#and then we didnt talk for a year and then HER friend got me to hang out with both of them and now they are my 2 friends

[thestarsarebrightertonight]

it could happen to you // lorenzo berkshire x fem reader

playlist : it could happen to you - laufey

summary : youve had a crush on lorenzo berkshire for years , always pining until one day he asks you to the yule ball.

ravenclaw reader , y/n used

"cho its getting dangerously close to the ball and i still dont have a date!" you whined.

"its two weeks until the ball , you have more than enough time! i know atleast 5 guys that would drop dead to go with you," cho replied with sympathy.

"oh yeah like who? funny they havent asked me yet if theyre so desperate!" you complained with sadness.

"lorenzo berkshire," cho said blanky , staring at something behind you.

you scoffed loudly , "in my dreams maybe!".

"no...no , lorenzo berkshire is coming towards us with flowers."

you jumped up at this , staring at her with pure shock not wanting to turn around ,"cho! cho please dont joke around about that!"

"im- im not!" she exclaimed finally turning back to you , "he is literally coming over to us-"

"y/n," you heard a deep but soft voice say right behind you making you freeze all movement.

you turned around slowly , seeing lorenzo stood there with some red tulips in his clenched fist , his other hand playing with his robe nervously , "l-...hi lorenzo"

"its enzo!" he said quickly before physically cringing at his own words , "i mean call me anything you want!".

"ah o-okay sorry," you said with a bright red blush.

he stared at you silently for a second before realising the tulips in his hands were not yet in yours , "oh these are for...you!"

your whole face lit up as you grabbed the tulips from him, hands brushing delicatley , making his fist clench by his side.

"thank you so much enzo, theyre beautiful!" you admired the flowers you held , forgetting your past nerves of the boy you like being in front of you.

he smiled at this , blushing obviously , "i was wondering if um.."

you nodded your head, waiting for him to continue.

"if you-" he began again only to be cut off.

"pretty flowers y/n , oh hey berkshire!" fred weasley , your other best friend , said happily from where he now sat next to you on the bench.

"hi..." lorenzos hopes quickly deflated as fred wrapped his arm around your shoulder.

"fred i was talking to enzo," you said softly , trying not to be rude.

"yeah sorry about that , also enzo? never heard you let anyone call you that before berkshire! anyways , i was just wondering, do you have a date to the ball yet? i dont and-"

"she does!" lorenzo quickly cut him off as you looked at him in suprise.

fred mirrored your expression , before laughing and smirking at lorenzo, "and who might that be?"

"me." lorenzo scoffed , his anger rising more and more by the second.

meanwhile you exchanged a shocked look with cho and gaped up at enzo , who was only staring down at fred.

"good for you man , nevermind then!" fred said with a smile before he got up, waving to you as he walked away, "see ya y/n!".

once fred left both you and lorenzo shifted into an uncomfortable silence before he brushed his hand through his hair in frustration , "merlin im so sorry i shouldnt have done that i just didnt want him to ask you-"

"lorenzo , i dont care." you said as he visibly calmed , "as long as we are actually going together i dont care at all."

he grinned back at you , "yeah thats what i intended to ask you before...he came over."

you laughed at his frustration towards fred , "i wouldve rather not gone at all than have to go with anyone that isnt you."

he bit back his smile and looked down at his hands before shifting back into eye contact , "do you want to go to hogsmeade with me this weekend?"

"id love to," you grinned at him before standing up and giving him a kiss on the cheek , "just know you cant get rid of me now!"

he mirrored your wide smile with a blush on his cheeks and an arm around your waist , "why would i ever want to get rid of you?"

#harry potter x reader #harry potter #lorenzo berkshire #lorenzo berkshire x reader #lorenzo bershire x you #lorenzo #enzo berkshire #slytherin #slytherin boys x reader #ravenclaw #hp fanfic #x reader #hp #hp fandom #theodore nott #draco malfoy #hogwarts houses #hogwarts #yule ball #fanfic #fluff #laufey #it could happen to you #the stars are brighter tonight masterlist

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

major same to the autistics have the "social deficit" trait of just having no desire to make new friends 99% of the time. like, you may or may not like HAVING friends, but either way don't feel like making them or socializing. my entire friend group and also my online friend group exists only because they adopted me into it and i decided to stay

#autism #actuallyautistic #seriously my friend mika just came into my tumblr inbox one day and bc i decided she was interesting i kept talking to her skdhksdjfhk #and atlas just DMd me one day and we started talking about loons #the rest of the friend group followed bc of them #meanwhile IRL i only have friends bc. i was the new kid more than 7 years ago and everyone decided to try to be my friend #about 2 of them stayed skdhfkdsjhfksjdhkghjskf i did NOT like most of them and judged accordingly #the exception is my best friend who i actually approached first! ... because i liked. her name. yeah. logical there #and then we didnt talk for a year and then HER friend got me to hang out with both of them and now they are my 2 friends #traumadump moment but i DID want to make friends with people when i was little i think. but then they were mean to me and i was like #''lmao nah im done'' and now i only hang out with people who prove they like me (as in. they reach out first) #but also even when i did want to make friends.... i didnt actively do it lmao. my friends were my cousin and my old best friend #and that was basically it

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant. #im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something- #-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again. #plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal) #and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some. #but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn? #and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON. #I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

[sheilaerinniperonista]

when I say Sheila E. I mean Sheila E. idgaf about those two others gay boys go get ur own fanfic this is about her

#fugo.txt #sorry fugio i outgrew you like two years ago and now youre just another mildly annoying ship 😭... #if i search her up then i mean HER whats so hard to understand. its like if i looked up that stupid puppet from saw and i got - #- those two other guys fucking each other raw in the ass. like okay ty i didnt mean you 👍👍 #im so annoying fr #talking about Giorno. im re reading jorjor ☝️☝️ be cause i miss them #i miss Bruno Bugatti so much. forgot how cunty he was. mother #i need to figure out what ivrea volume has him busting it down on that pole. for reasons #im reading so much manga because since i had that fight w my friend group and we broke off i have a lot of #free time. so you know. #and also because next year after i graduate i wanna go to jp classes so i wanna absorb as much as i can. and anime seems to be my best bet #to absorb info. i still struggle with writing and reading but idk im getting there. slowly. #reminds me when i learned English lol. although back then i wasnt purposely trying to learn. can you believe i got so fluent on accident?! #anyways i fuckinf got so off trackkk on these tags sorry im unmedicated #jjba #phf

[todayisafridaynight]

Wanna put your friend in a lil terrarium just to see what wacky things she does stg 😂

i actually Cannot Stress the migraine she gives me every time we hang out. like without fail she'll always say or do something that ranges from mildly questionable or irritating but relatively Whatever to How Have You Survived This Long Without Burning Your House Down Boiling An Egg

#snap chats #and then there's her just forgetting things or being late despite the amount of times ill remind her #and i keep stressing to her i cannot stand it when people are late. and then she shows up to things an hour late anyway #or 'when shes late' by fifteen minutes because she didnt think to text me she's there. and im already stressed and annoyed I. UGH i swear. #LIKE. i have only really had two irl friends and both of them i lowkey had to parent in some way #at least my childhood bestie she's like. she's grown a lot and even if i havent spoken to her in a while im real proud of her right #THIS MOTHERFUCKER THO. OUUUUUGGGH.... youre not supposed to say anythin if you dont got nothin nice to say #which is contradictory to the main body text but point is let me Not be any more mean than how ive been already LMAO #even funnier about her looking at that comic is that LITERALLY masumi says he's talking to jo ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #did i already say i have to remind her who jo is every three seconds #like the entirety of chap 2 when ichi's out of jail she was all 'why doesnt he just say who ACTUALLY killed the guy' #and then when we finally run into the fuckass who 'actually killed the guy' she's just 'wait who's that' #then i tell her and shes like 'oh my god he's so old now' IT'S BEEN 18 YEARS DUMBASS #ngl did wanna make a comic based off that LMAO BUT POINT IS she tests my patience every day and i think its good practice #if im going to work with people in the future like ohh.. my god.... #she told me once she's never been on a date and its like. yeah i wonder why you can't even be assed to show up on time to hangouts ☠️ #like ive never had friends so maybe im just insane.. im not insane for wanting people to be on time tho.... #OK IM BEING TOO MEAN LET ME CAP IT THERE

[redpiperfox]

But mainly, and really:

#red's week in music #STORYTIME WITH RED GATHER ROUND KIDDOS! #was at kids club tonight and went in knowing little 8 year olds mom had her baby this morning and lil girl was now big sis if two #and knew she hadnt come from home bc her hair was a mess of someone who didnt know curls trying to do it lol #shes generally emotional and dramatic but we can all see that shes a lil more so tonight. understandably. lotsa change #well she kinda hinges on this one thing of not getting the verses said to earn a jewel bc she wasnt able to say them-- totally fine! we'll #practice and get them later! but shes distraught bc she worked on them with mum and wont get jewel so i keep telling her when we'll work on #them together and when ill listen to her and we can get it done. cool. then lesson time shes up and down sniffly and the lesson says smth #about childbirth-- bursts into disarray. i ask her if she wants to step out and we blow her nose and she keeps talking about the verse so i #tell her solutions for that and then shes working herself up so i work thru calming down and she goes from #“i think im mad” to “mom would let me do what i want!” and i know the real issue isnt the verse but thats what shes telling me so... #adult shes staying with cautiously steps in and she calms down to tell me “its not the verse... i think i miss my mom” #oh my heart i know honey i give her a hug and we talk about the sleeover shes going to have and when shes going to see mom #and shes sleeping next to lil sis so shes going to give sis a big hug and tell her theyre going to see mom in the morning #and then i ask her if she wants to go back and she does and i just hold her and hug her the whole time #i give her another squeeze when she leaves and tell her to enjoy her sleepover #her friend shes staying with i should not did a very sweet of coming over and saying “hey lookit this new book i got do you wanna color it #with me maybe?“ which was such an emotionally mature thing for her and to see lil kiddo cheer up warmed me #teachers we debriefed and talked about kids going thru stuff at home and not being able to tell and process their emotions and stuff #and then i shared with mum on the ride back and she goes “yup. lil toddler will just miss mom-- its trauma at this age. this is why i #panicked and called my mother to come for your sis's birth bc dad said he could handle you but my heart couldnt for what you would go thru.“ #i was six when my sister was born. my grandma being there before consistently made me giddly excited in that time waiting for dad to bring #us to the hospital. #anyway my heart was full and im praying extra hard for two lil girls in a sleepover missing their mom tonight. #red's personal sitcom #Spotify

[girlwinner]

lifeblogging begins....girl asked me out today AND i don't knowhow to tell her no 😭

#NO OKAY LISTEN RIGHT shes been texting me for a whileeee and she used to like me YEARS ago Literally full on told me and we didnt talk for #ages Then she starts messagjngme again And keeps making like weird things thag we have in common?😭 #one time my friends were making fun of me for having rice for breakfast And i wrote rice onnmy friends hand And then she sat next to this #girl in her class and told her about me having rice THE NEXT DAY SHEEEE BRINNGGS UPPP RICE AND SAYS SHE HAS IT FOR BREAKFAST SOMETIMES #ITWAS JUST REALLY LIKE.😭😭😭 #BUT I NEED TO TELL HER NO BECAUSE I GOT A GIRLFRIEND BUT LIKEE I CSNT SAY NO she hasnt said its explicitly romantic You know? just said #do you want to go out And well i cant work with that AT ALL. B3CAUSE IT WPUKD BE SO RUDE TO GO ummm No sorry. and it's would be so #self entered to be like Umm i have a girlfriend🤓 YOU KNOW?! #god this blog is great i love lifeblogging

[minglana]

also my friend (from the village) (a different friend) and i have been texting a lot this year

#it all started when we were at the village and it was just the two of us (weirdly enough. its usually the three of us) #and we somehow got to the convo that it would be cool if she came to visit me. i think bc we were talking abt how we only see each other #in the village and not in our like. respective 'homes' (the village is also my home ofc but its different) #and somehow the plan for her to come visit me pulled through and she spent a weekend here #and now im due for a visit to her house soon hopefully. so we kinda check in w each other? idk its kinda weird #we used to not contact each other for an entire yr. then spend 1-3 months together (the 3 of us) during the summer #and rinse and repeat. idk kinda crazy if u ask me. idk if this is a teenager thing or what. now since im here (aka not in the US) #i do see the other friend more often since shes actually from the village. so like 2 times a yr when i go visit #oh and these two friends were together and broke up so there was a very weird vibe w each other for like 3 years #coincidentally the three or so years we didnt see each other (bc of the stupid pandemic). i cant believe i had to go 3 yrs without seeing t #them. but godddd its so crazy. im glad were texting more and stuff but. idk it still feels kinda weird. its the only friend i do it with #like. texting just bc. if i text other friends its usually to meet up in person or arranging something. #i dont even know where i was going w this actually #z xarre

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I haven't talked to a friend in a few months but I want to, so I just texted a picture of my dog in hopes that that will start a conversation. Cuz I miss her but don't know how to start conversations.

#i made this friend during one of the worst weeks of my life #it was a terrible training week for summer camp #i was surrounded by strangers and closeted and didnt know anything #long story #but then i saw her! a trans woman! and immediately needed to be friends #and we immediately hit it off #she's cool as fuck and i love her so much #no i dont know her last name or where she lives. why is that relevant. i still love her #i am reallybad at remembering people exist if i dont see them on a regular basis #sometimes i forget my best friend of six years exists if we havent talked in a few days #so the fact that i remembered her and got up the energy to text her means a lot #i am so tired #my puppy is sick to his tummy. and he wakes me up ever hour or two to make it my problem #and i have an ear infection that's causing immense immeasurable pain. so its hard to fall asleep through that #thats not really relevant but i thought id bring it up anyway #i ate a really good lemon bar today #i hope you all have a wonderful day and eat a delicious baked good of your choice

[iknaenmal]

WHY! IS! IRL FRIENDSHIP! SO HARD!!!!!

#UAGHRHR #theres. theres this friend who has been ignoring me for MONTHS #like she still hangs out with me but doesnt even talk to me or listen to me when i talk to her #and last week i asked her why she ignored me all the time and she got mad at me and told me she didnt want to hang out with me anymore #which is. a HUGE relief actually #so the next day she spent HALF of the recess someplace #but then when she got bored with whatever she was doing she just. came and started to talk to me like nothing happened?????? #so i left #and shes in france now for a week bc of some school thing #and i thought it would be nice because i wouldnt have to deal with her for a whole week #but she just. called me out of the blue????? #and starts talking about how france is cold and she saw a cool car and stuff #and OURGHHG why does she only call me after we have argued and not even. apologize or anything #but i dont care i dont want her to apologize!! i want her to leave me alone for once #shes been my friend for about ten years which is more than half of my whole life #and aurhg..... i dont want to be her friend anymore this is do fucking exhausting #ough damn. sorry for that.. i didnt mean to ramble abt my personal problems for that long #or at all for that matter #ikna grumbles

[nho-jungle]

i HATE how time passes. i HATE how impermanent online friendships are. i HATE lookin back through old messages and seeign “deactivated” at the end of a username. i HATE when the account never got deleted but the person just vanished one day. i HATE seeing people i used to talk to continuing on as completely different people and knowing that we will never be the same again. i HATE that i will never get an explaination for the ending. i HATE that there is no closure. i HATE that we have to live like this. nothing is permanent. everything is always changing. you can never go back to how things were before. im going to explode.

#ok to rb #my dream last night took place in my secondary school- a place i havent been in nearly 4 years. #i got on the bus with a friend who didnt normally get on that bus and we went to her house even though the bus never actually went that way #my alarm went off before we got inside but i think the journey was the important bit #then i looked through old discord messages of people i dont speak to anymore and saw them doing well. or i saw them vanished. #the ones who vanished i think abt a lot #i wonder what happened to them #i hope theyre okay #i hope they just decided this wasnt for them and moved on with their lives #the ones who vanished mid conversation i worry about #and ill never know what happened to them #i also spent time looking thru my ex's blog #we were together for four years. and then it was over. #the ending wasnt sudden #unfortunately #it was a gradual shift away from each other #but i keep thinking abt the beginning. how much we'd talk #the friends he introduced me to #the fact that i dont talk to them anymore either. #i miss the way things were before #and i can never go back

[bbunnybirdd]

i kind of feel like deleting my instagram but on another hand that's like the last window i have left to somewhat see what my old school friends are up to

#partially inspired by me giving my number to my ex best friend and asking to message me when she has time and if she still wants to talk #buut i got ghosted so i guess thats a big no #i still think when she went to study elsewhere she probably thought of me as good riddance #since id hang onto her pretty much all the time with not really having other close friends #like there were other friends but we werent as close #on another hand whenever weve rarely seen irl weve grown apart so much that i dont think re-friending is possible #this is why you dont stay up past your bed time you just get sad #i miss having a bestie god im so lonely its been 9 years #i just want someone to feel as close to me as i feel to them #i didnt think id start crying from just writing shit in tags

[hella1975]

still thinking about the fact there's a girl in my main group of econ mates that i'll call C and i used to be really close with her in first year. like i spent a lot of time with her she drove me everywhere we met up outside of uni etc. except there was a boy in that main group too and the dynamic was basically that me and my other mate met first and THEN we started hanging out with C and this boy, so we each had our Person before forming one bigger group, if that makes sense? and i got on pretty well with the boy bc he happened to be bi so we instantly clicked over that and i could tell he latched onto me quite a bit bc there aren't really many other queer people in our circle and ESPECIALLY not at the start of uni. when i tell you C was so pissed off about the fact me and him got on better than her and him that our friendship STILL isn't as close now bc she couldn't get over me 'stealing' her cute little GBF accessory. and i didnt even do anything like i couldn't have given less of a shit who this lad hung out with. and she WONDERS why he picked the bi girl over her weird ass

#i still get so annoyed about this bc i literally DIDNT DO ANYTHING #like i was such an inactive participant of her weird obsession with him #bc i actually know how to treat queer men normally and he was just Some Guy to me like he wasn't all that i literally did not give a fuck #and he dropped out in the end (how does it feel to live MY DREAM he abandoned me to the econ straighties) #but the way it STILL gets brought up like my other econ mate #- the one im really close with and is most likely the one im talking about in any posts i make about 'my course friend' - has regularly #in response to me pointing out that me and C aren't nearly as close as we were initially/C very obviously favours her over me #just said 'oh it's bc she thinks you stole [boy's name] off her' like HELLO??? #like it's been a YEAR and it's still so prominent that we're STILL TALKING ABOUT IT #he was a FRESHER FRIEND for her like i cannot stress how fickle those friendships are #and he happened to feel more comfortable with me probably bc of this exact kind of shit from her #like she was sooooo exciteable about him being bi but she also got VISIBLY uncomfortable if i talked about being queer #odd girl. cant say i think im missing out much but it's still frustrating to know an entire friendship got fucked over for me #for something i literally had no part in. like i was literally just sitting there while she was weird about things #hella goes to uni

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just realized something really sad

I have two best friends outside of tumblr (my only irls that aren't roommates basically) and one of them I try to talk to constantly but she doesn't always respond, in fact she kind of barely does. I want to talk to her all the time but I always feel like I'm boring her or like she doesn't understand why I can't do some of the things I can't do.

The other one is always trying to talk to me, usually trying to call me. But I rarely ever pick up or respond or text first. My relationship with her is really complicated because some of my alters are very hurt from some things she did a while ago, others just don't trust her, and then the ones that front when we talk love her.

I have so many mixed feelings and the switches triggered by that mean I always don't answer or forget because I have dissociative amnesia about her trying to contact me in the first place... I don't know, I don't want to make excuses for myself but I genuinely don't know if this is a valid reason for treating her the way I do or if I'm an awful friend. Of course, it could also be both. I just don't know what to do. I don't want her to feel neglected by me like I sometimes do with my other friend.

#for some context about what the things that hurt these alters were ill elaborate here in the tags #so me and friend 2 have been friends for a very long time. since i was about 13-14 and were both adults now #i was raised Christian and it deeply traumatized me. i didnt deconvert until i was about 17 and even then was back and forth #i know theres a lot of variability in Christianity and maybe not everyone raised Christian will be traumatized #but i really really was. and if youve seen some of my posts about my religious trauma youll know why #when i was 18 i had just moved out of my moms house and was basically crashing on a friends couch/floor #i was extremely stressed and vulnerable at the time #and during that time my friend tried to reconvert me #i dont remember exactly what she said but it devolved into arguing and i had a panic attack over it at least once #we didnt talk for a while #shes also stated pretty directly before that she believes being transgender (which i am) is wrong #i let it slide because she apologized and stopped pushing the matter #she almost never brings it up anymore #and parts of me forgive her but other parts don't #i feel like i should also talk about the ways that shes a good friend because this is gonna make it seem really one sided otherwise #so for one shes been with me through the hardest years of my life #talking me down from taking my life late into the nights... being there when no one else was... reminding me that im worth something #shes been patient and kind and supportive all this time #she was also the person who eventually got me to realize that my parents and even my siblings were abusive and neglectful #which was a very big deal for me #i wouldnt have lived this long without her suppory #even now she checks in on me #making sure im not suicidal and reminding me that shes here for me #always reaching out if i havent responded in a while just to make sure im okay #she also struggles with a lot of the same stuff as me having had ptsd depression and an eating disorder before #so she helps me feel less alone #but now i dont ever feel close to her #and i dont know if i ever will again #i feel cruel for not telling her the truth if i haven't forgiven her yet but I don't think itd do any good for her to know

[dangaer]

shin is such a nice person and it upsets me so much that literally everyone minus his childhood friends doesn’t recognise that.

#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc. #ukyo too i think #ikki and kent im on the fence iirc i know ikki comments that shins a loner but still #theres that one scene in heart world where hes talking to ri.ka and she mentions smth along the lines of #his dad being a criminal / calling the police #and the fact that shin doesnt even blink an eye at such implications and just honestly says: i want to clear my name of this #actually devastates me #its canon shin picks up a lot of shifts for other members ( namely #mines and sawas ) #he looks out for toma in diamond world despite having feelings for the heroine herself #and hes so attuned to people that like he can /tell/ heroines got amnesia when ikki went the entire route not knowing until she told him ... #shin was def that kid when growing up that people would use as a dare to make friends / romances with and like #hes heard and been outcasted for so long that stuff doesnt really appear to affect him physically but #even mine ... his coworker. does that to him #and its only bc waka trusts in him that he gets to keep his job #if we had a hearts bad ending that didnt include toma ... yknow. shin wouldve moved away i think #heroine cares for toma more ... his name not entirely cleared or cleared with little trusting him still bc she keeps her distance #i think the stuff he hears only gets worse. especially when you consider #the year before the one hes currently in now shin would've been in highschool when heroine and toma were in university #which is possibly why hes so big on the whole im a grown up my own person kinda kick rn ... but thts a hc for another day #gotta get on with ... writing bc i do have muse im just a nightmare FYVGDVY #ANYWAY SORRY IVE LITERALLY JUST BECOME. AN AMNESIA BLOG ON HERE. we're trying our hardest #waiting for iffys to give me the special edition with the art book to preorder and then life will b complete #ive banned myself from playing / watching playthroughs of the game until it comes out bc i want that full fresh experience of all three #games ... >: ) #TBD.