#but i like drawn out hurt

[literaila]

I need satoru and reader to actually confront some of their issues bro😭😭😭 I feel like they would after so long and them just pushing eachother away every time they get upset hurts. Like their relationship doesn’t feel serious 💀😭😭 they don’t have to confront everything all at once but I definitely think they would start communicating better and not just keep going in a loop. I love angst and hurt comfort but I need more comfort 😩

the thing about their relationship is that it is so unserious.

i mean, both of them have grown up in places where everything was overtly serious—reader had to grow up and learn how to take care of herself, and satoru has always had to be a grown up, the strongest.

so although i agree that they never really talk out their issues, necessarily (or at least not on screen)—they also don’t need to.

there’s a strong understanding between the two of them. and something a lot of people miss (or i don’t describe very well lol) is that reader needs someone like satoru—someone who doesn’t want to be serious, or talk about everything—and satoru needs someone like reader—someone to care, someone to keep him grounded.

and when they’re avoiding each other, it’s because there’s so much that both of them need to comprehend. and understanding someone like that can be very fulfilling, but also equally exhausting.

also! i must add that i really don’t write about a lot of every day things for them—because it’s not very… helpful in guiding plot purposes. but they fight a lot less than as seen. or there’s subtle corrections:

“satoru, if you keep leaving your disgusting mugs in the sink, i’m going to plunge all six of your eyes from out of your skull.”

“that’s impossible.”

a harsh glare and satoru holds his hands up in defense. “okay. no more mugs. how about bowls?”

“satoru—“

or in a more serious case:

“please stop telling megumi that he should be on the lookout for curses at school.”

“it’s a school,” satoru points out. “and megumi is basically a beacon of cursed energy.”

“that doesn’t mean he needs to worry about it every second of the day.”

“he needs to keep his guard up. it’s good practice.”

“he doesn’t need to do anything.”

satoru smiles. “sweetheart, do you want him to be hurt at school? in front of his classmates?”

“well…”

“he’s a strong kid, and he already knows about them. you can’t just expect him to forget because you’d rather him not care.”

you pout.

satoru kisses the top of your head. “he’s just going to go down to the nurses office and call one of us, just so we know.”

“fine. but i’m not dealing with it.”

“wow, you’re a real slacker, you know?”

readers biggest flaw is that she wants to deal with everything on her own, and she thinks that the world is naturally evil. she’s good at talking her feelings out—but sometimes feelings aren’t logical. they can’t be. and living with two children is definitely helping her realize that.

satoru’s biggest flaw is that he’s spent his whole life holding everyone at arms length. infinity is a huge clue to his character, and how he relates to others (it’s my favorite detail about him, can you tell??). but he has to let it go, release his limitless technique, so he can get close to reader and the kids.

they’re taking steps, albeit baby ones, but steps nonetheless.

(plus, with their relationships in the past, the moment something’s gone wrong, people leave. so they both have abandonment issues, and yes, it’s so much easier to avoid a conversation than risk losing the person you love most in the world).

it also feels important to note that parents (most of them, at least) can’t focus so much on themselves. and it plays a big role in struggling families and relationship problems. because having kids is a devotion, a huge responsibility, there’s less time for other things.

so really, i think they’re doing pretty good. i mean, if toji hadn’t died—or hadn’t existed—their relationship would be more developed, obviously. stronger. but for their circumstance, they’re two very strong and intelligent people.

and they love each other, so what else matters?

#i get you though!! #i love a good hurt comfort #but i like drawn out hurt #it’s my favooooritw #satoru x reader #gojo x reader #gojo x you #satoru gojo x reader #a typical family

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile. #This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature. #But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly' #My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out. #Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth. #I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity- #-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly. #Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose. #You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards. #Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever. #To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss. #Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'. #described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

[alienssstufff]

that one tango stream of mostly just etho decked out 2 runs

#stufffsart #etho #ethoslab #tangotek #there in spirit (literally) #decked out 2 #hermitcraft s9 #hermitcraft #hermitblr #mcytblr #shoulder started hurting forcing myself to stop - but know that i wouldve drawn more ToT #hes so DRAMATIC #i like to believe he carries that bdubs artifact around like a good luck charm #(he is superstitious) (he must say 'gem is great' 3 times for goodluck) (he must solve tangos riddles three fo--

[sysig]

“It could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I don’t believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.” (Patreon)

Bonus:

Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c #As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around! #Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins #Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.ò'' lol #But anyhow lol ♪ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship! #And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots #Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own #Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it ♪ #He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes #''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly'' #I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her- #Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person #''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :) #Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't #It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot #Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time #Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently #I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe #And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right ♪ Hehehe

[braisedhoney]

g… get it, he’s… he’s a phantom drifter… heheh…. Ha…

#danny phantom #danny phantom fanart #dp #dp fanart #dark danny #dan phantom #cowboy dan phantom isn’t a spoiler it’s just like. necessary for my survival i think that i got this out of my system #also weird new rough rendering style #just for today. just as a treat #ney’s art #also thats the best leg i've ever accidentally drawn ;; #ah... i think i'm posting too much #but i don't know what else i can do #afflicted by images #they hurt when they stay in my head for too long #torn between him having like. a themed ghost gun #or if he picks up a bullet and like. flicks it at high speeds #whatever appeals to the vlad side of his aesthetics lmaoo

[emry-stars-art]

Thoughts on prince Riko’s “perfect court” before anyone escaped Evermore ( @thefoxesraven pls remind me if it was you with the branding vs tagging idea on that insta live)

@snazzy-jas-z-is-a-fan-of came up with SO MUCH of the possible politics and family ties of this au, it was incredible to watch and I think I finally understand enough to post about it 😂 there’s a balance of power between the two branches of Evermore royalty, which balance is shifting slowly to the Moriyamas and by the end of the story belongs solely to them with Ichirou as king. I’ll try to explain it in a different post if there’s interest

(And lest we go a day without Abram angst: he does in fact get his brand and more, when he’s taken back to Evermore and Riko takes the chance to reclaim his property ‘like he should have done to begin with’.)

#CRIES I WROTE THIS WHOLE POST TAGS AND ALL AND LOST IT TO THE VOID #hhhhhh anyway. new designs who this #I think I’ve drawn riko maybe like. twice. and i wanted to give Jean curly hair #which 👀👀👀👀 sir #AND he gets to grow it out?? #oh but it hurts to think about why Kevin and Jean #who both are closer and spend more time with riko than Nathaniel #would want to keep their hair short while at evermore #in this the ‘long haired men’ au #TOO MANY ANGSTY THOUGHTS TONIGHT #but thank you so much jas for your thoughts and incredible world building #AND I could go on MORE about the unnecessary measure of Riko branding Jean #it was just to be cruel and mock him and cause him pain #AND I COULD GO ON ALSO ABOUT ABRAM AND BRANDING #but I WONT because I learned there’s a TAG LIMIT #so if you want to know. you know where to find me #dms are open etc #im also on discord and insta #30 tags smh #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #royal au #neil josten #kevin day #riko moriyama #jean moreau #perfect court

[stefisdoingthings]

a moment of love and peace for Vash the Stampede

#guys im SO sorry its a couch i didnt know back then #i'd drawn this in like #february??? #when i still didnt grasp the genious of vash's design #so he looked to out of place and disgusting and plain and boring #and wolfwood looked like a grown up version of tristamp ww #which i hated cuz it didnt match #anyway now i painted over it with no shame and its good enough to post #they make my brain hurt #trigun #tri98 #trimax #trigun fanart #my art #vashwood #vashwood fanart #vash the stampede fanart #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood fanart

[furylad]

the actual writers: Ed feeling jilted by Stede brought out the Kraken

Lucius: you (Stede) broke him and then he broke me

Izzy: we both did this to him

fandom brainrotters: Izzy better take full responsibility for literally creating the Kraken and being the sole reason any of this is happening instead of trying to completely blame Stede ugggh

you guys are just not media literate huh?

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #izcourse #stede bonnet #edward teach #the amount of information you have to ignore to come to that conclusion is just so funny #idk what everyone is doing while they're watching the show but clearly you're not paying attention #I accidentally left out the parts where Stede also acknowledges he really hurt Ed #was just quick shitpost ayyye #also disclaimer that I think Ed was on the brink for a long time and the responsibility for what happens is drawn between the 3 of them #in like a fucked up circle

[lesbiradshaw]

bradley & carole moodboard for suffering purposes

#people downplay how much they meant to each other and how losing her would have impacted him just as much as losing his father #like. she raised him. she was his whole world growing up. and the implication he lost her as a teenager right before everything Else :( #also the implication it was a drawn out process #and she didnt even get to see him graduate high school oh i feel faint #theres so much more to his grief than falling out with maverick. and it is not stuff he is going to ‘get over’ with a hug. anyways #i need to finish this stupid ficlet but writing from carole’s pov is making my heart hurt #bradley rooster bradshaw #carole bradshaw

[luck-of-the-drawings]

been followin slimes POV of the qsmp since it started but mMY GOOOODDDDD i never expected to fall so in love with it... I LOVE THE TRADGEDY OF A COMEDIC CHARACTER! so funny so silly, who could ever take him seriously? when the reaction to grief can be so overblown and strange, its hard not to laugh! because wheres the line, really? we're just here to have fun! i look forward to the day this guy snaps! its gonna be REALLY FUNNY i tell ya hwat!!!

(CREDIT TO A COMIC I REFERENCED UNDER THE CUT)

something about this comic makes me so so emotional, and its so well framed. to discover something by the end of a comic, to follow the same line of thought as a character within a drawing, to either come to the same conclusion, or the dramatic irony of figuring it out first. it was made by the talented Lynda Barry, and she has a wonderful shop here https://drawnandquarterly.com/books/greatest-marlys/

#q!slimecicle #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp slimecicle #NOT MY FIRST TIME DRAWIN SLIMECICLE BUT ITS DEF BEEN A WHHHIILE. THIS IS HOWEVER MY FIRST TIME DRAWIN THE OTHERS #LIKE ive never drawn philza or cellbit or pol or bbh before. i looked up MINIMAL refs and went off their minecraft skins. hope yall like em #FUN FACTS! i gave q!slime the green flannel (but the green plaid is silent) bc of katastrophics design for him #he also has the 3 hearts n the Bra'ad sash bc OFFCCC u just cant see that gay lil bag here #maybe one day ill draw a qslime with more detail #IN OTHER NEWS ! this series fascinates me SOOO MUCH! THE FEDS AND THE CODES N THE EGGS AND WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAANN??? #I HAVVEEE theories abt juanaflippa. SPOILER WARNING IG BUT IM ABT TO RAAAAMBLE!! #SO this totally isnt flippa right. like this is someone else. this is one of the code beasts piloting either a costume or a corpse #BOTH INTRIGUE ME. but nonetheless. this thing is NEW and it is LEARNING and it LOVES ITS DAD #ITS NOT FLIPPA BUT OHH HOW NICE IT IS TO BE FLIPPA! TO BE FED AND HUGGED AND LOVED SO SO SO MUCH #AND YET SOMETHING IS SO TERRIBLY WRONG. SOMETHING IS BLEEDING OUT AND INFECTING THE AIR AND SOIL AND SPACE #AND ITS HURTING CODEFLIPPAS DAD! ITS TURNING HIM INTO SOMETHING ELS.E. HE DOESNT CARE BUT CERTAINLY SOMEONE ELSE DOES #MAYBE THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM. BUT MOST CERTAINLY IT MUST BE EATING AT THIS POOR LITTLE CODE #THIS POISONOUS LITTLE THING. THIS DISEASE. THIS VIRUS. IT JUST WANTS TO BE HELD A LITTLE LONGER. BUT AT WHAT COST?

[eerna]

not done talking about The Tale of the Ronin and the Bride yet. the way it begins making you think that the Ronin's desire for revenge is what is gonna turn him into an army killing machine. Mizu is the Ronin and she is presently killing an army so it makes sense, right. the Ronin is seeking revenge for his master while there are cuts to kid Mizu vowing to avenge her mother. it's so clear how the puppet tale parallels Mizu's life. and then they go SIKE YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW WHERE WE WERE GOING WITH THIS AND YOU WILL BE PUNISHED WITH ONE OF THE COOLEST EPISODES OF TELEVISION YOU'VE EVER SEEN IN YOUR LIFE

#AND it works this well ONLY in context. only if you've already drawn your own conclusions about mizu across the hours you've spent watching #it could have so easily veered off into ''woman is strong because a man hurt her'' but it did NOT. FOR A MOMENT. #honestly there are so many things abt this show that should not work but work perfectly because the writers know how to approach the situat #that's why i am not super concerned about how much i dislike that finale decision. who knows maybe it will work out like every other thing #bes liveblog

[dramarants]

i only want love triangles if it's whatever fucked up polygon junmo kicheol and euijeong have going on

#the worst of evil #ranting #idk how to articulate how juicy it is #junmo's fierce protectiveness of his wife - he trusts her but can't help his jealousy fear or frustration while trapped in the situation #euijeong hurting but putting her own life on the line worried for her husband while unpacking the memories of her first love #she can't help but sympathize with kicheol and what he's endured; haven't seen much of how she feels rn but it must be c o n f l i c t e d #(not necessarily even in a romantic way but wanting to root for a person chasing their goals who was once so important to you) #(all while grieving her mother without the support of her literal goddamn spouse by her side) #and kicheol. also grieving and trying to establish a place for himself and his crew yet drawn to junmo despite the red flags #his panic and desperation when jungmo bled out on him which must have triggered his own memories of losing taeho #junmo who has every reason to despise kicheol barely concealing his general rage but protects him like it's second nature at every turn #all while conflicted as a bystander to atrocities (and now willfully leaving another cop to die to protect himself his wife and the mission #getting mentally and physically pummeled left and right just bc his superiors demand it from him #all to please euijeong's family by using the promotions to prove himself and get rid of the stigma weighing him down #like !!! #and haven't even touched on kicheol wooing euijeong against his buddy's wishes and in such a pure heart fluttering way #accepting the risk for a second chance to bathe in the bright light she used to shine on his life #OMG AND BIBI'S ENTRANCE!! junmo realizing her interest gives him leverage and agency but struggling to use it to his advantage #it's soooo messy and i'm obsessed #that funeral arc is gonna haunt me for years #as is the tension during the pat down which def was supposed to be like a gang pride/dignity/lack of power against the jp folks thing #also testing their relationship and responsibilites as leader subordinate #but felt charged around whether kicheol would protest or junmo would accept the manhandling in totally different 👀 ways #goddamn i wrote an essay and this doesn't even scratch the surface of the meat of the show #tldr; i have many many feelings and for once the 'love triangle' isn't making me gauge out my own eyeballs #it's about power it's about raising the stakes and revealing things about the characters w/o dominating the plot

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

This was home.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #blood #Good bye Jiang Disciples. May you live on in the Lan Wangji in lotus pier AU. #This is going to be the start of a bunch of sad scenes I desperately try to undercut with humour. #You may ask where Elle Woods is considering her help was requested. #The canon answer is that she didn't make it there in time. This is the reason why WWX has the pink phone in present day. #It is a favour she owes him out of apology. #I am also making it canon that Jiang Cheng hates Elle Woods for not being there. His two Nemeses in PD-MDZS are Elle and WWX. #This is why Jiang Cheng doesn't have the phone. He would hunt her down but Bruiser bit him really bad last time he tried. #His pride is too hurt to try again. #I don't think I've done a wordless comic in a while - what a fun challenge! #I'm getting lots of practice with backgrounds in the last few comics - I really feel like I'm getting more comfortable with it! #Obviously I still have a long way to go but this is a journey B*)

[tequiilasunriise]

Let’s see here- an abusive, narcissistic prick who manipulates women and has a clear red raging bull design but the fandom calls him a “fucken goatman” regardless?

At the very least Adam was so homophobic that, in a roundabout way, he became the number one Bumbleby truther (“I will make it my mission to destroy everything you love, starting with her”, “WHAT DOES SHE EVEN SEE IN YOU?!”, etc etc), the fuck does Montyass got going fer him???

#also blake and ada are both bisexuals wh got manipulated and hurt by these two respective dipshits but ada got NOTHING on miss bellabooty #ada girl please i understand this is a realistic deciption of someone suck in a cycle of abuse #that as a victim of hostility you are drawn to all that u know and willing to take in any scrap of positive attention u can no matrer how fa #-fake whoops tag limit #BUT GIRLY PLEASE GET UP GET UPPP U CAN DO SO MUCH BETTER LIKE #LIKE YEAH I UNDERSTAND WHERE UR COMING FROM AND HOW U JUST HAD A HUGE MENTAL BREAKDOWN #AND HOW ANNABEL MADE IT WORSE BUT SAYING NO ONE IS GONNA TAKE U SERIOUSLY AND MONTYASS CAPITALIZED ON THIS #BY SEEMINGLY TAKING U SERIOUSLY AND NOW UR UNDER HIS SPELL #BUT HOLY FUCK!!! ARE U MAKING BAD CHOICES RN!!! #meanwhile Blake’s arc of growth past her trauma of domestic abuse and learning to trust others and love herself #the chef’s arent kissing bro this is cHEF’s W E D D I N G #rwby #bumbleby #blake belladonna #nevermore webtoon #ada nevermore #no i wont tag the ship name fuck that noise stay out stay out sTAY OUTTTT‼️‼️‼️

[coughloop]

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#idk how many people actually go to protests and marches and vigils on this site #but i think tonights was the first time ive ever felt kind of dissapointed by one #not because of the vigil itself #i guess i was just hoping a vigil in front of the local israeli conculate for ALL martyrs would've drawn more than like 50 -75 people #yes it was below freezing yes it was windy #but were all people who live in a cold city #and can dress warm for it #and know how to tough it out #and even if we werent its such a tiny discomfort for such a short amount of time to act like its a reason to not go to something #idk i guess i thought more people were deeply enough affected by Refaat and Hind and Aaron and every other martyr we know by name #and the thousands and thousands and thousands we dont #to show up and stand in the cold for a little while #to feel like we can honour them in some way #to hear Refaat's words read allowed (which has hurt consistently but is so important to feel) #idk where im going with it i think i just need to get it all out #its been a very weird day

[micahthemoon]

May 27 2023 Okay, you know what: I am low key angry about all the buzz that Käärijä is getting for having a normal body. People call him ‘fat’ and having to ‘lose weight’ but to me, he looks muscular and healthy. And it is not just online since I first encountered it irl with two girls calling him ‘Winnie the Pooh’. Do you know how much I’d give to have his body? To have his confidence? He is out there proudly showing his surgical scars and his tummy, and all people can see is that he is not model thin.

#this turned out to be more about jere/käärijä than my own gender identity so I'll elaborate a bit here #when people go after käärijä like this it hurts me and probably other like me since I do really wish I looked like jere #my gender envy tells me that this is the ideal to go for #I have actually never really felt drawn to the hollywood thin men and scrawny boys makes me anxious that I'll break them by touching them #and I know I'll never be thin #so people going after jere feels like an attack because if he is not good enough for you guys I'd never be good enough either #I have a strongly feminine coded body and I hate it even if people compliments it #so if let's say I actually ended up looking like jere then how would people even see me? these people's action tells me that they'd scorn me #scorn me for looking like my ideal self #for looking freaking normal #think about all the people looking like jere right - you are putting them down as well #by commenting negatively on one person's body you do not only hurt the person themselves but everybody with the same body type #or idiots like me having this bodytype as their ideal #micah out #käärijä #jere pöyhönen #esc #esc2023 #transgender #nonbinary #transmasc #gender envy #late entry #entry #findingmicah #also sorry for the rant