#and too young to fight back)

[the-words-we-sung]

Season 3 ending

So... It's been almost a week since the last episode, almost a week trying to wrap my head around the end of the show, trying to manage my feelings about it all.

It's hard to end up feeling the complete opposite of nearly everyone on my dash but I've come to terms with the fact that I didn't love the ending. I didn't love this last episode. (I shouldn't feel ashamed or weird for saying so but you guys loved it so much that I feel a bit like an outsider right now 😓)

I haven't been a fan of the show for as long as most of you, but it means so much to me. These characters carved a place in my heart and in my head, and they've made me happy for months now. They helped me get through some stuff, made me discover some amazing artists, meet even more amazing people through this fandom. And I loved the story. Even in its darkest, saddest parts, I loved it. I was invested.

I love Wilhelm and Simon, together and separately. They mean so much to me. And I loved season 1 and 2. It made me happy, and sad, and frustrated, and exalted. But overall, I trusted the show and I was not disappointed.

Season 3 was a lot. I liked the first 5 episodes. I can't say that I loved everything about them: I was not expecting things to get so hard for Simon, with no reprieve in sight. I was not worried about Wilmon being endgame (I know it was a big stress for the fandom but honestly I never doubted that they were endgame), but I was wondering how the show would go about tying all the knots it made (I should even say all the knots it added during this last season).

(Under a read more because it's a bit long and I don't want to bother those who don't wanna read more of my frustrated thoughts ^^')

And unfortunately the last episode was a huge let down for me. Yes, it's partly because nothing I was hoping for actually happened, but mostly, it's because the choices they made did not feel very satisfying to me: ⁕ Simon was barely there. We went from him being bullied online/offline non stop for 5 episodes to almost nothing. It makes 0 sense to me. ⁕ Kristina suddenly feeling better: she was having break down upon break down for an entire season, could barely look at her son or even just talk normally and all of a sudden she's back, smiling and agreeing to everything Wilhelm says? I'm sorry but I don't buy it? Where did this Kristina hid during the entire show? ⁕ Wilhelm deciding to not be king, talking for 3min to his parents about it, them agreeing and him running into the sunset with Simon. I'm sorry, what?? I love that they end up together of course, but it makes very little sense to me? It won't change any of the issues they had this season? They're still gonna be famous? And bullied online/offline? (Probably even more so now?). I'm not obviously saying that Wilhelm staying in line to become king was the only or the best solution, but I wanted more from this storyline. I wanted to believe it. And right now, what we got? It feels a bit cheap (and I feel bad for saying that because the ending was cute and romantic and all, but it felt too disconnected from the rest of the show for me ><)

And apart from these few points, the big issue I had with this episode was: The Angst. So that might be a me-problem, but it was too much for my poor little heart (I haven't rewatched the episode yet, and I'm not sure I'll be able to anytime soon ><). I spent like 40min of the episode with a huge knot in the stomach because the heartbreak between Simon and Wilhelm was too much to handle for me. I can see how it was beautifully made, that having lots of throwbacks to the previous seasons, the Wille song, all of that was great cinematography. But it was just too much for me. I got in the season spoiler-free but for this episode? During the lake scene I had to take a break and check online if they were actually endgame because it was starting to actually give me a stomachache. So yeah, this part might be me being too sensitive but I did not like that they made me see them fight for each other for 2 seasons and 5 episodes, but then just giving up for 40min before finally running back to each other during the last 10min. It was just too much sadness for me ><

So yeah, maybe my expectations were too high? But I feel sad, and kinda cheated. Too many things are left wide opened. Too many things make zero sense to me. And of course I'm happy we got our Wilmon endgame, but I'm less happy about how it happened.

It's a bit hard being on Tumblr right now and seeing everyone who thought it was the perfect episode >< And I don't want to "yuck anyone's yum" (as the saying goes), but I still wanna be able to share my thoughts! I probably won't write super angry/unhappy/complaining posts about the season/the finale, but I still wanna be able to chat about it. I did see some posts on my dash from people not being entirely satisfied with this ending so it's a bit comforting. And I hope we can share some nice headcanons, or just discussions about different plot points.

But yeah, I guess that's why I haven't really been active this week! Trying to get over the double heartbreak of the end of the show + being disappointed with the ending! I'm gonna come back though! I miss hanging out here, I just need to strengthen my heart a little bit more :p Gonna get back to writing about my thoughts episode by episode for this season (I can't promise I can rewatch the last one though 😖 It might take me a bit of time to get there). And I want to continue my song analysis of the show!! I'm not even done with season 2 yet, I have some work to do there ^^

So see you back here very soon 😘

#young royals #wilmon #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #yr season 3 #young royals ending #it's hard to feel negative about something everyone seemed to love >< #I still have a lot to say #to try to express #I have a hundred emotions about this finale episode #all mixing and fighting in my poor brain #and it's hard to put them into words #but I'm gonna try #because I think it'll help me feel better about this whole experience #and I did like some things!! #not everything was bad!! #lots of plot points were actually great!! #(Sara for example!!) #but yeah #a lot to process #(and I'm super up to chat about it all if anyone else feels a bit or a lot disappointed too ^^) #(and thank you Lisa for being there to lament with me 💜) #(also yeah me watching gåsmamman this week was clearly a way to not think too much about young royals ^^') #but on another note #I got my Omar concert tee shirt and it made me super happy #and I still love the cast #to the moon and back #and I'm excited for their next projects #and and and #that's too many tags

[atopvisenyashill]

“why would elaena marry a dornishman when they’re nasty evil people who murdered her poor innocent brother daeron”

maybe because once elaena grew up she realized that there were better ways of bringing dorne into the realm than violent conquest, and that daeron got the death he deserved from not just a nobility that is valid for fearing subjugation from valyria but also a smallfolk sick and tired of these people showing up every few decades to set their principality on fire, and put aside any anti dornish sentiments she may or may not have harbored as a child to see the way her family had directly attributed to their suffering, eventually even falling in love with and marrying a dornish man??

also, considering daeron ii attempts a type of proto-reparations act in bringing dorne into the kingdom, it’s not out of the realm of possibility that someone as intelligent as elaena would recognize the inherent racism in the targaryen conquest of dorne and especially considering the very loud anti-dornish, deeply anti intellectual faction in the blackfyre rebellions, realized they wouldn’t be kind or understanding of an intelligent woman like herself and had no interest in herself or her daughters (of which she had four!!) getting shoved back into the maidenvault again?

like, daeron i is on some andrew jackson manifest destiny shit, and if it makes me an asshole for thinking “god i wish someone had merked jackson before he genocided & displaced my ancestors, good on the dornish for realizing you can’t negotiate with imperialists” than i am perfectly comfortable being considered an asshole right next to my girl elaena.

#everyone discoursing about the young dragon. listen. they should have tortured him before they killed him too. #anti daeron i targaryen #valyrianscrolls #anti house targaryen #idk just in case. clearly i’m not anti everyone i’m complimenting elaena & daeron ii #elaena targaryen #daeron the good #daeron ii targaryen #getting on my soap box #dorne #also when i say ‘my ancestors’ i mean that jackson passed the indian removal act specifically to remove my tribe (and several others) bc #white people in the midwest didn’t like that we wouldn’t leave. #my tribe managed to work somethjng out and only had to move a couple miles away from our homelands. others in our area were forcibly mkced #*moved. look up the potawatomi trail of death. they marched them thru illinois’ capital. dozens including children died. #also read about the fort dearborn massacre. and rising up from indian country which makes the argument that it wasn’t a massacre #but a battle bc white americans had been raiding potawatomi villages for weeks. so the potawatomi struck back and people to this day insist #it was a massacre just bc the potawatomi were better at fighting than the americans. nah. #u don’t get to wage a war of conquest on an innocent and indigenous population just to turn around and say they were mean for fighting back. #i’m sorry i woke up today and decided to choose violence. i’m in an awful mood aksjdjd

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

...... Oh wait a fucking second....

A civilization based around science and technology. Their main goal is utilizing speedforce. Taking over planets and turning everything into machines. A never ending hunger for power and resources. An Empress, who is probably a hostage, with a convenient metal hat on.....

Holy shit. It's the Thinker.

I'll bet that fancy hat on the Empress' head is actually the Thinking Cap!!

And he probably kidnapped Iris for the same reason he got Linda last time! He needs leverage! He's smart enough to learn from his past mistakes and he knows that the speedsters can/will stop him. So he needs some assurance. I bet he went after Iris because she has a connection to everyone. That's probably where he got the twins from as well and he used them to develop his speedforce tech.

Devoe is a living computer. The last time he attacked he turned all of Keystone into a giant machine. Looks familiar, right?

He was obsessed with getting Wally because of Wally's speed. With Wally's brain the Thinker could process information at light speeds. This would make him unstoppable and he would be able to take over the world in seconds.

BUT! Wally kicked his ass!

Wally's brain moved too fast for the Thinker and Wally essentially shredded his data. They thought he was gone for good... but what if he had a backup in the cap? What if there is still a 'Fraction' of the Thinker left over?

He's learned his lesson this time. The speedforce is too powerful to hook up to him directly but it can still be used as a tool. He can make 'artificial conduits'. Conduits that can't fight back. He can take the 'organic' conduits and use them solely for power. No need to repeat the same mistakes! And using the speedforce as a tool he can slowly but surely turn the entire universe into one giant computer.

It's the Thinker!

#who else would hold a grudge against the flash family? who else knows how powerful the speedforce is and wants to use it? #who else would know to go after future Iris (when she isn't protected by anyone and is all alone) and her kids (the perfect test subjects #and too young to fight back) #and turning everything into machines? needing power and materials and resources??? #THE HAT???? #bro its literally just Devoe #probably an extremely weak Devoe because hes just 'The Fraction' of The Thinker #but Devoe nonetheless #🤯 #dc #dc comics #the flash #kid flash #wally west #one minute war #iris west #the thinker

[akhmatowa]

Back in season 1 Beelzebub looked nervous, not excited for battle, when Dagon was encouraging the troops.

In season 2 they say, "Most of my demons live for Armageddon, if you can call that living".

Beelzebub as the disillusioned revolutionary who failed to foresee the consequences of their rebellion and failed to prevent the new system from becoming as rotten as the old one, but who still feels responsible for their demons, and who is feeling stuck and guilty? 🤌

#good omens beelzebub #hashtag MY beelzebub was a sheltered young anarchist who believed in god until the last minute #and when they realised how devastating the rebellion they led was for the entirety of their army #they swore to make things right again the only way they knew how - by winning the war against heaven #they were the first rebels there was no precedent of human/angel/demon rights so they had to go back to old ways #to fight in the war/bc this can't happen with anarchy #and 6000 years is not too long for demons/angels so they could suck up 6000 years of demoralising treatment if it meant a blissful “end of #time forever and ever“ for them #what I'm saying is #MY Beelzebub wouldn't abandon Hell for some angel dick #also emphasis on “ *my* demons” #like that's a person who aknowledges their responsibility!

[geometricalien]

I'm so fine <- the words of a liar after finding out one of her favorite fanfics has been deleted

#ao3 #destiel #supernatural #i. remember. it. so. vividly. too. #royalty au. age difference. castiel being gifted from his tribe to a kingdom as a warrior. expecting to be put in their military- #nope hes on babysitting duty. #the prejudice the young boy princes have for him not helped by their maid spreading false rumors and hatred!! dean trying to protect sam and #'fighting' castiel! #cas being their bodyguard! being put in a room seperated by a wall! him stopping a kiddnapping/murders! a door connecting said rooms being #installed! them slowly aging up! looking at cas with stars in their eyes! dean entering puberty and realizing his feelings for cas are Not #Platonic! cas noticing dean distancing himself! he's no longer the cute little kid who at picnics begs to sit in his lap and hear stories! #dean being forced to marry and have an heir TM #their falling out where cas ends up leaving for months? years? he learns that he was given to the kingdom Because The Elders Were Threatened #by his strength! #and eventually cas comes back and everything worked out #i wanna reread it #its like- raising a king? something like that #god i hope it wasn’t removed bc of fandom moralists in comments or bc people were selling copies of it

[shitpostingkats]

There are two, possibly three oneshots planned in the yugioh gc au for the sole reason of making sure the Arc V bois and girlies get adopted and happy endings.

#arc v I may have mixed feelings about you but its the show than made me start writing this darn thing #because I feel compelled to write out what happened to the yubois and bracelet girls #as well as adressig Yuya's staggering mental health issues #anyways #Yuri as Jaden's weird little intern i WILL fight to make this happen #as well as Yusei adopting Yugo and Rin #Yuma's too young to adopt but thats okay at least Yuto and Lulu have an actual home to go back to #the possible third installation is Jack and Crow helping Yugo and Rin move out of their apartment and getting to meet their au selves #just because I think this is a hilarious concept #yugioh gc au #yugioh #arc v #yugioh arc v #ygo arc v

[finndoesntwantthis]

I should be allowed to fist fight my favorite wrestlers when they put me through emotional distress, Hanger count your days!!!!!

#aew #hangman adam page #BUCKS COUNT YOUR DAYS #Max also at all times #the young bucks #Kenny too but he’s hurt so I won’t fight him right now #Ken let me nurse you back to health

[hysteriasgarden]

sometimes I feel guilty for disliking my parents, or moreso how they acted when I was a kid sometimes. because nowadays they're great. they're absolutely fine. so it would be ungrateful to say they're bad parents? they spoiled me as a kid if anything, they kept me safe and all that too.

but at the same time, them being good now doesn't change the fact that I needed them to be good when I was still growing. it helps nothing for them to be good parents now that I'm an adult and already fucked up from them. it changes nothing that they were slightly traumatizing when I was still developing and growing as a child

#mine #childhood trauma #parental abuse #I've recovered from most of those trauma symptoms I developed #or well... at least I cry and feel less dread when someone raises their voice nowadays #cry less* #I'm still an overly timid people pleaser with no self respect #who's too afraid to do anything to ever upset people even if it means ignoring my own comfort #because that's just what worked best as a kid #fighting back and getting upset just made things worse #doing things wrong would always instigate something #so I just learned to do things perfectly #and to accept what's dished out to me without making a fuss #I don't know if this behavior will be healthy in adult life though... #it has served me well through childhood but will it serve me in the workforce? #if things had been the opposite #if they had acted the way they do now when I was young #and been terrible now instead. maybe I'd be able to deal with them healthily? #maybe my entire personality would be different #not sure where I'm going with this #but I'm just wondering who I could've been if they had been a little nicer or a little calmer about things

[clerichs-xi]

tender as a bruise, sharper than a razor wrap her tentacles around me like she'll never let me go

klaus' backstory arc just ended heho and it was revealed he used to be the lover of the goddess of storms and pirates... she had basically kidnapped him and imprisoned him into murder and piracy for 20 years and needless to say it greatly damaged him on every level <3 its okay he's been able to be normal for once since the start of the campaign thanks to the party aka his new found family

get urself a surrogate middle-aged father who can speedrun a forbidden romance in one minute and then immediately go to confront the darkest version/a corrupted version of himself, as well as his toxic lover as she tortures him -w-)b

details and just the lines hehe

#clerichs.png #my artwork #original character #original art #original illustration #digital art #digital painting #digital illustration #dnd character #oc #oc illustration #im so unnormal about him. #he got hurt soo badly in isolation... thats where all the scars in his ref came from </3 #this portrait is of the one scar his goddess did not give him.... </3 #tfw ur jealous sea goddess lover pits you against other pirates and sea monsters to fight for ur life and test ur devotion #and she promised to love you wholly only for u to realize she doesn't understand or know what love is #and only wanted it bc everyone else who had love seemed so happy and she wanted that too #so after she destroyed everything you loved (literally your entire world) she merely treats u as a possession for 20 years #and you don't know how to ask for love because you don't know how to love either so you resent her and everything and everyone #leading rage to build up within you and you willfully slaughtering so many things because you cant handle your emotions and pain #and after deflating and sinking into apathy a rogue priest manages to break ur exterior and touch you deeply enough to let you love again #and because of him you're able to begin breaking free of everything and you lose everything again but this time #this time you wake up in a crate of fish to outstretched hands and people who love you as family even after learning who you are/were #filling you with strength and willpower even as your goddess lover comes back swearing she loved you and loves you still #and she tortures you and threatens to take everything away again if you don't come back to her but because of your love for everyone #and their love for you youre able to hold fast long enough for them to break you out #his goddess made a copy of him by warping the body and soul of a naive young man in an attempt to replace him and fill the hole in her hear #he had to literally kill the darkest version of himself that hurt everyone and he laid him to rest... catharsis if ive ever seen it #as i said. im so normal about him <3 the guy i project onto the most ever #klaus lierstark

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

help toka imprinted ((HIGHKEY I KNOW SHE DID)) on mr. mistoffolees (stray tuxedo neighbor cat who lives under our house) & chased them and i got dew and mud on my fresh white socks and she's NOT EVEN A TEENAGER YET????

#it's too early #she's too YOUNG #toka please #be patient for mummy #and DONT MF HISS O R GROWL AT ME WHEN IM TRYING TO GET YOU BACK INSIDE??? YOUNG LADY????? #like mama's glad you're making friends but them cats is crazy #they be fighting like. every night. #i'm glad mr. mistoffolees seems to treat you nicely but you don't know WHAT GOES ON #get spayed. 💥 get chipped. 💥 get booster vaccines. 💥 #thennnnn - you may go. #...................... #but if you EVER TALK BACK TO ME AGAIN— 🥿💥 #real talk tho i'm mostly playin y'all #i know how cats roll. #independent. adventurers. particular. #and toka? the tortie? sassy + feisty af #for disclaimer : this is a satirical tone #i will take the steps to ensure she is nicely prepared for the outdoor world and i /do/ want her to explore and be free #just gotta prevent the unnecessary canon events yk

[theinfinitedivides]

i hate when k-drama characters have this inner monologue and they're like 'so many people love you so you will be fine. i will leave, and you will live and you will be happy and i will not ask God to give me more than i have been allotted if i can just see you' bc that's a guaranteed way to put me on the 'let's go to emotional hell!!!!' train on a first-class ticket

#tv: moon in the day #moon in the day #pyo ye jin #kim young dae #kdrama #local gay watches MITD.txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #i'm starting to think they need to fight God in canon or something some of y'all are giving up on sh*t too early #also Kalank pun not intended. sorry i have Bollywood brainrot from the OST coming back on Spotify iykyk

[erikatsu]

im so sad over itto wtf

#rant in tags #he just #he’s so misunderstood #he’s playful and fun but when you look past that.. he’s so lonely #people are SO mean to him. they throw beans at him during festivals. try to pick on granny oni. insult him to his face and behind his back #his village accused his family of robbery simply because they were oni’s #they threw ROCKS AT HIM #and he was forced onto the streets when his parents died. picking fights with anyone who bad mouthed onis #until granny oni took him in despite what he is #NOBODY SHOWED UP TO HIS FESTIVAL BUT US #people ridicule him for being childish or a bum when in all reality #itto is still very young in oni years and they don’t realize it #his very first thought when he got his vision was his family. his mom and dad and grandparents and granny oni #and he was so excited he told literally everyone the time of day #who gave him the time of day** #they look at him with distaste and mistrust right off the bat #and these things get to him. he knows people think he’s dumb or that he is evil #to the point where he believes it too #and he doesn’t fucking deserve that at all #he doesn’t. #he is so so warm hearted and caring and would go out of his way to help strangers and risk his life for others #he deserves so much better than what he’s been dealt #im literally crying why are people so mean to him #he has so much love to give and he hardly gets any in return #my heart hurts sm

[astrxealis]

making myself suffer looking thru ffxiv stuff on tumblr when i could be playing ffxiv rn but i eternally love and miss ffxiv

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #Ough... oooooggghhhhh.......... #unrelated but i will probably make my next theme mr leon kennedy bcs how iehehebfknsnd i am over him lately #is... kinda insane! silly <3 #like. damn! damn. amidst darkest despair light everlasting. #ffxiv is so so so so so crazy from 1.0 to 6.0 and beyond and soon 7.x and and and #i miss raiding :( i miss my friends in ffxiv too. esp my best friend. #def will get back into raiding by the time 7.x ultimate comes out bcs GOD !!! god. #and okay pandaemonium & eden are my fav tiers aesthetic and story and fight wise #and memory wise bcs eden 9-12 was my first ever savage tier. meant a lot to me. still does #i played through that shit when i was . 14 y/o and newly 15 y/o LMFAO #and then pandaemonium just like. the year after. when i was 15 y/o... not even reaching 16. damn. #it's tough playing ffxiv when you're young but it's nice seeing more & more ppl around my age playing #even tho these guys most likely did Not start playing when they were like. 13/14 y/o. since i started on my bday LMFAO #it's crazy bcs i am playing w majority adults and maybe the occasional minor who is still like. at least almost an adult #^^ back then i mean bcs ok the closest friend i made when i was on eu was this guy 3 yrs older than me. that is already insane to me. #and my best friend since i'm now on oce is still a year older than me! #and it's silly (?) bcs eu i tried to hide my age at first but then they kinda found out bcs probably the way we r is just. too Different LOL #but i mean obvs it changed some stuff bcs it would be weird for probably 30 year old to be besties w a half their age kid #but the whole lil fc was just rlly sweet. :(( made a great friend i see as my big bro i am still friends w. that probably 30 y/o guy and the #kinda mom of the fc lowkey saw me & my twin as sweet kids. the person we got into xiv was like a big bro figure too and Damn his gf is rlly #cool! and the uni age students were super cool and fun to talk w. and the friends of my close friend who were also my friends were so fun. #i miss that but i look back on it all fondly ..... :3 and then w oce it's a bit more complicated bcs #i haven't had much time or opportunities to Find a group like that? but instead i found a best friend :(( #rlly close in age and w similar likes and interests and personality..... etc etc etc....... #and separately the static i & my twin joined was. Funny lol! it's silly bcs we kinda had to hide we were lil 15 y/o kids w these guys who #were all at least uni. and all of these guys were def 20-30 y/o #and one guy liked making Daddy jokes (nothing bad tho LMFAO) bcs. hesperos sheesh! #silly bcs bunch of aussies and we were almost all miqos and Thankfully ye god one other filipino YAY !!!!! #anyway. max tags. so i love ffxiv man. i miss it always even when i'm playing it.

[baconcolacan]

Okay but how would small RTord react if he woke up in older RTords body. How would he react, to his army, to his soldiers, to his friends (that he doesnt see no longer) Tom imprisoned, strapped down and all that. He seemed a bit more..decent back then

Aaaahhh, you want to know how he was like before he escalated.

Mmm, well, since we’re talking about a kid who thinks what he’s doing is all harmless fun, and hasnt been desensitized to more harmful things yet (that he actively justified as he pushed the boundaries even more), I would say….horrified, maybe.

This kind of thing doesn’t seem all that fun, and Tom is clearly really hurt, sure he used to get into little scraps with him, but it was nothing a quick bandage couldn’t fix.

This….isnt fun anymore.

#asks #regimen ao3 #So uhhh small confession in the tags: #I used to be the kind of kid RTord was #I was mean I was a brat I was the kind of kid you’d want to punt across the room #As I got older I got into fights with other kids in my neighborhood #I’d literally be asking for it and I’d come home kinda bloody #What I’m saying is its really easy for young kids to fall into bad stuff #and keep escalating it as they grow up #I’m PLENTY ashamed of the guy I used to be I wasn’t a good person back then #But I kept justifying what I did with ‘its nothing serious’ or ‘They’ll be fine later’ #Thats a bullshit excuse and too many guys like me used it without knowing the harm we caused #Eventually you stop justifying anything you do because you know you can get away with it #I cut out my clown behavior pretty early on because people around me didnt put up with my bullshit #So I’m lucky but a lot of other people arent #So yeah thats probably how I’d write little kid RTord #His older version is just the result of not enough people telling him No #And him refusing to be better #letmeaskdanielaquestion

[citrusitonit]

Omg my favrite stories r the cask of amontillado n thag one story in english abt the boy whgo acdentlly kills his sister becaug he was tired of lettign her get away wit her cruelty

#i love the 2nd story more becaug its such a moral thinker #like #who rlly is wrong here? #should he rlly have thought of a better way to get revenge? #but isnt the sisters fault for being so relentlessly abusive? #she was young but so was he #i thimk igs parnts fault bc y woug u tell ur son that he shuld be mor understanding #to his sister he nearly beat him to unconsciousness with a branch #jus bc of her condition? #he can barely understand why his sister was evn mad because he was a TODDLER #he jus wantd 2 play arnd his sisters treehouse #n the fact that they let it keep continuing like that #like theyd scold him if he tried to even fight back #because hes being 'too rougj' wirh his fragile suster #mind u theyre not even the same age. #shes wayy older than him. 17 to 13 (preteen smthn) #it describes his rage so vividly #Its in the boy's perspective so there might be more details #but ong that thing changd me

[soulaans]

getting a diagnosis is hard on it's own but being a black girl/woman trying to get one is just such a hassle like i literally rather keep living thru hell than still trying to get help

#txt #from trying to get healthcare to trying to find a therapist who can refer me to a psychiatrist like pls just take me out back and shoot me #when i was 10 i was misdiagnosed twice before getting properly diagnosed with autism #my last therapist wasn't too eager helping me figure out whether i had a mood or personality disorder.. #and ik bpd and bipolar 1 is common with the women in my family and its just like. #why are yall fighting me on this??? ''oh well ur so young it's hard to tell'' #HELP ME!!!!! 😭 like literally just listen and help me pls