#i’m not christian but good GOD

[codychristiantreasures]

#cody christian #lol just as I said #should have waited like 40 minutes #he looks so fckin good though #my god #i’m obsessed #asher adams #all american #theo raeken #teen wolf #codychristianedit #cody christian edit #mike montgomery #pll #lil update

[midnights-dragon]

things in the Bible I don’t understand

God killing innocent children in the Flood

God killing innocent children in Sodem and Gomorrah

God killing innocent children in the 12th Plague of Egypt

God killing innocent children in Jericho

God killing innocent children

God killing innocents

God killing

#‘god is good’ bitch where #i’m so serious about this y’all #yes i believe in god no i don’t follow him because of this bullshit #this is specifically about christianity’s god #religious trauma #religion #god #Christianity #personal #vent #Jesus #tw religion #tw religious trauma #tw child death

[transbutchbluess]

i’m in this strange phase where i’m trying to explore my spirituality and to understand what divinity means to me and it’s just. hard. complex.

i was raised in an atheist family but now i know, deep down, that i am not an atheist. but atheism is still inscribed in my brain, the shame of worshipping, the shame of honoring the divine, as if it should be hidden, as if i was being irrational.

i have been practicing, or trying to practice, hellenic polytheism for a little while now. i keep going through phases of faith then of doubt. something isn’t quite right yet.

i love religions— all of them interest me. i just decided i wanted to read the Old Testament, so i’m reading the Genesis now. and i’ve been doing research on Judaism, out of curiosity. it fascinates me— but especially the rules. the constant connection to the divine, even in mundanity. the concept of every action having a purpose, of doing things a specific way and knowing why, of finding God everywhere and honoring God all the time. i see a lot of people being scared of religious obligations, of organized religion, and i understand how it can be dangerous at times, but i yearn for the order, for the meaning.

i want organized worship and i want to find God every day. i want to do everything with the intention of connecting to the divine. and yet i don’t know what the divine is, what God(s) is (are), and i still believe monotheism isn’t for me, something about it bothers me— but maybe it’s just christianity ? i don’t know anything anymore. i know polytheism interests me too and i know my autistic special interest is ancient greek religion and ancient cultures, but it’s hard to draw the line between what interests me due to my autism/simply because i find it amazing to learn about, and what interests me because it feels right and aligns with the way i perceive things.

so i keep doubting, i doubt and wonder and question and find myself irrational whenever i think of a God, or of multiple gods/Theoi. i know i believe in something. but there is this atheistic guilt, atheistic shame ?

i’m so lost.

and everyone i know is either an atheist or a usually-not-very-observant catholic. so exactly what i already know not to be for me.

#judaism #hellenic polytheism #religion #theology #religious beliefs #divinity #helpol #polytheism #monotheism #paganism #trying to figure out what religion makes sense for me #and it’s scary #quite often i wish i had been raised within an organized religion so that i could have felt the order and the rules and the meaning #and then could have decided for myself whether or not it felt right #i would never have felt good in christianity #and i know i’m lucky because being in an atheist family protected me from religious trauma #but still #i feel lonely #and purposeless #i’m still trying to find god(s)

[icklewolfiekins]

songs from musicals that are the same but also one of them is a good person and one of them is my personal enemy something something anyway it’s Hard to Be the Bard from Something Rotten and Moving Too Fast from The Last Five Years have such similar energy??

#this is even greater because. one is my history boyf and one is my greatest enemy #pistols at dawn with that shithead #christian borle #Jeremy Jordan #those are the versions I know don’t hate me musical theatre tumblr #something rotten #Shakespeare #William Shakespeare #Jamie is the worst for context #OH MY GOD speaking of have u guys seen #the Jonathan Bailey audition where he sings the number one gaslighting anthem #also from the last five years #I’m p sure he booked it #which he absolutely should have it was AMAZINH #It made me dislike that guy which should be IMPOSSIBLE I’ve loved him since his cbbc leonardo days #jonathan bailey #the last five years #tagging this with #anna kendrick #because she’s so so good in the film of this #I couldn’t think of the title of the song so this has all been padding for time #a thing which is insane to say about the tags on a tumblr post but. oh wel #moving too fast #musicals #musical theatre #mine #jason robert brown #John o’farrell #karey kirkpatrick

[cowboyshit]

“I would like to thank… MYSELF” LMAO CHRISTIAN I LOVE YOU

#god that shot was so good that was done so well #I’m living for the christian cage and luchasaurus storyline #aew lb

[obstinaterixatrix]

mom’s telling me about the brief time we went to church and just dropped that she actually hated the people there and because of the experience she has an aversion to christianity & I was like huh?? I thought you got baptized just in case?? & she was like no it’s because they wouldn’t stop harassing me. I met a lot of evil people in the church. I’m taking it back. & I’m like you’re un-baptizing yourself??? & she’s like yeah.

#my ramblings #I always got the impression we were there for childcare and food #and I was right apparently #but what I didn’t know was that she was actually worried about what being in the church would do to me #so I told her about the reason I didn’t connect with church was bc they were saying God Is Always Watching #& elementary school me was like ‘even when I’m in the bathroom? I don’t like that’ #also apparently the people in the church would gossip about our family a lot #I told her I had beef w christianity bc I blame missionaries for importing homophobia into cn #and mom was like oh yeah thats a good point #lol

[chamerionwrites]

Had the worst morning and I was SO brave about it. Did not trip facefirst down an abyss of viciously mean self-talk about ordinary human fuckups. Cleaned up the proverbial spilled milk and then went out and socialized instead of crawling back into bed and writing the day off as a loss.

#listen me n my brain weasels are a wee bit fragile on christian holy days at the best of times #and then i went and burned myself like an asshole and DROPPED MY FRIEND’S BIRTHDAY PIE ON THE CARPET #on my landlord’s. pale beige. carpet. #my very lovingly crafted pie with homemade all butter crust and the last of my frozen rhubarb and some very red strawberries #…and then i swore viciously for like three solid minutes whilst getting out the carpet cleaning solution and the shop vac #and then i deep cleaned the carpet and made another FUCKING pie crust and this time put blueberries in it #and it was definitely not as good as the first one would have been because i was rushing. and also i missed lunch. #but hey i did arrive in time for dessert with blueberry pie. so. #*FERAL FRUSTRATED GROWLING NOISES* #it’s fine. it’s fine. it worked out. oh my god i’m so fucking tired #my posts #should i file this under #culinary adventures #🙃

[inkykeiji]

good morning my boyfriend’s parents are watching comedy shorts from the 40s and one of the actors sounds like vox so much i’m going to cRY

#christian was born to play sleazy men from the 40s and the 50s i swear to GOD #his voice is so perfect for it #i wonder which part of america vox was from #banging my little fists on the tabletop big we need mORE LORE #anyway i hope everyone has a good sunday #i have to go to an easter lunch in like an hour and i’m ._. so not looking forward to it HAHAHA #we’re gonna be there for like eight hours watch #clari chatters

[tragedykery]

you know what? to be completely fair to dr victor hoppe, if that had happened to me, I, too would develop a complicated (read: fucked up) relationship with like. Everything

#(he’s the main character of the book I’m currently reading lol) #(de engelenmaker/the angel maker by stefan brijs) #elli rambles #can’t speak for the english translation but the original dutch book is really good so far #even though I found the first part of the book pretty boring the second part is incredibly interesting #like man! I Get why he turned out Like That! what the fuck! #the book is such an interesting exploration of christianity/religious trauma & hubris & parent-child relationships & nature vs nurture #that said I do wonder: mr stefan brijs were you perhaps raised catholic? obviously he could have been raised areligiously & just done #loads of research etc but catholicism is Such an important thing in the book that I think it’s the most likely explanation #I would probably get even more out of the book if I like. knew the bible but I am Not reading that thang for this #though it might be worthwhile to go through the dates mentioned in the book & look up if they’ve got importance in christianity (like #holidays & such). wouldn’t put it past the author #anyway. advertisement voice: god complexes! medical inaccuracies & malpractice! explorations of characters that make you go ‘why the fuck #are they Like That’! if you like these things you may be interested in ‘the angel maker’ by stefan brijs #de engelenmaker

[queer-trashmouth]

Coolest thing on my trip has been today when we went to Hieropolis (?) in Türkiye and I got to do some oracle readings for our group (right next to the temple of Apollo!!!)

#me #Apollo #I volunteered and got to be priestess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #it was so cool and very funny since this a group of older Christian folks #one of the pastors was wary of this and lol he got one that was very positive and could be interpreted in a xtian way so he was happy #they said I should go into radio because I had a good broadcasting voice #mainly I’m posting about it bcus I don’t want to forget #the guide let folks pick a card and each one coresponded with a reading #the only gods that were name dropped were tyche (goddess of good luck) and nemesis (goddess of retribution)

[sofiasfanartcollection]

was inspired by @urboned ‘s cool designs for Aziraphale and Crowley so here’s a rough sketch (felt like drawing them as non-anthro animals though, hope that’s okay)

#sofia’s art #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #deer #mongoose #Comic I watched it! #i drew these two and then preceded to binge good omens #aziraphale and crowley are absolutely lovely #my hesitation in watching good omens before mainly had to do with being worried it would be too irreverent #I’m a Christian and my faith is very important to me #I knew that heaven was going to be portrayed as corrupt #but as a critique of religion and the human institution of the church it works #I like how they are on their own side now #the truth is normally somewhere in between two arguments anyway #not that I agree with everything in good omens #there is some very strange theology in there #but I don’t think it was trying to realistically portray God and heaven etc. #it was trying to say some important things about people and life on earth #I think that if Aziraphale and Crowley were real my God would love them actually #I loved how it all came together in the end with Adam being able to defeat Satan by refusing to accept him as his dad #and knowing he had the love of his real family and his friends #and the help of an angel and a demon who love earth and each other #and Crowley wondering if him and Aziraphale’s interfering was God’s plan all along

[sebbyisland]

“With this you are mine now. Let’s eat together, sleep together, and have a lovely life.”

(Desc in alt)

#Updated version of an old piece #Cw gore #cw blood #Cw cannibalism #ugh so cathartic to finally type out these tags bc I’m done #Chainsaw man fanart #makima #Denji #pochita #csm part 1 #No because I always believed if Makima won she would keep Denji’s corpse which would still have the scent of Pochita #Obvi she can’t consume csm but Denji is like her vessel I’m thinking like communion at church #If Pochita is Makima’s god then Denji is kinda her sacrifice for the good of humanity he’s kinda jesus son of god … #I mean he literally rose from the dead surrounded by crosses. #Csm is heavily based on Dante’s Inferno I don’t think it’s far fetched to say there’s Christian imagery throughout #Anyways. Denji is the body and blood of christ that Makima consumes to be closer to her god Pochita #Who she thinks will cleanse the world from evil and absolve her loneliness #Note that he defeats Makima with his human BODY and BLOOD devil weapon!! Btw I censored his face bc Makima doesn’t care abt it #There is only taking and taking from Denji and then BLAMING HIM for it he is MAKIMA’S LOLITA!!!! #God. Ok. I’m still sooooo normal abt the makiden dynamic. #Makima truthfully just wants Denji for his body and Denji just wants to be loved but bc he’s young isolated and inexperienced he accepts he #remember he says his type of girl is one who wants him #Makima REALLY wanted the csm heart inside him #Even tho she never cared for him Makima still provided warmth and comfort for Denji he can’t forget that #At the end of part 1 he knows all this but still loves her and cares about her as a person and #as a mother figure and as his first object of affection after pochita died. And the complicated feelings from being sexually groomed. #Makima was his first human connection and she was never even paying attention to him #she’s a lot of things but I interpret her ultimately as the worst mother figure in the world #It’s so crazy you consider all this and how historically chainsaws were developed to sever the umbilical cord. #how many connections to his life did Denji sever in order to reach the end of part 1? How many lives lost at the cost of him gaining his ow

[ziracona]

#dragon age origins #dragon age inquisiton #dragon age 2 #hey. BioWare. I just want to talk i swear. I know it’s clear I’m lying but just come outside for a minute #wait. aren’t…? *checks* ah. ofc BioWare is a bunch of white Canadians doing this 🙄 #people keep tagging this as ‘the maker better be fake too’ and sure. that’s an improvement yes. but also no. atheism is not a more #culturally woke and aware position really. not strong-armed. making the cultures based on indigenous and romani and sámi cultures gods all #fake and the fantasy Christian god be fake too isn’t actually a non-white European position at all. you guys have to see that right? it’s #not really much better. the ironclad and ordered dismissal of all religions as false is actually also a white colonial thing. it’s not good #the other god being fake too doesn’t undo the damage of this move like you see that right?

[endercoil]

Honestly I want to fight every fucking politician that thinks banning birth control is a good idea personally.

Are you fucking stupid? Are you dense in the head? Do you honestly think the only reason people take it is as a contraceptive? What, do you just expect the people who have incredibly painful periods to just bear with it when that helps?

Like don’t get me wrong, even if it was just used as a contraceptive, it would be fucking stupid to ban it. But every god damn time I see the idea of banning it brought up I get so ungodly mad because I remember the shit I had to deal with for so long. If I get any form of abdominal pain past a certain threshold I start feeling dread because my body is genuinely scared of experiencing that shit again.

And if your going to be a bitch like “oh the pain can’t be that bad” what about the anemia then. Huh? You know that heavy periods can lead to anemia, right? Some of my iron related levels were so low people ask me how I was still functioning. I had multiple months of trips to the hospitals for iron infusions, and this was AFTER a UID helped stop me from bleeding out every god damn month.

I don’t care* if you want to bring “consequences back to sex” or whatever the fuck these people are saying, but I would much rather you don’t bring back consequences to just having a uterus, alright? Fucking hell.

*don’t get me wrong I think this is also stupid. People should be able to do what they want safely but my point is these people are banning something because they think “oh sex evil” when that’s not even it’s only use

#enderposting #sorry I’m mad. and I usually don’t talk about my agab here but good fucking god #i could make a comment about how activism often forgets about disabled people but i don’t know if this Christian purity bullshit counts #I’m gonna say it doesn’t. but like. that’s there #also once again these alt right Christians have the I want to live like this but everyone else has to live like me as well mindset #also if anyone sees this and is suffering from like. super heavy or painful periods and doesn’t know what to do please ask to see someone

[faux-ee]

Nikolai is not an Absurdist.

I’ve seen people calling Nikolai an absurdist, while he really is not. He has said himself that the comment regarding himself started with “cuz its fun” regarding gruesome murder (which is a very absurdist attitude, to embrace the absurdity of his actions and to do them despite their meaninglessness) is untrue. His character, however, is an example of a very apparent misconception of skepticism, which describes someone who lives their life in denial of all kinds of order and tries to disprove all established doctrines (specifically human feelings and morals).

Fyodor, on the contrary, is an absurdist (and a Lutheran, believing that he has gods ordinance to exercise power over so called evil, but that’s religious and not philosophical so I’ll not go into details here) rather than a nihilist. Nihilism would suggest that since he is so smart and sees no meaning in secular life, he would abandon all pursuits in life and seek an easy death (exactly like dark era Dazai; for this reason we should also not equate Fyodor to teenage Dazai). However, seeing how he enjoyed causing chaos in Yokohama and the world at large, sometimes not even helping his goal of obtaining the book, one could very much say he has an absurdist attitude regarding the meaninglessness of life.

It’s very interesting how on the surface Nikolai is the crazy one and Fyodor’s the calm one, yet at heart Nikolai deprives himself of all things human, very much trapped within the rigidity of his own logic, while Fyodor pursues undistinguished destruction of an existing system, which is by nature wild and illogical. I think this is also why they understand each other so well; they are each an outward manifestation of the other’s innermost self.

#bsd nikolai gogol #bsd fyodor dostoevsky #bsd meta #help I’m being cringe and casually applying philosophical concepts to my fav anime characters again #i was reading abt skepticism and the common myths abt phyrro of elis is just so very bsd nikolai I had to make this post #*pyrrho #by this definition fyolai are both ascetics and dogmatists #living very unhappy lives trapped within doctrinaire #poor babes #speaking of lutheran #chuuya is like the textbook definition of a good christian #which has to do with the irl author himself and the sheep song's inherent message #strangely the sheep song also refers to the celebration of dionysus the god of wine and pleasure #i need to do more research before i can settle on this issue #i love how i sort of am associating bsd characters with christianity schools #as a pagan this is a super fun thing to do bwahahaha

[frogs-smoking-cigarettes]

Can any Christian Good Omens help explain the religious stuff in this season for people not familiar with bible lore. I know the second coming is Jesus pt. 2 but how do the mechanics of that work? Like google says there’s a judgement day but what does that actually mean? And can that mean a possibility of god showing up directly?

#I can’t stop theory crafting for season 3 #good omens #good omens spoilers #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #christianity #Im jewish I’m only caught up on the first half #tbh I’m confused how Jesus works at all cuz like I thought he forgave everyone’s sins #but like ppl are still going to hell? #also like did he die? or like is he immortal? #and ik god changed between the new and Old Testament #but like is the New Testament god absent and instead had religious figures as their face