandana thing?
And sometimes they ignore it all together and pretend its not even there. Aka anon, they don't draw attention to the marks.
A thing they could have done during Hickeygate but chose not to.
Not to mention BH could have cut those scenes all together. Jikook approved that shit. Ask yourself why. Forgot to cover it? I'm still stuck on this one 😂 forgive me for laughing but if he forgot to cover it they would have cut cameras, covered it then continued recording. Anon, your explanation for this makes 0 sense. I'm sorry.
I'm sure you've heard people use the word glass closet or hiding in plain sight pertaining to Jikook. Because they are in the closet, yes. Its dangerous, yes. But we can see right through that closet. If no matter what they do, people won't acknowledge their rlship, why not take advantage to still be public while being private?
They get to do couple things just like other Korean couples and get away with it! Hang out on valentines day with matching clothes. Boom. Done. Go out on white day, a couple holiday. Done. See the first snow like normal couples. Boom. Done. Give eo hickeys, kiss each other's necks on camera, drop honorifics and use pet names, switch hyung/dongsaeng dynamics just because they can. Done. Done and done. In other words have their cake and eat it too. Who wouldn't take advantage of such an opportunity?
So when I say they want us know I don't mean all the time. Just during times when they did shit on purpose to indeed let us know. Not the moments when they got busted or when we had to zoom in and investigate. Hope it's clearer now.
#if jikook isn't real then neither am i#jikook is real#ask shaz#bts ask#jikook#kookmin#minkook#hickeygate#jikook kisses#jikook and fanservice#jimin and jungkook
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Hm... feeling good today, so how about another bit of a Pokémon psychology feature?
This time I want to talk a bit about... personality changes after evolution!
Now, everyone knows at least one example of Pokémon changing their temperament completely post-evolution. The most classic example of this is Gyarados, but even the most seemingly consistent lines, like the Pawmot line, wind up changing in temperament along the way, whether that's in gained confidence or simply maturity! Let's break down the "why" of this and what to do about it, noting that I'm focusing on the psychological effects of these processes, rather than the exact specifics.
While Pokémon can technically go their entire lives without evolving, and in some species, this is typical (often in species where evolution methods are suitably rare in the wild, such as Slowpoke), most species tend to evolve in relative step with their maturity in the wild. This means that evolution tends to be the cumulation of a big "developmental step", as it were! One that tends to involve three things: rapid brain development, rapid body development, and a dramatic change in what hormones the Pokémon's body produces. This can look very different from species to species: some calm upon evolution, having the new brain capacity to manage previously challenging powers, and others are overwhelmed by their new hormones and abilities!
Do remember, though: while some parts of evolution are stable within the species, others are influenced by your Pokémon's individual temperament, determined both through their genes and how you've trained them! A bolder Teddiursa will become a particularly bold Ursaring. A more mild Teddiursa will still show the protective and sometimes aggressive traits of an Ursaring on evolution, but they'll still have a soft side. And of course, they'll always have the memories of how well you've treated them along the way! And I promise, once you're past the fog of early post-evolution, those relationships do kick back in.
Now, for some tips! These overlap some with the tips I had for senior Pokémon on my last write-up.
Show them patience. Pokémon that are recently evolved might have frustrations in not just handling the rush of new neural connections and hormones, but quite often a totally different body! Given the circumstances, it's quite understandable if they don't feel like battling or taking to their usual routine for a while. Be sure to provide options for things they can do in the meantime, though!
If you can, introduce them to another evolved member of their species! Having a same-species mentor has been shown to greatly improve post-evolution behavior in Pokémon, both shortly after evolution and in the long term, since they have someone to direct their concerns to!
Another helpful option, if you can, is talking to a veterinarian and Pokémon behaviorist for a post-Evolution check-up. Not only does this ensure the evolution went through properly (mishaps are rare, but can happen!), but it also gives you a chance to ask about what behaviors might be new and normal. (Also, reading up on your Pokémon partner's species never hurts either. Just saying.)
Feel free to give a little extra reinforcement after training or other activities! Remember, evolution typically boosts a Pokémon's caloric intake by a lot. As long as you're rewarding in return for good behavior, bumping up the treats for a bit is okay.
To handle new negative behaviors, or old behaviors that are now negative due to evolution (I get it. It was cute when your Aron tackled you, but not your Lairon.), know that your strategies ought to vary based on the intelligence of the species you're working with. Sometimes it's better to ignore the negative behavior. Sometimes it's better to redirect into positive behavior instead. And in rare cases, you can explain it to them. Rare. Using concrete examples is best here; if something hurts you, for instance, clearly stating "Ow" as an immediate reaction.
Hopefully this proves helpful to somebody! Or at least, is entertaining enough you don't mind me ranting about it.
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Ask bomb
Are there any specific technologies or concepts from sci-fi books that you wish existed in the real world?
Do you consider yourself to be a picky eater?
You are given a choice to live in one of the fictional worlds where your games are set in. Which one would you choose and why?
If you were given a budget of 5000$ to upgrade your current house of tech setup, how would you spend it?
What's the most unusual item on your bedside table?
Have you read any of the IF works in chooseyourstory.com? While the forum is filled with unsavory characters, the quality of some of the works is better than most IFs found throughout the community as a whole
What's your favorite conspiracy theory, even if you don't believe it?
If you could have a conversation with your pet and they could understand you for just one minute, what would you say?
If you had a warning label, what would it say?
If aliens visited Earth and you were the first human they encountered, how would you explain our species?
What's the weirdest piece of advice you've ever received that turned out to be surprisingly useful?
What's the most absurd thing you've ever bought on impulse?
If you could have any mythical creature as a pet, which one would you choose and what would you name it?
As a french what are your thoughts on croak shoes and dad hats?
What's your favorite French expression or saying that you think the rest of the world needs to adopt?
If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance of winning a gold medal in?
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omg Anon...
Alright let's see
Teleportation. I hate the getting to places part of travelling. But also... Would it even work? Paris 2119 kinda gave me the ick about it at the same time.
I don't think I am. I'll eat almost anything and try new stuff when I can.
Any of the slice-of-life/like-the-real-world setting. Space is cool but it's too dangerous. Fantasy worlds don't have vaccines and medicine. It's like time travel: go in the past and you'll die of whatever disease is there, or in the future and maybe kill everyone with your bacteria (or was it the other way around? either way...).
I'd rather live in a "normal" setting.
Half into a bed and mattress - the one you can bend up to read better. The rest in books and comics.
If you give me the 5k in three years, I'll spend it in a gaming computer.
More unused bookmarks than books (I just have books on my bedside table).
I checked out the top rated listing on the main page a while back. Not my thing.
The Dead Internet Theory: the internet died some while back and is just populated by bots only. So we don't interact with people directly but through bots. It's a bit cuckoo. Or Nessie.
I've been told plants and rocks don't count as pets...
Volume not adjustable.
Don't bother, we're unsalvageable.
Touch grass. (go outside, take a walk, breath some fresh air)
Didn't buy, but I keep getting gifted croissant-related things: socks, kitchen towel... and more recently: the plushie. It is amazing. I love it.
The head of Mímir. I think we'd be drinking buddies. Especially if he is like in God of War.
Eh... Let people wear whatever they want.
« Quand le vin est tiré, il faut le boire. » - When the wine is drawn, you must drink it. Or finish your shit.
I am so average at shit, even then I wouldn't win any gold medal. And that's fine :)
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Hi hi I really like your work and have a small request if you don’t mind
Can you do a trans reader coming out to their adoptive fam I recently came out and haven’t gotten a lot of support from my family so comfort from mama Eve and dadam is all I need in my life rn
Be safe drink water eat something and rest!
Thank you for your kind words, I had some tasty orange chicken and I'm working on a water bottle now. And I'll sleep when my insomnia decides to let me!
-You had been a ball of nerves for what felt like weeks, maybe even months, hiding the truth from your adoptive family, multiple siblings, aunts, uncles, a few grandpas, and the two you few as your parents, Adam and Eve.
-When you were first adopted into this family, Adam and Eve were quick to make you feel welcome and shower you with so much love that you didn’t know what to do with it all.
-You were allowed to have fun, be free, do what you wanted to do, and just be you.
-This you, however, had been feeling…wrong if you had to put a word to how you truly felt; you felt like a fake, like you were lying to yourself.
-You spent several months and days researching how you felt, not wanting your family to worry, you looked at books, forums on websites, and even consulted a few of your friends to see if they could offer any insight to what this feeling might be.
-You finally had your answer, you weren’t happy as the person you were right at that moment. You weren’t happy with Y/G (your gender), you felt like you would be more comfortable as the O/G (opposite gender).
-You researched more on this, testing some theories, trying on some different clothes, doing certain things differently or trying new activities you had never done before and you’ve never felt happier while you were doing that.
-Your friends had your back, they supported you and this warmed your heart, knowing they were on your side.
-You were afraid to tell your family, not knowing how they were going to react. You had heard so many horror stories about families rejecting their children, kicking them out, and you were so scared that this was going to happen to you.
-After weeks, you finally swallowed your courage and decided to start small, with Adam and Eve, before you told the rest of your family.
-You wanted to trust your parents so much, but the swell of fear in your belly was making it difficult to stay calm, to rationalize with yourself that you needed to trust them.
-You pulled them both into your room and they knew something was wrong, seeing you were nervous, near tears, your hands fiddling with each other as you struggled to speak.
-When you finally said those two little words, you felt so much weight come off of your shoulders, you felt so much relief.
-They were quiet for a moment before inquiring about what you meant, wanting more explanation and you started to ramble, explaining everything that had been happening over the past few months and how you finally figured out how you could be happy again.
-Eve pinched your cheek, scolding you for not saying anything sooner, for putting yourself through all the unneeded stress and anxiety, but Adam was the first to hug you, tightly.
-He told you that you need to be patient with them, as they were going to learn alongside you and they wanted you to teach them, so you could feel happy and safe again.
-After they had to calm you down after you started ugly crying from being so happy, they both held your hands, taking you downstairs and stood beside you as you announced it to the rest of your family.
-Some knew what you were talking about, while others were like Eve and Adam, needing a bit more information, but once they learned what was happening, your heart swelled when each and every one of them said they were going to learn and stand beside you.
-Adam hugged you tightly again, later that day, holding you to him before he scolded you himself, “Next time, don’t be afraid to tell us anything.” You promised and returned his hug, finally relaxing for the first time in weeks.
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Day 4 of @loceitweek and we're back to the romantic! This time it's Logan comforting Janus, hope you enjoy 💛💙
Masterpost | Loceit Week 2023 Masterpost | Ao3
Summary: Janus had an argument with Virgil and goes to Logan to cool off.
No content warnings!
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The door to Logan’s room burst open without warning.
“Ridiculous! Completely ridiculous!” Janus grumbled, walking in and closing the door behind him none too gently. Logan raised his eyebrows and closed the book he had been engrossed in until a few seconds ago – after marking his spot of course.
“What happened, love?” he asked, concerned. Janus simply huffed, shaking his head.
“Virgil just- ugh.” He walked over to his boyfriend, throwing himself next to him and placing his head in Logan’s lap after discarding his hat. Familiar with Janus’ non-verbal way of asking for comfort, Logan began gently running his fingers through his boyfriend’s hair and carefully untangling the knots he found. Janus sighed in content, shoulders already losing some tension.
“Thank you, darling.”
“It is my pleasure. Would you like to stay like this in silence for a while or do you want to talk about your issue?”
“Your pragmatism is appreciated. I think I need to vent for a moment. Let me finish before you offer any solutions?”
“Of course.”
“Thanks.” Janus took a deep breath and a moment to sort his thoughts. “I was assisting Thomas today, to keep his stress levels from rising, since, as we both know, he has been struggling with that recently. But Virgil wouldn’t let me work in peace. He hovered at my shoulder constantly, questioned everything I did or suggested and kept Thomas on edge all day. And when I asked him to back off a bit, he blew up on me, accusing me of trying to manipulate Thomas and having ulterior motives, which is why I was trying to get rid of him. Definitely what I was doing.” Janus rolled his eyes and Logan couldn’t help a fond smile appearing on his lips. He couldn’t help but find his boyfriend’s need for dramatics endearing.
“I know Virgil doesn’t trust me, and I get why, it’s a fair stance, I did some shitty stuff to him in the past, but I always had Thomas’ best interest in mind, even back then! How am I supposed to regain his trust if he is actively sabotaging everything I try to do to help!?”
“Are you now ready to hear my thoughts, or have you not finished?” Logan asked, patiently, after his boyfriend was quiet for a few seconds. Janus smiled at him, very grateful for his support.
“I mean, I could go on for at least an hour, but I think I got the point across, so it might be best you tell me what to do before I talk myself into a rage again,” he sighed. Logan nodded in understanding, after all, this has happened a few times already.
“I have a few questions for you first, if that is alright with you?”
“Sure.”
“Question One: How long has Virgil been with you today?”
“Most of the day. At least six to eight hours, I presume.”
“Alright. Question Two: How have you dealt with his criticism before asking him to leave?”
“I didn’t ask him to leave, just not to be… as involved.”
“Either way, what was your response before that point?”
“I either didn’t engage or explained to him my reasoning. Which he then mostly insulted in return.” Janus had closed his eyes at that point, solely focusing on the hands in his hair and the comfort they brought.
“I understand. So, you were patient with Virgil for hours and even offered him an opportunity to discuss your actions civilly?”
“Yes.”
“Well then, I’d first like to say that I’m proud of you for being so patient. I know the two of you have a hard time getting along on your best days. Related to that, I believe that Virgil is most likely more irritated than usual due to Thomas’ recent increase in obligations, which might have influenced his behavior today. Which is not to say he was justified in his reaction. If you would like, I could talk to him about activities to destress himself as well as Thomas.”
“I appreciate you wanting to help, dear, but I don’t think that would be very effective. He has accepted that we are dating but I think he believes I’m manipulating you as well if you take my side constantly to resolve arguments.”
“A fair point. Then may I suggest asking Patton for help, even if they are not on the best terms, I think having him as a mediator is a possible solution.”
Janus hummed, pushing his head more firmly into Logan’s hand. Sometimes Logan couldn’t help but think that a cat would fit his boyfriend better than a snake.
“I’ll think about it. Thank you, darling, I feel much better.”
“I am happy that I could assist you. Now, would you like to continue watching of The Good Place?”
“I would love to, as long as you keep your hand where it is.”
“Of course.”
“Wonderful.”
They fell asleep together not even an hour later with Logan’s hand still buried in Janus’ hair.
#namiswriting#loceit week 2023#day 4: conflict/resolution#loceit#ts logan#logan sanders#ts janus#janus sanders#virgil is mentioned#and it might seem like he's an asshole but he isn't promise#just on edge#hurt/comfort#fluff#they are so sweet with each other#sanders sides#fanfiction#reblogs are appreciated#💛💙
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The Story So Far...
hey there,
I want to write down everything that's contributed to my journey so far in the interest of memory and sharing. So here's my story from the start until now!
I was assigned male at birth, and currently identify as non-binary. I am 22 years old and have been questioning my gender for a long time. Thoughts about gender have been becoming more frequent and painful in the past 2-3 years.
(TW: Sexuality) This post will describe my very personal feelings and detail some parts of my journey that may be uncomfortable to read. I will discuss sexuality, masturbation, and dysphoria.
My earliest memory regarding gender dysphoria or feeling like something wasn't quite right was when I was very young, maybe 5-6? I remember feeling excitement or euphoria when I put on one of my sister's princess dresses. I tried a few on and felt amazing. I didn't understand it at the time, but I guess that was euphoria. It felt almost like I was aroused. That's a can of worms for the TERF/ autogynephilia crowd, but understand that there's no way I was sexually aroused at the age of five from wearing feminine clothing. I would try on my mom's and sister's heels and take their clothing also. I forgot about that stuff for the most part, but still felt like something was off. For as long as I can remember, I've been disinterested in traditional masculine activities and gender norms. I have always hated playing/watching sports, fishing, and stuff like that. I thought I was just a stick in the mud or anti-social, but I never really wanted to do any of those things. When I was younger, I showed a bit of interest in basketball and baseball but that was extremely short lived. I spent most of my time playing video games, playing star wars, and skating. One could argue that these are masculine activities, though. I really hate anything to do with physical strength and competition. I've always been sorta delicate I guess.
Although I desired to crossdress since an early age, I suppressed those feelings to the point where I didn't act on them anymore, but I still felt them. When I turned 12-13 and reached middle school, things took a big turn. I feel like I've been depressed ever since I hit puberty and I can't explain why. Self-esteem and insecurity issues hit me like a truck. I don't feel like a man, but what else is there? I didn't know I had a choice. I desired to be friends with girls. More so I desired to be one of the girls- but I didn't really understand it at the time. I've always been attracted to women, but I don't know if I want them or want to be them. Probably both. I am pansexual, and have always felt strange around the other boys. I never felt like I fit in with the majority of the masculine crowd. I went to a Catholic elementary and middle school, and my two best friends in middle school both turned out to be gay. I wonder if people perceived me as gay sometimes because I recently found a note in my yearbook from a friend calling me his first love? I've always fantasized about being with girls and boys, but didn't figure that out until high school. At that time, I remember desiring to be more feminine, but being extremely scared. It wasn't a choice I could make. I felt so ashamed and out of place. My confusion only made me more depressed and angry at myself. Why would I even think that I was trans? I guess deep down I always sorta knew, but again I suppressed that part of me out of guilt, sadness, and shame. I felt like I would be disappointing my family and causing problems. I still feel like that honestly. Internalized transphobia is real. It's just rage towards my identity that manifests and destroys my confidence and self esteem. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to be an ugly woman, which is often the only thing holding me back.
I've largely only dated lesbian or bisexual women. A few of them have turned out to be lesbians exclusively after we dated. Almost all of my partners have identified as part of the LGBT community. That's just one thing I find interesting.
I've been buying my own feminine clothes since I was 17, and recently have been buying a lot more. I love to wear skirts, crop tops, and high socks. Now I feel so dysphoric when I'm wearing men's clothing. I am in such a battle with my body right now. I am constantly fighting body hair, my penis, and my broad shoulders. I absolutely hate to see that I have male genitals in my pants, especially when other people can see it. I really only want to buy women's clothing now. My egg cracked on Christmas Eve 2021, when I was drunk texting my then-girlfriend and told her that I think I'm trans. I lurked on r/egg_irl for a while, and did a lot of research on being trans. I remember lying on the couch after everyone had gone to sleep crying. Again, I suppressed it. I keep trying to "go straight" and embrace masculinity, but I fail every time. I cannot for the life of me be the traditional man.
So, if you expect me to boymode because that's my AGAB then fuck you! I realized that I'm living MY LIFE, and other people need to mind their business or support me. Everything else doesn't matter. They're not me, and I'm not them. At the end of the day I have to live with myself, and I'm going to make sure I love who I am.
Let's talk about my friends and family. I am out to my friends and have made steps in dropping people who are homophobic, transphobic, or otherwise won't accept me for who I am. My friends are a tremendous source of love and support, and I am so grateful for them. My family, on the other hand, is a different story. I've only talked to my mom about gender dysphoria, and while she's supportive, she is definitely confused and almost taken aback by it. She says that I didn't show any signs in childhood, and that crossdressing is something all little kids do. I think she expected me to be gay. She told me she expected one of her kids to be gay because my Uncle is gay, but not one being transgender. She keeps asking me if I like boys. I want to tell my sister but she seems disinterested in the fact that we're even related. I just want the support of my family. I'm tired of being doubted, because I do enough of that to myself. My mom is willing to accept me as a woman, but she said it will take some time. She wants to mourn her son. I want to tell her that she has two daughters now, but it's too early for all that. I even have my new name picked out, but I'm scared to take that next step. It's Siobhan by the way (Shi-vawn). I wanted to choose another Irish name that starts with S.
Sexual Dysphoria: It feels odd to share this information but I think it's important to acknowledge. Ever since puberty, I've primarily tried to penetrate myself and feel pleasure that way. I don't know why I did it, it felt instinctual. But I've never really had romantic feelings for men (not until recently), so I can't be gay, right? I was, and still am, so confused. When I first had sex, I really didn't enjoy it. This feeling that something was wrong persisted, but I didn't know why. I love women, but why can't I enjoy the sex we have? I dread having to be the "man" or top. So I started thinking I was gay. When I had sex with men, I didn't really feel attracted to them, but enjoyed being the bottom much more. It felt better. But I can't see myself dating or being intimate with most men. So I would leave those encounters feeling like shit, confused, and degraded. Now I am in a great relationship with a beautiful woman and she understands how I'm feeling. Sex is an important part of a relationship, but I feel like I can't uphold my end. My libido has been destroyed from anti-depressants in addition to the distress that I feel when "on top." Sex is still pleasurable, but I can't reach an orgasm and sometimes have to almost dissociate to cope with the fact that I have a penis. When I wear feminine clothing, research transitioning, do my makeup, or shop for feminine things, I get the same arousal feeling that I described when I crossdressed for the first time. It's not sexual, but I feel excited. My research shows that this is normal and it will calm down once this part of me is no longer repressed. Sometimes I feel like I'm just a pervert that gets a thrill from dressing as a woman.
I desire to start HRT and begin my social transition, but there's a lack of doctors/endocrinologists in my area and I'm waiting to keep talking with my mom about it. She seems worried that I'm going to transition. I know that there's never going to be a more convenient or better time, so part of me wants to say fuck it and just do it. It's obvious to me that these feelings aren't going away, I'm not getting any younger, and every step I take I love. If you are reading this, I hope you can understand me a bit better now.
Lots of love,
Siobhan.
#mtf trans#transgender#transisbeautiful#transitioning#trans experience#coming out#queer#transition#trans positivity#lgtbtq#lgbtq community
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