#just like 'i know that boys up to no good' then BAM...it's the queer kids

[missingexaltation]

Hopper being harsher on Eddie than any of the others post-Vecna because..."hell the kid's a drug dealer Joyce, and he's always around our kids."

The others run rampant, kids and older teens alike, but the second Munson is out of his sight, Hopper gets all itchy and concerned. It's his cop mode, he can't just switch it off around people he knows are bad for his family. He's being cautious.

So he thinks nothing of it when they're all around for a movie night, and Munson's disappeared. Hopper finds him outside, round the back of the house. But he's not smoking pot or snorting cocaine or breaking into anyone's car or anything.

He's got his tongue down the Harrington kid's throat.

The Harrington kid that Hopper hadn't even noticed was also missing from movie night. Because he's a good kid.

And Hopper backs the hell up and retreats back into the house, hopefully before he's noticed. But Eddie definitely saw him, and finds it hilarious.

#wish we'd seen some Hopper and Eddie dynamics tbf #neither are perfect and you just KNOW Eddie would wind him up the wrong way #Hop definitely arrested Eddie or lectured him in the past for his shenanigans but Eddie doesn't care #just like 'i know that boys up to no good' then BAM...it's the queer kids #and he can't say anything because he knows Will is probably gay too...so his reaction to steddie is panicked #'Well Joyce...you were right...it's not drugs that Munson's doing' #eddie munson #steve harrington #jim hopper #steddie #stranger things

[wen-kexing-apologist]

If y'all don't stop tagging me in "list your favorite ________" challenges, I swear.....(kidding)

You know I'm indecisive and that the second I'm asked questions like this everything I have ever known or loved just falls right out of my head :'(

ANYWAY. I was tagged by @colourme-feral to name 9 favorite TV series. Nine? Not ten? Alright, whatever. Now presenting, in no particular order

wen-kexing-apologist's Top Nine Favorite TV Series

I think, much like last time where I listed my ten favorite characters AND THEN LEFT OUT PIKE MOTHERFUCKING DEXTER LIKE A GODDAMN NOOB I can't be certain I am forgetting one that I cherish greatly.

Avatar: The Last Airbender

I'm putting this first because A:TLA was a show I watched live in my youth and I remember running the hating Zuko to loving Zuko gauntlet in real time.

But seriously, you can't give me the single greatest redemption arc written in human history and not expect me to cradle this show close to my chest for the rest of my life.

There are so many shows we grow up with that we remember fondly and that in the grand scheme of things aren't that good, protected by young minds and nostalgia AND THIS ISN'T ONE OF THEM.

Seriously my poor mother has had to listen to hours worth of rambling about the incredibly strong adult themes, three dimensional characters, and conversations around war and the portrayal of no one society as inherently evil from both of her children.

This is my boy and I will love him until the end of time, I'm sorry that I hated you when we first met. In my defense the narrative compelled me to do so.

Sense8

Queer, sex positive, beautifully crafted, orgies as a symbol of human connection, the way the world is so small and that people from all over the world have skills that are valuable, that save lives, that are needed and necessary. Humanity and complexity given to people involved in the drug trade, humanity and complexity given to drug users, humanity and complexity given to gang members, humanity and complexity given to prisoners. Love, loss, tragedy, trauma, trans joy, throuple, couple and whatever the fuck Daniella is doing, one really good weed brownie curing transphobia.

The ending wasn't perfect but that isn't the Wachowski Sister's fault, it was Netflix's fault.

I Told Sunset About You/I Promised You The Moon

This show, especially I Told Sunset About You, may be the single most emotional a show has ever made me. I think I cried four times per episode for ITSAY, the only time I didn't cry four times was Episode 3, where foolishly I made it through 98% of the episode went "this edible ain't shit I don't know why everyone is so emo about Ep 3, it's been the most mild so far" AND THEN FUCKING BAM

Teh with the steel fucking chair!

When I tell you I spent hours, numb, staring up at the ceiling?? It's not an exaggeration.

When I tell you I thought about this scene for more than three and immediately burst into tears??? It's not an exaggeration.

This show altered my brain chemistry, this show altered my DNA, this show was so fucking good and ruined me so thoroughly that I wasn't even able to make my brain come up with things to analyze.

in this show, WHERE THERE IS SO MUCH THERE TO ANALYZE. I am making a friend watch it right now so I'm hoping I will have more to contemplate and talk about as I rewatch it now that the emotional impact has softened.

Moonlight Chicken

Look no further than my Gay Meta Masterpost pinned to my page to understand why I love this show so much. It is gorgeous, it handles the subject of disability well, it's the show that got me to start posting meta and as a result it is the show that got me all the friends I have on tumblr now.

This show is perfect, the acting is spectacular, the inherent queerness that runs through the narrative, THE LIGHTING. Aof knocked it out of the motherfucking park with this one.

The Eclipse

Folks let me tell you what happens when you go from Not Me to The Eclipse...

you fall desperately in love with First Kanaphan Puitrakul and his masterful acting ability. I love this show so much. P'Golf had things to say and she was not afraid to say it. The queer characters got to be complex and messy and wrong sometimes, none of the main characters were morally superior, they all contributed to maintaining the system, they all helped harm other queer people. This show was made with pocket change and a dream and it gave me two of my favorite kisses in BL, one of my favorite stories in BL, and my sweet summer child

my beloved Baby War Criminal who is my favorite character ever in BL. Look at him. He is under so much pressure. GOD I LOVE THIS SHOW. And I love Thua too.

Our Flag Means Death

Setting aside the problematic fans, I watched this show eleven times. It was one of the only shows I'd seen where every couple was queer, I love how gradually the writing team was able to move this show from comedy to something more serious, I love the way Stede returned home only to find that he had been forever changed, I love the way Blackbeard was on his way to grieving and healing with healthy coping mechanisms, and the commentary the show gave on how exposure to toxic masculinity and internalized/externalized homophobia (in the form of Izzy) can alter that course. I love that traditional roles and expectations are subverted in this show. That Pete and Lucius are in love, that Olu gets thrown around by Jim, that the show allows for an older queer person to both realize his sexuality and experience his first queer love.

And also

it introduced me to one of the first nonbinary characters I had seen on screen. Jim Jimenez you can murder me whenever you wish, it would be my absolute honor.

What We Do in The Shadows

For one, it's hilarious

For two, Jackie Daytona exists.

For three

It gave me Guillermo de la Cruz, the sexiest motherfucker alive.

The Owl House

Queer, neurodivergent representation????? In my TV show??????? A main plot point being around the all consuming nature of white supremacy and religious zeal. Hunter? Dear sweet, awkward, traumatized Hunter? RAINE MOTHERFUCKING WHISPERS?!

Listen, I'm a simple bitch, okay? You put an enby in my television and I will be forced to stan.

I mean look at them!

Word of Honor

*points to username*

If I didn't put WoH on here I would have to give up rights to my username.

This is the show that started me on the BL spiral and having read the novel, I have to say that I have never seen a show change a character and expand upon a story as well as Word of Honor has.

The sex appeal, the swagger, and the lowkey unsettling obsession The Scorpion King has in the TV show compared to the book?

Expert execution of fundamentally and fully changing source text. The costumes are gorgeous and the way I was driven to the brink of insanity by how gay this show was despite censorship is truly unmatched. I know censorship can dampen a queer story experience, but damned if i didn't go feral and say "I can't believe they got away with that" at every given opportunity.

And

It gave me my beloved Adult War Criminal, Wen Kexing, who as we all know, has never done anything wrong in his life, ever.

___

Bonus Round:

aka shows that I haven't or that haven't finished yet so I am contractually obligated not to put them on a list.

180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us

I have two episodes left, it is absolutely killer, and if it continues to be as strong as it is this will be a 10/10 show for me and join the ranks of my favorites. This show is driving me mad with both hands and barriers and I need everyone to know that.

La Pluie

There are three episodes left for this to go wrong which is the only reason why I haven't put it on the list. But similarly to 180 Degrees, if it continues the way it is going now this will be a 10/10 show for me and join the ranks of my favorites. I LOVE what they are doing to subvert the soulmate trope. It is a masterpiece so far and I need more people to be watching this.

Tagging:

@solitaryandwandering, @ranchthoughts, @wanderlust-in-my-soul, @so-much-yet-to-learn, and @neuroticbookworm

Your choice whether to participate or not and apologies if you have already been tagged.

#atla #sense8 #itsay #ipytm #moonlight chicken #the eclipse #our flag means death #the owl house #what we do in the shadows #word of honor #avatar the last airbender #mlc #toh #woh #ofmd #wwdits #la pluie #180 degree longitude passes through us #tag game

[g1llyweed]

Beind a mostly in the closet trans dude is werid

Having a cold and losing my voice is such a good feeling the raspy, deeper, voice crack filled cold voice

I'm 155 cm (5'1) all my friends just so happen to be taller females so I'm always the one looking up at them and its werid

My friends consider me "one of the girls" but they also look at me like a annoying teenaged boy that I am

ALL my extended family assumes a just a masc gal and I cut my hair bc I wanted to be all masc lesbian but uhhh I'm a dude

First glance and you'd assume I'm a dude but as soon as I talk BAM you'd suddenly assume I'm a gal

I've said I'm trans out loud twice and I went into shock both times

You know those little things you get babies like a first christmas tree ortament or little things like that all mine are marketed for boys but I'm AFAB. I think its really funny coincidence (or not idk🤷‍♂️)

My chosen name is one letter different from my deadname, i thought this was hilarious hence why I chose it

I am so shy I had kids in my gr. 6 class think I was mute as well as a french teacher in gr 9, but I'm not (mostly) I'm just hella socialy anxious. Typicaly (not really) dudes tend to be loud and take up space and for some reason dysphoria decided to attack me abt this

I painted my nails once and my sister assumed I detransitioned (shes 11)

I have a friend whos queer and we will point out to each other when were looking very out of the binary genders as a complement

My dad keeps a trans flag for me in his room but he still uses my deadname and the wrong pronouns

I go to a uniformed high school, theres three ways yiu can wear your uniform, the kilt (female) the pants with no tie (female) or the pants with a tie (male) I wear the pants with no tie bc I don't own the tie and I'm not out yet but its WAY better than the kilt

I grew up doing highland dancing where females wear a dress and the males wear a kilt I always did compitions in kilt and didn't notice

Overhearing hetcis ppl panic over the pronouns on forms, I heard someone painc bc they didn't know what one to pick bc they didn't want to seem queer or homophobic (I was confused too)

I was on omegle and someone assumed I was a dude even after I had talked and I wasn't out yet to my friends AND I still had long hair. It was the best feeling ever

#transgender #scottish #lgbtq #trans dude #ftm misgendering #trans ftm #one of the girls #shit post #rant #spewing random info

[saturno-sol]

The Brainrot has gotten to me

WELL HERE YOU GO FOLKS (almost) ALL MY NOTES ON WYRMTHREAD (Chantilly/Quezal) both in Canon and in a Happier AU because yes Most put under a readmore because its over 1K long and the very end has some suggestive things because I’m allowed to think like that too so just as a heads up

Anyways here

Canon Codex

Do not establish a relationship outside of a blooming interest in each other that gets nipped in the bud due to...yeah cries 

So let us not delve too deeply into Canon rn, and sadly since the plot absolutely needs Chantilly gone to progress we turn to HAPPIER AUS!!!!! :DDDDD because I drove myself deep into brainrot and aoughhhhghhhghhhhghh

Songs I associate with canon because music is good- 

I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO DANCE by Tyler the Creator

Mr Loverman by Ricky Montgomery

Rest Easy, I’ll See You Again by Cuco (the title is a LIE) 

Pain by Pinkpantheress

La Gata Bajo la Lluvia by Rocío Dúrcal

The Night We Met by Lord Huron (thank you Jaxx) 

Noche No Te Vayas by Los Tres Caballeros 

Better Timeline AU!!!! 

Placeholder name but honestly it might stick because I’m too lazy to think up of a better one hghfdnkj, am open to suggestions tho

Basic Premise of this AU: Through some magic fuckery or whatever, Chantilly is allowed out of the Troupe and decides to tag along with our funky wyrm gal because nowhere else to go/hrnng big lady pretty. They actually do start going out and it turns out hey! They like each other, like a lot. 

They like each other so much that they get married and bam, WyrmThread real 

This is great because not only is my otp now canon and alive, Fuego (and later on Lune when Fuego adoptskidnaps them into the family) now has both parents! And they love their kids sm like damn do not get in between them else you want to get yeeted to Unalive World. 

In this one, the motivations for [REDACTED] have now morphed into somewhat the same way in terms of being dealt with but now we got the lacey boy to help Quezal do [SPOILERS], fight [SPOILERS] and help complete [SPOILERS] and help establish her empire. (I’m sorry but I am not revealing any important Codex spoilers yet)

“Will you be the Malfina to my Connecticut Clark?” 

Girlboss and Malewife, except they’re both still murderous and would happily see you to your grave if you intervene with any of their plans. I’ve given Chantilly throwing knives :) because he deserves to be dangerous. 

He deserves to look cool!! With knives!!! Fighting alongside his wifey!! 

Of course NKG fucks off when Chantilly leaves the Troupe but I love to think of him being akin to a disapproving in-law (“Really Chantilly?? You run off and marry some wyrm that didn’t even have a kingdom to begin with? Have the standards of the Nightmare Vessels deteriorated as time went on?”) 

Chantilly is somewhat concerned that Fuego is much more, for lack of a better word, feral than a regular Grimmchild would be but he doesn’t regret the decision to have him. He loves his bitey son even if he scratches through fabrics like water. 

And Quezal enjoys having another person to coil around and snarl at anyone that gets too close to them. It does take a while until they’re like velcro due to her issues with touch being equated to violence (Thanks dad /s) but once she overcomes that fight or flight response she absolutely does not let go of him. 

Burrowing into a dark place and nuzzling until he smells like her makes Wyrm brain go brr. And since he isn’t a wyrm there’s no instinct yelling at her to maim him if there’s no babies to take care of/mating season passed, he in her eyes is harmless. Even if they both know different, at least in her brain he is just a lil guy, no threat to her. 

Chantilly loves all the attention he’s getting from her, absolutely will allow her to carry him off and coil up against him as long as he can work on sewing while she broods over him. 

He’s naturally warm and for a wyrm that needs outside heat to regulate her inner temp like a snake he’s like a hot water bottle, world cold husband warm. 

Happby family can these Queers be HAPPY PLEASE 

Love languages!!! 

Quezal once she gets comfortable with physical stuff likes to nuzzle and bite :) but not to draw any hemo or cause harm, just to hold in mouth. She also likes to do acts of service, making sure that her husband is wont for nothing and doing little things like sharpening his knives for him. 

Chantilly loves to gift-give! Usually things he made by hand. 

“Quezal pls let me make you pretty dresses and outfits please you would so look good in teal” 

He likes kissing a lot, smoochies for wife and cuddling is great for him too, as long as he can sleep with his chest unobstructed he’s good 

They both love showing each other off

“Look at my partner they’re the fucking best ever, none of you bitches can compare to them.” 

When the empire is finally formed and Quezal takes her place as Empress she offers the title of Emperor to Chantilly 

He declines, Royal titles are just not his thing and he feels uncomfortable with them, so instead he goes by the title of “Lord”

His duties consist of assisting with any paperwork Quezal doesn’t want to deal with and being eye candy (/j but also not really he loves being shown off esp in new outfits) 

He also deals with nobles that aren’t too pushy, the ones that do are quickly steered towards Quezal. And usually after a meeting with her they learn better than to try to smart mouth either of them. 

Family Notes!

Chantilly’s the one to go to if you need advice and soothing comfort

Quezal’s the one to go to if you need someone beat the fuck up and also advice but in the no nonsense way. 

She also comforts but it's not in the way that Chantilly will delicately soothe the pains away, she tells you how it is but will hug you and tuck you into bed if wanted. 

On the other hand, Chantilly is the one Fuego and Lune go to if they want to do something crazy or stupid and know that mom won’t say yes. 

He dresses them up in poofy outfits (see the clown costume I’ve thrown on Fuego as an example) and shows them off to Quezal 

“Look my dear! Aren’t they the sweetest things you have seen!” 

It is very funny 

SONGS I ASSOCIATE WITH THIS AU

Meet Me At Our Spot by WILLOW

First Love/ Late Spring by Mitski

I Hear A Symphony by Cody Fry

She’s My Collar by the Gorillaz

My Kind of Woman by Mac DeMarco

New Light by John Mayer

Vivir by Jardin

coffee by Miguel

Never Getting Rid of Me from the Waitress Musical

WARNING WARNING

Ok next few am going to be a bit suggestive so stop here if you’re not into that but

I’m debating on if they’d have more children than Fuego and Lune and if so, how many HDJFJKSJ (thinking of twins named Arco and Iris because Arcoiris means Rainbow and I kind of like that and I’m also a sucker for twins) 

Listen, they’re both switches but most if not all the time Quezal’s the one topping. The man is submissive and breedable what do you expect HDJFJS

s i z e  D i f f e r e n c e 

Chantilly is a sensual romantic and loves a lot of buildup while Quezal just wants to get on with the good stuff, they make it work with communication and understanding each other :) 

They’re both capable of carrying so if they did have more kids I’d imagine they’d take turns on who’s turn it is to be eggy. (And I have so many thoughts about how they’d treat each other while pregnant but HHHHFJFJFHHHF too embarrassed rn waagaghgg) 

These two love each other very much and I love them. 

#Codex Xihuitl #WyrmThread #Chantilly and Quezal #my writing? #word dump #listen i love them #so much #hollow knight oc #oooOOo ur gonna read this and start liking my ship oOooOOO #/j I'm joking pls you dont have to read this or like them dfnknf #they're both queer and love each other very much and I CARE THEM #I CARE THEM #Let them be soft #at least in this case #in canon its more like let them be tragic #dfnkzk #aaaaoiguughhg #I love one (1) Big Lady who Kills and her Smaller Husband who also likes to kill #Ramblings #I am going to pass out now #give me your thots on this if you're wont to do #or not I dont really care

[ghostsandmirrors]

HEADCANON

in which i talk about Bucky, Bam, and family. under read more due to length.

Bucky, Bam, Family, and How Their Queerness Merged With Societal Expectations and/or Their Own Mental Illnesses to Create Two People Who Have or Have Had Very Complicated Feelings About ‘Family’

a rambling essay by Crow because I have many feelings about these two motherfuckers and they have related but not identical issues so efficient headcanoning! 2 for 1!

Bucky James Buchanan Barnes has never had a specific image of ‘family’ and what it means in his mind. Partly this was due to Steve and the way that their parents adopted the other’s son. The nuclear family doesn’t make sense when your mother figure lives in a different house.

Partly, this was due to his mother dying during his childhood, leaving him in a single parent family. The nuclear family also doesn’t make sense when your father has to deal with multiple children, leaving you, the oldest, as a secondary parent for when he’s at work.

And partly, mostly, this was due to himself. He knew since childhood that he liked boys. He liked Steve, he liked that kid in church, he liked that football player, that actor, that guy two years above in school. He liked boys. He also liked girls, but he liked boys. There was no big awakening moment, he just noticed one day that he didn’t have a preference and shrugged it off; he was young enough that he didn’t really think much of it.

As he got older, it became more clear that this would be a problem. Initially, who cared? It was the 1920s and gay culture was everywhere. Drag bars existed. Lesbians openly owned establishments that the unexpectedly attractive dock workers would go to. Little Bucky saw other gays on his street. His dad was friends with a guy and his ‘roommate’. (Oh my god, they were roommates)

The 30s brought with it the Depression and the death of openly gay culture in New York City as they were blamed for the depression and trying to break up straight families with their wicked ways. Teenage Bucky didn’t have the same glance at his community that his childhood version had. He still knew those roommates, but everyone else was gone. As far as he knew. It’d take him a good few years to find out that they weren’t gone, he just didn’t know what to look for.

Because he was into guys, the image of ‘family’ as being man, wife, children, white picket fence, maybe a dog didn’t match up. He knew enough to know that two men couldn’t have children. It was early enough that gay marriage wasn’t going to happen any time soon. The dog was about the only bit within reach. He decided he was fine with that. Good reputations only lasted so long, and he wasn’t planning to stay in the same place all his life.

That’s when the idea of ‘family’ became more complicated. He’d decided that he didn’t want kids. They were great, and he’d be a great uncle, but the hetero life wasn’t for him. It got even more complicated when America got involved in the war and he was drafted. He didn’t want in. He wanted that boyfriend, that cute house, that dog, that white picket fence. He didn’t get that. The idea of surviving the war at all seemed like an unreachable goal, but a goal he strived for regardless. Survive. Fuck ‘family’. Fuck the ideology of that white picket fence. He wasn’t hopeful about even getting the rest of his life. Even still, siblings needed letters and he kept it light.

‘Family’ didn’t have an achieveable idea or image with it, or not one he could achieve. ‘Siblings’ did. Those sisters who would call him ‘Jimmy’ because they knew he hated it. The ones whose letters always ended with, ‘miss you, brother.’ Those existed. ‘Family’ was for men who liked women and women who liked men.

What most would call ‘family’ was ‘home’ in his mind; the people he cared about, the warmth they brought, wasn’t a relation but a place. A sign of comfort and safety. It was something he thought about a lot, because gay men couldn’t have a family with marriage and kids, but gay men could have a home. Gay men could have ‘roommates’. His siblings? Home. Steve? Home. That future dog (that he still hasn’t got)? Home. 

The 1930s had a lot to answer for, and one of them was his absolute belief that he couldn’t have that ‘family’ that people spoke so highly of.

So imagine his pure confusion, so many decades later, when he’s talking to Natasha amid the heat of Wakanda and she mentions that the Avengers are her family and he has to confront those feelings. Those realisations that he had when he was so much younger and so much more inexperienced. Along with a couple of new ones, because his ‘home’ was now unreachable. Steve on the run, sisters dead, and there was no chance of that dog being a thing now.

Aka, the war tore ‘family’ and ‘home’ away from this man. Someone help him.

Bam Bam’s story is a lot shorter and a lot less... traumatic?

Bam’s idea of family is the same as Natasha’s; you make it, you aren’t born into it. It’s why his family includes his roommate’s cat. However, he still has complicated feelings about family as it’s meant to be; mother, father, two (cis) kids, a dog. His supposed father wasn’t the cause of this, though he certainly didn’t help. By the time Bam was growing up, divorce and separation were common enough that sometimes family meant one parent and one asshole who moved away and tried to marry someone ten years younger than him.

See, Bam isn’t out to his family. They know he’s gay. He’s been gay long enough and loud enough that they didn’t even need to ask. He announced it over breakfast one morning, that his friend was kinda cute. His brother just shrugged and his mother carried on with her crossword, because god damnit Bam, stop yelling this early. It took her the rest of the day to realise, and she told him that if he wanted to date his friend, she’d be happy... mostly because it meant that his friend already knew what he was like. It didn’t occur to him until three days later that he’d come out over breakfast and she basically shrugged it off.

A lot of things about his childhood were seen in a different light as soon as he realised that she’d probably put pieces together and decided ‘yeah, that fits.’

At that point, biological family meant ‘support’ from his mother and ‘complete indifference’ from his younger brother. These were both positives; ‘complete indifference’ was his brother’s default attitude.

Later, he had issues. Later still, he had more issues. ‘Family’ began meaning ‘not biological’ and ‘biological family’ began meaning ‘not proud, indifferent, and oblivious,’ because he figured out that the reason he wanted to be a cluster of stars or a trail of smoke wasn’t because he was depressed (though he was) but because he wasn’t male. His mother would call him her son, and he would error: 404 until he remembered that he hadn’t figured himself out enough to have the words to describe himself to his mother.

He didn’t get the time to between the issues and eventually the homelessness. ‘Family’ now meaning ‘confusing, not trustworthy, unknown’. ‘Biological family’ now meaning, ‘what family?’ He chose to leave, but that didn’t make it a nice memory. It wasn’t leaving for freedom, with the knowledge of a safety net. It was leaving because things weren’t going that well and he didn’t know what else to do.

Fast forward to living with his roommate (omg they were roommates, but platonic), where they’re both out to each other as nonbinary and gay/lesbian, and parenting her cat who’s a grumpy bastard at the best of times. Friends are a thing. ‘Family’ can now be, ‘two adults who strive to look like a drag queen and a butch lesbian, a cat, and the cat’s many aunts and uncles who spoil that fuzzy asshole of a creature.’

#ooc #rambling #more info : bucky #more info : bam #this is LONG

[denkilightning]

the wip yall asked for im ready for some self validation

important thing to pay in mind: hanta uses they/them pronouns!! and they’re half portuguese from their mother’s side

tw/cw, tags: (lots of) swearing, guns/gunshots, q slur, slight misgendering, unloving biological parents, lgbtq themes

summary: Hanta gets kicked out. Aizawa finds them. Shit happens.

pls give constructive criticism/some validation

Hanta woke up on a couch feeling like absolute shit. Their arms and fucking elbows were raw as fuck. Felt as if they were gonna fall off. 

Wouldn’t be that bad. 

They haven’t felt this bad even after the Sports Festival.

Probably because I haven’t used them much there lmao, they chuckled to themselves. Why did I fall asleep on a couch, anyway? 

Then Hanta remembered what happened last night.

Right. 

They came out to their mother. Which turned into coming out to their parents. Fuck. Because, yeah, that was smart. After their dad said he'd fucking shoot them if they turned out to be a fucking queer back in middle school. 

Right after the Sports Festival, Hanta decided it was a good idea to come out as genderqueer to their mother. 

Mamãe didn’t react so badly. 

A simple ‘You’ll always be my baby boy, querido’. 

Which were not the words they wanted to hear. 

Did it hurt? Yeah. Obviously. It was their mamãe, who was supposed to not only accept, but also support them all their life. 

And then she just… didn’t.  

She still loved them though! And wasn’t that enough? It didn’t feel like enough. It should though, shouldn’t it?

Hanta’s mother was an incredible woman. Smiling through hell, comforting them when they needed, taught them portuguese and everything they knew, really. Quirkless, in the world where only the quirk mattered. She was strong, funny, brave and beautiful. That’s what she was like, wasn’t it?

Hanta wasn’t at their house. They were at Aizawa and Mic’s. Fuck, I didn’t even know they were together. 

You couldn’t blame them, though. They didn’t pay attention to their teachers’ personal lives and these two were very different from each other. Didn’t seem to spend time together more than necessary. 

So Hanta was surprised when Aizawa warned them that Mic was there, too. They put two and two on their own.

Then the sweet smell hit Hanta. Rice, cinnamon and… vanilla?

Home.

It smelled like home. 

Tears pricked at their eyes. Fuck.

Baby steps, anjinho. They heard their mamãe's voice inside their head. 

They took a deep breath and slowly moved one arm. Hurt like hell but was livable. They gripped the blanket in one hand and slowly lifted. Then they moved their legs to test the waters. Their legs seemed fine. Or better than arms, rather. They put their legs on the ground, loosened the grip on the blanket and let it fall. 

It still wasn’t worse than father’s reaction.

Hanta couldn’t remember any actual words but what they did remember was shouting and gunshots and ‘get out of my house’s and fear. They remember feeling absolutely terrified. 

Hanta has never been so scared in their entire life. And they’ve been attacked by tens of villains and frozen by Todoroki, while being watched by the whole nation (if not multiple nations, fucking God).

Long story short, they were kicked out and they’d be homeless and starve to death if Aizawa hadn’t found them on his night patrol.

Hanta looked around and spotted a tall, slim figure in what seemed to be the kitchen. 

Just when the figure turned to them and smiled the extravagant smile, Hanta recognized Present Mic. 

‘I’m making rice pudding.’ Mic smiled. ‘It’s vegan.’ He added brightly.

Hana blinked in surprise.

‘Come on, sit with me.’ Mic invited the with a vague hand gesture. 

Hanta complied.

Mic smiled, pushing the plate towards them. ‘Try some.’

They took the fork. ‘Sure.’

They tasted the meal.

It was… not bad. They weren’t sure if it was good, but it surely wasn’t bad.

But most importantly, it didn’t taste like home. It was a bit sweeter, less vanilla than mamãe used to add. 

But Hanta liked it.

‘Do you like it?’ Mic looked at them with glowing eyes.

Hanta smiled. ‘Yeah.’ 

They looked down at their plate with soft eyes and looked back at Mic. ‘Thanks, Mic!’

Mic looked at them with a weird look in his eyes. Hanta decided he liked it. 

‘Call me Yamada, if you’d like.’

Hanta swallowed the rice and smiled again. ‘Sure.’

Hanta studied Mi- Yamada’s face, while munching on their food. They didn’t even realize how much they needed food until now. 

The guy would be considered really attractive if it weren’t for this fucking mustache, but Hanta had a mullet so they didn’t really have a room to judge. His colors were basically the opposite to Hanta’s. His rich brown skin contrasted nicely with the gold of his hair. He had a pointy nose and small mouth, which was surprising with his quirk in mind. His eyes were the most striking green Hanta has ever seen. And… was this red in his irises?

‘Um… excuse me, but what color are your eyes?’ Hanta asked slowly.

Yamada chuckled.

‘I have partial heterochromia.’ he said. ‘Most of my eyes are green and then there's bam! Red.’ Yamada gestured excitedly.

[the blank, but know toshi toshi comes in]

Don’t fucking assume pronouns, Hanta, they told themselves. A scratchier, brighter voice filled their mind, A hypocrite ain't something you wanna be, fofinho. Hypocrites end in sad places.

Yeah, I’m surely in a sad fucking place. 

‘You’re the guy from the hero course who got wrecked?’ Eyebags eyed Hanta, unimpressed, as they flinched.

That stung.

‘Not a guy.’ Hanta murmured, grimacing.

Eyebags raised their eyebrows and said, ‘Sorry. You’re the kid who got wrecked with that ice overkill?’

A sentence like that shouldn’t lift their spirits but Hanta was a human of low standards.

Hanta chuckled nervously. 

‘Yeah.’ They smiled sheepishly, scratching their neck. ‘And you’re the kid who declared the war on us?’ They raised their eyebrows, grimace turning into a soft smirk.

Just because they got almost killed by their own father doesn’t mean they’re not the piece of shit they’ve always been.

Yamada laughed.

#hanta sero #hizashi yamada #hitoshi shinsou #*mine: wip #have it!!! #hanta's mom is really really cool just.. like shes gonna be better but thatll be in the future #👉🏻👈🏻....

[tentando-nao-crescer]

I’m gonna write a damn text because I just can’t

They could’ve made a great finale. Even if they didn’t bring Cas back, it could’ve been good. They adopted a damn dog, for God’s sake.

Jack never made utopia. Sure, Heaven seems great, but the world still sucks. Last time we see Sam, he’s leaving the bunker with the dog for a hunt and then BAM, not a hunter anymore, nice family, definitely looks pretty safe for me. And that’s it? He lives?

And Dean what? After ages of surviving the most dumb things, of coming back from the dead, he just accepts it? The first time they can actually be free and make their own decisions? He just takes it? And dies? And Sam leaves it like that?

They barely even mention Castiel. Okay, they didn’t have time to mourn him before, they had to fight God and shit, but then they just? Don’t care? “Yeah Cas is dead and Jack is gone but hey, we gotta moe on”? Are you kidding me?

Let’s say they didn’t bring Castiel back anyways. They could’ve still done something to honor that, honor him. Dean could’ve lived, had a chils, maybe given him his name. They could be shown going on hunting trips or even just retiring nicely. They could’ve talked more about the people they lost and the show could’ve gone a little more deep about why Jack couldn’t just bring everyone back.

As queer, I will admit I was disappointed. They threw Cas’ whole love confession there, and even though Misha said it wasn’t platonic, who says it wasn’t? He can’t affirm that because the show didn’t. They really threw it out there and never went back to it, and that’s basically to appease anyone who didn’t want canon destiel, and that makes me ridiculously mad. But I’d have accepted them not making it fully canon if they had at least done something different to the boys. They didn’t do ANY justice to them.

I know they had to change some stuff because of the pandemic, but honestly? I’d have rather them just not filming anything. This was majorly disappointing. I had stopped watching at season 13 and didn’t care to catch up because I was busy, but 15x18 made me have some hope on the ending. I’m honestly devastated.

#supernatural #spn #spoilers #castiel #destiel #dean winchester #sam winchester #i’m sorry if this doesn’t make much sense #i’m just so mad #and I have no one to talk to about this

[flying-elliska]

Hii Ellie. This is kind of a personal question and it’s totally okay if you don’t answer it. How did you come to terms with your sexuality? How or when did you know you were bi? I know that it’s not about putting tags on people or anything like that, it’s just that I’ve kind of been struggling with it and it’d be nice to read your experience if you want to share it

Ooooh anon do you have three hours ? lol. Of course I want to talk about it if it can help anyone even a little. 

The tl;dr is : in stages, I struggled a lot, and bi characters were super important to me. 

So I think as a kid/teen I always had this vague notion that ladies were very pretty, but I was not a lesbian bc I liked boys too much, and besides I had these horrible ideas in my mind about queerness being immature and yucky, it was bad. I think I pretty much did have crushes on several of my girl friends but I just didn’t understand that’s what it was, just super intense friendship and being jealous when they got boyfriends hmmmm. Also my ‘fashion folder’ was full of pics of Keira Knightley in a tank top, cause that’s the height of fashion, am I right. I also wrote a letter to a girl I met at camp telling her her voice was so soft and eyes were beautiful and full of stars...do you wanna be friends ? Lol I was so obvious I swear, but it’s funnier in hindsight. 

Then when I was 18 I met this older girl in my circle of friends who was bisexual and I thought it was really cool, but I didn’t really connect the dots. I am ashamed to say, I thought she was saying that to give herself a vibe. 

Then when I was 19 i bingewatched the series Torchwood  ( a Doctor Who spinoff) and it felt like an absolute revelation. Jack Harkness, the MC, is this incredible badass rogue time travelling adventurer from the future who charms women and men left and right without any issue about it. (I think he’s...omnisexual or something ?) But this is the first time I saw the possibility of being attracted to multiple genders as something that’s actually valid. Seems silly now but this was almost 10 yrs ago, lol. It was the dark ages in terms of queer rep back then. And it’s such an integral part of Jack’s character, and he’s just so cool and it really struck a chord with me, this idea that in the future anyone can love whoever they want. There was the idea of a society that is founded on those principles, and well, I am very political in nature I guess, and i was like. yes. i can see it now. but it remained theorethical. 

Then the year after that, Erasmus exchange and I meet this girl. Like, it was bam! in your face, I fell head over heels. Now, tbh, I don’t get attracted to people all that often, but when it came to her it was absolutely indeniable. Now, she was already with someone else, so we remained just friends and it did suck a little, but I’m not sad, because it taught me a lot about myself (and she was just such a cool person in general I’m glad I met her). I just couldn’t get past it, yeah she was cool and stuff but I didn’t just want to be her friend, I was attracted to her, I daydreamed about being in a couple with her, doing romantic stuff, etc. And it was super validating to learn she was also bi a little later down the line (she was such goals in general, god.) So then after that I was like...um am I a lesbian ? Like I do have a lot of issues with men. And so I spent a lot of time having this wishy washy thing in my head.  Also that year, I was in Amsterdam taking all those gender studies classes. And it opened up my mind in a radical way - learning about queer history, the fact that sexualities are socially constructed, feminism, activism, etc etc....it allowed me to let go of a lot of my crappy internalized prejudices. I also wrote an essay on burlesque with in field research because i ‘liked the costumes’ yeahhhh right okay. The levels of denial oh my god. ANyway. 

Then i got really, really into Supernatural for a while (sigh...it was better back then, I have to say). This was s8 and the high moment of the ‘let’s prove Dean Winchester is bi’ meta palooza on tumblr. And spending so much time hunting for clues and reading so much about people explaining their own experiences of being bisexual and not realizing it until later I was like....wait a minute....That’s just so me. Dean probs will never come out of the closet, because they’re cowards, but I certainly did, so yay, I guess. I looked over my past and I was finally able to understand. I wrote the meta of my own life. Lmao. And I was able to come out to one of my friends on the phone. I felt so fucking powerful afterwards. Then to a few other friends. And it felt good. 

Then I came back to Amsterdam and I was like, alright, time to stop being a coward and actually get involved in some real life LGBT stuff. So I joined a student association and man. It was so fucking scary. I remember, they had this meet up at a bar every month, and I actually went twice, and every time I just was too nervous to actually go inside, i stood in front of it, and I went home. So in the end I actually signed up to be a member and for the integration day, so I just forced myself to show up. And I did. It was so incredibly nervewracking. I met up with a group of students holding up a rainbow flag in front of the central station and we had these series of challenges to do - take a pic with a rainbow flag in front of one of those bible thumpers, stage a harry potter duel in public, order a starbucks drink with the name ‘Vagina Jensens’, mimick the titanic scene where they’re on the edge of the boat...it was so silly and fun and everyone was so nervous in the end, it was awesome. I ended up on the newsletter committee of that association and I had a blast, interviewing people, writing book reviews, etc...I did have complexes though, that everyone was more cool and gay aware than me lol. But it still did a lot for me and helped me come out to my family. (at a restaurant for my 25th birthday because i am a drama queen lol.). At the same time it was very...mainstream gay frat house lol. Focused on partying and drinking and being sociable in a way that can be exhausting to me, and a little light on the politics, which has always been important to me. After that I volunteered for the Eurobicon as I spoke about earlier and it was so important to me, that being bisexual is such a worthy identity to have in itself and important to me beyond being just queer, it was really cool. 

I’m not totally there yet I guess, because I find relationships in general difficult, it’s been a while, I often feel like i don’t have enough experience to call myself bi, I’m nerdy and awkward, I don’t fit the cliché of the seductive bisexual, etc etc. i sometimes think that i’m a little bit on the ace spectrum too or at least demisexual because i don’t seem to be into people as often as most of my friends, and even then it’s very emotionally-focused. I also feel very weird about gender in general so that’s also a whole other thing. And my brain is wonky and i feel it interacts with all that.  I still have moments of ‘oh what if i’m actually a lesbian ! straight ! ace !’ looool.

But less now. I’m learning to let myself just...Be. ahahahahaah. And also I have more and more bi friends and that helps a lot, to just randomly swoon over multigendered celebrities and learn to be very casual about it. 

Anyway my point is. I included all those messy (kinda embarassing) details because : getting to terms with your sexuality is fucking hard. The wow i figured it out young and then came out and it was great thing ? still not for everyone. I think a key part is, we grow up with these ideals of the perfect life, of what it means to be the protagonist of your life - and most of the time still it involves hetero couple, marriage, babies - and to look beyond that, for a while, it feels like you’re going off track, disqualifying yourself. So it’s hard. Sometimes you actually need several moments of revelation, of it sinking in. It’s fine, it’s all fine. You’ll get there. No pressure. Don’t try to fit your story into a certain pattern. It’s yours, so it’s valid. 

#bisexuality #coming out #pride #lgbt

[punk-rock-pixie]

1-100

I need to be careful what I ask for lmao

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

Spotify

is your room messy or clean?

It’s messy rn just cuz I was looking for something

what color are your eyes?

Hazel

do you like your name? why?

Yeah. Picked it myself.

what is your relationship status?

single

describe your personality in 3 words or less

Really McFuckin Gay

what color hair do you have?

Black and blue

what kind of car do you drive? color?

Grey chevy cruz

where do you shop?

I’m a slut for Barns and Noble lately. Dropped $60 on classic ghost stories, Norse Mythology, and a Deathly Hallows journal. I’ve dropped over $100 literally in the last two months on books. I don’t work anymore though so that won’t be a thing anymore

how would you describe your style?

Sad college kid chic 

favorite social media account

Youtube

what size bed do you have?

Queen

any siblings?

One older sister.

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

The Nordic region. They’ve been doing so much right in terms of education and gender equality. 

favorite snapchat filter?

The anime one

favorite makeup brand(s)

NYX, E.L.F. and Bare Essentials

how many times a week do you shower?

I shower every other day, but I wash my hair like every 3-4 days to keep the color in.

favorite tv show?

Currently, really love trollhunters. 

shoe size?

Like a 7 in mens or something

how tall are you?

5′6.5″ The half is so important to me because I’ve hardly grown since 2012 

sandals or sneakers?

Trick question- no shoes at all. Our feet get hurt like men.

do you go to the gym?

Rarely, but yes.

describe your dream date

Dear god. Almost any date I’d be okay with. Coffee? Sign me the fuck up. Hang around a park/go on a walk? Lemme get my heckin sneakers. Cryptid hunting in the wee hours of the night? You just won my heckin heart buddy.  

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

Like $30-$40 I think????

what color socks are you wearing?

None sock

how many pillows do you sleep with?

Too many for my own good.

do you have a job? what do you do?

Not anymore :)))) There weren’t enough hours.

how many friends do you have?

How many friends? Many. How many close ones? Like 3-4

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

Something I’d rather not say.

whats your favorite candle scent?

Lavender always but peppercorn and pumpkin are the ones I’ve been using lately.

3 favorite boy names

Marshal

Ethan (NOT BECAUSE OF NESTOR)

Quinn

3 favorite girl names

Rose

Sadona

Rickie 

favorite actor?

Always and forever Chris Evans, but also Hugh Jackman found his way back to my heart recently. The Rock, Ramin Karimloo, Sean Gunn, Michael Rooker

favorite actress?

Zoe Saldana, Zendaya, Melissa McCarthy, Allison Janney, Julie Andrews, Maryl Streep.

who is your celebrity crush?

See above two questions, but mainly Hugh Jackman, Chris Evans, and Zendaya

favorite movie?

If you couldn’t tell, I’m hyperfixating on Greatest Showman, but also Book of Life, Monster in Paris, 1937 Phantom of the Opera

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

My favorite book is Dracula currently, but I also love Dodie Clark’s “secrets for the mad”, most of Shakespeare’s plays and Edgar Alan Poe’s works

money or brains?

Brains. 

do you have a nickname? what is it?

I have way to many dude.

how many times have you been to the hospital?

Like 7-8 I think???

top 10 favorite songs

In no order:

-I’m counting all of greatest showman as one

-Cat Stevens: Father and Son

-Raspberries: Go all the way

-Silver: Wham Bam Shang a Lang

-Babeo Baggins: Thunder Bird

-Dodie Clark: You

-Beatles: Wanna Hold Your Hand

-Vanessa Paradis and Sean Lennon: La Seine 

-Dear Evan Hansen: For Forever

-Karen O: Moon Song

do you take any medications daily?

No but I should probably get back on them.

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

Normal to oily

what is your biggest fear?

Abandonment :) Also I have claustrophobia

how many kids do you want?

I mean if we’re talking baby goats, as many as I can afford.

whats your go to hair style?

I kinda just brush my hair back and hope for the best

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

It’s not a mansion, but it’s pretty big

who is your role model?

@thatsthat24

what was the last compliment you received?

From @mild-soapog something about how I deserve a wholesome life and honestly I just love Elle???

what was the last text you sent?

“Hey, how are you feeling?” to a former coworker

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

I grew up Jewish so I never really thought it.

what is your dream car?

I don’t really care tbh. I’m pretty happy with the one I have.

opinion on smoking?

You do you just not around me cuz I will cough like a mad man.

do you go to college?

Soon

what is your dream job?

Professional film or stage actor or singer/guitarist in a band

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

Nope. I’m a good noodle.

do you have freckles?

Several

do you smile for pictures?

Yes, but only after make a bunch of stupid faces

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

659

have you ever peed in the woods?

Yes and uh 4/5 would not recommend 

do you still watch cartoons?

Yup

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Neither.

Favorite dipping sauce?

hek dude idk 

what do you wear to bed?

Usually like a tank top and underwear. if it’s super cold I’ll wear sweats too

have you ever won a spelling bee?

Have I ever even competed in one????

what are your hobbies?

Guitar, singing, ukulele, drawing, writing poetry

can you draw?

I’d say so

do you play an instrument?

Check hobbies with the addition of bass guitar

what was the last concert you saw?

I think it was a Beatles tribute band???

tea or coffee?

Both

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Starbucks

do you want to get married?

Honestly, first let me find someone local that will love me for more than 4 months

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

HJ, EJ, EN. 

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

You mean… IF I get married

what color looks best on you?

Blacks and purples

do you miss anyone right now?

Several people

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

usually closed

do you believe in ghosts?

Yes and no???

what is your biggest pet peeve?

chewing with your mouth open, snoring, pen clicking, leg jiggling (if it’s in my peripheral vision)

last person you called

My crush actually. He and I are friends and I asked if we wanted me to hang with him after school since he had to stay up until I had my callback scheduled

favorite ice cream flavor?

Chocolate chip cookie dough and cookies and cream

regular oreos or golden oreos?

What the shit are golden oreos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

Rainbow cuz I’m queer

what shirt are you wearing?

 A black tank top

what is your phone background?

a greatest showman wallpaper

are you outgoing or shy?

it depends on the situation

do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yes but ONLY IF THEY ASK BEFORE HAND.

do you like your neighbors?

I don’t even know my neighbors

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Both

have you ever been high?

nope

have you ever been 

Nope

last thing you ate?

Like half a pizza

favorite lyrics right now?

Idk my favorite currently, but these are the ones that keep circling my head

“When the world becomes a fantasyAnd you’re more than you could ever be‘Cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide openAnd you know you can’t go back againTo the world that you were living in'Cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide open

So Come alive”

summer or winter?

Winter

day or night?

Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

All????

favorite month?

October-November

what is your zodiac sign

Scorpio

who was the last person you cried in front of?

Honestly, I have no fuckin clue lmaooooo

#pixie interrogation #punkrockpixie #anonymous

[abstract-soprano-moved-blog]

Be More Chill Sky High AU

I saw this textpost here by dear-enjolras-hansen and was inspired to make a bmc sky high au! I remember watching the movie as a kid and loving it. But, yeah, go read the DEH one cause it’s real fun and cute!

Jeremy

Telepathy/Mind control

His mind control powers only came to him in his junior year, and they’re not full brainwashing

Basically he can’t actually force people to do something, but he can place powerful feelings of wanting to do it in the person’s head

His telepathy is full blown though and he can’t turn it on or off

But when he gets flustered or goes through strong emotions other people’s thoughts get jumbled in with his own and he can’t really tell the difference

His telepathy only came in sophomore year so freshman year he was powerless and therefore placed as a sidekick

Even in sophomore year his telepathy was kind of useless in combat so it wasn’t until junior year when his mind control kicked in that he was moved up to hero

He’s always felt really inadequate and weak because of his powers or lack therefore of

The fact that he can hear people’s snide thoughts about him also put a dent in his self esteem

He got called creep a lot because people accused him of purposefully listening in on their thoughts

Once he got moved up to hero people started to like him a lot more though

He initially lets it go to his head and basically abandons Michael and Christine

Buuuut eventually he snaps out of it and realises he’s been a dick

(His guilty pleasure is listening in to Michael think about dorky things like video games and poptarts)

The only time he ever used his mind control outside of combat was to guide people to the right questions during tests

Eventually they fiqured him out and he has to take exams after school now

Realised end of sophomore year he’s in love with Michael

Realises that all of Michael’s thoughts are less bromantic and more romantic

Runs up to Michael last day before spring break and declares his love in the middle of the school hall

They kiss and there’s no voices in his head for a moment

Michael

Sooo everybody thinks it’s going to be technopathy but it’s actually sound manipulation

It’s pretty cool, he can make really good music with it

He can also kind of use it in combat like Coach Boomer

Basically he can use sound waves as a physical force

But he fails to portray that in initiation so he gets put as a sidekick

He isn’t too bothered about it because, hey, he’s got Jeremy

And that girl Christine seems nice

His powers came to him in middle school so he’s basically known since then he wants to go into composing

He spends his free time hanging out with Jeremy and Christine, making music, and researching 90s super heroes and sidekicks

Even though he’s doesn’t become popular until him and Jeremy make up after their fight, ever since first year he’s been hired as the DJ for every major event at school

He writes sappy love songs dedicated to Jeremy and only lets Christine and Chloe listen to them

They’re really good

One day Jeremy finds them and like… Michael basically dies of embarrassment

It’s all good though cause it ends in happy making out

Doesn’t actually really care all that much about superheros or superpowers

He’s more interested in human culture

He’s one of the only kids at their school that doesn’t immediately judge people by their powers

Christine

Shapeshifting

It was actually only a week before the start of her freshman year that her powers came to her

She can shapeshift into any animal or human

But she really hates using her powers for combat so she was placed as a sidekick

This is mostly due to the fact that during initiation she only shapeshifted into a toucan, a bunny, and Lindsey Lohan

She shapeshifts a lot

Christine aint afraid to use her powers basically every ten minutes

She just loves changing randomly into a gecko

She’ll often change herself to look like Jake to confuse people

Jake finds it absolutely hilarious

She also likes to play harmless pranks on people

Like everything’s normal and then BAM elephant in the canteen

One time she changed into a frog and snuck into Chloe’s school bag to surprise her

Needless to say she was almost turned into an icicle by accident

Even though she’s a sidekick and not really in any popular circles, everybody likes her so she’s kind of friends with everybody

She’s really close friends with Jeremy and Michael though so she confides mostly in them and vice versa

She’s super close with Jenna after junior year as well so they have kind of a queer platonic relationship going on

For three years she’s had to hear about Michael’s ‘unrequited’ love for Jeremy and then when they finally got together Jake tells her he’s got a massive crush on Rich

And she’s just like crying to Jenna “Why do people ask me for relationship advice, I’m demiromantic, I don’t know what the hell I’m doing!”

Rich

This boi is pyrokinetic!

His powers came to him during the summer holidays before sophomore year

When he came back he showed off like nobody’s business and they moved him up to hero

He’s popular but everybody is lowkey scared of him

Then one day at a party he has a mental break down due to stress of family life and identity crises and all this shit

And he accidentally burned down Jake’s house and put him and Jake in hospital

After that he was super afraid of using his powers at all and was at risk of being moved down to sidekick again which would absolutely crush his self esteem

It was actually Jeremy that came up to him and sat him down and let him talk out all his emotions

The next day Jeremy took Jake aside and told him how guilty Rich feels

Rich and Jake have a long conversation about it and Jake tells him that just because he messed up once doesn’t mean he should stop using his powers

Rich gets mental health support and starts building up his life again

And all his friends are there to support him as he does

He also realises he’s bi

Makes an appalling amount of fire puns

Has a tiny crush on Jake and ends up going to prom with him

They spend the night together and after that start dating

It’s pretty good

Rich used to bully Jeremy about his powers but now they’re an really good terms

Him and Brooke basically talk to eachother about everything

She just gets him so they have a close platonic relationship

One year they went as a sexy angel and sexy devil for halloween

(Rich was the devil)

Jake

Super speed/Super strength

Immediately put as a hero without having to do initiation because of his parents

Jake’s had his powers since he was like ten so he knows how to use them really well

In school, people with more than one super power are already admired, that’s why Jeremy suddenly became really popular when he realised he could use mind control

But Jake’s just naturally an awesome guy

He’s basically the most popular guy in sky high

He prefers using his super speed more than his super strength but he’s well trained in both

Pretty much set for life since his mums were both well known superheros

He’s following in their footsteps

Already stopped a few small bank robberies

Dated Chloe all throughout freshman year

Broke up with her when he realised he was only with her because they were both the ‘most popular girl/boy in school’

Dated Brooke for a bit in sophomore year and then went on a few dates with Christine in junior year

Drunkenly made out with Jeremy one time during Jeremy’s ‘popular’ phase

Basically he’s hooked up with a bunch of kids at school

Because he’s seen as the ‘golden boy’, he feels a lot of pressure to do well as well as keep up his image to his classmates

Turns to sex and alcohol for stress release

He had a problem and refused to get help but after he almost burned to death and was put in hospital it was kind of like a wake up call for him

He got his shit together and he still regularly goes to AA meetings

Gets an extreme puppy love crush on Rich their senior year

Keeps doing things like lifting up benches or running to catch footballs on the other side of the school to try and impress him

It works out well in the end

Really good friends with Brooke, Chloe and Jenna

They make him carry their shopping bags and sometimes them when they go shopping

Chloe

Ice powers

She’s had her powers since the end of elementary school so she’s really talented with using them

She can kick ass in combat but also uses her powers to create ice sculptures and cool her drinks up in the summer

Put as hero no question

Best at combat in sky high behind Jake

On her way to becoming a great superhero

Is often called ‘Ice Queen’

She likes it and is thinking of using it for her alias

Has to deal with a lot of Elsa jokes

She just freezes people to get them to shut the fuck up about it

Loves to pair up with Rich during training

Watching them spar is spectacular

Her, Brooke, Rich and Jake are all training buddies

In her senior year she becomes basically best friends with Michael

They sit and bitch about people while listening to Michael’s latest composition

After Brooke and Jake broke up Chloe and Brooke started up a ‘friends with benefits thing’

Then Chloe realised she was actually in love with Brooke and wanted to cuddle and kiss her non-sexually

So she puts up a massive ice sculpture outside Brooke’s house one day junior year  that says ‘BE MY GIRLFRIEND’

They become a couple

Has been close friends with Jenna since they were kids, and even though she acts like she’s perpetually annoyed by her, Chloe is super overprotective of Jenna

Like she’s overprotective of all her friends (especially Brooke), but like it’s really noticeable with Jenna

Once knocked a guy out for making fun of Jenna being a sidekick

She’s a very angry teen just cause of social and academic pressure, as well as her crippling insecurity

When she’s super angry she’ll storm off to be alone

And just sit and let the things around her slowly be overtaken by frost and ice

Turns lakes into ice rinks in the summer for her and her friends to skate on

Brooke

Flight

Brooke’s had her powers since she was a baby

Her parents had to put an extra secure cage on her cot so that she would stop whizzing around her room at midnight

She also had to be put on a child leash for her toddler years

She loves flying so much

Hardly ever walks anywhere

Just floats around like 3 cm off the ground

Hero

She’s great in combat and is expected to be a superhero in the future

But she has her heart set on being a trainer

The spotlight kind of freaks her out so she’s much happier supporting people instead

Has been pining over Chloe since middle school and when she wakes up to see the ice sculpture in her garden she flies down from her bedroom window and scoops Chloe up superman style and kisses her

When she gets upset she flies up to a really high cloud and just kind of… sits there and cries

She like to fly around with Christine when she’s shapeshifted into a bird

She gets called ‘airhead’ a lot as a joke and even though she laughs along it makes her quite self conscious about her intelligence

She just feels like everybody always only sees her power when they look at her and not her

BFFs with Rich

Even though she’s scared to stand up for herself she’ll protect her friends against bullies

If anybody makes fun of any of her friends she takes their school bag or some other possession and puts it on the roof of the school

And then refuses to get it down for them

Jenna

Technopath

Nobody expected it because everybody forgets the fact that Jenna is actually super smart

She’s super good with any kind of technology, but especially mobile devices

Constantly has her phone with her

Is initially placed as hero in freshman year but she mostly uses her powers to snoop on people’s group chats and the school’s secrets

Cause she could not give less of a shit about being a superhero

She gets moved down to sidekick halfway through freshman year

The only thing she’s worried about is that her popularity is rapidly decreasing

She starts getting left out of loads of shit because being a sidekick means you’re a loser, basically

But she manages to crawl her way back up the social ladder due to her friendships with Chloe, Brooke and Jake

But everybody just completely labels her as a sidekick tagging along behind a group of heroes

So she always just assumes that people are friends with her out of pity or to utilise her power in some way

It takes a lot of time and reassurance from her friends to realise that that isn’t the case

She actually starts to care about her future in like sophomore year and starts to work hard on training with her powers and her grades

End of senior year she gets an offer to work with the government which she takes

Really close friends with Christine

They move in together after high school

They’re quite codependent on each other but not in an unhealthy way

They’re just super close

The lines between a platonic and romantic relationship between them are blurred

Close friends with Chloe and texts her about every piece of gossip she hears

Favourite hobby is hacking into homophobes/transphobes/racists/etc blogs and changing them to look like foot fetish blogs

I may have to write a fic of this… But yeah. BMC Sky High AU

#be more chill #bmc #sky high #sky high au #bmc sky high au #jeremy heere #michael mell #boyf riends #christine canigula #jenna rolan #richard goranski #jake dillinger #richjake #chloe valentine #brooke lohst #pinkberry #cinnabun

[paultoner]

Take a Bite of Niall Candy

From dancing onstage with Charli XCX, to working almost every party you wish you were on the guestlist for, meet the London based drag queen about to push the throttle on their career.

Glitz. Glam. Galore. These are the type of words which spring to mind when you’re about to meet up with one of London’s most exciting drag queens. But it’s early Sunday evening and I find myself at a desolate pub tucked behind Granary Square in Kings Cross. The kind of place firmly left behind as London’s nightlife suffocates in gentrification. I’m surrounded by kids aimlessly trying to entertain themselves whilst their dads use the penultimate hours of the weekend to have a well-deserved catch up with good ol’ Stella Artois.

Niall Candy’s look today is rather tame, but within our unfortunately bleak surroundings, he’s as subdued as a jock-strap plastered in Swarovski crystals. His milky complexion compliments the pale pink kawaii-printed shirt he’s wrapped himself in, his eyebrows half shaven, his dark curls concealed by a beret held put by three rather large bedazzled clips. “At the moment everything has to be pink” he confesses, “the hair has to be pink, the eye makeup has to be pink. I don’t know why but if I put on anything else I don’t really want to wear it and I don’t really want to go out.” He politely turns down my offer to buy him a drink, he’s not the first boy to do so. Thankfully this time it wasn’t due to my piss-poor chat up lines, but because of a heavy night before, hosting a party at the Ned Hotel in Bank, “I basically got payed to stand around and look pretty all night, it was great.”  

Essentially Niall Candy is the Clark Kent of drag (as if Superman could get any camper?) By day he’s a final year fashion journalism student at Central Saint Martins, where he’s about to embark on his final major project, “it’s a magazine basically like the Country Life, but full of drag queens.��� By night, he’s one of the most innovative faces within London’s queer nightlife sphere. “I learnt a lot of my drag make-up style from my friends in Paris. The House of Morue. I lived out there for 6 and a half months” he tells me, “that’s where my boyfriend lives. And he does drag. So I kind of had my own style, then I was very inspired by their style which is very severe. Very Mugler woman. Then I took part of their style, part of what I was already doing and I think it works.”

Candy’s look has evolved from stepping out a Harajuku day dream with gentler, dainty male-drag looks, like a school boy after a growth spurt, to larger-than-life anime eyes reminiscent of a Lady Gaga, Hello Kitty inspired, shoot back in 2010. To now, a mutant woman, subverting the clichés of feminine beauty. Endearing, with a dash of sexual confusion. Carrying the elegance of a forgotten starlet spat straight out the mouth of Andy Warhol’s Factory.

Long before we felt the true effects of the Ru-pocalypse, when drag was catapulted straight into the mainstream all thanks to a little show called RuPaul’s Drag Race, Candy was already doing drag for a hot minute. Clad in pleather skirts, New Look wedged heals and a fringed wigs straight out of the bag, a fake ID was his gateway to amercing himself in the serotonin-washed bliss of the capital’s queer nightlife spaces, from Dollar Baby in London Fields and Hoxton’s East Bloc, all at the tender age of sixteen.

Growing up in Watford, he was the only out-gay pupil in a school of 2,400 students. He needed an escape from heteronormative lifestyle of mundane village reality. So he downloaded Twitter and got in contact with Smiley Vyrus, a new kid to the London drag scene at the time, who he began spending most weekends with. “I would not go to school and not say anything to anyone, get my friends to sign me in” he admits, slightly squeamish at his once irrational behaviour, “ I would just get the train straight into London and stay at someone’s house and go out for the weekend.”

Although, his now signature mug hasn’t always had a mesmeric hold, confessing many of the queens he has recently affiliated himself with didn’t recall meeting him in his premature days of drag. Partially due to his naive skill with the paintbrush, “it was terrible, like I had that brow, that Latina bam bam” gesturing at a brow arched over half of his forehead’s surface area. But for the most part, because of a four year hiatus Candy took away from the scene.

A drastic revaluation to his life choices, Niall decided to swap spending his time dating 24 year olds from North London for the books. He had a lot of catching up to do. For all those days in his first year of sixth form spent with a lipstick or a glass of champers in his hand as opposed to a pen, dedicating all his free time toward his studies, even missing close friends’ eighteenth birthday parties in preparation for his A-Level exams.

Speaking of eighteenth birthdays, it was only shortly after his when Niall’s family decided to emigrate to Canada, “I really didn’t want to do drag when I first got out there because I needed to like find a friend” he says, before breaking into an embarrassed giggle. Thankfully, he only spent a year across the Atlantic before returning back to London in time to enrol for Central Saint Martins, and reintroduce himself to all the pretty thrills of his drag closet.

Two years into validating drag as a viable career path, it’s only been within the last few months that the cheques have begun to write themselves, “those queens who think RuPaul has made [drag] a very acceptable thing to do, they’re the ones who think they’re gonna become instantly famous and make all that money straight away. I can tell you from experience, I’ve been doing drag consistently full time for 2 years, maybe 3 years? I don’t know it all rolls into one, enough drunken nights it’s just like a blur. I’ve only in the last 6 months started to make money. Like enough that I can actually survive.”

And who better to continue your drag journey with than your boyfriend? Although Candy isn’t quick to shrug off accusations of jealousy, “we both decided to do drag stuff at the exact same time, and now sometimes it’s a jealous motivation” he admits, “If you’re gonna look good. then I’m gonna look good as well. It pushes us both to work a lot harder, its two brains instead of one, I never have a look that I don’t run past him first.” He speaks of Timothy through a particular tenderness, a genuine admiration. Throughout our discussion this evening, I’m arrested by Niall’s sincerity. He gives me hope that once you get through a drag queen’s tough outer shell, they’re surprisingly sweet on the inside.

“He’s quite genuine in a city full of fakes, I’ve always been struck by his kindness”, says Bailey Slater, a fashion journalist who first met Niall at age fourteen, waiting in line for a Charli XCX gig, “he’s always been a great person to get advice from, a real sweet soul.”

Niall speculates a supportive family network is at the route of his kindred spirit. Raised on a random stew of Cher, Gwen Stefani and Dolly Parton “In our house Dolly is held to a level of godliness”, his brother, eleven years senior of Niall, played a key role in paving his queer influences. “My brother made me watch Party Monster when I was a child child, and my parents lost their shit” he recalls, “he is very pro-gay, very pro-LGBT. The way he said it to me, as soon as he realised I was going to be gay, which it was no secret, he tried to educate himself as much as he could.” His parents are equally as supportive, as he jokes about a birthday post his mum wrote for him on Facebook were she only posted pictures of him in drag.

His passion for drag is potent. From throwing a sash around his head pretending to be Cilla Black as a child, to today, telling me plans of heading to America to escape the crippling restrains of being a queen in London, it’s unequivocal that he’s destined to make it. He has that dreamboat charm, with a twinge of awkwardness, the primal ideal of creative integrity, with common decency.

We walk to Euston station together, casually talking dreams of owning breast plates and plastic surgery wish-lists, I’m halted in query, “how do you plan to manage your double life? Balancing a full time drag career with hopes of also making it into the fashion industry. ” He ponders, “I honestly don’t know, but in the least cocky way possible, I want this so much that I will get it. I deserve everything.”

#unpublished

[bellabooks]

Imagine If They Had Just Made Them Gay: SuperHero Edition

Out of all the numerous movie categories out there, the superhero genre has always struck me as insanely queer. Maybe it’s all the tight, spandex outfits. Or the overly common “outsider / sociality reject” theme that can be found in almost every superhero movie known to man. But, regardless of the reason, most superhero movies tend to be one good, sweaty grappling fight scene away from being dubbed an LGBTQ+ instant classic. So then why aren’t there more queer superhero movies? Simple. Superheroes, by our antiquated societal definition, are supposed to be the epitome of hyper masculinity. They are super muscular, insanely good looking, and always manage to not only save the day, but also win over the affection of the damsel in distress while doing so. And of course, this naturally means, they can’t be associated to anything that remotely goes against those stereotype. Like being female. Or queer… Or, god forbid, being a queer female. Yes, there have been some great strides made over the past few years to fix this general disparity and we are finally starting to see more of an overall variety when it comes to types of superheroes on the big screen *cough* Wonder Woman *cough*, but there’s still a long, long way to go. So, while I sit and wait for Hollywood to finally make my dreams come true and produce a honest to god queer female superhero movie, I pass the time by playing a few rounds of “Imagine If they Had Just Made Them Gay” with some of my all-time favorite superhero movies.   Power Rangers (2017) Now, I know what you’re thinking… Power Rangers? Seriously? Out of all of the one to choose from in the vast lexicon of superhero movies, why Power Rangers? Isn’t it just a cheesy, big-screen version of the painfully bad 90’s kids TV show? Well, three reasons. One, the Power Rangers Movie is actually good… like surprisingly good, in an modern day Breakfast Club, extra angsty sorta way. Don’t believe me? Go on and watch it for yourself. Don’t worry. I can wait… Done watching? Good. Now, let’s continue. Secondly, the Power Rangers is one of the rare examples of an ensemble superhero movie that features more than one female lead. Crazy, right?  But, sadly, it’s the truth. The Avengers? Black Widow. Fantastic Four? Sue Storm. The Justice League? Wonder Woman. You get the point. And lastly, it’s the first superhero movie to feature a queer character. Granted, I use the word “queer” loosely because this is only hinted at in one scene where Trini (aka the Yellow Ranger) gives an indirect “coming out” speech after being asked if her problems were “girl problems.” But, at the same time, though, given her steady wardrobe of flannels and beanies, and faux shaved side of the head hairstyle, little to no verbal confirmation is actually needed. Trini, in short, is one rainbow flag away from a one woman pride parade. So, given all of the above, plus the overwhelming amount of Trini / Kimberly (aka the Pink Ranger) “getting to know you” deleted scenes, why on earth didn’t they just take it one step further and make it a full-fledged queer falling in love story? Absolute head scratcher, right? Well, I still hold out hope for there being one in the next movie (that’s if Lionsgate comes to their senses and finally green lights a sequel), but in the meantime, imagine if Power Rangers went a little something like this… Kimberly Hart. Once head cheerleader and ex-teen royalty of Angel Grove High, falls from grace after leaking a nude pic of her ex-best friend to her then boyfriend. (side note: still have sooo many questions as to why she had this pic to begin with. Is this a straight girl thing? Cause, if not, it so screams gay in a “I have memorized every Tegan and Sara song known to man” sorta way.) After giving herself an impromptu bob in the high school bathroom during Saturday detention, Kimberly happens to stumble upon four other high school social rejects late one night at the local quarry and they proceed to make a life changing discovery in the way of five oddly colored, intergalactic gems. Quickly coming to the realization that they suddenly now all possess superpowers thanks to the mysteriously gems, the group returns to the quarry the next day in an attempt to figure out what the hell is going on. And it’s at that very moment, that Kimberly’s whole life changes… Cue Trini. Angel Grove’s very own death metal loving, yoga practicing, resident pocket-sized queer. She’s feisty, sarcastic, and knows just how to impress a girl with her climbing up the side of a rock face and then leaping over an enormous cavern skills. Unable to hide her gay, Kimberly stumbles her way through a painfully awkward conversation where she tries to turn on the charm and convince Trini to come with them. And when that doesn’t work, she decides to just bite the bullet make a move (literally) but grabbing hold of Trini, throwing them right over the side of a cliff. And so begins the all too familiar “is it or isn’t it a date” montage. It’s all fun and games, until a gold obsessed villain named Rita shows up and decides to pay a late night visit to Trini. Rita proceeds to rough Trini up as a warning to the rest of the rangers and in the process fully ticks off Kimberly. Out for blood, Kimberly convinces the rest of the rangers to go after Rita. But, like most novice superheroes, the are beyond ill prepared and not only do they get their asses handed to them but the run also results in Billy ( aka the Blue Ranger) getting temporarily killed. After a quick regroup back at the ship for a prep talk and a minor supernatural resurrection, the rangers go after Rita once again, this time sporting brand spanking new suits and prehistoric themed vehicles. An epic battle ensues and in a sudden life and death moment, the light bulb finally clicks for both Trini and Kimberly. They want to be together… No, scratch that. They NEED to be together. And right now. With the burst of extra motivation, Kimberly and Trini lead the charge and help the boys send Rita on a one way trip to deep space and then sneak off to celebrate with one another… again… and again… and again…   Hancock (2008) Again, I know what you’re thinking… Power Rangers is one thing, but Hancock?  Not only is it a mediocre movie at best, it’s not even based off of a pre-existing comic franchise. I whole-heartily agree that Hancock has its fair share of problems. For starters, the main one being the casting of Will Smith as Hancock himself. Now, don’t get me wrong. I love Will Smith. There are roles that are just good fits for him and then there are the other ones–the ones like Hancock. And then there’s Jason Bateman. Jason Bateman always plays one type of character and one type of character only… Michael Bluth. And Michael Bluth should never ever exist within a superhero movie. But, looking beyond its problems, Hancock does have something going for it that most superhero movies, more often than not, tend to severely lack–an original and unique story. Hancock’s plot at its core is an unrequited love story. Two superheroes, who are destined to find one another time and time again regardless of the situation, yet the mere presence of one another is so toxic that being together will eventually lead to their deaths. Sound vaguely familiar? Like something you might’ve seen in real life once or twice? That’s because this plot could also double as a description for roughly 65% of all queer relationships. Who hasn’t had a friend (or ten) break up with the same girl time and time again only to get back together with her a few months later because “they can’t help themselves”? So, given that it’s plot is insanely queer to begin with, imagine if Hancock went something like this… (Sidenote: My photoshop skills are good, but not THAT good. So, every time you see Will Smith, just imagine an amazing actress instead… Like Samira Wiley) Hancock, a rough around the edges queer superhero, is known for two things. Protecting the citizens of greater Los Angeles from a wide array of criminal activity and creating an insane amount of collateral damage while doing so. In short, Hancock has a MAJOR perception problem. But does she care? Chalk it up to years of being dubbed an “outsider” or a superhuman sized chip on her shoulder, but Hancock just doesn’t seem to care what anyone thinks about her. She’s a superhero and that means show up, kick some ass, and save the day. End of story. There’s just no need for anything (or anyone) else. But, then one day, Hancock’s world is turned upside down when she happens to save the life of a lovable but super generic PR specialist named Ray. Beyond grateful, Ray makes it his personal mission, not only to befriend Hancock, but also to help her turn her public image around. New clothes. New attitude. And of course, new social circles. Hancock begrudging goes along with it all, including agreeing to attend a family dinner, where she happens to discover that Ray’s wife Mary looks oddly familiar. And suddenly… BAM! Hancock finds herself inexplicably drawn to Mary. She simply can’t get enough of the woman and needs to be around her 24/7. Mary, though, wants nothing to do with Hancock. She’s not only strangely standoffish, but seems to make up an excuse to leave the room whenever Hancock appears. Dying to win Mary over, Hancock attempts to learn more about her and in the process discovers that Mary, in fact, is a superhero as well. But before Hancock can confront Mary on this unique shared similarity, Mary falls deathly ill and is hospitalized. No one seems to know what the problem is and to make matters worse, Hancock is affected as well, but only when she’s in proximity to Mary. Hancock is pushed to the brink of insanity while trying to unearth what is causing Mary’s illness. Unable to handle her feelings, she goes on a crime-fighting bender and after being hit on the head by a flying piece of debris, suddenly remembers who exactly Mary is. Mary is Hancock’s eternal soulmate and, in a cruel twist of fate, also her ultimate kryptonite. Lifetime after lifetime, they are destined to find one another, only to inadvertently poison each other to death by their mere presence. Not wanting to put Mary through anymore unnecessary pain and suffering, Hancock decides that the only sane and logical thing to do is for her to disappear forever and live out the rest of her life in utter isolation. She goes to see Mary one last time to say her goodbyes, but for she can carry out her plan, Mary stops her. Thanks to modern technology, there’s a way they can be together and yet be apart at all at the same time… So, what do you think?  What other superhero movies do you think would be better if they had just made it gay? http://dlvr.it/PjNdz1

#Movies #Hancock #Imagine If They Had Just Made Them Gay

[millicnreasons-blog]

how do you feel about lgbtqa roles in media? @ u

PRIDE MONTH QUESTIONNAIRE // accepting

Oh now this is a very good question.

I think comparatively, since the 1990′s there’s been a slow upward trend in lgbtqa representation, it’s gone from relatively few and negative images to a much more visible and positive representation. However, that isn’t to say the media doesn’t have a long way to go in providing more appropriate and positive healthy portrayals of lgbqa people. My main bug bear when it comes to queer representation is the trend of f/f storylines or even subtext f/f is still geared towards the straight male gaze. ( holla for hetero privilege yall can we say H E T E R O N O R M A T I V I T Y ). 

Another issue with lgbtqa storylines is that they can often be delivered in a way that is palatable to the masses eg. the trope of pairing male gay characters with a heterosexual female counterpart - will & grace is like the PERFECT albeit a little dated example of this- ��by making the gay male character the female leads homo-platonic pseudo husband ( and even with will & grace fight me if there wasn’t this over whelming implication that they’d end up together by the fandom ).

THIS GETS LONG…. so I’mma read more it!!

       Let’s talk Buffy the Vampire Slayer; so this show was literally at the forefront of queer portrayals imo. the willow and tara love story was so beautifully crafted, and delivered with grace. it grew so naturally and, i know now from interviews with Wheadon that it was his intention from very early on to take Willow’s story down that route. and this was in the last 90′s, a lesbian full frontal kiss on primetime television, it was fucking visionary, and because of this show and this story line I was less afraid to explore my own feelings for the same sex.  Their romance would die ( literally when Tara died and oh god that hurt ) but what they did after that is arguable so important – and as much as I hated it at the time looking back now, giving Willow another female love interest, after Tara was so important. They didn’t just leave her to grieve and be alone, they gave her hope, a new beginning. And you might slate BTVS for a lot of things, but how they played out that story line in the late 90′s early noughties was spectacular. and they were anything but apologetic about it.  

     Now let’s talk about Grey’s Anatomy; this show has done wonderful at queer representation.  I might have such a love hate relationship with a lot of aspects of GA but queer rep is one thing is does exceptionally well, and it isn’t afraid to tackle very REAL problems that lgbtqa people face. the marriage story line with Callie & Arizona was so tasteful and so REALISTICALLY done. Callie’s  religious parents didn’t accept her.  her mother didn’t show up to her wedding; their wedding wasn’t legal because at the time the state of washington didn’t have marriage equality. While i think it’s very important to show healthy, stable relationships between same sex couples, what is even more important is to show their struggles. This gives lgbtqa people something they can relate to. Another story line i though was super important was the one with Ben Warren’s transgender MtF sister.  Ben struggled to come to terms with it, and displayed some wholly disgusting transphobic attitudes and comments. which, although enraged me to watch was relatable, and a true representation to a lot of trans* individuals face when coming out to their families. And finally, the Calzona court battle, gave such hope to not only same sex couples facing awful custody battles but ALSO to adoptive parents. I was extremely well executed.  So well done grey’s you’re doing pretty damn good at this.

    Other noteable, good examples of positive and realistic portrays is definitely Shameless (US) the Gallavich storyline.  A story of two rough kids from shitty neighbourhoods figuring shit out. And while their relationship was toxic at some points,  the growth and character development within it was intense. They loved each other very much, too much even, and in the end that love wasn’t enough to keep them together. it broke my heart i won’t lie. watching how far they came from Mickey’s outright refusal to label himself gay to standing up in the middle of the Alibi and declaring it everyone was fucking beautiful. Also, Shout out to Shameless also for their Poly representation.

 And the NOT so good, trend of QUEER BAITING. two of my favorite shows are guilty of this. They pull you in with this hint of a beautiful queer ship. ( Lexa and Clarke; Betty & Veronica ). maybe they even give you a kissing scene. a little development and then BAM they rip it away. In t100′s case by killing of a queer character for nothing more than shock value. or in Riverdale’s case,a little girl on girl for the ‘shock factor’ of attention whoring. With little consideration for how much that would piss off there queer fans… another Riverdale problem is Jughead’s asexual erasure, which, no isn’t just me pissed off at BUGHEAD. (i lowkey ship it; it gives a girl Literati feels okay??) i know that only one incarnation of the comics confirmed outright his status as asexual. but, for anyone who’d read the comics that doesn’t need to be said, it’s very evident without the outright language that Jughead is ace. What i would have liked to see was that being explored within a relationship. There is no reason why, Jughead, as an asexual could not be in a relationship. I would have prefered to see was how his sexuality would have affected said relationship, be that with Betty or anyone else for that matter, but unfortunately that isn’t a route CW wanted to take for his character, and as someone who identifies somewhere on the ace spectrum ( lil bi-demi right here yo ) that’s kinda sad to me.

So yeah,  in summary, we do have some very positive example of queer representation in the media, but even in those positive examples there is still heteronormative subtext. there’s still a lot of biphobia, transphobia and out right sexualities being erased entirely to make the content more appealing. ( everyone loves a romance plot, right?? ) what i would like to see more of is strong and important friendships between queer characters. platonic  relationships are important, not everyone needs to be fucking everyone to make good viewing. I would like to see more development of queer characters outside of the confines of BEING a queer character ( eg. Kevin Keller, can someone give that boy a decent storyline next season please. )

#( meme replies. ) #PRIDE MONTH MEME WOW THAT WAS A LONG ASS REPLY!! #tragichunt

[chiefbeck]

Chapter 6: Thoughts on What Being a Guy Means

One the things that sticks with me is how I saw other boys and other girls, and this attitude remains when I see men and women to this day.

I look at normal guys, ones who don’t question their gender identity, and am sometimes envious of how they are; they think differently about everything compared to me. A guy sees a girl and wants to be with her; his only goal is to get her into bed and have his way with her. A guy sees a beautiful woman walk by and whistles at them. They do the other “guy” things that they do like make crass comments or have their tongues dangle to the floor, and I find that infuriating. When I see a woman, I see them as a person and also the shoes and outfit and envy how beautiful they are, wishing I was them, wishing I had that shape, wishing I had her face, wishing that I too can be soft and pretty. I don’t see a man or a woman as someone to “be” with as in a relationship or sexual way; I only had envy to be one or the other and not caught in the middle of both.

I lamented all the thought and energy that I put into wishing or trying to be the woman that was trapped inside this masculine shell. I saw the guys and was jealous of them because they didn’t struggle with being men. They were men; they wanted to be men; all was right in their world, and they couldn’t be happier with who they were. I spent all of my energy and thoughts trying to fight who I was and figuring out what was “my normal.”

I imagined how great it would be not to think this way, to just be comfortable in my own skin; I couldn't stop the way I thought or what I wanted to be or who I really was. I kept doing it, guilt ridden and full of angst. When I turned 18 I threw away all of the pieces of clothing that I acquired from my sister in an attempt to purge my shell of who I really was and vowed that I would be a man like it said on my birth certificate and not think or dress as the woman I knew I really was. I was an adult, and it was time to put away childish things. I was going to be what everyone expected me to be. That lasted a few months, and I was back to escaping into the real me as often as I dared.

OoO

My town during High School years was very small, and I’m not even sure if there was anyone that was Gay or Lesbian. There was no “out” back then, or I didn't know or understand what being out of a closet was or meant. I know the words existed, but it wasn’t a lifestyle that was in the open, especially in a small town. If there were people back then who were homosexual or queer, they kept that very quiet and to themselves because it wasn’t very acceptable. But looking back, I could see things now that I wouldn’t have been able to pick up back then. Remember, I was a pretty naïve kid who was being raised by conservative parents who didn’t talk about sex or gender, much less an alternative lifestyle.

I was in the school plays and musicals in high school and had one very good friend who I spent a lot of time with during those years. I remember one particular event with my friend back during our senior year.

His name was Clarence, and we rehearsed the plays, and then went to the local all-night diner, ate some food, and then walked to my house. He lived far out of town, and on these late nights, he would just crash at my house.

On one of those nights, we were both sleeping on the ground with a few covers stacked up instead of a bed. It was comfortable for teenagers, and later in life I would sleep on much worse. We would talk into the night about whatever kids talked about, probably things going on at school and whatever the upcoming production was that we were performing in.

This one night it was somewhat chilly, and we were talking. He scooted over very close to me and said it was cold, would I like to share the blankets with him and keep warm. I kind of nonchalantly said no I wasn’t that cold and I rolled over and said good night. He was sleeping real close and nearly pressed against me as I rolled over to sleep. In my mind, I just thought he was cold and wanted to stay warm, and I didn’t think anything past that. Like I said, I was really naïve, and the thought of homosexuality never entered my mind.

At the time, I didn’t know he was gay. Although, he was the only guy in the school to be at the vocational tech school for hairdressing and make up. I didn’t think anything of a guy being a hairdresser and how he acted or dressed or anything. He was my friend, and at this time in my life, that was all I cared about. I look back and see how ignorant I was of so much in the real world.

I look back and see that he was making a very overt pass at me, and my not knowing and rolling over and saying good night was a rebuff to him. He took it as a no, and he went on like nothing happened; I was oblivious to the whole thing and went on being best friends. Many years after high school, he was living in the city and “came out” as gay. I was kind of surprised and just think about what a big dummy I was back then in so many ways. I am learning and continue to learn. (Psst, It’s cool, I am a human.)

But it does make me think about my life back then. Did he know? Did he know there was something about me that was different? Could he tell that I wasn’t the man I was portraying to the rest of the world? Could he see past the disguise and have a glimpse the real me, of the girl inside who was so aching to get out but was trapped with no way out? It makes me wonder, but I can’t go back and figure things out; I’m too busy trying to figure out life now. I wish Clarence was still alive so I could talk with him today and share some stories. He died of a “mysterious disease” soon after high school.

!

During my high school days, I was only caught once wearing female clothing. One of my good friends who was a tough guy, a cowboy type of guy, used to come over to the house. He had a truck, and in 1984, that was a big deal for seniors in high school. And his truck was very cool, a 1952 dodge. The drinking age was eighteen at the time, so we would ride out to the woods with a case of beer where everyone would meet. So he came over often enough that he would just walk into the house, none of the doors were ever locked back then and it was the social etiquette of the time.

One particular time I was dressed in a dress, panty hose, high heels and a wig. He walked into the house and up the stairs and into my room. Bam! There I was. He looked at me and just stared for a minute, almost like he was in shock or dumbfounded. Then he asked what was up. This was my chance, I could go on hiding or I could take a risk and let one person in the whole world know the truth. I decided that I had hidden long

OoO

!

enough. I sat down on the bed; he closed the door and sat down in the desk chair. I told him what it felt like.

“I feel good when I wear these clothes,” I told him. “I don’t do it all the time, and I am not sure why I have to do it, but I do it in my room and feel like this is the real me.” I shaved my legs all the time with the excuse of the swim team so my legs were very smooth and with the hosiery on it was just like a girl. I told him about the shaving and the hosiery and how it all felt and that I was a girl when I was like this. I said, “Look, rub my knee.” He did and I asked him, “See it feels like a girl, right?” He said, “Yes.” I smiled sheepishly at him, and then I asked him to leave and let me get dressed so we can get out of here.

He left the room, and I put on some jeans and a t-shirt. Nothing more was said; we went to the bar.

The subject never really ever came up after that. Every once in a while he would ask me if I was ok. The look in his eyes kind of let me know he was talking about the girl. I said, “Yes, I am doing fine.”

We were friends for a long time; I lost touch after awhile.

There was never anything about the sex for me; it was all about me just being the girl that I was and living a life in peace. Living a life where I didn’t dislike or hate myself. I still feel that way today and just think more about living a real life...just “being me.”

#Kristin Beck #Lady Valor

[sebastianejw-blog]

Fantastic beasts

I believe I may have said this before but repeating it just shows how fucking passionate I am about this.

First movie - fucking amazing I really liked it I absolutely fell in love with the cast & the story even though I really don't like Harry Potter I was bring over with Eddie & he was perfect in the roll & then Ezra also stole the show he was so interesting & I loved his style & his relationship with Graves was really nice. Its made kinda clear in the book that credence is probably gay I mean the movie only supported that

For newt I got a lgbt vibe but wasn't too sure the fact he didn't seem to be attracted to anyone made.me think maybe aromantic/asexual but then the implied relationship of the girl his brothers with (can't remember her name rn) so I was like ok maybe biromatic but then it almost didn't seem romantic at first I even thought it was his mother or sister.

His chemistry with Jacob was really cute & his chemistry with credence was really nice & I really liked the fact that he had no romantic partner he was soully there for his creatures which are his actual loves I related to newt a lot because I like animals company more that humans most of the time so his protectiveness was just relatable & humouress the bonus was he made friends & queenie & Jacob kinda get together & are the cutest.

So I did think that either newt just wasn't interested in romance or he was gay which for me is a interesting factor now a days I really hate movies that are for the typical white girl just a straight couple like hating each other then getting engaged within 2 hours like I think that sort of thing is really repetitive so yeas if I get a vibe that this character is different & his sexuality is more up in the air but certain things make you lean towards more of a answer I dig it I like to be curious but I also expected that maybe in the second movie because wed get young newt & we already have the cannon relationship of grindlwald&dumbledore I was kinda hoping we'd see baby newt go after a guy or maybe older newt meets a past mate & hit it off idk. I also was hoping for a nice relationship for credence whether it was family, friends, or romantic & when u saw he was gonna be in a circus I immediately drew connections to Jeremiah & Jerome Valeska my gay & bi boys. So I was like hopefully credence gets treated well their maybe feeling accepted & then the snake girl came in the picture & I was like cool he has a friend but then it was like a 2 second shot & she looked like she was gonna kiss credence & I was like noope can't do that. That baby boi has proven to us he likes dudes& due to his adoptive mother beating him, he would definitely have issues with trusting women-I think he would anyway I then got the book. Super excited to see what would happen in the film so I start reading it & suddenly all newt talks about is Tina & it came from nowhere & although I was really annoyed they really forced this straight persona on him I was like well it's still. My plant boy let's give him a chance but he just did not shut up it was pathetic he seemingly didn't care about anything else not even getting credence seemed all that important & I'm pretty sure I didn't even realise that's what he was trying to do until credence showed up in the book. But then bloddy grindlwald gets a hold of him somehow litrally on the book I think grindlwald was absent for a few chapter or even just 1 then bam he's back & yes credence has a sort of connection already with Graves/Gridlewals but I was like there no way credence is that weak. He was being manipulated so easily but credence already knows Grindlewald is like this so I wasn't buying it I thought credence has a secret plan or something & I thought that till the very end & the end just confused me suddenly credence has been carring a live bird around which is suddenly a Pheonix & grindlwald claims the bird was watching over credence but the bird was injured if credence would have left it would Gridlewald still have a bird at the end? & again I'm not a Potter fan so him saying some dumbledoor name got me confused because I thought that meant The dumbledore but no apparently it's dumbledores brother that u knew Jack shit about. Also the baby thing was confusing like their was credence & then their was the dumbledores kid or some shit idk it was some next level good omens baby mess up it got so confusing because they call credence, credence & not this dumbledores name so my brain is like well you Mr grindlwald are spitting bullshit & " they make it seem like a superise that credence can do magic. Duh the boi is like a ball of magic you dumbass.

Idk I really did not like what they did with the second movie & book of course I'm still a fan & I want to see if they do better with the other stuff

But yanno u thought straight after I though please don't have new & Tina get married & all that bs' apparently they are married & have kids & idk that's just really messed up the character I first fell in love with. I've had this problem with things before the characters opinions change rediculously just to please a certain demographic it's bullshit if you have a character who shows himself not being interested in romance but more in animals & his work then stick with that especially for a male role I love that instead of a guy who gers turned by the girl have a guy that's not change buy romance but but friendship, experience & the work they love & to me if you do want to do a romantic storylibe with a very socially awkward human who's (at least to me) just acts like a introverted gay mess then just concider actual making a main character lgbt it's 2019 people bring this in more.

&even if this was information people already knew somehow, is bs if they say they couldn't alter the story how many rediculous changes does jk make, loads. But instead of queer beating just actually make a character lgbt its really not that hard. I think newt has a son at some point & saying that newt was gay wouldn't even change very much Tina could've still been the surrogate or the kid could've been adopted all these things to me would be so interesting to see in a big franchise & idk in just kinda pissed that it seemed that they would go somewhere new & it flopped right after.

Can you tell I'm very passionate about this sort of thing? XD

[misanthropicphilantropist]

Tagged x2

Rules: Always post the rules, answer the questions given to you, then write 10 questions of your own, and tag 10 other people.

Re-tagged by @magnificent-winged-beast thank you :D

1. Which are the most influential books over your lifetime? Der Irrläufer (o.t. Villskudd) by Gudmund Vindland was the first queer book I ever read and I still love it to death to this day. The God Delusion had a lot of influence on me when I was younger and taught me that I'm not automatically a bad person just because I don't believe in (a) God.

2. What your patronus will look like? Probably a cat, because I grew up with cats and am so very much like them. Or a rat, I love those little buggers so damn much.

3. Where do you think you will go when you die? I have no idea. Being an atheist I don't really believe in Heaven or Hell, but I kind of hope there actually is a “better place” after death. I can't believe that there is just nothing. I do believe in a sort of reincarnation though.

4. How many times did you watch Supernatural entire series from the beginning to the last season? I think I'm on my fourth complete rewatch now...

5. Where is your Happy place? Supernatural and Destiel at the moment, actually. Just imagining how happy Dean and Cas would be together...

6. If it were possible, would you like for your consciousness be transfered in to an android after you die? Hell yes. A body without pain? Sign me up!

7. Do you believe in our Hot Over Lord Misha Collins? Of course I do! Our buff Overlord will rule the world! (with kindness)

8. Do you prefer a Human!Cas or you wish Cas to keep his Grace and everything that makes him an angel when he comes back? Confession: I don't like Human!Cas. I realize it's probably headed that way, but I just... don't. I want Cas to be at full power again, with wings. I miss him popping in on the boys and startling them, I miss Dean praying to him. The thought of an angel falling in love with a human, experiencing all these emotions despite being “dulled” by his grace, in my personal opinion that's more beautiful than an angel choosing to become human to feel all that.

9. Which song do you think could perfectly fit for the first kiss on screen of Dean and Cas? Ah geez, I don't know. I only listen to one band at the moment and it's not classic rock. Buuut keeping in mind that beautiful video we got recently, why not Nothing Else Matters? :D

10. Tell me about a recurrent dream that makes you happy. Not that happy, but my recurring dream of re-visiting my childhood home is always nice. Other than that, I barely ever remember my dreams. Re-tagged by @starsinursa thank you, too <3

1. What song would you choose as the theme-song for your life? Not to be “emo” or anything, but Numb by Linkin Park would be the best fit.

2. What’s an embarrassing story about you as a child? When I was about fourteen I was at my grandma's. It was summer, she gave me a drink with ice cubes. As you do, at least I did, I swallowed the ice cubes. Or tried to. One was to big, it got stuck in my throat. I couldn't breathe, panicked and ran to my grandma, who was in the kitchen. Just as I got there, the ice cube had melted enough for me to swallow it finally. To this day she hasn't given me anything with ice cubes... (Also at my grandma's, when I was four, I bit into the glass I was drinking out of. Hard. It broke. I bled and still have a light scar on my lip. My mom still won't give small children a glass to drink out of...)

3. What’s a hobby or skill that you want to learn? I've always wanted to learn how to speedrun a game. But I'm too much of a noob and my coordination sucks. 4. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever eaten? Does kangaroo count as weird? It's delicious. (sorry!) Other than that, I don't know. I will try almost everything once. I ate a lot of stuff just to weird my ex-boyfriend out... Salami and Nutella sandwich definitely counts, right? It was good, actually.

5. If you could pick your age, what age would you want to stay forever? 23! Nice age, prime number and magic number.

6. What’s your least favorite household chore? Laundry. Ugh.

7. Have you ever been told you look like someone famous, and if so, who? My best friend from school once said I looked like Bam Margera... (remember when Bam Margera was cool? Good times. I feel old...)

8. If you wrote an autobiography, what would the title be? “That weird kid that never grew up” or something like that xD

9. What’s the meaning of your name? My real first name? Writer Jonathan Swift made it up for his secret mistress. Really.

10. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? How beautiful and deep my eyes are. I never forgot about that one even though it's been over ten years.

Not going to tag anyone this time, but feel free to answer these questions if you want:

1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? 2. Favorite Supernatural season and why? 3. Coke or Pepsi? 4. What is your preferred sleeping position? 5. Have you ever been in the woods at night? 6. Favorite role of Misha in Supernatural and why? 7.  What does your dream home look like? 8. What was/is your favorite class in school? 9.  Do you have any superstitions? 10. Misha's orange underwear or Jensen's underbear?

#not spn #tumblr #tagging #questions