hidden shadow
pairing: rafayel x mc
genre: fluff
warnings: none
word count: 2.6k
summary: what i imagined while listening to the secret times "hidden shadow"
A/N: the majority of Rafayel's lines are straight from the audio, which is not my own writing, but everything else is from my delusional mind; this man and his secret times has me in a chokehold, so i had to write this out
also on ao3 under the user playfuldreams
enjoy!~
The loud sound of blades clashing against each other reverberated through the air. As soon as you block his swing, you jump back to prepare for the next blow. You adjust your grip on the handle, hoping it wouldn’t slip out due to the sweat.
Before you can finish catching your breath, Rafayel rushes forward, swinging his dagger up diagonally.
Your body tenses. Thankfully, your reflexes kick in time and you are able bring up your dagger to block the attack. But since you couldn’t get into the proper position, the force of the slash pushes you off balance on the sand and end up falling on your butt.
“Ah..,” you let out a soft yelp before looking up to see a dagger pointing at you. You glance back at the holder, making eye contact with burning purple eyes.
He spins the dagger, sheathing it, then holds out his hand.
“Let’s stop here for today,” He says. “A sandstorm approaches. We must return to our tent.”
You take his hand and get up. Handing him your dagger, you dust the sand off your pants and hands.
We start walking to the tent we had set up prior to the training session. Only the sound of sand shuffling beneath is heard, accompanying your thoughts about your bodyguard’s hidden past.
You look up to see him gazing over the horizon clearly in deep thought.
Your curiosity gets the better of you, and you speak up.
“I thought a skilled guard like you was invincible. Are you saying a sandstorm is enough to beat you?” You ask, teasingly.
“Huh? I’m not completely unaffected by the harsh environment” Rafayel responds.
Just as you are about to say another sassy remark, you watch as he walks closer to you. He stops right in front of you, leaning close enough you can see the pink highlights in his eyes.
“But a competent assassin can still fight despite the sand,” he whispers.
You blink a few times before looking down, unable to hold his strong gaze any longer. He steps back and you can almost see the smirk on his face. You clench your fists. If you had just kept eye contact a little longer, you would be the one smirking not him.
You give a little huff, stomping forward.
You feel Rafayel’s gaze on you, but you refuse to give in and turn around. After a few more steps, Rafayel grabs your wrist, pulling you to a stop.
He walks around to stand in front of you. This time you hold your head high, meeting his gaze straight on.
He tilts his head, giving a sly smile.
“Would Your Highness like to try? With your determination, let’s do it,” Rafayel proposes.
He unties one of the black ribbons tied to his arm, pulling it taut. As he walks closer, your heart skips a beat and feel yourself warm.
“Close your eyes and hold still,” He says softly.
You obediently listen to him. With your eyes now closed, your nerves are amplified.
His hot breath sweeps over your ears causing you to shiver. You hear him chuckle lightly. You bit your lip and resist the impulse of swinging at him.
You flinch when you feel something close to your face.
“It’s just the ribbon. Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle.” Rafayel assures you.
The smooth silk is cool over your heated skin. It slides over your eyelids and cheekbones before stopping in what seems to be the right place.
He carefully ties the ends behind your head, making sure not to get your hair in the knot.
Even after the ribbon is tied, you can still sense his warmth in front of you
“Now, Your Highness’s eyes are covered. How is it?” He asks.
With your eyes blindfolded, you are unable to read Rafayel’s face. You shift your weight and feel a little startled when the ground feels more unsteady than usual.
“It’s fine when I’m standing still, but I don’t know if I can move around like this. What if I..”
“Stay calm.” You hear him say.
Warm hands slowly hold your shoulders, comforting you.
“When sight cannot be relied on, the other senses must be utilized.” Rafayel advises.
He runs his hands down your arms, taking your hands in his. He gives a small squeeze before letting go.
You hear the sand shuffling in front of you and no longer sense Rafayel. He must have stepped away from you. You begin to feel more uncertain now that Rafayel isn’t there to support you.
“Try and catch me,” Rafayel says. And then, you hear nothing.
You stand in place, hesitating. How are you supposed to find him blindfolded?
Taking a deep breathe, you use your other senses like he told you to.
You feel the warm breeze along with the small pinpricks of occasional sand grains flying over you. The only sounds you can hear are those of sand swirling on the wind. Not knowing where to even go, you start walking in a random direction.
It takes a lot more concentration to walk on sand blindfolded. It felt like you would fall with one wrong step.
A noise to your right catches your attention. You change your direction towards it. After a few more careful steps, you hear more sand moving to your left. You spin around towards the new sound.
Then all of a sudden, there’s the sound of footsteps behind you.
You quickly turn around, trying to focus on pinpointing the exact location.
You begin to get frustrated, but take another breath to calm yourself.
You’re the one who asked Rafayel to train you so you could protect yourself better. You would follow through with it.
More footsteps are heard all over the place. Focusing in, you decide to take a leap of faith and begin confidently walking straight towards the last sound you heard, reaching your hands out to hopefully feel the rough cotton of Rafayel’s tunic.
After about 10 steps, the sounds disappear again, but this time you catch a light scent of the sea breeze that reminds you of home. You immediately turn around, swinging your arms in front of you.
Your hands hit something solid, causing you to lose your balance. You frantically move your hands trying to grab onto something to stabilize you.
You feel strong arms come around you as your hands grip the fabric of his shirt.
Rafayel moves his arm over your head as you both tumble to the ground, rolling twice down the dune. You feel yourself land on top of him, raising your head, wishing you could see if he was okay.
“Not bad… But it was only a matter of luck.” You hear him say below you.
You let out a sigh. Does he really have to say it like that?
You feel his abdominal muscles tense as he sits up. You shakily get off him, kneeling on the sand. Being unable to see and trying to be stable on shifting sand was not easy.
You feel his rough hand take yours as he helps you stand up. He dusts off the sand on your back as you shake your head, trying to get the sand out of your hair.
He laughs, clearly entertained at the sight.
“Instead of laughing, you could lend a hand,” you say.
“Apologies Your Highness, allow me to assist,” he says, before gently running his fingers through your hair, ridding it of any leftover sand.
“Alright, it’s gotten late. We should head inside now.” Rafayel says.
You expect him to untie the blindfold, but instead, you feel his hand entwine with yours.
“Are you not going to remove the ribbon?” you ask.
He chuckles, before saying, “Trust me, Your Highness. I will get you back safe and sound.”
Hand in hand, he leads you the rest of the way.
You hear the tent flap open as he leads you in. He lets go of your hand, and you hear what you suppose is him tying the entrance closed. You just stand in place, not wanting to trip over anything while blindfolded. You don’t remember if you both managed to clean up the place before going out to train.
Footsteps come up from behind you. You tense, unsure what would happen next.
Rafayel just takes your hand again, leading you further in the tent.
“Sit down,” he says. “Don’t remove the blindfold just yet,” he adds for good measure.
You let him guide you to sit on the bed. He lightly presses on your shoulder, telling you to move further back. The sheets ruffle from the movement.
You feel the bed dip down lower and assume Rafayel sat on it as well. Hearing the sheets rustle, you can tell Rafayel is getting closer. The movement stops once you feel his knee touch your thigh.
You suddenly feel his breath grazing your lips. Your caught between your desire to move forward to get a taste or backward to let yourself think more clearly. But before you can make your decision, you hear him speak.
“Even in darkness, one must be able to pinpoint an enemy’s vital points with ease,” Rafayel says.
He grabs your hand and places something cold in it. You grip the object. It’s smooth and relatively light. It seems the lesson was going to continue.
“With a weapon, only some strength is needed to wound the stomach.”
He must have handed you a dagger. Not knowing if it was sheathed or not, you carefully bring the hand with the weapon back to your side. Shifting your position so that you were kneeling before him, you hesitantly bring your other hand to lay over his body. Your breath catches in your throat as you feel his muscles ripple beneath your hand.
You have a fleeting thought of regret that there was fabric between your hand and his skin.
He said to wound the stomach, but you aren’t sure what part of him you’re touching.
“The chest?” Rafayel kindly gives you an answer.
You move your hand side to side trying to get your bearings. His chest was so wide you couldn’t tell if you were on the side or in the middle of it.
You hear him gasp and feel his muscles tense as you run your hands over a bump on his chest.
“Not there. Your Highness needs to go lower. It will be a fatal blow if you stab there.”
You reflexively tighten your grip, memories of Rafayel bleeding from his chest flooding your head.
“It ensures one’s victory.” He continues.
His warm hand covers yours, giving it a light squeeze before letting go, as if telling you to continue.
You slowly move your hand up, feeling the border of his tunic turn into smooth skin.
You hear him inhale deeply when your skins connect.
As if mesmerized, you forget the goal of the lesson and continue moving your hand up. Over his shoulders, his collarbone, and ending up over his adam’s apple.
You lightly feel his pulse beating beneath your hand. Telling you he is alive. No longer stuck between life and death due to your careless mistake. You mindlessly press your fingers further into his skin, hoping to feel his pulse more clearly.
“The throat is also a vulnerable area.”
His voice startles you. Realizing you might have put too much force in your grip, you loosen your hand but keep it hovering over his skin.
“Scared?” He asks.
You’re unable to say anything back. You try to fight any conjured up images of him being hurt.
Just as you try to think of something to distract yourself, you feel his hand cover yours once more.
“Never mind, Your Highness’s hand is slightly cold.” He says worryingly. He gently rubs his thumb on the back of your hand.
“Try to do what I just said.”
You let out a small breath, banishing the unnecessary thoughts. What were you supposed to find again? Right, the stomach.
You move your hand downward, going back over the rough fabric.
You hear him exhale right by your ear as you slide your hand further down. His muscles tense and untense, creating a rhythm with his breathes, following the trail of your gliding hand.
You get to a point where you can feel light grooves partitioning several muscles. You stop your hand, hesitating on your next move.
“It’s the correct spot, but Your Highness’s hand still hasn’t moved,” Rafayel says.
“An assassin wouldn’t be this slow.” He teases.
You rolled your eyes underneath the blindfolded. You adjust your grip on the dagger and move the hand a bit closer. But you still hesitate to make the final move.
Instead of bringing the dagger up, you move the hand on him, trying to find the best spot. However, you get lost in the feeling of his abdomen expanding with each breath.
Rafayel waits patiently and quietly, which is a first for him.
“Carelessness leads to an assassin’s death,” Rafayel says.
You clearly spoke too soon.
If that’s how he was going to play it, you decide to tease him back.
You move your hand to the side slowly. You feel the heat from his abdomen transfer to your palm. As you keep moving to the left, you start to feel a curve, stopping once your palm is at his hip.
“No, that is not it either,” He says, unaware of your purpose.
You give a coquettish squeeze, reveling in the movement of the muscles beneath.
Rafayel sighs loudly. You tense when you feel something tickle your ear. It’s almost feathery. His breathes are more clear as he has gotten closer to you.
You decide to get more bold and slide your hand back down
He gasps in your ear. Your desire to see more of his reactions builds your confidence, but before you can go any further, your playful touch is halted.
“Um… stop right there.” Rafayel grabs your hand tightly.
He chuckles, breathless.
“As a rookie, Your Highness’s courage is commendable.”
You can’t help but smirk at his remark.
“Yet does a simple blindfold excuse a person’s brazenness?” Rafayel says, his voice getting closer with every word, until he’s speaking right into your ear.
Startled, you move back to sit on the balls of your feet with your knees still on the bed.
“Your Highness didn’t do it on purpose?” he asks teasingly, still holding your hand in place.
“Of course not. All I did was listen to my teacher’s instructions,” you say innocently.
He lightly huffed in amusement.
“Your Highness’s acting is lackluster when it comes to being clueless,” Rafayel says.
He finally lets go of your hand allowing you to sit more comfortably.
You hear some shuffling on the bed, but can’t tell what Rafayel was doing.
You flinch when you suddenly feel a touch on your other hand. The dagger is taken away from you. He probably is putting it away.
You guess the “lesson” is over. But just when you’re about to ask for him to remove the blindfold, you hear him speak.
“It’s fine,” he says.
You tilt your head towards his voice. A hand comes up to your shoulder and before you realize what’s going on, you feel your back coming into contact with the bed.
The sheets rustle around you and you feel a presence over you.
“I forgot to mention. A good assassin must be able to counterattack.” Rafayel says laughing.
Shocked, you lie there for a second processing what just happened.
Then you start fighting back.
“Rafayel, you!”
You raise your hands and they immediately make contact with Rafayel’s chest. You put pressure on him hoping to take control of the situation.
He laughs as your weak attempts to push him off. Instead of getting off, he draws even closer.
“Is Your Highness prepared for the next lesson?” He whispers in your ear.
You swallow at his words, finding yourself heating up at the thought of what was to come next.
80 notes
·
View notes
A rose in the thorns
Remember when Madja told us that the Cauldron made its mark deepest in the mind? And then Sarah showed us this:
The gates to her mind … Solid iron, covered in vines of flowers—or it would have been. The blossoms were all sealed, sleeping buds tucked into tangles of leaves and thorns. (acowar)
Her flowers are described as sleeping buds that are tucked into tangles of leaves and thorns. Feyre describes her mental gates this way just before Elain uses powers that might be connected to mystics. And then, as others have pointed out, Sarah shows us this in the next book:
But Mor scented nothing, saw nothing. The tendril of power she speared toward the woods revealed only the usual birds and small beasts. A hart drinking from a hole in an iced-over stream.
Nothing, except -
There, between a snarl of thorns. A patch of darkness.
It did not move, did not seem to do anything but linger. And watch.
Familiar and yet foreign.
Something in her power whispered not to touch it, not to go near it. Even from this distance.
Mor obeyed.
But she still watched that darkness in the thorns, as if a shadow had fallen asleep among them.
Not like Azriel's shadows, twining and whispering.
Something different.
Something that stared back, watching her in turn.
(Mor's pov, acofas)
A shadowy watcher in the woods, as if it had fallen asleep in the thorns. That imagery is eerily similar to Elain's sleeping buds. As a seer, she can find and watch others from afar.
"This time, you sent the trembling fawn to find me. I did not expect to see those doe-eyes peering at me from across the world." (Suriel, acowar)
Mystics seek a higher consciousness, to become one with the divine. In tog, beings of a higher consciousness are what characters referred to as gods. And what did we learn about them from the memory in the witch mirror?
They had no forms. They were only figments of light and shadow, wind and rain, song and memory. Each individual, and yet a part of one majority, one consciousness. (eos)
If mystics become one with the divine, then this might mean they become part of that greater consciousness, travel like figments of light and shadow. This could explain why Elain is paired with the half-wraith twins and it’s possible her mystical travel might mimic how Feyre moves when she is connected to the Cauldron through a living bond.
I could not remove my hand. Could not pry my fingers away. I was being shredded apart, slowly, thoroughly.
I flung my magic out, desperate for any chain to this world to save me, keep me from being devoured by the eternal, awful thing that now tried to drag me into its embrace.
Fire and water and light and wind and ice and night. All rallied. All failed me.
Some tether slipped, and my mind slid closer to the Cauldron’s outstretched arms.
I felt it touch me.
And then I was half gone.
Half there, standing silently next to the Cauldron, hand glued to the black rim.
Half … elsewhere.
Flying through the world. Searching. The Cauldron now hunted for that power that had come so close…And now taunted it.
[...]
Time seemed to slow and warp. The dark power of the king speared toward us. Toward that clearing where I was neither seen nor heard, where I was nothing but a scrap of soul carried on a black wind. (acowar)
Feyre’s connection to her form is shredded and her tether to the world slips as she is embraced by the Cauldron. She travels with it across the battlefield, a scrap of soul on a black wind, and is forced to watch tragic events unfold. Trapped by the Cauldron, Feyre was not able to step out of its black wind shadow to help, but Elain was.
For a moment, I thought the Cauldron had answered my pleas. But as a black blade broke through the king’s throat, spraying blood, I realized someone else had.
Elain stepped out of a shadow behind him, and rammed Truth-Teller to the hilt through the back of the king’s neck as she snarled in his ear, “Don’t you touch my sister.” (acowar)
And this is probably why Elain’s rose is half-hidden in shadows next to the Mother. Her Cauldron-blessed powers might allow her to be half-there, half-elsewhere when she becomes part of that greater, divine consciousness.
Her gaze shifted to the carved wooden rose she’d placed upon the mantel, half-hidden in the shadows beside a figurine of a supple-bodied female, her upraised arms clasping a full moon between them. Some sort of primal goddess–perhaps even the Mother herself. (acosf)
It’s possible she used this power to locate the Suriel, which was practice for the main event: answering Feyre’s pleas and taking down Hybern in place of the Cauldron. Her Sight—a truth teller itself—likely activated Truth-Teller, guiding her to exactly the right place at the right time. The question is, since she is not bound like Feyre, did she then winnow (ie, travel like Hope through the Void, light cutting through the darkness) to save her family? And has she continued to help them in this way?
Islands of grass dotted the expanse, some so crowded with brambles that he could find no safe place to land. The tangles of thorns were a mockery of what might have been - as if Oorid had ever produced roses. Not a single flower bloomed.
[...]
Run, a small voice whispered. Run and run, and do not look back.
The voice was female, gentle. Wise and serene.
Run.
[...]
Run. Was that voice merely all that remained of her human instincts, or something more? She gazed at her reflection as if it would tell her.
Something rustled in the thorns of the island, and she snapped up her head, heart thundering as she scanned for that familiar male face and wings. But there was no sign of Cassian. And whatever was in that bramble...She should find another island to head for. (acosf)
This small voice warning Nesta to run also reminds me of Elain’s warning cry to Feyre before she is Made by the Cauldron.
My sisters were shrieking over their gags. But Elain’s cry—a warning. A warning to—To my right, now exposed, Tamlin ran for me. To grab me at last. I hurled a knife at him—as hard as I could. (acomaf)
Sarah planted Nesta’s questions in the Oorid scene to make us wonder. Is this voice something more? And is Nesta’s reflection, her own flesh and blood, a fun hint? After all, who is even better than the spymaster at keeping secrets, and who would’ve known where Nesta was headed? Elain might have defied her sister’s order (like we knew she would) to stay away from the Cauldron and help yet again, a rose bloom half-hidden in the shadows among the thorns. And I bet she will learn a ritual to help focus and ground her movements.
115 notes
·
View notes