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kingcunny · 6 months

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thank you sm!! <3

ive made a couple posts about balerion and viserys before, and i got another one in the works in my drafts. like im obviously biased but theyre one of my favorite dragon-rider bonds, even though they were only together for a year.

jorah in the main series says at one point that targaryen dragons were bred for war, and in war they died. balerion being the last of the valyria-born dragons probably has this instinct better than most. he takes aegon i as his rider because aegon is a conqueror, and is going to use him for the purpose he was born for.

the aegon i -> maegor line i think is pretty easy to understand. just like aegon i, maegor is also a conqueror. balerion sees in him that same war-instinct that he saw in aegon i, that he himself has.

maegor -> aerea is where things start to shift. balerion is an old war machine, but his last two riders died outside of war and away from him. aegon i from a stroke, maegor was eaten by the iron throne. hes made his lair on his not-quite-home dragonstone, when this upset little girl who misses the excitement of her life at court climbs on his back and tells him to take her home. i think balerion was fairly homesick at this point and thought “*i* want to go home too.” so he takes them home. back to his home. except balerion doesnt know that his home as been destroyed while he was gone. he spends those years with aerea *searching* for anything, any sign that the valyria that he remembers is still there. but theres nothing. its doomed and filled with monsters now. aerea spends the whole time begging him to take her back home, back to her mother. its only after hes injured and aerea is deathly ill that hes forced to accept that this is no longer their home. theres nothing here for them anymore, they dont belong here anymore than he belongs in westeros. so balerion reluctantly takes aerea back. maybe theres something they can do to save her, or failing that, at least shell be able to die in her home even if he cant die in his. after this balerion becomes the first dragon chained in the dragonpit.

finally, aerea -> viserys. i think viserys felt fairly alienated from the rest of his family, as he was so different from any of the other men he was related to. but he was raised to idolize old valyria (or at least the targaryens version of it) and feels that if he can claim balerion, if the last living aspect of valyria accepted him, well that means theres *something* targaryen in him. balerion was the living god of the thing he was raised to worship. when alyssa wanted to claim balerion, the dragonkeepers dissuaded her by telling her hes old and slow now, and wouldnt she rather a younger more energetic mount? i wonder if they tried the same thing with viserys, but viserys wouldnt care about that. thats not why viserys wanted balerion. all viserys wanted was balerions acceptance. balerion is very old now, old and tired and in pain. hes a war machine that can no longer fight, a dragon that can barely fly. but hes still holding on. he cant die yet. viserys is very different from balerions other riders, and i think that was the point. balerion could tell viserys didnt want anything from him, other than *him*. so balerion accepted viserys as he was, and viserys accepts balerion as he is. balerion gives viserys his final flight and thats enough for him. more than that even, after their first and last flight viserys tells baelon he wanted to fly to dragonstone but was worried that balerion wouldnt survive the flight. he was *worried for balerion*, worried about *his* health and safety and comfort. when has he had another rider care about him like that? (when has any dragon tbh...) viserys doesnt want to put more on balerion than he can handle. whatever balerion can offer him is enough. all viserys wanted was his love, and he got that. so he loves and comforts balerion in his final days. balerion doesnt have a home anymore, but viserys gives him one inside himself. he loves balerion enough to let him go. to let balerion finally lay down and rest.

(sorry for the screenshot answer i accidentally posted it before i was done <3)

#balerion #aegon i targaryen #maegor targaryen #aerea targaryen #viserys i targaryen #asoiaf #asks #my posts

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cadaverousdecay · 1 year

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hiiii leaf hi helloooo !!!!!! (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡ this is a free space to tell me about your favorite fictional characters from any type of media and/or where you would like to live if you could live anywhere. im bored and you always have interesting things to say <3 (no pressure 2 answer this. its just in case you feel like talking to someone)

hiiiiii nico!!!!! jumping up and down like a kitty cat <33333

well i really like the character spike from buffy the vampire slayer. looooove characters who were meant to show up for a few episodes then die, but instead became a fan favorite and got put on the show as a regular and end up as the most beloved character to a good portion of the audience (see also castiel supernatural and barnabas collins dark shadows)

[spoilers for buffy ahead]

but yeah spike is great, he came onto the show as this badass punk vampire who loves his vampire wife with the most gothic devotion imaginable. cuz at heart what motivates spike and always will is his passionate love. he is self described as “love’s bitch”

anyway, when the fan response gets back as being crazy abt this evil vampire character the creator of the show gets pretty upset cuz he has this thing about good and evil and vampires are supposed to represent evil and be metaphors for problems you face and not supposed to be sexy they already had one sexy vampire and that was more than enough etc etc etc. but he didnt kill spike off. he decided to bring him back to the show

but if he was gonna bring him back and the audience was going to like him, he was gonna have to ‘humanize’ him more. and so he comes back and hes cringefail<3 hes shed his hard shell a little and just becomes this pathetic little guy <3 he even has his traumatic past revealed <3 hes still an antagonist, but then he gets a chip in his head that makes him unable to hurt a living person. and so we have the wonderful arc of “not actually reformed or anything but he’s kinda on our side sometimes i guess?”

and in that time where he cant be his bad old self and is working with (sorta) the main gang, he develops feelings (his biggest weakness) for his mortal enemy, the slayer, buffy. he tries to push them down, then just. deals with them in the most fucked up ways. hes just a fucked up little guy who doesnt know how to deal with his fucked up feelings, hes just like me for real,,,, if tumblr existed when the show took place he would be reblogging “the enormity of my desire disgusts me” and cannibalism-as-a-metaphor-for-desire shit probably. anyway

vampires in the buffyverse dont have souls (there are some exceptions) but spike, even without one, decides to better himself for buffy. and eventually not even to be with her, but just for her. he protects her when she doesnt know it and he doesnt get anything out of it. he protects people she loves because he knows it would hurt her if they got hurt.

he may not be human but his humanity is astounding. anyway, there are definitely slip ups, and writing choices i dont really like, but eventually he decides to make himself something buffy could really love, he decides to go through the excruciating process of getting a soul

and he comes back with his soul suffering bouts of guilt-ridden male hysteria. love to see it. (hes also being haunted kinda) he delivers this one monologue in a church about his soul and guilt and forgiveness which ends with him embracing a cross that seers his flesh. most iconic scene, i memorized it also. for funsies.

then theres this whole sleeper agent murder thing and he thinks hes beyond saving but buffy wont give up on him and her faith in him helps him make it through. in the end, they have moments of reconciliation and spike never believes that she actually loves him but her caring for him at all is good enough

anyway. hes just a really fun guy. theres a lot to him. his characterization can be comedic, passionate, heart wrenching. he contains multitudes. he contains soooo many issues too, i want to study him under a microscope <3 but yeah. i love this weird little vampire from my shows

#hehe #thanks for the ask ilyyyy <33333

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mostlykind · 4 years

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#also why do i feel such an overwhelming sense of guilt when i tell my mum no to things #shell say do this or this #and i either cba or had other things to do #so ill say cant u ask someoje else #and then ill feel a sense of shame and guilt for not helping her or going w her #and my mums sensitive so she gets upset w me when i dont do whatever it is #so its like a cycle of me feeling guilt but then soing it anyway so as not to hurt her #anyways isnt it lovely beijg the eldest daughter 😗✌🏼#just eldest daughter things #eldest daughter #rahma’s rambles

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tiredsadpeach · 4 years

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Tw self harm

#update yall lol im still the fucking worst friend ever and im damn good at hiding it #we talked ablut addiction breifly and they said they were proud of me for being clean whether its been months or minutws #as i was cutting hhhhh #and it dodnt stop me like it shouldve and i didnt say anything but thank you because jist FUCK #they look up to me and have said i feel like the parent theyve always wanted yet im cutting as they say nice things to me #i dont deserve tgat love and respect #i wish theyd just get mad at me for something and leave so id feel less like shit for wanting to go home #one less person id dissappoint and upset you know #can my last two close friends jist abandon me like she did and tell me im to sad or somthing so i dont upset them when i leave #most family wouldnt cute me off so theyll just have to deal with it #cut not cute #anyway i have to see my grandmother tomorrow which would be happy and exciting but shes been losing hair from the chemo and im not fucking #ready to see that because then its really real then i cant ignore it and fuck i miss her and im slightly scared shell get sick because of th #this little mothers day thing but shell be inside and everyone else will be wearing masks (i hope) and outside #i just dont wanna cry in front of everyone fuck

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yellowbluemoonshine · 2 years

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Can you please cook some beautiful small Akito and adult Akito beach scenes? With waves, shells and etc :)

Fruits Basket AU; Akito, Yuki & Shells;

Sure, anon. Here's an Fruits Bakset AU. Its about little Akito, little Yuki and shells. :))). Under the cut.

At just an ordinary summder day, Akito was reading her book as always.

Father; Hey, Akito dear, what are you doing?

Akito; I am reading a book cause i am bored. Father...lets do something together.

Father hugs Akito and says "I wish i could but i need to work but dont worry, sweetie, you wont be lonely. Remember? Today, your cousin Yuki is coming over."

Akito; Ohhh, right! How old is he?

Father; Just two years younger than you

Akito; Oh, then, he is a baby!

Father; You are baby too! My cute babygirl!

They laugh and father says 'i am sure that you guys will get along well.'

Akito gets excited and be happy, she preapers her room.

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Meanwhile, Yuki's parents bring him over. Yuki is nervous and shy while Akito gently smiles at him and say "Hi!".

Yuki feels especially shy with Akito cause of how much beatifull and cheerful she is and silently answers 'Hi...'.

Akito thinks 'What a cute boy' and say 'come and sit! '

Father; Akito, i need to work, you guys can play together.

Akito; Sure, father, see ya!

And they became alone. They silently look at each others. Then, Akito starts.

Akito; Ummm, do you remember me?

Yuki;...i dont.

Akito; well, i dont remember you either. Father says we met along time ago when we were young!

Yuki;....

Akito; I am Akito, we are cousins so lets get along well! Lets look out for each others!

Yuki;...hm

Akito; Um, ok! Lets watch some cartoon

Yuki; *nods*

Akito and Yuki watch cartoons together but there is nothing interesting in TV so they get bored easiely.

Akito; Awww, boring! There is nothing to watch!

Yuki;..hmm

Akito; Lets play games then.

Yuki;...*nods*

They start playing. Akito talks with toys but again, Yuki doesnt talk much.

Akito; why dont you talk? This feels to one sided...

Yuki;....sorry.

Akito; *sigh* its okay....

Akito thinks that Yuki is very shoy boy who doesnt talk that much and how to hav fun with him together. Then she remember something.

Akito; Hey, lets do something else. Lets get out of here, i will show you something!

Akito holds Yuki's hand and they get out of house.

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They come to the beach.

Akito; Hey, Yuki, did you know?

Yuki;..??

Akito; Tonight, there will be no moon. If we bring 64 different kind of sea shells together and pray to shrine in here, then our wish will come true!

Yuki; ohhh

Akito; You are interested in too, right? Lets get into it

Akito and Yuki start to finding sea shells but it starts to getting late.

Akito; This is harder than i thought...Yuki, lets split up and meet in here!

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Yuki starts to finding sea shells by himself while the time pass. An old lady sees Yuki and asks "what are you doing here by yourself, little boy?" Yuki "....um". An old lady "no need to scary, honey, tell me, is something wrong?"

Yuki;.. looking for sea shells

Old lady; Sea shells? What for?

Yuki;..because it will make wishes come true

Old lady; What? Hahahahaha oh dear, who told you that?

Yuki; Big sister Akito

Old lady; She probably made a joke! There is no such a thing! Its a funny one though.

Yuki;.....

Old lady; Ohhh dont be sad! Lets head back together.

Yuki silently nods.

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And after a while, they meet with Akito.

Akito; Yuki, did you find them? Yuki; yeah but...

Akito; Then hurry, we should make a wish!

Old lady; Is this your big sister?

Yuki; yeah

Akito; ?? Whats wrong, Yuki? Come! We should pray before its too late!

Yuki;...we cant

Akito; ehh?? Why?

Yuki; Old lady says that wasnt real

Akito; What?? What do you mean that its not real?!

Old lady; Oh dear so you too? Thats an old story that we tell people to outsiders come here.

Akito; No way....but i believed in it.....

Akito really gets upset and disappointed.

Old lady; Well, kids, you should go home, your parents will be worried about you.

Old lady leaves.

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While Akito and Yuki take a walk towards to the home.

Akito; I am sorry, Yuki.

Yuki;...eh?

Akito; It was all in waste. You had to look for shells for no reason. I caused you trouble...

Yuki;....Akito..

Akito realizes that Yuki is concerned about him and make herself cheer up.

Akito; Hey, Yuki, lets make a wish.

Yuki;...Eh?

Akito; Even it doesnt become true, lets make a wish anyway, it will be fun.

Yuki surprised. Akito holds his hand and they go.

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They throw the shells to the sea and pray and make a wish together.

Akito; Y'know..

Yuki; Hm?

Akito; Father carries too much burden on his shoulders, i hope he can be relief. Since he and mother were divorced, things get become a little harder for him.

Yuki; Sorry, Akito...

Akito; Oh its okay! Father says we are really better without her so! I just want father to be happy.

Yuki;....hm...my parents too.

Akito; Hm?

Yuki; Maybe they carry too much burden, thats why they are unhappy...with me....

Akito; they are bad to you?

Yuki;...uh um...

Akito; Well, then, we should adopt you or something.

Yuki looks surprised and feel shy about what Akito said. Akito smiles to him. Its been a while since Yuki met with someone really kind. He is really glad that he met with someone amazing as his big sister Akito. They really like each others.

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At night.

Father; Hey, kids, how was today?

Akito; It was great!

Yuki;...

Father and Akito looks at Yuki.

Yuki smiles and say "I really had fun!".

Father and Akito smile with him and they start eating.

Akito; Look, Yuki, we are eating together.

Yuki; Eh?

Akito; This means that you are officially part of our family!

Yuki feels shy, happy and excited and say 'Yeah!'.

Akito and Yuki spend very good time together since this day and later. And they live happeily ever after together. :)))).

End.

In my stories, Akito is happy. I think about her origin story, the time where she was kind and cheerfull while writing this stories and my analysis. This is the real her and i like to think about it cause we can se her true potential. She is really kind and capable of reaching out to people, becoming someone else's hero too. Though, in this story, i intentionally made both Yuki and Akito self centered cause they are children and thats how children think and act so. Anyway, it was fun, thanks for the ask.

#anon ask #fruits basket au #sohma akito #sohma yuki #fruits basket fanfic #fruits basket fanfiction #shells

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sweets-cookies · 4 years

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Kirishima,Sero,and Kaminari with a shy S/O

Eijiro Kirishima

he would be so adorable and understanding in the fact you get shy easily, he could smile at you and you would immediately go red in the face

He also loved when some else would come around and you would just kinda hide yourself behind him and grab onto his arm

At first he was confused but he got used to it after you told him about your shyness

Would always wanna make sure you feel comfy with him, he realised that you were less shy in private spaces so he would let his affection out when it was just you two hanging out

He would normally go into your dorm or you go into his and he would immediately hug you of course you would be embarrassed but you got used to it so you would dig your head into his neck to hide your red face

"Your so freaking cute when you get all shy" he would normally say as you would just whine into his neck

He loved pushing your limits of shyness tbh so in public he would sometimes give you a kiss on the cheek or just hug you

But he would never do to much to the point of you feeling uncomfortable around him he just sometimes wants other people to know ya'll are together

"Hey pebble, you look amazing today" he said as he hugged you in front of the whole class you instantly hid your red face and got really shy after he let you go you kept your head down and tried to stand behind him

He just smiled and the rest of the class kinda took a hint that you were feeling a bit shy he grabbed your arm and dragged you to your seat

"Sorry princess I wont do it again" he said sadly I mean he's kirishima he wants to show you off so it does make him sad that you get so nervous when he does

You just shook your head back and forth "it's alright kiri I just was surprised and everyone was staring

He nodded understand and left you alone for the rest of the time in class to let you regain your natural cool

He tries to get you out of your shell and help you see that you dont need to be shy around him which luckily you aren't very shy around him anymore

He was always grateful for the side of you he showed we all know he has insecurities and you help that a lot showing him how much you care about him with your small actions or how much of an effect he has over you

Overall he doesnt mind how shy you get and honestly thinks it's pretty cute how easily affected you are

Hanta Sero

Low key is addicted to your shyness I mean hes in a friend group with mina who is legit a crackhead (he is to)

He brings out your more funny crazy and wild side and you bring his more domestic characteristics

He loves when you hide behind him he finds it so cute that you get so shy around people you don’t know or how you discreetly grab his hand and give it a squeeze

"What is it Mi amour" he would usually ask and you would shake your head and he onto his arm or something it was kinda funny to everyone else as you were really shy but you didn’t seem to upset about physical affection with sero

He loved that about you to how you felt so comfy with him that you could let your guard down and completely forget how shy you get

Sometimes he'll deliberately try to tease you in Hope's of seeing you squirm and get all red he lives for it knowing he has an effect on you and you've never really complained about it

He loves to just cuddle with you cause your shyness is like there but not so much you just don’t really like the attention of so many people at once

He tries his best to get attention off of you and focus it on someone else which usually works but when it doesn't he just tries to hold your hand for mental support or let you hide behind him

"Guys I don’t think Y/N wants to talk about this anymore" he would rub your back to try and help you calm down

He legit would see you far away looking uncomfy with the people your talking to and would just shoot out his tape and like fucking run off with you

Your hero truly

He definitely makes sexual jokes all the time and you laugh most of the time since it is a joke but that doesn't mean you dont get red

He just thinks red looks good on you and he will definitely pick you up in public and just like walk off with you and everyone else is like ?????

"Sero you cant just do this every time you wanna cuddle" you would say as he took you back to his dorm to have a cuddle sheesh and he would not give a fuck hes gonna do it if he wants

He just wants to make you happy and he does anything he can and your shyness makes it 100% better your just so adorable

He wants to make sure no one else does anything to make you red tho, he does get a bit jealous

He just wants all your attention which isn't that hard to since you dont really like hanging out with to many people at once

Basically is a cutie who just wants to tease you for being so cute

Denki Kaminari

this man is so cute and he would think your so cute I mean we all know hes a flirt so you in fact get flustered easily

He lives for it a girl finally that likes him, who knew that was possible anyway he admires the way you get so flustered from a single pick up line

The first time you guys meet he ended up tripping and feel in front of you but just smirked looked up and said "looks like I'm already falling for you" what he didn’t expect was when you turned red and looked away quickly and just smiled then walked away

From that point he was like "yea that one, I want that one" he was screwed from the start

Hes such a simp bro like I don’t know how else to say that he just loves everything about you so much and they way you react to his stupid lines has him head over heels for you

You never really fully got used to it and so you still get flustered all the time and he lives for it I mean finally having someone who appreciates his efforts yes please

He does understand that sometimes it does get embarrassing so he tries to dull it down a bit so you don’t get to anxious or anything

A lil off topic but you definitely don’t have to worry about him flirting with other people he will put all his attention on you I mean he's always wanted a S/O no way is he gonna mess that shit up

"Babyyyy~ I was just talking to her you know I would only flirt with my beautiful princess right here" reassurance is a most for both of you tbh

Your shyness makes him attracted to you but at the same time sometimes he needs someone to be bold about how they feel about him

To tell him how much he means to them and how much they love him and how his quirk is good so if you can he would love you even more and would definitely return the favor

He is so caring and honestly knows all your tells when your getting overwhelmed and will sometimes do something intentionally stupid to make you laugh and forget all the others around you

He just loves making you smile it makes him feel better about himself as well as he feels that if he can make you happy it makes him better as well

Be prepared for cuddles and lots of pda he'd try to restrain himself since you get shy but tbh he can't help it hes naturally affectionate

He wants to help with your shyness just tho make you feel better when your down he does anything he can to make you happy again

"What happened today my pretty princess, why is my baby so sad do you want cuddles or anything."

Showers you with compliments and cute nicknames

He just loves how shy you can get and how easy it is to make you blush or to make you smile it makes him feel more valuable

#bnha headcanons #bnha #bnha imagines #bnha scenarios #kirishima x reader #ejirou x reader #sero x reader #hanta x reader #denki x reader #kaminari x reader #ejirou kirishima x reader #hanta sero x reader #denki kaminari x reader

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milkaneiko · 5 years

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#hsjjfjdfjmskckskd i literally vented my whole entire sadness on a post thaf dodnt even save bc of my stupid data im so upset now i cant look #at it later and just tell myself how stupid i am #anyways ill keep venting #like homeslty idk a part of me wants to be with her still but my cousins really made me think abohr it like what if she was already thinking #about cjeating on me while on our relarionship...like thonking that fuckinf sucks but its teue she basicallt admitted shed cheag on me if we #dated again lolololl bahahaha :) but honestly idc id atillcwant to be wirh her bc ar the end of the day id rather break up with someone i #hate trhan someone i love so mich #am i stupid? yes but whatever idc anout anyrhing anymore my life is loteral shit rn lol #i hate my job/boss treats me and my brother like shit theyre so fucking annoying i might be homeless soon i have no goals for the future #idek what i want to do i have no ambitions and my only froend and only person i care abojr broke ip with me lol so not a very good month for #me :)#someone find me a new gf/bf so these feelings can go away already im not emotionally inept to handle this rn haha #gsfjskfjskfjsj i fucking hate myself im so desperate for love i wokd literall do anythig i would come out to my parents and become homeless #kf that means i get to see her more and hang out with her more ahfjsjckskkxa #wtf is wrong with me why cant i makeanyone happy #so yea long story short i feel like my like sucks rn and i want to get ran over by a car and make sure i have my body mutilated so as to #make sure theres no chance of me survivng tthat impact teehee (๑╹ω╹๑ )#also theres no chance shell ever read this since she doesnt know my account a*******a if youre reading this just text me saying how #much you dont like me and tell me so mang horrible thigs to make me hate you so i can never ever love you again bc youre handling this way #better than i am and im sorry for being so dramatic but i just love you so much i want to be with uou and i hate that i cant but i #ynderatand why you dont want to be with me #im sorry for the way i am im sorry for thinking like trhis and im sorry i cant give you what you want #and just know that im so overwhelmed with other stuff in my life so me wanting to not exist is not entroewly bc of oir realtionship ending

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disney-rapunzel-merida-vanellope · 3 years

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-…………..😬…………… so…….. I’m not the biggest Alice in wonderland fan……. DONT CUT MY HEAD HEAR ME OUT. I like logic……… ok so its not like i hate the movie. I have a love hate relationship with the movie but the story itself is just so frustrating to me. I dont see the point. I dont understand. And i know thats the point but for a story that is supposed to be batshit crazy, imaginative, insane…. It just feels frustrating to me. I enjoy the movie enough, the animation is great, it has some nice moments, i like some of the world. What i love more is the play cards, garden roses, tea cups, old England mix of aesthetics. But as a whole, it just frustrates me how Alice never does, gets or goes where she wants. Something is always in her way, holding her back, running from her or mocking her. The movie is also very quiet i feel. Idk if i where to to a movie with no logic id just go all out with crazy animation, visual gags, different art styles like in the dumbo elephant parade scene, worlds beyond imagination, ridiculously catchy and hardcore songs…. Idk. Its frustrating, makes no sense and is too quiet. Ok imma stop the slander and actually go rewatch the movie to see if i change my mind. But please alice lovers, its not you, its me 😭

- i must have seen this movie as a child but i dont own it in. Watched it in kindergarten or rented it…. Or maybe just watched some clips of it on the magic English collection and never actually watched it as a kid… but that side story of the shells was so nostalgic… idk

- the opening shot is beautiful

- disney has many great cats and Dinah is 100% one of them. If she had gone with Alice the movie would have been better

- laying on the daisies omg iconic. I wanna recreate that in photos

- I’m curious by nature… not enough to go through a whole on the ground tho. Again, why didn’t Dinah go??? Doesnt curiosity and cat go hand in hand?

- the falling down the hole bit is so good. Love her interacting with the objects and all the background details

- her hair is so voluminous, tell me your secret girl

- shes on drugs the whole movie

- those cookies look delicious, id eat them too

- i love the turning big and small bits

- she went from crying a river to being upset at herself for crying a river in 1 second. She really said “ugh i was so dramatic just now”. Honestly same

- hate the oysters story. Way to ruin the whole mood and we’re not even mid way through 😭 JUSTICE FOR THE OYSTERS and I’m not a fan how it just pulls us out of the world entirely. Sorry but I’m gonna stay picky

- its like in into the woods. Big woods and something weird is happening in every corner of it

- the rabbit’s house is the best setting. Love the details so much, i want my house like that yep yep

- everyone is so dumb 😭 why is the dodo burning the house? Why is the rabbit helping him lit the match? Why does alice keep eating? EVERYONE STOP

- love the butterfly pun 😂

- i love the flowers scene so much….. and then they start bullying alice……. I JUST CANT HAVE NICE THINGS

- THE WHITE ROSE THO ✨

- the flowers character designs are SO GOOD. This scene is just so colorful and pretty, really wish that last bit wasnt attached to it 😒 such a polarizing scene

- love the animation and color pallet of the cat. Thats probably the first outright crazy thing about the movie that i enjoy. Its super creative, the way he moves, disappears, makes body parts do crazy things. It must have been super fun and challenging to animate. The cat in the remake in cuter tho

- the designs of the bunny house & furniture, the flowers, the tea bulls & cups and the animalsXobjects are top tier.

- the craziness at the table is also very good. I love seeing the different crazy types of ways the animators came up to have them serve tea and just other crazy uses for the tableware that doesnt even evolve tea 😭 they absolutely understood the assignment

- guys, today is my unbirthday 👉🏻👈🏻

- that cake looks so delicious 🤤 is it me or does disney make the best looking food ever in every movie except the one where they should? I’m talklking of beauty and the beast. Belle was a guest to have dinner and just stuck her finger on a grey mushy thing GIRL WHERES THE DINNER? THE DELICIOUS FRENCH CAKES OF MARIE ANTOINETTE??? I side tracked and probably have to make this same commentary when i watch batb…..

- drugs

- the trees being so big making the forest so dark and making the sky not visible makes me uneasy. Idk, girl is already lost, bullied in every corner and surrounded by such darkness, makes me feel claustrophobic idk idk

- who cares about talking dodos and talking rabbits?? The real craziness are these glass birds, mirror birds, bird cage birds… THIS is what i wanted from wonderland

- this scene is so depressing but the animals designs are so good 😭

- thanos snapped them away 😳

- i like alice, she has a really cute design, shes a smartass and i feel bad for her but she also frustrates me so much at times cause of her stupid decisions 😭

- i want heart shaped trees with roses too, i dont mind the color

- the backgrounds and animation on the cards in this scene are amazing

- “and the king”kkkkkkkkkk

- everyone cheating to make then queen win 😭 whatever you need to keep you head on your necks

- “and the king” AGAIN 😭

- THEY SUSHED THE QUEEN AND SHE WENT QUIET 😭

- at this point I’m frustrated like alice

- why is everyone disrespecting the queen for that mouse? 😭

- girl, you shouldn’t have eaten both mushroom pieces. Seeing her shrink makes me, once again, frustrated

- I’m always worried for alice in this last bit but its the most crazy and energetic part of the movie so i like it

- i think the ending being a dream was a shock when i first found out about the ending. She goes through all that but its all in her head

- these characters walk a fine line between being alright and annoying. I like alice but even her has her unlikable moments

- its for sure not a movie i put on rewatch just because. I understand why its a classic, it has many iconic scenes and the nonsense might be appealing to some but its not my tea (oh what i did there 👀) i prefer wonderland when its about mysterious unreliable cats that defying the laws of….. having a normal cat body and forest animals with objects body. I totally dont see the appeal in taking dodos and rabbits, whose only thing is they wear clothes, that speak literal nonsense.

#alice in wonderland #disney #disney animation #watching every disney animation movie #long post #disney marathon

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merlin55 · 3 years

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hello my 3 followers and welcome to my deranged rant about episode 3 of the loki show in which i will nitpick every single inconsistency and try to prove that loki had some big fucking scheme going on in this episode because i cant accept the fact that this show i like might just have a badly written episode

spoilers ahead obviously

we specifically see loki researching apocalypses in the previous episode. now to be fair he was supposed to be researching EARTH apocalypses but when has he ever followed directions. how very convenient (well, inconvenient i guess) that not only does he “accidentally” teleport himself and sylvie into an apocalypse, but one that sylvie describes as “one of the worst” with “no survivors.”

my GENIUS big-brained friend pointed out that loki and sylvie had a whole conversation about not sleeping in front of people they can’t trust and then. SHE FELL ASLEEP IN FRONT OF HIM??? so its entirely possible that this is where the real fuckery begins

so she wakes up to see that loki is super drunk, but hes also like. changed clothes? and he didn’t change clothes into his usual loki outfit he changed back into the jacket with a big fucking orange variant written on the back of it. WHY would he do that unless he was purposefully trying to attract attention? like what reason did he have to change from his guard clothes. i get that he was supposed to be drunk but it seems super out of character for him? usually whenever he’s acting crazy its to prove a point (pompeii) or he’s trying to manipulate someone. ALSO his whole conversation with her about love and daggers seemed really weird, like why are you even having this conversation unless youre trying to get her to open up and reveal some info or plan?

AND THEN. the fucking guard asks for his ticket. and instead of like. CONJURING THE ILLUSION OF ANYTHING REMOTELY TICKET-LIKE. He just conjures some fireworks??? like hewwo?? you just showed you can conjure shit so why not conjure a ticket??? and also that scene where he throws the dagger but it misses and she says “terrible aim” does he really have terrible aim or is he purposefully throwing the fight so he cant pretend like the tempad was fucked up.

oh yeah and the TEMPAD. HOW did the tempad get fucked up i thought he was hiding it using his magic its not like it was in his goddamn POCKET right?? like he was able to keep the tesseract intact in that scene with thanos so THAT doesn’t make much sense. also the fact that sylvie is quite understandably upset about their only form of transportation off this planet being destroyed and he just doesnt seem to care. like yeah hes the god of mischief but youd think he has SOME kind of self preservation instinct.

AND. THAT FUCKING SCENE. wehre he like. reverses the building or whatever??? where the fuck did he pull THAT power from? his ass? kind of seems like a power that he could’ve used MANY other times in the episode to save them. some people are saying he was using the time stone UM. that ALSO couldve been useful plenty of times before if he were actually trying to get them to safety.

it kind of seems to me like hes pretending the tempad is broken so that sylvie thinks shes well and truly fucked and then shes more likely to just reveal all her plans and info to him. cause he keeps repeating over and over again about how nothing matters when its the end of the world so maybe hes hoping shell just tell him everything if she thinks theyre going to die. also i just dont see another way out of this situation unless its a scheme like. tempad broken. ark fucked. and theyre in an apocalypse the tva cant track them.

and my FINAL piece of evidence is that in the description of the episode they talk about how lokis plan is different from sylvies but then in the episode he doesnt seem to actually HAVE a plan he just kind of bumbles around like a fool unless. acting like a fool actually WAS his plan.

in conclusion yes i am deranged and this is all probably going to be disproven in the next episode

#loki #mcu loki #loki show

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bvnii · 4 years

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》Dekusquad with a s/o that has a pet snail《

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Word count: 926

Warning(s): None

Category: Fluff

A/n;; Okay, this is pretty much the first thing I've EVER posted on any of my writing stuff, and it's super embarrassing and all… but I'm really proud of it! And if you have anything like tips or things I could do to improve my writing I encourage you to tell me pretty please ╰(*´︶`*)╯(And YES I do have a pet snail called Remmy, if that's not your snails name then I'm sorry😔) Thankies for even bothering to read this and please enjoy^^

Izuku

-Yall are probably at your place to study and hang out on like,, a tuesday afternoon

-Hell see their glass home and will get all curious

-"Hey y/n what's that glass case for?"

-"Oh it's for Remmy, my snail"

-WHAT

-He'd be so surprised… pet snails were a thing??

-Because of the things inside, it would be a bit difficult to see inside the glass so you TAKE HIM OUT!??

-Lets face it,, hell probably try to pet it… he has no idea what you would do with a pet snail…?

-They seem so b o r i n g

-But his little eyes pop out🥺 and Izu's immediately in love

-let him hold it please… he just wants to hold the bby

-HES SO GENTLE

-Other people would poke it and terrorize the poor thing(trust me they do) but he just… sits there and holds him🥺🤧

-He now comes over every Tuesday just to sit with Remmy

-he's Remmy's dad now^^

Momo

-She'll be sO SWEET AND SUPPORTIVE

-Okayokayokay

-but you two WILL be going shopping for things like new rocks and sticks for him

-you dont have a choice

-SNAIL MOM

-Therell be days where she'll come over and you two will cuddle and have Remmy in his glass case next to you guys while watching a movie

-she loves him.

-she will protect Remmy with her everything

-Hunny tried to give him water but almost DROWNS HIM

-it's okay though bc he didnt die😪

Todoroki

-Mans was so confused

-"Why do you have a snail in this glass container?"

-HIS NAME IS REMMY😤

-idk why but I feel like he would be kind of… scared? intimidated? Upset?

-because… your over there giving affection to this wierd slimy blob in a shell

-and NOT him

-????

-As stuff goes he would warm up to the bby🥰

-Hell vent to Remmy when you're not there for him to talk to

-He still wont touch him because… ew slimey stuff

-but he will watch as you carefully hold him and show him

-He never really gets a GOOD look because they cant be on your hand for too long

-BUT!!!!1!1111!!!

-The day where he DOES hold Remmy… hes wearing gloves (latex free)

-it's so wierd to have this thingy crawling around him!??

-Todoroki says snail rights

-they eventually become besties🥺

-and they dont have h a n d s

-he wont let the curse effect his little buddy

Iida

-YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO NAVE PETS!!!11!111!1

-"Iida please… hes just a snail (ーー;)"

-He wouldnt like the idea of it… AT FIRST

-mostly because hes really heavy on his rules,, and except for Koda, they arent supposed to have pets

-just bc your his s/o doesnt mean hell be soft on you

-sis I belive in you;; convince this mans Remmy is harmless

-once he gets to know Remmy tho…

-you know he'd be fascinated

-Rich boy WILL buy you anything you need for Remmy🥺

-Again… most people find having a pet snail wierd… but their so calming!!

-they dont make noise, and as long as you do it carefully you can hold them^^

- Iida wants to hold him… let him hold him please,,

-Homeboy does his RESEARch

-Remmys chill… and becomes a new friend of Iidas and yall will just hang

-Put on some plantasia and study with Remmy on the desk with you two on the floor

-YES P L E A S E

Uraraka

-Ooh?

-Theyre doing the dorm competition, and you open your door, its decorated how you have your room at home

HOME

-W A I T

-Whats that glass container???

-"Its R E M M Y"

-Theyre all so like… confused?

-who is Remmy

-"a snail…"

-uH-

-why does someone have a pet snail??

-Later that night Ura comes back around and asks to see Remmy

-ACK

-You carefully take him out of his case and hold him out looking proud asf

-she just… s t a r e s

-hes so tiny… and adorable

-alt-right away shell ask to hold him🥺🥺

-shes so gentle… it makes my heart just UGH

-After a few seconds shell give him back ai you can let him chill on his rock

-oh yeah… she likes snails now

- every once and a while she'll come over and you guys will just talk and you'll take Remmy out,, shell hold him

-Its just routine at this point

-knock on the door?? TIME TO GET MUSIC ON AND REMMY OUT

-it's so wholesome… I love her ＼(≧▽≦)

So… posting this is nerve wracking^^ but I feel really sad coming on here to read other people's stuff, then doing nothing?? It just makes me feel not right inside! But please,, dont be too harsh on me I dont have much writing experience with fanfiction and headcanons, but I really hope to get better🥺🥰

#my hero academia #mha x reader #mha fanfiction #mha todoroki #mha deku #mha headcanons #todoroki x reader #izuku imagine #izuku x reader #bnha uraraka #uraraka x reader #iida x reader #bnha x reader #bnha todoroki #bnha imagines #bnha

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leafy-wings · 3 years

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Turtle,,? (For the ask meme)

for this ask meme!

Sexuality Headcanon: oh you know he is a fruit Gender Headcanon: hits turtle with beam of turns you transgender. i really like the dynamic of trans character in monarchys where its discussed if they just did it to avoid responsibility but id like to emphasize that if you do that plot point uhm please be trans and also no people do not become trans for leverage, ever. i also think hed probably get into some mogai gender [affectionate] like identifying with moss or something A ship I have with said character: listen listen listen. turtle x winter. like there is little canon establishment for it but i like the headcanons that can tumble out of my shitty little brain for this. like theyre both royals and of all the characters winter is less mean to turtle because hes quiet, like he thinks that turtle is weird and acts improper but i think thered be a lot of good royalty discussion between the two of them and arguing gently about the ethics of the situations theyre in. i think that in a relationship turtle needs someone who is gentle that he can confide in, he loves the jade winglet for being exciting and getting him out of his shell which he DID need but getting active and out there is a lot of work and id think itd be best for him to have someone he can just settle beside and not have to worry about doing too much with. comfort! i think that by arc 3 winter would be more understanding of turtle and more willing to help him in a way that would help himself, like they both realize looking at each other theyve got issues in the same ways and that addressing the others issues will help them address their own. but they do it all slowly at a gentle pace. i just think the both of them need someone gentle who doesnt shove them out of their comfort zone. A BROTP I have with said character: TURTLE AND PERIL FOREVER BABY!!!!!! they get each other out of their comfort zones, either to do more or less... but theyre only good in hour increments together or else turtle gets too stressed or peril gets too excited </3 A NOTP I have with said character: turtle and kinkajou, again nothing really wrong with it i just dont see anything between them and i like it when characters are gay. i understand the peppy/hesitant dynamic but i cant help but feel like turtle would either be too in awe or too hesitant for it to be good for him. and i just dont like school children dating. sorry. also i fucking fucking HATE peril x turtle considering that by arc 3 turtle is 5 and peril is EIGHT!! she is a young adult. also again the thing i said before about someone who is too feisty would probably be more uncomfortable than exciting for him, plus she is so dense that i think if they ever got into a relationship theyd have soo many issues between one of them having lived almost twice as long as the other, perils intensive frightening backstory and continual issues into her adulthood, and turtle still being highly traumatized from neglect. theyd get problems with each other and then never address it and peril would just get madder at shit turtle does that she wont address and turtle will jsut get more frightened at peril about shit he wont address. bad chemistry A random headcanon: i think turtle would love painting. painting is just visual writing! i think hed love making dramatic scenes with abstract imagery and then get upset when others dont understand the symbolism hes put into it and the emotion and story behind what hes drawn, like “oh you cant see in his eyes that hes just lost his lover which has parallels to him losing everything hes had before, killing him inside, but now in this instance he has learned strength where previously he froze up and is seeing this as symbolic vengence for his former failure, stressed in his pose and tensed muscles? the bubbles represent the loss of innocence and i havent drawn any eyeshine to show hes lost everything. i cant believe you dont understand my work” but he loves info dumping about his work to his friends. they all sit around him and clap while he talks about some insane bullshit. General Opinion over said character: i love this guy hes literally one of my favorites. i think that hes written a bit too mysterious and suave in book 6 where in talons of power it turns out hes just a weepy baby, but i love weepy baby insecure turtle, even if the turn is weird and his previous behavior seems ooc. its believable. i think turtle deserves better.

THE DANGEROUS GIFT SPOILERS BELOW

am i going insane or is turtle just NOT in the dangerous gift? never mentioned even once? like where did he go. what happened to him. did he get lost at see or some shit? tsunami comes up like “i can tell you about pantala, i was there! yep, i was the only one” like BITCH WHERE IS YOUR BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!

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sothisiswhatitslike · 3 years

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An open letter to the one thats destroying me...

I remember the day we met, you told me you wanted to marry me one day. What you didn’t know was I have heard this before, from guys that are just like you. That was almost 2 years ago. I didn’t know, you'd keep chasing, you'd keep trying. Then I gave you the chance that you had been asking for. And in the following 6 months, I watched you change. The sweet guy that had been to my house every night when I got off work, the one that spent time trying to bond with my child slowly faded away, and out came the man you had hid for quite some time. The one who yelled and stormed off when told your not behaving in a way that I can handle. The one who disappeared and cheated, yet still some how turned it and made me apologize for something I didn't do, you did. Slowly we wet from planning for the life we were going to build to fighting every day, me walking on egg shells so you didn’t go off again. Begging for the man I fell for to come back and this monster to go away. Yet you always said your trying, and you would after a fight when you thought you were going to lose me, you’d be on your best behavior- until you weren’t. Slowly that change went from trying for a month to trying for a week to not trying at all, all the while still swearing this bull shit is just temporary, “I’m only going to be going out all the time for X months” or “ I’m doing this for us and our family”.

Lets be real, I lost myself, thats what you do though, you are good at treating someone right for a while, so they will be invested and then showing your true colors when you think they are in too deep to walk away; I went from seeing my friends and family to barely calling them, you didnt want them to know about the shit we were going through and you knew my best friend would know that there was a problem and she’d pull me out of the hole I had fallen into. But what you didnt realize was, she watched me on social media become a shell of who I was, she listened when you werent around and I could actually talk without worrying about you getting upset at what I was telling her, and she continued to not only love and support me, she told me she was here when I was ready for you to leave, she told me to find someone that would love me the way you promised you would.

Heres what she didnt realize, in the process of all of this, I became a monster. I shut down and realized that you cant hurt me, noone can if you just dont care anymore. If you choose to go down the spiral youve been dancing around for months. Thats the problem though, when you go down that spiral, how do you get out?

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goddess-ofthe-underworld · 3 years

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I am numb.

I have had the same therapist for around 9 years, she has always been wonderful.

Today, she made me have a mental breakdown. She made me feel horrible. She got upset with me.

All because I've been talking about how I feel I am somewhere on the autism spectrum. She said because I understand emotions I'm not autistic. Because I use facial expressions I'm not autistic. Because I use fancy words I'm not autistic.

At first after hearing that when I came back from getting tested for it I felt sad and upset. I took her word for a while, but felt like something wasnt right.

I continued to do research and joined two groups on facebook and the amount of women that go undiagnosed amazed me. The amount of women who have talked about this I have done since I was a child, feelings they have had, and they have the diagnosis. It made me question my therapist. I found tests reccomend by those with the diagnosis to do and if scoring as autistic to bring it to a doctor. I have taken so many test and all come back as ranking highly likely to have autism.

The person who I tested with lied in her type up of how I acted and things I said and I am still angry about that.

So I decided today to tell my therapist I want a second opinion. I found an office near me that specializes in women with autism and I want to be tested again. What professional lies in their report? That bugs me most. I was never married before my current husband like she said. I never claimed to have OCD like she said I am diagnosed with. And in the three hours I was there with her for maybe a total of 5 minutes I made eye contact because she would clear her throat and squint at me so i felt like i had to.

Her report made it seem like you have to be dumb and a shell of person to be autistic and that's just not true. I know its not.

I have put on an act for my whole life hiding so much to appear normal to avoid being made fun of like I did as a child.

And today my therapist got angry at me for wanting to get one more test done with a specialist. She told me the people I talked to that said I needed another opinion were 'cringey' and made her cringe because they aren't professionals like she is. Then went off about how ethically she cant even watch TV and diagnosis someone unless they are her patient. Like ok? All I know is these people have the diagnosis. They are telling me things they do and experience are the same as what I talked about in these groups and that they think I need to get another opinion. That's all. She didnt even let me read the questions from the tests I took and why I answered the way I answered. She just got angry. I shut down and burst into tears. I felt embarrassed and now hurt.

She has never been anything but what most would say is a cheery demeanor so to see this side hurt. She didn't bother to listen to me, she didnt bother to try and see why I felt so strongly about this. She has it made up that if you can use fancy words and explain feelings you are not autistic. Yet right before therapy today people in my group again, who have the diagnosis, where talking about this!

When I finally could talk through the sobs I told her I didnt feel like she was listening or understanding and I wanted to hang up (virtual appointment) and she looked at me wide eyed and said you mean hang up and I said yes this isn't helping. So she said ok and told me to write down my feelings for next time and she went to say something else and I hung up on her.

I feel like how I have felt in past breakups. I feel how I have felt when I lost friends. I feel how I feel when I think my husband is mad at me.

My whole life I have been obsessed with books and reading that was my escape. I have been bullied to the point of wanting to end my life I needed an out so it was books. I hate feeling dumb so I look up words all the time and love to use them. Of course I am going to know fancy words. Any reader would.

I feel so pissed and hurt.

I had to call her office and I canceled all my future appointments with her at the advice of others in my group and my father, and the receptionist told me she might call to hear it from me and I broke down and thank Gods this woman was kind.

I asked if I had to talk to her and she quickly said 'oh honey no! Breathe it's ok! I will put that in here so no one hounds you it's ok! Dont worry, breathe we dont want you anxious!'

I can't get over the fact that when I told her the only people that have seen the true me are my dad and my husband and that I've always been masked around her for the most part she just repeated herself. She didnt hear me at all.

I spent t so many years becoming a master at hiding things that I may have hid them too well.

I am lost. I am

Going to get a second opinion by someone who specializes in females with autism and if I show all of my information and all of the reasons why i think I so and they say no then fine. I'm not, but then I want explanations on a lot. There are so many things I do and feel that are not normal, they dont relate to my depression and I want to know what it is so I can feel less out of place and strange.

I'm not here to collect diagnoses like a pokemon. I just want someone who will listen and hear me out, and be honest in their report of me.

#possibly autistic #mental health #mental illness #therapy #counselling #please help #rant #autistic spectrum

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toshis-puppycat · 4 years

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Dreams Can Come True Sometimes

A/n: so I feel like I'm procrastinating a lot but ya know I just feel like I should also write other things too ya know? Also I blame the gc I'm in for all this Anyways here's some attempt for.me writing some stepdad!Richie lmao. I hope yall enjoy.

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Richie Tozier was the bane of your existance, at first you were so happy for your mother meeting him. Mainly because you knew she was lonely and that she didnt actually like going out for dating. Meeting him was a completely different story though.

When you met him, your mother had invited him over for dinner. Thinking you wouldn't be there, as a just in case you weren't ready to meet him. You were completely fine with it considering that night a guy you'd met also asked to take you out. You said yes, completely hopeful about the entire thing and made sure to look your absolute best. But the whole thing was a bust. He expected you to put out while acting so entitled to you.

"If I'm not being driven home, I'm breaking your goddamn nose." You said to him.

"Fine, fuck like cant you give a guy a break? I was a gentleman to you sweetheart." He said, reluctantly driving you to your home.

"Um no you showed basic human decency then expected me to bend over for you. Fuck that. If that's how you wanna be then I want no part of it." You responded, clearly taking none of his bullshit. Guys like that always pissed you off, acting entitled and getting pissed when you said no. Definitely not someone youd ever want to date seriously.

Him driving you back home was fine, you got out of the car quickly just in case he wanted to try anything and when he drove off immediately after you got out you knew you made the right choice. Seeing the two cars though made you a bit reluctant to go inside, remembering your mom saying she was inviting her boyfriend over.

You walked in as quietly as possible, and sneaked over to your bedroom. You sent a quick text to your mother telling her you came back early but youd be staying in your room and to just pretend you weren't there. She responded with asking if everything was okay, and that she was glad you got home safely. You told her youd talk about it the next day. And then turned your phone off, and changed. Passing out immediately afterwards. However the next day, you walked out of your room to get breakfast and you literally saw the hottest man just cooking in your kitchen.

"What the fuck?" You said aloud, wincing at how loud it actually sounded. He turned around startled, holding a spatula and stared at you.

"Oh uh. Hi. I'm Richie." He said awkwardly, because to be fair it was obvious he stayed the night, and who would walk in to know why he stayed the night?

"Y/n. I didnt know you stayed the night." You said accusingly.

"Uh it just happened. Too much to drink ya know?" He joked.

"No not really. Im not 21 yet." You said with a straight face. Of course you did know but you weren't going to say it when your mom could hear you. He shifted awkwardly and winced at the burning smell behind him. Quickly shifting away from you to salvage the food.

Y/n! You're up!" You heard your mom say, "This is Richie." With a smile on her face. The light in her eyes was back, so you pushed back your distaste. She was happy, so you would be happy for her too.

A year later had you actually living with him. It wasn't terrible, but now he was your step father. A good one at that if you were going to be honest with yourself. The year of getting to know him made you actually like the man. A little too much. Your whole style changed just so you could see his reaction. You discovered the most adorable outfits that still made you look a little older than you really were. When he ended up paying for your college tuition you were incredibly grateful for it, and you think that's when everything started changing in the way you looked at him. He wasn't the hot guy your mom was seeing, he was your stepfather. Your really hot stepfather. When the dreams started you had no idea what to do other than continue having some of the most filthy fantasies youd ever thought of before. Sometimes Richie would sneak into your bedroom in these dreams, and he'd fuck you like you were someone who made a living for it. With you whimpering out to him and him asking you if you liked getting him off the way you were and if you could just hear how wet you were when hed be thrusting in you. Usually youd wake up red faced and have to take a cold shower in order to calm down. Your mother being none the wiser to it. Seeing Richie however made you think and feel as if you had the most filthy little secret. He wouldnt even be doing anything, he'd be content writing out some jokes for his shows and talking to his childhood friends. When you found out he invited them you decided to try and put everything behind you though. Maybe one of them would help you with the pesky problem of your crush by being someone you could actually see.

A week later you found out your mother would be leaving for a business deal. Apparently people really liked the fact she was married to Richie Tozier, and loved the fact someone who was so rich was with your mother. It made you hate it, they never played attention to your mother before she was seeing Richie but it helped pay the bills Richie refused to let your mother and you deal with. Saying he wanted you both to enjoy everything he could possibly offer. You both were incredibly grateful, and you both took advantage of the fact he said it. You would buy the most elaborate cutesy but sexy outfits that your mother never seemed to notice thankfully, and started to call Richie daddy. Which he seemed thrilled with at first but then you could catch the faintest tint of pink on his cheeks. Like he was thinking about you the same way you thought about him every night. The day your mother had to leave you were upset, but grateful. Richies friends were still coming over, and you still had things to do.

Richie was in a really bad space, no scratch that a terrible place. A year ago he met an amazing woman, who just so happened to have a daughter. He would have been fine with it, if you weren't so damn alluring. Your style had changed so much since he had entered your lives. Your mother being so happy you were leaving the shell you made for yourself, and testing out new styles with him paying for every single item. He had no problem with it at first. Until he saw what youd be wearing underneath, it was an accident when he saw. He could swear it on his future grave, but the times after he couldn't say anything for it. The lace, the frilly designs of the bras youd chosen, and the shortest skirts he'd ever seen in his life. When you started calling him daddy he was happy at first too. But after he saw what you wore underneath your pajamas he always felt embarrassed about it or rather incredibly turned on. Thoughts of just bonding with you flew out of his mind, turning into filthy fantasies where youd be in your room bending over somewhere and begging him to fuck you harder. He could feel himself hardening now, but he shooed the thought away. He couldn't focus on that right now. Everyone was going to be coming over. He just prayed that youd behave and not dress the way you usually did now and days.

You were in your bedroom when you heard the commotion downstairs. Excited yells about seeing the great "trashmouth" of their group. You almost rolled your eyes because of course he was a trashmouth when he was younger. It just fit his personality and the jokes he made. You sneaked out of your bedroom and looked towards the entryway, Richie was there with 3 other men. Scratch that three other really attractive men. And you couldn't fucking believe it. That dickbag never fucking mentioned knowing your absolute favorite author. William "Bill" Denbrough was childhood friends with fucking Richie Tozier. You thought maybe the outfit you currently had on was good, but now fuck that. Swimming in the back sounded like a better idea.

"Yeah, I did get married you asshats. Laugh it up." Richie said. "She has a daughter, but I dont think shes here right now-" he couldn't continue his sentence because you ended up walking down the stairs in the most skimpy bikini he'd ever seen in his life. Everyone stopped talking watching you come down the stairs and jumping down the last step and smiling at them.

"Oh! Sorry, I just wanted to go swimming in the back ya know? It's such a good day to just lounge around in the pool." You said, smiling prettily at the group. Bill was the first to break the tension by smiling at you, which prompted the rest of the group to do the same sans Richie.

"Ah no you're right! It is a good day to be lounging at the pool." He said, then he stretched his arm out to you. "Bill Denbrough, and you are?"

You batted your eyes at the him and gave a coy smile. "I'm y/n, Mr. Denbrough. I have to say I'm a huge fan." His eyes lit up, no one would like to say completely that they loved his writing. "I especially like how the endings are, everyone always told me I'd hate the endings but I think even if they were bad they fit the story you made." You said, finally shaking his hand. His face fell a bit, but he brightened again. You did say that the endings fit for the story itself, he couldn't be upset with that.

"I'm Stan, hi." One of the other men said reaching his hand out to you and firmly shaking yours. You felt so fucking small next to all of them now. When Eddie introduced himself he was red faced and seemed to be struggling to talk. You pretended to not notice the reaction and just smiled at the group. Richie was just standing there still shell shocked at the fucking gall you had introducing yourself to his friends like that. When you turned around he could tell Eddie was about to pass out, you might as well have been wearing nothing. He almost scowled, as he quickly ushered the group to the living room and away from you venturing out to the back.

You were back inside a few hours later. The sun finally setting for the day and you felt at ease. Richie looked pissed seeing you in your bathing suit earlier and knowing his best friends were oggling you but youd figured he cooled off enough by now. You sneaked back inside, drying your hair as you closed and locked the screen door.

"So you wanna tell me what the fuck that was?" A voice asked. Oops, you guessed he was still pretty pissed from earlier.

"I dont know what youre talking about. I just introduced myself to your friends and went out to the pool daddy." You responded innocently, turning to face him. "It would be incredibly impolite to ignore guests here."

Richie took a deep breath, his face scrunched up in anger. "Its not funny to do that to my friends. You know they're older than you, they could be your father." He said.

"Yeah but they're not. You're not my father either." You said, looking at him. "I didnt do anything wrong. I introduced myself and then I left so you could spend time with your friends without worrying about me."

"Y/n-" Richie started.

"Richie. It's not my fault your friends want to fuck me." You said, cutting him off. "I dont think I'd say no to it either. Your friends are pretty hot."

Then you were pushed against the wall roughly, hands secured around your waist and a leg shoved roughly between yours. "Don't say things like that y/n." Richie whispered in your ear. "Don't say you want to fuck someone my age y/n."

"But I do want someone your age to fuck me." You said, looking him in the eye. "Why cant you, daddy?" You asked, he groaned.

"Hey Rich! Come on your missing the best part!" You heard Bill yell. Oh, they were still here. How unfortunate. Richie pulled away from you quickly looking around to make sure they wouldn't be walking over. They didn't, and you quickly pulled him down for a frenzy heated kiss. When you pulled away you were both flushed, and your heart was pounding.

"Why not visit me tonight, daddy? I promise I'll be good." You said, batting your eyes at him innocently. He groaned, and nodded his head. Then he left you, quickly grabbing some alcohol he left on a table nearby that you didnt even notice. You smiled and quickly ran to the stairs to hop in the shower. Dreams really do come true sometimes.

It was late when he finally ended up coming to your room. You were half asleep, all dressed up for him and he could've groaned at what you were wearing. A beautiful set of pale pink lingerie with thigh high stockings. You were slightly curled up on your bed and he smiled at how absolutely adorable you looked. He was going to make a move to just leave when you shifted in bed, a quiet whimper came out and your hips moved ever so slightly like you were trying to find some friction somewhere. Any thought he had of leaving before was quickly thrown out the window right after that you let out a quiet moan of his name. A breathy whisper, crying out to him. He placed his hand gently on your face, then moving down until it rested on your chest where he tweaked your nipples, smirking at how you sighed and tried to move closer to him. He moved further down and put his hand under your panties, moving his hand down to your clit and pinched it gently between his fingers. Your hips started moving on their own begging for something more, and he took advantage of that by putting a finger in you, groaning at how you tightened around the digit.

"Daddy please." You whimpered out, finally fully awake from his ministrations as you pulled at his pants, quickly pulling his cock out and putting him in your mouth. His hips jerked and you bobbed your head he put another finger in you, quickly moving his other hand to your clit.

"You're gonna be a good girl for me right babydoll?" Richie asked you, adding another finger inside and feeling you moan around him. "Such a good girl for me." He said, removing his fingers from you, smirking at how you whined, especially when he moved back and saw how you moved your head forward to keep him in your mouth. "No babydoll, come on. You want me to fuck you right, sweetheart?" He asked, you eagerly nodded your head and quickly played at the edge of your bed, you quickly ended up pulling him down for a frenzied kiss, grabbing at the shirt he had on trying to pull him closer. "So eager aren't you babydoll?" He asked, before pulling your panties to the side and slowly sinking into you, groaning. You winced, he was a little bigger than you expected but god did he fill you up. He moved slowly, kissing at your neck and groping at your chest. You whimpered in his mouth. "God I've wanted to fuck you ever since I saw what you were wearing underneath those cute skirts of yours." He groaned. "You know how much I wanted to bend you over? How much I've wanted to see how wet I could make you? Do you even hear yourself right now? God you're just so wet for me. Stay like this for me babydoll? Just stay exactly like this" He asked you, thrusting in quicker and harsher, moving a hand back down pressing it against your clit again. "Come on I know you want to, I can feel how close you are babydoll."

"Daddy." You whimpered out, he wasn't wrong but to be fair you'd never thought you'd ever come this quick from someone fucking you. Guys were always so disappointing before. You felt yourself tighten down, hearing him groan out your name and saying "I knew youd be a good girl for me babydoll." Was what really did you in though. You saw stars and he was moving faster and harder. You heard him chuckle.

"I bet no ones ever made you squirt that quick before." He slowed down, a bit just rocking into you and giving such a cocky smirk to you. "I'm not gonna stop until I cum though baby. You haven't helped me enough."

#richie toizer x reader #smut #IT AU #i was so nervous making this I hope yall like it

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