#just feeling queer love feelings I guess

[clever-and-unique-name]

I don't use Facebook for anything except keeping in contact with our ferret breeder, who I've been talking to again to get (hopefully) another couple kits this summer. I also don't keep in contact with anyone I went to high school with--people who make up the majority of my FB friendlist.

So, in opening FB for the first time in years, I was extremely amused to find that a solid 1/4 of the people I liked enough to friend them on FB have come out as some flavor of trans. Some I suspected, some were a complete surprise. But they all look so happy now, and I'm so happy for them. <3

#just feeling queer love feelings I guess #even though I don't keep in touch with anybody it still makes me happy that they've gone through a Gender Journey and made it out okay #hopefully happier than they were before #I hope they're all doing well #also yes I was part of several emo/scene/goth friend circles in the late 2000s so this is not Really a surprise #so many of us were clearly just baby queerlings in different closets #personal #ok to rb and add on but don't clown I'm very tired

[miitopia-cake]

I wish some aces would stop excluding other aces with complex sexual experiences. like I get why but you have to realize that being ace does not mean they don't enjoy sexual experiences and it's weird when you complain about allo people and boil it down to "people who have sexual experiences" and also shame people for their sex life and kinks as if your own community doesnt INCLUDE those people. because there are other aces out there who still masturbate, who feel sexually attracted to their own body, who barely experiences sexual attraction but still enjoys sex, who like consuming sexual media, who like sfw kink. being ace is so so much more complex than just "disliking sex". and also aromantic exclusionism in the same genre of posts is something i see a lot. especially aro allos. I hate hate hate seeing a community that SHOULD be inclusive boil down sexuality and exclude people.

#okay to reblog #if you reblog this post to argue or whatever though im killing you this is about my personal queer experiences not a discourse post #feel free to add your own experiences if youre aceflux demisexual whatever. i love you guys. #rambling #rant #messy writing sorry #but as an aroace myself i just felt like i had to get it out i guess #i always feel like im not ace enough but im not allo enough to be either #aroace #arospec #aromantic #asexual #acespec #ace #aceflux #aroflux #demiromantic #demisexual #lbgtqia #lbgtq #queer #text post #vent #queer community

[kaltacore]

going insane over how hawke's tragedy is about losing everything inevitably. they lose their father. they lose their home and their little sibling. they find new friends and get a good chance to make things better and then lose their second little sibling — even if they don't die they will never come back home. they finally get money and some kind of stability and then lose their mother who wanted the life they got the most. they become a champion beloved by the city and then lose their home and the family they found once again and all the titles and fame have no weight anymore. they lose the battle against corypheus because he comes back. they lose the battle against meredith because she comes back too. no matter how much they gain it will be taken away. no matter how hard they believe they got things right this time they will be proven wrong

#diversity wins! the main character is a disastrous queer loser just like you are! #feel validated <3 also little abnormal over this. for no particular reason. i just love the doom vibe i guess #hawke #dragon age

[juniperleafdelivery]

#my art #trans #side note: following tags are a pretty long thought dump #ugh okay i'm going to be honest #i didn't know anything about predstrogen until she was banned and many people started talking about her #also looked through photomatt's blog very briefly #to me he sounds callous- if that's the right word. he just didn't seem to care about what happened to predstrogen prior to her being banned #also? car with hammers that explodes multiple times feels far from being a serious death threat to me #yes predstrogen explicitly mentioned death wishes #but i don't know. what she said is more cartoonish than serious #also something i noticed from photomatt: where is the evidence that predstrogen threatened other users? #i haven't been looking into all this that deeply #but that photomatt stating that as part of the reason for predstrogen's ban and then not elaborating is. weird. for lack of better words #on a slightly different note: i love tumblr and how i can be my silly queer self and nobody cares #but if we don't stand up for each other — especially those who are constant targets for harrassment and other crappy things #tumblr will eventually die or bear no resemblance to the site i enjoy so much #maybe i'm privileged! being a trans masc guy #or maybe i'm ignorant #but i guess i have a tendency to say a lot. and i hate staying silent when i have the opportunity to speak out #so i'm going to scream #and i hope y'all are going to speak in support of trans women too

[2dieavirgin]

okay please hello i haven't seen anyone talk about this article which is so funny and my favorite thing ever ermm happy pride month i guess

#house md #emi text #to be honest chase is a lesbian TO ME but he's a terrible one at that. and i feel whatever him and cameron had going on is just like the #messiest lesbian relationship to ever exist. lets fuck. no nevermind i was high. i changed my mind lets fuck again. ok no we gotta stop. #hey i think im in love with you. bummer. hey sure im in love with you too i think i mean i guess. lets get married. no nevermind. no ok yes #we are so happily married i love you even tho this is so boring kinda. you have your dead husbands sperm frozen. YOU KILLED A MAN? #but i gotta say he's like schrodingers queer. hes gay hes a lesbian hes straight hes trans IDC i love all of it

[taikanyohou]

trauma as a plot/storytelling theme in media is always good yeah yeah yeah. and the best kind of trauma? is sibling based trauma. nothing beats it. nothing. it'll always be a hit. everytime.

#i am RIGHT. and im also afraid the eighth sense is going to give me this too wrt to jaewon like THIS MENTION OF A DONGSAENG??? JAEWONNNNN. #WHAT HAPPENED TO U BABY BOY :((( #i just realised now why t8s hits me so hard is bc its queer its water-based and there's SO going to be sibling based trauma in this #I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES. #and so now GUESS which show ALSO HAD ALL THESE THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ITS BEGINS WITH A 'B' AND ENDS WITH 'ETWEEN US'. #god THE CHOKEHOLD that THESE SPECIFIC themes have on me: queer media. water. siblings. trauma. LOVE IT. WILL FALL FOR IT EVERYTIME. #faiza talks

[katierosefun]

my cancelled-able trait from the queer community would be that i really apparently love messy endings. i love u happy endings and i also love u such sad, messy, ambiguous endings . . . i love u endings where u have this weird pit in the bottom of your stomach because you know that there's love here but u have no idea what to do with it and u just have to deal with the fact that someone is profoundly affecting your life and you're not gonna get closure from it anytime soon . . . i love u queer love stories where it's really just "u don't always get to see the sunshine and rainbows at the end of it . . . sometimes all that's left is just one big question mark and the quiet hope that they get their shit together" . . .

#caroline talks #don't get me wrong. i love u happy endings. esp when it comes to queer love stories #but i also just. love endings where it's just like. well. u DON'T know for certain whether the characters #are truly going to ride off into the sunset together. #the only thing u know for certain is that they love each other and that they're going to have to grapple with that forever. #maybe it's also just bc like. idk. i took too many film classes and so my head's forever stuck #on this one essay about how some really happy endings feel lifeless. #like how in some ending shots. the characters look like they've had their happy ending. but there's also some weird unease and confusion #and it's like. well yeah. because for every happy moment u get in life. u are still already thinking 'well what's next. what now.' #which is fascinating to me. but also me @ me: god maybe u can just be happy and it's not that deep. #but also. i do love the wonderful ambiguity of just. 'there is so much more to live. so much more to do.' #and i guess it's not just for queer love stories. i think a lot about the ending of my mister. #with lee ji an and park dong hoon walking away from each other but they're happy. u have no idea how their relationship will pan out but u #do know that they love each other. #or like. columbus. with jin and casey. they hug each other and thank each other for being in the other's lives. #and jin says goodbye to casey and casey says goodbye to jin and u have no idea if they'll see each other again. but u know they love each #other so very much. even if they'd only known each other for a second. #or like. beginners. anna and oliver love each other so much and u get this sense that. they're still a little bit uneasy/nervous about how #the rest of their lives are going to go. but they'll try. #or. god. the swearing jar. #the last shot. i think about it a lot. #there is love!!! but u don't always know how the rest of it is going to pan out!!! u just know that it'll pan out somehow!

[torahtot]

ok ive had enough of queering judaism. can we start judaizing queerness now. or something

#like. it feels like so much of this queering judaism shtus just layers an american/secular queer identity over judaism #which i guess is fine for certain communities. but it's only going to push you away from orthodoxy #and if as queer jews we already feel like our queerness makes us into secularized outsiders in our own communities #how does this help? is trying to get our communities to embrace an essentially secular american iteration of queer identity supposed to mak #us feel LESS like outsiders? it's not quite doing it for me #we need a queerness that comes from within judaism that is essentially jewish #ive seen a couple of articles recently from ppl talking abt how word/concept of butch doesnt exist in their language & culture #but they use it anyway #& like. i love being butch. it's important to me ill never give it up #& i am american too. but my whole identity as a butch he/him lesbian is exclusively secular american it came from the outsifr #which is definitely due in large part to the fact that my Gender Problems were really tied up w orthodox jewish gender roles #so naturally to get out of that i'd pull on something not jewish. but i wish there was another option? idk if that's possible #or how it would look #maybe that's why im obsessed w the idea of a butch w long curly payos.... 😦 #i forgot where i was going w this but yeah it's frustrating #this is a large part of why im wary of starting a queer Jewish club on campus bc the people who would wanna start it w mr #well no offense but they are insufferable about this #(incidentally they're also insufferable about chanukah. no surprises there) #nachi speaks #jew blogging #others have Actually written abt all this tho

[deathmycotime]

oh i just realised that im really starting to miss koisenu futari again

#i keep wanting to rewatch and then i keep forgetting and stopping halfway #also i realised how much i wanted to read something about it but there are barely any fics on ao3 #i have a few ideas so like once i finally understand the characters are i'll try attempting to write..... #scary but i guess it couldn't be worse than things i've already written before #it's just those times when i meet someone who is allo that my feelings of aromanticism/asexuality become apparent #like sometimes i dont feel to a certain identity and then someone irl says something love romance related #and i am reminded that 'oh yea i am aspec. i am queer these people would think i am weird huh' #koisenu futari #uuuuhm. organization tags. i don't have any here

[dollypopup]

I think it's real obvious that if you actually like Colin you don't belong in the Polin fandom. y'all are all so ableist about him and think the absolute worst of him and a huge number of the posts and fics are romanticizing Penelope straight up abusing him

we should make a new tag because this one is NOT it

#polin #bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #there's a fun new trend in fics where instead of 'just' emotionally and mentally abusing him Penelope is now hitting him too #and the narrative justifies it and colin thinks it's his fault she hits him and everyone cheers in the comments isn't that great? #oh did i say great? i meant fucking awful #you can tell this fandom is painfully tradwife levels straight because they think women who do this shit is cute or harmless #us queer women who have been abused by other women know damn well fanon penelope is the kind of girl you run away from with a swiftness #but colin's just a big stupid dummy for 1 (one) comment and not assuming her feelings for him so he needs to be slapped around i guess #i hate it here #burn the whole fandom to the ground and start from scratch #and we're SURPRISED there's an anti-polin blog? WE'RE anti-polin ffs #everyone and their mother knows 'Polin' actively hates half their ship #and are incredibly hostile to anyone who doesn't slobber all over penelope's shoes as she mistreats her supposed love interest and friends #and yeah i'm bitter about it #also i'll say it: the way we talk about Luke Newton is fucking unacceptable too #he's a neurodivergent man and some of the shit y'all say is DISGUSTING #this fandom is actively antagonistic to nd peeps

[gaylittleguys]

I hate it when people make posts or whatever like ‘ugh 🙄 I can’t believe I’m a MAN 🤢🤮 I grew up thinking I was woman and women are so great and pretty and I’m just a gross stinky man ew’ like ok. speak for yourself I love being a man it fucking rules. trans masculinity is awesome. you sound like you need to sort those feelings out for yourself dude.

#I feel like this was really pervasive when I was early in figuring out my gender #and sucks to see it’s still around lol #hey guys you don’t have to berate yourself for being a man to try and seem ‘no threatening’ or ‘not like those scary cis men’ it’s ok #same when people are like UGH I HATE being attracted to men smh 😔 sexuality isn’t a choice bc why would I have chosen being attracted to men #alright. #I love being attracted to men and I love being a guy #skill issue I guess #.doc #delete later #sorry I’m just annoyed #also this shit sucked to hear when I was figuring things out #same rhetoric that scares people off from taking testosterone #‘aaa you don’t want to take t it’ll make you scary and masculine :((((‘ #I don’t give a shit about not being a ‘pretty girl’ anymore I’m MUCH happier being a weird hairy guy #trans queer masculinity rules actually idk what to tell you #love you trans men love you gay/bi/queer men #and folks who are kind of men too

[the-writing-frog]

I Love You, I Think

I love you,

But not like that.

I want to be with you,

But not like that.

You make me feel so much,

It's hard to describe.

You make me feel

Safe. Wanted. Home. Loved.

I want to love you,

Give you this feeling too.

I want you to feel home,

Give you this feeling too.

I love you.

More than a friend,

Not like a lover,

I just love you.

I wish to be

The reason you smile.

I want to be

The reason you laugh.

I don't know how else

I'm supposed to say

I love you,

I'm home with you.

But I'll just keep saying,

"I love you,

I love you,

I love you."

#i wrote this about my best friend whos my whole fucking world i love her so much #i dont think she realizes how much i love her #and its also sort of a queer platonic thing sorta? #anywho #poetry #my poetry #poem #sort of #original poem #writing #writing things #love #queer #queer platonic crush #i guess thats what this is? #idk #i dont know how to label feelings i just feel em

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads / storygraph

Camp Damascus

horror

after throwing up insects and seeing demons that her parents deny, a girl investigates the conversion camp her evangelical community runs by investigating young people who’ve gone through the program and her own muddled memories

autistic lesbian MC

#camp damascus #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this was pretty good! I enjoyed it overall #though it wasn’t quite what I expected and I guess I have some craft aspects I didn’t love #the pacing was a bit weird and I found the narrative shifted from place to place in a way that kept losing me #and it was especially confusing in the beginning with the memories- though obviously that makes sense in hindsight #She also very suddenly goes from being sheltered and religious to talking about queer theory and stuff #and like memory stuff could explain that but I feel like it could have been smoother #I found some of the prose/writing a bit emotionally distant from what’s happening? I can see that being an intentional choice though #I guess it could have just gone harder in some parts than it did.I feel like I needed it to either be more grounded or more weird and tripp #sapphic books

[ubersaur]

y'know? after years of dread abt dying alone I think I'm now ok with it. I'm pretty damn grey/demi-aro and Im finally starting to feel okay about that!!

#thanks meds? Thanks representation? thank you all my friends who i love so dearly? I dont fucking know! but #over the last several weeks/months suddenly it's whatever and im accepting the aro aspects of myself! #I'm not gonna shut myself off from the possibility but like. I want to be realistic about it yknow? #crushes/Romantic interest come around very rarely for me. Rarer still for them affections to also be returned. #hell i barely remember why i dreaded being aro. I guess for simplicity #I just didn't want to be alone. But I'm not. I love my friends! #still feels a little alienating sometimes sure #but i already have so many OTHER intersecting queer & alienating aspects abt my identity what's one more lmfao. #imma jsut be a little weirdo its fine #idk just loving myself a lil more every day :) #rambling / #u

[smileandasong]

can't stop thinking about the exchange i had the other day where my coworker indirectly accused me of being a bad feminist because i dont like t*ylor sw*ft and "women need to support women" like.........like.........LIKE..........

#for context yes she is cishet which im sure will shock none of you #nothing but love to all of my normal sw*ftie homies yall are great #but this is precisely the energy why i absolutely cannot #and because yknow i just dont care for her music??? guess that makes me a massive misogynist #you heard it here first folks i actually hate women #anyway hi long time no text post fdsxfdssa i just need to scream about this #and tumblr is the only platform i feel safe doing that #anywhere else i go bitches will be like 'yes that is misogynstic of you :/' u queer she/they #smile.txt

[finexbright]

so much of what happened holds great significance not only to harry but to every single one of us. him acknowledging the flags, asking the fans to hold them up proudly, and thanking the audience for creating such a safe environment at his shows -- all these things weren't done in solidarity alone, they came from the heart of someone who's very much in the same community as us. he wants those flags there, he wants that pride there, he wants this safe space for both himself and for us, as has been the case for years now. the speech that he gave today came from a place of familiarity, he couldn't have said those words in the way that he did if he were just an ally. it was one of the very few times he acknowledged the flags using his words and i think that's monumental. rainbows are basically synonymous to harry's concerts now and it's because we felt safe and proud enough to do it and he wanted us to do it because he feels safe and proud too. i hope every single person who's been part of this fandom knows just how important whatever you do is. you are all important.

#soni says things #harry styles #i just. look. the thing is #it matters so so much to me and i wasn't even in the crowd and i know there's thousands others who feel the same #given how bleak things are with the stunt or whatever it was a big deal him being able to say those words #and i can't even imagine how incredibly difficult it must've been to navigate through that #to hold so much back and yet to be able to convey just how much he supports us too #rainbows at his concerts have been a thing since 1d days and he's been carving this space for us to be free ever since then #and we've received so much hate for it and we've been bullied and abused and faced with such brutality just for holding flags up #i won't lie to you. i was terrified of going to my harry show with my flag and thanks to some lovely friends i had an amazing time #and i know so many others were too and i hate that. i absolutely hate that the space harry created is shattered #and it hurts my heart to see it #because he needs those flags as much as we do #and i'm so glad that there's more and more projects being made and that the safe space is coming back again #i guess this is just me saying - #i am proud of harry and i am proud of us #and i hope we don't rest until his shows are nothing but a blur of happy faces and rainbows and colours and pride #we did that once we can definitely do it again #we are in this queer shit forever bbies