#but I need to forget my problems

[otomelavenderhaze]

I could not be more white than laying on bed, with hot cocoa, listening Taylor Swift and reading Bridgerton, very much white girl behavior of me.

#personal #truee #but I need to forget my problems #so what's better than listening to all too well #Ryan Gosling is the one from my fixation back to all too well #I know I know #from the Cruel Prince back to Bridgerton I know I know #but hear me outt #I don't remember Penelope's book #I need to read it before the season

[egophiliac]

well, I can't say I expected the new chapter to feature Idia (metaphorically) going to (metaphorical) hell, getting a pep talk from his (metaphorical) Phantom brother which helps him finally move on once and for all from his brother's death, and (metaphorically) overblotting again to fight his way back out of (metaphorical) hell, only to have his darkest fear (non-metaphorically) come true when his mom goes through his computer and finds all his secret files. but I am glad it did!

also this is all a flashback for the purpose of explaining to our group what the heck is going on (whether or not any of it is getting through is another matter)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 chapter 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 chapter 7 spoilers #it's okay she said she didn't look in the password-protected folders #your secret recipes are safe #what's up guys it's IDIA TIME #red idia. redia. is this anything #(my thoughts are all over the place so this is not going to be comprehensible sorry in advance) #woooooo and his character arc is resolved!!!! #including my new favorite shroudbros interaction #idia: ortho i need to apologize for how much i must have hurt you -- #ortho: whatever niisan i went to SPACE #they're so stupid. i love them so much. #not to mention idia starting to realize something is up when he pulls 3 ssrs no problem #(stares at 3 currently-running ssr pickups) twst is mocking me personally #aw man though! i forget if he had that line before about crimson muscle coming to his entrance ceremony or if that's new #either way i think that's sweet! #there's been a bit of a running subplot that idia actually really does want to be friends irl #but is too shy/anxious and convinced crimson would hate him immediately if they ever met #so idk. it was kind of a throwaway line but it still got me! when are he and lilia gonna meet for reals :( #(this will definitely involve makeovers) (this is not how idia expected their friendship to go but he has no choice now)

[wasyago]

the kind of chemistry these two have is very entertaining

#again. relistening to the black sea arc and these two were so fun from the very beginning. i love their conversations and bickering hehehe #that's the problem i have with watching something in ongoing. i forget literally everything that happens in the previous episode #i need to take notes or something i don't know.... #because chip and igneous had a lot of fun moments that i totally forgot about and i was so confused when chip proposed to him #bc to me it felt 'out of nowhere'. they still do only know each other for 2 days so that point stands. but they're not complete strangers #jrwi riptide #jrwi chip #jrwi igneous #jrwi flint and steel #my art #sketch #also igneous is👏big👏 #grizzly said he was around 6ft and in my mind it immediately translates to 'a lot bigger than 6ft'

[basshole-astard]

this is a friendly little post to say: if you find that doing stretches for wrist/shoulders/back/whatever either 1) don't help or 2) seem to make your pain worse, then please stop doing the stretches. the answer here is not to keep doing them becuase if you push through the pain eventually it'll get better, right?

listen to me. listen. stretches never did anything for me and at age 25 i learned i had hEDS, which meant 1) most stretches would never help me 2) depending on the stretch, could hurt me, so please. if they aren't helping. please do not keep doing them hoping that they will "eventually" help.

look into whether or not you have a hypermobility disorder or EDS or smth, great resource here: www.ehlers-danlos.com

#my wrists do not need to be more flexible them being flexible is the Problem #disability bloggin #i wanna make al onger post about this kind of stuff but keep forgetting #hot tip if you suspect you might have a hypermobility disorder and/or EDS #STOP DOING PUSHUPS IMMEDIATELY. #BAD FOR UR JOINTS.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies. #What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features) #I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status. #'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point! #Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope. #Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life. #She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'. #Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING) #Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her. #She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want. #And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy. #Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow. #Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

[sanchensky]

Kids can be loud or quiet and they express affection in different ways.

But stay assured, all of them sincerely love DCA x) <3

#I love seeing them interacting with kids and I'm making it everyone's problem #need more DCA fluff <3 :') #fnaf #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #my sketches or/and animation #i was thinking I'll be doing animation in the future #still haven't done any hah #fnaf security breach #fnaf daycare attendant #i keep forgetting their ribbons goddamnit x'D

[housecow]

the difference between these two 🥺 both??

funny story though. my roommate is still taking food but my memory is so bad when it comes to things i don’t eat myself (adhd)

when i talk to friends and family about the situation the first thing they ask is, “are you sure you’re not sleep eating?” which is adorable. they wanna believe, even if for a second, that maybe i’m not truly at fault for making myself into such a cow 🥺 i get it bc im getting very fat even with the thievery but at the same time. im literally being gaslit

#by my roommate #every time j bring smthn up she’s like ‘oh??? that’s crazy??? wow’ #snd she’s a bad liar but i’m such a pushover bc #i have had the fridge so filled with food i look like such a pig i can’t blame her #it’s FINE #but how cute. i wanna start sleep eating 🥺 #funnel me in my sleep? make me confused as to how i’m gaining so fast? #i wanna ask someone why i’m having such a hard time moving around when im not eating a lot more #cuddle up to me n change the subject if i bring up how fast we ran out of heavy cream this time #<3 #talk #ask #does this count for that tag? #what if my feeder gaslit me. in a cute sexy oh u cow kind of way #i swear the funnel moves after each night and i wake so full but obviously im just forgetting where we put it each day #it’s getting hard to fit through the doorway #obviously i’ve just been lazier than normal. no way im getting that fat #we knew i’d have mobility problems but so early on? i just need to get out #it’s not because he’s started to pump more calories into me anyway he can

[smilesrobotlover]

Well thinking about my twi having dimples cuz of this post

#the problem with dimples is that I ALWAYS forget to draw them #but my Malon has dimples so #my twi also needs dimples #and so then Kori needs dimples #tho it’s hard cuz Kori and Twi have stuff on their cheeks #BUT STILL #I’m gonna CRYYYY HES SO CUTE #also not tagging the folks who made the post cuz I don’t wanna bother them and cuz idk if they wanted Lu twi #sorry I don’t make Lu art anymore #nor am I really going to anytime soon #I didn’t mean get y’all hyped up with shirtless time and wars 😔 #maybe lbl #but not lu #I did link the post cuz ketto and Ordonian hero deserves credit for this #anyways #link between links #lbl twi #love at twilight #Kori

[prince-liest]

more self-indulgent jgy abo headcanons

I read a fic so long ago that I no longer remember the fandom nor characters involved, but the thing about it that really stuck in my mind was that it was an abo-verse fic that used the concept that omegas have an ingrained biological need for physical (including platonic) affection, to the point where “touch-starvation” was a medical diagnosis

this is obviously extremely up my alley for ALL my blorbos, but consider jin guangyao in particular:

unlike the usual ‘omega pretending to be a beta’ trope, I think that once he is established at jinlintai, he would not really try to let people assume that he’s a beta. being an omega leads people not only into underestimating him, but also into offering him a certain degree of safety in providing a veil of stereotype-associated demureness, placidity, etc. it is more to his benefit for people to see him as a polite young man, perhaps even one who, yes, is a war hero - but people can’t quite imagine what kinds of things he must have done for that. surely nothing too bad.

but at the same time, this is the character who couldn't even serve tea to people as nie mingjue’s deputy without people making a show of wiping off their fingers after touching the cups. people know he is an omega, people judge him for being an omega on top of all the other things he is already judged for, but I suspect that most of the relevant and appropriate people in jinlintai avoid touching him unless absolutely necessary. in a world where casual contact is thoroughly commonplace just due to the socialities set up by their biology, jin guangyao has a personal space bubble of like 2-3 feet because he's the dirty son of a prostitute.

he walks through the halls, ostensibly the second young master of the tower, and feels like he is drowning in the physical manifestation of loneliness.

who does he have left? family? jin zixuan is not close to him, and frankly is likely an alpha raised by alphas to whom it would not even occur to that such needs need to be minded. jin guangshan certainly is aware, but is using it as leverage, allowing and denying contact as he see fits to manipulate jin guangyao the same way he does with his fatherly affection. there are his sworn brothers, but his relationship with nie mingjue is fraught: certainly da-ge wouldn’t withhold contact as punishment or leverage, but that doesn’t mean he wants to touch jin guangyao anymore, nor does he really understand how the necessity of it feels when he grew up with nie huaisang, an omega who has never been shy about taking whatever affection he wants. and er-ge... he just isn’t around enough.

lan xichen is still the best option, and by the time they have the opportunities to see each other, jin guangyao is pressing nails into his palms to stop from just plastering himself up against lan xichen’s side, which surely would be humiliating for both of them. but still, he’s so aware of it any time they’re in the same room, meting out as many small touches as he can get away with without embarrassing himself. lan xichen slips his fingers over jin guangyao’s wrists as he pulls him up from a bow, intending warm affection. jin guangyao doesn’t want to let him know that it feels like being allowed to gasp for a single breath of air before his head is shoved back underwater.

(with nie mingjue, it is worse. da-ge is just as aware as jin guangyao is when they touch, but for all the worst reasons.)

it is the strangest blessing whenever jin guangyao sees nie huaisang. it’s embarrassing, a little - the knowledge that nie huaisang understands, unlike most people in jin guangyao’s life. but nie huaisang takes that embarrassment onto his own self willingly, never hesitating before making a fool of himself in the way that only a terminally younger brother can, and simply flinging himself into his san-ge’s arms. it’s nostalgic, too: nie mingjue isn’t quite so aware of how important touch is with how proactive nie huaisang can be, and so during his days as deputy, it was often nie huaisang who gave meng yao what he could not ask for.

the cultivators at jinlintai look down on him just as the ones in the unclean realm did, but now there is no willing young master to soothe away the tangible, physical ache of it. more often than not, jin guangyao tucks his hands into his sleeves to hide the way his fingertips shake.

anyway this is my petition for jiang yanli to take two looks at this situation and promptly wrinkle her brows just the slightest amount, expressing quiet concern to jin zixuan that it’s strange how she doesn’t see anybody touch his half-brother very much, does she? and jin zixuan is a little confused, a little embarrassed, a little off-balance - he doesn’t feel close enough to jin guangyao to be that casual, but he’s an alpha, he doesn’t get it until jiang yanli explains to him, with a beta’s patience, the value of family bonds to an omega as well as jin zixuan’s responsibility as a brother (older brother? younger? his father claims older, but there’s no way to truly know - ), and isn’t it wonderful, having a little brother?

and then someone pats jin guangyao over the head until he’s feeling a little less strung-thin and out of options, he realizes he has to keep jin zixuan and jiang yanli alive lest he actually lose his mind (sympathy for da-ge? oh no...), and etc etc things end happily ever after, the end, QED.

#the untamed #mdzs #jin guangyao #meng yao #xiyao #3zun #omegaverse #my writing #personal #I think other fantastic candidates for this affliction would be mu qing and jiang cheng #though liu qingge would also be a hilarious option that wouldn't be angsty in the least just HILARIOUS #because he would absolutely forget and then inadvertently try to meet the need through like #physical combat #until it became poor mu qingfang's problem #anyway don't ask me how the happy end happens I'm not actually writing a fic here I just like to dream #I'm a happy endings bitch okay #long post #also feel free to interprety whichever relationships in this post whatever way you want on the romantic/platonic spectrum #I'm not really fussed about it #abo #storytelling post

[molagboop]

I need to draw Samus more. The one obstacle is drawing faces. It's not just that I haven't exactly nailed human faces, it's that I consistently envision her in at least six different styles simultaneously every time I try to put her to the page (that's why she looks different every time I draw her).

It's a constant battle between big and blocky (my beloved), cartoony and malleable for comedic purposes, and some hybrid look with influences from all over the place. Between wrangling the shape of the face and remembering how her hair works (harder than it sounds when you have 30 different versions of one character in your head), it's hard to find a happy medium sometimes. I'll get there, I just need to separate the different entities within the fleshy mass in my head from each other and use them appropriately.

#txt #not art #i had the same problem when i was trying to nail down how Raven Beak looks. i can see them in my head it's just a matter of #training the muscles to execute the look #i'm also going through the same growing pains designing the side characters for Winging It: I see some of them very clearly #in my head: i just need to put them on the canvas and not forget what they look like while i'm doing it #the side characters that don't come from an existing Metroid title don't have the luxury of having existing reference material online #the one i keep describing as a 'seahorse bartender' in my head and my design docs never looks the same way twice #they have a snout though: that's the only consistent element. they're like if you combined a tapir and a seahorse and a regular horse #that's the vibe

[socksandbuttons]

loving the response on dadcode and bean bloodmoon comic

#it what we wanted vs how canon decided that No. No we will never get it ever #EVEN THO... ITS JUST MAKES IT MORE DEVASTATING IF IT WAS DADCODE LIKE CMON #THATS HOW U GET A MAN TO GRIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but nooooo noooo just tool forveevrrrr #like legit u could still have killcode admit 'you were never my child then' #and still have that 'but i wasnt a good father either' AND have some implied effect of killcode wanting to fix that #but never get to it cause bloodmoon kills him!!! THEY'D NEVER KNOW THE TRUE ANSWER. #anyway u couldve done something with that BUT SURE. DONT GET A MAN TO OWN UP FOR GIVING BLOODMOON SOME ISSUES #LIKE HE LITERALLY BARGED IN AND CALLED KC DAD AND KC WAS LIKE 'surely i didnt give him familial problems' #PERHAPS NOT INITIALLY BUT U WERE THE ONE WHO SAID ITTTT #anyway forgets canon for a moment im good its fine #just love reading peoples comments on it and going yes... i provide #in art anyway! i know theres some fics out there of dadcode #the more knwon 'kill code u are the father' #WHICH I NEED TO READ but know. its got me going 'ah yes... dadcode needs'

[ox1-lovesick]

hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow) #is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER) #I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

[stinalotte]

I saw an 18th century mill (and surrounding buildings and land) for sale and all I can think about is how I want to live there with a pile of my friends and our collective kids and pets and assorted guests, grow our own food, raise some chickens and throw a few summer parties in the barn. Anyone got 1.5 million lying around so I can buy the damn thing?

#I daydream a lot about living off the land for someone who regularly forgets to water a cactus #I don't even have a balcony let alone a garden #but yeah 30 hectares no problem #also most of the time I'm an introvert #I need my space #and yet I fantasize about cuddle piles #and lazy breakfasts with dozens of people #sipping coffee while sitting in someone's lap #why do I crave connection so much all of a sudden? #hormones #it's the hormones

[youngpeachenthusiast]

sometimes i try to convince myself that my chronic pain is fake and i'm pretending for attention, but then on days like these i find a nice template for a symptom tracker and i'm ecstatic!! like, i finally found a template that might actually work for me!!!

#i was worried i would have have to make one myself #and i did NOT have the mental or physical energy to do so #but luckily that wasn't the case #i used to track my symptoms on an app but because adhd brain i tend to forget to track things on my phone #so i needed to switch to an actual notebook or something yknow #now i can finally track my symptoms properly #i printed out the thing and i organized my little notebook so i can use it now #i'm so happy about this #chronic pain #joint pain #chronic illness #chronically ill #disability #disabled #adhd #adhd problems #symptom tracking #aaaaa #fatigue #chronic fatigue #brain fog

[sturdy-nerdy-stitchery]

𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐏𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧 𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐭! 𝐆𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭, 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭! 

 It's a #FinishFriday and uh. Yeah, you wouldn't want to forget to purchase this, now would you. Not like you haven't forgotten all the 10,000,000 other things. I mean, you INTENDED to do them, but it's like the story series: 

 "If you give a mouse a cookie" 

 Read those books again. And look at it through an ADHD lens. Where are all my ADHD followers! Give this a share for all YOUR ADHD followers. Or, did you lose this post in the pile of other posts? 

 So, get this pattern. You may not finish it because you got distracted, but. I mean. Well. Uh. I forgot what I was going to say. But get it anyway because It's an ADHD pattern, you have ADHD, and we all need relatable patterns in our lives. 

 Find the pattern here!

 𝐡𝐭𝐭𝐩𝐬://𝐰𝐰𝐰.𝐞𝐭𝐬𝐲.𝐜𝐨𝐦/𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠/𝟏𝟒𝟓𝟏𝟔𝟕𝟑𝟒𝟎𝟗/ 

 By the way. If you like my content and want to support, you can buy me a coffee! OR! Just hit up the link to find free patterns in the gallery section! 𝐰𝐰𝐰.𝐤𝐨-𝐟𝐢.𝐜𝐨𝐦/ 

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𝐒𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐲𝐍𝐞𝐫𝐝𝐲𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐰𝐰.𝐒𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐲𝐍𝐞𝐫𝐝𝐲𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐲.𝐞𝐭𝐬𝐲.𝐜𝐨𝐦

#Cross Stitch #Cross Stitch Pattern #ADHD #ADHD life #ADHD problems #Wasn't I supposed to be doing chores? #Where is that one cross stitch I was working on? #I can't remember #Oh #there is that banana I forgot about #ADHD forgetfulness makes it like christmas every time I clean out my closet #This is relatable #Where are my ADHD folks! #You need this

[reinabeestudio]

you stop shaving as a woman and people just dont know what to call you anymore huh

#you ever get so annoyed that you draw ur irl self instead of your epic swag yass slay pretty sona #i didnt stop shaving for any statement btw it just drains me to do it & i havent been in the mood for months LMAO #i think i'm so used to the comfort of being surrounded by ppl presenting however they want and calling themselves whatever #sometimes i forget how. binary everything still is where i live #note that aint trans btw. i was afab & i dont fully identify as that currently but i have no problem being called a girl #and due to Health Reasons(tm) i get hairier than one would consider 'normal' for a woman (among other things) #(listen we all know gender is a nuanced spectrum but im not in the mood to talk about it in the tags of my own blog lol) #that + short + fat + voice breaks sometimes + mostly wears 'gender neutral' clothing. been mistaken for a prebuscent guy sometimes #(i say 'gender neutral' but its just regular ass baggy shirts and pants/jeans. 💥) #and if y'know me personally youre prolly reading this like 'what'. and yeah thats my reality sometimes LMAO #and im spanish so things are Extra gendered >8'D #i dont even bother explainin my gender to family its just not worth it so i take the she/her and move on #usually i dont talk about these irl things bc whatever but it's starting to irritate me lol #like. do i have to fuckin shave just to not be misgendered. fuckin christ dude #i need to get my yearly haircut btw. i dont like long hair on myself. its getting warm & it makes me sweat i hate it 🧍‍♂️