#i literally love taylor and consider myself a swiftie too

[alwynsalps]

I saw your recent ex swiftie blog and im glad i could relate to it too. I was her fan too but this album and herself just put me out on the edge. Its hard to digest the fact that whatever part i loved about tay is only a shell of her and not her true self. A part of her mask ig… everything about her is fake and performative and nothing is genuine about it. The lover pro lgbtqia “era” activism and someone who is queer, felt so seen that person i loved advocated for us and it was great but she never spoke and uttered a voice and felt like it was simply a “phase” and never thought that real people are involved in it too? Did she think that we fight and advocate for our right is simply a trend for her to participate? Real people are standing and fighting the homophobic laws and i live in homophobic country its so hard to live in a country where they hate us and dont value as a human and i have to live as someone who isnt myself…

A simple statement would really help considering how much power and influence she holds. Her defying silence in palestine conflict too bc shes a coward to take a stand against it. Her ex bf who is much lesser in terms of popularity has more spine and courage to tapk about it.

Your blog helps me to vent out uncomfortable feelings and im truly glad❤️

You're so right. I think her releasing a four minute song about gay rights and yay be queer is just ☠️ people are literally still getting murdered for being queer. Trans people are losing healthcare and laws but you know yntcd.

She had a trans man in the lavender haze mv but didn't say anything about trans rights and everything currently going on in the US alone regarding trans people.

And it bothers me that she doesn't say anything about Palestine. Jenna Ortega lost her lead role in scream seven for speaking out against Israel. Same with another actress from scream.

Joe alwyn has like a million followers on insta where she has 284 MILLION. Joe can at any time lose any of his upcoming roles or opportunities but he is on the right side of history which she so desperately wants to be yet doesn't do anything to prove she's a good person.

Genuinely think the reason why a LOT of people are now put off are not only ratty twatty but you can genuinely see she does performative shit bc she most likely gets paid to do it 😒 while Joe, my unbothered king, is genuine regarding his actions and I think a lot of the hate he gets from swifties are bc he is what they think Taylor is.

Aw I'm happy my blog feels like a safe space 🌷you are always welcome anon🤗

#joe alwyn #free joe alwyn #anti taylor swift #swifties dni #toxic swifties #joe alwyn king #joe alwyn baby #joe alwyn mine #anti travis kelce

[merp-blerp]

My updated opinions on Gaylor, from a lesbian Swiftie

Disclaimer: I will be linking to some Gaylor posts where I get my info; please do not attack anyone who made these post if you don’t agree with them. Just scroll away or click out of the post. And do the same with mine if you don’t agree with me. I don’t condone harassment of any kind to anyone who hasn’t done anything wrong.

So in this older reblog of mine, among others, I spoke out on my opinions on “Gaylor”, a sub-fanbase in the swiftie fandom based on the belief that Taylor Swift is a part of the LGBTQ+ community secretly, or half-secretly. However, my thoughts have evolved and I want to make my personal opinions clear. My feelings are always evolving and that’s okay. They may continue to change. This has been stuck in my drafts for months. I’ve always wanted to make this post since I began posting about Taylor so often around the pandemic, but for a while the time never felt quite right and more importantly my thoughts weren’t clear. Several events had made me want to make this post and I think I’m ready to finish and post this.

I’ve been a Taylor Swift fan since 2010, but I only began to consider myself a swiftie around 2018 because that’s when I started really looking into Taylor as a person. To me a swiftie is someone who not only occasionally listens to Tay’s most popular songs, but someone who is actively in the fandom and possibly knows some basic information on Taylor. At the very least, a swiftie knows more than what’s on the radio (doesn’t mean that you’re not a “real fan” if you’re not a swiftie by my definition of one). When I started to enter the fandom, trying to learn info on Tay, the first pieces of it I saw were the Kaylors, because I’m gay and my internet algorithm knew that all too well. I actually thought it was true at the time, in the sense that I didn’t know it was a theory and thought that it was just some info I didn’t know. I remember being confused on why I had never heard about Taylor’s girlfriend Karlie Kloss before. Once I leaned it was just a theory I somewhat distanced myself from that side of the fandom because I didn’t want to get too wrapped up in a conspiracy theory. I was literally in a class that was all about not doing that at the time.

I continued my journey to do my research and felt confident enough to call myself a swiftie by 2020. I started seeing what I now know were just fragments of how some typical swifties view Gaylors. Some seemed distant and unassociating (not really homophonic, though), so I felt subconsciously reassured to continue my semi distant nature towards them. When Kit Conner’s unfortunate outing happened I felt even more validated. I didn’t want to think Gaylors were bad, but I didn’t know what to really think of them and continued to stay distant. I’ve always respected respectful Gaylors. Eventually Jaylor/Toe broke up. I made a post about how this breakup affected me at the time. I am admittedly a very hopeless romantic. The general narrative of Jaylor/Toe was something I really connected to when it came to my wants for my own love life. So it effected me pretty greatly. But it did help open me to looking more into Gaylors. Maybe I was trying to get my hopeless romantic fix somewhere. But really I think I just felt free to do so while Taylor was publicly single; like I wasn’t “disrespecting” any relationship by doing so. I had already thought about looking into the Gaylors before, to the point where my paranoid anxiety disorder very very briefly wondered if I jinked Jaylor, so my Gaylor research wasn’t necessarily connected to the breakup. It just kicked it into full gear.

So, the idea of Kaylor to me. Pretty cute! It’d be a great story. And I think some theories are cool. There are some that don’t make sense to me, but there are some that are super interesting. I saw one that theorized that Taylor burning down the lover house was representative of her burning down this albums 1-10 era we’re closing in on so that the next era can begin with her entering a new phase in her career. Presumably in this theory, a phase where she’s out and gets to write songs about the people she wants to. I’ve seen the coincidences/Koincidences. All that sounds possible. I also get that Jaylor/Toe had inconsistencies in it’s assumed narrative, likely ‘cause you never know the full story of anything when it comes to celebs. I’ve heard the audio of Jack seemingly slipping up during that one interview. Yes, “Wonderland” could totally be about Dianna Agron. Yes, I want to take my future girlfriend to Big Sur now—what’s it to ya—it looks so cozy and sweet. Karlie and Taylor’s pasts are arguably more “parallel lines” than Taylor and Joe’s. I see the queer-coding and get that speculating Tay’s sexuality is arguably not invasive because that’s how queer people find each other in real life. We look for codes in other people. Hints they might give that they are queer. That’s a historical thing we do. She might queer-code a lot. I also see the evidence that Karlie didn’t betray Taylor (had no clue all this time the main source of evidence was Perez Hilton—the fuck? That’s not a good source). I also know that a lot of Taylor’s friends have referenced Gaylor lore very loudly, insinuating that Taylor doesn’t mind the theories. I’ve seen a lot. There is so much, and honestly, it’s fun to imagine all of this being right. I think it’s a possibility.

After all this research and contemplating, the only things I don’t care for in the fandom is the seemingly making fun of Taylor’s ex’s or beards that didn't do anything wrong to her. I don’t get what’s gained by calling Joe Alwyn rude names or censoring his name like it’s a curse word. I get and agree that bearding still happens and it’s super wrong, and you can hate what Joe might’ve represented in Taylor’s life if she’s gay and being closeted by managers or something similar to that. But why hate him or tease him personally? Especially since I’ve also seen some, typically half-hearted theories that Joe is also queer. Wouldn’t it be hypocritical to adore a closeted artist you admire, but personally hate her also queer closeted beard because… he gets in the way of a ship or narrative? Or because, by no fault of his own, Hollywood has a broken system that forces fake dating? Hate the industry, not him. Yes, he’s pretty aloof, to the point where when you tease him it feels like teasing a blank slate, but he is a human being with feelings. Maybe it’s the sensitive bullied kid in me, but it doesn’t seem light-hearted or no big deal to me. I’m not mad yet, just confused. Am I missing something or is sarcasm going over my head? Genuinely asking. This is really just a swiftie problem I think, as it happens in the general fandom too for similar reasons. I know this isn’t everyone in the fandom though.

I also don’t agree with the more… intense theories, such as Karlie’s son Levi (and her currently upcoming baby) isn’t real or not actually her’s. Or that she isn’t really Jewish and it’s all just a part of the bearding. That feels odd. Just… I feel uncomfortable touching that. Gaylors who believe these things seem to be in the minority though. I don't think being queer has much to do with being Jewish. Maybe she just wanted to convert and Josh also happened to be Jewish as well. And maybe Taylor could be like Levi’s stepmom-type figure and Josh is more like a sperm donor or something—I dunno…

If Taylor outright said that she was straight personally I wouldn’t label her as a queer-baiter because it’s not baiting to exist as you are. I think straight and/or cis people should feel comfortable with expressing things like gender-nonconformity or doing things like enjoying rainbows, and the fact that most don’t is rooted in that homophobia thing we’ve been trying to fight against since the 60s. And in my opinion real people can’t queerbait. But I get that this topic is a very nuanced one that can touch a nerve and you’re allowed to disagree with me.

I should also mention that all these opinions are exclusive to Gaylor. I’m not deep enough in other fandoms like the One Direction/Larry Stylinson or Fifth Harmony/Camren fandoms to really say anything on them specifically.

So am I a Gaylor now? I don’t know. Legitimately, do I get to call myself that? I do love, and always have loved, queer interpretations of Taylor’s music and other forms of media. I’m also confident in saying that I’m open to both Gaylor narratives and general narratives about Taylor being true. I can’t take either side as fully the truth while the other’s a lie, not because I’m shunning one of them, but because that just not how I work as a person. Nothing ever feels definitive to me unless it’s a fact in my face. I’m very factual. Not shunning Gaylors, this is just how I work. Would that count as a Gaylor? I truly don’t know.

So, Gaylors, I hope I was respectful enough to your community. If I said anything off, or anything that misrepresented your community, please kindly let me know and educate me. I’m still learning. I’m very sorry some of the swifties in this fandom are homophonic trash. I had no clue it was that bad till I saw what some people left behind in your post. Uncalled for. Taylor, queer or not, would not approve. Shade never made anybody less gay. If you’re a bigot what are you even doing in this fandom? Gaylors, just know you guys are safe with me.

Except me to now have a mix of general swiftie post and Gaylor post reblogged here (if I didn’t do that already—I might’ve without fully realizing). Thanks for reading and being respectful and kind!

🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜

#taylor swift #gaylor #gaylors #gaylor swift #lgbetty #friend of dorothea #kaylor #karlie kloss #swiftgron #dianna agron #jaylor #toe #swiftalwyn #joe alwyn #lgbt #sapphic #lesbian #lesbians #queer coding #queerbaiting #swifties #swiftie #fandoms

[oh-hush-its-perfect]

how the hoo characters would react upon being asked about taylor swift

PERCY: She's pretty good. Yeah, I listened to the new version of Speak Now and it kinda went harder than I thought it would. I'm not, like, a "worship the ground she walks on" kinda guy, but I guess I like enough of her songs to consider myself a Swiftie. Guilty pleasure, I guess.

ANNABETH: Oh, gosh. People always ask me this. Uh, long story short— oh, right, that's one of her songs. That's kinda funny— I liked her music a lot when I was younger. Like, "Better than Revenge" was my thing when I was fifteen. And, yeah, I've listened to most of her albums. I liked Midnights and folklore and evermore. But I was never in love with her as a person. I just relate to some of her songs. Oh, gods, I couldn't count how many times I've cried to "Would've, Could've, Should've." But I heard someone call her the "greatest songwriter of our generation," and that's just... That's a bit bizarre for me. I think she's good as an artist, though. So... I guess I like her music, but I'm definitely not a Swiftie.

PIPER: Uhhh, I don't know. Like, her music is terrible or anything, but it's not really my taste. But as a person? I don't know, the whole Matty Healy thing just rubbed me the wrong way, and... I mean, she's a rich white lady doing rich white lady things. My dad asked me if I wanted her at my birthday party once. I said no, but I also said no to the Regrettes, and I'm literally in love with Lydia Knight. I'm happy for her with the tour and all, but not really my scene, no. But Jason likes her so I try to be supportive.

JASON: Oh, my gods. She's like... I don't know if she's my favorite artist, but she's up there. I mean, like, she's just so classy and her music is just so good. The way she uses synths is like... it's like magic. And her lyrics— I mean, you can't get much more relatable than that. My favorite album is probably... Lover? Or maybe Red. Then again, maybe it's 1989. It's so hard to pick. I guess I'm kind of a hopeless romantic at the end of the day.

LEO: Taylor Swift? Well, like, she's hot.

THALIA: Not really my style. But if she did a punk-pop or metal album, I'd be down for that. Like, I heard a metal cover of "Look What You Made Me Do" once, and it went so hard. She's really got a good voice for punk, too. Saw a video of her doing a vocal growl on that one song— uh, what's it called? "We are Never Getting Back Together" or something like that? Anyway, that sounded really good. But I don't really like her environmental impact. You could ask Rachel about that. I bet she'd have a lot to say.

RACHEL: Taylor— Listen. Don't get me started on Taylor Swift. Her music is mediocre at best, and her carbon footprint? Holy Hades! I saw somewhere that that one study that said 8,000 tonnes was wrong and it's actually more like 1,000 tonnes, but that was taken from half of a year during a global pandemic. She wasn't even touring or anything. The woman's a multimillionaire. With that kind of money, you would think that she'd be more environmentally conscious, but no. Not at all. And I guess it's cool or whatever that she pays her people well, but, like, that's the bare minimum. Taylor Swift. I didn't like her before all that about her environmental impact and stuff came out, and I definitely don't like how she dates racist guys, and I hate the way people worship her and follow her like lemmings, y'know?

HAZEL: Who?

FRANK: Oh, she's good, I suppose. Never got super invested in her or her music or anything. I don't really know anything about her except that people love her, and her singles are fine, I guess. I liked that one song "cardigan."

NICO: Uh, I feel like people shouldn't really ask me about music. My music taste kinda sucks. But sure, Taylor Swift makes some good music. Annabeth played me a few songs once. I really liked "Haunted," I think it's called.

REYNA: I don't follow her life and I haven't listened to any of her albums or anything. I mostly listen to Latin music, to be honest. But she's a woman and she's extremely successful, so I suppose I'm happy for her.

[Coach Hedge immediately starts singing "Shake It Off" when asked and did not provide any further comment.]

OCTAVIAN: I can't believe some people call that trash "music." It's so low-brow and vapid. Only eleven year old girls actually like that kind of thing. Me, I listen to real music— the classics, like Mozart. My favorite song by him is definitely "Canon in D."

#heroes of olympus #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #riordanverse #taylor swift #in response to a post I saw saying that Annabeth wouldn't be a Swiftie— yeah but it's a little more nuanced than that

[mrsnancywheeler]

I just wanna say... ur content makes my brain go 'bzzt!!!' in a good way; I've never watched djats, but lordy your billy dunne blurbs have a chokehold on me ✊️😔 an incurable plague on my house... u and ur anons' brains are just so !!!! MWAH!!! chef's kiss!!!

I mainly followed for Finnick content and stayed when I saw u were a swiftie & some of your stuff was based on some of her songs^^... if I may throw my hat into the Billy Dunne & his muse ring :))

I'm surprised no one has brought up The Last Time yet, especially the bridge!

'This is the last time you tell me I've got it wrong'/'This is the last time I say it's been you all along'/'This is the last time I let you in my door'/'This is the last time, I won't hurt you anymore'

And the whole nature of the song being that 'ik we need to quit while we're ahead, but you're all i know' and how it's progressed to where we see in the song... if that ain't Muse coming to her senses and Billy having The Realization that he's been a massive dick...

like, the vision is in my head & I hope it came across clearly enough lmao & makes sense considering the very limited knowledge I have on this topic

I'm literally so glad, I long to infect everyone with billy dunne brain rot. i love my anon's sm too, their brains are next level fr. I'm so glad you're here, hun, I love taylor sm and yessss tell me all your thoughts 💋

yesss you are so so right like the whole ultimatum especially like, I'm not coming back if you don't change, we do this over and over and over again and I can't do it any longer, yet I'm still gonna stay with yiu throughout the whole tour snf and come whenever you call.

so many lyrics are just so relevant

"find myself at your door, just like all those times before. I'm not sure how I got there, all roads they lead me here"

"this is the last time I'm asking you this, put my name at the top of your list. this is the last time I'm asking you why you break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye"

"you find yourself at my door, just like all those times before. you wear your best apology"

the vision is clear and so, so correct. like the realization that no matter how much willing she has, no matter how many times they do this, there's only so much more she can take before it just breaks.

sorry this took me so long to get too, I'm traveling 😭❤️

#wanda 💋 #billy dunne x reader angst #billy dunne angst #billy dunne #djats x reader #pinkanon-com

[that-crazy-five-foot-two-chick]

It's been so funny and interesting to me getting into Taylor Swift after already having long been into Stray Kids and kpop in general, so here are some funny parallels I've noticed between the two and/or their fandoms:

Ryan Reynolds

The Vault/Chan's Laptop

Really dumb fun fandom energy. Like please, I did not expect the ship name Toe, but that is the only one I am using now. Please I am begging Stays to have this energy when skz start dating publicly

Videos appreciating them existing in cute

Taylor's cats 🤝 Minho's cats

Frothing at the mouth over good/cathartic lyrics and the analysis of such

Ed Sheeran appreciation

Being serious derps irl/online with fans

Loving how their hearts and minds work and how they convey the contents of the same

Reluctant song ranking tiktoks

Knowing exactly which era a photo was from solely based on hair and/or clothes

Knowing details about them that would sound really creepy to someone outside the fandom it's not creepy if they say it in an interview or behind the scenes I swear

TOO MANY SIGNIFICANT NUMBERS and on that note, lowkey wanna leave the list here solely for the sake of things

Learning vocabulary because of them. Seriously. Why did it take me until the last month to figure out that Miroh meant maze and that Clé means key when I've been stanning them since 2021. I'm so mad.

Songs instead of therapy but please go to therapy if you legit need it. "this is me trying" was not about using lyrics as a replacement for professional help. That's a Placebo.

"yes they can actually sing live and here's the proof"

Very involved in their songs from start to finish and it shows and we love them for it

OH SHOOT—I just realized Taylor's Versions vs SKZ 2020/2021—

ME! lol. I do mean the song but also technically me myself as well now heh

Writing love/breakup songs except it's completely made up

Extremely prolific

"so I made this song at stupid o'clock in the morning and here it is lol" and it's the freaking sparkly cd meme

We CARE care about album drops and about them making the money off of it that they deserve as artists

Wanting merch but wiping the lint off the bottom of our wallets to try to find the money

"Please let one measly concert seat be available even if it sucks"

"wait a second, they/their fandoms AREN'T hysterical like the media paints them to be?" *insert mental hurricane that eventually dies down here* "wait, am I actually considering joining them??" *narrator voice: but by then, it was already too late*

Seeing the same memes/edits but in different fandoms but it's not memes I've seen in non-music fandoms. Like literally. Just watched one.

Acronyms that look like keyboard smashes to everyone else please though Swifties you're way worse please have mercy on this baby I'm still learning—

Recycling quotes from haters into song lyrics, like please yes queen/king, continue, go off

Giant creepy creatures as tour set pieces

Taylor and Chan being parents even though they have never actually had children

And on that note, knowing everybody in their industries

Rolling out our list of reasons like a scroll every time we say we stan them and the other person so much as inhales to start a response. We could probably recite that list in our sleep at this point.

Stay Stay Stay HAHAHAHAHAHA

I seriously need to shut up or I will get nothing done today but yeah if you stan one, please give the other a chance because you're doing yourself a disservice if you don't.

#skz thoughts #stray kids #skz #skz stay #taylor swift #swifties #oh no i just realized taylor AND chris could see this. thats scary. they hold too much power #but if either of you ARE watching....hiiiiiii

[mike-wheeler-ik-what-you-are]

hi!! how are you doing today? what are some music artists you love that have a special place in your heart? i hope you're having a beautiful day so far! <3

hi!! answering this while in my car, I hope you're having a wonderful day <33

I really am into "old" music so yea it will mostly be like that. I have pretty mainstream music taste tbh.

soo first of all I've always loved queen, like I've had the biggest queen phase a couple of years ago and still listen to them

then I also listen to the smiths, although when I was deep into anorexia I used to always listen to them so it took me quite some time to start again

elton john music is literally my coping mechanism, no joke, love his music, this year I was lucky enough to be able to listen to him live, one of the best nights ever

then there was this period of time when I would always listen to classical music and I got really into tchaikovsky

I love the beatles, their songs make me so happy

I also love doja cat's music and her energy in general (hope I don't get canceled 4 this lmao)

I like listening to the kinks too

my inner will also says the clash and honestly damn right I like them

sex pistols!!! love their music

ABBA songs make me so happy

lizzo literally gives me life, queen, legend, icon

speaking of icons I have to mention lady gaga

I also listen to cardi b

and megan thee stallion

I love the cure sm

I also listen to paramore

and mcr

and patd

and I would be lying if I said I haven't had like the biggest melanie martinez in 7th grade (I still listen to her songs lmao)

I like taylor swift but wouldn't consider myself a swiftie

I live love laugh harry styles

and I love billy joel's music

I'm still not over george michael's death

my first lp ever was the rise and fall of ziggy stardust

I also listen to girl in red

and cavetown

and unfortunately I like eminem too (his songs gave me trauma lol)

I honestly could go on for forever but I think I'm gonna stop here bc yea OSHAOSHAOA

#sofi's answers(??)

[mychanicalbrides]

does anyone else feel like once they got into emo/alt music they aren't allowed to like any other music?? (cutting this off cus I rant a lot sorry)

I've loved pierce the veil and Paramore for a long time but just recently have I been exploring those scenes more than before and they feel Soo restricting. I feel like I can't like rap music or pop music because that means I dont ACTUALLY like the bands I like.

I was talking to my brothers who are both super into rap (chance the rapper and Tyler the creator mostly) and how I feel like I can't like it, and I literally started crying because I can't think of an actual valid reason to not get into it. and the only reason I could think of is that I can't like rap if I also like Taylor Swift or MCR because that's just. impossible??

idk maybe it's cus I listen to music with fanbases and most rap fanbases are like 12 year old boys. and whenever I want to get into rap people look at me like I'm crazy!!! they want me to like rap because everybody likes it but when I try to find artists to like suddenly I'm not allowed to??

I'm supposed to know every song on their discography and like their mother's maiden name to consider myself a real fan. Tyler tc is probably one of my fav rappers I love Igor and some other songs by him but I don't say I'm a fan because I only know Igor.. people have told me that!! I have to like their weird niche music from 2010 to be a "real fan"??

and I'm pretty sure that's solely based on the fact I listen to Taylor Swift and shit because there's no Way a Swiftie could like Tyler the Creator!!!!!

let people b casual fans man I see this in emo music alot too, you dont have to like or listen to every single song to be a real fan of someone.

and let people into your dumb niche weirdo subcultures okay I WANT to get into rap and hip hop and pop and punk rock because I like the history and the communities and the cultures and it's so amazing but I can't get into it because I like these other things. Music is so fucking fluid and can be sooo many things and you can like all of it

let me like all of it! I don't care if I'm a fucking swiftie or an emo tell me your favorite rap song let people expand their music tastes and don't make fun of them for not liking the unreleased found in a basement single !!

okay I'm done I'm sorry I had to say it cus it's been bugging me like all month

#yap #this is alot LMAO sorry #i felt like i kinda annoyed my brother by being the weird emo kid that only knows two kanye songs #thats literally what inspired this post jsjsjshj #anyway stream igor and stream misadventures

[pctrtbrn]

intro

hi there! my name’s lulu, i’m 25 and use literally any pronouns :). this side blog exists so i can talk abt taylor in general bc half of tumblr thinks even knowing about her is a cardinal sin.

i consider myself less of a swiftie and more of a fan in the zeitgeist. i can be quite critical of her when i want to, as well as the fandom culture around her. on the other hand sometimes it is TRULY not that serious.

fave albums are self-titled and speak now!

gaylor truthers do NOT interact - idc about rpf/fanfic but if you genuinely believe it then get out.

i will talk about her relationships but it’s all just fun gossip; she’s defined by more than the men she’s dated.

i often refer to taylor as “blondie” or “miss swift”; these are not belittling in nature, i just think it’s fun calling her blondie.

other than that, my other favorite band is fall out boy! yes i have in fact made electric touch a core part of my personality. DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU HATE IT OR THINK FOB MADE IT WORSE. also taylor is literally on record saying that pete wentz is a huge inspiration for her lyric writing wise so do NOT even start with me abt it.

fave songs from each album under cut!

WORK IN PROGRESS RN SOWWY

self titled - picture to burn, should’ve said no, teardrops on my guitar, i’m only me when i’m with you

fearless - stay beautiful, you belong with me, love story

speak now - mine, haunted, better than revenge, electric touch, the story of us

red - red, state of grace, message in a bottle, all too well ten minutes version

1989 - new romantics, style, out of the woods, is it over now, blank space, now that we don’t talk

reputation - delicate, end game, ready for it

lover - lover, cruel summer

folklore - cardigan, illicit affairs

evermore - willow

midnights - karma, anti-hero, question, mastermind

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i was gonna do a “top 5 in order” (they’re the italic+bold ones) but it’s literally in album order. picture to burn is still literally my favorite taylor swift song HDKFJDKDJFKF

and before you ask… yeah my url is Picture To Burn but without the vowels a la Thnks Fr Th Mmrs by fall out boy :3

#lulu dot text #pinned

[nevergrewup]

Idk if anyone will look at this or see this but I wanted to make a sideblog for my current "swiftie era" (a.k.a. my current AuDHD fueled Taylor Swift hyperfixation)

I'm 27 years old, so I'm pretty late, but I've been a passive fan since Fearless. I had Fearless, Speak Now, and Red when I was younger, for some reason I missed 1989, but when Reputation came out I instantly became obsessed and listened to it every day. I still never went back and listened to 1989 until this year I think, and I didn't listen to folklore or evermore until this year either.

So this renewed interest leading into an obsession started with Fearless TV, then Red TV. Around March of this year is when I started to fixate. Cruel Summer became my favorite song. Reputation is still my favorite album. Also, my blog's namesake, The Archer is among my favorites but in the way that I feel like that song is a peek into my soul. My username can also be a callback to Never Grow Up though.

The obsession has been growing and growing since March but then Midnights came out and and I took a nosedive into being fully dedicating almost all of my free time listening to her music, watching videos, talking to my friends about her, etc. Two of my closest friends are also autistic swifties so it's a trip. I feel like her music and artistry really lends itself so well to being a special interest.

Again, I know I'm so late and I'm so new despite passively following off and on since Fearless, but my being autistic makes me fixate and love HARD. I have been using Spotify for almost a decade and she has already become my *number one artist of all time* on Spotify and thats even considering my favorite band of 17 years, Fall Out Boy (and holy fuck do I love that one of Taylor's favorite lyricists is Pete Wentz).

I'm going to try and see her in Houston. I'm working on not having an ugly sobbing breakdown during Would've, Could've, Should've if she does that live because jesus christ. Also champagne problems can y'all imagine? Fingers crossed for All Too Well 10 minute version. Fingers and toes crossed for Cruel Summer my soul will leave my body if I hear that live. I will trade literally anything for Cruel Summer. The absolute HIGH I get from that song.

Even when this obsession inevitably lessens for me, it's safe to say I now have a life-long steady love for her. I always felt like certain songs of hers could describe my life and my pain and heartbreak even when I was younger but now it's on another level entirely.

I was fully prepared to go see her in Houston alone, pay for it alone, drive myself alone, MAYBE meet up with one of my close friends I mentioned earlier. Houston is about 3 hours away from where I live in Louisiana (New Orleans is not much closer but it's more practical for me but it's not on this tour this time), but when it came up in conversation with my parents, I was surprised they wanted to go too and drive me there. I was so moved by that I cried. I registered for Verified Fan but I won't be surprised if I don't get a code. I'll be relying on Capital One pre-sale if not.

I'm just thinking about how even when I wasn't a swiftie, her music has still gotten me through so much in my life throughout multiple stages of my life. I keep getting emotional and crying thinking about having any chance of seeing her life. Having any seat in that stadium. The fact that my parents are willing to support me on this even though I'm a mostly financially independent adult.

Anyways I hope y'all will have me 🥺👉👈

[jin0]

hi love!! could i request a andrew character?? i’m a american-brazilian girl, i have long black hair with bangs, and im 5’9. i’m currently studying journalism and i work on a magazine as a writer for tv/ movies section!!

i love movies, musicals, tv, music, everything cultural really. i had an opportunity to live in london for some months and it was just the best thing ever! i love wearing a lot of black, and jewelry. and my fashion inspirations are dakota johnson, victoria de angelis and suki waterhouse !! i love shopping as well but i do love reading too!! my favorite book is daisy jones & the six ! i loooove the 60s and 70s and everything culture about it !!

i’m a big swiftie myself (like taylor swift is my life)

please and thank u <3

you just gave me big main character vibes, you don't even know ??? my anons are the coolest yo ??? like final girl and you probably would be best friends 🙈

to you baby, i give :

theater kid andrew garfield !!

"andrew, behave yourself or i'm leaving."

you were funny, extremely funny even but how was he supposed to ? you were absolutely gorgeous, divine even.

andrew garfield, known by the entire campus as the future oscar winning actor. his reputation was so well carved that students signed up here for him. he was the star, literally.

beyond the cliché with the athletes and the geniuses, he was the one who wore the crown in here. his existence was worshipped by many, teachers and students all joining together to treat him as if he was royalty. he was to them.

you'd think his head would get so big, it would explode. that would be ironic, to have the people fueling his ego by calling him fifty shades of humble and god like, be the reason of his absolute downfall.

weirdly enough it never happened though, andrew the saint stayed perfect. the talented actor who'd already made a small name for himself on the big screen stayed the same sarcastic, talkative and terrifyingly handsome. he was all around perfect.

and that's where you came in.

the perfection buster. that's what they called you, since high school.

you had made a reputation for yourself, just a little less glamorous as his and that you enjoyed just a tiny bit. okay maybe a lot. but it made you proud. so proud, you were a menace like that.

you found pleasure in exposing people by simply asking too many question and letting them reveal themselves on their own. sometimes it wasn't about being honest, just being quiet you know ? if you stayed quiet, you couldn't be played by false curiosity and that was exactly what had all these people losing their temporary fame. you'd ask them questions according to their logic and they'd crumble like sand castles.

that was what you did and had been pursuing in life, stepping on castles made out of sand by throwing more sand on it. that's what journalism was in a way. that was the career you chose and now here were.

you'd been hired to interview andrew garfield, the star student of your university.

and when you said hired, it was literal. the school and his agency had paid a lot of money to have you write on him, because the people were begging for it. some wanted to see him fall, some just wanted to prove how good he was. now your favorite category was the one that considered that you both had heavy sexual tension. from afar. you'd never been seen together but he talked about you, that he did.

whenever you were brought up, his attention was entirely on the discussion. maybe he was a fanboy too, good reputation for you. or maybe he had a crush since someone pointed out how good you'd look together. who could know ?

and now here you were. staring at each other. or at least he was staring, you were looking at your notes from the past and reviewing your questions.

"i told you to behave andrew."

"and i ignored you because i can't. you're really beautiful, you know that ? got my heart beating so damn fast, i feel like i could pass out. good reason for you to give me cpr." he grinned, playing with the drink in front of him.

looking up from your notes, you sigh, shaking your head with an exasperated expression.

"you're one shitty pro actor, you know that ? flirting with the journalist won't have me go easy on you. now focus, we're starting." you said, starting you recorder. "so, tell me andrew, what is that makes you special ?"

"are these the questions you ask to get them crumbling ? sounds like you're going easy on me love. come on, i know you've got a little more mean in you. or did you fall for me already ?" he chuckled, leaning on his elbows and biting his lip when he stared at yours. they looked absolutely delicious, ready to feast on until you were breathless and flushed all over.

taken by surprise at the snap of your finger in front of his face, he grinned when his eyes met your very displeased expression. teasing you was the most pleasurable thing he'd done all day, in all sense of the term.

"if you can't focus, i'm gone and that won't look nice on an article now, would it andrew ?" you threatened, crossing your arms over your chest and raising an eyebrow.

what you'd intended to be taken as a threat was, unfortunately or not, taken completely differently by your counterpart who now just really wanted to fuck you. maybe he enjoyed being bullied, that could be a good thing to add to your article. andrew garfield : golden boy of humbleness but twisted masochist.

"so, to get back on topic. since you want mean, why is it that you need to eye fuck every co-star you have ? sex deprived ? playboy tendencies ? tell me andrew." you asked, taking a bite out of your cheesecake. your eyes never left him and that drove him insane.

"i don't eye fuck my co-stars. and im not famous enough to be a playboy. but i can play if you want. you know I'd love to play with you." he taunted, his foot sliding the floor to go to yours.

he let his shoe run up your calf, smirking when you glared at him. your hand was quick to stop him, throwing his leg back on the floor. but you didn't move your legs the second time around, brought up to rest between his thighs. you ignored the fact that he'd taken your shoes off to massage them too. you ignored a lot of what was going on under the table, simply allowing his fingers to press on your skin and softly caress your calves.

"you're right. you don't eye fuck your co-stars. just everyone else. attracted to people until they work with you huh ?" you asked, leaning into your seat.

"you're jealous ?"

looking at him, you scoffed writing in your notepad again and smirking when he tried to snatch it away.

"oh andrew, sweetheart..." you cooed, looking at him with false tenderness. "jealousy is not something i feel, and most definitely not for a man who gets off on being verbally abused. how's that kink holdin' up for you buddy ?" you asked, titling your head to the side

wide eyes, he snarled in his hands, hating the effect you knew you had on him. with your naked foot between his legs, he'd been lucky that you had decided on a coffee shop far from campus and where you could make reservations for the tables in the back. no one could see this, no one.

he watched you press into his bulge a little harder, his lips tightly stuck together to prevent the moans in his throat from jumping out and exposing him further. he was going crazy, definitely the only explanation when he grabbed your foot to grind into it before it was ripped away from him.

"you have a job to do andrew." you said, your voice cutting through him and making him shiver.

"how am i supposed to focus with a huge boner ?"

"i don't know, but you're a big guy, you can figure something out." you grinned, batting your eyelashes seductively.

groaning again, it was his turn to glare at you, the growing heat in his body traveling to his cock rapidly and making his world spin.

"please, don't fucking say that." he slurred, looking down on himself and rubbing his eyes.

"say what ? big guy ? but you're a big guy andy. so, so, so big. can barely take your size." you mused, making your voice sound awfully familiar to him.

the moment your lips pushed out the sift, breathy 'andy', nickname you only used on certain steamy occasions, he was too far gone to focus on this stupid interview. not with his dick so hard, he was sure to react violently at your next actions.

that you knew, which is why you decided to leave. you gathered your things and raised your face to look at him, a soft smile on your gorgeous face. all this time he'd been watching you silently, practically waiting for you to do something.

"you clearly can't focus so let's reschedule, okay ?" you said, tilting your head to the side.

as soon as you took the first to stand up and walk away, his brain restarted. his hands reached towards you, pulling you back down on the seat you'd used and his other arm pulled on it, bringing it close to him. before you could stop him, his hands were on your waist, lifting you up and sitting you down on his lap to hug you tightly.

"please... don't leave... i promise i'll be good." he pleaded softly, his face resting on your shoulder

"you're lying. if i stay here for this, you'll end up having me jerk you off under the table andrew."

"i'm sorry bunny, but it's not my fault only you know ? i love it when you act like you don't know me and all my secrets." he muttered, kissing your shoulder tenderly.

yeah, you were dating.

you'd been dating for at least three years actually and you flew under the radar pretty easily. you didn't want your success to be because of his growing fame so he agreed to hide your relationship. you'd been doing a pretty good job, no one knew, not even the professors. only his parents and brother knew.

running your hand up his nape and into his brown locks, you pulled him to you, kissing his forehead and cupping his face with both of your hands.

"I know all your secrets sure, but i still have to do these baby..." you cooed, grinning when he whined loudly. the transition from you being mean to sweet always gave him whiplash.

"i know... just kinda love it when you're going all journalist on me. you just so mean, can't even think straight." he whispered, pressing his lips to your neck and grinding your ass on his bulge. "you love to have me weak in the knees huh bunny ? wanted to be all cute and cuddly in a nice coffee shop, acting like we're two strangers when i fucked you nice and slow this morning and had you crying and creaming around my cock last night but you had to be a fucking fox as always. wanna see me hard and desperate for you all over the school paper ? you like to see what you do to me huh, baby ?" you purred into your ear, his voice low enough to have you wet in a matter of seconds.

smiling, you kissed the tip of his nose softly, contrasting with you rolling your hips over him.

"can't help it. you look so cute when you're all hot and bothered because of me."

you stilled when you crossed his dark lustful glare, his hand caressing your back and bunching up your dress just enough to grab your thighs tightly. you felt his fingers unclasps your bra and slid it out of your dress to put it inside his own bag.

"let's go home bunny. i'll show you how hot and bothered i can get."

#•°jin's 1k sleepover°• #•° jin replies <3°• #andrew garfield smut #andrew garfield one shot #andrew garfield imagine #andrew garfield #female reader #woc reader #black reader

[leexsa]

hey there! because i literally hate myself, what's better than to start writing music headcanons from all the klance angst aus im thinking of in my head?

these are all *really* random hcs please stay with me on this

•••

lance seems like the kind of guy who would have spotify premium, so he has a shit ton of songs downloaded onto his phone before the blue lion leaves earth.

some examples of songs in his playlist will be nuestra canción, butter, boombayah, all that good stuff.

so the team will sometimes grab his phone and start playing their own favourite songs. it's more to remind them of earth than to actually listen to the songs because they like them.

and then - pidge finds space tiktok. what's a good name for it... spacetok. yeah not the tag it's a whole app by itself.

and surprise surprise, earth's songs are there too! so lance immediately starts making a new account and starts doing dances, documentaries on how his bayard works, interviews with the other paladins, and his account has nearly 6 billion followers (quite small, considering spacetok is used by almost everyone across multiple galaxies). not that lance is complaining, he always flexes in front of pidge who's account is more towards technology and science.

hunk's spacetok account will be about food, ofc. he's only a few thousand less followers than lance, and everyone likes to comment new recipes for him to try.

keith wouldn't be a content creator, but he has his own account, definitely not to stalk lance's own spacetok and to simp over him (not that he'll ever admit it, but lance eventually does find out).

shiro is space dad. he does not have a spacetok account, but he occasionally participates in lance's ones if he wants to.

coran does in fact, have an account dedicated to exercises and stuff to do to keep yourself healthy in space. allura has a makeup account but prefers a smaller audience in case any kind of information is exposed to the galra empire.

and since lance was most likely the 'theatre kid', he would probably do the 'theatre kids be like' vids as well. he also teaches everyone in the castle how to do the macarena and convinces them to do it for a spacetok. it resulted in many messes, but it's all in good fun.

•••

lance would have a FANTASTIC voice. although he occasionally cracks his voice, they seem to make his singing look even better. he can most definitely hit the notes in electric love.

(it would be in his playlist too!)

keith listens to as the world caves in. wuki remix, to be precise. he can't hit the notes, but his chest voice isn't so bad, rather soothing to listen to. considering this song was sang by a female though, he has to sing it a a few keys lower.

hunk can sing bass. i like to think he goes really well in acapella groups like pentatonix.

pidge wouldnt be singing, she'd be doing all the technical stuff. favourite genre would probably be either lofi, edm or poprock. something she can study to. but besides studying, probably something to jam to with her hair flinging around and scream her lungs out to.

shiro listens to classical music. no explaination, just take it.

coran would listen to meme music from the 90s and the 00s unironically. not that he would ever know that they were memes of course.

i think allura would be a swiftie and have around the same voice range as queen swift herself! *very* supportive of taylor's version.

•••

aight that's the end of my brainrot thanks for listening :D

#voltron #voltron hcs #voltron headcanons #klance #lance #keith #shiro #pidge #coran #hunk #allura #Spotify

[babydotcom]

oooh i find 'betty' to be an intriguing WIP doc title … can u share more abt it?

hmmm. tell me about betty !!! (@ilunei)

yes, tysm!! so basically this is a highschool au mailee inspired by betty by taylor swift (bc zukka nation has given me swifty brainrot). 

Mai has an unrequited crush on one of her best friends, Ty Lee, who is always there for her but not in the way she wants. When Ty Lee starts spending more time with Sokka, her new friend and physics tutor, Mai decides it’s time to move on-- and it just so happens that Suki is looking to kill some time after their highschool’s winter formal dance. Mai and Suki start dating and shenanigans ensue!!

This was initially a pretty simple one chapter deal but I kinda fell in love with the Maiki dynamic and now the whole thing is kind of getting away from me. (More under the cut bc I couldn’t help myself!)

"If you're going to be a total stick in the mud, I'm going to find someone else to dance with just to make you jealous," she pouted.

Mai's heart rate jumped just a bit, and she hoped Ty Lee couldn't feel it in the fingers around her wrist. It's not like she knew that yeah, she would be jealous, but it still made her nervous. She wrenched her arm out of Ty Lee's grip just to be safe.

"It's not like it'll be hard for you to find a guy to dance with. Literally every guy in this gym thinks he has a shot with you, since you love flirting so much." Ty Lee's eyebrows scrunched a little and her smile dipped slightly, and she looked like she would've said something if an upperclassman hadn't bounded up behind her. Mai quirked an eyebrow to say see, as a tan hand landed on Ty Lee's shoulder. Her face lit up when she turned to see who it was.

"Sokka! I didn't know you were here!" She throws her arms around his shoulders and he laughs, returning the hug with hands on her waist. Mai watches, wondering if maybe she'd made a mistake in not just going along. But the music had given her a headache and a phantom thrum in her chest that made her feel sick. Or maybe the nausea was just from watching Ty Lee ignore her in favor of a stranger.

"I just got here, I couldn't drop my shift at work. Dance with me?" He says, hands now on Ty Lee's wrist the same way Ty Lee had held Mai's just a moment ago.

"Yes! Spirits, yes," she says, bouncing on her heels with excitement. She turns back to Mai with mock coolness and says, "have fun being a stick in the mud," before bounding off with Sokka into the throng of people.

Mai can still see them from her seat on the bleachers, and her eyes track them as they rejoin what must be Sokka's group of friends, weirdly all juniors even though she knew Sokka was a senior, and began dancing, full of smiles and laughs Mai felt like she could hear even over the music.

She vaguely recognized the early 2010's song that came on next, but she was more focused on how Ty Lee and Sokka were dancing close together, his head lowered to say something in her ear before she threw her head back laughing. Not having Ty Lee to distract her with her rambling left her to be keenly aware of the very beginning of a panic attack washing over her. Resolute not to have a panic attack in front of a good two-thirds of her high school, Mai made her way through the doors to the hallway, and then out towards the courtyard that lay just before the parking lot. The cool January air in her lungs did a wonder on her nerves as she focused on her breathing, but she didn't think she could go back in. She paced back and forth over the concrete a few times, worrying the strap of her mini backpack in her hands, wondering just how mad Ty Lee would be if she asked to leave. She would have skated if Ty Lee hadn't forced her to leave her board at home in favor of Ty Lee's prius, which now also held her overnight bag for the sleepover they planned on and her change of shoes. She could just walk home, it wasn't a big deal, but that would mean pulling Ty Lee out of the gym to unlock her car when she had just started having fun. Mai couldn't help feeling a little bit bad about that, but school dances really weren't her style.

She walked up to the curb and pulled out her phone to shoot off a text to Ty Lee so she wouldn't worry, but was interrupted by a loud truck pulling up in front of her. Ever one to be wary of creeps, her hand went to the small knife she kept in the side pocket of her bag.

The window of the beat up old truck creaked down to reveal Suki leaning across the center console, hair down in a side part and a gold necklace dangling on top of her green strapless dress. "Lost?" she teased, a smile pulling at her lips.

"Haha," she said, dropping her knife back in its place. She knew Suki well enough, as they trained at the same dojo. "Hey, Suki."

"Are you leaving? I can give you a ride, if you want." Mai looked down at the aggressively strappy stilettos Ty Lee and Azula had insisted she wear, and considered her options before tugging the truck door open.

"That would be great, thanks." She dropped her bag onto the floor, which was impressively clean despite the rusting green exterior of the truck, and buckled in before stretching her legs. "How come you're leaving so early?"

"Ugh, that music was just, like, so bad. I don't know who can actually listen to trap for hours on end like that. I was so bored! I'd rather do something actually fun, you know?"

"Yeah, me too." Mai trailed off and noticed the Mitski song playing from the stereo system, a little scratchy from the definitely outdated aux connection to Suki's phone. Suki pulled away from the curb and drove slowly through the parking lot.

They spoke at the same time. "So, where to," Suki asks. "What are you doing now," Mai probes. Mai cringed internally at the awkwardness but Suki just laughed.

"I was gonna get high, actually." The car jostled as they went over the speed bumps at the edge of the parking lot (which Zuko always heartily ignores when he gives his friends rides) and Suki's gold sword earrings swung wildly. Mai's eyebrows lift at the honesty and she turns to look at her.

"Really?" Mai had tried it once, with Zuko and his friend (or whatever) Jet, but it was her first time and she'd hardly gotten even the lightest of highs.

Suki glanced her direction with a shy smile. "You want to join me?"

#tag game #mine #wip #mailee #maiki #very rough draft please be gentle #thank you both for the asks!!! ily!!!!! #atla

[swiftiesongwriter]

my tears ricochet is about Sc*tt B*rchetta

OK SO OBVIOUSLY I’M FREAKING OUT ABOUT folklore LIKE WHAT A MASTERPIECE

This morning, I watched the lyric video to my tears ricochet and literally ONE PERSON posted that it was about Sc*tt B*rchetta and I was like ‘THIS IS SO OBVIOUS’ so here is my theory! Feel free to add some more, I would LOVE to discuss this with you fellow Swifties!

And if I’m on fire, you’ll be made of ashes, too Could be referencing the fact that both were depending on each other for so long. We all know that Big Mach*ne’s success relies on Taylor, but Taylor also had the support of Big Mach*ne for the first 6 albums of her career.

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me? We know for a fact that Taylor’s last years at Big Mach*ne were complicated because she tried to buy her masters back, but Sc*tt did not want to. Remember when Taylor said that Sc*tt did not like the idea of making a pop album when she created 1989, and that she had to fight to put out the project. And that’s only what we know, we don’t know what happened behind closed doors.

I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace I just remember Sc*tt making a comment when he sold her masters, that she was not handling the issue in a professional manner.

You’re the hero flying around, saving face When her masters were sold and Taylor was angry (with good reason), Sc*tt tried to position himself as a businessman who was just acting rightly for the sake of his hard work. In Big Mach*ne’s statement, he said that Taylor was lying about many points in the situation.

And if I’m dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed, look at how my tears ricochet THAT is one of the line that gives it all for me. We all know that it was Taylor’s decision to leave Big Mach*ne - it was not good news for them because she was the label’s most important artist in terms of money. I think that Sc*tt was mad and tried to sabotage her to get back at her for leaving. As Taylor said, they had almost a father-daughter relationship, so for him to lose this as well must have been hurting for Sc*tt.

You know I didn’t want to have to haunt you I think she’s referencing at the special bond she had with Sc*tt. He believed in her before her career even began. It’s clear that they had a close relationship during many years of them working together. I believe that if he wouldn’t have sold her masters, she would have not made waves about the downfall of her relationship with Big Mach*ne.

You wear the same jewels that I gave you as you bury me THAT ALSO IS VERY IMPORTANT. Sc*tt’s reputation relies on Big Mach*ne’s credibility. The label earned its credibility thanks to Taylor’s work. When Sc*tt sold her masters, he sold a part of her soul, her body of work to an enemy of hers (that he knew of). He clearly was out to hurt her with this move. The money that was given to him was due to the value of Taylor’s body of work, so we could consider that she gave these jewels to him.

And I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home I think she was talking about when she left Big Mach*ne, she had the opportunity to go anywhere, to any label. An artist as huge as Taylor would be welcomed in any music label. I figured that home was Big Mach*ne as she helped build the label since she was 14, and that it was just like home to her.

And you can aim for my heart, go for blood, but you would still miss me in your bones Again, another reference at the special bond they have. He took on her career since she was 14 until she was 29. She grew up with him and he certainly grew with her. As savage as his move was when he sold her masters, I believe that he still cares for Taylor.

And when you can’t sleep at night, you hear my stolen lullabies JAW-DROPPING LINE RIGHT HERE. Stolen lullabies references all of the songs that were sold to Sc**ter. Usually, when you can’t sleep at night, it’s because something torments you, haunts you. Her stolen lullabies haunts Sc*tt because he KNOWS that it’s his fault that she does not possess them anymore, and he knows that is what created an irremediable cut between him and Taylor.

And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves She knows that nobody is going to win this battle for her masters. On one part, Sc**ter and the other investors will lose money because she will re-record her albums 1-5 in November 2020. On the other part, recording all of her previous albums will be costly in time and money for Taylor. This situation is a lose-lose for everybody.

You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same Sc*tt had to keep Taylor’s masters so Big Mach*ne could still have value to the eyes of a buyer. By doing this, he ‘’killed’’ her, but her speaking out about it showed what kind of businessman he is. I would be very surprised if an artist would work with him after what he did to Taylor, his most important artist (and with whom he had a special connection).

You turned into your worst fears When Sc*tt created Big Mach*ne, I believe that he was trying to go on another route than the big label route. He was working with a major company before, left them and risked it all to start his own business. I don’t know him, but at the time, maybe he was trying to position himself as ‘’one of the cool guys’’, a manager that would not be the typical stereotype that you have of a manager.

And you’re tossing out blame, drunk on this pain When Taylor spoke up about her masters, remember that bullsh*t statement of Big Mach*ne, that Taylor was lying and that they did not do anything wrong. That they offered her to purchase her masters - though they did not say that their offer was toxic for her, but hey, PR. 

Crossing out the good years THAT LINE TOO. By doing this to Taylor, it was like he had forgotten where they both came from, and how they helped each other. I believe (with no proof but with a feeling still) that their last years of working together were complicated, and that they had tensions about what she should / should not do. Mentioning the good years feels to me as if there were some bad. 

VOILÀ, that was my theory about my tears ricochet. It’s such a powerful song and I know that it translates also as a song about domestic ab*se, but I really think that she spoke up about the Sc*tt situation. I can only imagine the feeling when the most precious thing you have is taken away from you by a person you care deeply about.

So, what do you think?!

#my tears ricochet #swifties #folklore #taylor swift #scott borchetta #mytearsricochet #folklore taylor swift #ts8 theories

[lovemesomesurveys]

If you were a witch, which animal would be your familiar? I don’t what a familiar is or anything about witchcraft.

If there's a design on your shirt, what is it? I literally just described it in the previous survey I did, but it has Ralphie from A Christmas Story on it with a bar of soap in his mouth and says, “Oh, fudge”, which is a quote from the movie.

If it was possible to colonize any planet and you were the leader, which planet would you choose? I really wouldn’t want to be the leader of anything. I’m not fit for that.

Is there a piece of technology that you just can't live without? I mean, I’m pretty attached to my laptop and phone, but of course if for some reason I couldn’t have them I would survive, but it’d be really quite boring. I don’t have much to do.

Would you ever visit a ghost town? That would be interesting.

What's the last thing you ordered from the last fast food place you went to? Loaded potato wedges and 3 egg rolls from Jack in the Box.

Which natural disaster scares you the most? They all sound terrifying. I’ve never experienced one. What're your religious beliefs and why do you follow them? I’m a Christian. I believe in God and that Jesus died for our sins and is our Savior.

What do you think happens after you die? I believe in heaven and hell.

What would you do if you found out your life was only a simulation controlled by someone else? That’s scary. I’ve had thoughts like that, though. Like a Truman Show scenario or that one day I’ll wake up and find out my whole life has been a dream.

What's the scariest thing you've accidentally found on the internet? Ugh, I HATED when jump scare things would go around. Like, people would disguise as a link for something else and then you click it and it’s some ugly, creepy looking girl screaming really loud. OH, and there was that one with the car that was driving down some winding road and you’re watching and waiting to see what the video is about and then bam! something pops up on the scream and scares you. Ughhh. Not cool. I’m such a jumpy person as it is already.

Is there anything bothering you right now? The usual stuff as always.

Thinking of every Halloween costume you've had, which one was the most creative? I never had a really creative one. They were pretty simple.

What song are you currently listening to and what song was the last you listened to? I’m not listening to music.

What's the picture on your calendar for this month? I don’t have a calendar for this year at the moment.

If you were a mythical creature, which would you be? A fairy.

If you were an animal, which would you be? A dog.

Were you ever bullied when you were younger and how did you handle it? I wasn’t, fortunately. It was something my parents worried about when I was in elementary school because I’m in a wheelchair, but honestly I never had any issues with anyone. The only bullying I receive is from myself on a regular basis. 

What do you remember most from being five years old? I have some vague, bits and pieces of memories from kindergarten. 

What do you remember most from being ten years old? I have some memories from 4th grade. My favorite teacher ever was my 4th grade teacher (who later ended up teaching 8th grade and I had him again) and I remember funny stuff he did and like how he read out loud to us books such as Matilda and he would the voices and made it fun for us. He also used to sing, and I remember one time he led all of us in a rendition of “I Want It That Way” by The Backstreet Boys lol. He was so cool. Oh, and he was known for doing “the robot” dance and miming. 

What do you remember most from being fifteen years old? Stuff from high school.

What does the last person you found attractive look like? Alexander Skarsgard is 6′4, has blonde hair, blue eyes, is very fit and in shape, and Swedish. He’s absolutely gorgeous.

Have you ever thrown something away and then wanted it back? Yes. I hold onto a lot of stuff that will sit in a box somewhere forever, but then if I get rid of something I’ll suddenly wish I still had it or have a need for it again.

What's one random city you want to visit? Seattle.

If you owned a store, what would you most likely sell? Books. It would have a cafe, too.

If you had a garden, what sort of plants would you grow? I don’t know, man. I have zero interest in gardening.

What's your favorite phase of the moon? I don’t have one.

What're your plans for today? I’ll attend my church’s livestream and then do the normal things I do everyday. 

What's the song for your life right now? I don’t know.

Do you believe that when you die, you get to see all your loved ones again? Yes.

Who would you be the most excited to see? My grandparents. 

Have you lost or almost lost someone close to you to death this year? Not so far...  I don’t want to think about that.

Did you lose any of your friends this year and if so, how? I don’t have any friends to lose. 

Have you experienced anything new this year and if so, what? Not so far, but we’re only in January. 

Do you enjoy reading National Geographic magazines? I’ve only read a few. 

Would you rather read the book or watch the movie? I love to read and I’m down to check out the movie.

Do you know anyone who's serving in the military right now? No.

Does or did either of your parents serve in the military? Nope.

Has anything in your house ever caught on fire? No.

Have you ever hugged a stranger you thought was someone else? No. Omg, that would be super embarrassing. I’ve waved to someone I thought was someone else, but never went so far as to hug someone I thought was someone else.  As a small child, did you ever feel as if you were different or weird? No, not really.

If you could instantly know any language in the world, what would it be? I’d like to be fluent in Spanish.

This year, how many times have you been to the doctor? So far just once. I go once a month and we’re only in January. 

Do you have a library card and if so, do you use it often? Nope. I haven’t had a library card since I was in high school.

Do you like romcoms and if you do, which one is your favorite? Yeah, I’m a sucker for the romcoms. I have several favorites.

Thinking of your ex and the person you love, are they similar in any way at all? I don’t have a significant other or someone I’m interested in at the moment.

Is there something you currently want and/or need that you can’t have? Yes.

Thinking back to six weeks ago, were you happier then or are you happier now and why? Neither then or now. 

Who's the first male you can think of whose name begins with "T" and what can you tell me about him? Thomas, my maternal grandpa. He sadly passed away 10 years ago. Both of my maternal grandparents passed away. I was very close with both of them and losing them was very hard for me. I miss them both every single day. My grandpa was an amazing man. He was the best husband, father, and grandpa. He was hardworking. He provided well for his family. He was loving. He was so funny. He told the best stories. He was known for being a talker haha, he could go on and on for hours, but everyone always wanted to hear what he had to say. And sometimes he’d go off on tangents, but the stories always came for circle. He was just an incredible man, well loved and missed by many.

Can you say "happy birthday" in another language? Yeah, “Feliz cumpleaños.” 

What subjects do you or did you get the worst grades in? Math was always my worst subject, I barely scraped by with Cs.

Should you be concentrating on something else instead of this survey? Nah. This is my nighttime routine.

Have you ever told someone that you loved them and they rejected you? I didn’t tell them I loved them, but I expressed my feelings for them and was rejected. Twice.

Do you know anyone else that's happened to? Yeah.

Is there anything you want to say to someone, but you can’t or won’t? Not at this time. What're your reasons for not saying it? --

Who's someone in the music industry you think is overrated? Taylor Swift. Don’t for me, Swifties. 

Who's the eleventh contact in your phone and when did you last see or speak to that person? I’m not checking. 

What’s your mother’s middle name? I’m not sharing that.

When was the last time you ate cake and what type of cake was it? I had some red velvet cake a few days ago.

Have you ever been told you were too good or not good enough for someone you loved? I had friends who said I was too good for Joseph. I wasn’t good enough, though.

Why do you think someone would say that to you? They didn’t like how he treated me and thought he was too immature.

If the last person you kissed said you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them? That was 8 years ago, I don’t see him ever saying that now...

Who was your first crush, how do you feel about that person now and do you still talk to them? My first crush was this kid Philip when I was in 3rd grade lol it was just some little crush, I was 9. He didn’t even know me.

Who was the last person that apologized to you and what was it for? I don’t recall.

So how're things going with the person you love? There’s no such person.

Are you "in love" with the last person you kissed? No. I moved on years ago.

Do you have photos to go with all of the contacts in your phone? I haven’t added a photo for any of my contacts.

Who was the last person to comment on one of your photos on Facebook and how did you meet that person? I think it was my Nana. 

How many of your friends are sexually active?

To finish, is there anything you would like to say to someone? Sigh.

Do you think surveys are annoying? They can be sometimes, but I really do enjoy doing them. Clearly.

What career paths are you considering? I don’t know. :/

Do you watch music videos? I haven’t in a long time.

Have you ever clicked on those banner ads that promise a prize for clicking? No. I definitely don’t miss popup ads. 

What kind of computer are you using? Macbook Air.

What kind of computer do you wish you were using? I’m happy with this one.

Have you ever had a weight change so drastic you went to the doctor? I didn’t see a doctor for it specifically, but yeah it was concerning. It’s still a problem I’m struggling with. 

How cold does it have to be before you put on a sweater? In the 60s F, I’d say. 

Do you eat things off the floor? Never.

Who do people say you look like? My mom.

Do you usually get your homework done on time? I’m done with school, but yeah I always got my homework done on time. I may have been a major procrastinator, but my work always got done.

Have you ever framed your old movie ticket stubs? Not framed, but kept.

Do you have a digital camera? Nope.

Have you ever stuck something inappropriate in an electrical outlet? No. I’m afraid to plug in things that meant to go in there as it is.

What do you have anything scheduled for the 16th of this or next month? We’re past the 16th now, but no I didn’t have anything going on that day and I don’t have anything planned for that day next month either.

Can you sleep without any pillows? No. I can’t sleep flat, I have to be propped up.

Is there a color you refuse to wear? I don’t like to wear white.

Has anyone ever pulled a gun on you? No, but I am a victim of random gun violence. 

Are there any chairs in your bedroom? My chair. There’s an ottoman that could also be a chair as well.

How many pairs of shoes do you have? Like 6 or 7.

How much was the last item of clothing you bought? My total was $40 for 2 shirts, but I ordered online so there’s additional fees. 

Where's your father right now? He’s in his room asleep.

Do you skip breakfast often? Yeah.

How many days has it been since your last birthday? My birthday was 6 months ago.

Do you want any more siblings than you have now? Nah, at 31 years old I can’t imagine having another sibling. 

Would you make a good president or prime minister? Nope. I have no desire to be one.

Are you going out of the country soon and if so, where to? No. I don’t have any travel plans and who knows when I will at this point. :(

Do you ever feel like you want to get away from everything? Yeppp.

Do you need a haircut? I could use a trim.

When was the last time you went on a trampoline? Never.

Were you alone today? I’m alone right now in my room cause everyone else is asleep, but they’re here in the house. My dad is off today and will be home all day. My mom and brother have work, but they’ll be home at some point.

Who was the last person you saw today? The day isn’t over yet, it’s only 4:51AM, but I’m willing to bet my brother will be the last person I see cause he and I stay up late.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

[spoonie-swiftie]

Tw: eating disorder and self harm

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I’ve been thinking about my “journey” with my eating disorder since I read the article through a steady flow of tears last night. I usually HATE using words like “journey” and “warrior” and it still doesn’t feel like it fits right or natural in this context even though its the truth. It’s been a very long, very wind-y, crappy and treacherous road that started and stopped many times over the past 28 years and while I wish I didn’t have to ride this very shitty, low budget, rickety ass roller coaster it’s mine and I’m proud to have made it as far as I have. I’ve wanted to talk about it and I have in bits and pieces for years. But between the article coming out last night and seeing so many of my swiftie friends talk about their struggles with body image and disordered eating and seeing a ton of my chronically ill friends coming forward and sharing that they, too, have struggled with the same issues as well (unfortunately most of us have since chronic illness takes a lot of body autonomy away and eating disorders give us a very false sense of control) I really wanted to open up and share, Just to get it out of my brain, even if it gets buried by algorithms or nobody cares reads it.

I read this article written by Variety on a snippet of @taylorswift new documentary Miss Americana as soon as it came out. In it she explains how the unsolicited comments and opinions of people in and out of the media about her appearance ended up putting thoughts in her mind of what her body “should” look like and subsequently what she should or shouldn’t eat. Thankfully it sounds like she’s doing better but as I know all too well it’s extremely difficult to kick those self critical thoughts out of our brains once and for all. The thing that I think hurts my heart most is that after her helping me through years and years of my eating disorder and listening to Tied Together With A Smile on repeat so many nights and hating everything about my body, or lyrics like “and it’s a sad picture, the final blow hits you, somebody else gets what you wanted again. You know it’s all the same, another time and place. Repeating history and you're getting sick of it But I believe in whatever you do, And I'll do anything to see it through. Because these things will change” or “Wish I could make it better, Someday you won't remember, This pain you thought would last forever and ever” or “Ten months sober I must admit just because you’re clean don’t mean you didn’t miss it. Ten months older I won’t give in, now that I’m clean I’m never gonna risk it” i sang these lyrics like they were prayers I was sending to God and they were some of the few things getting me through and making me feel better. It felt like she opened me up like a well loved novel and took excerpts of my life and made them poignant and purposeful. I just hate that she has had to deal with the same feelings and it makes me wanna drop kick all the people who put their two cents in on her appearance. Repeatedly. With spikey steel toed boots.

If you’re unfamiliar with my story, here’s a tiny snippet of my life and my experience with the crappy brain monster that is disordered eating and it’s best pal body dysmorphia. I went from being tiny (thanks to growth hormone deficiency) and twig like my first 14 years, being a cheerleader and never even thinking about how I looked and then I got injured, (which kicked my genetic condition Ehlers Danlos Syndrome unbeknownst to us at the time into high gear) went from being active every day to being homebound and spending most of my time on the couch. My muscles that I worked so hard on left and everything got soft and squishy and between years of different doctors looking me up and down, deciding I must not have anything physically wrong and telling me and my mom that I was just making it up for attention I got angrier and angrier at my body for ruining my life and taking most of my friends away and started taking it out on my body. I struggled with self harm in silence for many years before I ever dealt with food issues but as I’ve learned it self hatred is damaging no matter what actions you partake in. My mental health got better after I went back to school, was diagnosed with fibromyalgia (EDS was still hiding) and joined band but after I had to drop out of community college & went back to spending most of my life in bed that’s when I developed my eating disorder. I didn’t even realize that I had an eating disorder until after I had gone through multiple rounds of treatment. I thought I couldn’t have an eating disorder if I wasn’t underweight (spoiler alert: eating disorders have very little to do with your weight or size and more to do with your thoughts and actions just so you know 🥰) When I was my sickest and was admitted to a residential treatment facility I wasn’t underweight (I was actually “obese” according to my BMI which is the biggest crock of shit but that’s a whole other story) and I had to be constantly reminded that I deserved to be there because even if I couldn’t see it my brain was just as sick as the girls who were underweight. When I finally started accepting it (5 ish days in) my insurance decided that even though all my providers said I needed to be there, had completed multiple outpatient treatment programs, and I was pre approved before I even stepped foot on property I wasn’t “sick enough to warrant such intensive treatment”. Literally told my mom and I that they wouldn’t pay because I wasn’t thin enough. I’ll never forget hearing my mom sobbing on the phone and promising them that if I died they were to blame. Thankfully, even though I didn’t get the treatment that I deserved and needed, something clicked during my third program and I recovered and while I still consider myself to be mostly recovered, having my weight yo yo-ing from Gastroparesis (literally my stomach is paralyzed and food doesn’t digest normally which is why I have a feeding tube) and other symptoms of GP screws w/ my head every once in a while. But I’m so thankful that most of that is behind us, for me and Taylor, and I hope to God it stays there. And while it’s definitely not something I would have chosen for myself (they’re really not fun, 0/10 wouldn’t recommend) I’m thankful for the people I’ve met along the way because they are some of the strongest people on this earth (even if they’re rolling their eyes while reading this, you know who you are ♥️) and I’m so proud of us and the things we’ve learned along the way. And I hope one day I can hug Taylor and thank her for all the strength and courage SHES passed on to me through her music over the last 13 years.

~love love love~

Mandie

Photo timeline:

1-this was taken at the ComeBacks retreat this November. I can honestly say I feel the most at peace with my body image now than I have in 13+ years (2019)

2-when I was physically my healthiest. I was an All Star competitive cheerleader and was very physically fit, but at the same time I didn’t think about how I looked hardly ever (2003)

3-after I got injured and was homebound from school. This was when my feelings about my body started to plummet and I was super depressed (2005)

4-during my very short time in college, just before my disordered eating started (2010)

5&6-after I had to drop out of school because my health dropped off a cliff. This is when my mental health started to turn and my disordered eating took off but I was hardcore in denial (2011-2012)

7-during one of my intensive outpatient treatment programs that actually ended up making me a hell of a lot worse (2012)

8-right after I finished my last treatment program and it finally stuck. I was in recovery but not considered Recovered yet (2013)

9-one year behavior free! (2014)

10-definitely the heaviest I’ve ever been and the sickest physically but also some of the happiest times as well (2016)

#eating disorders #eating disorder recovery #eating disorder #taylorswift #taylor swift #taylurking #dysautonomia #spoonie probs #mitochondrial disease #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #swiftdisabledselfies #chronic pain #fibromyalgia #gastroparesis #ehlers danlos syndrome #eating disorder awareness #body dysmorphic disorder #disordered eating #mental illness #mental health #mental heath support #mental health matters #mental health awareness #neda walk #neda #ednos #anorexia nervosa #swiftie

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Okay so first of all, I LIVE for the fact that you’re into Taylor Swift. As a Taylor stan myself, I loved reading the pieces your based around her songs! Also, I love the way you write? (It sounds cliché, I’m sorry!) but the way you pace everything and include those little details is amazing and makes your writing so enjoyable to read. And let me just say that you’re SO good at dialogue! I don’t know how you do it, you manage to create this DELICIOUS tension with your dialogue and your diction makes your dialogue SO genuine like please. I’m so sorry if this is incoherent but I hope you know how talented a writer you are!

Also — I’d love to see what you’d be able to do with a Cornelia Street or Delicate one hehe

Oh my gosh lovely. This was just too much! When I tell you this made my ENTIRE DAY I mean it. I’ve been a Swiftie sinch 1989 (it’s been five and a half years) and to this day I still love that woman. I’m so so so glad that other people who love her read my work too! And ugh, when readers like you catch onto it, I literally SQUEAL out loud. 

Also, to the anon who wrote this, I just want to say that little things like these and these sweet and genuine messages make me keep writing. I’m going through a lot of writer's block right now, and I think it’s just some stress. But when you guys write these things to me, it’s what keeps me going and from just stopping despite the fact I’ve thought of just quitting a few times.

And thank you so much for all your compliments on my dialogue! As many writers, including myself, probably know, dialogue can be a pain in the ass. So getting a compliment on that makes me feel so warm and fuzzy and great! Thank you!

AND IMAGINE CORNELIA STREET- I don’t know if you’re much of an MCR of Gerard Way fan, but I’m going to assume you are considering you’re reading the fics. BUT CORNELIA STREET IS ACTUALLY SUCH AN INCREDIBLE IDEA I CAN’T. I mean, tbh, the entire Lover album has so much inspiration (thank you, Joe Alwyn, for being an incredible muse).

So yes, I WILL GET ON THOSE IMMEDIATELY LOVE.