#enjoy? i guess?

[stone-stars]

a while ago i saw a post by @sideblogdotjpeg about how the cycles in c3 seem a lot more personal/familial. and i kind of went insane in the tags at the time and i’ve been thinking about it a lot since because like…

you have the heroic cycles that the band of boobs parallel/break on this large scale. the idea of these broken trios of adventurers is there throughout the campaign, but they really start to engage with it towards the end— with the divine hearts, and thiala, and the wheel of suffering/wheel of joy idea. the thing hardwon says as he takes the divine heart, that no matter what anybody chooses from then on it’s with love in their hearts, i feel is very relevant to how they break the cycle. they love each other, and they choose over and over to hold each other tighter rather than be driven apart.

and on the other hand, you have duck team’s refusal of fate vs their family’s resignation to it. look at swag working with mothership, oliana’s contrition, and the stuff that is currently ongoing with gowan. you know— sol is a version of swag who fully rejected mothership and found his friends instead. callie refused to be a part of her family’s business, and her love for the wild and the serpents is giving the world a chance. calder, when he makes the deal with ultrus, telling callie and sol that he trusts them to save him. and now calder is refusing to sit back and let gowan handle things in the ice knife.

it's not that duck team aren't trying to save the world. they are. and it's not that the boobs didn't have a personal connection to the cycles they were breaking. they did. but it's like... well... how do i put this into words. right--

the song melora's boon plays when the boobs arrive at the heart of the world and speak to melora. when she talks to beverly about duty, shows him the places he faltered and how at the last second, he gets back up. (later, when they face thiala, bev doesn't go unconscious once. at one point, he's the only one standing.) for sol, this is the song that plays when he expresses his fear of going down again. when he admits to callie that he's scared of the day that she and calder are down and he's the one that needs to stand up alone. when callie says she's not afraid of that day, and sol finds himself empowered by the mushroom in his chest. the moment that sets up sol's long death monk ability, where he's able to refuse to go down and keep on fighting.

melora’s boon is also the song that plays for moonshine’s boon at the heart of the world. there are actually two songs in this scene, hardwon’s is different, and the transition back happens when melora says there’s a part of herself that moonshine hasn’t embraced. when she speaks to moonshine leading her people to a better future like an alpha wolf leading her pack. for callie, it plays when she tells hardwon and sol that she’s a liability and she needs to change— to embrace winter— in order to get calder back, even as they reassure her that she doesn’t. it also plays when callie asks the others to help her protect honeysuckle while he’s weakened. when they promise to lead honeysuckle home and free him from his connections to gromdal.

the writing on the wall plays when the boobs reach the court of gods. there's the wall of prayers there, and they hear the prayers of the people of bahumia, reaching out to them. prayers of protection-- for and by them. prayers that put the future of bahumia in their hands. for callie, this is the song that plays when she sees aryox's carving of her reaching the cave. when she realizes her mother acted the way she did because she could see what was coming in the future. when she realizes her mother was leaving the world in her hands.

the songs that the boobs first encounter at the end— when they’re basically demigods stepping up to face thiala— return for duck team in these personal moments. when sol finds the strength to refuse death. when callie talks about embracing winter, her mother’s season, something she eventually finds strength in, to save her friend. when callie asks the others to help honeysuckle, one of the serpents that she’s promised to protect partially due to the harm her family caused to the wild. and when callie realizes her mother saw the future and acted as she did because of it, pushing callie to walk the path she’s walking now.

anyway. this was a post about naddpod music.

#naddpod #ba2mia #naddmusic tag #sorry to leave calder out his story is too ongoing to fit yet #(and we haven’t had any songs that fit in his arc either) #if we get a late stage bahumia song during this arc #for calder and gowan im gonna fucking. die. #truly just going insane over here anyway #like obviously on a meta level the reason the songs were never used for the bob #before the endgame is bc they weren’t written yet #but like. when you start to think about it #it kind of fits that it happens like this #there’s also more examples like i just want to know you’re taken care of #which is used in c1e91 for moonshine and paw paw’s convo #being used for callie and foster in ep10 #of c3 #specifically in the context of callie’s love and her fear of loving big #(contrasted against moonshine resigning herself to hell and her fear of that future) #anyway if i keep talking abt this i’ll explode so #enjoy? i guess? #hanbles

[belovedharringrove]

billy sometimes looked at neil hargrove and wondered whether his dad was still in there.

no, not neil.

his dad.

the man who, according to the story his mother told him before she had disappeared, rushed out of work in the middle of a shift in excitement when he learned that his wife was in labor.

the man who was so proud of having a son that he cried when he first held him.

the man who taught him how to play baseball and fix a flat tire.

billy sometimes tried to see if he could coax him out. he would offer neil a beer, talk to him about baseball games or even about any new work he did on the camaro.

but each and every time, he would get a few words of acknowledgement and then he would be told to leave.

he tried less and less as time went on. he still wondered if his dad was still in there, but neil was so quick to anger these days that it was better to just leave him alone, lest he lashed out in anger and hit billy again.

after the whole starcourt mall mess and after neil abandoned all three of them, billy started going to therapy. steve kept insisting it would help him and even offered to pay for it, telling him he was worried about him and that it would help him process everything he went through.

it took time and anger and heartbreak and a lot of tears in the darkest hours of the night or in steve’s safe embrace, but billy finally realized that his dad hadn’t been there for a long time. the fact that billy called neil by his name and never called him dad should’ve been the first hint, but billy wanted to hope that his dad would come back. he never would, though. his dad was buried under anger and drunkenness and abuse and would never come out, and billy had to finally accept that. even if it hurt.

sometimes, billy would miss neil. would miss his dad. and for a few moments, his heart would ache. but those moments were overshadowed by the memories of drunken fists and harsh words words and cruel slurs thrown at him. the little boy inside billy would miss his dad, but the teenager that had lived for years under his abuse was ready and eager to rid himself of that man’s presence in his life.

and he would. it would take years before he could acknowledge deep within himself that neil hargrove and his dad were the same person, that the same person that was in a drunken stupor on a daily basis and always hit him for the smallest reasons and called him harsh names and aimed cruel words at him was the very same person that he had a few fond memories of. but he would heal and eventually leave all the pain and hurt behind, happy to focus on himself, his family and his new life.

#billy hargrove #neil hargrove #tw neil hargrove #tw #trigger warning #tw mentioned child abuse #this may or may not be based on some thoughts i have been having lately #this sucks #sigh #but whatever #still putting it out there #enjoy? i guess?

[a-lilypad]

i just made a ppt explaining omegaverse for a friend, i feel like i need jail time right now typing some of that stuff on google slides felt criminal

#and yet its completely fine in google docs??? #also tilly im so sorry #LOL #enjoy? i guess? #omegaverse #alpha/beta/omega dynamics #a/b/o dynamics

[olivers-cocoapuffs]

Paganism is defined as ‘a non Abrahamic religion’ {source 1} so basically any religion that doesn’t fall into one of the more ‘classic’ (for lack of a better word) religions. It had actually been used as a bit of a slur up until more recently.

During the rein of Constantine the Great was when Romans really started getting into Christianity, and converting from paganism and the system of the ‘Roman Gods’ (Venus, Mercury, Minerva, ect). Obviously when the emperor converted, the subjects followed. Those who didn’t, were punished. {source 2}

New christian’s would destroy temples to build churches, deface pagan symbols and property, and it spurred gang violence and general hate of pagans. Usually pagan symbols were defaced with the christian cross, in attempt to ‘purify’ them, I guess?

(Aphrodite/Venus)

What’s ironic to me is the fact that Christian’s took pagan traditions, and erased the history behind them to fit their own narrative. Obviously not just Roman/Greek paganism, but there are aspects from around the world.

The art (inspired by jewish and greek faiths), psalms (inspired by a lament sung to Achilles), pagan temples -> christian churches, birthdays, winter solstice/ Yule -> Christmas ect. {source 3} {source 4}

Some say that the combination of the religions was to try and make christianity more appealing when they were pitching it. Obviously there was pushback at first, and they wanted to make the transition smoother. {source 5} another reason could be that because they were developing a religion from scratch, they needed something to base it off of, and pagan beliefs were well known at the time.

#enjoy? i guess? #i don’t have a degree in anything i am a fifteen year old with too much time on my hands #history #roman empire #ancient history #born of my hyperfixation

[love-fireflysong]

Chris is staying the night again. And though Ashley certainly hadn't expected sex to be on the itinerary tonight, she can't say that she's opposed to it either.

Even if the only reason it's happening is because she accidentally drew on her forehead with a pen again.

#my writing #until dawn #chris hartley #ashley brown #chrashley #surprise fic from me! #the quarry may be where all the actions at right now and yet here i am posting ud stuff #may get in on that quarry action later though ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #but here it is #the smut fic #that i still can't believe i actually managed to finish #much less post #enjoy? i guess?

[4-siza-4]

carpenter engineer

Chibi

#sizart #oc #this took 20 layers #that's the most complex drawing i did until now #and i think it looks good #so #enjoy? i guess? #also i took some inspiration from vill-v

[catmask]

does anyone have like an anti aesthetic. like something you look at and can recognize as a complete fashion/interior design/artistic movement and understand it but it makes you shudder seeing it. i am not talking like “its morally bad” “its poorly structured” like just sheerly devoid of joy for you actually invites a repulse response.

#also if it wasnt clear this isnt ‘its bad its lazy’ there is a level of like #completion consistancy i am thinking for with this #personally i really do not enjoy the like. vintage chic long red nails fur coats noir esque aesthetic HOWEVER 💥💥💥 #i can recognize that it is put together it is Intentional #i feel like a lot of people are going to say minimalism on this so LET ME SAY 🫰☝️ i recognize that minimalism is Considered an aesthetic #but i *PERSONALLY* do not consider it an aesthetic i consider it the void of one #it is a lapse in aesthetic or personality in the same way a silence in a song is still technically a ‘beat’ but no music is played #however the importance of Space or Breath in design is more akin to a purposeful silence in music #because that silence matters in the same way rhythm and breath in design do #so i guess minimalism is more comparable to like. white noise. the sound of a fan #very little effort and there is a comfort in it i suppose but its not. A Design. okay #TO ME 🤫 #if minimalism has one hater its me if minimalism has no haters im dead

[llovely]

here's a fake interview about my me & my girlfriend that i transcribed from my head. enjoy!

#this was playing like a movie scene in my head last night based on a conversation we had #i guess its a poem? or sorts? i dont what to call this #but yeah <3 enjoy my ripped open heart lol #i love 2 be butch!!!!!!!! yippeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #abby is making #poetry #lesbian #butch4femme #mwah #movies

[endivinity]

#polls #incidentally i effortlessly folded a whole lettuce leaf into a perfect shape for my sandwich when i thought of this #so i guess that's decided for me already. i will eat my aquarium gravel WITH consequences and i will ENJOY it

[verflares]

(click for higher quality!) draconified link concept ive been chipping away at this past week ..... here's my funny little compendium concept for him:

"A heroic spirit has taken the form of this bestial dragon. Unlike it's kin, this creature exhibits an extremely aggressive disposition. It appears highly territorial, and will relentlessly chase down those who disturb its skywide patrols - of which it seems to be endlessly searching for either a long-time vassal or foe. Unfortunately, it seems the spirit within has long since forgotten exactly who it was looking for…"

#now. how on earth do i begin to tag this. um. #link #loz #totk #totk spoilers #light dragon #dragon link #loz au #totk roleswap au #there . i'll add more if they come to me LOL #um i can talk about some of my insps i guess?? might make another post too #so mostly i just dont really like turning him into 'light dragon but male' and giving him slightly darker colours or something like that #this also obviously isnt exactly like the botw dragons either though and its a bit more of a mix of other creature concepts i enjoy #since everyone agrees he'd have a farosh horn i wanted to make him a kirin/unicorn :) which is why his tail looks like that #aside from the obvious eastern dragon insps and what ive picked and chosen from the botw dragons #and obviously this looks a lot like wolf link. thats on purpose #i wanted to give him some fierce deity design refs too but because this is so dark/earthy they didnt look very fitting #but honestly you could do a whole fierce deity dragon design on its own i think #okay lots of tags but IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR A WHILE. okay. let me have this. #my art

[blueskyscribe]

The Fyre Festival guy just got out of prison after four years and he's already planning another island festival called PYRAT (pronounced pirate) which is clearly going to be Fyre Festival 2.0.

Like he is using the same vague promos as last time, featuring footage of the Bahamas, and when NBC News asked the government of the Bahamas about this they were like "NO, he does not have permission to host ANYTHING here. Please tell us if you see him in our country so we can arrest him."

#Fyre Festival #PYRAT #I hope the guy enjoys his next jail stint #some people are just born stupid I guess

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them. #which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in! #but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected! #> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace'' #bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward. #TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex'' #WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it. #not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden? #even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

[glo-shroom]

yes & no by Natalie Wee | Trigun Ultimate Overhaul

#THIS HAS BEEN COOKING. FOR TWO MONTHS #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash #wolfwood #trigun maximum #mine #edit #trimax #trigun edit #tw suicide mention #for that one line #and #tw blood #hopefully there's nothing else I'm forgetting #long post #i guess #pls feel free to critique me on the alt texts I've never done it before and would love to know what I can do better #but uhhh yeah otherwise. enjoy my baby. I'm very proud of this #I do however need to not look at it for a while now #so aside from the IDs if there are mistakes. no there aren't <3 #AND THANKS TO MY QPP EEE FOR LISTENING TO ME ENDLESSLY WORK ON THIS AND OFFERING ME INPUT AND CRITIGUE!!! <3333 #god. it's finally done #edit: btw I could write so much on my choices in this and what I'm going for and little details. but I leave it to the masses to interpret

[and-nobody]

plankton and karen looking a bit odd here

#hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #grian #life series #hermitblr #goodtimeswithscar #gtws #gtws fanart #gtwscar #goodtimewithscar fanart #desert duo #not necessarily a ship but ykn i like em #my art #doodle #yeah this is just a silly doodle i couldnt get it out of my head #enjoy i guess

[yuurionviktor]

Personally, I thought this was a banger outfit

#marcille donato #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #falin x marcille #dungeon lord marcille #dunmeshi #fanart #scull #things ive made #falin touden #kinda?? #I might do a few more soft doodles I guess? but I honestly don’t have that many ideas atm #I also wanna do a piece that’s more angst-focused but they’re harder for me to do #like composition-wise #so it might be too ambitious for me unfortunately #we will see #now enjoy this 🫴

[steddietogo]

Robin is hiding under Steve’s bed so she can grab his leg and scare the shit out of him when he comes in. Except, she knows she’s fucked up when she hears voices outside his bedroom. Plural. Her best friend in the whole wide world is, unfortunately for Robin, not alone. She knows why anyone would be seeing the inside of Steve Harrington’s bedroom. And they’re taking their own fucking sweet time as well probably making out on their way— yuck.

The door swings open when Robin is contemplating the least disastrous way she could escape the bedroom and in walks Eddie Munson. Relief floods her chest as she realizes now she doesn’t have to destroy her reputation already hanging by a thread. Then she also realizes she could scare both dumbasses, two birds one stone.

The two are still standing too far from the bed and Robin tunes out of their conversation choosing to use her brain power to mentally will them closer to her. Which is why it takes her completely by surprise when Steve— her straight ass best friend STEVE— leans in and kisses Eddie right on the mouth.

Robin claps a hand over her mouth to stop her from screaming. Her best friend a boy kisser? Her Steve?

Robin is nothing if not committed to the bit. Eddie would be proud. She waits till they get close enough even though it pains her to exist in the same room two boys are making out in. They’re play fighting, then Eddie shoves Steve into the bed and it’s now or never.

Robin reaches out at grabs one black jean clad shin and Eddie goes yowling and jumping up in surprise like he’s in some cartoon.

#platonic stobin #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #This was in my drafts for so goddamn long I don’t have the energy to finish it #But it’s kinda funny I guess so enjoy?🤷🏻‍♀️ #mine