It occurs to me I forgot to post my reading from earlier and boy howdy was it apt lmao. I am also literally in bed rn so this may be a little sleep-rambly. Apologies beforehand.
So The Moon is... in this context, illusion/(self) deception. I am prone to maladaptive daydreaming, so I see that card in that position and I'm like "ah yes, one of those days." I really needed to be on task today so it was important I didn't do that. (Harder than it sounds.)
Knight of Wands is all about new ideas, and what do you know in the course of my (partially unwilling) daydreaming today I figured out what was stumping me about the scene I'm writing. Deleted a couple lines, started fresh, good to go. It's also taking the scene in a slightly different direction but it's cool it's fine lol.
Ten of Wands is a red flag as much as it is a finish line. I'm overextending myself, but also I'm so close to the end of this damn chapter I can taste it. Which, well, yeah. Part and parcel of trying to learn new habits with Other Things Going On lol.
Anyway, my reaction to this reading today was to basically set myself up for success tomorrow. Worked slightly late today to have nothing (officially) to do tomorrow, since my boss is on vacation. I still need to like. Check emails and man phones but otherwise I'm free. AND evening plans got cancelled I've just learned so yessssss. But yeah in terms of the daydreaming, I did still allow myself to indulge to an extent -- while I could have finished earlier I know it's a coping mechanism of mine for stress. I basically just throw a screensaver on to save power lol. And the new ideas I can act on in earnest tomorrow, probably. We'll see how it goes!
Important to note that my reading here was based off of my observations this morning: I check in with how I'm feeling and see what about the card pings something in my brain. So it's basically a form of guided meditation and day planning lol.
Anyway, gnight❤️
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Hello do you know what my favorite ever Fitpac & Phil moment is because I have never seen anyone else mention it somehow?! Probably because Pac isn't even in the damn clip but I digress!
It's the stream where Phil and Fit hang out and Fit shows Phil one of the abandoned houses he found. They walk into the house to access the trapdoor leading to the hidden basement, and Fit goes:
"First of all, watch out for the fucking asshole seagull."
Fit fucking hates seagulls. Annoy him to no goddamn end. He's been on the wrong side of a seagull shakedown; Phil too, agrees.
"I'm just gonna murder him, I'm just gonna-"
And Fit fucking shouts OH NO NO NO to get Phil to stop in time.
"Oh no, Pac will be furious if that seagull dies, even if I fucking hate it."
It's just so perfectly representative of Fitpac. It's not even an official thing yet, and Fit knows Pac well enough to be aware that the seagull's death would upset him. Fit cares about him enough not to want to add any pain or sadness to Pac's life. He cares enough that he doesn't mind sacrificing his own annoyance by the seagull's existence; it's worth it if it makes Pac happy. Fit is all about making sure Pac is happy. He says it with such an exasperated but enamored tone it makes me smile every time. It's a very 'decades-married sitcom-couple laugh track-esque', and it's annoyingly endearing.
And then you get the cherry on top:
"...what if I put him in a cage? And put the cage on the floor?"
It's silly, but I love Phil processing Fit's statement, and rather than making a joke or comment, he reframes the question. I always imagine him going, "Yep. I get it mate." And leaving it at that, simply attempting to find a solution that won't have them yearning for seagull blood all day. Love Fit and Phil's dynamic.
And then Fit looks DIRECTLY INTO HIS CAMERA and sighs dramatically like he's the star of an NBC 8pm EST/7pm CST sitcom circa 2011. This man is the lead in a slow-burn sitcom romance, and I hate him. Motherfucker is lucky they've already got me fixated enough to write a 100k word fanfic. FitMC is too powerful and cannot be trusted.
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I wish the thieves had SOME kind of reaction to the Satanael awakening. Kinda wish we at least had RYUJI react to it….
I think its sooooo compelling to have Ryuji be the only person to witness BOTH awakenings; to see how much Akira and his will has grown since they first met. There was a raw, burning fury in Akiras core that recoiled at the injustice before him, and when given the tools to punish said injustice, eagerly accepted it with a wild, almost manic kind of intensity. I think it would be difficult for the others to truly grasp just how scary that was; that for a short moment, Ryuji couldnt pinpoint the cause of that rage, and the target of it. Akiras mellowed out alot since then, but its always in the back of Ryujis head; theres a side of their leader literally none of the thieves have or will ever see, and he doesnt really know how hes supposed to feel about that.
And now the airs charged in the same way he felt back in Kamoshidas palace; right as Akiras eyes widened at seeing him slammed against the wall. The blazing, untamed ferocity in his eyes from back then is replaced with a cool, calm, steely conviction. He knows his purpose; understands completely what his will screamed at him to understand back when it first started. This is the Akira the team knows, and its definitely the one Ryuji is used to now, but its insane to see the shift; insane to see the kind of power that simmered in Akiras core, literally too big and too overwhelming for past Akira to grapple with and set free.
Satanael comes down, and theres a moment, through all the excited screaming and hollering, where Ryuji can see it look right at him, and Ryuji is taken back to the floor of Kamoshidas Palace; not to the fear he felt when Arsene came forth incinerating everything, but immediately after, when Akira comes to with wide eyes and an outstretched hand- that bizarre feeling of safety, of knowing that this kid would have his back, and that hed never have to worry about where his place would be (its right beside him, obviously.)
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