#idek what the point of this post is OK!! it’s just like no wonder they kinda gravitate towards eachother sometimes and help eachother out

[0tul1ss]

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#mannn i literally assumed he ghosted-- why on earth would he text me after so long???? #i was fully like 'ok the last msg i sent literally makes me cringe a bit to read but its been months so ig im never opening the convo again #it was simpler before when there felt like there was nothing else to do and easier to move on. i even had a little crush on someone else ! #now i have a whole wheel of decisions to choose from #and idek what i truly want from this guy anymore bc even just platonically he kinda fucked it up like. idk #or rather i want a lot of different things and idk what to choose #i want my friend back. i want to never see him again. i want him to know every truth of what ive felt and i want him to know none of it #i want him to miss me or maybe wonder about me sometimes down the line. i want him to not spare me another thought for the rest of his life #i want to reply only 'go fuck yourself' and i want to write him a letter and i want to ghost him better than he ghosted me #i want to tell him i love him and i want to tell him i hate him and i want to say nothing at all #i want the closure i was denied. i want to protect the closure i now have #<-going insane #anyway its soooo stupid like i already grieved for this shit bro. i accepted the end of this years long close friendship #anyway idk why im doing so much processing of this in a vent post nor do i know why i always feel compelled to post these when i do #good thing i keep a small presence on here lol. but yea uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh send post #ok wait i saved this as a draft and went to go look for what i had been tagging vent posts with #[couldnt find one i had been using consistently even tho the whole point is so ppl can blacklist it if they want whoops!!] #and i saw another vent from another time he just kinda disappeared on me #and while this time was a lot worse for a lot of reasons i think its important to say this-- #that the last thing that i want is to go back to square one of this stupid awful cycle #vent

[shimamitsu]

if u ever wanna complain abt blue flag id be all ears. ive had it recommended a ton but never got around to hear abt it

ah, the old blue flag. every few months i remember this manga and i feel pure anger deep in my heart. long post incoming! i know a lot of people like it so i'll preface this by saying that this is my opinion, you can still like it, let's hold hands and read manga together. anyway, blue flag. my main problem is that it feels like something that was written for heterocis people to sympathize with lgbt's people's existence instead of something that actually included lgbt's people's experiences and opinions. all you have to know is that there's this scene where a character makes a list of lgbt songs or smth like that and one of them is shake it off by taylor swift. yeah. i said this yesterday but it's not like i think it's bad for lgbt manga to be educational, that's totally ok. there are works like 'i think our son is gay' that are very good at that. the whole plot of the manga is that a mom finds out her son is gay and it follows how she learns about sexuality, lgbt issues, etc etc (it's also told from her pov). its purpose clearly is to be educational for a non-lgbt audience. with blue flag... it felt like they were trying to explain lgbt 101 to me and failing. it raised a lot of questions about sexuality that in the best of cases the author couldn't give an answer to (and sometimes it's ok not to, but we weren't dealing with queer theory here, the question was like. do gay ppl deserve rights), and in the worst of cases just fumbled the resolution completely. the best example for that is how a character's outing got handled. spoilers here ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ but man. the mc gets outed by his homophobic friend, later it is revealed that this friend is homophobic bc he got assaulted by a man (wow gay predator trope, never seen that before), and the manga could've taken 10000 different directions to deal with that but what did the author decide to do? yeah -> homophobia is just a different opinion! we have to understand where both sides are coming from <3 hell no. die. (it was awful and heartbreaking to read btw). more big spoilers ‼️ another thing that made me violent (and i mean it), was how the manga handled another character's sexuality. one of the main characters, a girl whose name i can't remember, spent the entire manga rightfully struggling with coming to terms with the fact that she liked women. she explicitly said she couldn't like men if i remember correctly. well. here comes a time skip. she's married to a man. how. what. and ofc i'm not saying she can't be bi, but she was clearly written as a lesbian. why on earth is she married to a man then i wanna KILLLLLLLLL. anyway the ending also sucked. in the time skip it's implied the main boys were dating (idek how we got there, ig we skipped the entire sexuality journey of one of them) but it was told from a 1st person pov for some reason so we literally don't see them together (i wonder if it was too gay for shonen jump). when this manga was ongoing, even when it ended, people were promoting it to hell and back, saying how good the "representation" was. i assure you i never saw a manga that centered lgbt characters be talked about THAT much, except maybe shimanami tasogare. it seriously was huge. it was a lot of people's first approach to lgbt manga as well. why people think lgbt manga peaked with ao no flag is beyond me. last year a mutual made a post talking about it and they made a great point which was that blue flag would've never gotten that popular if it wasn't a shonen jump manga and i totally agree. and i'll be bitter about it being licensed where i live while shimanami tasogare isn't until the day i die. but yeah that's a summary of my issues with it. obviously i don't recommend it lol

[faces-ofvenus]

I am obsessed with your Aegon-stuff and I really don't know how to feel, I also should hate it (him)- but i love it so much idek :(( i'd love to request something about Aegon being betrothed to someone a few years older (late 20s? early 30s?), a bit more tough-skinned that wouldn't accept all of his his shit. She'd still be a caring betrothed and most of all nurturing person, this combined with Aegons mommy-issues would just be *chefs kiss*

Ok, I don't know if it was so enemies for lovers, forgive me if I didn't get it exactly as you asked, I got a little carried away and I think I ran away a little

You were old, that is a fact, and no one in your family seemed to want to hide that fact, it was already a great sorrow that you were your father's heir, since your mother died at an early age, bitter at the loss of love he simply did not remarry you had, an older brother, but he died since you were very young, even with advice, your father refused another marriage he didn't want one, he once promised his old wife that the one who would have the position of lord of the north would be your children, and no one else, your mother never wanted children, or marriage, everyone saw the same similarities between the two of you, but she married in the end, because you simply couldn't do the same. Your old father was never the best at setting limits, you had a child that used to be seen as totally masculine, growing up to lead his house to glory, and you weren't going to do that by licking a man's feet, righteous, confident in yourself, you knew that sometime even this late in life you would get married, so the news from your father for a marriage to Aegon was not very surprising, you were so angry with your father, but at the same time you had to see his point, and also fulfill your post, form alliances, that's what this marriage was, a business alliance and only that.

Your wedding went quickly, it seemed that you didn't want to leave another day unmarried, you honestly had the contempt of meeting Aegon before the ceremony, what could you say, you just wanted to punch the Targaryen in the middle of his mouth, you weren't the temperamental type, but the way he talked, so malicious and carefree, it was a real shame, and you even wondered if it was really worth it, to hold out the prince for a better economy, he was still a child even though he was 18 at the time, you had 26 hours that one, they couldn't be more serious, serious or not you got married, your first time was totally horrible in your opinion, you felt almost totally used, your conversations were based on flirtation from him, and sarcasm from you, which Aegon simply found sexy and liked in you, you were so bossy was so serious, just the most beautiful woman in the world, and your age only contributed, only he really didn't know how to get your attention, if not being a spoiled brat, which only created more antipathy from you

you only really saw another side of Aegon the day your mother left his room, and when you came in he was standing naked, with tears in his eyes, he asked you to leave, and for the first time you didn't see any malicious tone coming from him, you honestly feared his next action, so you just made him sit beside you, you patted his head a little, He wanted to protest, but when he felt your hand in his hair, he just clung to you and cried silently, you were so upset that this had never happened before, not only to him but to anyone, you had never needed to comfort anyone other than your younger sisters in nightmares, but now you were here. You just said that this will all pass, while Aegon then asked you if you loved him, and you said frankly that you didn't, he never deserved your love, he always behaved like a child, she knew that compared to her, he was in fact one, so she couldn't love him.

After the days Aegon really started to mature a bit, he came to you with some political and economic issues that you knew he didn't understand at all, but you helped him, taught him and trained him, he still had tones of malice in his voice, but he could also be serious, and you as he was treating you better gave back, he once went to your quarters that you didn't share for the simple fact that you couldn't stand the smell of him drunk and stinking of sex he had with god knows who, he went there and came to propose that you have a real marriage, that as much as you didn't love him, he loves you fully, and is willing to do anything for you to love him, making many, many promises, that you didn't really believe in anything, you want change and not empty words.

But he really changed, it shocked everyone, and even you, so as the months went by you were really willing, remembering the night, once in a conversation by the garden, he was rambling randomly, you just didn't know how he changed so much... For you? Your heart was pounding and before he could say another word, you kissed him right there, and told him you were willing to have a real marriage with him, he asked again if you loved him, and you answered that you didn't know yet, but that alone was enough for him.

#hotd #hotd x reader #reader #reader insert #house of the dragon x reader #aegon ii targaryen #aegon ii targaryen x reader #house of the dragon

[eorzean-capitalist]

saw this post earlier about wearing t-shirts of bands you don't even like just to mess with gatekeepers.

I'm reminded of like... 17 year old me. (I think I was 17, the friend who accompanied me to this concert keeps swearing we were 16, idek anymore. I'm old ok?)

Went to see Metallica, for their Black Album tour. It was my birthday present. My friend flew down from Michigan to go with me cause we were both huge fans.

I was a scrappy thing, absolutely in my teenage rebellion phase. Precocious, I guess.

As the opening band played (Candlebox), I got in line to get a t-shirt. There was this guy behind me, and I kinda remember wondering why he was wearing a trench coat. This was before the days of internet memes about M'lady Fedora guys. It was mid-May and the day was actually pretty warm, sunny, and the outdoor arena was packed full of people. Trench coat guy looked kinda weird, that thing had to be hot.

So he starts chatting with me. Remember, I am precocious 17... er maybe 16 year old at this point. I'm at my first metal concert ever and I am absolutely over the moon about it. This guy looks early 30ish, and he's subtly making passes at me. I ain't interested. But it passes the time in line.

So he asks me how old I am and I'm like not going to tell this guy the truth. I think I told him I was 18 or 19. And he starts making noises about me being a baby. And he's "been a fan of the band since the early days".

Insert inner eye roll from me. I had every single one of the band's albums. I was a fan and student of all things Metallica. What's age got to do with this?

So he starts asking me questions, the typical gatekeeping crap. Of course I can answer them. Then he thinks he pulled out his coup de grace I guess. He asks me who their original bassist was.

Which, of course I knew. JFC it was Ron McGovney. And he laughs at me! He laughs cause who tf is that? It was Cliff Burton.

My dude. Don't come at teenage girls with this bull crap if you don't know your own shit. Especially autistic ones who made the band a hyperfixation for years and learned every scrap of dumbass trivia about the band that they could.

And I told him as much, giving him the encyclopedic rundown of Ron's tenure with the band and when he left and the alleged reasons why.

Insert guy behind him laughing. Full on laughing so hard he nearly doubles over. I hadn't even noticed the guy. But he was a big guy, tattooed and muscled arms. Way taller than trench coat guy. (Tbf though, I was also taller than trench coat guy.)

When he finally stops laughing he says, "She's right."

Trench coat guy's face was beet red at this point. I dunno if it was because I showed him up or because the big guy behind us was laughing. Or both. But he bolted out of the line. We were maybe 6 or 7 people away from the t-shirt kiosk by then but he trotted off into the crowd and I did not see him again.

I got my Sad but True t-shirt and the guy behind me asked me to wait up for him. He walked me back to my seat. (His name was Otto, how freaking fitting honestly.) Just in case trench coat guy's ego was so damaged he required revenge to alleviate the damage.

I wonder if Otto even remembers that. And if he sometimes thinks of that kid he overheard schooling some d-bag gatekeeper while standing in line for the t-shirt kiosk.

It's been a great story to tell over the years. I hope trench coat guy eventually snuck back over and got his t-shirt though.

#ah memories

[doodlebug-aboo]

okay i know talking about my fics sends them to an early grave normally BUT i am writing something and what would probably be the first chapter is done and idek if i’ll post it but i’m just gonna put a small bit from the beginning here and hope for a bit of feedback !!!

Darkness. A rich, inky blackness surrounds him in all directions. It feels like he’s swimming through ink, too. He can’t even see himself, it's so dark. For a moment, he wonders if his eyes are even open at all.

Suddenly, a light. While in reality it was a rather faint glow, to him it seemed blindingly bright. As it comes closer, he comes to recognize it as a blue butterfly. It begins to circle over his head, and soon he is illuminated enough to see his body stretch out beneath him. He isn’t on solid ground, just as he thought. He’s floating. He still can’t see the ground either; if there even is one.

“You have been made victim by an unjust game…” A voice rings outs, and it takes him a moment to realize he heard it in his head. And yet, he somehow knows the voice belongs to the butterfly still circling above.

“I’m no victim,” he spits, finding he does have a voice in this space. “Nobody can make me a victim.”

“But you have lost something terrible. Don’t you remember?”

Remember… Remember? Remember what?

“...You’re so lucky.”

…What?

“I was such a fool.”

He lifts his gun, pointing it at him. Joker. Now for the second time. His shadow praises him, that pathetic manifestation of Shido’s view of him.

This is…

“Let’s make a deal… ok? You won’t say no… will you?”

No. Stop this.

“The relationship you two share is very unusual…”

Maruki. Bastard.

“Kurusu-kun, didn’t you regret how things ended with him?”

“...That’s why I created a reality where you two could have a fresh start together.”

“...I refuse to accept a reality concocted by someone else, stuck under their control for the rest of my days.”

“I lost my life, is that what you’re getting at?” Akechi barks at the butterfly as he clutches his head. In the ink he was nothing. No name, no voice, no body. Why did he have to remember?

“Yes… and no. You’ll come to learn what I mean… if you choose to make a deal.”

He can’t believe he’s even going to ask. “What kind of deal would that be?”

“Thank you for asking. We would like to propose to you the option… to live again.”

#bug writes #i just want to know if anyone is interested in reading further i suppose #persona 5 #akeshu #shuake #the ship hasn’t really come in yet but it’s there i promise #goro akechi #i hope the read more actually works bc i’m stuck on mobile rn ugh

[ehh-is-the-name]

Happy (late) Holloweeny!!

It may be like almost a week after the holiday but whatever! I decided to be Jyushi this year since I already made the hat like 2 years ago. That led to me wondering how much I could do for the costume without buying things, and well... I think the only thing I really bought was the baseball uniform but I had to dye it and whatnot so idek what I was planning with that. I think I just wanted an excuse to make stuff and this is what I got to show for it. I think it turned out well!

Though, I think I really like just dressing up as characters at this point, and of course work in process photos under the cut!

Gonna go in chronological order, so starting with the hat.

The photos of it are at the other post linked above if you wanna see it but I'll say my process/thoughts on it here.

If I went back in time to redo the hat I would've changed the way I did the white base. I did it with a spray primer and it made the hat really stiff. I used to wear it out, but also because of the primer, the fabrics not breathable anymore so you get sweaty FAST. Even with the wig on above, it made my head hot. It also made it not able to like stretch easily, so when I had it on with the wig, it kinda looked weird from some angles. Otherwise, It's pretty good. It's just the fact it has so many paint layers.

I unfortunately forgot to take wip pics of the bat and ball, but I have all the resources I used to make them if that counts!

I used the ball pattern from Supergurumi here. For the bat, I used Jay Hen's pattern linked here.

The only thing about the bat is that I switched up some things for this. Like I barely used any stuffing (mainly bc I didn't have much) but also because I just don't think the silhouette of the one on the site matches what an actual metal bat looks like and Jyushi got a metal bat. So I just crocheted around a pool noodle. And gotta say, very fun to hit my friends with, 10/10. Another thing, is that I made the whole bat the grey seen above and just wrapped some old fabric around it, since sometimes Jyushi has it and sometimes he doesn't?? It's weird.

Like in the earlier season (top right), he doesn't, but later in the show (bottom left) he has one and the grip is black? Oh but in the game (top left) he has a yellow grip! BUT THEN THE FUCKING NENDROID DOESN'T HAVE IT EITHER??? SO WHAT????

Idk. The whole thing kinda pissed me off since I didn't know what would be right. In the end, I just went with the yellow grip to match the uniform. I saw all of this like I care about accuracy- I fucked up the baseball stitches anyways, but that'll be our little secret.

I bought the whole uniform from a bulk sellout sports company for like only a handful of dollars. Even with shipping and everything, it wasn't even $20. The only thing was that they weren't selling yellow ones, so I had to dye it. Wouldn't have been that bad if it weren't polyester! Do you know how hard it is to dye polyester??? Well I didn't when I bought it, so lemme tell you.

You gotta make your witch's brew with synthetic fabric dye and soap. It took me a while, but I'd found some of RIT Dyemore in a store (but there are also some online like iDye Poly that should work). I just used a broken hanger to stir that shit for like 30 minutes since I didn't wanna ruin a spoon. Then I had to soak it in a dye fixative, which I did not buy 'cause fuck that. I'll just made some with water. vinegar, and sodium carbonate which you too can make at home. I will stay thanking NileRed for everything here, love his content. I think I soaked it for about 10-15 minutes, and from the pics above I wouldn't say much washed out.

This was probably the dumbest thing I've done. I could've just bought a wig for like $12 but no, I chose to make one instead. Also, I know he doesn't have blue strands in his hair, I just ran out of black yarn and had to make do. These are trying times, ok!! Anyway, I got one of the mesh wig caps meant to cover hair and then started tying strands to every couple of rows and holes. I guess this is where the stiffness of the hat came into use since I used that to hold the mesh cap. I got the idea from this video which helped with telling me what not to do if I wanted to make a wig like this. I was about as far into tying as the first pic below before I found cosplay veteran, Kind of Derp's, yarn wig series which put the idea in my head to press it. The only issue was that I couldn't brush out the twist since they were already tied and it would've pulled out all my hard work. So, I had to individually spread out every piece before pressing... That took the most amount of time, tbh I spend days doing that. I do not recommend it. If you're gonna make a yarn wig either do it KoD's way or like Uropa Queen does it here. That vid helped me quite a bit with styling.

Lastly, although the final photos don't show it, I did put Jyushimatsu's lil ahoge thing! I made it out of a spring and wrapped it with a shitload of yarn before stitching it in place.

And the last thing was stitching their last name! I thought about doing it directly onto the shirt, but since the uniform shirt is kinda stretchy and I don't have any fabric stabilizers, I chose not to.I wanted the stitches to be really crisp and nice, so I just did it on a different piece of fabric and pressed it on. I also kinda wanted to have a yellow shirt by the end of this without the kanji, so I wanted the chance to peel it off afterwards. But, me being silly, I didn't check if the iron-on adhesive was permanent before ironing it onto the shirt. Not the end of the world, I'll still wear it anyway. Though I think I could've cut the edges closer to the word since you can see it pretty clearly irl and even in the photos, but again the damage is done, what am I gonna do about now.

For the sketch, I used an erasable pen to draw 松. And for the stitches themselves, I just used the satin stitch to fill and some back stitches for the outline. This was probably the easiest and quickest part of the process.

I did the little "14" wristband thing a similar way. I just whipstitched the numbers onto some strap material (poly webbing, I think?) and attached some velcro. I folded it in half and stitched down the sides since I didn't ant the stitches to show on the back side of the cuff.

And I would put stuff for the mask, but that was super last minute. I literally just took one of my cloth masks and painted his smile on it with some acrylic paint and pouring medium, 'cause I was too lazy to whip out my actual fabric paint. Took about an hour to get it done, max.

But yeah, despite all the corners I cut, I still like the way it turned out. I can really see why cosplayers do what they do. It's fun to do stuff like this. I don't know if I'll have the time to squeeze in a DIY-heavy costume like this next year, but for Jysuhi and Airy, it was nice to do it.

And as always, I share the process because OH MY FUCK PEOPLE SHOULD!! The cosplayers that share their processes, I love you I love you I love you so much. Their stuff was really helpful for doing this! Hence, that's why I linked so many things. Plus, I know there are others out there who are trying to do the same and if it was helpful for me to stumble across other people's processes it'd probably be helpful to them too.

This is your sign to make a costume if you've been putting it off because you don't know how to do it. Start with something small, just for the hell of it. Hey, in 2021 I didn't think that painting his hat would lead to this, but look where we are. I believe in you, go forth and be creative!

And if you've made it this far, thanks for reading!!

#warning: a lot under the cut #resources #crochet patterns #tutorials #are all under the cut tho!! #go forth and cosplay #it's good for the soul (I swear) #osomatsu san #osomatsu-san #mr osomatsu #おそ松さん #ososan #halloween #halloween costume #halloween cosplay #wip photos #fiber crafts #crochet #embroidery #I think that's eveything #no wait #ehh exaggerates

[everybodyshusband]

Ok so I'm not really back to normal but I'm gonna ignore my tummy for a couple minutes in favour of talking to you because I've been dying to send another ask after your wonderful responses!!!

I'll send it in sort of bullet points bc idek if anything I'm saying is even coherent and this might be easier for you to understand? (Or it might not, I'm sorry) In my brain everything makes sense but then sometimes when I say it out loud or write it it's like "what the hell is she saying rn?" So here I go:

- that bit you wrote about swiss and Copia with the soap and swiss stops swearing even when not regressed... oh, it has my heart... Poor baby, I hope Copia makes it up to him with lots of cuddles! I can imagine them laying in bed, Swiss with his head on Copia's chest, as Copia kisses his forehead/hair/nose/whatever he can reach, and promises it's never going to happen again over and over until swiss believes him and eventually falls asleep... (He even drools a little in his sleep, but don't tell him shhhh)

- I understood what you meant about the part I thought I didn't understand in the rain fic! Ugh every time I read that fic I just wanna give him the biggest hug my poor baby... Their dynamic in that fic is so "it's rotten work" 'not to me, not if it's you' I'm screaming and sobbing about it 😭🥹😍

- I will literally always enable you to ramble about any of your fics! Anything! I'm interested!!! I promise!!!! Anything you want to bring up??? Guess what!? I'm all ears!!! Always!!

-not gonna lie I felt pretty shitty all day bc of my tummy (and still do) but your super sweet responses and thinking about sending you an ask kept me a bit motivated (and distracted from the fact that tomorrow is Monday and I gotta work 😭) so thank you!

- I wanted to ask if there's a specific fic that's close to your heart or one that you like a bit more or one you wish got more attention? Because I'll get my greedy lil paws all over it in like 2 seconds flat and start discussing it... I think I've read everything you've posted but I wanna hear your thoughts on your own stuff too!! 💓💓💕💗💗💖💖💗

You're probably sleeping rn and you'll probably see this tomorrow so I hope you slept well and the day ahead is good to you! 🩷

ooh, my darling anon, i've been hoarding this and all your other asks for much, much too long, i am so, so sorry !!! please know i love and appreciate each and every one of your kind words, even if it takes me a very long time to respond 💙

under the cut because of length, haha :'D

i hope that by now your tummy has settled down a bit, i'm sorry this bout of stomach issues seemed to hit you so hard :0 (oh, and don't worry ! your asks always make perfect sense, my friend !!)

don't worry, after the incident, copia makes sure to give soooo much extra love and care to swiss. that ghoul is not escaping those cuddles from copia without plentiful doses of extra love and chaste forehead, cheek and nose kisses, haha !! copia is so very willing to reassure swiss that he's safe and that it won't happen again, you're right (and you're also very right in that swiss drools right onto copia's papal vestments, but not to worry, the stain comes out ...eventually)

ah !! i'm glad it's making more sense now :D i have a chronic case of the "does not write the things in his head into the actual fic" haha !! i agree that rainy deserves all the hugs in the world, it's a very icky headspace for the poor little guy to be in and he deserves so many hugs for doing his best to navigate it. whether or not he accepts the hugs though is another story entirely...

again, i hope your tummy is feeling better by now. or maybe it's been long enough that you've cycled around into another rough patch ? ooh, i hope not. but either way, i'm sending you so many good tummy vibes, hehe <3 (and maybe you'll take solace in the fact that as i'm answering this, tomorrow is a wednesday rather than a monday ?)

ooooh, that's difficult, haha !! the rain fic you mentioned before is the one that's closest to my heart at the moment, i think. but i'm also quite attached to my most recent ficlet with regressed aeon and zephyr because oh my goodness, i love their dynamic and i want to explore it as much as i can, hello ?!? and then on the complete other side of the spectrum i'm very proud of this t4t raindrop filth, haha !! i think because they're all my newest works i haven't had the time to build up an "ew, what was i thinking !??!" response to them, so i'm still feeling very good about these three. and by the looks of it, other people seem to like them as well, which is a nice bonus :)

thank you very much again for your lovely asks, anon 💙 they make me smile and brighten my day every single time i look at them !! i hope life has been treating you well, my dear, and i hope that you have a wonderful day/night depending on where you are in the world 💙

#ask box #husband rambles #🐝 anon

[samcollinsbf]

new project meridian brainrot

i know i haven't posted about project meridian like At All on here yet but it's one of my favorite series idek why i just think robots are cool also the way it ties into the rest of the lore is like wow omg u know

anyway just finished the latest video here are my live reactions spoilers under the cut obviously

1:30 - FINALLY irl marcus call out post by james

4:28 - BACK UPS?/ HELLO? i'll be honest i fought so hard way back in the beginning of pm to feel bad for marcus but there being back ups makes it literally impossible to do so why is he a freak

5:00 - "You didn't have any right to over ride their desires" guys i am going to hit him.

9:12 - why not bro cmon dont be a loser

10:20 - the way i knew exactly what he was going to ask and got so stupidly excited when he asked it god why am i so obsessed with this series

10:35 - WOOOOO we are CURED ur so right asset the question DOESNT make any sense ur SO so right i literally cheered for them

11:35 - imagine me standing arms crossed impatiently tapping my foot in the background like speak up science man

13:16 - ill be honest i forgot james was still in the room i jumped a little

13:40 - ok i felt a little bad for him for like 0.001 second but ill attribute that to eriks acting because hashtag fuck marcus

16:00 - omg omg omg

16:15 - "WE TAKE COVERT VERY SERIOUSLY WHERE I COME FROM" HELLO ......... What Ever Could That Mean I Truely Wonder

16:40 - "memory modification is perfectly safe through OUR methods" like he's literally a telepath or something like its confirmed at this point right

17:30 - I CHEERED A MILLION TIMES I TELL U oh my god i fucking LOVE the lore and picking up the crumbs to it

17:55 - okay he's LITERALLY a telepath like this isnt even speculation

19:05 - i screamed like a teenage girl in a romcom after calling her crush except it was not a stoic emo loner who's New in Town it was magical robot asmr lore

Anyway. shout out to eriks acting fr i really do hope this man is getting paid well for what he's doing. there is so so SO much i want to say about marcus and marcus/love's dynamic and all my feelings and opinions on this whole series so i'll try to make something more cohesive and less word vomit later

until then though this is still a marcus anti account

also ive seen people start calling them the asset rather than love and i'll probably be doing that as well because even though i feel like its still a little objectifying, calling them what marcus did feels a bit odd

#redacted asmr #redacted marcus #redacted love #redacted asset #? #project meridian #marcus is a FREAK i tell u

[rouninren]

me tryin to mourn here

also semi-related to my previous post but one thing i'm usually super mad at myself for is how quickly i go insane when some third party gets involved and starts pushing me skjxsjxkj and the harder they push, the less coherent i become, and while i'm aware that it's a severe trauma response, it's still dumb af idek

in retrospect, maybe i wouldn't have cut some people out of my life, maybe i would have acted in a completely different manner, if it wasn't for a third party coming to my dms and aggressively, persistently to the point that i unironically want to call it "emotional rape" try to literally gaslight me with their "you're a delusional schizo akshully this isn't what happened at all your experience is skewed by you being delulu you don't experience reality and i'm here to force you to accept that you're delusional and need a psychiatrist uwu" which prompted me to just be like, fuck both of them, fuck all this altogether

(ok i am aware that i might sound like i'm misusing the word "rape" here, but as someone who has been sexually assaulted, what this person did to me felt like amplified version of that, somehow. it was like i was being ripped apart and emotionally beaten into submission idek. considering that they were fully aware that shit like this is also a massive trigger to me, i wonder if it was intentional)

idek what my friend was thinking about all this (thought i wonder if they were even aware of what this fucker was doing) but does it even matter, like, at all? i remember them talking a lot about wanting to be their own person and maybe i should have brought this shit up instead of cutting everyone off, but it's really hard to think when you're literally getting actively retraumatized. besides, the choice has probably been quite obvious anyway

this gaslighting cretin wanted full control over the situation, he got it, hope he's happy since he clearly likes emotionally torturing people regardless of consequences for anyone involved and years later it didn't seem like he felt any remorse for playing a role in pushing me into ruining something so dear to me. i refuse to believe it wasn't intentional, and honestly, seeing how he treats everyone else and enables mentally ill individuals (including himself lmao), i guess he's getting some kick out of it. maybe it's for the best i left the way i did

#ronin.txt

[potatocopycat]

Series of Feelings

Last entry was Aug. 2021 based on my notes. I am posting this right now just bc this basically sums up my feelings as of the moment. Idek pang ilang series of feelings post ko na to. But whatever. Here you go.

4:19

Almost two years in a relationship and idk, I'm bored? Napaka sama ng ugali ko to feel this way but I'll lie to myself kung sasabihin kong di ako nabobore. I know and I understand that he's still a student but there are just times that I feel like he lacks effort. I have to tell him the things he should do, the things we both should do. He doesn't have initiative to make the first steps. I know as well that he lacks money for our date so I always pay the bill. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. I love him and I'll pay the bill anytime and anywhere as long as I got the money. It is just that.... I no longer feel the sparks. I am happy with him but I do not feel excited anymore. I hate myself, I fucking hate myself. Why am I getting bored so easily. Ugh

11:29

Well, I gues being in a relationship is really a choice. Over two years in a realationship and I am writing the same thought above I probably wrote last year. Idk, numbers on the title are time when did I wrote these stuff and not dates. Ok, whatever.

I'm that type of girlfriend that does not have 'toyo' attitude. When I am mad or angry at someone or even something, before I would self harm but since I had him I would just usually tell him. And when he did something wrong I would tell him exactly what I am mad about. Pandemic happened as we all know, our relationship was pretty stable. We talk every fucking day. After the lockdowns, he would visit me every two weeks, up to this day. Sometimes we would bike together. And that pretty much sums up our 2020.

Pero, somehow, I feel like he's slipping away. Or maybe I am slipping away and he's just not doing anything about it. I love him, I really do. It's just that...... sometimes, I can't feel him. It felt like I am alone. Like I have no one. Like I don't have him at all.

12:06

Year is almost ending and from time to time I would feel like we're far from each other. Always talking but the connection is not there.

11:25

I always feel like he doesn't know me enough.

02:26

Three years in a relationship. And why have I never learn anything. I'm lying if I would say I don't need gifts and surprises. I would want that, even a single letter would be fine too. I want him to do something for me. Is it that hard? Or am I not worth it?

10:39

I've set my standards so low and yet he still managed to disappoint me. I fucking hate this feeling.

10:58

I know that he's doing his best to make me happy. And to be honest, I am happy with him. I just... Idk. I don't wanna come to the point that I'll drain him. I don't want him to change. I want him to stay as who he is. Because I loved him for who he was the first place. But also, I don't want him to get stuck

I want him to grow as a person. Whatever it may take. I will always support him.

05:19

There's just days when I could not get enough him. Like I am always thirsty for his time and I just want to cuddle all day.

12:43

Why do I always have to ask for things? Is it bad to want something?

11:14

I am too selfish. I always tell myself na hindi na ko kinikilig but I never asked kung siya ba kinikilig pa sakin. Now I'm left wondering. I wanna ask but I'll know that he'll yes din naman. He tells things I wanted to hear. Always.

#jm

[cupidlakes]

i’m still thinking abt this tweet and tommy mentioning only george had signed up and how he’s a reliable guy that ppl can count on to be a fun feature in their content :) n how tommy clearly tries to repay that to him sometimes like how he hung out in his bday stream for a bit n how they both feel like very earnest people who take content creation and entertaining to heart

#/ONLY/ gogy #hyperbole or otherwise like he’s alwasy just. There for people #tommy and georges friendship is a precious little one for me #even thinking to the sdmn vid how they both got involved and paired off together #n seemed to have a considerable amount of fun hanging out in central london #the donut break #rrrggghhggg They hurt me #idek what the point of this post is OK!! it’s just like no wonder they kinda gravitate towards eachother sometimes and help eachother out #w/ stuff knowing the other would be down and do a good job #posts

[lovemeian]

seijoh 5 inky thoughts—

not me headcanoning crap just because i have so many thoughts on men with tattoos, like. yes, sir. you’re right. you’re absolutely valid and right.

iwa calls you ‘doll’ + issei calls you ‘pretty girl/boy’ + tani’s an absolute sweetheart <3

masterlist.

tattoo artist!oikawa— an absolute flirt. biggest revenue of their shop is his instagram and wild thirst trap posts of his artists & piercers. has on sense of personal space or ‘privacy’ when it comes to them; they’re flexed arms + serious expression is free real estate. always booked to the brim months in advance, likes doing colourful works; dainty but intricate pieces are his speciality. talks you through the pain, very chatty, very flirty. it’s kinda hard not be attracted to him while your in his chair because he’s charisma is just wild. king of terms of endearments and praises— “breathe through your nose, pretty baby, you’re doing so well for me.” and like, he smells sweet and soft? like fresh laundry? and sandalwood and lavenver? and he’s so close that if you don’t end up simping for the man, i applaud your self control. & if you both vibe well and are comfortable with each other, mans might actually kiss your hand and end it with a wink.

tattoo artist & piercer!iwaizumi— mate, if your mouth doesn’t water the minute you come for your appointment idek what’s up. i just. see this black muscle shirt, sweatpants, and his face curled in concentration when he’s bent over you like sir, how rude for my poor heart. his arms flexing to control the machine, and he’s so close, he smells like fresh shower and musky body spray that mingles with sweat soon because its hours later, and he flexes and smiles at you, half apologetic about his state. but! also kind of baby powder??? if that makes sense??? and despite his very gruff stature, his voice is very calm and low like, if you’re scared and it’s your first time getting tattoo or pierced— “it’s okay, look at me. just look at me. you’ll be okay.” won’t call you pet names unless like, it’s sessions later and he’s gotten closer to you that he greets you with a smirk and a, “so what’s it this time, doll?” WOOF. his work is prided more on the critical details. takes lesser bookings because he does a lot of big or intricate pieces. incredibly patient and bonds well with his clients that if you’re down to be friends, the best (sexiest) friend to have.

piercer!makki— likes getting tattoos than giving them, but he’s an absolute joy to have as a piercer. will test your mood and make jokes to ease into the scariness of it all. breezy flirter, it’s just how he is. very casual with it, that even uses the most obnoxious petnames like ‘aye, honey bun, what’s up?’ ANNOYING but adorable. if he’s concentrating, then you’ll see his pierced tongue and if he catches you looking, man is winking, going, “like what you see, huh? can’t blame ‘ya.” annoying, but super cute— that’s his entire brand deal. will take so, so much care in telling you how to deal with aftercare so you don’t get it infected. likes recurring customers and is just so at eased that you just. . . relax right back. unconsciously draws circles on your skin while he hums while he works. he smells like coffee. just. fresh brew. and some fruity, minty candy that he’ll probably offer you if you’re too panicked. distracts you when the piercing’s about to go, like, will do one-liners like an idiot to keep you distracted.

tattoo artist!issei— ah. the sexiest tattoo artist you’ll probably meet. ngl, very intimidating even before you’re booking lol, his slots are at the oddest fucking hours that people wonder if his ass is an actual vampire from oikawa’s rude photos— sexy tol man in black clothes and so many silver accessories and smirks? to having a slot at 12am?? are you okay sir?? but his office is nice, superiorly wipe-cleaned from top to bottom, some moody rock song or croony jazz one, playing in the background. his odd hours are usually easier for him, because he’s a night owl. despite it, theres a long list of clients wanting to booked, always need to be months in advanced because he takes the fewest slots. he does more intricate, thick pieces. from pattern tattoos to really big ones. every single tattoo is worked on damn near for hours because he likes jotting as littlest of the details as possible. issei smells like body spray, gum, and kind of the really fresh humidifier smell shshsh, and lightly of smoke and leather. he can do long stretches of silence, sometimes humming along to the music, but will chat with you if ya wanna. he’s just more. lowkey. will call you ‘pretty girl/boy’. if a session gets really late, he’ll probably walk you to the station/bus stop? if you’re ok with it.

piercer!kyotani— poor bby, he looks intimidating, but he’s so soft and patient. it doesn’t help that some people piss him off— makki or oikawa — so you may sometimes hear him shouting, half growling when he slaps on latex gloves. and he looks so serious, listening to how/where you want your piercing, and the minute he speaks— answering any questions or the like, his voice is low and calm, and you can see how patient and knowledgeable about it he is. he would make you choose the songs to play, not back-biting on how much it might hurt, and to tell him immediately if anything feels wrong/too painful. his aftercare notes after are bulleted pointed, and telling you his number/social media is always free in case you have more questions or how the healing is doing. he’s the most concerned about his clients, asking for updates, and feeling satisfied from another satisfied customer. he’s actually such a sweetheart, best piercer this block of the gang.

made by lavi <3

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#seijoh #oikawa headcanons #haikyuu x reader #oikawa toru x reader #iwaizumi hajime x reader #haikyuu scenarios #hanamaki takihiro x reader #matsukawa issei x reader #iwaizumi headcanons #kyotani kentaro x reader #haikyuu headcanons #kyotani imagines #makki headcanons #issei headcanon #lvmn.shorts #lovemeian. #mine.

[craigslistdiavolo]

Hi there! could you write a headcanon for the obey me brothers, and the new datables if you're ok with that, if a spell goes wrong and the MC turns into a naga for a day or two?

A/N - I don't know if Luke is supposed included in the new datables, so I included him but I'd also like to add that anything that includes Luke is strictly platonic because he is a literal child. Also sorry that some of these are longer than others.

Warnings - Language

Genre - Fluff

-

Lucifer

"How the fuck are you this stupid?"

Is mad at you for messing up a spell that badly

Okay by the next day he is running his hand along your scales because it feels nice

If you point it out to him, he'll stop and deny that it ever happened

Glad when you return to normal

Mammon

Very freaked out a first

"Oi human, how'd ya fuck up that badly?"

Was honestly very worried about your safety but he'll never admit it, it's very obvious though

While you're still a naga he will fall asleep on your tail

The only way he will sleep for these two days is snuggled up into the tail

Might ask to take a few scales and sell them since you're only going to be like this for two days

I mean at least he asked???

Leviathan

:0

He thinks you look so cool

Of course it does end up reminding him of an anime he's watched

"This is just like that time in 'The human who lives with us got turned into a naga and none of us know how to reverse it'"

He thinks your tail is just neat

Unconsciously pets your scales and if you point it out to him, he gets super embarrassed

Lowkey just a little disappointed when you turn back to normal, but he's happy to have you back

Satan

This motherfucker wants to study you

Will take some of your scales for ✨research purposes✨

Is the only one actively looking for an antidote or any information about the spell to see if you'll go back to normal

He's the one who found out that it will only last for two days according to the very limited information he found

Asks if you remember anything about the spell because he wants to know about it so he can be the person with the best research and information on it

While he's working he'll lean against or lay on your tail

Will really enjoy it if you wrap him up in your tail while he works or sleeps

Very glad when you turn back :)

Asmodeus

Admittedly he's very freaked out at first

But after a few minutes he's kinda just like "Oooo pretty"

Will literally find out a care routine for your scales so that you don't damage them while you're a naga

He's so sweet because he'll help you take care of it all without much complaint

New version of cuddles, wrap him up in your tail and don't let go

He loves you in both forms because no matter what you'll always be perfect to him :)

Beelzebub

"Oh cool."

He was really worried when he found out a spell went wrong, but when he sees that it's just this, he calms down

You know that smile of adoration that people who really care about you get sometimes, yeah well that's the smile he has while he runs his hand along your scales

If this form makes you uncomfortable in anyway he's gonna do his best to tell you about how wonderful you look and comfort you

Similar to Asmo, he doesn't care what you look like, you'll always be perfect to him no matter what

Hold him with your tail and he'll cry because he feels so loved

Is glad when you turn back though, especially if the naga form made you uncomfortable

Belphegor

Super epic naptime initiated

He's gonna sleep on your tail as much as he can while you have it

If you don't like how you look he's gonna hold you and tell you about how perfect you are no matter what

He traces patterns into your scales

He also just traces your scales in general

He's happy when you do turn back after the two days though

Diavolo

:0

"MC YOU LOOK SO COOL!"

Could stare at your scales for hours

Like Belphie, he loves to trace your scales and trace patterns onto your scales

He's kinda like that one meme "if bae on her period than so am I"

Like "If MC is happy/uncomfortable in their current form than so am I"

He's trying his best

Loves you no matter what and makes sure to remind you of that

Barbatos

"How peculiar."

This motherfucker wants to study you x2

He finds everything out about the spell almost right away

So fucking fast, like you tell him what happened and then 5 minutes later he calls you and tells you literally everything you need to know about this spell

Doesn't really care which form you're in, as long as you're happy

If you're unhappy though, he will find a way to change you back right away instead of just waiting for the two days to pass

Simeon

"Oh? How interesting."

He does that laugh thing of his

When you two are alone though he'll ask you how you feel about it

Similar to Barbatos, he'll try to find a way to change you back right away if it makes you uncomfortable

If he can't find a way to change you back right away than he'll comfort you and tell you about how much you mean to him and that no matter what you look like, you'll always be perfect in his eyes

Another one who likes to trace your scales

If you're happy when you turn back to normal, than so is he

Luke

Freaked out at first

Blames it on demons

"MC! What did they do to you?"

If you explain what happened he's just like "Oh."

He thinks your scales look cool

Bakes you a lot of stuff if you don't like how you look in this form

Will bake you a celebration cake when you turn back

He also bakes a few things that are inspired by how your tail looks

Solomon

This motherfucker wants to study you x3

He teases you for messing up a spell

He knows exactly what the spell is and how to turn you back, so if you don't like how you look than he'll be able to turn you back right away

If you stay as a naga for the two days, he'll rest against your tail the entire time

Likes it when you hold him with your tail

If he's sleepy and cuddling you, he will trace your scales, but that's the only time it happens

After you turn back he relentlessly teases you for a few weeks for managing to mess up a spell

A/N - Thank you so much for reading and I hope you enjoyed this. I haven't been on tumblr as much for the past few days and I'll be going back to in person school tomorrow, but don't worry if you sent a request I'll be working on getting it done. I'm currently writing a short story but idek what I'm gonna do with it when it's done, like idk if I should post it or just keep it to myself, but I'll see what I wanna do when it's actually finished.

#obey me shall we date #obey me #obey me! shall we date? #obey me headcanons #obey me shall we date headcanons #lucifer x mc #mammon x mc #leviathan x mc #satan x mc #asmodeus x mc #beelzebub x mc #belphegor x mc #diavolo x mc #barbatos x mc #simeon x mc #luke obey me #solomon x mc #naga

[key-to-my-heart]

S2 WISHFUL THINKING

hey hi hello! i haven’t really been active on tumblr but i wanted to get back into the swing of being active and posting often. so.

i decided i will take note of some of my predictions, hopes, wishes etc. for Season 2 of Rainbow High!

so i kinda wanna just cover the things we canonically have seen aka specific events and drama that has gotten introduced

- The New Roommates / Series 3 Girls

i feel like we will definitely see more of them within the coming episodes. rainbow high literally advertised the new teams as like… i think the second or third teaser for the new season

it’s interesting to me because. this makes me think of What The Runway Project is? what could it possibly be? i believe i made a post about this in the past but the main theory (and theory i believe the most in) would be a Stage Production of sorts. i mean… it makes sense!

the twins are both Performing Arts focus and are definitely the antags this season. so why wouldn’t they cause trouble in regard to a stage play? plus, bella is back. she’s literally a set designer! we have never seen her do any set designing (other than making a sketch) so it would be fun to see that! if river were to get more focus this season, he would definitely have an outlet to channel his Performing Arts creativity! plus… Daria is a song writer so like. imagine if we were to get music out of that? please. the possibilities are endless.

im also eager to see the series 3 girls dynamics. like are the rest of the girls (gabriella, georgia, emmy and daphne) all roomed together? do they get along? will they all be just as dramatic as stella, sheryl and daria’s dynamic?

but anyway. whatever the drama and the semester project is, the new teammates definitely seem to be playing a crucial role in this season.

- The Twins

i’m actually really eager to see more of them. i feel like not enough people are talking about them? season 2 is actually really interesting so far…. maybe more so than season 1… and i feel like we are going to have to thank the twins for that at some point lol

like. idek what they’re planning on doing but. i’m excited to see what it is! they’ll probably be involved in the semester project or at least causing problems to all of the roommates and teams. they’ll definitely have something going on with bella. and it seems that they have a good bond with karma (after the KWK we got). so maybe they’ll have input in any potential drama with Karma. which leads me to

- Karma VS. Violet

so. this drama has been teased at for like. ever. for what feels like forever.

this moment in Karma’s bio PLUS the commentary about violet from her and the twins in the recent KWK episode. but anyway. i’m actually super interested in whatever this drama could be??? like. why is karma watching.

we know violet adores karma, she really wants to have her in the vi life. so i’m sure she basically looks up to her! but like. will karma actually genuinely be nice with violet? keep a distance? make remarks like she did in her recent vlog? i don’t know. idk what to expect. of course it’ll have to do with vlogging or something.

- Bella

ok so there is a few things to note with bella. i’m still interested in if bella will accept to do an interview with Karma for her vlog? if so, i wonder how that would go. and i wonder how violet would feel about it. like the very last time bella was featured in vi’s vlog was on a bad note (even though they made up) but like. idk AAA

also i’m wondering how bella is gonna handle being back to rainbow high. because so far it seems she’s having trouble fitting in. will the key to her fitting in be Jade? will Jade help her figure everything out? or would it be someone else?

as much as i’d love Jade to be the reason Bella starts to feel more at home, i also love the other idea of Amaya being the reason bella feels comfortable again. Amaya was once the new girl (and of course in an awkward position because she was essentially a replacement for bella’s spot in the runway group) but. she didn’t fit in. she had to find her place at rainbow high… and it took her until the runway show to be able to truly feel comfortable.

and like. i’ve been rooting for bella/amaya dynamic for awhile now. i see a lot of potential in this duo. we know they somewhat have tension. i mean. bella had a really awkward confrontation with amaya and that was rly their first and last conversation. sure they’ve been around each other like in the music video, at the end of s1, and when bella walked into the girls dorm s2ep2 but like. that’s it.

SO ANYWAY. what i’m trying to get at is that these two definitely need to become friends. i mean. they have a LOT in common. i was talking about the new girl situation because i feel like they can relate in that way. they both had an awkward entrance into rainbow high and could bond over that. it took amaya awhile to feel at home at rainbow high… so maybe she could become friends with bella and help her feel at home! they’re both very determined leader types. they’re really passionate and! they have the same friend group! so why not become friends?

- Jade and Bella

of course i will wonder about these two! i have no clue what to expect with them. the fandom and myself are really really really wanting to see these two become a canon sapphic couple. i really want to see this happen! and mga knows this. mga knows we want to see jella happen. i mean, they literally snatched the ship name from us and plastered it into their vlogs. so they KNOW

anyway. these two are literally going through it rn. the way jade’s eyes lit up when she saw bella was back at rh. and now both of them are looking for each other and worried about each other. jade thinking bella is mad at her rn? please. i will sob. they are really holding off this jella reunion but i hope it’s for a good reason. i just want them to talk and have a good reunion… a hug……. happy tears, happy smiles…………..a love confession…

- Amaya

so i don’t really have much to say here but i’m just wondering about amaya this season. she’s definitely been advertised so much to the point that she essentially became like. THE main focus in season 1. this peeved some people but personally i loved amaya being like a sort of main character figure. she didn’t really take attention away from the other characters but also had that energy of being a main character anyway.

my point is, though, idk how she will play out in this season? like is she going to be as much of a main character as the main 6 are…. or will she play a bigger role? i have no clue. it seems bella is going to have a key focus this season, which makes sense, but it still just makes me wonder about amaya’s role this season

- Colin

i just hope this man does not get a development arc. i know some people want him to…. but i just. i don’t. i don’t understand. the point of him existing was to show that cheating is wrong and to display girl power. by teaching that skyler didn’t need a man to prove her worth. that she is her own person. her own strength! i really hope that colin and bella don’t have anything omfg.

- Winter Break

i’m really. REALLY excited for the winter break arc. it’s about time we get to see some backgrounds outside of rainbow high! plus the animated tidbits of ruby, sky, and violet in their wb outfits in the wb commercial was everything.

i’m so excited to see their new hairstyles, to see them with their snow gear and more. omg. of course i think the twins will be involved in this arc someone. krystal briefly mentioned the twins’ family having a ski lodge. and then of course we see sunny with her skis so like. yea!! i just wonder how these episodes would play out. or episode. but anyway like… will they just vibe? or will there be a problem of sorts? if it’s winter break then it probably won’t tie into school or like projects or anything like that

- Kia Hart

i’m actually hoping kia gets some focus this season. like. what is she going to do? is she going to pair another couple together? (if so, please be jella. okay wait seriously what if she is the key to reuniting jade and bella together… anyway) i just hope to see more of her and possibly more of her and krystal together haha. but kia just vibes so far, it would be lovely to get more of her!

- The A’s

so ainsley is finally beginning to get some attention! i really hope we continue to get more of her as well as avery, and aidan of course! we did get a bunch of content of aidan but you can never have enough honestly.

but i just wonder about how the A’s will be this season. like will they do anything significant? are bella and avery going to remain close? what is going on!!!

- The Malibu Line

so we literally know nothing about this except

but i still wonder like. if we will get to see anything about it at any point during the web series. perhaps it would be more of a summer thing. but it definitely means something if Bella is in it! (also i’m just generally excited for her new doll. omfg.)

- The Rock Line

so we also know almost nothing about this except

saw someone discuss that the music being heard during s2ep2 could be in regards to the rock battle. honestly. what if this is some sort of project? battle of bands or something? that would be cool lol. anyway i’m intrigued for this line mainly because of all the clothing leaks we have been getting omg.

- The Slumber Party Line

we have known about this for a little while (with the theory of the baby blue girl being in it) but i’m just curious as to who the characters are and if they will be in the web series at all.

- Jett Dawson

okay so. this is a big one. jett being a collector doll, i feel like she’ll definitely play a crucial role in the series. so like. who will she be to the main characters? it says she’s generally nice. why was she giving that look to the girls after their runway performance? IDK! i have no clue what to expect with her. i feel like the expectations i had for amaya (before we knew anything about her) will be put into jett because. the vibes i got from amaya ever since we just had her doll… i am also kind of getting from jett. so i’m eager!

#rainbow high #rainbowhigh #rainbow high dolls #rh: episode predictions #rh: theories

[danhoemei]

I was wondering if you ever consumed bl that isn’t danmei? If so what are ur faves 👀

Hope you’re doing ok, much love ❤️

*shoves my 1.5k+ bookmarks of bl mangas under the carpet* ahaha sweet anon I might have

I’m doing okay, thank you and right back at you with 💚

You prompted me to think of different media I consumed which is bl and tbh I almost can’t think of anything other than danmei and bl mangas/manhwas :v Well, two western shows come to mind: 

sense8 (featuring characters representing literally all the letters in lgbt, plus wholesome poly relationships, tho i remember there are some cultural stereotypes there and the plot was p ridiculous to me at times lmao)

the show I’m currently UTTERLY obsessed with - what we do in the shadows 💚💚 comedic “documentary” show about vampires, so fresh because it’s incredibly normal in terms of body types (chubby, fat, hairy, bald) and different cultures (main cast is characters from mexico, iran, uk, us, greece, played by actors who actually have their roots in those countries) and because it doesn’t idealize vampires, instead they are dumb immortals who lived too long on this world to care about appearances or to follow the current times, they are crude, unapologetic, and so incredibly queer. I love them so much. And in terms of bl here - well one ship is becoming canon and gods i’m gonna lose it when the next season airs, one of my otps of all times i adore this stupid vampire x his badass familiar asjfhsdkbjf someone shut me up about them

A few mangas/manhwas which came to my mind (at this point idek if some of those classify as danmei, so just gonna list some BLs):

shounen ai (at least as far as I know):

19 days by Old Xian <333 I mentioned it a bit in this post, one of my fav bl stories ever

anime Yuri on Ice, also mentioned in the prev post already <3

The Best Smell by Lee Man-se (school bois, a guy who is too sensitive to smells and can “smell” emotions, slow burn, a crush turned ‘i’m gonna annoy you’ turned friends turned lovers, it’s so incredibly cute and also funny as heck, i love it)

For Your Love by Park Nodeok (also school bois, we follow a guy who noticed that his hyung has a crush on a guy, having bad experiences about gay relationships from his brother he tries to help the guy, gradually gets interested and starts developing his own feelings... a slow burn which is so believable in its progress, you can really feel the feelings changing and growing, the denial and fear painfully relatable. Also the main character is v chill and fun)

Hidamari Ga Kikoeru by Fumino Yuki (college, treats about disabilities which are not visible such as being mute or deaf, the male lead has severe hearing impairment and deals with a lot of issues because of it, and the story explores it well and respectfully, this whole manga is very wholesome and sweet, also a slow burn, I really like to suffer huh)

Mauri to Ryuu by Moto Haruhira (a series of short stories about gods x humans falling in love, very wholesome and precious 😭 well, warn for some abuse, slavery, war, because the world there is harsh, but the couples are soft and come to rescue if anything happens ;-;)

Dasadanan by Herb Mandu (if you want something light, cute, and funny, slice of life, school as well)

I remember some works by Tanaka Suzuki, like Aitsu no Daihonmei or Muchuu no Hito (slice of life with a lot of humor and some fantasy elements i’d say? Her works tend to be quite abstract and unsettling in the way dreams can be, like everything is fine and normal until you learn one fact or something happens and everyone in the world is normal about it while you suddenly realise that something with that world is very different to what you thought and you just sit there flabbergasted or lose grip of what is happening. It’s been a while since I read those so I don’t remember how much abstraction was here, these were pretty tame I think, I briefly checked out her latest works and let me tell you they’re fcked up lmao)

some expIicit ones 👀:

Canis Dear Mr. Rain and Dear Hatter by ZAKK (idk how long I’ve stared and studied just the art when I first encountered this series, it’s straight up stunning in my eyes, smooth and dynamic lines, each panel incredibly expressive, i am a simp for just that style hhhh, the story and characters are also quite intricate and with much depth <3 slow burn despite love at first sight ayy)

Bouzu to Kumo / Buddhist Priest And Spider by Haji (”A Buddhist monk who feels more at ease with monsters than with humans is travelling through a haunted countryside together with a Spider monster” AND THEY ARE GAY *cough* anyway kind of established relationship from the beginning tho it gets deeper and so sweet T-T I love the style and the magical creatures <3 Also very delicious smut 👀 quite a lot of it 👀)

works by Hinohara Meguru, like XXX Allergy and Therapy Game and Kamisama no Uroko (so sweet 😭 and spicy af 👀 pretty style)

Oko-sama Star by Aomiya Kara (cute story ghhh, I generally enjoy the subversion of stereotypes e.g. the delinquent-looking guy turning out to be soft and just bad at expressing emotions and that’s the case here ;> very wholesome story, a lot of teasing and so much softness 🥺)

Romantic Box by Gaeggi (short story but very spicy and so darn cute 😭)

Konya mo Nemurenai / Another Sleepless Night by Yamamoto Kotetsuko (slice of life with a summoned demon lmao, very fluffy and so sweet that your teeth could ache, with more dynamic action and supernatural issues here and there)

Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo by Yoshio Akira, and the spin off Kanawanu Koi no Musubikata (red string of fate - in 1st story mc sees it and is very unhappy when he finds out who his string is attached to, 2nd story is about a guy who cuts the strings and therefore doesn’t have his own but still finds love)

Fukouchuu no Shiawase by Enzou (god of misfortune gets sent to a guy who has too much luck, v funny)

*cough* if u want some har//dcore smutt *cough*

Shuchuu ni Otoshite Ii desu ka? by Kureno Mataaki (i really like the characters and the style is *chefs kiss*, also it’s just... so hot)

Datte Maou-sama wa Kare ga Kirai by Yamada Nichoume (rivals to lovers go brrr in bed)

some works by Mishinoku Atami, like Mayonaka Love Alliance or Kocchi Muite (spicy af with endgame wholesome relationships <33, also manly guys, a genderfluid character in the first story)

some works by Scarlet Beriko, like Yondaime Ooyamato Tatsuyuki or Minori no Te (such pleasing style <3 and very hot 👀)

some works by Lastcrime/U, like Muka Tsuku Douryou to Sefure ni Narimashita

some works by Tokishiba, like DoS Obake ga Nekasetekurenai (warn about dub-con and sm)

Risou no Koibito by Madarame Hiro (I love her humor djvbsdkj, also this story is nice for breaking the stereotypes and having the big top-like guy as the bottom, warn that it’s quite klnky, with semi-public smex etc.)

#ask #recommendations #anon #notsfw #i wonder if i'll regret exposing myself so much xddd #anyway enjoy lmao #ask opinion

[everything-laito]

hey,,, i've seen this controversial opinion about laito not being sexually assaulted by cordelia. . .as the only opinion of laito that matters, what are your thoughts on it? i know you've made some posts in the past about cordelia and laito's relationship, but i think that now would be a good time to i guess, remake a post or clarify your thoughts so people could follow along?? i hope you enjoy your day.

*proceeds to crack all my knuckles at once*

This isn't really my own "response" cuz oh boy I'm sick of this petty ass drama lmao. To begin, SKLDJF I'm very flattered that you hold my opinion in that high of regard! I'd say there's others that have interesting interpretations of him too though :) but again, thank you :') glad you enjoy what I have to say!

I know I've already kinda responded to this via a screenshot here, just to hold you––and others reading this––over. As much as this is a great time to talk about a how-to-analysis, I’ll still put that as a separate post eventually, but I still will go over the philosophy of truth and writings etc. But anyways, to answer your initial questions, they’re under the cut!

And no, I’m not specifically calling anyone out here. These are just issues with the fandom that I find as a whole, along with some extremists. Thus, I’m not going to be putting tags for people to easily find this post because I don’t want to be wound up in this drama––once again this is just more commentary on the fandom as a whole, which hopefully you can apply to people you find!

I have a lot of my own thoughts about Cordelia and Laito’s relationship here (just in case if people need it):

1. Goes over potential grooming of Laito, facts about Cordelia and what happened before she did stuff to Laito, and when did she rape Laito for the first time?

2. Stuff about incest and how any relationship out of a parental/child relationship is abuse even if it’s not penetrative sex, more incest stuff, and just more thoughts on their relationship

3. Neuroplasticity, trauma, Karlheinz, and isolation

4. What does sexual trauma look like? And some stuff on Laito’s facade

5. More stuff on his facade, and projection on Yui

6. My thoughts on Laito’s dark fate vampire ending + Conclusion

7. Answering some inbox stuff relating to Cordelia

Sure I realize I might be missing some stuff but that’s just my whole analysis on them. I’ll probably make some follow up posts eventually but I’m not sure when that will be.

But as for this analysis/ramble, I’ll divide it up into sections:

The issue of hypocrisy in the Dialovers fandom:

I- oh dear god. Ok, just saying, there’s a lot of people being like “oh I hate Cordelia because she was abusive” then ??? yo??? Why do you like the boys?? They’re abusive and we see more of them than Cordelia??? I just personally hate hypocrisy. However, it’s okay to hate Cordelia! It’s okay to love Cordelia! It’s okay to hate the boys and it’s okay to love the boys too. But recognizing that you don’t like one or the other just because “they’re abusive” is a fallacy at that point.

The reason why so many people hate Karlheinz/Cordelia/Beatrix/Christa/Richter (or at least start off hating them) is because they are written as the villains of the story! Karl’s the main villain, and the rest (including the diaboys and Yui) are kinda just tragically wound up in his plans. You sympathize more with the boys because you spend more time with them and watch them grow! It’s a whole “us vs them” situation. Since those people were awful to the boys/the boys hate them, you’re like “yeah they’re bad!” But the issue with the whole “us vs them” situation (as in real life) is that people tend to excuse the actions done by the “us” party.

Same thing goes with extreme Karl/Cordelia/Richter fans (I’ve never seen a hardcore Beatrix/Christa fan but they’re probably out there). Some hate the diaboys but love the people in that party. They’ve also done some shitty stuff too! Bro, even Yui has done some terrible stuff! But that’s because she was a product of the events she was thrown into––and same with everyone else.

Karl has been the mastermind of all this, and for me I don’t have any sympathy for him, mainly because we’re not shown anything to sympathize with (except that he just is tired of living but idk why he wants to create a whole new race like lmao science nerd ig, I feel that king). A lot of people like him for his looks, and I’m not saying that’s a bad thing––he’s a fictional character, objectify these characters however you want. This is more of a personal opinion of mine though. And maybe people do just sympathize with his outlook on life, that’s totally fine.

But since these characters are all attractive in their own regard, they all get the treatment of “pretty-boy” syndrome (Idek if that’s the exact name for it). Which is just the privilege pretty people get. But again, this is fictional, so it’s not necessarily important in this case. Bro I got into DL cuz of “ooga booga hot vampires” and stayed for the complex lore and characters (especially one complex character, wonder who that could be). I imagine most people got into DL because of that, or out of sheer curiosity.

Ok, I’m throwing out a lot of points but not really connecting them. Lemme give you an example: I don’t like Reiji. His character doesn’t vibe with me most of the time aside from the fact that he’s hilarious. But I just am very neutral/neutral-negative on his character. But I’m not like “oh cuz he’s mean/abusive” cuz LOL EVERYONES MEAN IN THIS GAME. Sure you can still say that, it’s just not a very strong claim. Hypocritical claims tend to be like that. Same with a lot of Yui haters. In this case, they’re more jealous that she’s there and not them, which I’ve explained a lot in this post about toxic femininity and Yui in the fandom etc. But it’s ok to just not like a character! It’s alright! I know someone who just doesn’t vibe with Subaru. She doesn’t know why, she just doesn’t vibe with him. There’s no need to defend it either. But the use of hypocrisy is my main issue, and I’ll get to that in the next section.

(There’s a really good post explaining this too but I cannot find it for the life of me. I think it was made by @/abottleofkarlheinz or @/the-madame21)

How opinions of fictional universes left unchecked can effect real life:

I’ve said this a little bit in that Dialover PSA post I’ve made about Yui that I linked a couple paragraphs ago. But the reasons why people say they hate Yui is concerning. If you don’t like Yui, that’s totally fine! Again you don’t need reasons to hate on a character or defend it. But if you do choose to defend those characters, make sure what you’re saying isn’t out of some other place in your heart. Let me explain.

In that “Yui PSA” post I made, I say how your attitudes in being critical of a fictional universe usually does reflect on who you are as a person, at least when you’re making certain claims. In that Yui post, I say that the hatred on Yui is a result of the “other girl” mentality. On top of that, it erases her experience as a survivor. Yes, this is a fictional character, but bringing that into real life can have some dire consequences if you don’t differentiate them. If you have the same attitude of Yui with other survivors if the “abuser is hot” then thaaaaaat’s so fucked up.

For example, there’s people who have crushes on real life serial killers! That- that’s absolutely disgusting! Those real people killed living people and effected so many lives and families. Dude I have fictional crushes on fictional serial killers, and that’s different, because it is a removed universe. It’s why I can still call myself a lesbian but still have crushes on fictional male characters, for a further example (and vice versa! I have straight friends who crush on fictional characters of their same gender! But that doesn’t make them any less straight. And no, I’m not erasing bi people here either, just clarifying in case if you needed that).

Not being able to differentiate your opinions of a fictional universe can get very toxic. Like I love Laito, but I’m not like “omg I wish he was real so he could do that stuff to me uwu” like no!!! UH!!! I wouldn’t want to date anyone like him in real life! That’s literal abuse! And if Laito was here in real life it’s not a controlled environment, he’d literally be able to do anything with you, etc. That’s what makes a fantasy, a fantasy. They’re controlled.

Also vice versa, some people get really triggered by Dialovers, specifically Laito’s route. A lot of non-consensual acts that he does have been experienced by people in real life in any extent, myself included. For me, it’s a personal escape from that, because it is an environment where I am prepared for those events and can control my exposure to it. For some, they are reminded of the reality they had to experience. Fictional universes are inspired by real life, no matter what way you look at it. Real life people are making it, after all.

I feel like I’m going in so many circles, but trust me, I’m getting to the point.

I- I can’t explain this enough but it is most definitely implied that Cordelia had raped and sexually abused Laito. If it was explicit, DL would be an 18+ game, but they cannot do that in Japan. I’m not going to like defend this point because so many people (myself included) have defended this point. It’s implications carry over into Laito’s character and why he’s like this. He’s a textbook sexual abuse survivor. I just,,,, cannot explain this enough. Same thing with overwriting the abuse of Yui. They get jealous of Yui. Sure I’d say a good chunk of people have ravishment fantasies here. At least the 18+ people in the fandom who are into that stuff. But oh my dear god, ravishment fantasies are super super dangerous to enact in real life. It’s possible to do them, but it would take years of building up to that point in kink. That’s a whole other discussion though and I’m not incredibly comfortable talking about it knowing that minors read my blog (I’ll also have to say here: no minors in kink--its alright to educate yourself but pleaaaaaaaaaase don’t enact on any of those activities until you are of age, and even so that still can be dangerous right as you turn 18).

But anyways, saying that Yui should enjoy this because she’s experienced the ravishment fantasy you’ve dreamed of? Oh fucking hell, if you leave that opinion and mentality unchecked and it goes into real life, that’s incredibly awful. Abuse apologists are absolutely terrible people, almost as much as the abusers themselves.

If you twist the narrative that Laito loves Cordelia or Yui loves the boys at the end of the first game, that’s still––ughhhhhhhh. Especially when it’s so obvious that Laito has so many mental issues with Cordelia. His whole monologue and breakdown at the end of Dark Fate definitely tells us that he has had such an issue with Cordelia. And MB+ Laito is still Laito. As for Yui, dude she literally goes through stockholm syndrome in the first game like it is so goddamn apparent idek how to explain this at this point.

Ok dear god lmao wow, uh I think that’s answering the first couple of questions?

The philosophy of truth:

“Truth” has been an incredibly debated topic in philosophy for years. Truth is more of a subjective item rather than objective. Sure you can have personal objective truths, but they may not be the same truths for others. For example, a tomato is red. However, that tomato is red to me, because I am not color blind. A red-green color blind person may see the tomato as being brown or more muted in color. That’s their truth. They can’t really imagine what red is (ok depending on severity of their color blindness), considering they have not experienced the color red in the same way people who don’t have color blindness do. God uh, here’s a whole ass essay about truth, I’m cherry picking some of the things in there that are relevant to this.

Basically what I’m saying is, truth is very subjective. However, there are philosophers arguing a more objective truth. But that’s a whole other discussion. Also, this isn’t to support any political opinion, but I can use that as an example. Let’s go for well... The death penalty. I’m in America, we have the death penalty in some states. Yes, this is a very controversial topic, and no I’m not arguing the ethics of it here. Just hear me out.

If you live in Europe for example (except in Belarus and Russia––ok when I looked it up they consider Russia in Europe and technically it is but also there’s the whole chunk that is not- lmao even the truth of geography can be subjective), you might be like “yeah what the fuck are Americans doing?” (a common sentiment that I also share lmao). But yeah, what the fuck are we doing? Why is the death penalty still in existence? Yes, there’s statistics that prove that it doesn’t deter crime, but even crime rates is caused by a lot of different things too. Even statistics aren’t always accurate, because of many different factors. They’re not objective either, although good statisticians try their best to get good results and not skew the data. (please try to see where your data is coming from and who it is sponsored by––it matters a TON)

I’d say the closest thing we have as an objective truth to argue the death penalty or not is money. Money, although the concept is subjective, is a very objective currency. It’s why artists hate “exposure” compared to “money” as sole currency. The death penalty is very expensive, and not even used that often.

So, although money is currency made by us, and is technically 75% linen and 25% cotton (in America at least) with some funky dudes n numbers printed on it, it doesn’t sound that special. However, it would be considered as a baseline of some type of “objective truth” in ~society~ because people are typically on the same page of what money’s worth. Even so, this baseline of truth is still subjective! If Bill Gates accidentally has a $20 bill fall out of his pocket, that’s nothing to him! But if someone who’s working very hard to make ends meet loses that same amount of money, it could deal a lot of financial damage to that person.

Ok, hopefully you guys kind of get my drift. There are a lot of theories of truth, I’m just explaining one (honestly I forget the name of this theory) because it is the closest to the types of truth we are dealing with. And in this case, it’s called “canon.”

What the fuck is analysis:

The concept of “canon” is the objective truth that we have when analyzing universes. They’re our bread and butter of interpretation and extrapolation. The art of analysis clings to this notion of an objective truth. It needs a baseline. I’m going off of Aristotle’s rhetorical triangle, because that type of analysis I have the most experience with.

This is called rhetorical analysis. Rhetoric is the use of words in a persuasive fashion, and the analysis part is a breakdown of how words are used in order to achieve persuasiveness. I don’t typically use a lot of explicit rhetorical analysis in my personal writings, but I guess a version of it. Which typically has to deal with intention and execution. A lot of analysis on language has to do with this. Language is incredibly subjective. Certain words carry individual meanings to people. I have gone over the difference between real and lexical definitions before, and I’ll do it again.

I’ll just copy and paste what I’ve said before here from this analysis:

To put it simply, lexical definitions are the definitions you find in the dictionary. This is an “official” and “agreed upon” definition. Real definitions (quite a misleading name in my opinion) is the definition that’s more kind of “felt” in a way and how you internally interpret the word in context (these can be through individuals or any niche group). What I mean by this is that when you say a word (for example) to convey a feeling, you usually won’t know the dictionary definition off the top of your head. You say that something’s “savage” for example when you want to describe something violent or gruesomely awesome (it depends if it’s in a slang context or not) but there’s many lexical definitions (and outdated lexical definitions) of the term. But the first definition that usually comes up is “adj (of an animal or force of nature) fierce, violent, and uncontrolled.”

But people typically don’t think of the lexical definition when they learn what a word means; they usually learn the context of it and apply it as such. And that’s what a “real” definition is. Laito has a differing definition of what affection and love is, and that’s his own meaning and what it means to him.

I’ll even add another example to that too. The word “cunt” in english refers to a vagina. That’s just it. It’s lexically synonymous with “vagina,” “pussy,” etc. However, “cunt” has a subjective meaning to it. This is where “real” definitions also come into play. Many people view the word as vulgar and dirty. And that’s cuz we live in a ~society~ lmao. Our use of language has shaped what this word means in a context outside of the dictionary. I’ll do you one more. The Japanese word マンコ (manko) is also vulgar slang that’s kind of like our word “cunt/pussy.” Sometimes I say “cunt” for jokes, but I don’t use it that often to begin with since it’s just a very strong word to most (albeit it’s not that strong of a word for me). However, マンコ is a strong word to many Japanese people, but if I hear it even though I’ve been learning Japanese, it doesn’t have that same effect as hearing “cunt” for me is (which still, idc if I really hear it depending on context) because I haven’t been shaped in a culture that uses Japanese.

Even so, tone, intention, and context is HUGE in this. If someone called me a “useless fucking cunt” when they’re angry at me, I’d be close to crying. If someone told that to me as a joke, I’d be like “lol yeah you right, bitchass” and if someone said that in a consensual sexual context, it would certainly tickle my masochistic heart.

DSLKFJ also sorry if you don’t like hearing that word, I just had to utilize a strong example for this. But anyways, now let’s change the lens to Dialovers.

No, it never explicitly says that Cordelia rapes Laito. It doesn’t. However, there’s this WACKY thing called being able to infer, reading between the lines, and identifying implications. Those are kind of all the same things. However, indirect exposition is used a lot in effective creative writing. The utilization of this type of exposition is more preferred when writing a story, because direct exposition is kind of referred to as “info-dumping” when used excessively. Forgive my jargon: this is just showing vs telling as we’re taught in every writing class. I’m personally very bad at it, which is why I stick to writing these, and stick to reading creative fiction. (NOT SAYING IF YOU’RE NOT GOOD AT THIS TO NOT CONTINUE TO PRACTICE CREATIVE FICTION, I JUST DONT HAVE THE CURRENT MOTIVATION TO GET GOOD AT IT)

Dialovers uses a LOOOOOT of showing. And even so, its “showing” ability is very minimal considering the Japanese language can be vague on its own, it’s medium (visual novel) does not show a lot of things explicitly most of the time (and even when it is shown it doesn’t convey a lot). There’s several CGs of Laito and Yui where it doesn’t show the amount of pain or the dire situation Yui’s in, compared to what she’s saying she’s going through.

When I made my whole breakdown on Laito’s HDB route from Yui’s perspective, I got several comments about how they didn’t realize how bad his route really was. That’s either because people might not have experience with verbal abuse themselves, can’t exactly see Yui’s body language except her head (and even so, her expressions are limited), or don’t know a lot of gaslighting/verbal abuse techniques/have done research into it. Honestly verbal abuse is kind of hard to realize, so I’m not calling anyone dumb here. Despite me knowing a lot of the signs, I didn’t know I went through it––and even so I’ve denied it. And that’s what is so effective about this game though! Especially Laito’s route! Because you’re also sucked in with limited knowledge because you’re seeing this through Yui’s perspective, and on top of that it’s isolating. You can only make so many choices, and I feel like Dialovers is perfect as a visual novel. You get caught up with a lot of shock value things that Laito says, which serves as a perfect distraction for your first time through. But anyways, I’m getting off track.

For example, many people found his Maniac 07 chapter to be very confusing. I broke that one down here as well, and even so I was confused at first (also I was like 14/15, dear god). It tells you SO little, but you know that Laito’s incredibly upset at Richter for some reason, and even so, Yui comments on it a little too. Laito is shown to still hate Richter in DF, but he talks about it a tad more.

Here’s a further example from my writings in that first part of the Cordelia/Laito analysis series but I have bolded the terms I use to convey this rhetoric:

There hasn’t been any flashbacks that specifically show us the first time that happened. However, I believe that there was a flashback in HDB that shows one of the first times. Here’s a scene from Laito’s Dark Epilogue:

Cordelia: ー Laito…Laito… Laito: …Hm? Is something the matter? Cordelia: I have a favor to ask. It just isn’t enough. You can do it, right Laito? Laito: You really are something…So that’s why you came to me again? Cordelia: Fufufu…That’s right, Laito. Come on, quickly… Laito: …Guess it can’t be helped. I’ll love you plenty. Cordelia: Aah…My cute Laito~ I love you. I really do. Laito: I can do it…right? Cordelia: Of course, Laito. Now, quickly…

First of all, ew. Second of all, Laito’s diction implies that this was maybe the second or third time this occurred. He asks a question, and ends it with “again.” We know by this that it is not the first time, but the question also means that Laito might not have expected to occur again. His tone also implies some surprise to it, at least in my ears. His other question, “I can do it, right?” screams hesitance to me. If this scene took place down the line, or after many times he did this with Cordelia, I don’t believe he’d be some level of surprised or hesitance.

That’s what rhetorical analysis is. You take the contextual meaning of the words, the tone they use, and extrapolate what they imply. On top of this, we know that the term “love” here is sexual, implying that they did something sexual. We are not given the details of this, but considering we know that Laito uses “love” before he rapes Yui in the game, we can infer that’s what happened (or something similar) to himself with Cordelia, considering he projects on Yui quite a bit.

I was going to go over what is good/bad analysis, but I think I’ve implied it anyways here. Utilizing separate information from different sources of canon in order to make sense of something is good analysis. That’s our objective truth: canon. I’m not saying I’m the best at analysis, but I am fairly confident in it. It’s how I’m able to attempt to answer some of your “how would Laito react” questions without it being specifically hinted in the game. You cannot cherry pick specific sentences and go off of that alone for analysis. It’s context. It’s reading tone. It’s knowing the characters attitudes towards things, how they speak, etc. There’s a lot going into analysis in general. I know I didn’t elaborate on Aristotle’s rhetorical triangle right now, but that’s for another date I suppose.

Oh dear god I hope I didn’t lose you guys, I know this is a lot of information, but if you have any questions/comments/clarifications, as always, please let me know!

Hope you enjoyed! -Corn

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