#i've never been so done

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

Since I can’t go outside and scream because cops would be called on suspicion of murder. From the absolute bottom of my soul and every last breath in my lungs, “FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!”

#dear diary #you're such a joke #struggling #cyclothymia #losing my shit #i can't keep up #i'm so sick of your games #mind games #i deserve better #life is a joke #i just want to scream #i've never been so done #sick of being sick #everything is falling apart #idk what to do #i want to disappear #self harm #take the edge off #losing my mind #all my coping mechanisms aren't working #i feel so lost #i don't want to be here #friends break hearts too #family dysfunction #idk how to be okay anymore #heart vs mind #empty #nothing left to give

[captain-konami-code]

#this has probably been done before #but I've never actually seen it so I have plausible deniability #konami.txt #Vox Machina #TLoVM #Percy de Rolo #Percival de Rolo

[machikeita]

perth nakhun in every episode of cutie pie → episode eight

#perth nakhun #cutie pie the series #asiandramanet #asianlgbtqdrama #dailyasiandramas #usermare #cutie pie #thdramaedit #cutiepieedit #perthedit #pertheveryep #mine | all #mine | gifs #thai drama #FINALLY MY WEEKLY PERTH GIFFIES ARE BACK! #thank god he was in this episode last week without him was so tragic #jay is so done with this he's like i've got bigger problems askdksdls #i've never been so dedicated to an edit meme i've started in my life #literally the moment the ep ends i'm already and onto giffing perth #idk what it is about perth putting his fingers on his temple like that but i had to gif it #i swapped gif 2 and 4 around because i liked it better #jay really solves his problems by eating paper and it's a mood #why do i always love my colourings in photopea but when i upload them here i hate them ????

[rileykitty]

I love them...

#my art #hualian #tgcf #xie lian #hua cheng #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #i read it last month and have not been able to stop thinking about them since #if you know anything about my taste in ships it is pretty much the least surprising thing ever that i've been done in so hard here lol #oh boy i have two new guys to add to my list of characters i'm never gonna shut up about! #hahahahahahahahaaaa

[ragnarachael]

the fact that some people think they are so entitled to a fanfiction writer and their works is simply terrible.

if you’re wondering why your favorite writer is leaving this platform, take a second to look and see if you’re actually supporting them. maybe you’ll get a clue then. supporting means reblogging their works. lifting them up. not stealing them and reposting them (that’s called plagiarism! you’re STEALING WORKS! stop fucking reposting other people’s hard work! you didn’t slave over this 6k fic for entire MONTHS AT A TIME! TAKE! IT! DOWN!)

support means giving us feedback. telling us you loved what we wrote. not just “omg part 2????”, “more pls” what part two is there to write? what more do you want? most of the time when authors post one shots, they don’t have a part two in mind. rarely do they ever. we cannot read your mind. tell us what you mean when you say stuff like this. personally it’s a little awkward getting those comments. i don’t know how to go about a part two unless it’s blatantly obvious when i leave an open end. what do you WANT in a part two?

likes are great, i personally use them to mark fics to read later (granted, i haven’t gotten around to reading fic since i’m working so much) but once you read, guess what? there’s a reblog button RIGHT! NEXT TO IT!

i’m tired of my like to reblog ratio being a huge jump. half of my reblogs are my own, just like every other author on this site.

i love hearing your replies. i love hearing your key smashes. i love seeing your memes you post on my works. i love all of it. for the love of god, just support your fanfic writers, or they’re all gonna leave and you’ll whine even more.

#rachael that's so personal of u #literally u could reblog it and say nothing! that is SO FINE!!!!! LITERALLY!!!!! #i understand the anxiety for it but please know some of these authors strive off of your feedback for what fics get done first/faster #just #SUPPORT WRITERS MAN WE DO THIS FOR FUN AND FOR FREE #IF YOU LIKE OUR FUNNY LITTLE WORDS THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS MINDLESSLY REBLOG IT #marvel writer #fanfic writing #watch me get a shit ton of hate for this lmaoooooo #i'm just. so heated about this #what is there not to get. #as someone who has been reading fic for almost what. 10 years? 11? never have i seen people whine about showing at least a LITTLE SUPPORT #LIKE THE AMOUNT OF TIME I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT LEAVING TUMBLR AND POSTING ONLY ON AO3? BAFFLING. #BUT I LIKE THE AUDIENCE I HAVE HERE #SO LIKE? YEAH

[unicornofpjo]

we all know and love the underwater kiss scene in pjo, but there’s another underwater scene that i love but nobody seems to talk about.

do y’all remember in the sea of monsters, when they approach the sirens’ island, annabeth decides she wants to hear the sirens’ song? and then cuts her safety binds when percy’s not looking? think about that: surrounded by razor sharp rock, barbed ware, shipwrecks, and explosives, the daughter of athena goes towards her death seeking wisdom, and the son of poseidon doesn’t hesitate to plunge straight into the sea after her. when he touches her, he sees her dreams and aspirations: her parents, back together; luke, saved from kronos, at her parents’ side; all of them happy in NYC, redesigned by annabeth in gold and marble to be better than any city before it, better than even olympus itself—her loved ones are calling to her, right there, all she has to do is reach the beach—and then the sirens’ song is drowned out by the sea. percy takes them down, down, down, and like their future kiss, he creates a giant bubble to keep annabeth breathing. and when she realizes the song is broken, that all her dreams and aspirations are not within reach—all annabeth can do…is sob. she’s utterly heartbroken—overcome with the knowledge that the hopes of a 13 year old child soldier are just that: a child’s longing for the world to be right after being shown over and over again that it isn’t.

and so percy just holds her against him, giving the girl who never trusts anyone a safe space to cry—surrounded by explosives and shipwrecks at the bottom of a turbulent grey sea.

#pjo #annabeth chase #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #sea of monsters #percabeth #yeah that’s right it’s 2013 again and we’re back to ship names #i've been rereading the series and this is my favorite percabeth moment so far #it's a very quiet but very powerful scene #and incredibly poetic #annabeth's should-be-rival gives her a safe space somewhere objectively very dangerous #and i never see anyone talk abt it #i've seen maybe one or two fanarts of this scene? #idk i just think it's such a powerful scene to receive almost no focus #this one scene shows annabeth’s drives as a person to both us and percy and it’s done so well and so raw #had me crying for her all over again

[delicourse]

um i want whatever they had going actually

#wilk #tsurumi tokushirou #golden kamuy #gk #chapter 313 spoiler #gk spoilers #deliart #chapter 313 was gorgeous.... i put off ever drawing the tsurussy bc i KNEW i would never beat whatever idea noda had #also this drawing has been in the works for 6 whole months. so many iterations of it. wilk in the epic chair and tsurumi and the bones #and the bullet and everything. initially it was suppoded to be hasegawa but with the Hole Reveal it had to be changed #i just love his hole sm......... the way the scarring looks like a crown or whatever......man....... #added a little gold to emphasize what i mean.... #i just read the final chapter and ofc ofc i could be mad abt koits but i've accepted nodas wack treatment of him such a long time ago #i used to be sooo mad months back when it became clear how it was gonna be handled but i gave up on waiting for the sike eventually. #so im good now<33 closed my eyes #anyway im gonna be gkposting art for a while to cope with not getting this manga weekly anymore #need to draw them all.... i havent done any sugi art in forever. and hes litcherally like my fav. #though u wouldnt be able to tell based on my art. all because i hate drawing hats<//3

[booasaur]

Nancy Drew (2019) - 2x18

#nancydrewedit #nancy drew #bess marvin #odette lamar #george fan #maddison jaizani #anja savcic #leah lewis #nancy drew spoilers #nancy drew 2x18 #femslash related stuff #bess x odette #well that's one way to resolve the consent issue lol #but man the CW can't have done TWO multi-season actually slowly built up f/f ships just to get rid of them? #odette can't just be gone? #I've been so conflicted on this mostly because I never know where the endgame is #but I'm not suuure this is the end? how can she just disappear?

[furiarojas]

CHARLES & PECCO

2019 Italian GP // 2021 Emilia Romagna GP // x // x // Italian GP winning helmets: Monza 2019, Mugello 2022 // Charles Leclerc's qualifying crash means he is unable to start the 2021 Monaco GP after taking pole // Pecco Bagnaia crashes out of the lead in the 2021 Emilia Romagna GP, ending his championship hopes // "Child in Red" by Rainer Maria Rilke // Charles and Arthur Leclerc, 2021 Le Castellet Formula 3 Race II // Pecco and Carola Bagnaia, 2021 Aragon GP // Charles Leclerc and Mattia Binotto, 2022 Bahrain GP // Pecco Bagnaia and Gigi Dall'Igna, 2022 Spanish GP // little red wristbands // "Late Fragment" by Raymond Carver // Charles Leclerc and Ferrari celebrate his first F1 win, 2019 Belgian GP // Pecco Bagnaia is embraced by the Ducati team after his first MotoGP win, 2021 Aragon GP

#oh god i have never been mentally ill on main quite like this before. #charles leclerc #pecco bagnaia #thats right im tagging this. its hard work being this insane #LOVE IS STORED IN THE DEEPLY MEDIOCRE WEB WEAVING. #i hope the photos are from where i think they're from LOL. if not oh well im a loser #i KNOW its loose at best and i could have done SO much better w this but. babys first web weave? #its about the red italian team whose last major success was in 2007 and now all the hopes and dreams of these institutions rest on you #and you're young still (they're both 97 babies!!!) but somehow its always felt a little like time is running out #mostly its about the babywabyism. #pecco #motogp #f1 #they are my sweet little baby blorbos :( #save #most self-indulgent shit i've ever done in all my too many years on this website!!!! #also first remotely creative impulse i've felt in a VERY long time LMAO #ducati #ferrari

[patpran]

this is probably the biggest bl actor power move in history like imagine starring in a bl, realising that there's a lack of proper lgbt representation, and then starting your own COMPANY to produce content with the goal of promoting equality

#gap has like 3(?) wlw couples #one is married the other features a masc lesbian (i think) #i've never been saint's fan but this is such a power move he's so powerful #& scoy's leading mlm couples all feature feminine gay ppl and honestly #name a bl that's done that before #this clip's from awhile ago but it crossed my twt timeline again bc ppl were talking about GAP lol #i'm so excited

[orokay]

if u remember my mass effect ocs i have feelings for you

#everyone got redesigns lol #also ignore the gloves in the fullbody pic of mallorie that was the first one i drew and i was reusing an old design thing #but i ended up scrapping it #anyway i've been thinking about these guys nonstop for the past few months it's the ugly sweater brigade baby they're back #mallorie #shnel #ithanna #bugly #my art #i think ithanna's actually 5'4 ............ #mass effect #mass effect oc #also trying to figure out how to simplify vorchas to fit my style is hell on earth #but i'll do it for my son my beautiful vorcha son #also bugly (batarian) belongs to my friend hehe #those last two drawings i lined and colored TWICE because i finished one and half of the other one (on the same canvas) and then #accidentally hit close on the file when i was coloring the background of the second one and automatically hit 'close w/o saving' #and lost all of the work i'd done the entire day (it was like 5 pm) on it #but i knew i'd never come back to them if i started something else so i went back and redid all of that work the next day

[covertblizzard]

it is criminal that i’ve never seen these panels before actually

#jason todd #bruce wayne #robin #batman #mypost #dc thoughts #oh he is so adorable in these #i've never done fanart before EVER #but i've been thinking about it bcos so many people draw cute stuff in dc fandom #this is my starting place for sure if i do #look at him #how could i not

[marlborocas]

no, the timing's never right

but don't hesitate to fall in my arms

Holy Feeling - Greyson Chance

~

Elliot's 1k celebration - "holy feeling"

Supernatural 15x09: The Trap

January 16, 2019

#they're each other's holy feeling #the faithless man prays for the love of an angel #they lose their faith without each other #Dean was willing. but he never got to say it #the words died on his lips #he felt the holy feeling for just a moment. and was ready to give in. but the timing's never right #this song is normally Cas pov and I guess kinda is but it really resonates with Dean for this #seriously though this is thee destiel song #I will make an amv one of these days #preach the greysonchancenatural agenda #ugh I am so rusty at photoshop it's been months since I've done more than adjust levels or something #also Tumblr image sizing my belated. need to practice the sizing more so the type works #but whatever I'm way too lazy rn #next time #justcastiel1k #justcastiel edits #spn #destiel #deancas #spn 15x09 #15x09 the trap #stackednatural #holy feeling #seraphcastiel #rambleoncas #spn edit #spnedit #spncreatorsdaily #userkels

[jiangwanyin]

for @ethan-hunt | happy birthday keigo!!! 💌

what if all i have is my suffering? my regret? — interview with the vampire

#HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIEEE I LOVE U #idk what this is but i've been meaning to use this quote for ages n i felt like this was the perfect occasion because you'll appreciate it!! #i'm sorry about the angst 😭 i tried to balance it out though for what it's worth?? #word of honor #wohedit #wen kexing #zhou zishu #wenzhou #* #*shl #i can't believe this is my first time editing them ohmygod what took me so long #anyways!!! i hope u like this and have an amazing birthday and year ahead of you!!! 💖 #i've never done the scene transitioning thing before so i hope it doesn't suck too much 😳 #hope i did the timezone math right too!! #keigo tag

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: digital fanart of Luz and Eda from the owl house set after the season 2 finale King's Tide. The image depicts a crying Luz, sat on the floor and holding an acoustic guitar as if to play it. She's looking down with a frustrated expression, and a dark shadow is cast over her. Behind Luz and faced away from the viewer is Eda playing the lute and kneeling down. She's smiling and is drawn with lighter colours and lineart. There's a soft light coming from off screen illuminating Eda and Luz. The background is white, except for a minimalistic depiction of a floor, which is done with a peach gradient. End ID]

It's not time to make a change / Just relax, take it easy / You're still young, that's your fault./ There's so much you have to know

Things she never got to teach you

based on the HC of Luz having learned guitar from her dad, and me realizing how similar it is to Eda's lute. Perfect recipe for musical angst </3

#the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #(i know its been a couple weeks since the finale but just in case) #luz noceda #eda clawthorne #eda the owl lady #this started as a quick posing practice that then evolved into colouring practice that THEN became lighting practice #it spawned from the hc that luz plays an instrument of some sort #i love projection so i hcd that she plays guitar and that her dad taught her (tho she didn't really pick it up again after he died) #which was all fun and games until i remembered that Eda canonically plays the lute #(which is kind of like an old timeu guitar if you think abt it. kind of) #and suddenly post kings tide the thought got VERY angsty. I'm a big fan #anyway tried out something new for the shading/colouring here and actually ended up pretty happy w/ it??? #I've never done it outside of sketches so i was worried it'd look weird w/ lineart but it doesn't!!! huzzah!!! #anyway put father and son by cat stevens on more toh playlists. its thematically relevent!!! #edit: added in the hc context from the tags cause i felt like the post was confusing without it lol

[granteddrop]

the difference between you and I is thinner than a razor

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#critical role #critical role fanart #essek thelyss #caleb widogast #full drawing #y'all it has been a yeeeeaaaaar #idk why but making this all blocky and geometric just felt right xD #i would not be surprised if someone else has done something like this #i've never really dived into cr fan content before a few weeks ago though so #do i dare slash submit #i am tempted but xD #hello to anyone who writes in tags and reads tags i love you and all your kind words!!!!!!

[boneheat]

POV: it’s your turn to tell the weird kids who spend all their time holed up in the occult section that the library’s about to close, even though you suspect they’ve somehow been getting in after hours regardless

(also this was very directly inspired by this great scooby doo fanart i saw on twitter so i want to link it)

#danny phantom #danny fenton #valerie gray #tucker foley #sam manson #dp fanart #my art #oh BOY is this a big one #first off it's a much more complex scene than i typically draw #and also i've basically never done this style of shading before i was using all new brushes for this #but it was actually a lot of fun!! and went surprisingly quickly #also i imagine them as like seniors here which is why they look Tired and Cool and slightly older #all the librarians know of them and a few are totally convinced they've been breaking in after it closes sometimes #but like there's never any evidence of them messing with the locks or windows or anything so they just don't know how #🤔

[omeno]

love and grief hold hands while twisting the knife inside your guts.

or c!quackity, love-sickness and heartbreak.

wally lamb - she's come undone // virusAP - two birds // anton chekhov - a play // roberto ferri // jenny slate - little weirds // david foster wallace - infinite jest // richard siken - wishbone // paprikup - city of stars // jodi picoult - handle with care // natalie wee - lonely

「 dsmp web weaving series; prev // next 」

#o.woven #web weaving #quackity #c!quackity #dsmp #dream smp #dsmp web weaving #mcyt web weaving #tw blood #tw body horror #karlnapity #whats the ship name for c!quackity & c!schlatt?? #idk but that one too #im enamoured by c!qauckity's tragedy #like its so. unique #i've never seen a character like him #i adore how messy everything about him is i adore it so much #also Please PLEASE check out both animatics !!! they're like holy shit so good. they live rent free on my mind. #this has been sitting half done for like weeks #im very very happy with how it turned out #rlly liked doing the like. .collage?? part #might go do more like that hehe

[zodiacsomething]

:D

#<3 #y'all i'm sorry for being absent so long #i wanna draw but like #idk what #brain isn't cooperating lmao #these past few months have been testing me istg #and there's a birthday coming up that i'm not ready to deal with but i'm done cursing the universe about it #anyway does anyone want me to doodle anything? i think i'd be up for it #i feel like i should add that i'm also up for anything animal crossing or the zelda series #been playing botw again recently and realized i've never finished the dlc haha #unrelated topic but i'm feeling talkative lmao i've been thinking about changing my name legally #funnily enough i'm probably not gonna go with Rem but sth closer to my birthname actually #it's one i've been taking quite a liking to for a while #not gonna say it though #whatever. enough about my personal life. #if you've read this far or at all have a blueberry 🫐 #:D #my art #doodles #cat #these tags are a mess

[fakecrimepodcast]

SAY IT WITH ME trauma and mental health issues in general can be an explanation for someone's harmful behavior, but not an excuse.

#i've done some fucked up shit before due to mental health issues and guess what #if you never take responsibility you'll go nowhere #i've recently started owning up to everything I did in therapy and it feels good #even if my therapist says i'm almost a sociopath but not because i'm not planning to kill anyone #don't bother telling me to find a better therapist i've been through so many!!!!!