#death by suicide

[carrotzcake]

thinking about the people who have died by suicide, those who left a note that no one got to read. friends and family who say there were no warning signs; the deceased rolling over in their grade, i tried to tell you so many times.

#personal #suicide #death by suicide #suicide note #mental illness #depression #anxiety #bipolar #warning signs #i'm fine #rest in power #love you

[movievillaindeaths]

Supremor Dar-Benn - The Marvels (2023)

Dar-Benn begins to disintegrate when she places both of her Quantum Bands together following a confrontation with Captain Marvel in outer space, causing her body to violently explode and tearing a large hole in the fabric between realities.

#movie villains #villain deaths #zawe ashton #death by disintegration #death by bodily explosion #death by suicide

[xpainstopx]

NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH

#unfortunate #hope you enjoy #death wish #death by suicide

[liberalsarecool]

Republicans spread trauma.

#suicide prevention #mental health #opioid epidemic #death penalty #poverty

[monettsuki]

Kiyoko - OC lore post

Just a ton of lore from one of my rants to a friend-

Tw: death, suicide , suicide idealisation (a bit)

Kiyoko and a spirit that has been with her since she was a child have not so much of a good relationship

It's like Christine and the angel of music in a way

Kiyokos spirit encourages her to keep going with her acting career while at 17 she's burning a "bible" in her fireplace with a cross placed on top and prays a higher entity will stop her from taking her own life due to all the pressure

Kiyoko is forced to choose between her right at life and the self destruction her passion brings and if she wants to become an automaton of her own accord or just escape everything through death and giving it all up just so she can enjoy some freedom

Freedom which even in the little time she has free is restricted due to her friend's habits of exploring abandoned places and the last one they went to only Kiyoko and two other people got out alive (from a group of 9) and she was forbidden to go explore such places anymore

When they tried to ask her she became unresponsive and her spirit was nowhere to be seen for a month after that incident happen as she seemed to sense something or someone grasping onto Kiyokos soul as much as it can without hurting her physical or mental form

Kiyokos fate is inherently doomed as spirits seem to find a creepy kind of comfort just by latching onto her soul. They feed on her pain like parasites and the spirit trying to guide her doesn't make it much better with her critique of every little thing she does on stage be it rehearsal or an actual play in which she thought that she was doing well which leads to her going onto a downward spiral until something snaps and she is found on the floor of her chambers with a bottle of medication that I'd heavily advised not to take in large doses, and thus she dies her dream of being one of the greatest actresses dies and the bodily form of the person that had said dream

She becomes a spirit, being at the middle of the living realm and the realms in which dead souls reside to find themselves in a better predicament, creatures create realms in which *their* dreams are made into reality but before she can enter that place to live out her dream, a *delusion*, fabricated by her in which she thought she would be finally happy and at peace

She is eaten by the same souls that latched onto her soul all along while she was alive , they latched onto the delusion Kiyoko had created for herself and it had been her greatest dream but if it actually went according to plan it wouldn't have worked out. She was not to be happy still in a dreaded circle of being criticised and becoming better, she *had become* the greatest of them all but that didn't mean that she would be happy, she had the support of so many people but she didnt find happiness in it because after all she was alone and had become what she feared the most an automaton which needed fixing all the time

So at that last incident the problem wasn't that they were attacked by creatures that obviously killed a majority

The problem was that they were lured with people they once loved or rejected their affection it wasn't just a simple bohoo they were someone that left you they were the people that swore they'd love you but something came up and you had to be separated to never be united again or that person left and you had no power into saving them

Kiyoko *did almost* die there. A creature had imitated a person she once loved dearly but she had killed herself 4 years prior due to finding out her parents had already arranged her marriage when she turned 18 to a 40 year old man that by then was going to be almost in his 50s and thus they found her hung in her lavish bedroom and the one that actually found her was Kiyoko, who came just to visit and say her apologies and grim "congratulations" so she can please the girls parents , there was a suicide letter on the girls desk at that time , explaining why she had done this and that *they WILL* meet in another life, in one which didnt make it so theyd be separated

Kiyoko was tempted to immediately throw herself at the creature, believing it was her , a delusion which was broken by a friend who grabbed her and dragged her while they ran as the creature had revealed what it was finally and decided it wasn't gonna let go of such a desperate soul that longed for closure from the one that she lost

But for them to have been able to copy her exactly they'd have to have consumed her soul in death , which also happened to Kiyoko but she wasn't attached to any creatures so hers was a much more painful process

In the end they were reunited but at the cost of their dreams, their lives and souls which could have lived on in the dream realm which most went to but they have undergone such degradation during the time when they were alive and they were so weak so they were just consumed doomed to forever live in the shadows and roam the darkness which awaited them ahead

People have said that they sometimes could see two of the spirits found in an abandoned opera house dancing together in a tango that was both intelligible and romantic as if it was a dance of doomed souls that never could have made it out alive with the lives they had and death was their only salvation and way to be together for eternity

In life they were never meant to be happy, not together not anything. They would've lived their lives in a painful manner which would have led them to being more sad than happy

Sure the girl could've just poisoned the guy and run away or take all his money but her family would have found a way to get her married to some old asshole that needed a brand new wife that could easily be moulded how he wished her to be and obey all his commands with no complaints and in the end she would've been broken apart mentally and unable to function other than being a pretty doll in the harem of mistresss which her "husband" had

And Kiyoko sure could've just left the threate life but for her *that was* her life's purpose, what she was supposed to be doing not anything else. Her parents instilled in her that if she wasn't on the stage she was a failure, a mistake , a mistake made by the very own gods they seemed or said that they worshipped and wanted her to be a star no matter if she agreed or not

They were constrained and by the fact that both their families were influential and no matter what they did they would be found on way or another, there's always people that could snitch on them for a large sum of money or the promise for a better life and they fully know that

#my ocs <3 #oc lore #writers on tumblr #tw sui talk #angst #angst with a sad ending #death by suicide #angst writing #oc writing #Spotify

[bamsara]

goofies

#trod au #pre-final battle #the rehabilitation of death #narilamb #doodles #shitpost #tw blood #tw suicide implication (?)

[intersectionalpraxis]

A six year old wanted to be run over by a truck so he could be with his family, but he ended up dying from hypothermia... if that isn't one of the most heartbreaking statements to read I really don't know what else to say, because this is just a child. A six year old boy. The world has failed you. The world truly has failed the children of Gaza in so many ways.

#feminist #social justice #free palestine #palestine #free gaza #settler violence #settler colonialism #war on gaza #gaza news #gaza strip #gaza #gaza genocide #end the genocide #end the occupation #ceasefire now #ceasefire #tw child death #tw suicide #children of gaza

[wutbju]

CW: Death by Suicide

As proof of BJU's brutality, take the case of Murray Parsons Havens.

He was, as the 1961 Vintage states, the Director of the Art Gallery and Museum and Curator of Paintings.

In January 1962, he got an extra job at WFBC-TV:

On March 23, 1962, Murray's 13yo son, Glen, came home from sports practice. They lived in a BJU-owned house at 307 White Oak. His mom was an X-Ray tech at BJU, and his grandparents were also staff.

Glen came home to find the whole house locked up. He couldn't get in. He climbed in through the bathroom window to find that his dad, Murray, had bled to death. The News reported the facts:

Murray and Bob Jr. had had a terrible set of arguments during that time. Something about a show that wasn't right in Jr's eyes. His rage pushed Havens to the brink. Helen, Murray's wife, had 24 hours to vacate her home.

24 hours.

I have the police report. I've seen the photos of the death scene. And Bob Jones University provoked this.

Do you really think "positive" talk would cure this cruelty?

#Bob Jones University #1962 #Murray Parsons Havens #Death by Suicide #Glen Havens #BJUisNOTSafe #YeahTHATGreenville #M&G #Art Gallery

[movievillaindeaths]

David Kane/Black Manta - Aquaman and the Lost Kingdom (2023)

Black Manta is left hanging onto the edge of a cliff when Kordax's throne room begins to collapse, and when Aquaman offers to save his life, Black Manta stubbornly refuses his help and instead chooses to fall to his death into the fissure below.

#movie villains #villain deaths #yahya abdul-mateen II #death by falling #death by suicide

[paxopalotls]

My totally 100% canon interpretation of the portal accident

#danny phantom #danny fenton #danny phantom fanart #danny fenton fanart #tucker foley #sam manson #everlasting trio #they're my sillies #suicide joke tw #death joke #if there's any other cw's I should tag lmk #pax art #pax doodles

[kishdoodles]

Spring

'What if Renchanting duo were the last two left' AU (with a Jesus Christ Superstar coat of paint)

#happy good friday btw #art #mcyt #doodle #doodles #treebark #trafficshipping #3rd life smp #3lsmp #renchanting duo #inthelittlewood #rendog #i have a tagging system to keep by god if anyone sees this it's not my problem #itlw #tw implied suicide #tw death #tw blood #gagagate #technically

[toboldlymuppet]

broken but not destroyed

WHAT A DISAPPOINTING AND HEARTBREAKING FINALE? To have the man who was abused, mutilated, and disabled for protecting the crew, to have a suicide attempt survivor who crawled on the ground, to have someone who battled depression and alcoholism, to cement his role as the 'Ship's Unicorn" (the figurehead that protected the crew) only to reduce him as someone who "had to die" because he had no more narrative feeling, what a slap to the face. DJenkins said he didn't want to fall back into old tropes and burying your gays, but there's an elder disabled queer man you just buried for what, to absolve Ed of his abuse? Izzy died thinking he DESERVED the torture done upon him. What a disgrace. Izzy fans rallied and kickstarted a S3 renewal Campaign. And many of us are heartbroken and grieving for a show who promised kindness but only justified the abuse we've gotten the past months? We stayed and hoped better because of kindness and belonging. "This show is kind" has never rang more hollow. I'll still love and create art for him, but I don't think I can trust any other queer show again. I thought this would be different. Do you want a queer show full of kindness and found family, for all queers, the disabled and survivors and the rough around the edges ones? It's not Our Flag Means Death.

#izzy hands #israel hands #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd spoilers #cw suicide mention #what a fucking disgrace of a show spouting about love and family #ofmd #our flag means death

[sermna]

They found her less than 5 miles from her house. Her hair was tangled with weeds and her fingernails were bent back with dirt; she'd been digging.

Digging even long after her body was drained of blood. Digging in frantic, sloppy movements. Digging to reach █████████ █████ ███████?

#something is wrong with odelia jones #swoj #suicide #death #self harm #my art

[seananmcguire]

I know I periodically ask people to look at Alice, but I would like to explain why.

That, above, is Alice when she was just ten days old. It was December 2008, and I had gone to Seattle to prepare to die. I was tired, I was dealing with a massive disruption in my social circle, and I was done. So I went to see friends, and to say my goodbyes before I went home and politely made my exit. I had a fully articulated plan, and no desire to tell people about it, which is not a good place to be.

Then we went to visit Betsy, who had recently ushered a litter of kittens into the world. And she put this little blue tabby potato in my hand and said "That's the girl."

And just like that, I decided to live. "Do you take checks?" I replied, and Alice entered my life.

(That makes it sound much easier than it was. Betsy was intending to keep Alice, who was without flaw by Maine Coon breed standards. Seriously, she was the kind of cat breeders work to produce for their entire careers. I spent two months wearing Betsy down before she agreed to let me have her.)

Alice was my first Maine Coon. Alice was my heart and soul somehow walking around outside of my body. She was without flaw. She was everything I wanted in this world, and she loved me as much as I loved her, and I would happily trade a year of my life for another hour with her in my arms.

In 2017, I went to Australia as a convention guest, and when I came home, Alice wasn't right. She was always food-motivated, and she was refusing to eat. I made a vet appointment immediately, and we started the necessary tests to find out what was wrong. Roughly a month later, while I was at another convention, my vet called me.

"I am so so sorry," she said, and the world ended.

Alice had large-cell feline lymphoma. It wasn't a surgically treatable cancer; we were going to have to go through chemo, and hope. So we did. And we did everything it was possible to do. Thanks to my Patreon, there was never a point where I had to decline treatment due to money, and I know what an incredible gift that was. Bit by bit, she faded, but she was still my Alice, and we were still fighting.

Then, on February 13th, 2018, I woke up and she was stretched out along my side from hip to knee, making the worst sound I have ever heard every time she took a breath. I didn't want to let her go. I could no longer make her stay. We left for the vet immediately, and my oncologist agreed that she was done; she was ready to go, and the last gift she gave me was staying by my side, not running and hiding like most cats would.

I held her. I sang "Beautiful Beast" for her. And she went ahead of me to the clearing at the end of the path, to the place she stopped me from going.

I miss her more than I knew I could miss anything in this world. She was my best friend and my favorite thing, and my mother told people I'd lost a child to explain why I would just wander around, dead-eyed and sobbing. Alice saved me when I didn't think it was possible, and I'm grateful; I have no such plans at this point.

But fuck my poor, broken heart, I just want her to come home. And in the absence of that as an option, I want everyone to look at Alice.

Please look at my poor girl.

#pet death #cat death #suicidal ideation #gnu alice #baby please come home #i don't care if you come back wrong #just come back #feline lymphoma

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

#depressed #depression #suicide #suicidal #sad #alone #lonely #broken #death #bipolar #dead #sadness #broken heart #blood

[hiveswap]

Summary of The Cat of The Year poll atrocities of 2023/2024

I'm sure that most people on this side of tumblr have seen the Jellie vs. Nefarious Anglerfish poll going around with like 60k votes at this point, and I'd really like clear up some of what happened since I was around for the whole thing.

Url blocked out for op's privacy. They have already left but don't look for it if you haven't seen it/don't harrass them if you already have.

1. The previous round (preparation)

I discovered the poll in its previous round, needless to say she beat Jort's ass severely. This was around the 3rd of january, meaning that this round finished before jellie's passing with only about 7k votes. Op did add their own piece of propaganda from their main:

...which was FINE. (except for stuff we'll see later) Of course running a poll while biased isn't ideal but I for one didn't even know they were the op until much later. I also added my own piece in a separate thread, and they didn't interact with it at all. There was no drama.

2. The Finale

Jellie unfortunately passed away right before the starting of this poll, which was the catalyst for what happened next. Op did exactly as last time and added a slightly more mean spirited encouragement to vote for the other contestant. This is the point where I believe that i fucked up personally.

I added this thinkpiece accusing op of associating all mcyters with Dream (who we all hate for the record) despite them not alluding to him at all. This is because tumblr has a history of disimissing all mcyters as... everything that dream was been accused of. Op did allude to not caring for mcyt. but they didn't say what i accused them of. This is important to point out because this reblog of mine is still being spread. Jellie was in the lead at the time, but not by the time i woke up next morning.

I won't be including anyone else's additions because I don't want to put blame on any specific person. Just felt like clearing up mine.

3. The Fuckening

Some time later op made this post to their personal blog:

which is insanely shitty because, as other people have pointed out, the "lame ass youtube cat" didn't die to inconvinience op or ruin their fun, and people would have probably voted for her anyway because jelly is universally beloved in the mcyt community. This isn't anti democratic. This post was added to the poll with a caption saying op should not be running this poll, and it took off. Op later went on to say that this was a joke:

This apology was not taken well by people, (including me) because "you were not meant to see it" isn't an apology and they still very much made fun of someone's pet dying. Safe to say this did not make the drama stop and only added fuel to the flame. I believe this was the point where the conversation of mcyt fans being unjustly sent hate to was reignited.

We should discuss that! it's a real thing that happens often and is equal to childish bullying. However, in this case, OP was the only one getting sent hate to my knowledge. The notes were mostly saturated by mcyt fans, and even now i can only find one or two hateful stance towards us under the whole 20k notes post.

4. Conclusions

Op posted a second apology to the catoftheyear blog to try and calm people down (i believe this is comprehensive and a lot better than the previous one) The blog was deactivated shortly after, so i only have my phone screenshots of it that i also added to the poll itself at some point:

(Edit) Here's proof that op did not write the justification they got criticised for, from the notes of the original poll:

This apology didn't get seen, or get accepted by enough people, so op made this statement on their personal:

Needless to say I am deeply dissapointed (and guilty) that it's come to this. Yes, op said tasteless things that made us all angry, but telling a human being to commit suicide is worse than being insensitive about a stranger's pet dying. Even after I posted about the blog being decatived i had someone come into my notes to wish that "they never find happiness" i mean wtf. This isn't like shipping where we can do whatever without the content creator's input. this is fucking harrowing and i can't imagine how i'd feel if this was done in my/my pet's name especially after losing them as recently as a week ago.

I hope no one from hermitcraft who is on here (let alone scar holy shit) learns about this like they did with previous lighthearted tournaments. If you truly respect the creators you claim to be a fan of as people, you do not tell people to kill themselves over them. And finally, let Jellie fucking rest, guys. she had a long, good life. I hope op can come back and also avoids behaving like this if they ever wish to do so. I'm angrier at mcytblr, though.

#catoftheyear #jellie #tw animal death #tw suicide bait #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #adding to main tags so people see this instead of the poll itself with no context on how it ended #If this breaches containment and gets used as a reason to hurt mcyt fans i am going zo eat whoever is doing that #catoftheyeartournament #jellie the cat