#help this wonderful person out!

[strangersteddierthings]

Porcelain Steve - Part 6

Part One🦇Part Two🦇Part Three🦇Part Four🦇Part Five🦇Part Six🦇Part Seven🦇Part Eight🦇Part Nine

Even though he's expecting company, Eddie still jumps and yelps when his front door flies open without so much as a knock, revealing Dustin and Will.

"I know I said to let yourselves in, but a warning knock would have been nice," Eddie shoots them a glare, not bothering to stand from the couch where he'd been pretending to watch whatever terrible daytime movie was playing.

"Sorry," Will apologizes sheepishly while Dustin just laughs.

"Which of your moms dropped you off? If it's Claudia, I'm filing a complaint about how you were raised."

"Har har," Dustin says, swinging his backpack off and knelling down to unzip and dig into it. "We biked here."

"Lucky you, then. The complaint will wait."

Dustin wrestles a blanket from his backpack. Unwrapping it reveals Steve, hair rumpled but otherwise unharmed. "Alright. Delivered safely. We gotta go meet El and Mike now but we'll see you on Saturday, right?"

Eddie sets Steve on the couch, angled towards the TV. "Yeah. I get the feeling if I don't show for the barbeque that Joyce will show up here and drag me there by my ear."

"She would," Will confirms with an easy shrug. The boys turn to leave before Will exclaims, "Oh! Almost forgot!" before digging into his pocket for something, turning around to give it to Eddie.

"What?"

"El and Steve spoke again. He had a lot of things to say. I spent a good portion of the last three days writing down everything as El repeated it to me. This is your letter," he says, having successfully pulled out what looked to be a folded piece of paper out of his pocket.

"Oh," Eddie takes it, and realizes it's not just one folded piece of paper, but three. "Wow."

"Seems you are Steve's second favorite," Dustin grins at him from the doorway.

"You are first, I assume?"

"No. Robin is. She got five pages."

That tracks, actually. Eddie's not surprised Robin got the most pages.

Soon enough, the boys are off and Eddie returns to the couch, pulling his legs up to sit crisscross. "Alright, Stevie, let's see what you have to say."

He unfolds the pages completely and is met with Will's now familiar penmanship scrawled across the sheets of wide rule paper that has clearly been ripped from a composition notebook. He's seen Will's handwriting plenty over this last year, quickly scribbling notes during DnD sessions and on the little item cards Will makes himself to hand out when he DMs.

Will's handwriting isn't always the neatest, but this looks like Will took time, wanted his writing to be legible. Flipping through the papers he sees it is two pages, front and back, of a letter, and the third page is a list of questions in a different, neater handwriting. He gets the feeling that Will probably didn't paraphrase anything. How many people got letters? How much of Will and El's time was devoted to doing just this?

Eddie feels emotional over this, misty-eyed and a lump in his throat, and he hasn't even read the damn letter yet.

"Shit, Stevie, do you even realize how loved you are?" Eddie asks out loud, turning to look at Porcelain Steve like he might answer him this time. Blank hazel eyes stare forward. Eddie shakes his head, to clear away his thoughts, and gets to reading. Not out loud, because he doesn't want Steve to hear how wet his voice will sound.

Eddie,

I guess the first thing I want to say is thank you. I was kind of freaking out when I first woke up like this. It was calming, that day on the lawn, after Robin and Nancy found me. You were so chill and just chatted my ear off like you would have if I were, like, there. I mean, there there and not like, doll-there, if you get what I mean.

Shit, man, being stuck like this would have been a hell of a lot worse without you, I'm certain. Everyone's been great, of course, and, like, no offense meant, Will and El, but you act most normal. Helps me feel, well, I don't know how, exactly. Describing emotions is not something I'm like, good at. Robin's great, too, but she catastrophizes, you know? And since I can't speak back, she can get herself pretty worked up about this and I hate that. Hate that I can't do anything to help her.

Shit. This isn't your issue. Don't include that. No, wait, do. Sorry, El. (It is here, off in the margin, that Will has added 'I wrote everything word for word. Enjoy the asides to El and me.) Hanging out with you helps her, I think. She seems less anxious on days we spend with you. So, I guess, I also want to thank you for that. For being there for Robin when I can't.

Eddie has to pause there because he had no idea. Robin has been a grounding force for him this whole time. He had no idea he was doing the same for her. She never said, or let on... well, that was probably her goal and now Steve's spilled the beans.

This is getting easier to say, even if I still don't know how to feel about the other two people who are going to be privy to everything said, or I guess from your end, written here. (Here, Will has transcribed a conversation they seemed to have had in the middle of writing this up.) Oh. He means us. - El Yes. Don't worry Steve, we'll do our best to forget everything you've said once it's written down. - Will Steve laughed and says thanks. - El I appreciate that but- well, being honest there's some things I want to say but I don't want anyone else to hear. Those conversations are better left face to face, anyway. So, uhh, what else did I want to say?

Oh! Yeah, I told Robin she could drive around the Bimmer, so she can have a car while I'm- so she doesn't have to bike everywhere but knowing her she probably won't take me up on that offer. Maybe you can talk her into it? Or, maybe she'll be willing to drive your van around and you can take the bimmer.

"Jesus, Stevie, can't you just be okay with existing?" Eddie says it under his breath and tenses instantly. For a moment, he forgot that Steve was right there on the couch with him, could hear him. Now he has to explain himself because Steve's already heard, and without the context of how Eddie really means those words, they can sound judgmental. "Shit. Sorry. I just read the part about your car and, dude, you just don't know how to not try and be helpful, huh? I bet it's destroying you on the inside that you can't do anything. But Steve, you gotta know, we don't care about you because you're useful."

Steve, of course, can't reply, so Eddie goes back to the letter.

Uh, what else was there? Oh! Yeah! I don't get migraines here. Or, in this body? Or, whatever it is. I haven't had one since this happened. Also, no hearing issues. Though I find myself wishing to be completely deaf sometimes. I get that Max can listen to Kate Bush for a week straight, but I'd like a little variety. God, what I wouldn't give to listen to the Top 40 again. Don't say anything, Munson. I can already see your judgmental face at my music taste. Unlike you, I have the ability to like multiple types of music. The Top 40 AND that one song from, uhh, shit. Might not have migraines or hearing issues at the moment, but the memory is still as it was. Which means it is shit. That one song by that metal band where their name sounds like it's metal? You know who I mean. (In the margin, Will has just written five little question marks in a row ?????)

"The band you were thinking of, it's Metallica," Eddie says.

Not important. But, uh, the reason for telling you this. I was hoping you might smuggle me to a show the next time your band plays at the Hideout? Last time I tried to go it was too loud and gave me a migraine, you remember, but I think that I could listen to your whole show like this. We might as well take advantage of the perks of this shit situation, right? So, uh, I wouldn't mind if you did that. Or, like, had Robin or someone else bring me. Whichever.

Actually, wait, I lied, I do care which way. I've already had them pen down Robin's letter, so you'll have to pass this on, but I want Robin to take me. So, I can also watch the show, not just listen. That was the part I liked most, when I went last time, before I had to leave. Wait. Scratch that. Ask Argyle. Other than you, he seems like the only person willing to be caught holding me in public, mostly because I don't think he even knows how to be embarrassed. Jesus that was such a weird sentence to say. Holding me in public. Such a weird thing to experience, too.

Uh, anyway, I think that's it for now. Thanks for everything, Eddie.

"I think you're handling this loss of bodily autonomy rather well, Steve. This letter is a lot more positive than the one I would have written if our roles were reversed," Eddie says with a sigh. He can't help but wonder what Steve would have said in this letter if it hadn't had to be filtered through two teenagers first.

He looks to the last page, the list of questions, and is surprised to see that, mixed in with questions about which sports team is winning (he is not going to watch Sportsball for Steve. There has to be a line drawn somewhere and this is it. He will ask Wayne about it later and hate the glee he sees in his uncle's eyes because now he's going to have to pretend to like sports for the unforeseeable future) and for honest updates about their friends are questions about Eddie's campaign that he's rambled on about since Steve can't escape. Steve wants spoilers, wants to know what Eddie has planned.

Steve has actually been listening. He'd been operating on the assumption Steve just tunes him out when he gets going, unable to stop his brain to mouth filter when it comes to talking about Dungeons and Dragons and his current campaign.

"I'm at your list of questions now. I can't answer anything about sports, and don't think I'm unaware of how you asked me and not Lucas. I see what you are doing and I'm not going to fall for it. So, your first non-sportsball question here; How is Dustin doing, really? Well, that's a whole thing but overall, okay."

#steddie #my fic #porcelain steve #having steve write letters to everyone was sparked by jonathans even tho the wonder twins dont admit that #it was a passing comment when he walked in on Will explaining the difference between sorcerer and warlock to El and Porcelain Steve #just a quick 'i wonder what steve would have to say about this if he could talk' #and will and el were like! yes! what WOULD he say? El talk to him #and it evolved from there #also its not said because how would Eddie know? but the list of questions in different handwriting is Joyce's #to avoid campaign spoilers for Will‚ el asked joyce to write that part #they go through all the questions but im not writing those #this was mostly to get a little bit of Steve in here #feels weird to write a steddie fic where steve hasnt even spoken until 9k+ words into the fic #especially since i am NOT a slow burn person‚ not that i count this as slow burn #how do you define slow burn? does this count? help a girl out and let me know

[quirkle2]

[zombie au] tome joins the gang. her special ability: AUTISM

#qkdraws #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mob psycho #ritsu kageyama #mp100 ritsu #tome kurata #mp100 tome #zombie au #this took onefull day of work for some reason #i know this is a bit wonky without context so basically #ritsu worked himself into the ground and finally collapsed from exhaustion. poor kid's tryin so hard to keep his brother alive #zombie mob‚ in a rare moment of clarity out of desperation‚ wanders off to find help #he finds tome. #(if he had found literally any other person on earth he woulda been shot instantly so .thank god) #tome .... my wonderful autistic weirdgirl tome #she's soooooo abnormal #doesn't bother w violence against zombies she's here to study them instead #anyway things happen the settlement that tome belongs to takes a delirious ritsu in #more things happen ritsu n mob r separated for a few days but it's okay tome feeds mob and keeps him alive #she then reunites them both. and then this happens. bc again she's not normal #and neither is ritsu. so he says yes #first time drawing tome i think :) wahoo #the 10th and 11th panels here really capture the entire au i think #tells ya everything u need to know

[bruhstation]

of fucking course the best, most harrowing, most gut-wrenching tugs character only appeared in one episode (a bit of ramble in the tags)

#this is tugs #tugs boomer #tugs sunshine #boomshine #<---- evil sinister laughter #fortezza bigg city #senjart #I think he's neat. I also think a bottle of antidepressants could help with whatever hes going through #okay I'm gonna talk for a bit about boomer (mostly about his canon counterpart rather than solely his fbc version) #boomer's character struck a deep chord within me that when rewatching jinxed while sleep deprived I got so scared #his depression? thoughts of sinking himself? claiming that he didn't want any help yet attempted to push just a bit longer when supported? #putting his worth on how useful he is as a machine first? an individual with selfism second? thus deeming himself as a lost cause? #and despite his jaded sardonic demeanor he genuinely cares about others and puts their safety before his own? #like mannnnnn come ON no wonder I couldnt stop thinking about him #his struggles as a clinically depressed person is.... so real? #he says ''I don't want any help'' but he clearly does want AND need help. he goes along with TC and sunshine's hijinks of helping him #gradually went from ''whats the point I'm gonna jinx it anyways'' to ''Ive tried so hard I really have but I cannot. I never had a chance'' #he even went ''okay but don't toot'' to TC before his final job! he's entertaining TC and sunshine's theory! he really does want help! #boomer's whole character screams “I want to live but I don't know how” #and man oh man I feel like s01e10 reached out of the screen and drove a stake through my heart #because it's so visceral. it's rang true with my personal experiences #it's so sad. it's probably because I'm sleep deprived but I want to take care of that poor orange thing so badly #boomer most likely thought his final job to tow the schooner will end badly as usual but with how he sounds way more upset when he failed- #-and how he even went ''I can't be bothered to argue anymore''. I have a feeling there's a tiny speck of hope inside him- #-that quickly died out the moment lightning struck and he got towed by the fire chief #and of course he's upset. hes tried so many times to find a way to get rid of the jinx but now? it's as if he's given false hope- #-and the thought of the jinx leaving is something akin to a fairytale. as long as he bears the name ''boomer'' and not ''captain harry''- #-he is doomed to this constant cycle of messing things up when its not his own fault and having other point their fingers at him #that is until he got refurbished into a houseboat (essay material for another day) #theyre never going to write another anthro vehicle character like this anymore . sad

[wildflowercryptid]

some doodles of tris and their two favorite babygirls

#i mostly drew these to help figure out how i wanna draw rock #also dropping a lil tris lore + how they looked when they first arrived in forgotten valley #they're really the goddess's favorite jester getting hit by that many shit situations in a row #(btw their girlfriend didn't pass away she just dumped tris bc their job was keeping them from prioritizing their relationship) #nah bc gustafa and rock play such important roles in tris's life and change them fundamentally as a person #they both help remind them to not throw themself completely into their work and enjoy their life #like rock goes on that spiel in his 6th heart event and tris is just like ''🧍 ...damn maybe you're right'' #story of seasons #bokujou monogatari #a wonderful life #sos gustafa #sos rock #gustafa (awl) #rock (awl) #oc : tris beckenbauer #🎨 : mj draws

[heroesriseandfall]

Kind of funny when fanfic writers have Tim figure out Dick’s identity by seeing Robin do a quadruple flip in person, because DC writers didn’t even think of that back when they were trying to make it a rule that Robin couldn’t be seen on TV so the Batfam could be urban legends. They just still had Tim see Robin do a flip on TV and never tried to explain how Robin could be an urban legend and still have his exploits broadcasted on TV by professional news media.

#dc: hmm tim drakes origin requires him to see robin do a flip on tv…but how can we do that when robin can’t be on tv? #fanfic authors: he could just see robin do it in person. without seeing a video #dc: i guess we’ll never figure out a way to make this work. we’ll just have to hope no one notices #tim drake #dick grayson #to be actually serious tho my headcanon is just that Bruce erases the evidence after Tim already saw it. #and I think Bruce learning how tim figured it out would make him way more paranoid about videos and etc #baby tim is easily gathering all the evidence that Bruce is scrambling to hide #fondly remembering the alternate world without yj universe where tim says he figured out Bruce’s identity by looking through Bruce’s trash #<- even in THAT origin tim also based it off news footage and I still wonder if that part of the au could be main canon as well #9 yr old tim seeing the vid of Robin’s flip and immediately trying to find a bag of wayne manor garbage #also the library. he did also use the library. but that’s less funny and more practical #super interested in what garbage they carelessly threw away that helped him figure it out lmaoo #batfam #heroesriseandfall #dc continuity #zero hour

[uncanny-tranny]

I think there's this idea of privilege that people have where if you are privileged, you become a bad person, and the more privilege you possess, the worse of a person you are, like privlege is a nuclear bomb warehouse that you can add stock into.

This is an incomplete outlook on privilege because it places blame on individuals with privilege rather than the systems which give certain people privilege, while at the same time ignoring others to their detriment.

A cis person isn't bad because they have the privilege of not being trans. The system in place which prioritize cis voices, opinions, bodies, and, ultimately, cis lives over trans ones is bad. These are important distinctions because something like trans liberation will not be a reality if we don't dismantle the system which places trans people as lesser.

#privilege #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #this applies to much more than just trans vs cis #and perhaps my outlook is coming from a privileged point of view. but i can't help but wonder if the way *some* people approach this... #...topic would even be conducive #this post isn't directed at a person or group by the way and i'm not wanting to start heated arguments #this is just Some Guy's opinion about the ways in which i have seen these discussions happen #i don't think anybody is a Bad Person simply for how they express being an individual who isn't thought about in society #it's HARD knowing your government and society doesn't care about you and i totally understand where these feelings come from. i just... #...i just think maybe there is a better way to approach this where everybody can be seen and listened to #just a quick post where i shoot a thought out at break-neck speed roght as i think of words

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #man yosuke really? more scared than when your own life was in danger in the tv world when your shadow was lashing out? #when you didnt have a persona and you didnt think anyone would do anything to help you? #(i believe it. it's just like yosuke to be like that.) #chewing glass at how invested hes become in nanako and in yu's family I'm honestly just #of course everyone wss terrified for nanako but yosuke describing it as the most terrified hes ever been is really just #also man i wonder what he was going to say when he started trailing off #i bet he was going to say something about how devastated yu was but thought better of it #and im #I feel like for yosuke in that moment when nanako was missing and his partner was emotionally distraught #he must have felt so helpless too #throughout the entire year yosuke took each kidnapping really personally he kept seeing it as a personal failure on his part #when he said he wasnt smart enough or good enough to prevent it even when he knew it was coming #and then to have it happen to someone close #i think yosuke definitely felt all of yu's pain #but he also felt the pain of not being able to do anything more for yu while yu was emotionally falling apart #like hes not just let nanako down but also his best friend too and IM JUST #ok im shutting up now bye #he's good with his queue

[samarecharm]

I should add poledancing to the list of odd talents that Akira has but has no business having due to growing up in a small suburban town. I only had access to it bc i had a YMCA that had a MASSIVE gym (in a criminally underfunded part of the city); there were poles put up alongside some other structures to allow counselors to make up some shit for us to do lmao

Hes got a flair about him; speaking from experience, it is FUN to do gymnastic shit like that, and its really really REALLY good for ur core. Other things on the list are basic gymnastics (he hates that shit tho, the classes he took sucked ass), Parkour (loves this; less about running and more about utilizing ur core and bracing for falls), and Knife Flipping/Spinning. Theyre all odd things that coincidentally ended up being VERY good experience for the metaverse :) YEAH the metaverse makes it easier to pull off tricks, but he already knew how to do all those things; you cant get Ryuji or Yusuke to spin kick off a pole wo having them fall and bust their ass- Its ALL skill babey

#chattin #akira #i also hc him as someone who Can do yoga but hates doing it alone bc its boring #but he LIVES off of attention #and being good at doing extreme yoga poses will give u ppls undivided attention LMAO #hes like. before i learn this thing. is it Cool? and will it make people say ‘what the fuck?’ out loud? #i feel like he wouldnt tell anyone about anything voluntarily #ann makes a comment about pole dancing bc shes seen some of the older models do it #and it just seems so impossibly out of reach for her. and hes like. do u have a trainer? i could help #‘what do u mean help???’ ‘what else would that mean? help you Do the Thing bc i know how to Do it’ #ann is the only person whos seen it outside of the metaverse. hes a bit clumsy w more extreme poses but hes good at spinning :)! #she manages to get herself upside down and they both scream in shock and joy #the whole time ive been writing im like. i wonder if theres some people i can find in my area #im working out again and pole dancing would be fun #or rock climbing tbh #i just like climbin on shit like a little monkey lol

[delizbin]

6 years of Self portrait | 2019-2020-2021-2022-2023-2024

#:D #good lord my vibe CHANGED over 5 years #never give up kids #trasforming myself into the punk princess I deserve to be #i am so damn proud of myself #yes this is a self achievement post #totally self centered #self indulgent as fuck #self portrait #artists on tumblr #personal #keeping track of my progress don’t worry about it #if you want to vibe with me you’re welcome tho #these years hit like a motherfreaking truck #I can’t help but wonder what the future holds for me. I am so excited to update it one day! future me you are an amazing one I just know #art progress #for the young artists out there: there’s always improvement where there’s work #and time #you’re not a lost cause tryst me❣️ #sending all the love

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

oh yeah i hate this btw. lmao:

#so she didnt know phoenix had a daughter but she knew kristoph well enough to imitate his voice and parallel his sprites? #cool cool cool aha *explodes* #ema skye #kristoph gavin #ace attorney apollo justice #it's the. implications of it. the idea that phoenix wasnt talking to her and she got assigned to the prosecutor who took him down #and then she has to work with /another/ gavin but this one is. nice. strange maybe but nice. #and the only other person around who seems to fully be on phoenix's side. his one real ally aside from her and one he actually talks to. #her relationship with apollo shows that she's willing to cooperate with DAs so long as they're connected to phoenix and kristoph was #so she probably had no qualms helping him. i wonder how much info about him he got from her and how much he used her #all while exchanging them for little hints about how phoenix was doing and what he was doing and if he was all right #i wonder if she passed the pin phoenix wears in his beanie through kristoph. just to remind him she was still there if he ever needed her #aa4 explain ANYTHING about kristoph challenge (impossible) #im pretty sure she got it from him too? no one else around her really crosses their arms like that. #phoenix doesnt klavier doesnt lana definitely doesnt... mayyyyybe edgeworth? but he tends to tuck his left hand under which is opposite #and the way she folds her arms in the investigation games is different. there she DOES tuck her left hand out of sight like edgeworth #so it's like she did imitate him a little at one point and kristoph somehow overwrote that. like he overwrites miles's place in nick's life #ahaaaa anyway im so normal about them

[emry-stars-art]

@anon-lemon with this ask and the resulting one shot: I also think freshwater merDrew is pretty hehe, the fish I based him off of is a peacock bass (maybe specifically royal peacock bass? With the more blue fin idk) but more dramatic. Like so:

(This is him in perfect nice lighting under shallow water probably but shh he’s beautiful)

Reference pictures I used under the cut

I love mixing and matching references. Idc what I heard growing up, life CAN be a buffet and I CAN a pick my favorite parts to mash together sometimes 😌

#sumii #if you draw smth for this #whether or not you use this as inspiration or to help #I might cry #I am a simple and fragile person #I see an art style I adore #learn the artist is also wonderful #and then get art made inspired by my stuff #and I’ll lose it in the best possible way #oh side note. the urge to make Andrew’s eyes all fisheye looking and blood red was. there #may have to digitally go back and try it bc that’d be freaky lol #but back on topic #this lil guy like 2-3 ft long swimming around the river hiding in the rocks #eating out of Neil’s hands #I’m gonna have to doodle him again specifically so I can give him m&ms #and also do a size scale #just out of curiosity lol #feels good to be very happy with my line work for once #im stopping while I’m ahead here #I definitely went for all look no substance in this design #don’t ask me any questions about where these fish live what they eat or what they do #I don’t know 💕 #anway #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #freshwater #mer au

[nomsfaultau]

Never Love an Anchor || The Crane Wives

For the fic Fault.

#For all the times he’s been betrayed Tommy still can’t help holding on to people #And of course #destroying them in the process #Spoiler for unpublished arcs lmaoo #Ah the cruelty of ‘and wonder why they never tied your shoes’ line #On the scene where Tubbo gets bandages up by the person who just destroyed their legs #Also had to figure out what their prosthetics look like for this piece #Ahhh and Tubbo wearing Tommy’s jacket after he’s captured #Anyway I’m going to destroy people once I actually upload this part in *checks watch* 6 months #tommyinnit #tommyinit fanart #tubbo #tubbo fanart #clingy duo #scp tommyinnit #scp tubbo #fault au #What do you call an animatic when you don’t know how to actually make it into a video #animatic #Man Tommy is so so very touch starved lmao #something to nom on

[daycourtofficial]

Anyone else have the writer blues/imposter syndrome? Anyone else feel like writing one sentence is an impossible feat?

#like everyone is so nice to me #but idk I open my drafts and I’m like #’wow that sucks what idiot wrote that’ #and idk I’m just ???? #I’m also not reading a ton bc idk I don’t have the energy #the vibes are off and it’s not even the first day of April #I want to write!!! #I just can’t :/ #or can’t help but overthink it #or be too self crticial #idk there are so many wonderful #talented writers on her and I just feel like they’re sooo out of my league #anyway I’ll probably get self conscious about this and delete it later shout out to the one person who read all of this #I’m laying in bed being vulnerable my therapist would be so proud 🫶

[anxiously-sidequesting]

okay wait stop. okay wait for me, okay just- (steps around my mountains of garbage and slime)

Listen we all love Malorn Ashthorn (as we fuckin' should) but I just realized. okay, just how much undeserved mess that poor blessed soul went through

Like okay think about it for a second. He's introduced early on in the first arc as Malistaire's former top student and now impromptu Death Professor at Ravenwood, okay so we all know that. But the implications man. The implications, I didn't think about the IMPLICATIONS.

He's like this 12 year old kid, okay. Already even BEFORE his official appearance in the game, imagine being a straight A student, one of the very best (to the point where it's noted and revered amongst the other professors AND your fellow students), under THE Malistaire Drake, who, even before his villain arc, was also one of the most esteemed and powerful Death professors ever. Like I couldn't even keep a C in school that shit must be wild

AND THEN. And then, your professor literally commits several war crimes, causes irreversible damage and trauma, and becomes a national criminal against.... the universe???? Like Malistaite commits heinous terrible shit, and sinks the entire Death School along with him. And then it falls to Malorn Ashthorn, once again who's like a teenager, to PICK UP THE METAPHORICAL PIECES because he had no choice. He was literally the only candidate to fill in Malistaire's place, a legend turned monster, to teach and guide GENERATIONS of new children that are HIS AGE or even OLDER THAN Malorn is.

And then the actual changes in the school. Malorn, former student, now has to learn how to become a professor with his limited knowledge of Death Magic. Like imagine filling in for the college astrophysicist teacher when you've only graduated 6th grade. He has to change his SCHEDULE, from waking up early as a student to get up and get ready even EARLIER as a professor to prepare the classes HE comes up with. Not to mention late nights grading hundreds of papers from multiple students??? AND he either is the ONLY tutor (which means more overtime and work for him, to personally help individual students with different Death lessons), or he has to actually call upon help from other students to help him get his job done.

And then there's like the relationship aspect of it. Malorn is literally just a child, like any other student, but adopting a role as a professor, an adult, means that he also has to adopt a certain mindset. Malorn literally HAS to be patient, HAS to be guiding and nurturing, HAS to be the adult in every situation in order to be a GOOD professor. Malorn has to train hard not only in magic to be ahead of the others in order to teach them properly, but has to retrain his mindset to be ABLE to handle to teach properly. Like you can't be a regular tween teaching other tweens.

And then it's just the pressure after that. The PRESSURE GUYS, of not only living up to one of the most talented and accomplished the school has ever seen, but deal with the fact that the very same person also became a tyrant and war criminal and left Malorn, his most promised student, in his place. Like I could easily imagine the rumors, the judgement, and the fear surrounding that boy, wondering if he would ever turn out to be the same as Malistaire.

No one asked for this. This soap opera I mean, nobody asked me about Malorn Ashthorn or this long ass post but I don't care because I'm crying. Girls I'm crying my entire bed is wet with tears of despair and snot. Malorn is literally a sweetie oh my God he does not, and never will deserve this shit I'm so sorry honey. Sweetie Malorn baby I'm so fuckign sorry, i'm so so sorry,

#no im not actually crying LMAO but #malorn....... #his personality hasnt really changed from pre update to poet update #he was still very chill and welcoming towards The Wizard as always and whenever they speak #he's just a kid. thats it. just a kid #AND IM SURE HE ACTUALLY DOES RECIEVE HELP. like yeah i bet the headmaster and other professors help him out so that hes not totally alone #or like suffering in agony or anything #but all of that is STILL so much pressure on ANYONE #much less a child who has done absolutely nothing wrong #like malorn wasnt even prepared. no one but malistaire knew the shit that was happening #and all of a sudden in like a day malorn's entire lifestyle changed #i wonder how he actually feels about all this inside #hashtag get malorn ashthorn a therapist and support group please #let him go to therapy along with the wizard #wizard101 #w101 #malorn ashthorn #text posts

[storm-driver]

i think about this panel from the manga every day

#sora really said 'i dont want him to die out here tho?' and gave the stone to demyx #and demyx was like 'HOLY SHIT ROXAS YOU'RE ALIVE' #it makes you wonder if it was the roxas in sora that pushed him to do that #my personal headcanon is that it was a mix of sora wanting to help and roxas feeling pity for demyx who he knew in the organization #kingdom hearts

[mossypidder]

Working on finishing up a cloak for a cosplay while Nugget was out. She thinks she needs to steal my fleece.

#i love her #She’s like #My favorite person #also we finally got her into a competent vet and I honestly really like them #They are specifically bird specialists #the people who gave us nugget put her back in the nest three times and she fell out four from a very high height #starlings are very butt heavy when they are babies #which means she would have fell on her butt from high up four times #we had to help her poop the first two weeks because she couldn’t do it herself #we’ve always thought she looked hunched #and when she molted #her tail never grew back #We’ve always wondered if her butt or spine was damaged in the fall #and they were worried about it as well so they did xrays and Sure which #*enough #it was #in such a way that would reduce blood flow to her tail #and feathers need blood flow to grow #therefore no tail #She’s now on meds that are supposed to help circulation to smaller parts of the body #We shall see #Anyway #ramble that literally no one asked for #Nugget #starling #pet starling #starling bird #european starling