#cant die anyways

[npdlangley]

mfw. theres no actual point to my existence

#txt #i dont remember any of my childhood + i have no future that isnt just me looking after my brother and i always have to think of it so i #cant die anyways #and because of my crappy childhood (which i can barely remember) im unable to form healthy attachments anf have healthy relationships with #people i love and care about #and my sense of self and how i view otehrs is permenantly ruined and ill never be the same ill never be a kid #ill never get to be ok in the way i shouldve as a cjhild #i wasnt even safe online i was in a crpapy abusive friendship / relationship for a good few years and felt powerless and felt so much dread #and i got itno things i shouldnt have and no one saved me #or said anything #no one cared or did anything #no one treated me nicely #no one ever will #im doomed #im nt meant to be here #i wasnt meant to exist #i was supposed to be long gone forever ago #i shouldve fuckign died back in middle school like i hoped #mybe i shouldve gotten into a lousy car crash i dont know i dont want to be here #i have no purpose besides looking after my brother but tghats it #he shouldnve have been born i shouldnt have been born #my parwnts shouldve never married or gotten together or even met

[lieu-rey]

uhm uh. rdr jovier.

#rdr2 #rdr #javier escuella #john marston #jovier #red dead redemption 2 #when you have to kill your lover to save your wife and child. #and you cant look at his face bc you cant face what you had to do. #red dead redemption #red dead #can A/I_art die already i dont like how glaze makes my art look like jpeg images lmao #um anyway. jovier still on the brain. i promise i draw other rdr stuff besides them JFKEJNFN #i still have a bunch of stuff to post stay tuned<3 #oh fuck i forgot the tws #tw blood #tw death #nobody: #my brain cell immediately attaching to the only mexican character in a piece of media: #my art

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[lessthanimpressedlesbian]

I feel so vindicated knowing that we all read those many microexpressions correctly. Laura was really playing an anxious queer woman in love with her best friend so accurately that we couldn't help but pick up on all the little nuances.

#critical role #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #cr lb #laudna #imogen temult #imodna #laura bailey #its just nice to know we werent reading into it too much #and that what we all saw was real #maybe some of it wasnt intentional but so much was #laura has been acting her heart out and i love her for it #now i just wanna know when imogen realized she was in love with laudna #personally i think it was when laudna almost went down the first time with fhe shade mother #i think she realized then that laudna could die #she definitely knew by the time they left for the heartmoore bc you cant convince me she wasnt pining when she was holding laudnas hand #she had it inna death grip and wanted laudna to go into her dreams #thats so gay shit right there #anyway

[socksandbuttons]

I HAD TO DRAW SOEMTHING DOWN FOR MY DUDE!!! I have Thoughts about all all this but good god this mans been rally thru it, they both have. AND YET HUGS ARE SO FAR AWAY. Don't worry Solar, you get hugs later. I'm just gonna assume his moon wrote down that note for him.

#nice eclipse i love u so much gdi canon will take u away from me i know IT #anyway rip this poor man he knows his other self is so traumatizing and cant do anything about the effects of it #hesso tired but he persists to be kind. understands he has to keep a distance BUT BRUH HE MISSED LUNAR SM CMONN #HE WAS WILLING TO DIE FOR LUNARS SAKE IT DRIVES ME WILD anyway analysis later maybe #earth and lunar show #sun and moon show #sams good eclipse #sams solar #tsams #lunar and earth show #god what IS their tag fbdnjdkds #myart #sams earth #sams lunar

[nethersonq]

woa those shirts are so cool where did you get them...

something something the "draw your favs wearing their most traumatic experience on a shirt" thing people were doing on twitter

#art #fanart #scribbles of a housefly #yugioh #yugioh dm #yami bakura #marik ishtar #malik ishtar #bakura #thiefshipping #do you ever just stare at your own art for ages bc you cant believe you drew it. or is that just me #like woa.... i did that... with my own two hands... woa... #anyway stupid goobers i hope they die (lovingly)

[beatcroc]

something about perspective, representation, or finding beauty in imperfection, i don't know. i mostly just wanted to say that fake pep looks like shitty ice cream.

#this was one of those things i thought of and was like. i cant believe i havent seen this done yet. it's right there. #misshapen and melty and the weird orb eyes are never in right....but that's the charm of it you know #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #it's not important but technically thats dougie jones in the van #was going to have it be noisette at first bc lbr awful ice cream is SO on brand for her #but she was not inconsequential enough. needed 2 be fully bg type character u kno. #i dont know maybe hes selling them for her by proxy #i mean dougie works for the noise right? maybe he knows noisette+does her bidding too #<- doing the thing i always do where i find the MOST trivial characters or bits of lore to bring to the forefront for the hell of it #u guys havent gotten much of that here with pt yet but we may get there. i do think about mr. incognito too. #also SNICK i want to do stuff with snick i like him. we'll see. we'll see. #pizzaposting #anyway the second panel is my fave fp ive drawn yet also PLEASE fullview the first image. i die

[kroosluvr]

spare bento [ you are here! / part 2 / part 3 ]

"... well, was there anything about the bento you didn't like? so i can fix it for next time?" "there won't BE a next time."

#imnever doing this again i spent like 17 hrs on this over 2.5 days IM DONE. anyway same time next week? #myshoulder hurts but nothing i cant handle.... imust draw shuakesumi or else i die #sumire yoshizawa #goro akechi #akira kurusu #royal trio #persona 5 royal #p5r #cele draws

[allgremlinart]

#atla #this is nothing. anyway did Long Feng die I cant remember. is he just in jail . ? forever ? funny if true

[0vergrowngraveyard]

"tails" takes an L

#this is the 3rd time ive made this post #i keep changing things. i cant stare at this for too long or else ill find like 50 mistakes #anyway rip bozo am i right? blue boy why too slow #hug fan of whenever forces fics have an illusion of tails die in front of sonic #i really like how the rendering on this turned out tbh #and i did just end up using the sketch and not making cleaner lines lmao #tw blood #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #infinite the jackal #sonic forces #art

[medicalunprofessional]

Its you

#nightmaretheater #psychonauts #morceau oleander #coach oleander #<- hopefully it reads. Its kinda. You cant really see her you know… #gore cw #blood cw #Sorry i had to watch a video of rabbit butchery several times for refference you gotta see it too now sorry #he pulled the skin off that thing like it was fabric 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 #anyways. Augghhn . Aughgjmgm hgGGH #OUUGHH..Starts cryinng really loudly #collapses on floor rolls around continues crying #has hesrt attack and dies #IM SO SORRY MY HORRIBLE WIFE #😢😢😢Uuwgwgahng g nebshhabendn fnabsjenhwhd #My only other thougjt: Huh that would make s good album cover #anyways time to collapse and die for like an hour #also apparently this took me 3 hours which i personally refuse to believe because HOW #also i did the rendering on one layer (scary)

[birdricks]

i love you (but i never had a choice)

#rick and morty #jerry smith #beth smith #jerbeth #beth sanchez #GYYYAAAAAAAHHH…. they make me sad #thinking like everyyyy day abt beths and jerrys being forced together by the citadel. #do u think they ever like. saw the ricks out of the corner of their eye. or in their dreams deep in their subconscious #beth wondering why she thinks of her father when shes with jerry #jerry feeling a strange sense of familiarity when meeting rick for the first time #IDK. its smth i think about #oh this is kind of an aside but im curious abt those ricks whose beths didnt die. like did they All abandon her as a kid #or did some take the tech and stay for the most part....? #anyway #i cant believe i drew jerbeth before b*rdrick lol but whatever. thats the wayyyy the news goes #<- censored just so it doesnt pop up in the tags #cw eyestrain #? maybe . idk #i was a bit lazier w the lines on this one but i think it turned out nice. goes to show it is not worth it to put one billion hours in #artsbotz

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[flamemons]

It's alright to scream

I'm screaming too

Why'd you think I do the things I do?

For shadows haunted me like ghosts

So I became what I feared the most

I conduct fear like electricity

A manmade monstrosity

Killer — The Hoosiers

i woke up from a nap with this song stuck in my head and. yea

#kouichi kimura #koichi kimura #digimon frontier #digimon #AGH ok drawing to a song is. a new level of vulnerability for me and im trying to get past the mental block of OH THATS TOO CRINGE #because cringe isnt REAL #((but it sure feels like it)) #i fucked up and accidentally made a kouichi playlist and so many of my favorite edgy songs ended up applying to him #and i was like....hmm ok.....this kid is suddenly very interesting #...not that he isnt already very interesting like. he is but hes still sort of hard to grasp since he never had time to really be himself #....anyway #i have. so many thoughts about songs i associate with takuya but. i cant draw that #because i would go through organ failure #like i would literally explode and die #oh the struggle of admitting i have human emotions

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[socksandbuttons]

Silly idea but... Bean Eclipse or Bean Bloodmoon finally starting to cuddle with Killcode? They say it's cold... But reality they just want hugs?

Behold! They kinda fight about it.

KC just was happy they wanted to be near him but now its clear to him they're competing (also very desperate for affection).

#i dont think bloodmoon would hide he wants hugs #theyre rather direct but also unaware of like their own feelings lol #eclipse will die on the tsundere hill tho #this is like wayyyy later gnkwlsva #killcode: why are my children like this #lunar: trauma and egos #kc: .....when is it not trauma #lunar: I cant answer that daddio #myart #anyway had this drqwing for like a week oop #bean eclipse au