#i don’t like myself

[ripin2]

i'm sorry that i am my father's reflection

#text #quote #excerpts from my life #written by me #confession #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #why am i like this #sad thoughts #memory #i don’t like myself #no one can save me #family #mine #daughter pov

[panicismydefaultstate]

I’m always the other girl. I’m the one that’s not liked. Or ugly. Or weird. Or odd. Or socially dead. I’m the one you don’t want to be. The one that’s whispered about behind her back. THe one that’s ignored. That’s overlooked. That’s hated. That’s teased. That’s mocked. That’s isolated. The Other Girl. I don’t want to be, but I’m her. Every single time.

For once, just once. I just want people to see me as her. The one that’s liked. That’s loved. That’s pretty. That’s admired. That everyone wants to be around. That’s wanted. That you laugh with and not at. I just want to be her, and not the other girl.

#mini rant #is this relatable #depression #bullied #the other girl #i wanna be her #i hated that so much #i don’t like myself #the bullying i suffered was literally trauma #i don’t like me #I don’t wanna be me #i hate me too #left alone #always alone #i just want to be okay #i just want to be pretty #i just want to be loved #i just want to be seen #i just want to cry #nobody likes me #i hate bullies #fuck society #why me why this #please just talk to me #why can’t i be happy #why can’t i be normal #high school trauma #no one helped me #no one saved me #I was all alone

[3-lavender]

I feel so stupid and incompetent. I feel like I can’t do anything right. My coach put me in a position I’ve ever played, never even practiced, and I sucked ass at it. I felt so so bad bc I was ruining things. So I was already beating myself down but not a lot bc I was like it was my first time it’s fine that I wasn’t good at it, I’ve never been taught how to do it so I was kinda doing it blind. But then my teammates were telling me how bad I was at it and how I shouldn’t play that position again and how the coach was stupid to put me in that position and telling me who should play that position instead. And now I feel stupid and am beating myself up and feeling like I can’t do anything. I feel so dramatic like they weren’t even being mean about it just stating the truth and I don’t want to feel sucky about it but I do and I feel so dramatic for it.

#rugby #i don’t like myself

[explorationof-thesoul]

I will never be loved the way I want to be loved.

#i’m sad again #i hate this #I don’t like myself

[girlgxdgun]

#personal favorites #I don’t like myself #girli #indie pop #pop music #indie music #2020s pop #2020s music #SoundCloud

[rateater69]

Back on my meds. Feeling overall good, a bit empty and misunderstood though.

#I don’t like myself #I’m just tired of the thoughts #and I’m tired of feeling like it’s just me. like I’m the only one who’s ever felt the ways that I feel #and don’t fucking hit me with that ‘you’re not alone #’lots of people feel that way’ no they fucking don’t. I haven’t even told you how I fucking feel because you wouldn’t fucking get it and #you’d see how fucking ugly I am and you’d hate me #I feel like my life is kind of over before it’s even begun in the sense that there is no meaning out there for me #there is no room for me to grow. I’ll be stuck a teenager forever. and I’m okay with that #but it means everything is pointless. my whole life is pointless. it’s building up to nothing. #just more empty praise and validation and chasing external validation that only leads to more emptiness and dependence in the end #I’ve just spent my whole life chasing dopamine essentially. that’s the only real goal here. it’s always been the goal #just get the next high. get the next hit. other than pleasure? other than instant rewards and shallow enjoyment? there’s nothing

[wastedwifey]

#mine #wastedwifey #me #stoned vibes #i don’t like myself #rn

[archaiclullaby]

Noramlly it’s okay to cry

Good even

Because boys dont cry

And look at you youre crying

That’s so brave of you

Look at you crying

Crying is so femine

Girls dont’ cry

That’s not very lady like

Look at you ruining your pretty little face

Girls don’t cry

Boys don’t cry

No one can cry

#i dont like this #this isn’t poetry #this isn’t art #i don’t like myself #i’m not a poet #i’m cold #i’m not okay #oops i guess

[cosmicwhoresimpingismyliving]

Why is it that the only time I feel worth anything is when I am helping others. Why do I feel so guilty and worthless when I am trying to pick up what little is left of me to even remotely fix. Why do I feel deeply hurt when others don’t accept my help? I’m still learning and growing, I know I can’t save everyone but…I always find myself reverting back to my old ways of wishing to help others instead of myself.

#i help others instead of myself #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #depression episode #depressive episode #why am I like this #alone with my thoughts #inner thoughts #attempting to heal #i don’t like myself #i don’t like being alone with my thoughts #mental health issues #mental health is important #mentally tired #words from my soul

[4phelions]

something about my sixteenth birthday makes me upset. maybe it’s the sense of unfulfillment i feel because i’m turning an age that should mean something or maybe it’s just because i’m getting older. i just feel like ive let down a younger me and that makes me feel upset. it takes too much energy not to cry whenever someone even mentions my birthday and thinking about the day looming closer and closer is enough to set me off. it’s embarrassing that i act and feel this way, i know a sixteenth birthday is something basically everyone loves. i’m just upset that i know i’ll never get to have the sweet sixteenth i’ve been dreaming of since i was a kid. it hurts me.

#vent blog #personal vent #journal #sixteen #birthday #i don’t like myself #or my birthday #or anything to do with me

[bee26s]

I feel like I’m a failure as a daughter, a girlfriend,and a mom.

HB

#mom life #mom guilt #i’m sorry #i’m a failure #i suck at this #i suck #i don’t like myself #childhood trauma #repressed anger #anger issues #i’m angry #i hate myself #i can’t do this #why #why do i keep doing this #i blame myself #bipolar disorder #mood disorder #sleep disorder #i still love you #I wouldn’t like me #depressed #general anxiety disorder #depression #depressing tumblr #depressive episode #sad #regret #mentally ill #high anxiety

[strawberryfemmesapphic]

Not understanding tone is so fun.

Always feeling like people are annoyed at you or want you to stop talking.

Especially with parents who seem to have the same tone their whole life.

And no I don’t want to talk about it with anyone

#parent issues #mommy issues #self diagnosis #self discovery #i don’t like myself

[3-lavender]

I feel sad :(

#i don’t like myself #I don’t like my body

[sunnibits]

just out of curiosity bc some people I know with glasses can just go a few hours or a day without them and be chill but I need them on all the time or I’ll go crazy

#I know this is just purely dependant on how disabled you are but like. making polls is fun #personally I don’t consider myself super badly nearsighted but like. if anything is literally more than a foot away from me it blurs #so going around without them would suck ass and probably give me a headache #sunny polls

[the-brainrot-central]

Y’all ever get consumed with rage over something so silly

#like hmmmm #‘today I will commit horrific acts of violence yes’ 🤔🤔🤔 #like I just want to break something and idk why #and I also went on Reddit today. never a good idea #I feel filthy #I don’t like myself #I have therapy tomorrow tho but at this point I should just cancel it. what fucking difference does it make #in other news I got accepted into my choice university. I don’t know why I’m not happier about it #I just feel kinda empty #and angry #I want to escape my body #TW vent #TW rant #tw anger #tw mental illness

[buggachat]

something so fucked up about Chat Noir’s whole deal is that he is in a lot of ways Adrien playing a character. Like Adrien picked up his miraculous and was told he’d be a superhero so he was like “ok, time to act like a superhero!” and he lets himself have fun w it and play up the role and let loose and kind of just allow himself to be silly and goofy and have fun and for once in his life not care about performing Perfection™.

But. But none of the other characters KNOW THAT. So everyone just sees Chat Noir and is like “look at this guy’s ego. He’s so full of himself. Surely it’d be fair to knock him down a few pegs” without being aware of how few pegs he actually HAS. He’s like the “insecure character who overcompensates in ego” trope except he’s really not doing it unironically, he’s just having a fun LARP pretending to have self worth in his off-hours but nobody else is on the same page about it being a game and he refuses to tell them. He just dramatically pouts about it and lets them laugh and pretends like he’s not internalizing it and it is almost 3 am and my brain forced me to write this instead of sleeping I’m gonna take a melatonin

#writing this my brain was like: what if he actually likes it? #what if he likes people openly criticizing him in ways nobody actually does to Adrien agreste? #because Adrien Agreste is perfect and can do no wrong. maybe he enjoys being insulted or something #and then I remembered chat noirs multiple breakdowns about feeling unworthy and yknow what yeah I don’t think he likes it LOL #do normal people actually fall asleep when they lie down #if you can’t tell I recently decided to make my random ml musings your guys’ business instead of keeping it to myself #hope you enjoy