#ever Ive literally never done this

[peggingmegamind]

William Andrew Solace is okay. He has always prided himself on his ability to shake off the negative things in his life. His therapist, teachers, and mother all hailed him from a young age for being “resilient.” His mother used to call him her sunshine; during one of her particularly bad episodes, she took a sad little eight-year-old Will by the shoulders and said to him, “C’mon Sunshine! You’re the only one in this family who’s happy! We’re all relying on you, Don’t let your smile slip!” And since then, he was always sure to remain strong for his family. After Lee’s death, after Michael’s death, after losing countless patients during the Titan and Giant wars, he never slipped, never faltered. He was the strong eldest brother all his siblings needed. It didn’t matter to him that he was just going through the motions, living through profound numbness and fog, so long as he could keep his family at camp safe and stable. That was all that mattered. Taking care of people was all that mattered. 

Three days at the infirmary. Pretty typical, especially given everyone at camp is recovering from a war. Rather short, honestly, in comparison to some of his other patients. Will does what he’s always done. He stays steadfast and hardworking. Nico isn’t his only patient, not by a long shot, but somehow in the blur of IV fluids, ambrosia, and bandages, he manages to stand out. It might be his smart mouth and hatred of being cared for and under chthonic power arrest. More likely, it is Will's persistent crush on the guy since he arrived at the battle of Manhatten flanked by three gods. But who’s to say, honestly? 

It’s a moot point anyways. He’s got a clinic full of injured kids and a cabin full of siblings who need his guidance. He really does not need to add a pathetic, one-sided crush on a two-time war hero to his plate. It’s almost too much, but he can’t bend, can’t show himself struggling to juggle his responsibilities. He just needs to get through this month. It doesn’t matter that he’s been saying that since before the titan war. It’ll be true this time. He will heal everyone who needs to be healed, ensures his siblings are all okay and taken care of, and then everything will be fine. He will feel fine. 

Kayla keeps looking at him. It’s that weird combination of soft eyes and hushed “Dude, are you sure you’re okay? I can hold down the fort if you need a break.” But he doesn’t need a break. He especially doesn’t need to pawn this responsibility and duty onto his younger sister. He’s got this; he always has everything under control. 

Austin’s next. He’s more subtle. He brings Will food and eyes him with that same soft, careful gaze as Kayla. It’s infuriating. Austin takes up more boring jobs around the clinic, filling out discharge forms, cutting bandages, and making sure none of the Ares campers have a cow over being admitted to the clinic for what they call ‘minor injuries’ (It doesn’t matter how many times the Will says it, they insist broken ribs and concussions are injuries that can be fixed with an ice bath and some vics vapor rub). Will wants to protest having his little brother take over these tasks but honestly? He’s just grateful he doesn’t have to power through his forming carpal tunnel to get the records on par with his standards anymore. 

Really he should’ve anticipated Chiron having a talk with him. With everything going on, something had to give, and Kayla confided in Chiron that Will was working himself like a dog. 

The talk was awkward. Will had never been much for lying; quite frankly, he didn’t feel like he was lying. He felt fine. Or at least. A little under his base level of shittiness that he knew he could get out of. Probably. It was disconcerting to have a concerned adult staring at him, prompting him to share his feelings, unwilling to just let him loose and tie up the situation with a nice bow. 

“Sir, with all due respect, I am doing just fine. We’re just busy with all the injuries, and I’m trying to keep all my siblings in check.”

Chiron, compacted into his wheelchair, studied Will’s sleep-deprived face. His eyes were crinkled with knowing concern, and his lips pursed into a thin line.

“Will, your sister came to me concerned about you overworking yourself. Now I know you are tasked with many responsibilities, but I am still here to offer assistance when needed.”

“Yes, but-

“Please, I am not asking about the other campers right now,” Chiron held up a weathered hand, silencing the young healer. “I want to hear about how you are doing. You do not need to carry this burden alone.”

Usually, those words wouldn’t have impacted Will. Usually, offerings of support or help stuck about as well as water on a duck's back. But standing in the big house, exhausted, worn down, and disrespected by the very campers he was trying to take care of, he caved. He broke down. He told Chiron about how he felt he couldn't rely on anyone, how he felt like a ghost walking through life, and how he felt like an outsider just trying to keep everyone satiated and happy. He’s mortified, unloading all of these feelings on an activities director with whom he has a semi-friendly but not close relationship, but he just can’t seem to stem the tidal wave of emotions that spill from his lips. He tells him about what his mother said all those years ago. About how he must always be strong and happy for his family. To be the guiding light that leads them out of the darkness. It’s all so personal, and he feels naked and vulnerable, but he feels. Opening up feels like a gaping knife wound across his chest, but there is some modicum of relief because at least someone else knows. At least someone else was there to witness his pain. 

Chiron sits through all of it. He listens. And when Will finally ramps down from his word-vomit speech and says,

“Oh Gods, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to just unload all that onto you.”

Chiron scoffs good-naturedly and levels him a kind smile, and says,

“As I said before, you do not need to carry this burden alone. You have people here who care about you. I am always here to listen to you, Will. You need to learn to trust your siblings. They worry about you, and your refusal to talk with them about what troubling you hurts them worse than you know.”

They sit and talk a little longer. Chiron recommends some readings to help Will proceed from where he’s at. And then Chiron pats his hand and sends him on his way. 

And it’s not all better. Not by a long shot. He still feels numb and sad. He’s exhausted, and his eyes are swollen from crying, and his nose is raw from the kleenex they have a camp. Things are still as they were. But he feels a little lighter. Like maybe the world won’t end if he lets Kayla and Austin take over the infirmary this afternoon so he can nap and have a good meal. And maybe sometime after the hectic aftermath of the war has dispersed, they can talk about everything.

#first time creative writing in #ever Ive literally never done this #Im sorry if its bad AHHHHHH #Feedback is really appreciated!! #Thank you for reading if you did!! #AHHHH #okok im good im good #thoughts thinking thoughts #will solace #pjo #hoo #heros of olympus #solangelo #percy jackson and the olympians #apollo pjo #william andrew solace #nico di angelo #trials of apollo #will pjo #will hoo #will toa #nico pjo #Nico hoo #Nico toa #will solace x nico di angelo #will x nico

[princeyam]

champions of my heart

#pokemon #pokemon legends arceus #legends arceus #volo #volo pokemon #cynthia #cynthia pokemon #did you know diamond was my first pokemon game #thats why i have such a strong attachment to sinnoh #when i was a kid i literally cried in a shopping mall in japan cus my parents wouldnt let me get platinum #but like... they were right cus i cant speak japanese and i didnt have a japanese ds so what was i thinking #oh volo my deranged man take my hand in marriage #kinda cringe but i have self insert x volo drawings #volo is the only character ive ever done that for #to be cringe is to be free as they say #anyway im never sharing those so LMAOOOO #the point is i love volo and cynthia mwah mwah #god i could ramble for hours about them but im gonna stop while im ahead

[basketobread]

currently working on a shitpost video that includes my tavs and its so stupid i hope i finish it IDFSHFDSIUSDFHI

#its literally the dumbest thing ever #i hope i can upload it here when its done HAHA #ive never uploaded a video here before though so FINGERS CROSSED!!! #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bob talks

[rbtlvr]

Actual commission post is here! They're pay what you want (prices listed are the minimum, you can pay more/'tip' if you're able and want to!) Commissions will be full color with no/minimal shading, and with simple backgrounds only

Prices:

Icon/headshot: $4+ (one character only)

Half body/waist up: $8+ (+$3 per extra character)

Full body - $11+ (+$5 per extra character)

Won't draw:

NS.FW

Heavy gore

"Pro" ships (i.e. tc/st)

I do also reserve the right to refuse a commission if I'm uncomfortable with it, even if it doesn't fall under any of the above. Thank you for understanding!

Will draw:

Most other things! If you're unsure, just ask!

Additionally, if you'd like a more complicated piece (i.e. fully rendered or with a complex background) please message me and we can work something out

Payment is through Ko-fi here, and more info and examples are there as well. Additionally, more examples of my art are in this tag, though the examples on this post are the best indication of what you'll be getting

Reblogs are super appreciated even if you can't/aren't interested in commissioning yourself at the moment! Thank you!!

#talk tag #commissions #commission info #artists on tumblr #rottmnt #good god hopefully this works ive never done this before i dont think LMAO #i say i dont think bc i have a very vague memory of setting up a commissions post literally years ago #but i dont remember if i ever posted it so #um idk what else to tag this as lmaokalfjdklsjfld #god i hope im not forgetting anything. watch ill come back in five minutes and realize i missed 759348 things #fuck it we ball [puts this in the rise tag] #SORRY. ITS ONE POST AND I MAINLY DRAW TURTLES NOW ANYWAY AJ;FLKDJSAKFL

[callisteios]

in my new uquiz i ask the question in all your hearts, are you even good enough to have imposter syndrome?

#yeah it only has seven results im still exhausted from that god quiz with 35 results #if this reads as really tonally incoherent i have literally come back to this about 15 times #like this went through so many iterations. i was originally going to be really mean #but why would i do that? #ive just got to post because its never going to be what i want it to be #ok so now for the most important tag #mashmouths #you said this would be a good one to do next like 6 months ago and i have been struggling ever since then to get it done #this one's for you #quiz #uquiz #etc

[cathalbravecog]

QUACK QUACK QUACK QUACK

#my brain treats these things the same as it does spamton. almost. i want to see them dead i want to chew on them. i want to kiss them gentl #y and tuck them in bed and sign up adoption papers for them. i want to hit them with a baseball bat. i will take a bullet for them #yknow? #you get me. #again an experimental fun quick drawing #that i ended up ... popping off on. oops. #i have... 0 self control in art #fun fact originally this was gonna be a painting but i went hmm what if i do the thing #ive been doing with sketch lineart on paper but... digitally? angular and sketchy and sharper #aw yea #guz art #toontown corporate clash #low baller #also i had to post this on clashcord and bail instantly because the second i see angst for stuff i like that i havent made myself #i lowkey start breaking down oops #i dont do well with other fans of things that im not familiar with.... my brain works in mysterious ways ! #i say this as my next drawing i plan is literally oc angst ... oops ! #something i aint done in a while....i only ever do vent stuff i never post if anything. i try not to be like.... venty edgy like that it #just. aint for me. well i say while i ramble on and vent constantly. oops. but yknow what i mean - not let my art reflect that? be goofy #with the stuff i do? but like yeah either way. lore gettin angsty. have we gotten to the point in our lore / rp yet? no. is it kinda an #inescapeable point? yes. i loooooove making my characters suffer the consequences of their actions #WHY AM I TALKING SO ELABORATELY ABOUT THIS. THIS IS A LOW BALLER DRAWING. #BY TALOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BRAIN!! OH WELL if you like these. thanks for reading you are swag. you probably went thru #like. 5465465341564 thomas 'fights' now havent you #oh well gotta have a place to dump my thoughts somewhere!

[bengallemon]

top 10 images that make me go insane

#lemon time #isat spoilers #in stars and time #god..... im going back through the image files. because im insane. #i am a bitch for subtle little details. the minor changes during the inn hug sequence and the door opening are fantastic #i am not exaggerating when i say this is probably the best game ive ever played. im insane about this. #now let me go feral over this one image in particular. they have LOST IT #i mean siffrin never had it in the first place. they lost it when they lost their home. but HERE. you can see it. #because hes done this already. hes been with his family already. he was loved. and now he is again. even at the literal ending of the world #he thinks he doesnt deserve to be helped. he wants someone to help him so badly it broke time. #theres still light in his eye when everyone reaches out for him in this moment. before he breaks fully. #despite everything hes happy that his family is seeing him. reaching out to him. trying to help him. in this moment he is loved.

[eggwishing]

drawin em more .. still figuring out august's face n stuff but i'm getting there ^_^' ik he looks the most messed up between the two But trust me mindy is worse

#if i threw up every time i felt something i think i would walk into the ocean and never be seen again(<- literally what he does.. giggle) #ocs #august #mindy firefly #her face at the bottom is my favorite drawing ive ever done of her i think hehe

[hotdrinks]

[ID: A greyscale pinup style drawing of Martin Blackwood sitting on an old sofa chair writing in his poetry notebook. Martin is a fat, hairy white man with short, messy hair. He is wearing glasses, and a pair of long-johns that are unbuttoned in the front, revealing his chest and stomach. End ID]

Got a Ko-fi commission for a pinup Martin, and of course I would be foolish not to do one inspired by Hilda 

anyway: fat hairy mart for u and urs and also for me personally

#my art #martin blackwood #i never feel comfortable putting these in the main tag because this literally has..nothing to do with the program so #bare chest #ask to tag #big shout out to everyone who has commissioned me to do the most self indulgent art ive ever done i love u all #do not archive

[lazaruspiss]

so many people just hear "dick was a cop" and go "eww im gonna pretend i didnt see that" and like. if its just bc you cant handle the subject matter thats one thing, but often times its just. performative. especially because the actually storyline is so much about dick trying (and as far as ive gotten to reading so far, failing) to make a change in the system and be a "good cop". it's an extremely heavy but genuinely very interesting storyline. dick does find other "good cops", but they're very much the minority and usually keep their heads down, because cops are bastards and will ruin the lives of "fellow officers" who try and do things right. they try to frame dick for murder at one point and everything.

#its such a long and significant thing that happened and im like. youre explicitly mentioning it just to say you're ignoring it? alright. #sure. so proud of you. im sure that makes a huge difference in the world. very cool. #not trying to shade at any one person but ive just seen that attitude from people have definitely never read nw96 lol #at most they read 93 so they can bitch about how 'terrible' they think it is and use it as an excuse to wish terrible things #onto like. one of Very Few women who were in the comic book industry at the time #but im sure theres nothing internalized going on there. sure its just coincidence that they never bitch about male authors #using the excuse of social justice #love me some social justice but fuckin hate people who try to do it in fictional space instead of like. reality #literally helping no one by harassing Problematic Woman Author #dont even wanna name her bc her haters are some of the worst people ive ever seen on the internet lol #ANYWAYS. im done ranting #woke up at 03:30 and chose violence i guess

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[yournecessaryevil]

👀 Getting my hair dyed blue at the moment, SO excited. 😆 Can't wait to show you all once its done!

#new hair who dis #blue hair #ive never had blue so this is exciting #literally the first bright color ive ever done

[adustoflove]

My life just sucks like in general. Like there are the pleasures but then the horrors start to outweigh the pleasures. I feel like I need a sign on my back that says treat gently, was very fucking abused by literally everyone so if you could not ADD to the list of treats me horribly for little to no reason that would be so great

#bpd #actually bpd #bpd vent #actually borderline #personal #and I'm trying not to take another thing personal cause she only asked me to see if I was COMFORTABLE #enough to do a tour of the kennel. but I've....been working here....for like 8 months #she told the girl im training that she wasn't sure I've ever done a tour.. #😩😭 like I've literally...URGHHHHH #iVE WORKED HERE FOR ALMOST A YEAR AND YOU THINK IVE NEVER DONE ONE???? #the girl im training went into tears laughing about it with me too like really 😩 #so insulting #ik she wasn't trying to be but damn

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fanwork creators self rec! When you get this, reply with your five favorite fics/art/podfics/etc. that you've made, then pass on to others. Let’s spread the self-love 🌼

(No pressure if you don't want to though!)

Hope you have a good day! ✨

ah damn ok uhhhh i'm still very happy with This Rojade piece, My Murder Boy, this Flight Rising thing, this Julie one, and my DC fantasy fic copper & gold <3

#thank you for the ask! i've never done one of these! #you have a good day as well <3 #rambles from the bog #going through my archive has made me confront the fact #that ive drawn more welcome home in the past few months #than i have drawn literally anything else ever #i am Exaggerating a little but also. am i #damn. the fixation is real... #anyway can't say that these are my Favorites since i don't really have any! #unfortunately i either dislike or am at best just Satisfied with everything i make/post #im trying to change that mindset but yk #its tough! i still have a ways to go! i have to work to reach the level i want to achieve! #or at least reach a level where i can look at my creations and feel pride #but im confident ill get there someday #its easier to be content with my writing than my art #i mean i have a ways to go with both but i still think im at present a Better Writer #despite enjoying art far more! #or maybe not at present... my writing skills have atrophied a bit... there is Much i need to practice

[jinstronaut]

doing this cc wrapped has made me realize just how many of my sets are between 100 - 200 notes. like that's my average notes per set (re: jin a day specifically)

and that's wild all things considered lmao

#i never ever ever complain about notes bc usually i dont care but like #ive been doing this series for over a year #and cc's complain all the time when their sets arent getting enough notes but its still over 1000 at LEAST #and mine are...... all consistently under 500 and i say nothing #makes you think !!! truly a thankless job !!! #esp considering ive been doing the member set a day the longest since jin left first #and i rly just dont ......... get anything for it lmao #not that i Need anything bc its a way for me to cope while hes gone and its done a rly good job at keeping me happy + occupied #but like lets just get for real for one second..... this is fucked up lmao #how is it i can do this for over a year and get literally Nothing #and im also Not allowed to complain about it ever #can we all just recognize that can we just collectively agree this is fucked up please #OVER A YEAR. a set a day for OVER A YEAR. #for the sets to get 100 notes. MAYBE #like????????????????? #idk !!!! i didnt Invent the concept of course but like lets just !!! #be for real !!!!!!!!!! that my series tho its been the longest is also the smallest in terms of notes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a lil wild !!!!!!!! #anyways ill delete this i sound bitter but like im just #you try making hundreds of THOUSANDS of gifs #even when ur working 60+ hrs a week still finding time to make gifsets #for them to get literally Dirt #its demoralizing beyond compare #.txt

[shakestheclown]

y'all who actually have partners,, what is a text ice breaker to start conversation? im really bad at it 😭

it feels important to note that when we do talk, the conversation flows great we have a nice rapport and complimentary senses of humors it's just starting the conversation that is the problem i think we are both just painfully shy 😔 (and maybe traumatized .)

#all my friends have offered is 'send a meme' which just gets me a heart react which is nice and all but i wanna SPEAK TO THEM. #and ive also done ~little random updates of my day~ which also works but on my days off i dont DO anything so i cant be like . #hey i rotted in bed all day what did you do #i feel like he's interested but shy ?? i guess ?? or maybe unsure if i feel the same way so he doesnt rly initiate #he did the other day just send me a photo of him working as a little life update which i took as a good sign :) and it sparked a short conv #i just dont know what to talk about or rather i wanna talk about literally everything but i dont wanna be annoyingggg #i dont know whats annoying and what isnt i guess is the main issue #he just got back from a 2 week work trip thing like working nonstop and normally we'd both be free tuesdays (tmrw) but since he JUST got #back today i figured it would be rude and/or seem desperate or clingy of me to ask if he wanted to hang this week #am i just crazy ?? oftentimes yes #it's also 10pm on a monday so i couldnt ask now anyway BUT I WOULD STILL LIKE TO JUST TALK #BUT I DONT WANNA BE ANNOYING all ive ever done in the past is annoy ppl or come off too 'weird' by just trying to get to know them #AND I DONT WANNA MESS UP THIS TIME CAUSE I THINK I DO GENUINELY LIKE THIS GUY IVE JUST NEVER BEEN IN THIS POSITIONNNNN #ITS NEVER FELT REAL #OK BYE