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saeskiss · 1 year

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kazuha x fem!reader. 1.6k wc. part 1! part 2!

having a huge hangover the next day is not ideal, and especially when you don’t remember what had happened last night..

✧ childhood friends to lovers, mutual pining, slight angst, mentions of alcohol, mature language.

“what the hell?” your head is pounding when you wake in the unfamiliar room. you rub your eyes to get a sense of where you were.

the hotel. the wedding. kazuha’s plus one.

you were in the hotel room that you and kazuha were sharing for his mom’s second wedding and you were invited by kazuha and were attending it as his plus one.

you look around the room but you couldn’t spot him anywhere.

you groan, turning from your comfortable spot on the bed and looking around for your phone or a note on the nightstand that would help you grasp an understanding of kazuha’s current location.

found it.

[ i’m going to run some errands. i’ll be back. painkillers are in the drawer below where i dropped this note. :)

you smile at the little smiley face that he had drawn at the end of it, opening the drawer to see if he was right about the painkillers. and of course, when you open the drawer you see the packet. although, your phone was still nowhere to be seen.

you lie back down onto the soft cushions and sigh closing your eyes taking in this feeling of relaxation after a so-called “fun” night with kazuha and his family.

and then it hits you.

his mom had given you two shots that you had hesitantly taken because you didn’t want to be rude to the woman that had basically raised you whenever your mom was too busy with her duties and your dad was overseas doing business.

what happened after that?

you’re trying so hard to remember but everything is coming back to you in a blur and it’s hard to recall the events of yesterday night.

“you’re so pretty you know that?” you cup his face waiting for his response but all you’re met with is a flushed face and a frustrated sigh from kazuha.

“you’re kidding.” you face-palm yourself. you knew that you wouldn’t be able to keep it in much longer when kazuha had dropped that confession to you a month ago but this was not the right time.

not when it was supposed to be his mother’s day and you were supposed to help kazuha try and bond and adjust to this new family of his.

but suddenly you remember that there was more than that to the story.

“can i kiss you?” you ask him. he nods reluctantly.

your lips crash, the sweet taste of peppermint from your chapstick mixed with the raging taste of alcohol from earlier had made him yearning for more and you could tell. butterflies emerged from your stomach at the sight of him wanting you so much and when you slowly move on his lap, his hands travel down to your thighs. you let out a whimper—

“no, no, no, no, no.” you rummage around the bedsheets trying to find your phone which clearly was not in sight and your frustration was slowly rising.

you needed to send kazuha a text immediately. how was he so calm about this? why did he not mention it in the note? was he planning to just let you forget it? did you mean that little to him? god, where was a guy when you needed him to answer your questions?

you finally find your phone that was inside your pillow.

<you: where are you? <kazuha: running errands. i’ll be back in a couple of minutes. <you: need to see you. now. <kazuha: in my moms hotel room. on the 4th floor. 403

you nervously bite your lip at the sudden confession that you would have to make. and the fear that you would suddenly face.

what if he doesn’t accept your confession? or what if he’s already moved on?

you shake your head. there was no way he would’ve already moved on that quickly. a wave of despair hits you when you realize that it’s kazuha and he’s the most unpredictable man you’ve ever met.

you guys had been friends since you’ve been in diapers. sure, you guys have had rough patches but it wasn’t anything that was out of your power that you couldn’t fix. he’s seen you when you were at your absolute worse, he’s seen you for who you truly are. he’s seen you and let you be who you are. he lets you talk while he listens. he lets you do whatever you want while he follows even if he doesn’t like it. because kazuha kaedehara is an absolutely hopeless romantic. and he will do almost anything for you. and the day that you come to realize it, he wins at life.

the years of work that you guys had put in this “friendship” will no longer be for your guy’s friendship and be for your relationship.

the cold taste of metal touches your tongue.

god this was nerve-wracking.

you quickly change out of your nightgown, fix your hair, grab nothing but your phone and the room keys, and head to room 403 where kazuha kaedehara aka the love of your life will be.

you can’t believe that he would’ve just let this go if you hadn’t remembered.

you take a deep breath as you knock on the door, meeting kazuha ho looked like he hasn’t slept in days with dark circles under his eyes for the first time ever like he did when he had to study for the a.p lit exam. (which was in high school so that was a long time ago).

“hi.”

“hi.” he says back. and god this awkward tension was going to be the death of you. it was like all those years of being friends were nothing and you guys are strangers.

“come inside. did you take the painkillers yet?” he asks you, opening the door further as an invitation for you to come inside.

you shake your head causing kazuha to cross his arms and sigh in defeat at the frown on your face. “i’ll get the painkillers. and the water. okay?” you nod again, and it somewhat feels like you’re giving him the silent treatment.

and this makes him a little more nervous than he was before you were awake. he’s so afraid you’re going to randomly tell him that you didn’t mean to do all that stuff that you guys had done last night or that you had been envisioning someone else doing it with kazuha and he still wouldn’t have minded because again, you gave him the opportunity to have a make-out session and a kiss with you even if you weren’t the slightest bit sober.

“here.” he hands it to you, taking a seat on the cushion next to yours.

a moment of silence passes between the both of you guys, afraid of how to go on. both of you guys were showing hesitation, so you start instead of him this time because it seemed too many times he has had the upper hand.

“were you ever going to tell me about the things that happened when i was drunk yesterday?” you turn to him, putting the cup of water down onto the table.

kazuha’s eyes widen at the sudden question that he had been somewhat dreading all morning.

“well, i was going to ask you if you remembered anything from last night, but i guess i have my answer now.” he gives you a slight smile.

“but if i hadn’t said the things i said right now, would you have told me?” you ask him a little more harshly this time. you wanted answers from kazuha. real answers.

“probably not.” your heart drops when kazuha says this.

why wasn’t he going to tell you if you guys had kissed?

“why?” your voice cracks and it sounds desperate. kazuha gasps at this, surprised that you guys were even capable of having this kind of conversation with each other.

“because.” he stops to turn and look at you. “i know that i’m going to ruin this friendship. and i don’t want that. what if you were to tell me that you weren’t actually intending for that to happen and that you only used me to think about someone else while we were doing it? what happens then? my heart is crushed and i never believe in love ever again. and it’s the most soul crushing-thing i don’t want to happen. you know my attempts in high school and how they ended up. they never ended up well.” he stops, before he goes on again.

“and this has happened before. when we had made out and you had forgotten it when i tried to bring it up. i don’t want to hear the truth if you aren’t envisioning a future that i’m not in. i’m too in love with you to do that.” he finally finds it in him to say the sentence that you had wanted to hear ever since the first time you had heard it a month ago.

this was the first time kazuha had ever opened up to you about his brain. his mind. what he was thinking in this exact moment, he said everything you had wanted to hear from him. he was opening up about his feelings for you. and you loved it. you loved this so much about him.

“this happened before?” you ask him, genuinely dumbstruck by how much you’ve done to kazuha when you were drunk.

“yes. that time when we were going to study at the coffee shop together but you canceled and got drunk and beidou called me over and we made out. and that was the first time i ever kissed anyone.”

“—look, i get it if you don’t love me or anything but just tell me so i can move on with my life instead of pining over you and dealing with my unrequited love.”

you smile. “i’m in love with you too idiot. but i’m going to need some more details on that make-out session.”

©saeskiss 2023

#ෆ jaya.writes!#this is lowkey probably the worst part of them all #I LITERALLY FELT THE AWKARDNESS #LIKE WITH KAZUHA N Y/N #NAYWYASY ENJOY LPVE YALL #kazuha x reader #kazuha kaedehara #kazuha kaedehara x reader #genshin impact x reader #kazuha x you #kazuha kadehara x you #genshin impact kazuha #kazuha fanfic #kazuha drabble #genshin drabble #genshin fanfic

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uglypastels · 1 year

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So... joe used to skateboard... do with that fun fact what you will

#i lpve everything about this video #just excuse my shaky camera work #its dofficult to focus when THE joe quinn is like 10 meters away from you #joe quinn #joseph quinn #stranger con

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kicktwine · 20 days

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also I had a theory earlier that the— there was a flashback npc that looked like an ascian and I thought Zeromus was a void-corrupted ascian which THE THING IT IS IS ALSO VERY COOL but I think my idea is also. cool and it would probably be bad if that happened

#SHES ALSO COOL DONT GET ME WRONG. I LPVE YOU AZDAJA. I LOV YOU SHADOW DRAGON #KISSES FOR SHADOW DRAGON #MWAH #play game #endwalker spoilers #wgat if igeyorhm was stuck here ….. you see my vision #torn apart by virtue of being the first science experiment. she didn’t even make a mistake to me she just did science and it ended up. bad

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neuroticboyfriend · 5 months

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please make the world bettter tomoorrow god

#please make all the suffering end #if i dont wake up tomorrow i can make all of it stop cant i?#they'll commit me again if i stay alive #maybe i deserve the mindrape #if i cant stay alive on my own. i deserve the mindrape. i dserve. to be taken away #i desrve to be killed alive #i am not human. i am end.i am belong to everyonebut myself #i fcant take any more trauma. i have never been so close to suicide #i don want to die i dont want to die i dont want to die i dont want to die i dont want to die i dont want to die #pleaseplease im sorry for worrying you all im sorry im so sorry im so so so sorry worry sorry #sorry #james #i love you. ilove you. i love you. you aret the best thing in my love #lifelove life.. love life #life love #love love lpve lpve ;pve #;v;ve.;pve.#;pve #;pve. ;pve.#;pve.#l o v e #love #julian rants #vent #drunk posting #posting under the influence

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phykoha · 10 months

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oh my god

I AM GOING TO CRY

#blah blah blah #inbox answer #JGFSDHFGDFS I LPVE HIM LOOK AT HINM #HFDSGDHGFSDHGSFGHFS YOU DIDNT HAVE TO #I COULDVE GOTTEN HIOM MYSELF #BOUT THANK TYOU #CRYING EMOJI #JSDHGDSHFGSD

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gurlbur · 2 months

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Anon making them cookies some languages, here! These are the vague descriptors I've got for each language (I like sharing with my fellow lore building appreciators) (I desperately need to talk about this au and share the story wips and stuff I have)

Snowfall - Main Cacaoian language. Sharp lines easily carved into trees or rocks (V, Z, N, for example). Louder, sharper tones to be easily heard, like barks or yips.

Flowering - Main Vanillain language. Large rounded strokes to allow the lines to be filled with colored wax with little bleeding (O, S, C for example). Softer tones, like whispers and wind flowing through reeds.

Berry - Hollyberian language. Rounded with sharper lines (Q for example). Mostly loud, but with few sharp tones, like howling with the occasional bark.

Common Cookie - Most similar to English or Korean, tone and writing wise, but leans on English’s weird pronunciation, with Korean’s writing system.

Faerie - Song-like, words blend (literal music), more tonal than anything.

Sandy - Main Cheesian language. Similar to bird chirps, loud, sharp, somewhat song like. Mostly pictorial, but has a lettering version that is easier for others to learn and read

Blazing - Main Dragon’s Valley language, very loud and sharp, but with a hint of song like undertones, very extravagant lettering. VERY. (Nearly like SpongeBob's fancy "The" but not English, just extravagant)

Nautical - The “sea language”, Mersharks, Mermaids, and a many cookies that make a living at sea use it, very broad strokes cus, sea. Broad, deep sounds to be understood better, both while storms are raging, and while under the sea. (like with Scottish English, Australian English, and Piratey English, each population has quirks and little things that sometimes make it impossible for the others to understand.)

Yogurca would have a language that's mostly like Sandy, but with quirks and more flowery lettering like with Blazing

Crème Republic would primarily have Flowering, but have a small bit of Nautical in it. (Crème Republic is the snooty British English in the analogy from Nautical) (Soz that it's long, I just NEED to chatter about it-)

NO WAIT THIS IS ACTUALLY SO COOL??? each cookie 'group' (I guess?) having their own language is one of the coolest things like srsly. ALSO THEY KINDA BLEED INTO EACHOTHER LIKE REAL LANGUAGES ! (creme republic mostly having Flowering but also Nautical). Also its just so themed?!?! /pos Im eating this up anon its so good :333 i humbly request more information if you want to share and it doesn't just have to be abt the languages :3 PLEASE I LLOVE THIS STUFFS !!!!

#thank you anon i lpve you !!!!#as a guy with ocean autism i am very intrested in nnautical... :3

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shedburst · 20 days

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hmmm not saying all my exes are the problem like i was the problem too i stayed with one after i stopped loving him because i was afraid to be alone and i literally broke up with him early on and then went and got him from his parents house because i was afraid to be alone and the other one i literally only agreed to be his girlfriend because he was 6 foot and has a sharp jawline and full sleeves 💀 among other things i’m no angel

#i mean we are both at fault for staying together too long because i would be like #i don’t love you romantically anymore #i lpve you as a friend #and he would be like #you do love my romantically you’re #just confused #sooo #and i wasn’t confident enough to stand on it #wasn’t confident enough about my own feelings #youtube

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steaksex · 4 months

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GAGHHHGGGG I NEED TO THINK ABOUT OC SEX OR ILL EXPLODE!!!!!! scully thinks of sex as something Important, feels like hes already fucked up by drunkenly making out and the messy inexperienced bullshit he did as a teen. Feels guilty every time he masturbates and avoids it (his procedure is to try to sleep, fail, then take a shower and fingerfuck himself while clenching his jaw ao he doesnt make a sound. Then he cleans up and pretends it never happened)

Teddy my best friend forever hes had plenty of casuak sex and hookups, though mostly those consisted of him giving them head and saying he was fine becausw of fear of being rejected for being trans. Doesnt fuck a lot nowadays but thats just because he isnt looking for something casual and wants a longterm relationship (he isnt ashamed like scully is when he gets off. Has a plethora of toys and gizmos. Brother he can take a truly impressive amount of silicone. Does feel shy that he isnt very tight but its nit that bad. He has to set aside a whole evening to really get off though and he DOES cry when he cums YAYYYY)

Sterlings so issues hes okay with casual sex but he likes to have power and control, not in an awesome way but in a 'really will fuck up your life' way. He has a crossdressing kink (though rlly hes just transfem but can only explore that through sexual means due to internalized transphobia and misinterprets the gender euphroia as sexual pleasure whoch isnt mutually exclusive) but he wont do that on his own, needs to pretend that someone ELSE wants it and thats why hes doing it its just for his partners benfit. More likely to seek someone out than masturbate because he doesnt wanna seem like GAY or something by imagining wearing panties but he cant cum without them. Dumbfuck.

#raunchy rabble #nsft #ocs #scully #teddy #sterling #teddy and scully are awesome for me to imagine on their own and stuff #sterlings kinda nothing without someone else to bounce off of sex wise #lmao could you tell?#anyways I LPVE SEX

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