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#everytime was just as terrifying as the last
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#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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I'm being so very brave right now (there's a bird in my office and I’m crying).
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cocogoat · 2 years
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pointing excitedly look at my son
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siriuslynephilim · 2 years
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i was scanning the qr code from my sister's phone to pay for dinner and i entered the pin by myself and then i was teasing her ki hawww mujhe aapka gpay ka pin pata hai suna nahi rbi kehta hai apna pin kisi ko nahi batana chahiye and she said 'aise kya hi le legi jo tere hak ka nahi hai' and im 😭
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#hi guys#havent been on since my last bad night and the last couple days werent good but i had a smoke sesh each night so xoxo#semi went out for the first time since the Traumatic Night!#just got v high and went to a house show (my fav pastime if im going out btw)#i was actually enjoying myself but my friends didnt really wanna be there so i left alot sooner than i wouldve liked to so i was kinda#bummed about that but we went back and my high ass watched my policeman for the FIRST TIME#me not seeing that yet just shows how bad of a spot i was in with everything in the past two months and the healing from those two months#like if im not on here or doing things for myself that make me happy something def isnt right and that was the case that whole time and#recently lmao#sorry this is a big whole rant but. i only had one drink tonight but im honestly kinda scared to start drinking again bc for two months#straight i was ***** ******** every weekend and everytime i was i was also doing redacted (i refuse to attach it to my name)#although my lucky ass unfortunately but thankfully got a reality check and i immediately cut off redacted person and stopped doing the#redacted thing that redacted person had introduced me to. tomorrow will be 4 weeks without it and its terrifying some of the withdrawal#thoughts and symptoms that ive been going through#and in my very bad mental health moments its terrifying that my mind immediately goes right back to it remembering how good it would make#me feel but after that night i know that it just simply isnt worth it and i think im strong enough to put that above my thoughts#anyway. its just scary bc whenever i thnk about it im like do i really not have to do it ever again 🙄 but like yes dumbass exactly that bc#its way too easy to fall back into that pattern and especially when u've built up a tolerance for something it can often be twice as bad th#second time around or anytime u take a break (can apply to alot of things but) from experience. getting in this kind of pattern is extremel#risky and again. simply isnt worth it#idrk where i was going with this but some days are harder than others which is why i havent been on the past few days but im trying to get#the healing process going and am signing myself up for therapy again and am just really trying my absolute hardest#in the new year especially i want to set alot of goals for myself like. with therapy im thinking about journalling again and getting into#spirituality and astrology and crystals and all the good vibes bc i really need to unlearn the things i was taught and get my confidence#back and rewire my mindset and find my peace again#that last time i went through something half the severity of this and was in this mindset i just looked at the world so much differently#and whether its through some of these things or not. im just really trying to find myself again after having that pretty much taken from me#and although its a process that im still starting i really am excited for it#anyway. HI lol#drugs /
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evie-sturns · 14 days
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embarrassment- Chris Sturniolo
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summary: when you and your best friend chris, get caught hooking up in the kitchen by his brothers, nick and matt, it results in an argument with nick.
contains: fwb!chris, smut, caught fucking, crying, angst, embarrasment.
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nick always made it clear that he couldn't be friends with someone who liked one of his brothers. little did he know i didn't just like chris, i was fucking him everytime we had the chance
11:43pm
matt and nick went to bed 45 minutes ago, i've been lying around in the kitchen with chris for a couple of minutes. theres been tension between him and i since the early morning, both desperate to be fucking eachother.
chris walks over to me, hes wearing nothing but sweatpants, a clear dick print on his sweatpants. i place my phone down on the countertop,
he cups my face, "i see you looking at me like that." chris starts, his voice low and breathy
"brushing up against my dick?" chris states, my cheeks flush
"you wouldn't want nick to see that. he'd be very.. very.. upset." his voice is seductive, he knows what we do is risky.
i shake my head while sinking my top teeth into my bottom lip, "sorry." i mutter, looking chris in his eyes.
he grabs my ass, lifting me up onto the counter top. he shimmy's my pyjama shorts down my bare legs, discarding them on the floor.
chris's cold hands yank down the neckline of my tank top, my tits falling out.
"it's- it's too risky, nick and matt are just down the hallway." i pout,
"you like it though, thats why you tease me around them." chris instantly replies.
that silences me.
chris yanks down his sweatpants, his erection instantly springing out "no boxers again? thought 'ya learnt your lesson last time." i smile, chris leans towards me, whispering right under my ear
"don't make a fucking sound, don't wanna hear you."
i nod, chris lines himself up with me, pushing his tip just inside of me.
the stretch always burns, chris is big. "it's too big- fuck- ow." i whine softly.
"you can take it, i know you can." he whispers, reaching out a hand for me to hold. i grab his hand, gripping it for dear life as chris bottoms out.
"gonna move now okay?" chris mumbles, "o-okay okay." i repeat, wrapping my legs around his waist.
chris starts to thrust in and out of me, i let my head flop down onto chris's shoulder, muffling my noises from his bare skin.
i shift on the countertop with each thrust, "you got it, good girl taking me so well." chris speaks quietly, holding the back of my head as he continues to pound in and out of me
i flop back, letting my hands support me behind me on the counter, arching my back as i hold back all noises, small moans still falling from my mouth.
"what. the. FUCK."
chris and i's head snap to the side, nick and matt are standing there, their faces pale.
chris instantly pulls my tanktop up, covering my bare chest before anything. he pulls out and yanks up his pants and stands infront of me.
"i-" chris starts, but gets cut off by nicks voice
"i cant believe this, get the fuck out of my house y/n!" nick yells, pointing towards the door.
i reach down and grab my shorts, yanking them up and jumping off the countertop and running over to nick. my breathing is heavy, i feel physically sick.
"get away from me!?" nick looks down at me with disgust, i turn to matt
"don't look at me, that was gross." matt says, matt never gets angry at me.
matt treats me like a little sister, he stands up for me when nick blows up, i can't name a time when we've fought.
i look back at chris, who looks fucking terrified.
"please- please let me talk to you matt" i plead, my lip trembling and my face burning from embarrasment.
"no, no i'm not dealing with this right now im fucking tired y/n." matt raises his voice at me,
"fuck, off! get out of this house?" nick shouts, i look back at chris before grabbing my phone,
i walk out of the house and run towards my car, tears streaming down my face.
i swing open the door to my car which is in their driveway, and just jump in, not stable enough to drive right now.
i sob into my hands, i've possibly just lost 3 of my closest friends.
"no- no no!" i panic,
suddenly the door to the passenger side swings open, chris leaps in.
my head snaps up to look at chris, "don't cry, please dont cry we will fix this, i promise." chris's voice is shaky, equally as shocked as i am
"nick and matt hate me- i'm so sorry chris" i sob, chris leans over the center console and wraps his arms around me.
"don't apologise sweetheart." chris whispers into my hair.
"come, come on into the back" he says, my eyebrows twist
"im not fucking you right now chris!" i yell,
chris places a hand on my shoulder "no-! no not to fuck just so we can talk with space" he says frantically.
"oh." i sniffle, crawling into the backseat.
chris jumps into the backseat with me, pulling me onto his lap before starting.
"you've known us, for what, 8 years? one slip up with nick isn't gonna ruin 8 years of friendship, and i'm promising you that." he speaks softly, running his hands through my hair.
"i know nick and matt better than anyone, and they won't let you go that easily yeah?"
"we have two options here okay? the first one is we could go back inside and i'll get them to talk to us, we can talk it out and whatever happens, happens." chris states, his tone calm.
"or... you go home for the night, just tonight back at you're apartment and think over what you want to say, then come back tomorrow morning when nick's cooled down."
i wipe my eyes on chris's chest before giving my awnser.
"i think.. i want to stay in the car for a few minutes then go talk to them." i sniff,
"okay." chris replies.
"what are we gonna do chris? y'know are we gonna stop..?" my voice wobbles.
"we will figure that out after talking with nick and matt yeah?" chris breathes.
we sit in silence for a couple minutes, i copy chris's breathing to calm myself down until my tears slowly come to a halt.
"you ready?" he asks, i nod before shifting off chris's lap. i take a grip on the door handle and step back out onto the sturniolo's driveway, the cold night hair hits me hard due to the fact its now past midnight.
im scared to say the least, nick's told me so many times that i can't like his brothers romantically. i broke his trust.
chris follows close behind me as i walk up the steps on the porch.
the warm light from the inside of the house fills my vision while i step foot indoors.
"i'll wait.. in here." chris whispers, sitting down on the couch by the door.
i drag myself down the corridor, i stop at matt's room realising that he'll be the easiest to talk to.
i slowly creak open his door, he's sat on his bed, resting his back against the headboard.
"matt..?" i say softly, my voice can't get any louder.
he looks up at me with a small hum.
"pl-please come into nicks room i need to speak to you guys." i squeeze out, matt nods silently.
i walk out of matts doorway into nicks, just opposite matts room.
i knock softly on the white wood of nicks room. "what." i hear him say blankly,
i open his door and his face drops when he sees me, "please fuck off" he mumbles, "nick come on, i need to talk." i sigh.
"why aren't you on chris's dick right now, unexpected from you." nick bites back
“stop!” my voice wobbles as i attempt to i raise it. matt shortly walks in nicks room aswell, sitting down on the bed next to him.
“can we talk like fucking adults?” matt mutters, i nod and my gaze shifts towards matt.
i carefully sit down on the end of the bed, facing the two brothers in silence
“are you ‘gonna fucking speak or do i have to call in chris to make you more comfortable cause CLEARLY you two are very comfortable with each other.” nick mocks,
i throw my head into my hands in frustration,
“nick look, i’m so sorry i know it was wrong.” i start,
“i’m going to tell you everything because you deserve to know, i’ve already broke your trust enough and i’m not afraid to literally do anything to gain it back, because i love you guys so much and- i really don’t want to loose what we have over something like this.” i start to ramble, something i do when i get nervous
nick just nods along with matt.
“i’m not going to go into detail, but around 2 months ago chris and i fucked it was.. unexpected to say the least but i liked it.”
“oh spare me.” nick interrupts me,
“no- just let me speak nicolas! then the next week we.. uh, fucked and we decided to be friends with benefits. i really like your brother.” i confess shyly,
“i didn’t know how to tell you because i knew you would totally freak out— which i understand but i was scared to tell you nick because you’re my best friend.”
“we’ve been sneaking around for a couple weeks now and every time i feel guilty, because i love you and matt so much and i hate hiding shit from you.” i sniff, feeling myself tear up again.
“look you’ve got 2 options, you keep up this fucking friends with benefits with my triplet brother and stop coming round here, or you confess your new found love for him and actually date him, because i’m not putting up with you guys fucking in my house.” nick states angrily
“i’ll confess to him i just- i just really don’t want to loose you two and i made a big mistake.” my voice cracks into a loud sob, worry floods over matt’s face.
matt leans foward and wraps his arms around me, tugging me towards him.
“i’m so sorry.” i cry into matt’s shirt, “you’re okay.” matt rubs my back, his head shifts towards nick.
“i hope you know, if you two become something tonight don’t expect me to be ecstatic.” nick says, his tone more soft.
“you should go tell chris.” matt whispers into me hair, i nod and break away from the hug.
i swing my legs over the bed and stand up, i walk out of the bedroom down the corridor
i swing a left into the living room where chris is sitting spread across the couch
“hey- you okay? how’d it go?” chris asks, putting his phone down on his lap and looking up at me with doe eyes
i sit down next to him and cross my legs, “chris i need to tell you something.” i state, looking over at him
“anything, yeah?” chris replies with a soft smile.
“promise not to be mad?” i say softly
“i would never be mad at you, you know that” chris whispers
“i really really like you chris, and i have for ages and i don’t want to be friends, i want to be more.” i say
“you do?” chris asks, his eyes wide and cheeks flushes
“yeah a lot.” i shy, wiping my eyes.
chris grabs my jaw, pulling me into a delicate kiss.
as much as chris and i have fucked we’ve never kissed, not wanting to push the “friends with benefits”
i kiss him back, swinging my legs over his body straddling him. i tug lightly on his bottom lip with my teeth, smiling into his lips.
we slowly pull away, locking eyes with eachother.
“can i be your boyfriend?” chris laughs softly,
“please.” i whisper.
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after chatting with chris on the couch for an hour about all the times we apparently ‘made it obvious’ we liked each other,
“i gotta tell nick, he told me to do this with matt.” i smile at chris, jumping off of chris lap and jogging down the hallway.
i swing open the door to nicks room, trying to conceal my excitement.
nick looks up at me with a small smile “yes..” he drags out.
“chris is my boyfriend.” i whisper, nick smiles widely along with matt.
“promise no more fucking on my countertop now?” nick laughs.
“pinky promise.” i say leaping onto the bed and locking nick and i’s pinky’s
“for the record i’m happy for you too” matt grins, i wrap my arms around matt.
“i’m sorry again for earlier, it was just heat of the moment.” i sigh,
“yeah only had to rinse my eyes 76 times.” nick scoffs,
“i’m sorry!!!” i laugh, slapping nick lightly
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heartfullofleeches · 1 month
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What if...... Bunny reader is dwarf bunny...... Then you have giant Fletcher....... But. But hear me out. Bunny reader is the one that dominates fetch in the bedroom
Folks are surprised, and a lil concerned, when the tiniest bunny they know winds up marrying what has to be the biggest rabbit this town has ever seen. Fletcher has some worries of his own, but he tries to be less vocal about them. He loves his cuddle bunny with all his heart and soul - that's the whole and honest reason he's hesitant to bed with the them.
"You know I'd love to, Darlin'. It's just that you're so small compared to me. I don't wanna accidentally hurt you when we...."
Fletcher claws at his neck, heat reaching his ears as he timidly trails off. "You know...."
"Aww, don't be like that, Fetch. You and I both know you'd never hurt a fly. We'll be married soon. We've already had some fun together - I'd like to know what to expect for our lives together. Besides, I thought you said you thought my height was cute-"
He did. Everytime you complained about not being able to reach something in his house or how people always look down upon you for your size, Fletcher was quick to carry you off your feet and tell you all the things he loved about you and your height. It's also true that you've had some experimentation prior to his proposal. He only ever used his fingers or mouth before then - terrified of what might happen if he gave into temptation. You're a stubborn creature. Always teasing him despite his fears. Yet another tally to the endless list of reasons he loves you so damn much.
"You know, if you're that afraid - I could always be the one on top...."
That would... definitely solve a few of his problems. Pretty much all of them if he was being truthful with himself. If you're in control that certainly lessens the chance of him losing his.
One thing Fetch fails to take into thought is how hard the absence has been for you as well. It's sweet that Fletcher's worried, but so is everyone else. Your whole life, you've hardly had to lift a finger with people "just looking out for you" due to your size. Fletcher smothers you most these days, but is willing to grant you freedoms with range.
Like letting you handcuff him to the headboard the first night of your honeymoon. Bunnyman had a long night ahead of him that evening.
And he couldn't wait a second longer.
Shop owners are surprised to see you wheeling a cart up to their front door when Fletcher ends up running behind on his deliveries. It's the least you can do to help out since you're part of the cause of his delay.
"Y/n? Should you even be carrying a cart that big? Where's Fetch?"
"I'll manage. Fletcher's still asleep right now, but he should be up soon enough. Really tuckered himself out last night."
"Ah... Long day at work, I presume?"
"You could say something like that...."
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lilasturns · 5 months
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CORRUPTION.
chris sturniolo has made it his mission to corrupt you. (part 2 to GOOD GIRL.)
warnings: use of ma, fingering, cunnilingus, innocence kink (if u squint), that’s like it. merry christmas! (NOT EDITED.)
You haven't been able to stop thinking about Chris Sturniolo. You don't know who that girl in his car was. That was unlike you, and your behavior since then has been very unlike you.
You were slacking. You forgot about half of your homework in the past two weeks, and when it came to studying for your tests? No. You haven't. And truly, you didn't plan on it. Everytime you tried, you mind went straight to thinking about Chris, and the way his fingers moved inside you.
You were craving it. You were yearning for it. You'd do anything for more. Nothing was going to stop you from getting it.
Which is why you asked your friends to bring you to another party. And another, and another. If you talked to yourself from two weeks ago, she would've been shocked by the way your life changed in such a short amount of time.
The past few parties you've attended, Chris hasn't been there. And honestly, you're getting a little annoyed. I mean, you're going for him, and he isn't even there?
You've basically been sulking in this corner of a random person's house all night, waiting for him to walk by. It felt different, though. You knew he was going to be here. You just knew it.
You rummaged through the fridge, desperately trying to find a bottle of water. It was hot and sticky in there, and the flashing lights you've been seeing all weekend have been giving you a headache.
As you shuffled through the fridge, you felt a hand place itself lightly on your back. Your body tensed in response, your breath hitching. You head turned slightly to peek over your shoulder, revealing a very smug Chris Sturniolo.
"Thought parties weren't your thing," he said, "looking for me, huh?"
He stared into your eyes, waiting for a response. You slammed the fridge door shut, turning to him, as his hand still pressed against your back.
"Y-yeah." You answered. You waited for this moment for two weeks, why were you so shy now? Now face to face, it was like you couldn't form any words.
"Then let's get out of here? Yeah?" He whispered in your ear. "I know you've been waiting."
And here you are with Chris Sturniolo again, but, rather than his car, you're in his house. His house.
As you walked in through his front door, he turned to you, a finger pressed to his lips, silencing you. He walked up the dark hallway, taking your hand in his, guiding you up the stairs.
Once you reached his room, he flicked on the lights, causing your face to scrunch from the sudden brightness. You finally saw his face in the bright lights. His chiseled jaw, his pink, full lips, his eyes. He had smirk on his face, it was all overwhelming you.
“How’d you like it last time, huh?” He asked, taking slow steps closer and closer to you. He ran a hand down your face, lifting your chin up high to look him in the eyes.
Butterflies flew through your stomach and your knees practically buckled as you stared into his bright eyes.
“How much did you like it?” He repeated, licking his lips.
“A lot.” You whispered back, holding your breath in anticipation.
“You gonna let me do more this time, yeah?”
You anxiously nodded, swallowing hard, taking in a deep breath. To say you were nervous is an understatement, because you are fucking terrified.
“Words, baby,” he started, his hands traveling down to your waist, gripping your sides. “I need words.”
“Y-yes,” you agreed eagerly, “please.”
He lifted his one hand to your face, cupping your cheek, running his thumb up and down. He stared into your eyes, causing you to look away, a deep red color forming on your face.
He turned your head back to look at him, slowly letting his lips connect to yours. His soft, pink lips moved against yours lightly, and you sucked in a breath, holding it as his other hand ran down to your ass.
You let out a light gasp as his hand grabbed your ass, and he took it as an opportunity to let his tongue fall into your mouth.
He pulled your body closer into his, holding onto your back as you held onto his arm with your right hand. His lips pulled away from yours and placed light kisses from below your ear to the side of your neck.
You tilted your neck to the side, letting him kiss it lightly as you took in deep breaths. Your hand held the back of his head, playing with his brown, wavy locks.
He walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling you down to sit on top of him. You straddled his legs, huddling over his lap.
“Come on, ma,” he pleaded, “I can’t help you if you don’t try.”
You slowly lowered yourself to sit down on his lap, sighing. Even though you were once on top of him before, you were still completely and utterly nervous to be sitting on him again. And this time, on his bed.
He went back to kissing down your neck and to your collarbones, playing with the hem of your shirt. You let your hips roll against his, causing him to let out a small groan from the friction you caused.
“Let me make you feel good.” He spoke, pulling away from your neck, tugging with the hem of your shirt. “Can I take this off?”
“Y-yeah.” You allowed, waiting for him to pull it off you. He smiled, using both his hands to remove your shirt off your body, leaving you in your black lace bra.
The necklace that hanging from your neck hung low, down to your cleavage jingled as he picked it up to play with it.
“I like these.” He complimented.
“Thanks.” You responded.
“Can I take your bra off?” He suddenly asked, causing your eyes to widen. He would be the first person to see them, and you could feel your heart beat slightly pick up.
You nodded, words unable to leave your mouth in fear you would sound silly. You reached behind your back to unclip your bra, letting your boobs fall from their grasp.
You threw your bra on the floor below you, your hans falling to the side as Chris stared down at your chest, his mouth gaped.
Your hands went to cover your chest as he stopped them, shaking his head. He held your hands out to the side, his mouth still completely wide open.
“You’re so fucking pretty, god.” He said quietly, mesmerized by the sight in front of him. Your face burned up as he complimented you once again.
His mouth dropped down your collarbones, once again leaving light kisses down to your top of your boobs. His brought his hands up to grasp them, massaging them in both his hands, before dropping them and letting his mouth come down on them instead.
Pleasure waved through your body as his mouth placed with your chest. You held his head in place, letting out a soft moan. You could feel the wetness start looking in your panties.
He played with your tits for a few more seconds before pulling away, a smirk on his face. His hair was starting to get a little messy, and his lips were plump. He looked amazing.
“Let me show you how good I can make you feel, okay?” He whispered, lifting you off his lap. “Lay back.”
You laid back against his head-frame, your legs bent up close to you. He crawled in between your legs, spreading them out.
He pulled down your leggings all the way down and off your ankles, throwing them to the floor beside his bed. His stared at the black panties you wore that matched your bra.
As he laid in between your legs, he ran a finger down and back up to your clit, rubbing a few light circle on it.
“Can I take them off?” He asked, his hands reaching up to the hand of your panties. You nodded eagerly, licking your lips. The pleasure you felt was becoming unbearable to deal with.
He smiled, pulling down your panties to your thighs. You pulled them down the rest of the way, tossing them to the floor along side your bra and leggings.
“God, your so pretty.” He mumbled, running his finger through your folds. You let out a soft and quiet moan, watching him.
“Did I tell you how much I missed you, ma?” He asked, staring into your eyes. You stared at him for a few moments before shaking your head no.
“Well, I did. A lot.” He added. “Missed how innocent you are. Was waiting to show you something new.”
“Something new?” You wondered.
“Just wait, you’ll see.” He replied, his finger running through your folds still, collecting the wetness that was still forming.
You sucked in a breath, your hands gripping his bed sheets beside you. He slowly dipped his middle finger inside you, your hips bucking up.
He slowly moved his one finger in and out of you before pausing, looking into your eyes. He pulled his finger out and you and you whined from the loss of contact.
He dipped his head down to stare at your pussy, before latching his mouth onto your clit. Your mouth dropped, not expecting him to latch his mouth onto you.
His tongue lightly licked around your clit, traveling up and down your folds. You held his head with your right hand, your left gripping the bed-sheets. Even the smallest amount of pleasure he gave you could make you come.
It all felt so surreal. You didn’t know it felt this way. Your friends told you it felt good, but you didn’t know it felt this good. His tongue continued to flick around you, occasionally nibbling down on your clit softly, making you moan out.
“Chris..” you moaned out, “feels really good.”
He groaned against your pussy, your eyes fluttering shut as you felt the vibrations rattling against you. Your mouth dropped as he started to move his mouth faster against you, his tongue dipping in and out of you.
As his tongue reached up to your clit, his hand went down to your folds, dipping in his middle finger again.
“Ngh..” You moaned, trying to keep quiet. “God.”
Him sucking on your clit and fingering you only got quicker and you pushed his head down onto you, causing him to add his ring finger inside of you, and causing him to move his mouth even faster.
You could feel the pit in your stomach start to form, your hips constantly bucking against his mouth. His other hand that wasn’t inside you placed a hand on your hip, pressing it down so you could sit still. You felt him smile against you, causing you to let out a moan as your face scrunched shut.
“Chris,” you started, “I think I’m gonna c-cum.”
“You got it ma, come all over my fingers, yeah?” He spoke out against your pussy, still fingering you. The pit in your stomach only grew more, your palms became sweaty, and you clenched around his fingers.
He groaned from you clenching around him, causing you to cum on his fingers. He slowly stopped his movements, letting you come down from your high.
He got up and you closed your legs as your thighs shook a bit. He stared down at you as he took his fingers into his mouth, licking your cum off them.
Your jaw dropped as you watched him lick his fingers. He smirked down at you before plopping down on his bed next to you. You watched him plop down next to you as he turned his head to face you.
“How was that?”
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dawnpours · 2 years
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Really having Big Feels about my dnd campaign rn.
#caleb if you read tags pls know its 2h30 am and my brain is not cooperating#but like omg since our bard's death the vibes of the party completely changed#asmera deserved so much better but also her getting a tragic death feels so gitting in a way#heartwrenching in how random and undeserved it was#but also it really highlights just how merciless this campaign is#no one deserved a good ending more than her#apart maybe from izek my man did nothing wrong#i'm really terrified we won't get a hapoy ending#because i'm starting to realize just how attached I am to our characters and how thin our chances actually are#and ngl its fucking me up so bad#everytime my pc sees her brother it might be the last time and they both deserve to have each other#and she wants to kill the Abbot so bad to make sure nothing can ever happen to them again bit#it seems impossible#and I'm making myself SO SAD thinking about Izek#alone again#if rainer dies#same for Dhakil#at this point the rags are for caleb if u read them no one else will understand shit but i need to exteriorize bonjour#but fuck man how are we going to make it out alive the odds are so against us#i want them to be a codependent puddle and to make it out of there victorious because the alternative is just fucking horrible#i don't know how our bard's player made it through honestly#their new character is super cool but there is a distance and I hate it but also I want to honour the storyline#and not rush it#but fuck man#this is ridiculous its 2h30 am and I'm almost crying about my imaginary brother#sigh#though the people I play with make all this suffering worth it#cue hsm we're all in this together#alright im going to sleep and will reread this in the morning and feel ridiculous
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xo-cod · 5 months
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would you write something about casual intimacy with simon please??🥹🫠
i'm in love with casual intimacy :") hope you enjoy babe <33 i couldn't pick one so i did a bunch but lmk if you'd like a specific scenario 🤍
rushed/ooc as usual.
affection and attention had been something the masked soldier had struggled with for years. he naturally had been closed off and reserved at the start, he didn't care much for intimacy having never truly finding it in his life. but when you entered his life, it'd all changed him completely
simon riley who disliked being caught in hugs and being squeezed, who grew to become incredibly uncomfortable and awkward around hugs and physical touch now came home from a long and hard day of work to actively seek you out and just collapse onto you in a heap, cuddling you close to his chest falling asleep on you. feeling as safe as ever between your arms
simon riley who was an incredibly observant man, who was known on picking up on the small habits others around him did even if they weren't aware of it casually and silently handing you glasses of water or food throughout the day because he knows you might tend to forget or you didn't have a good habit of remembering when to do so.
simon riley who had an intelligent yet busy mind, filled to the brim of placements on how to take down the target as efficiently as possible and how better to inflict the worst torture on his enemy carried space to memorise your coffee/tea order, making sure it was just the right temperature for you to drink and the correct amount of sweetener (or none) so you didn't have to top up
simon riley who everytime you both spoke couldn't help but fidget slightly with you purely out of love. who noticed everytime a strand had been out of place and delicately brushing it back as you spoke to him, continuing to listen intently but making sure your hair remained as perfect as ever
simon riley who was a natural born leader and protector, who lead his team along with price through countless battles and ensuring every last of his men came back to safety now couldn't stop protecting you no matter what. holding your hand securely with his fingers toying with yours or a gentle hand on the small of your back guiding you through the crowd of the streets, keeping you safe and close by at all times
simon riley who didn't laugh much through his youth or a fair share of his adulthood, never being able to find that connection and keeping to himself now gently nudged your calf with his foot under the table everytime soap and gaz did something stupid knowing it was funny but wouldn't give them the ego boost so he kept it to you solely. or his linking his foot with yours from the opposite side even if it was unknowingly because his body craved your warmth, some part of him having to touch you no matter what
or simon riley who was incredibly strong and who scoffed at the sight of couples, who thought he didn't need someone else now enjoyed resting his head gently on your lap whenever he had the chance. his fingers laced with yours as he brought the back of your palm for a soft kiss, still not used to the fact that you were his and he was yours.
simon riley loved different than most, initially he had been too worried to even reciprocate any feelings because he was damaged. some parts of his past couldn't be healed and he swore up and down he could never do to uou what his father did to his mother. some days were easy and others were hard, some days he sought out your touch other days he needed to be alone for a while to decompress.
but even in those silent moments, there was love.
he learnt that perhaps love itself didn't have to be made of grand gestures or explosive displays. it didn't have to be chaotic and mind numbing, it didn't have to be so terrifying and confusing. you were the anchor keeping him steady and grounded
love was made up of the little things and simon was so full of them, he might've not been the most romantic person in the whole world but he was always there and he cared for you in ways that couldn't fully explain himself. it took months of him adjusting around you, it took time to fully trust and let you in, to break down the walls that guarded his heart so fiercely but your life had intertwined so deeply with his, his heart was yours simply all along.
he thanked his lucky stars everyday when it came to you because he didn't have to pretend or make a charade, this love came easy. your love came easy and it wasn't for a price it wasn't something you snatched and dangled in front of him only to watch him fall and break. you kept him steady and in return, he cherished you well.
you truly were the other half to his soul <3
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sanakimohara · 5 months
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“Stalker” B.C.
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Chan as a stalker would be painfully toxic. The constant messages you’d receive from him, vague, but highly personal. He wouldn’t threaten you at all…at first.
It starts off with little random reminders or sending a few innocent pictures of you doing random tasks throughout the day.
“You look so cute when you’re cleaning, baby…”
“You should really eat something today, sweetheart…”
“Don’t stay up too late like last time little one…need you well rested okay?…”
Then he progresses to intricate gestures. It’s not hard to get to you since you’re a trainee under JYPE and coincidentally share the same dorm building as Stray Kids. Chan has easy access to the areas you occupy most often.
Even your dorm, specifically your bedroom.
Of course you don’t know this so when random pieces of your clothing start to disappear and reappear at odd times you just chalk it up to your forgetfulness. In reality Chan slips into your room when no one’s around, admiring how neat or messy you keep it, and committing to memory all the little trinkets/games/decor that you personalized it with. He likes the fact that your room reflects who you are, it brings out your purity in his opinion, and if he could lock you in it he would.
Deep down he liked the idea of locking you in his room much better. Then you’d be even safer under his constant watch. For now he settled with invading your private spaces, slipping your panties into his pocket as he wanders around, picking up the little messes around your room. When he’s all done and satisfied with the amount of possessions he’s taken from you he writes a note to you before leaving and continuing on with his day like nothing happened.
“Keep your room clean, sweetheart.”
You’re shaking with fear and anxiety reading his note but seeing as you don’t have a clue who wrote it you keep the information to yourself. It bothers you all week but weirdly you’re loving the anonymous attention. Blushing at random times of the day just from the thought of who might’ve written that note for you. It’s still terrifying but you admire their devotion…
Chan observes you from an afar after that, continuing to sneak in your room when he has the chance, and leaving less than innocent notes on your desk more often.
“You did well practicing. I was impressed, really,”
“I left you a little gift for working hard, baby. Open it when you’re ready..”
You spot his gift at the foot of your bed, all the random clothes (mostly underwear) he’s taken from you are neatly washed and folded too. It disgusts you to see your intimates causally laid out -and probably used for other purposes- like a present. At the same time your mind is reeling with the image of your ‘admirer’ getting off to the simple scent of you or the thought of you wearing them.
You’ve never felt so beautifully violated in your life and you hate how wet it gets you.
Something has to be wrong with you…
Paranoid. You become extremely paranoid and Chan uses that against you. You’re such a young trainee, being tortured by some skillful stalker, and he’s the first person you open up to about it. How can he not help you cope?
Everytime you come running to him about the last occurrence with your supposed stalker Chan is ready to console you with a warm smile and loving embrace. Sure, he’s extremely turned on by the fear in your wide eyes, and his cock twitches every time you curl into him for a comforting hug. He’s just there to help you through this mess, right?
“Why would anyone want to treat you this way?..”
“I’ll protect you I promise… “
“You can always come to me when you don’t feel safe..”
Every word he says is a backhanded lie and you fall for it every time. You spend less time in your dorm and more time with him. The other trainees and his members notice but don’t say a word since Chan never makes it a big deal. That isn’t to say he doesn’t purposefully act unnerved by the notion of a stalker with in the company.
His habit of texting you escalates into sending obscure photos of you in the shower, alone in the practice rooms, or simply getting changed. He’s gotten comfortable with his obsession now, actively seeking out chances for vulnerability, and that raises your fears and fantasies higher.
“Want to see you do this in person…”
“I can’t help but to watch you , baby… I’m just making sure you’re safe…”
Safe….and unknowingly reliant on him.
A perfect combination of control and fear.
“I know everything about you, little one. You can never hide from me…”
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princessbrunette · 1 month
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ok wait do the girls have pets? like does bunny reader have a bunny… idk if they would all match up perfectly but i’m curious! (ps i love love love your acct you’ve given me so much inspo to start writing regularly again!!) <333
aww thts so sweet thank u !! 🎀
i can definitely see bunny with a fluffy white bunny of her own. she loves it so much and even takes it places with her if she can just because it’s her pride and joy. probably the bane of rafes existence because she makes him go and pick up hay from the store or do the gross stuff like clean out the shit. he’ll do it but everytime lecture her like “this is the last time m’doing this shit for you, alright? you want a pet, you gotta be responsible for lookin’ after it okay— gotta learn some accountability at some point.” but he is definitely gonna do it again.
i can see kitty having a pet snake or something. jj tries to be cool about it but he literally is terrified and will dive 6 ft in the air if he sees it out of its enclosure…..
puppy, funnily enough doesn’t have any pets at the moment despite working in the pet store and loving animals. she loves them, but no one really trusts her to have her own 😭 john b had to watch her keep buying pet fish and then they kept dying and she’d get really upset and buy more and then those would die too so he would have to ban her .
deer has like 5 cats, huge fluffy ones — one is blind, one is missing a leg, one has behaviour problems, one has a split ear, one is deaf. they’re all rescues and she loves them sm
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adaelines · 1 year
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wrote this whilst i was playing re4 bc i couldnt stop looking at leon's arms and everytime he kicked an enemy i wanted him on his KNEES warning for smut! afab reader but gender neutral, public sex, he goes down on you whilst youre hiding from enemies, careful he spits, dom leon who lives for making you feel good
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Leon always was prettiest on his knees. 
Wide, gunmetal blue eyes staring up at you, so full of love and adoration it’s almost overwhelming. The position and expression alone tells you how much he loves you, how much he wants to be on his knees for you. Despite his strength, just how easy it would be for him to overpower you and switch your positions, he still wanted nothing more than to be knelt before you, worshipping his lover the way he felt they deserved to be worshipped. He'd spend hours between your thighs, hours making you feel good, no matter the situation.
It's how you found yourself here. In the upstairs of a rough, almost destroyed house. You could hear the cultists downstairs, hear them searching for you both, and if either of you so much as moved you were terrified that they'd be alerted to your position above them. And yet Leon just couldn't help himself, not when you'd spent the last hour fighting and relying on one another to stay alive. It always riled him up, always made his heart beat fast and drool form under his tongue. Nothing got to him the way you did when you fought, when you protected him and he was able to protect you. 
The moment you were both alone, even when you technically weren't with the cultists downstairs still looking for you, he was immediately on you like you were his prey, like he'd been hunting you for hours and could finally go in for the kill. You should have known, with his smug little grin and the way he stood ever so slightly closer to you than usual, that something was going to happen. You just never thought you'd end up here, back against an almost broken wooden wall, the oh so powerful Leon Kennedy on his knees in front of you, looking up at you as if you had put the sun and moon in his sky. 
"Leon," you hissed, teeth gritted tight and the hand in his hair gripping onto him, "Are you serious? Do you want to get us killed?"
"C'mon, sweet thing, as if this would be a bad place to die," Leon's voice was low, full of a rasp that could only come from his desire from you. 
"Oh, in a random village in Spain full of cultists? Real romantic, Kennedy."
"From down here, I can't think of a better place," The grin on his face was wide, full of mischief, and you couldn't miss the way his eyelids fluttered when you gently tugged on his locks, nor could he miss the soft smile that briefly appeared on your face at his words. 
With a quiet sigh, you leant your head back against the wall, biting your lip.
"Fine, but please… make it quick, Leon, I'll fuck you properly once we're out of here, I promise," His grin only widened at your words, his hands quickly coming up to shove your pants down just enough for his face to fit. He didn't have the patience to fully remove them, once he saw your underwear, he couldn't wait any longer to dig his face as far as it would go, as close as he could be to your weeping core. 
With his nose pressed against the wet spot on your underwear, he couldn't help but let out a low moan. His eyes were shut, eyebrows furrowed like he was truly enjoying himself. Just by being this close, feeling your heat and smelling your wetness, his hips bucked up in his kneeling position, hands holding your thighs so tightly you thought they might bruise. He always did love leaving proof of his love on you, bruises of his hand and fingerprints left wherever he could. 
When you could feel his nose against your clit, feel the way he mouthed at the wet spot in your underwear like he was a man starved, you had to quickly bring the hand that wasn't in his hair up to cover your mouth. You didn't want to let go of him, but you also couldn't let yourself make any noise. It wasn't fair that a simple touch felt so good, not when anything above a quiet whimper would get you both caught, get you both killed. Leon didn't seem to care though, the way his hands rushed to shove your underwear down to join your pants around your thighs, the devious grin on his face proving that he didn't plan on stopping or slowing down any time soon. 
The way that Leon's tongue felt on your clit almost killed you, the hand in his hair tightening enough for him to let out a low groan against you, the hands on your hips tightening. Your other hand was still clamped tight over your mouth, keeping any noise you almost made at bay. This didn't make Leon happy though, even with cultists downstairs, he wanted to hear you as much as he could. One of his hands moved to the underside of your thigh, bringing it up over his shoulder as much as it could against the stretch of your pants. His grip was tight, holding you against him as close as he could, as if he wanted to become one with you, wanted to suffocate against you. Maybe he was serious about dying here, just by you instead of the people currently trying to kill you.
His tongue was quick against you, flattened so he could swipe from your hole to your clit. He took moments to focus on each, suckling on your clit and shoving his tongue into your hole as deep as he could. Eyes open now, he couldn't look away from your expression. He wanted to see everything, see you desperately try to keep your voice down, see you come apart simply from his mouth. It was always a beautiful sight, one that Leon held dear, making you cum was his favourite thing and nothing felt as good as knowing you felt good.
Pulling away slowly, Leon made sure to keep eye contact as he spat on your clit, grinning as he slowly watched it dribble down your cunt, onto your hole. He used his tongue before it could go any further, fucking it into you as deep as he could reach. If he couldn't cum inside you, he would have to do with at least knowing his spit was as deep as it could go, shoved inside you with his tongue and fingers, which he quickly brought to your hole when he started sucking on your clit once more. It was overwhelming, fingers in your hole and tongue on your clit, the hand in his hair was gripping so tight you'd have to apologise later, but trying to stay quiet when a man like Leon was giving you this much attention was hard, and you needed to focus on something. He always loved it when you pulled his hair anyway, so you knew he wouldn't complain at the sharp ache that it left on his scalp, not when you'd sooth it over with gentle touches later.
His touch and tongue were brutal against you, so harsh and so much that you could swear he was trying to kill you. When you let out a whimper that was slightly too loud, he pulled away, eyes stern as he stared up at you.
"Make a noise and I won't let you finish," His voice was just as stern as his gaze, but undeniably full of his need for you. Raspy and low, desperate. "Won't let you finish for a whole week. Won't you be good for me, pretty thing?" 
You couldn't help but whine at his words, lower and quieter this time, and the grin he gave was downright devilish. He gently patted your thigh, as if praising a dog, and pressed a gentle kiss on your clit before going back to the rough abuse he was giving it earlier. It wasn't fair, it was so much, and you were so close. Your legs were shaking, back arched against the wood and you swore your face was starting to hurt with the way you clamped your hand over your mouth. It'd be hard to explain just how you got a hand shape bruise over your mouth, but you couldn't care ar all. Not when Leon's mouth was about to make you cum, obvious in the way you were almost spasming against his hold.
"Cum for me, sweetheart, come on… want you to cum for me now…" voice quiet, almost a whisper but so so loud in your mind, all you could focus on. It wasn't a request anymore, he was demanding, almost a threat that dared you to not listen. His tone was serious, the one he used when he wanted you to know he meant business, would punish you if you didn't obey.
It wasn't hard either, not when his assault on your cunt was so focused, not when he knew every way to make you feel good and easily took advantage of it, when the thigh resting on his shoulder was tight against his cheek, the hand in his hair tight. You came with a muffled moan, head threw back and willing yourself to not scream with just how overwhelming everything was, grinding against Leon's face, using it for your own pleasure as you finished. He helped you through the orgasm, fingers and tongue slowing but not stopping, and when you pushed his head away out of sensitivity, he pressed one last kiss to your clit and gave you another devious grin.
''That's it, pretty, you're doing so good for me...''
He would absolutely be doing this again, and you would absolutely be getting him back for it.
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pupyuj · 7 days
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hiiii! I just came across your writing in one of the tags, and I have to say it is AMAZINGG!
I was wondering if you could write a blurb aht this, as I've been having the BIGGEST wonyoung brainrot everrrr:
so, why can I imagine dom g!p wonyoung × sub!fem who gets spoiled rotten by wonyoung, anything that she says she wants, it'll be there the next day! anything she even looks at for more than 5 seconds, she'll have it! Wony spoiling her with not only the things they like, but also with her love, kissing them almost everytime she thinks of them, laying their head in her lap, or even just letting them sit on her lap while she works.
but along with this love comes the need for her baby to be obedient, but you deciding to be a brat, would go make things south! you just suddenly talking back to wonyoung one day, walking away from her and she's just like "??" and she kets it slide a few times, but then she's had enough and drags you to her bed! edging you with her fingers till you aren't sobbing! oh! and! omg! cunt slaps with wonyoung, making you anticipate at which second its gonna happen, but you can never be too sure, with the cool wind grazing your clit, and wonyoungs harsh grip on your thighs, and her stare has you already whimpering!
WELL YES EXACTLYSFDHJDD 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 also omfg I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THE G!P PART AND ONLY REMEMBERED IT BY THE TIME I FINISHED WRITING 😭 very sorry anon, but i hope you still enjoyed this 💔💔
we all know wony would just love spoiling her loved ones—it’s her love language! gifts, affection, sweet words whatever it is wony will always be willing to give it to you even without asking 🥺 usually you deserve it anyway.. always listening well to wony and doing whatever it is she asks of you.. things like that is why you’re allowed to ‘bother’ her 👀 ‘bother’ being kissing her neck and grinding on her with a pleading look in your eyes while she’s in the middle of an important phone call (to which she just smirks at you and doesn’t even touch you, making you whine which she likes a lot), discreetly touching her during the gathering and parties she brings you to bcs you needed her to fuck you so bad but she couldn’t be bothered bcs she was talking with her friends.. ofc this was not you being impatient or disrespectful, you were just needy :((
but hey, wonyoung never gets annoyed of it all 🥰 in fact, she’s more than willing to give you what you need when she finally has the time.. bcs at least you weren’t complaining and being a bad girl! but when you are a bad girl though?? wony isn't very nice! she has no patience for that kind of behavior, especially not from her baby who she expects to be good all the time! 😤😤 she understands that you have your own bad days but you were usually just even more cute and cuddly... so imagine her confusion when you just start acting like a huge brat?? unacceptable!
when you gave her a look after she asked you to do one simple thing, she decided that it was the last straw! and so you're dragged you to your shared bedroom by your hair and wony sits you down nicely on the bed with the clear intent to punish you out of that bratty attitude 🫣 tying you up and completely restraining you to the point where you can’t move a single inch :(( hands behind your back, legs spread wide open waiting in fear as you watch wony look through her drawers full of toys… as terrified as you were, you couldn’t help but feel a pinch of excitement course through you! wonyoung doesn’t get why there was that glint of eagerness in your eyes when she approached you with some toys in hand—you usually felt horrible when you were being punished bcs you hated disobeying her,,, but wonyoung isn’t complaining! perhaps she can get used to you being a brat.. but that’s a practice for later bcs you just pissed her off and she needs to set you straight before you start getting brave 🫠🫠
her making you sit on a vibrator while she touches you everywhere but your pussy :(( "what? need your cunt filled up, hon? bad girls have to be punished first..." she whispers while she plays with your tits so excruciatingly gently?? barely pinching your nipples even though you're practically begging her to squeeze and grope and shit like that,, wony finding so much joy in tormenting you by increasing the toy's speed at random times but then slowing it down once she sees that you're having too much fun... it comes to the point where tears squeeze out of your eyes but wony doesn't stop! even when you were close to cumming! it felt shameful, wanting to cum to a vibrator instead of her fingers but she makes you sit on it for such a long time, it was nearly impossible to hold it in! :(( and so you end up cumming... but that was a really terrible idea! 🫢
now.. cunt slapping and wonyoung is literally a match made in heaven idc it's too perfect!! her being so annoyed that you completely disregarded her demand that you 'hold it in' and so she resorts to punishments that inflicted pain?? her hitting your sensitive clit,, every fall of her hand making you flinch and jump when she slaps the hard bud.. your slurred strings of apologies and "please" only fed her anger... "gonna think twice before getting brave at me again, right? gonna be a good girl? answer." she says through gritted teeth.. the one hand keeping your legs apart didn't lack in giving you pain... you felt her long nails pierce your skin, nearly making you bleed and wonyoung's grip tightened every second you spent sobbing instead of talking to her... nods weren't enough! nope, you had to speak 💔💔
"s-s-sorry, mommy... i'm sorry, please..! please, i'll be good.." that took all of your strength and wony was so proud! :(( proud enough that she finally fills you full of her fingers and brings you to that climax you kept begging for! see? all you needed to do was be good 💞 but that was an otherwordly experience so being a brat for no reason just to get wonyoung to be scarier, hotter, and meaner might just be worth it 👀👀
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confused-wanderer · 1 month
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An arc that should’ve been added in Merlin was just how downright terrified Merlin was of him.
Especially with the whole magic thing. He was scared of Arthur. Scared of him as a warrior. Scared that everytime he wielded a sword Merlin thought it was meant for him. Scared that every glare just a little too harsh, every comeback just a little too snippy and suddenly he’d be staring at Arthur from the guillotine.
Arthur was his executioner. Arthur was his grim reaper, waiting for an opening so he could swoop in. But most of all, Merlin was scared of him as a friend. As someone he trusted. Because if he let magic slip around him, even just one flicker that’s the last time he would see Arthur smile at him.
And Arthur notices. He doesn’t know why Merlin flinches a bit too hard when Arthur mock draws his sword in a show of anger, he can’t place his finger on how if he added even a little heat behind those words his friend would stiffen.
Until one day Merlin has to accompany him to face a magic kight who he’s clearly nervous about. And it’s only when Merlin flinches do the pieces slide together for him. That it clicks why Merlin’s face looked so familiar whenever Arthur accidentally overstepped a boundary he never knew existed.
I want to see the look on his face as he stared at his best friend, and realised that he was afraid of him.
And obviously the Angsty arc following Arthur trying to redeem himself and be better towards Merlin without changing their dynamic too much and Merlin is getting more and more tense because with how soft Arthur’s acting it’s like he’s winning Merlin’s trust, and maybe Merlin wants to tell him if the man keeps this up.
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adventuringblind · 8 months
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What you Deserve
Charles Leclerc x Reader x Lando Norris x Max Verstappen
Genre: angst
Summary: Max deserves to be loved in every way, and she, along with her two partners, are determined to give him that.
Warnings: toxic relationship, mentions of Max's childhood, use of whore as an insult, domestic dispute, implied smut,
Notes: No hate to Kelly. I just needed her to be the villain for the plot
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Her life was, and is still, a Rollercoaster. Being the daughter of Christian Horner made it so. Her life has always been with cars. Her soul felt connected to them in a way.
Along with the cars, there also came the people. Seb, Daniel, and Max had become her attachments. Specifically Max since she's only a year younger than him.
You'd think they were in love by the way they acted with eachother. And she would be lying if she said she didn't want that. He, however, wanted to focus on his career and she respected that.
In 2019 she met Charles. An inevitable meeting since she was alway running around making sure things were going to plan. And by running, she means litterally.
She collided with the Monegasque while neither of them were paying attention.
He took her to dinner that night to apologize despite her protest.
It ended up being a fun night. After three after race dinners or outings it felt like tradition.
Something that started as friends didn't last long. Neither are sure who fell first, just that both of them did. They couldn't stay away from each other.
She told her dad. She was terrified and shaking and wanted to cry the entire time, but he took it well. He'd never had a problem with Charles and outside of racing he invited him in. The garage was still off limits.
She remained friends with Max during this time. Even the next year when he and Kelly had been getting closer. She knew it wasn't her place to say anything, but something felt off about it. And the ache in her heart for the blonde Dutch boy hadn't left despite her years with Charles.
It made her feel guilty. Everytime her thoughts flickered back to Max, she felt herself spiraling to places she shouldn't be.
Charles had caught her in such a state. He'd panicked when he saw her glassy and absent stare.
"What's wrong, chéri?" He knelt down next to her and took her hands in his despite his own body shaking.
"I'm not good for you."
"Well that's not true at all." He coos at her. Though it only makes her tears fall harder.
"I love you but I also love Max. Always have. It's not fair to you."
"I already knew amour." He chuckles. "And I don't care. I think your heart os big enough to love more then one person. I'd even be open to seeing if he wanted to join us."
Things changed for the better after that. She felt safe enough to talk about feelings she'd never been able to explore previously.
They'd made a few attempts at asking him about his relashonship with Kelly. None of it had gone anywhere. They didn't go out with them and Max seemed to get rigid and defensive at the subject. So they dropped it until they had more information to work with.
Lando came to them out of nowhere. One day he just exploded with life and laughter into their world and never left.
The Brit had made it very clear that he liked it with them and the other two felt the same. It worked in a way people would find unconventional. But it's their relationship and nobody else's business.
That conversation with her dad made her laugh instead of shake. Mostly because he decided to give a stern lecture to both boys about how he would not hesitate to send Max into the sides of their cars if they hurt her.
Similarly, Max also had a few things to say. Despite him and Kelly going public with their relationship, he still cared for her. A small part of him even knawed with jealousy at times.
Their love for each other felt so different. They openly expressed it and were always smiling around each other. Max had to do something amazing to get that kind of affection from Kelly. Or he had to do something for her first.
But it's all he knows. He'd never had affection modeled for him growing up. He'd seen more hurt then anything. And he can't help the part of himself that wants what they have.
~
"I'm getting worried about him." Says the female who is currently curled across the laps of her lovers.
"Pretty sure you're always worried about him." Lando smiles at her endearingly. His head is resing on Charles' chest and his fingers idly stroke through the females hair.
She hums in agreement. It's not unusual that she's worried about Max. But this felt different.
Three days ago, Max had made history. Yes everytime he was next to Kelly, the Dutch looked almost pained. Even at the after celebrations he tried to stay with the three of them and not Kelly who looked interested in chatting with other people.
"I believe Kelly is gone for a few days." Pipes Charles. He sets his phone down and cuddles closer to his two lovers. "We could see if he wants to go out with us."
"Wouldn't he be cheating on her then?"
"Realistically it could just be Max hanging out with friends. Plus what Kelly doesn't know won't kill her."
~
Max says yes. It shocks her that he does so. Max has always been loyal to a fault. Maybe he is in a worse situation then they thought.
They met at the restaurant. It wasn't anything high class and discreet enough that they would hopefully be able to eat in peace.
Max arrived fashionable late and looking mildly anxious.
"Sorry I'm late." He says while getting comfortable in his seat.
"No need to apologize." Reassures Charles. "Is everything alright?"
Max hesitates, his body going rigid like recalling a bad memory. "Kelly's trip got delayed and when I told her I had plans she tried to keep me home instead."
"She doesn't think your cheating or anything does she?" Lando almost whispers across the table. Eyes filled with concern.
"I don't think so? She's accused me of it a few times with y/n but not recently that I can remember."
The female, who's been fighting the urge to punch Kelly since she started dating Max, decides holding his hand is probably better then her words at the moment. He smiles at her in endearment and appreciation.
"Let's move to another topic, shall we?"
The rest of the dinner is spent conversing about nonsense. Nothing about racing or work just everything and nothing all mixed together.
Max is finally looking more relaxed. His phone forgotten in his pocket. His smile lighting up at silly stories and funny jokes. It's refreshing to see him like this and the female finds herself melting into the fact he looks so comfortable with them.
~
Three days after their dinner date, Max calls to ask if they'd be willing to come to his place for drinks. Which is how they find themselves standing in the doorway of Max's apartment almost dumbfounded.
There is hardly anything around that feels like Max. No redbull posters or racing themed items. No pictures of Max and Kelly together and nothing of Max with his family.
Even when Max is giving them a tour of the place, she spots a shelf that gives evidence this isn't a strangers place. A singular shelf. Again she's fighting the urge to rip all of Kelly's clothes to shreds.
"Mate, your apartment feels like it's a display case." Lando's nose scruntches up in confusion.
Max leads them over to the bar area and starts pouring drinks. His shoulders shrugging and the Brits comment. "Kelly says it's better for my focus if it's like this."
Charles must have caught the way she moved. Her body ready to throw all Kelly's personal belongings out the window. The Monegasque's hand on her thigh stops her from doing so. He shoots her a pointed look that says 'violence is not the answer'.
Joke on him. Violence is always the answer. She just needs to wait for the perfect opportunity to unleash her fury. Just like her sarcastic father and hard to faze mother taught her.
They spent the evening in relatively deep conversation. Not awkward, flowing and comfortable. Max was opening up about his. She knew majority of what happend in his youth but the things about Kelly are new. How Max talks like it's completely normal is beyond her.
~
They continued this dance for a few months. Waiting for Kelly to not be looking before showering the Dutch in affection. They didn't push anything, just tried to give Max the love he'd been missing and craving for so long.
She would say it was cheating. The three of them are simply being good friends and making sure Max is doing okay mentally. And physically.
Until they probably go a step to far. All of them buzzed with liquid courage. The tension from the last few months finally spilling over.
The intimate a passionate night brought then all together in ways she didn't know were possible. The way Max was tearing up at being taken care of for once made every piece of her melt.
They couldn't go back after this. Max had said so himself. He wanted to be done with Kelly but felt stuck.
They reassured him that whatever happened they would be waiting, ready with open arms.
~
A week after, Lando woke up to his phone buzzing at an ungodly hour in the morning. Her and Charles shot out of bed out the sound of Max's broken sob and the sound of something smashing in the background.
The car ride felt blurry. The anger rising in her chest making it hard to breathe. Lando's voice is swimming in her head as he tries to keep Max on the phone with him and keep him breathing.
When they get to Max's apartment, the door is unlocked. Charles swings it open to reveal Kelly angrily stomping around. The place is a mess and there is shattered glass covering majority of the floor.
Kelly stops over to the female and lands a finger in the center of her chest. "This is your fault. You made Max into a damn whore for you people."
"Pretty sure you're the whore. Aren't you the one who feels the need to keep yourself young by sleeping with people who are barely legal behind Max's back?" She spits.
Kelly's palm connects with her cheek. Her face stings but her knuckles are burning with fiery rage. She doesn't give Kelly time to recover. Her fist connects with her jaw and sends her reeling backwards.
She'd been so engrossed that she didn't realize the boys had pulled Max out of wherever he was hiding. Now in the saftey of Lando's arms. Charles is the one who ultimately pulls her away from the scene. Despite her fighting him at first to get another hit on Kelly in before they leave.
~
The next few days are filled with attempting to get Max's things, phone calls, and the ensuring PR circus. The legal things worked themselves out since technically it's his apartment and Max never layer a finger on Kelly. Furthermore, Kelly hit her first so she got away on the 'self defense' excuse.
Max had his stuff mixed in with theirs. She'd printed pictures of them all together and pinned them to the wall. His presences in the house is known.
As she stands in the doorway of their room, her three lovers curled up together, snoring peacefully, she knows it was always meant to be.
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