#i just want to be okay

[adharastarlight]

i want to go back to being a baby when crying all day was considered normal and not a "psychiatric meltdown"

#im totally so okay #totally fine #im fine #i just want to be okay #but alas #nervous breakdown #and depression #depression is a bitch #mental unhealth #mentally unstable #im crying

[panicismydefaultstate]

Able bodied people don’t understand the pain, frustration and soul crushing feeling of their body actively preventing and stopping them from doing the very things that make them feel alive.

#mini rant #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #chronic pain #i’m so done #disability #is this relatable #fibromyalgia #chronically ill #dysautonomia #i hate being sick #depression #mental illness #anxiety is through the roof #complex pain disorder #i hate it so much #i just want to be okay #so over it

[vexedhighness]

i wish i didn’t constantly switch from loving and hating myself

#bpd fp #actually bpd #bpd #bpd splitting #bpd symptoms #bpd vent #living with bpd #borderline personality traits #borderline things #i just want to be okay #i know ill be okay #i just want to be okay now #trauma #severe depression

[sunflawyer]

vent.

im genuinely tired of being shoved with jimmy's canon ship here and there. (you know who.) i tried so hard to ignore it, but lately it's gotten into my mind a little bit too much. i genuinely hate feeling like this, but everytime i see that canon ship, i get reminded of the trauma of being attacked by their hardcore shippers just because i selfship with him.

its been bugging my mind a lot lately. i just wish they'd leave me alone. especially with people who comment like, "i cant see jimmy with someone else," "abby is boring", "youre replacing her with your character" etc. god, my head hurts.

all i want to do is just give him the love he deserves in my own way.

someone please reassure me he loves abby and sunflawyer is valid. please. please.

#mayo.txt #🐤mayo's diary #im tired #this is how it feels to selfship with a character who has canon partner #sometimes i cry even #i just want to feel okay #i just want to be okay

[3-lavender]

I’ve been fighting myself for as long as I can remember. I’m so tired of fighting.

#i just want to be okay #will it ever get easier #im so tired #i wish i was dead

[scoutingthetrooper]

I'm in such an awful way that even stuff that I'd usually find funny is making me angry😮‍💨

#I just want to be okay

[spiced-demon]

I just want everything to work out

#pls #i just want to be okay #i just want to be with her #long distance #i miss her #wlw #nblw #lovesick

[tefeckincraicen]

These past two months have been really... Eye opening?

I knew I was disabled, but I always just pushed it down and pushed through it. I guess I was stuck in my own ableist mindset against myself. "It's not that bad." But it is. And I don't really know what that means for my life.

I have to do this for the rest of my life :)

#rough #disability #disabled #vent #vent post #the strugge is real #struggling #i just want to be okay #chronically ill #chronic pain

[gay-xylophone]

why can’t i fucking think without it hurting

it’s like my brain is being ripped in two every time i try to talk

in other news: i fucking love hemingway right now

#i just want to be okay #dysphoric mania #im so tired #i cant sleep #mixed episode #mixed state #ernest hemingway #hemingway #a moveable feast #inaccrochable

[electricalmayhemical]

I really being go through it emotionally rn huh

#honestly not well at the moment #grief and mourning fucking sucks #and I hate it #I have moments of fine and the next I’m screaming and sobbing #but at least them ouizzy crumbs giving me a reason to wake up in the mornings #sometimes it’s the little things you gotta find to keep yourself going #don’t know why I’m putting this all here but I suppose it’s better than bottling up #sorry Frenchie I don’t have the box in my brain where I can just lock all the tramutic shit away and not think about it #I just want to be okay #but the truth is I’m not #and pretending I am isn’t working any more

[psycho-freitag]

How do you heal when every time you think you've moved on, one tiny little insignificant thing brings it all right back and you're trapped again even though you're free?

#i just want to be okay #trauma #fuck love #love is a lie #narcissist survivor #beaten #fuck my life

[panicismydefaultstate]

I’m always the other girl. I’m the one that’s not liked. Or ugly. Or weird. Or odd. Or socially dead. I’m the one you don’t want to be. The one that’s whispered about behind her back. THe one that’s ignored. That’s overlooked. That’s hated. That’s teased. That’s mocked. That’s isolated. The Other Girl. I don’t want to be, but I’m her. Every single time.

For once, just once. I just want people to see me as her. The one that’s liked. That’s loved. That’s pretty. That’s admired. That everyone wants to be around. That’s wanted. That you laugh with and not at. I just want to be her, and not the other girl.

#mini rant #is this relatable #depression #bullied #the other girl #i wanna be her #i hated that so much #i don’t like myself #the bullying i suffered was literally trauma #i don’t like me #I don’t wanna be me #i hate me too #left alone #always alone #i just want to be okay #i just want to be pretty #i just want to be loved #i just want to be seen #i just want to cry #nobody likes me #i hate bullies #fuck society #why me why this #please just talk to me #why can’t i be happy #why can’t i be normal #high school trauma #no one helped me #no one saved me #I was all alone

[emmy101118]

I’m wondering when does it get better

#i just want to be okay #sorry for being depressing #hate my body #i need therapy #tw depressing thoughts #get help #someone save me #tw self h4rm #tw relaspe #eating disoder things #lil peep #i miss you #i want to end it all #kinda depressing #help plz #get to know the person behind the blog

[pinnosradish]

I can't wait for summer vacation so I can just collapse and finally have a moment of silence for myself bro the self care is OVERDUE.

#i need help #summer vacation #i just want to be okay

[b00gerface]

on some desperate days I still sit there

knees cold and bruised

tears streaming down my face as I beg God to fix me, to just make me feel normal

I beg for an answer, and beg for a cure

why did you make me this way

why couldn't I be born normal

#religious trauma #he picks favourites #and i am #clearly #not one #i just want to be okay

[besavvy]

Any man could walk into a doctor’s office with the exact same symptoms as me and any doctor would be falling all over themselves trying to figure out what the fuck was wrong. The words “it’s just anxiety” would never even cross their mind.

But I, a woman, walk through that door and that asshole ignores all my abnormal test results, all my concerns, refuses to even consider the obvious diagnosis that my regular doctor (a woman) as well as multiple family members who are doctors and nurses all agree it likely is. Because “it’s really popular in the internet right now and I think it’s overdiagnosed. You’re just getting anxious because of that.”

BECAUSE THERES MORE INFORMATION NOW AND PEOPLE ARE FINALLY GETTING A FUCKING DIAGNOISIS YOU ABSOLUTE FUCKING ASSHOLE!!! On top of that fact that a lot of people who had covid and got over it are ending up with it! I know what a fucking anxiety or panic attack feels like moron. This ain’t that! I’m literally passing out all the time that is not because of my anxiety. But it makes me pretty fucking anxious to worry if I’m going to randomly pass out while I’m out in public alone.

He literally almost made me pass out in his office while doing his own version of a tilt table test and I kid you not, looked me up and down, stared at my thick thighs for an extra few seconds (I was in shorts and already self conscious) scoffed, and told me I just need to do some squats and lunges and that will fix all my problems.

Wow! Thankyou! You cured my feinting and my atrial fibrillation! You told a girl who is extremely physically active every day all day to do a few squats. I’m sure that’s magically going to fix everything.

I wanted to cry or scream at him by the time I left I was so frustrated.

#stop blaming everything on anxiety #pots #posturaltachycardiasyndrome #fainting #i just want to be okay #it’s not my anxiety #I know what that feels like #why do doctors always want to brush off women #presyncope #syncope #fighting for a diagnosis