#like this is specifically about his and doras relationship

[mx-paint]

.

#god. #i think a big part of disc elys is the fact that everything being from harrys pov affects how you perceive things #like this is specifically about his and doras relationship #theyve been done for over half a decade (probably longer) #and the big part about the story is he classfies dora as a religious figure #and the Implications for that #like. you can literally see delores dei as a *war criminal* #and even playing as a person that *wants* to let go #gets you placed in positions that say no. you cant. youre not ready for this to end. #like. its clear that while i dont think the relationship was toxic it was unhealthy #like to me theres an implication that she cheated with someone else and had a baby with them #or that she had a kid with them after she left #and it gives that much more weight to the 'unborn daughters' comment #like. god what a game. #to me you can take these interactions with them in a lot of ways #is it all true? are they memories taken out of context? are they just his distorted brain making up stuff? #are these meant to have clear answers? #and the fact the only conversation we actually have straight with her is on the phone #and its clear that this has happened before #is she just putting up with this? or does she feel like she *has* to for some reason? #and jean saying that She was the one that got him to move from being a gym teacher to the rcm #ans the fact she grew up middle class while harry decidedly didnt #and a big part of the relationship issues seem to be more money and home related than just the relationship itself #(in fact she even implies that the reason she terminated her pregnancy with him was bc he was poor)

[thecherrygod]

currently thinking about lighthouse keeper hdb and ship captain kim kitsuragi................

like.. look. hes in the lighthouse. alone. only company his skills and some alcohol to also keep himself warm in the winter. most interactions he has are the people that he gets stuff for his own survival. dora's been out of the picture for a looooooong time now, he wasnt around often, the pay isnt relayable, and every time she met him he was worse, so she left. all he has is himself, and the lighthouse.

there are times in which the light will reflect on the fog in the ocean, and he will see her in there, as if she was a guardian angel with long blonde hair who would take any ship coming nearby into her hands as toy boats, and she could decide if theyd make it to safety, or if shed just drown it on a whim. all he can do is manifest her with the lights, but her actions are her own.

and then theres kim, the diligent captain of a ship that has all the love in his heart, something he can use to move through fog and pale alike without losing himself to his surroundings, always ready to make sure him and as many as his men survive what the sea has to offer them, but he knows its dangerous, all of them do, everyone is ready to lose their lives if it comes to it. storms and tides and an inavility to see through the weather, they are all ready to manouver the ship or die trying.

thankfully at the worst times, theres always a helping hand, a guiding light helping him move in the right direction, making sure hes able to keep them as safe as possible even through the worst storms and the densest of fogs hes ever seen.

#my posts #and for organization so i can find this in my blog one way or the other: #disco elysium #hdb #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #the.. harrykim is mostly implied. i. dont know how id make them meet #also... hi i love including his fucked up relationship with dora in everything i can like i find it so interesting so its always there #ah and this au while it could work the other way around... look at me. harry being the one guiding and saving kim. is just.. #very important to me.... #maybe once they meet depending on how it could be a mutual thing but #yeah idk #i think that if i knew how to make the specific details for my ideas i wouldnt just post them like this id be writing fics lmao #tho idk the only fic i wrote was like.... this year its gonna be ten years since i havent tried to write sdiugdhsgu #ah whatever im calling this guiding lights. idk. hopefully ill remember and find it if i want to lmao #guiding lights au #but... yeah....... #also silly detail this is bc a few days ago i was drawing kim as a captain and harry as a sailor but. more like a costume with a skirt #bc well. i have that and i think hed look good on it. i havent finished it yet but ill get back on it at some point #and well its been on my mind but also i saw something about a lighthouse and automatically i thought #'.... oh no. harry du bois as a lighthouse keeper.....' and i wrote this just now and im not gonna check if it makes sense lmao #im just going with the vibes i may think about it later again and properly get an idea but like.. yeah i wrote this in 30 min #the details are for another time if they have to happen dughsgdsgh anyways!!!!!!!

[revacholianrobot]

Seasonal Symbolism in Disco Elysium

@yellow-yarrow's recent post about biblical quotes in DE had one specific quote that piqued my interest. Yarrow talks about "burning" quite a bit, with the Phasmid's mouth foam having a peculiar smell, first like burnt roses, then burnt caramel, then finally "like summer burning." I hadn't thought about the symbolism of summer before, so I was eager to dive in. I've explored the symbolism for the other season before, and so I have a decent grasp on the other ones.

'Winter' is symbolically related to the present [in Disco Elysium]. It's the period of hurt that Revachol, Martinaise, and HDB have been experiencing. The popular line from Kim that is repeated at the moralist quest's horseback antenna goes "It's been a long winter... Long and cold." Winter, however, is at its end. Spring - le Retour - is coming. "Soon these clouds will all fall down as rain. Spring will come. Two more months. Maybe less. It's time." Posts about le Retour have already been done, so I won't restate everything about both Spring and the Return coming.

On my previous account, I also made a post about the symbolism of the Pale, which is described as autumn.

PALEDRIVER - "[...] When you're deep enough -- then, for me... it's like autumn. Dark grey and orange, the orange of streetlights and the colour of trees in the electric light. It smells like autumn too. It smells terrible."

I hadn't actually looked too deep into the autumn connection back then: it also appears at the horseback antenna. Specifically, with the german passage about the boy from Oranje who went to Graad for school. I don't have a link to a post that translates the passage, but basically someone says that they sent their son(?) to Graad for school (which requires a pale crossing), and after he came back, he seemed 'completely different,' 'like a stranger.' That passage sets up alot of weird Pale fascination (like the Paledriver does) with thought insertion.

[after the German passage] YOU - What does this remind me of? HORSEBACK ANTENNA - The rustling of dry autumn leaves. Waves breaking at a distance. A thousand wings beating at once.

This sets up the Autumn as the pale, and perhaps the ending of things.

But what about summer?

Summer seems to be associated with HDB's relationship with Dora.

INLAND EMPIRE - Caustic Echo. It was darkness all along. But you were young and it was summer. You just had to take a dive...

YOU - "Titus, man -- I was young and it was summer. I just had to take a dive."

APRICOT CHEWING GUM WRAPPER - There it is again -- the scent of apricots, with a touch of cinnamon. Smells like the end of some distant summer. The surface of another planet, or some ancient temple.

Note the 'end of summer' from the apricot chewing gum. Dolores Dei actually says that she wrote the letter in the ledger in autumn. This sets up seasonal symbolism with Harry's story where his relationship with Dora happens in the summer, ends in the fall, and leads to him coping across the winter. It doesn't seem like any of the mentions of spring directly relate to HDB. This implies that it's not a season Harry has experienced yet. However, the Return that is coming is *certainly* the Spring. That's a chapter that we have yet to see in this story.

#disco elysium #hdb #dora ingerlund #my posts

[sygneth]

Echoes lore time! (And also my random DE thoughts about Harry's place!)

Reading the last page, you might have had a feeling we're going to see the inside of Harry's place soon, and you were right!

So to make everything clear (and because, in the first place, I had a place with a very specific plan in my head when I've been writing scenes at HDB's) i drew a lil cheat sheet.

(Yes. I like to make building plans. A lot.)

I believe Harry inherited this place, and thus he owes it. And also, this is why it's in a not-the-worst of tenement houses and in not-the worst standard. It was a place where they used to live with Dora, and I think he made it a sanctuary of a kind after she left. He never moved anything from its original place deliberately, and so the place slowly started to become a decaying memorial of a nonexistent relationship.

Harry's place is a whole big meta topic to explore and I feel like there is a lot to it in terms of the psychology of a place.

Assuming that he is still living in the same place as he used to when with Dora, oh boy. The bad days, when every single thing reminded him of her. The remorse, the memories, the past. A scratch over the floor, where she tripped while dancing. Her favourite mug, or rather the few pieces of it, after he broke it in a fit of rage. An empty space after a painting that she loved so much. The scratched wall over the bedhead. The bed itself.

Then, the better days, when he tried to take care of his apartment, but some things were already damaged beyond repair. The plants died, he could buy new ones, but he knew that, sooner or later, they'd share the previous one's fate. The ripped carpet, stained furniture, cracked tiles. Could be replaced, but sooner or later they'd share the previous one's fate. A scratched floor. The scratched floor.

And then, rather sooner than later, the days become bad again.

I don't think Harry liked to spend time at his place. Especially in the bedroom. Especially when he wanted to quit. There was too much past in there, staring at him from every corner, every crack of the floor. I think a good deal of his past relapses might have been caused by this place. Sometimes a forgotten something he found while cleaning it up, sometimes just the space itself, soaked with memories.

(And to all my faithful readers of Echoes, I just want to let you know I read every single one of your tags and comments and it always makes my day <3 Thank you for that everybody, and if I don't always reply to the comments, I want you to know I do read them and I do appreciate them a whole whole lot, life is just very overwhelming sometimes)

#echoes of elysium #echoes talking #lore #disco elysium #my art #harry du bois #or his apartment rather #and kind of #disco elysium meta #? i guess #very late night thoughts #it's 2;27 omg i should be asleep #i hope this makes sense what i wrote here i am actually very tired #again thanks for being here and reading this you're da best #(also drawing flats from this perspective is as rewarding as fucked up ya know)

[liyawritesss]

ɪɴꜱᴏᴍɴɪᴀᴄ!ꜱᴘɪᴅᴇʀᴍᴀɴ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ

Characters: Peter Parker, Mary-Jane “MJ” Watson, Harry Osborn, Miles Morales

Type: Headcanons

Synopsis: General headcanons for the main protagonists of Insomniac’s Spider Man 2 on PS5.

Warnings: probs some cursing somewhere, and ofc spoilers for the spiderman 2 game! You’ve been warned!!!

A/N: This game is definitely up there as one of the best games I’ve seen/played in 2023, so it wouldn’t be right for me to go into 2024 and still not have much written for it; so I’m correcting that! Take this as a spoiler for those who have not finished playing the game/watching a full gameplay of it to the end.

Tags: @6-noir @babyboiboyega @badass-dora-milaje @jacuzziwaters @mbakuetshurisprincess @shuriszn @verachii @writingintheshadowsforever @cafehyunji @niyahwrites @marsfunzon22 @briology @honeybleed @romiantic @onlyperc @starsoirees @yasminisbroke @asensitivecookie @kdyance @sussybaka10 @famedrs-blog @milesismyhubby @foreclosure--of--a--dream @ykimobessed @soilmayo

Sign Up For My Taglist Here

Peter Parker

Oh poor Peter, he’s just got so much going on. With Aunt May and the house, him tryna find a stable job, his relationship with MJ, and now prioritizing his friendship with Harry, he’s being pulled in so many different directions it’s honestly dizzying!

There’s so much going on in his life that I wouldn’t be too surprised if he developed some anxiety around it. Like we know Peter for being this quirky, goofy kid who’s got hella jokes and can rock your ass in a science test, but when he’s alone, the turbulence of his life gets to him a little. And it’s not like he can let anyone really know - he’s Spiderman for crying out loud! If he goes down, who knows how the rest will take it.

And of course the Venom Symbiote doesn't make things any better - Pete’s whole acting like an ass thing wasn’t intentional by no means necessary, but I think that would also play into his anxiety as well. He doesn’t want to ever hurt his friends the way he did with that symbiote in him - they’re the last thing he has.

On a completely not depressing note, I feel like having the house to himself gives Peter the opportunity to really figure out his own aesthetic. Sure, he’s the cute nerdy heartthrob guy, but he wants to expand himself! I feel like he wouldn’t be into the super modern high tech home decor that’s been sweeping through every interior designers palette - I see him as a mix of warm country house vibes (courtesy of Aunt May), with a hint of the technological advantages that he’d implement into certain appliances and spaces (*coughcough* at home lab *coughcough*) and a finishing touch of midcentury modern for a pop of color….it won’t stop him from being a bit of a slob though unfortunately.

Mary-Jane “MJ” Watson

If i were her I’d be one critique away from giving Mr. J.J.Jameson a taste of his own desk, because oh my god the self-centeredness he possesses makes me want to vomit. But it’s a good thing I’m not, and our darling redhead angel has enough patience to deal with him for the sake of a bag - I applaud her for that.

I know a lot of people don’t like the MJ segments in the game but i actually appreciate them! Shows that she’s not just a pretty face that Pete falls in love with you know? And I like to think she actually likes the moments she gets to take down the Hunters because it makes her feel like a badass - which she totally is!

As a destresser from being a prime member of the Spider Team (yes, I’m claiming them as the Spider Team since Spider Squad is already taken) and her journalism job, I’d like to think she’s into something so niche like jewelry making - specifically little charm bracelets that she gifts to the others. Yknow, on some ‘friendship lasts forever’ type shit.

Also in her freetime she has writing projects on the side that she wouldn’t consider viable enough to send in as a story, but just fun little stories she’ll write for the hell of it. There’s nothing too specific about them, but they also serve as a way to track how her writing is progressing, and she’s in a group of beta readers of sorts that give her feedback on how much better she’s getting.

Another poor boy that just has way too much on his hands, good lord. Granted, I never saw the hype around Harry, but I think after this adaptation of him I might be warming up to him a little bit.

Harry Osborn

Getting on the bandwagon of adopting new hobbies, I see Harry as getting into drawing, especially during the period in which he doesn’t have the suit. Since his health is deteriorating and he isn’t able to be as mobile as he would like, he needs something to keep his mind and hands busy. And drawing does the trick for him. He starts off with just basic drawings like items in his room, but he advances very quickly and starts drawing portraits of himself and MJ, who spends a lot of time taking care of him. He symbalso sketches a picture of him and Peter when they were in highschool over and over again, especially when he runs out of muses.

Harry also spends a lot of his time thinking. Thinking about his life thus far, his friends, the legacy he wants to leave behind. He doesn’t just want his last name attached to something to make it great - he wants to earn his keep and his place in society. It was the whole reason he started the Emily-May Foundation; it would have been his mark on the world, and yet, here he was, tied down to his bed once again. Then again, who knows if the symbiote would have done the same to himself, had he let his own convictions get too far?

Considering what happens at the end of the game, though, I suppose we won’t ever know…until the next installment that is.

Miles Morales

Why are there so many poor boys in this game? Like I got enough sympathy to go around but Jesus save these guys!!!

He is a HEAVY romantic, especially when it comes to Hailey (so so SO happy he got his girl in the end was rooting for them so hard in his game). He plans their dates according to the mode and vibe of the day, whatever the two are feeling, whatever is mentioned in fleeting conversations, etc. He’s in love and proud of it!

He’s getting better at dividing up the attention to the important people in his life, as well as school and his Spiderman duties. Sundays are for him and his mom to lounge in their pajamas and catch up with each other on the weeks events; he hangs with Ganke throughout the week and sometimes goes out with him to science expo’s every now and then. He’ll pop up on Hailey whenever she’s in the neighborhood and just sits and chills with her (and if she’s working on a street piece, even better! He’s her no. 1 supporter!)

He, Peter and Ganke get into rubix cubes competitions to see who can complete the rubix cube the fastest. Right now Ganke is ranked number one and Peter and Miles are tied for second place, but they’re getting another, more difficult cube to compete again soon.

He’s got a big heart, and knowing the effects of everything that’s happened with Harry, Miles makes it a point to check in with Peter every now and then. He’s lowkey worried that if the older Spiderman’s worry for his best friend doesn’t do him in, then somehow the effects of the Venom symbiote on Peter’s psyche will turn him cold again, and that doesn’t end well at all. He does this well with MJ, and they talk frequently on how they can be better support for Pete and Harry in the aftermath of everything that’s happened.

If you enjoyed, please leave a like, comment, and reblog for others to see! And don’t be shy to send in a request!

#black reader #black tumblr #black marvel #marvel x reader #marvel x black!reader #spiderman #black spiderman #spiderman x reader #spiderman x black!reader #insomniac spiderman #spiderman 2 ps5 #spiderman miles morales #peter parker #mary jane watson #mj watson #harry osborn #miles morales #spiderman 2 headcanons #spiderman headcanon

[toffeechad]

▂▃▄▅▆▇█▓▒░ My new pinned!░▒▓█▇▆▅▄▃▂

【Fictive indicators!!】

ꕥ = Major kin!

ᰔᩚ = Semi-major kin!

✬ = Partial kin!

My system's fictionkins/fictives:

Puffball (BFDI) ꕥ (my main fictive!)

Fries (BFDI) ꕥ

Eraser (BFDI) ✬

Pen (BFDI) ꕥ

Golf Ball (BFDI)

Tennis Ball (BFDI) ꕥ

TV (BFDI) ✬

Leafy (BFDI) ꕥ

Firey (BFDI) ꕥ

Winner (BFDI) ꕥ

Flower (BFDI) ꕥ

Dora (BFDI) ᰔᩚ

Four (XFOHV/BFDI) ꕥ

X (XFOHV/BFDI) ꕥ

Hatsune Miku (VOCALOID) ꕥ

Stella (Angry Birds) ᰔᩚ

Bloody Bunny (Bloody Bunny) ✬

Mumu (Bloody Bunny) ✬

Dark Rabbit (Bloody Bunny) ✬

Rainbow Dash (MLP) ꕥ

Pyro (TF2) ✬

Dave (DFAC/FNF) ꕥ

Bambi (FNF) ᰔᩚ

Tristan (DFAC2/FNF) ✬

DATA_EXPUNGED (FNF)

Bandu (FNF) ᰔᩚ

Bendu (FNF) ✬

Ringi (FNF) ᰔᩚ

Bambom (FNF) ✬

Marjia (Muse Dash) ✬

Buro (Muse Dash) ᰔᩚ

Sorbet Shark Cookie (Cookie Run) ꕥ

Timekeeper Cookie (Cookie Run) ᰔᩚ

Lychee Dragon Cookie (Cookie Run) ✬

Fettuccine Cookie (Cookie Run) ✬

Peni Parker (Spiderverse) ꕥ

Crimson (Total Drama: The Ridonculous Race) ✬

Gardevoir (Pokémon) ✬

Lightbulb (Inanimate Insanity) ꕥ

Test Tube (Inanimate Insanity) ᰔᩚ

Paintbrush (Inanimate Insanity) ᰔᩚ

Bot (Inanimate Insanity) ꕥ (3rd major fictive!)

Shadow the Hedgehog (Sonic) ᰔᩚ

Boboiboy (Boboiboy) ᰔᩚ

Yaya (Boboiboy) ᰔᩚ

Gebura (Lobotomy Corporation) ✬

Strawberry Cream Cookie (Cookie Run) ✬

Kotoko Utsugi (Danganronpa) ꕥ

Babs (Chicken Run) ✬

Shaun (Shaun The Sheep) ꕥ

Speakerwoman (Skibidi Toilet) ᰔᩚ

Mr Strong (The Mr Men Show) ᰔᩚ (2nd major fictive!)

Tweak (Octonauts) ᰔᩚ (4th major fictive!)

Ami (Hi Hi Puffy AmiYumi) ᰔᩚ

Bubble (BFDI) ᰔᩚ

Mr Nervous (The Mr Men Show) ᰔᩚ (5th major fictive!)

Little Miss Daredevil (The Mr Men Show) ꕥ

Little Miss Sunshine (The Mr Men Show) ᰔᩚ

This is my ref sheet!

Main alias: Toffee

Other alias: Lana (my actual name)

She/Her (i'm not a demigirl anymore, i was criticized because of being one)

I'm Aromantic, so uh I'm not interested to be in a romantic relationship

Autistic

15 (turning 16 on April 16)

Aries

My f/o's Mr Tickle from the Mr Men and Little Miss franchise! (Specifically, he's my childhood crush.)

Despite the fact that I'm not wanting to be affiliated with the DNB community ever again, I still trust my friends in this fandom.

ꕤ MY FREE DRAWING REQUESTS ARE ONLY AVAILABLE AT THE WEEKENDS IN THE MALAYSIAN TIMEZONE! ꕤ

Erm yeah I have spidersonas as well

The Object Spiders of Earth-2763 OLD REF SHEET >>

>> NEW REFS FOR THE OBJECT-SPIDERS OF EARTH-2763

Spider-Fowl

Clymene Moth

Honeycomb Spider

Avicularia

Green Lynx Spider

MORE INFO ABOUT MY EARTH-2763 SPIDERSONAS!!

I also made a few BFB AUs too!

BFB MDM AU

BFB MDM AU CHARACTER SUMMARY PT 1

BONUS CHARACTERS FOR THE BFB MDM AU

ASK BLOG FOR THE BFB MDM AU!!

EARTH-2763

BFB HUNGER GAMES AU

PROTAGONIST MARKER AU

BATTLE IN LOBCORP: THE TRUMPET OF TWO

CONCEPT OF THE "CONTESTANTS" IN THIS AU

FULL BILC: TTOT INFO LIST

CURRENT UPCOMING AU I'M MAKING:

FLOWERET: A MR MEN AND LITTLE MISS INFECTION AU

If you're wondering what does my persona look like, feel free to click here!

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ List of my awesome besties!! ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

◍ Cooki_Alt

◍ Exsio Picore

◍ NovaAzurite

◍ Moonsprout-sys

◍ MochaBlogger

◍ Trashbins_Stuff

◍ artismeyou-12

◍ vaap0r_wave

◍ B0nb0n

◍ wowwzaaxei

◍ heartsfortwotpot

◍ Branimator

◍ slimebottlesilly

◍ the-random-creechur

DNI if you're hella problematic especially for: NSFW, Proship, Israel supporters, UNTITLED BLOGS, fetish, MAP, Sigmas, L*licons, Ableists, P*dos, etc!

Interests: BFDI, II, Bloody Bunny, MLP, Cookie Run, FNF, Octonauts, Muse Dash, TF2, Sonic The Hedgehog, Mobile Legends, Super Mario, Pokemon, Roblox, Angry Birds, Spiderverse, Vocaloid, Total Drama, The Amazing Digital Circus, South Park, Chicken Run, Mobile Legends, Mr Men & Little Miss, Lobotomy Corporation, Skibidi Toilet and Hi Hi Puffy AmiYumi.

[bestfriend491]

hi! currently reading all your okoye fics and they’re all so good 😭🙏 she’s always been my fave ever since the first black panther so i’m glad i found ur writing 🥹 if ur still taking requests, how about aneka/ayo where one of them gets jealous but she’s still denying her feelings and thinks it would be “weird” to fall for their co-worker 😩 i hc aneka as the more vocal one in the relationship so i think it’s also interesting to see if ayo was the one in denial. i’m okay w anyone tho and only if u like the prompt. thank u! 💗

My Adored One

Aneka x Ayo

Summary: Not even the fiercest of warriors can deny love.

Author's Note: I actually like this one. So I'm gonna need you all to pretend that this is their Debut story from me, because Jurisdiction is possibly my least favourite work ever and I'd like to forget about it's existence.

Word Count: 3.5k

Light Angst, Happy Ending

Warnings: Very Minor Injury (brief mentioning of blood)

If anyone were to ever ask Aneka about Ayo, they’d probably get a loaded answer. 

She’d let herself grin from ear to ear thinking about the woman. Trying to find the best way to describe her. 

“Ayo is…” she’d stop just as she thought she got the right words, wanting to find more. 

“Have you ever had a good thing that only you know about? So you spend your entire day fixating on how lucky you are to have it but you never physically say that you have it. And when you go to sleep you’re thinking of this thing, and how you want to have it forever. That’s Ayo.” she’d say with a content look on her face. Knowing that she didn’t answer the question, and that she was just spewing out her love for the woman instead. 

She’d describe her as this soft, caring, strong leader that is an integral part of the Dora Milaje. She’d easily confess that she liked the woman. 

If you were to ask her what she’d do if she were given the opportunity to be with her, she’d get serious. And with hopeful eyes she’d say “I’d take it. I’d take her and never look back.” 

Then she’d let you sit with that information. Hoping that you wouldn’t tell anybody what she’d told you, but also secretly hoping that you’d tell absolutely everybody. 

If anyone were to ask Ayo about Aneka; they’d probably get a very limited answer. 

She’d tense up, looking around for the woman in question before even thinking of what to say. 

“Aneka is…” she’d stop to think of the briefest way to express how she felt, not wanting anyone to know too much about her feelings. 

“Aneka is the reason that Bast still makes humans.” 

In her head she’d go on about Aneka being the closest thing to perfect that there could be. But out loud, she’d stay silent. 

She wouldn’t want to elaborate on the statement. She wouldn’t even want to repeat it. 

Instead, she’d daydream about the woman, right as you spoke to her. 

If you were to ask her what she’d do if she got the opportunity to be with her, she’d hesitate. 

“I haven’t thought about it.” she’d lie at first, knowing that she was constantly thinking about it. Then, feeling bad for lying, she’d again try to keep it brief. 

“I’d think about it.” she’d say, before immediately retreating to go anywhere but where she was. 

“Ayo. What are you doing here? Isn’t it your day off?” Aneka’s questions are what welcomed Ayo into the room that she often chose to train in. 

She’d get home, and think about it. Then she’d be training, and she’d think about it. All day she’d think about it. Think about how quickly she’d say yes if Aneka asked her on a date. 

At first she got choked up, not knowing what to say to the woman. She knew the answers to the questions, but talking to Aneka was a much more specific task. 

She wanted to say the exact right thing. She suddenly needed to make sure that she looked presentable. 

She struggled to find her feet in creating conversation, but Aneka -being Aneka- waited patiently with a smile as she watched Ayo look for words.

She cleaned her spear as she waited.

“I thought that I’d come see you. Maybe get in some one-on-one combat with you.” She lied. That wasn’t why she was there. She came to be alone with herself. If she had known that Aneka was going to be there, she wouldn’t have had the guts to go. But it was too late now. 

Aneka nodded, humming in delight. 

“Okay, beloved. I see you feel more than up for a challenge today.” 

Ayo blushed. Had Aneka just called her beloved? 

The room was growing warmer. More welcoming. Ayo quickly forgot her previous urge to get out and find another place to train. 

She got herself together, taking out her spear, just as Aneka did hers. 

The two spent some time circling each other. Aneka looked deeply into Ayo’s eyes, while Ayo tried to stay focused more on the combat than on Aneka’s charming smile. 

She became hasty in her attack, charging first to get the action going. Aneka’s expression changed quickly. Her battle face took over as she realised that Ayo intended to seriously train. 

‘ She's still charming.’ Ayo thought. Then she shook her head at herself. “Focus.” she whispered to herself. 

“I am.” Aneka said, swinging her spear under Ayo. 

The latter responded with a swift gliding motion of her spear to stop Aneka’s from hitting her feet.

Aneka retracted, and brought her spear up to clash with Ayo’s. 

Ayo tried to stay focused, looking down while blocking the other spear. But still Aneka retracted and took hit after hit, smiling when she was able to pass through Ayo’s defences. 

For once she was glad that the training spears weren’t electric like the vibranium ones. 

When she landed on the floor, she was even more glad that it was only the two of them in the room. Had the others been there, Okoye wouldn’t ever have let her forget it.

Especially because Aneka hadn’t even touched her, so she’d seemingly tripped on air. 

“Is that all you’ve got, Ayo?” She approached the defeated woman who refused to get up and continue to embarrass herself. 

When Aneka knelt down, her cocky expression turned worried. “Oh, my love. You’re hurt. Your head.” 

Ayo raised her hand to take a feel of her head, and unsurprisingly her hands returned with blood on them. 

“Stay here.” Aneka said. 

Ayo did as instructed, sitting up and waiting for Aneka to return. 

Though she considered leaving then and there, her mind told her not to. Her mind went back to the other thing Aneka had said. 

“Oh, my love. You’re hurt.” 

My love.

Was that something that Aneka usually called people? She couldn’t quite remember. 

Her memory was hazy. 

When Aneka came back with a first aid kit, Ayo’s mind came back to her injury. 

She tried to make a grab for the kit to handle her situation. 

“Don’t. Let me do it, Ayo.” 

So she backed off, letting Aneka disinfect and place a cream on the cut. 

“There.” she said when she’d put the thin bandaging on Ayo’s head. 

“Um.” Ayo tried to speak, her voice hoarse and throat dry. Aneka’s face was so close to hers. So close that Ayo could tell that Aneka could feel her breathing on her skin. 

She didn’t know what to do with the position that they were in. Aneka leaned closer to her face, her lips puckered. 

Feeling those lips on her forehead, Ayo automatically sighed, feeling her body release the tension that it had. 

“Thank. You.” she rasped out. 

Aneka smiled, bringing her face lower. 

When their lips were on the same level, and only mere centimetres apart, she stopped, Meeting Ayo’s eyes. 

.Ayo opened her eyes to see that she was in her bed, by herself. 

Just as the light touch of Aneka’s lips hit Ayo’s; she woke up. 

She breathed deeply, processing the hyper-realistic dream’s events.

Her hand went for her forehead, feeling completely cut-free skin. 

Getting out of bed, she tried to ration with her mind. 

It was just a dream. Just because she felt so good in it, it didn’t mean that there was any truth to it. 

Sure, she found Aneka to be quite attractive. But that was it. 

That sensational feeling that she felt in that dream; that feeling of love. That was all fake. Just her mind playing tricks on her. 

But she couldn’t deny the tingling feeling that still remained on her lips for the rest of the morning. The remnant feeling of what could have been. 

She couldn't deny that she possibly wanted more of that. At least; not to herself.

To everyone else she would at least try her best. 

Walking into the palace, Ayo was greeted by the sound of the early-bird Adored Ones chatting in the hall before the day truly started. 

The leader of the noise was none other than the woman of her dreams. Literally. 

Ayo approached the glowing presence of the woman who spoke. She could tell that they were all engaging in lighter conversation, seeing as everyone was smiling. 

When Aneka caught a glimpse of Ayo on the sidelines, she lit up. 

“And if it isn’t the woman of the hour! Morning Ayo.”

Ayo was ashamed to admit that her heart skipped a few beats when everyone looked her way. 

Though her face was serious like it should’ve been, she could feel her face tingling. She had a feeling Aneka was the only one who could sense her uncomfortability. 

Aneka went to hug her, embracing her firmly. “You look amazing today.” she whispered into her ear. 

Ayo’s face was on fire now. The strong blushing sensation almost breaking her serious expression. 

“Thank you.” she said quickly. Unlike in her dream she was quick on her feet when she was talking to Aneka. It was the best way to stay ahead of the flirtatious advances that she often made. 

Not that Ayo thought it was serious flirting.

That would insinuate a completely different thing. It was just playful flirting… that was slightly more than one-sided. 

She said slightly more because she couldn’t always be sure with Aneka. 

She was a lot more talkative than her. Which often meant that compliments like the ones that she gave her were given to far more other people. 

That’s why being quick to dismiss her was the best option. It took the feelings out of it all. 

Unfortunately, that’s just about all that it did. When it came to staying focused around Aneka, quick responses didn’t help her. She was just as bad if not worse than herself in her dream. 

With everyone else joining them in training in the same room, she was more wary of how she behaved. But Aneka still acted the same. 

It made for easy distractions. 

Ayo landed on the floor much faster than in her dream. 

Aneka smirked at her, but quickly stopped and came closer to the woman, “Ayo, you’re hurt.” 

Ayo sighed, lifting her hand and just like she’d predicted, seeing blood. 

Aneka went to get the first aid kit, and Ayo couldn’t help but feel a part of her hurt for the missing “my love.” in her words.

Some of the others watched her as she sat on the ground, embarrassing her more. 

Aneka came back, and for 3 whole minutes, Ayo’s real life was matching the dream exactly. 

“There.” Aneka said.

She looked into her eyes, leaning in. 

But Ayo wasn’t ready to face the rejection. 

“Thank you.” she said. 

She stood up quickly, knocking Aneka over accidentally. “Ayo, Wait!” 

Rushing out of the room, she went into the opposite one, where no one had chosen to train alone in. 

She let herself catch her breath, feeling a headache approaching. 

Hearing a breathy voice behind her, she internally screamed. 

“Ayo.” Aneka said. 

Ayo turned around, seeing a confused Aneka coming towards her. 

“What’s wrong?” Aneka’s hand went to softly hold Ayo’s chin like she often did, but Ayo moved in protest. 

“It’s nothing.” 

“It doesn’t feel like nothing.” 

Ayo finally met the other woman’s eyes. “I don’t know what’s wrong, Aneka.” 

“Then we’ll figure it out. Just talk to me, Ayo.” Aneka begged.

The two looked at each other, breathing in deeper than normal. Time was temporarily halted. Ayo’s eyes looked down to the other’s lips for a moment before she tried to look away. 

“I-”

Her eyes closed for a moment, and that light graze came again. Aneka’s soft lips wanting to touch hers. 

But not quite reaching them. 

“Ayo-” Okoye’s voice and frame came into the room, making the two separate. 

“Oh.” Okoye had stopped dead in her tracks seeing the two so close together. Even if only for a split second. 

“I heard Ayo got hurt. I was just coming to check on her.” Okoye said, looking the other way. 

“Okoye,” Ayo tried to explain

“You look okay, so- I’m gonna leave now.” She turned and left the room as quickly as she came in. 

Aneka’s attention returned to Ayo. “Maybe you should take the rest of today off. Just to figure out what’s wrong.” 

Ayo unknowingly moved her head. Making it look like she nodded in agreement. 

Aneka gave a slightly frown-like smile, going back to the room filled with the others. 

Ayo stood still for a while, trying to figure out whether or not she had imagined what happened. 

She came to no definite conclusion. 

For weeks after it all happened, there was a distance between the two. 

At first, Ayo made a point to avoid Aneka. Making up excuses for her to leave the rooms that Aneka entered. Saying that she was busy, or just openly ignoring her presence. 

Aneka didn’t notice at first, actually believing that Ayo was busy all of the time. But when she noticed that she was purposely ignoring her on some occasions, she grew distant. 

She didn’t outright ignore Ayo, but you could sense the tension whenever she chose to compliment someone else instead of her. Aneka didn’t mean any harm in it. She just knew what she wanted, and since Ayo wouldn’t admit that there were mutual feelings there; it had become a way to make her see what she was missing. 

To Ayo, the ‘flirting’ became a clear confirmation that there was nothing special between them.

She let herself accept the fact that she would never get to feel that sensational love that she had secretly been hoping to have with Aneka. 

This didn’t mean that it didn’t hurt. Because it did. 

It hurt seeing those compliments going to others. It hurt seeing her face light up seeing other people. It hurt knowing that she wasn’t even an option anymore. 

Ayo always had her reservations about starting that type of relationship with a fellow Adored One, but having the option always felt comforting. 

Knowing that if she just got the courage to make that one decision; to take a risk. She’d have a chance of having something great. 

It was the one thing that made her day 100 times better. 

Now that that was gone, all she did was crave it. Hoping that she’d get it back one day. 

Spending another day avoiding Aneka, Ayo sat on a bench watching her from afar. 

As a woman approached Aneka, all Ayo could see was an excited romance-adjacent encounter. Aneka was all over the woman. Hugging her intimately. Whispering into her ear like she used to do to Ayo. 

As Aneka held on to her, refusing to stop hugging the woman, her eyes landed on Ayo staring. 

Ayo stood up, looking away with the hope that Aneka hadn’t fully caught her. 

She gathered her things, making her way around Aneka and her new woman. 

When Aneka saw the look on Ayo’s face at the sight of her ‘new interest’, she couldn't help but feel slightly guilty. 

She’s known that using her friend as a jealousy tactic would have worked, but seeing her immediately leave with that sad look on her face again. It made Aneka want to fix things far sooner than she had initially thought that she would. 

She thanked her friend for the help, making her way home. 

There, she got herself ready for her big moment. Thinking about that one question. 

What would she do if she got the opportunity to be with Ayo? She’d so confidently thought she’d “Take it” when first asked. 

Now. she had to put that confidence into good use. 

She didn’t necessarily think that she had an opportunity, but she had a small opening. One that was only being held open because of that almost kiss. 

She’d been clinging to it from the moment it happened, wondering if she had imagined it.

She hoped that she hadn’t. She hoped that her opening was real.

Hope was the one thing driving her forward to make her move. 

When Ayo heard a knock on the door of her home, she groaned in exhaustion. She’d been self-loathing for a few hours by then. Embarrassingly wallowing in her own pool of self-pity. 

She was grateful that she’d at least changed into something comfortable, but presentable. Not needing to check for her appearance. 

She opened the door to yet another dream. Though it seemed very real. 

Aneka stood in front of her. Dressed like what Ayo could only describe as a glimpse of paradise. Like an angel.

Wearing a slitted cream-coloured dress, with silver earrings that stole Ayo’s attention and refused to relinquish it, Aneka stood far more confidently than she felt. 

“Take me on a date tonight.” she demanded, letting herself into Ayo’s home. 

Ayo turned to the woman who had passed her and was now getting comfortable in her house. She wore a confused expression on her face. 

“Excuse me?” 

“I said, take me on a date tonight. I'm sick of-” 

Ayo brought her hands up to tell Aneka to slow down. “Wait, can you stop for a moment and let me think.” 

So Aneka stopped, looking around while Ayo tried to process what was going on. 

When she had calmed down and filtered her questions down, she took a deep breath. 

“You want me to take you out?” she asked. Aneka nodded, 

“Where is this coming from?” She asked, not knowing how loaded that question was for Aneka.

“It’s coming from years of watching you from a distance and wondering what it would be like to have you up close.” she started. 

“I keep asking myself what I would do if I just got one chance to try this out. To try us out. Everytime I think about it, I tell myself that it might work. If I just get the chance. So I wait. And I wait, and wait. But I can’t keep waiting. It’s never gonna happen if all I do is wait. So I’m forcing myself to be the chance for once.” Aneka tried not to tear up at her words, wanting Ayo to know that she was serious. 

Meanwhile, Ayo was doing everything to make sure that it wasn’t another dream. She checked for the time. She looked all over her house to check for any small changes. She even pinched herself a few times. 

When she was sure that it was real, she still had her reservations. 

“What about the girl you were with earlier.?” she asked bitterly.

Aneka scrunched her face at the thought of explaining that. “She’s just a friend.” 

“A bit close to just be a friend, don't you think?” 

“Look Ayo. I’m telling the truth. She’s just a friend. We don’t usually act like that. I was trying to make you jealous.” 

“You were?” Ayo scoped out her whole body -mostly just to soak in the beauty of its presentation again- but more importantly to see if she was lying. 

Seeing her do this, Aneka smirked. “Mhm. And it worked too. Well, mostly worked.” 

“What makes you think I was jealous? “ 

“Ayo. Are you actually going to make me answer that? Don’t try and deny it.”

“I’m not trying to deny anything. Okay. Maybe I was a little bit hurt by it. But it wasn’t that bad.” 

“Really? What were you doing before I got here?” 

Ayo refused to answer, looking anywhere but at the other woman. Aneka folded her arms in victory, knowing that she had won.

Ayo considered her situation. Adding the new information that she had into the equation. Was she willing to take the risk?

What if it didn’t work? She wasn’t willing to risk that. 

“I don’t know, Aneka.” 

Aneka sighed, going in to hold Ayo’s hand. “Ayo. I’m not asking you to say yes to doing anything but take me on a date tonight. I know exactly what I want with you, and if you need me to tell you I will do so gladly. But I know how you are. You’ll stress out the entire time and feel pressured into taking a thousand steps at a time and making it work out as soon as it begins. Right now, all I want is for you to take this 1 step with me.” 

She kissed her hand, looking at her with her entrancing eyes. 

Ayo couldn’t help but start to feel that loving sensation all over again. 

“Okay.” she whispered. 

“Okay?” Aneka asked excitedly. 

“Yes, okay.” 

Aneka released her hand, going to hug her. 

“Just one step?” Ayo asked. Aneka nodded in agreement. 

Ayo let go, “Before we do that.” She couldn’t help herself as she leaned into Aneka. 

There was no denying that their lips touched then. They connected and held each other gently, until they were ready to let go. Then they did it again. And then one last time for good measure.

When they departed for the last time, Aneka couldn’t hold in her giggle. 

“Just one step at a time.” she told Ayo. 

She reminded the both of them of that one thing. 

It was just one step. 

One night.

One date. 

And a plethora of other possibilities. 

#black panther #wakanda forever #black panther2 #black panther fanfiction #black panther fics #ayo x aneka #aneka x ayo #angst with a happy ending #love confessions #dora milaje #ayo #aneka

[wakandaiscoming]

Wakanda Forever, second viewing

Here are some things I'd like to discuss

-- The parallel between Ramonda's speech at the UN when she says "now is our time to strike" putting words in the mouth of the US and France, compared to when Shuri says "now is our time to strike" about Talokan.

-- Okoye's "we are home" to Ramonda just like she said to T'Challa in the first film. I said out loud, "This never gets old." People looked at me funny.

-- How Ramonda is trying to get Shuri to go back to research on the Heart-Shaped Herb. I think she is trying to get Shuri ready to be the Black Panther, and trying to get her to do the emotional work necessary, but it's so sad that it's only her death that makes Shuri go back to it.

-- Okoye calling MIT the equivalent of a "Wakandan village school." I'm never going to get to go to Wakanda, guys, I got rejected from all but my state school. Ack.

-- Both Ramonda and Shuri seem to see Nakia as almost kin to them. They both go to her when they feel totally alone (Ramonda after Shuri is kidnapped and Shuri at the end).

-- Namor's description of his childhood is kind of scary. People thought he was a god since he was a child? No one seems to be providing any sort of parental guidance after his mother passes. I think he's gonna need all the therapy.

-- I notice all of the Talokanil drink their blue herb (it's like the Heart-Shaped Herb but all I don't know the name, just that it's blue not purple), and then seem to pass out or pass away. I wonder if they go to their version of the ancestral plane? We don't see it but it seems to be put there for a reason. Wakanda is powerful but it's not like all its citizens take the Heart-Shaped Herb. Only the Panther. They really can't survive a war with Talokan, unless Shuri starts growing a LOT more of those Herbs.

-- Disturbing to see how planned the attack on Ramonda is. The Talokanil draw defenses (Ayo) away from the Throne Room specifically so Namor can kill her, and she seems to know it because she tries to make Riri leave. (Angela Bassett's face when Dominique Thorne askes if she can call her mom!) And then Namor waits there, while Ramonda drowns, to tell Shuri she is Queen now.

-- Is Killmonger's sweater the same one he wears in BP1 just in white not black? I love the detail on these things. He doesn't seem to understand why Ramonda died for a girl from the "Lost Tribe" when T'Chaka killed his own brother. And I'm like, "Cuz Ramonda was fucking great, that's why."

-- I do wish Angela Bassett got some fight scenes. I'm an iffy on her white wig and usually I love the hair in BP movies compared to the terrible, terrible wigs in most MCU projects.

-- I want to talk more about Ayo being the General of the dora milaje now!! When Okoye is there, she wears the gold adornments, and after, it is Ayo who has gold. so clearly she got promoted in Okoye's absence. But how does she feel about that? Aneka seems to have left the dora also. What is that relationship like? Guys, I need more. I feel like there was more Aneka that was cut, because all we see of her leaving the dora is her giving those daggers back to Shuri?

-- I wrote a whole post about the parallels to the Challenge Day from BP1 and this film and didn't notice Shuri quotes M'Baku's line from BP1, "Your technological advancements have been overseen by a child" back to him and that's what prompts the line about her not being a child anymore. Sob.

-- I would be interested in a post about Shuri's hair journey. There's definitely an evolution from the first scene to the last.

-- Namora is such a badass. She takes a blast right in the chest from Riri and is not deterred in the slightest. I think she's neat.

-- Ryan Coogler said W'Kabi is in exile, but where do we think he went exactly? Ramonda suggests somewhere Okoye can visit. I wonder if they are trying to make it work still. She is very loyal, I guess. Usually putting a spear to your husband's throat ends a marriage.

-- Griot addresses Shuri as "princess" but in the scene where she says goodbye to Riri he calls her "Panther". She levelled up.

#black panther: wakanda forever #queen ramonda #princess shuri #okoye #ayo #m'baku #namora #griot #ryan coogler #queen angela bassett #w'kabi #aneka #ayo x aneka

[artsy-hobbitses]

Besides the code names, do the TTB characters have any other nicknames or terms of endearment for each other?

I can’t do a detailed list but off the top of my head;

Bumblebee/Benjamin: Baby Boy/Leprotto (Sunstreaker, ie. ‘little bunny’), Ahrairah (Jazz/Prowl), Benjie/Benjie Elliot (HotRod ie. his name + Billy Elliot)

Ratchet/Ronan: Ratch, Doc, Blackjack (Windblade, who introduces him to the show), Patch (Dinobots ie. skin graft on his face), Assclepius (Sunstreaker)

Prowl/Preston: Baobei (Jazz, ie. 'babe), Prick (Basically anyone not on good terms with him), Capn’ (Hotrod, respectfully after Prowl loses an eye and saves him from the Functionist Universe)

Jazz/Jace: Jayzee (Hotrod, from his initials 'Jace Zayden'), Jinwu (Prowl ie. ‘Golden Crow’ East Asian myth, meant to represent the sun)

Springer/Spencer: Hu Zi (Prowl/Jazz, ie. 'little tiger'), Spence, Mametaro (Windblade ie. 'bean boy' referring to his cuteness as a kid, bight green hair + unique origin), Cabbage Patch (HotRod ie. green hair + little fella + unique origin)

Mirage/Meirion: Merry (Hound), Casper (HotRod)

OP/Omar: Aul Man (HotRod), Glowstick Prime (Whirl), Al-Khattab (Shockwave)

First Aid/Fatima: Nightingale (Streetwise, referring to Florence Nightingale due to her bedside manner compared with Ratchet)

Alpha Trion/Aillard: Gandalf (Hotrod), Pagemaster

Arcee/Ai Xia: Aikira (HotRod/Windblade because GRANNY DOIN BIKE SLIDES BABY), Pohpoh (Younger folks, 'granny')

Sideswipe/Sergio: Fratellino (Sunstreaker), Tweedledee (Ratchet), Saif (First Aid, ie. 'Sword', as he's a frontliner), Enjy (HotRod ie. his 'Enjolras' coat), Barricade Boy (Mirage)

Sunstreaker/Serafino: Fratellone (Sideswipe), Tweedledum (Ratchet), Shamsir (First Aid ie. 'Sword', but also 'Sham' ie. 'Sun'), Lucifer/Lucy (StrongArm ie. his name, 'Angel' and his terrible demeanor)

StrongArm/Stella: White Dwarf (Sunny ie. her name--'Star'--her white hair and her short height), Evenstar (Sideswipe)

Kup/Kopisha: Bajyai (Springer, 'Grandma'), Harisa (Shockwave, ie. 'lioness')

Windblade/Wariko: Riko, Cara Mia (Starscream)

Chromia/Carina: Rina, Dora Milaje, Grace Jones

Drift/Dai: Deadman (Sunstreaker, his body count + ghost-seeing ability)

Starscream/Stefan: Red Baron, Pretty Bird (Shockwave), Uguisu (Windblade, 'Bush Warbler'), Pet (Windblade, not the way Tarn uses it but the way folks in Northeast England use it)

Ravage/Ramiro: Rami, Elskede (Laserbeak, ‘Beloved one’), Lapcat (Tarn), Bagheera (HotRod)

Laserbeak/Lara: Hot Topic (Hotrod), Mi Sol (Ravage, ‘My Sun’),

This is not comprehensive at all! I do have a cast of 40+ and the tangled relationship lines they weave between each other after all :'3 If you'd like to know about a specific person not named here, feel free to ask for that person specifically!

#inbox #save for later

[57sfinest]

Do you have any thoughts on dora? You may have posted some before but i think i missed them.

these two posts are dora-adjacent but i don't think i've ever posted specifically about her, no!

obviously, we don't get much that's directly from dora and not filtered through harry and his obvious bias and spotty memory, but from what we do get... she seems like she started off pretty kind, and very patient. she had to have been, to stay with harry as long as she did. i don't see her as the kind to instigate situations with harry- i think harry was the one starting shit, either with things he said or by something he'd do, and then she'd get provoked into saying something that would escalate it and it would just spiral out of control from there, especially once it got to the point where harry was heavily abusing substances. i don't think she said things like "you're a poverty-stricken fuck" or "you're a sad, insane old man" like in the crosswalk, but i'm sure that when an argument started, she took digs at harry for his low income and for his disabilities, which probably became more apparent and symptomatic as he spent more and more time with the RCM. especially as time went on and he was constantly either breaking down or drunk out of his mind or both- i think they both probably devolved into low blows because communication between them just... dissolved. like, dora couldn't reach into harry's mind to know what was going on. harry wasn't communicating effectively because he was more focused on trying to just numb it and shove it back down. i think that toxic masculinity played a huge role in their relationship breaking down, personally. she had this expectation for him to be the provider, to always stay "cool" and be emotionless, to be "better" than his disabilities (whatever the fuck that means!), to work for a grander purpose than just teaching gym (so he left a job he was presumably happy in to join the rcm, which made him progressively worse!). like she had this latent ableism and classism tied inherently to toxic masculinity, which dictated her expectations for him that he subsequently failed to meet.

and it's sad, because it seems like they really did love each other at first. just based on the note in the ledger, it feels like their relationship became very codependent pretty quickly. they were obsessed at first sight; he was a few years older than her, seemed *cool*, and he ended up being her first everything; and harry, for his part, had *nothing else*. we know from the fifteenth indotribe that he lost all his friends to ODs and violence. his dad wasn't around and we can assume his mother was dead or not involved at this point. all harry had was her- you can see in the crosswalk that she feels that harry just blamed her for everything, good or bad. according to him, she was the one who made him "insane and shit" (if you get the moralist stuff). it was an unhealthy level of exclusivity between them that ended up being a huge part of the problem. they were mutually obsessed, but the difference is that dora had parents and some money and a place to go work somewhere else: the point is, she had *options*. there was somewhere else for her to go, other people to support her. she had the resources to get over him, but he didn't have anything to help get over her.

#soo yeah she wasn't the BEST person #but i think a lot of it was stuff that harry instigated #breaking down and alternately worshipping her and blaming her for every single problem #plus his lack of communication and his mental illness and his possible violence depending on your skillset #he was more to blame than she was. but she was not an innocent party #sorry i feel bad that most of my thoughts about her are in the context of harry but like #obviously that's all we ever see of her #kiwipost #hdb meta #di meta #gen meta #ask

[hadeantaiga]

I wonder if... people like me, with mental illness, people with depression or who know people with depression, or anxiety or other ailments that can lead to depression and sadness etc felt the same thing I felt while playing Disco Elysium with regards to a certain character.

I mean, maybe it's just me but...

[Note]: Apparently this needs to be said explicitly: I'm not calling this character a villain, I'm not saying they are a bad person or that they did bad things. I am saying that my personal relationship to this character is complicated due to my relationship with mental illness. If you can't empathize with that, then you're not gonna like what you read under the cut, and you've probably already guessed who it's about. But I'm not condemning them, I'm just expressing sadness.

[Disco Elysium Spoilers Below Cut]

I... kinda lost sympathy for Dora? Especially after the dream sequence on the sniper's island...

"No one should be that sad"

Like, I do understand being unable to stay with someone with severe depression. I get it. It can be too much and no one is obligated, and obviously Harry's substance abuse comes into play here, but I read that more as him self-medicating due to severe burnout and depression caused by the job switch??

Which Dora encouraged because she wasn't satisfied with Harry being a gym teacher?

I'm not specifically blaming her - Harry's an adult and can make his own choices, but still...

My feelings for her changed, after that scene, and after learning at the end that she was the one who encouraged him to stop being a teacher, which seems to be something he really enjoyed doing and got satisfaction from doing.

{addition} Yes, I called her and spoke to her on the phone. That's how I know she's not a villain. That's how I know this whole thing is complicated. That's why I feel so many feelings about this.

#disco elysium spoilers #mental illness #disco elysium

[a34trgv2]

Top 10 Worst Main Characters In Cartoons

#10. Kick Buttowski (Kick Buttowski: Suburban Daredevil): Kicking off our list (no pun intended) is the one trick pony of a character that is Kick Buttowski. His character begins and ends with him wanting to do extreme stunts. That'd be fine for a 7 minute short as a tribute or parody to stuntmen like Evel Knevel, but for an animated series? His shtick gets old very fast and he's nothing more than a blank slate of a character.

#9. Lincoln Loud (The Loud House): A smug, narcissistic brat, Lincoln treats his sisters like a means to end at best and a pain to live with at worst. Not only does he show contempt with them on a daily basis, but he's also not afraid to humiliate and take advantage of them to stroke his own ego. Would you believe this kid's named after one of the greatest Presidents of all time.

#8. Katie Mitchell (The Mitchells vs The Machines): Nothings makes me hate a movie more than how hatable the main character is. Katie is selfish, annoying, ungrateful, and not even remotely funny. She has this bitter and resentful attitude towards her father when they were once best friends, and the way she makes this story about her is very condescending. If the movie had been about her as a child and putting her relationship with her non-tech savy father to the test, maybe I'd sympathize with her more, but as a teenager ready for college, she's just a brat.

#7. Nancy Clancy (Fancy Nancy): I now know how Dora's detractors feel after watching Fancy Nancy. Nancy is such an obnoxious, pampered brat that talks down to the audience like we're pesents and always acts like a fancy life is the best life. She's very rude, selfish, and narcissistic, all of which are qualities you're NOT supposed to have when trying to be fancy.

#6. Miriam "Mimi" Mortin (What About Mimi?): No, this gif isn't from the villain of this obscure show. It's from the main protagonist...and that's just the tip of the iceberg. Mimi is a stupid, selfish, and annoying kid who makes simple problems worse by going overboard with her plans and throwing her friends under the bus. She's also very irresponsible and oblivious to the fact that she's no better than the show's designated spoiled brat, Sincerity.

#5. Kai (The Hollow): The one character that singlehandedly makes the show worse, Kai is everything Adam and Mira DIDN’T need on their journey. He's whiny, selfish, short-tempered and a big, fat coward. Whenever there's danger, his first and only instinct is to head for the hills instead of helping his friends. He also needlessly starts arguments with Adam because Heaven forbid 2 guys have a normal conversation together without it turning into a shouting match.

#4. Kiff Chatterley (Kiff): What do you get when you put Mimi's personality in a squirrel who's dumber than a sack of acorns? You get Kiff! She's selfish, annoying, stupid, irresponsible, and overdramatic over the simplist of things. What puts her above Mimi on the list is Kiff is the 4th irresponsible main female character I had the displeasure of sitting through after I specifically said I was done with these types of character. The character's a bigger waste of time than watching a worm try to crack open a safe.

#3. Molly McGee (The Ghost and Molly McGee): If you thought Dee Dee from the last 2 Seasons of Dexter's Lab was a headache, you might want to where a helmet when being in the same room as Molly McGee. She's annoying, inconsiderate, loud, obnoxious, and really stupid. She never thinks before she acts and every time she opens her mouth, she never shuts up. The worst part about her is the fact that Scratch can't just leave her because he put a curse on her, meaning he's stuck suffering with the audience listening to this chatterbox.

#2. Oscar Peltzer (Summer Camp Island): It boggles my mind how Hedgehog, nevermind ANYONE, would be friends with this kid. Oscar is selfish, annoying, inconsiderate, and stupid. He goes through Hedgehog's personal stuff, cheats at games and gets lost in the city. He also has a bad habit of not thinking before he acts, making him all the more annoying and stupid.

#1. Apple and Onion (Apple & Onion): No need to imagine a show with 2 annoying side characters as the main characters, because it already exists. Apple and Onion are easily the worst characters in Cartoon Network's history. In addition to being annoying and stupid, they also lack basic chemistry with each other and are painfully unfunny. What puts them at #1 though is Apple's fatphobia and Onion's complacency to said fatphobia. Need I say more? -.-

Conclusion: These cartoon protagonists are not only bad role models, but they're also just badly written. Whether they be annoying, stupid, irresponsible, or selfish, trust me when I say you DON'T want characters like these as the protagonist of your show/movie. Either audience's will mistake them as villains, or they'll just tune out. Dishonorable mentions go to Fei Fei from Over The Moon (I've talked enough about that brat -.-), Bloo from Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends (I wouldn't have blamed Mac for not visiting Foster's anymore after the birthday party episode), and Rick Sanchez from Rick & Morty (would've made the list, but I don't wanna give Rick & Morty any more attention than it has already). Thanks for reading, and I'll see you soon ;)

#reblog #share #like #follow #animation #comedy #disney #cartoon network #the hollow #netflix animation #top 10 list #summer camp island #apple & onion #the mitchells vs the machines #the ghost and molly mcgee #what about mimi #kiff #disney kiff

[thecherrygod]

i havent been into it for too long but im kinda surprised i havent seen a harrykim good ol classic florist and tattoo artist au

like yeah im not so sure how the logic of either of them being in those proffessions would work but im talking mostly aesthetics here

like. harry being a florist just. does something to me. like when kim is like he needs hobbies if you get the gardening gloves he suggest gardening is just very good. maybe its a bit of like instead of becoming a teacher first hes a florist first and stays there. or when he was a teacher they had some of a garden in there and he learned and then maybe got a part time job at a florist to support him on his teacher salary bc those usually arent enough. also i think he still has at least some of his adiction issues but not necesarily to the in game level (maybe amphetamines to be able to keep up with his lifestyle also maybe he grows weed but less relevant until later). and maybe he actually got to marry dora and is actually divorced here. working too much, not making enough money, and when back at home hes still an addict, maybe the relationship lasted more but still it never got good enough to keep.

and kim... theres a few options. either undercover just being on the tattoo shop somehow which is like. not the most sense making but still a possibility. or.. he never became a cop, either, got too disappoined by the system early on, noticed the injustice, but realized that it didnt matter what he did it wouldnt be enough. or he did join the rcm for a bit and then quit bc of that, maybe also eyes died in here too and that was the last straw for him leaving. maybe hes not necesarily the guy doing the tattoos, but more of the designs and piercings (i assume its a million times easier doing piercings than tattoos. i dont mean that it doesnt require a technique too tho but getting a needle through skin for a piercing seems easier than having the pulse to work on a permanent piece in someones skin with specific pressure with consistence, and if he was a cop and quit maybe he has shakier hands.... idk. i dont know how stuff like this works generally ngl. also idk. can you have a tattoo.. parlor? and do designs but not the tattoos themselves? id assume you can but no idea)

ok yeah something like that maybe. and also the shops are either side by side or right across the street. i can imagine harry walking through the tattoo parlor and looking at the designs and looking at a few plant based designs and liking them and just. going in. not exactly for a tattoo or anything but more to like. know how it is and maybe meet the artist and then he sees kim which i imagine with a lot of tattoos and piercings which is sort of whats fueling this at this point bc i wasnt gonna think about it for too long but now im too deep into it and like i imagine this kim as.. kind of distant as he tends to be, will try to hide the fact he was a cop bc at this point hes not proud of that, he just likes making designs while listening to speedfreaks fm, which you can hear from outside the parlor while walking on the streets, but he is cool, and if you talk to him he will talk to you, hes just maybe awkward but also he is kinda weird (which has harry like 👉👈)

and this was just going to be me saying "man i havent seen any of this" and instead i sort of made my take on it and it got longer than i expected. anyways!!!

#my posts #and for organization #disco elysium #harrykim inked flowers au #that. doesnt mean im gonna actually make it. maybe. maybe. but i dont make promises #i make tags for myself. for my own organization and to find things later #inked flowers is bc i worry if i tag it as florist/tattoo artists au the tag is gonna get weird when i search for it #...... but i am attached to it now #............. i. would anyone believe me if i said this is like the second au ive made in my life lmao #i dont do this a lot bc i usually just see what others do i just make canon art and concepts and maybe post canon stuff #..... yeah. also it got too long lmao #also regarding the weed situation yeah i think harry would grow his own and at some point share with kim sfihsiug #like i think kim still has his one cigarette only and not much else. a bit of alcohol every once in a while and just weed #i think i should properly think about harry in here btw #this is all just placeholder for myself if it ever happens? #...... i think i am in a mood to like. write long posts today and also a lot of tags apparently #like... just rambling udsighsudig anyways. yeah. i love them i wanna think about them

[jungwookjins]

Hi, same anon from the past few asks haha. Anyways, saw on twt (@cutieyongsoo) that the lyrics Junji sings roughly translate to “you let my spirit free, give me permission / allow me to carve/scupt you however i want / however my heart pleases”. Thoughts ??? 🤔🤔 - 🕯anon

omg hi anon!! yes u read my mind i was planning to make a post abt these lyrics and u sent this ask at the perfect time

given that we only have what we're given in the teaser and idk korean so i cant be sure of the original tone of the lyrics, this will be less what i think the storyline is actually gonna be and more of what i hope it will be

earlier this month, junhyung said that his solo has a "dark" vibe and i really really hope that it indeed does. ik it's not everyone's cup of tea, but i want smth toxic n sexy n angsty from jolo, a story w temptation n deception and manipulation etc etc etc bc i think that would be fun and ooo has always tackled those themes well

the carving/sculpting metaphor very much reminds me of dora maar + picasso, the story of a manipulative and controlling artist who actually only sees his muse as a means to further his own artistry, to make into what he wants, rather than a person who deserves respect in her own right. in these songs, ooo portrays a relationship in which picasso continuously denies dora maar's own personhood and identity in favor of depicting her how he wants to, rather than how she actually is

this also reminds me of gaslighting, i mean the song as a whole, but also specifically this part of yongsoo's rap, in which the speaker is essentially "giving permission" for the other person to control/shape them however they want

im especially a fan of the theory that jolo and rolo will have like good v evil, light v dark, heaven v hell type vibes. im always down for a concept like that, and we know ooo deals w these themes incrediblyyyy well, both the dichotomy of it + the religious slant to it (e.g. sage, asoiaf, tear of god, etc). given junji's shirt in the teasers depicts the temptation of st. anthony, i think there's a good chance, that if the concept does end up being along these lines, that, in this story, junji will be the evil/devil/satan/tempter/temptation, and rie will be the good/temptee (?), etc etc

i know the first part especially of those translated lyrics, "you let my spirit free, give me permission," can be interpreted more sweetly, like a cautious lover seeking to find freedom in love (a la yolo/kolo), But i still think it can work in my theory's favor. of course, in biblical accounts of temptation, satan is manipulative and often tempts with sweet words and ideas that seem so good, so reasonable, so loving, etc, that it seems like there's no way this could be evil/the devil saying these things, so i think that could be the case w these lyrics too

and there's something about this shot that feels like it has sooo much potential for this theory

like the way junji is smiling, the way rie looks so unassuming and unexpecting. and also the way that junji knocks on the phonebooth while rie is here at sunset/sunrise (?) all alone. temptation is strongest when you're alone, and in biblical accounts, that is often when the devil chooses to strike, the most well-known account probably being when satan waits for eve to be alone before coming down and tempting her to eat from the tree of knowledge

this feels different from begin/be free. while we cant be sure that junji doesnt approach rie in the cafe/laundromat (?), the way the teaser makes it seem is that he first notices rie there, when kb and yoojung are also there, but doesnt really choose to make a move until rie is alone. with begin/be free, there were constantly extras outside of the cafe and esp in that final scene of begin, people passing in front of the cafe window, while kb and yoojung are inside, in a very wong kar-wai, making a story focusing on two people but very much also depicting the life of the city that serves as a background to this story, way, but so far, that doesnt seem to be as much the case here. ik for this part esp, i may be reading a bit much into it, but it's fun to think abt regardless <3

those are my thoughts for now! very very excited for the next mv teaser and to see what jolo will bring <33

EDIT: HOLY SHIT HOW DID I FORGET TO TALK ABOUT THE CAPTION

i actually dont have Much to say abt it bc these lines just make me 😵💫, but, like also these clearly have soooo much potential for the satanic tempter storyline. like junji, the tempter who ruins/makes impure rie like hello??

(also the second line is a bit awkwardly translated, but @/cutieyongsoo on twt also did a reworked translation: it’s better translated as “i’ll do whatever my hand wants” or “i’ll do as my hand pleases,” which of course has very picasso + dora maar vibes)

#mwah mwah ty for this ask anon #🕯anon #<- u have a tag now! #onlyoneof #ooo #ooo lore #ennuitxt #anonymous #answered

[zalrb]

Wakanda Forever Review

I've gotten a couple of asks about my overall thoughts about the movie and then specifically what I thought of Namor so:

Things I Liked

1. The honouring of Chadwick. People who have checked in on my blog or followed my blog for a while know that I really liked Chadwick Boseman so when I found out he died ... I don't think I've ever had an emotional response to a celebrity dying really, which is to say that I reacted pretty emotionally at the news and so I really appreciated the care and time this movie took to honour his memory. He's mentioned in the dialogue consistently but in the third act of the movie, it becomes about the loss of Ramonda (which I'll get to later) and I was thinking throughout the movie, I'm surprised we haven't seen a flashback of T'Challa or a voiceover or something of Chadwick, it wasn't an annoyance, I was just surprised and then the ending came and we saw all those moments and I, and everyone in the theatre, got so emotional -- I'm even emotional writing this -- and it was perfect, it was perfect because those moments were rooted in his relationship with Shuri, it wasn't him as The Black Panther, it wasn't him as a symbol, it was him as a human, as a brother, and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

2. The acting. When the first movie came out I was like, this isn't really a Marvel movie, it has nuanced and complex characters, the acting is anything but flat, and the storyline is fairly complex too and the acting in this movie was just breathtaking, you could feel the emotion of the actors, see them bring their grief to their art and it was beautiful. Ramonda and Okoye's scene especially had me like these women are powerhouses, this is fantastic.

3. Expanding to different parts of the African diaspora. The first movie was very much about the States and Wakanda and the oppression of African Americans with some vague mentions here and there of other countries, I like that they actually went to Haiti.

4. The visuals. A lot of the visuals were stunning -- I could also barely see the night shots, I don't know WHY everything has to be shot so dark now -- but what I could see was great.

5. The pacing overall had some issues, but the energy of the fight scenes were infectious.

One thing about The Woman King is that there were certainly moments that would have me hype but for the most part, I didn't get the kind of excitement I expected, everything seemed kind of matter-of-fact and almost but not exactly flat, and then watching something like Birds of Prey annoyed me because throughout it, I was like this is supposed to be a Girl Power moment I can tell and it just seems so forced but watching this was like a combination of experiencing kinetic energy that got me excited for the scene and seeing some pointed visuals that didn’t also knock me over the head with it, like when the French soldiers try to get the vibranium and the Dora Milaje stepped out of the vault and had these white men on their knees, I know exactly what's being said without it being spelled out and the energy spiked, everyone in the audience was like ayyyeeee. When Okoye, Shuri and Riri escape from the police AND mash up cop cars, there was a kinetic vibe going. When Okoye and the Talokan warrior were doing their combat it was like YES. When the Talokans killed the SEALs and got them to fall into the water, that shit was eerie and very well done.

Which brings me to Namor.

OK, so. Now we're getting into things that annoyed me.

Namor, as a character, didn't annoy me, I agreed with him. This wasn't like Killmonger where I was like, he doesn't actually want to do what he said he wants to do, from another post of mine:

I think it is made clear that he doesn’t actually intend for the oppressed to overthrow the oppressor, his intention is destruction. And no, I don’t mean “burn down the system and start from the ground up” destruction but complete and utter annihilation.

He admits as much during his final fight with T’Challa when he proclaims that the world has taken everything from him, everything he ever loved and this way they’ll be even. He speaks of arming Wakandan war dogs and the oppressed peoples of various countries but without formulating or discussing a strategy of any kind for the revolution itself or for what would happen after. He can only pronounce that Wakanda will rule over everything.

For me, it’s less about the fact that he was demanding Wakanda become the very thing he hates and more about the fact that the violence and toxicity and trauma of white supremacy broke him to the point that he couldn’t see anything outside of his own pain and rage. This is why the movie ends up agreeing with Erik’s rhetoric but not his intention. T’Challa not only faces his father and ancestors to tell them that they were wrong, he comes up with strategies and plans for Wakanda to actually reach those in need.

this was like, but he's actually right. It is established in the beginning of the movie that Western countries are trying to take Wakanda's resources i.e. the vibranium and then they find vibranium under water and try to take that too so obviously they're going to try and figure out how to get more of it, and like Namor said, it is also established historically that the West have colonized and enslaved and committed genocide for resources so a preemptive strike against these countries makes sense, the West already doing it while faking diplomacy, we're seeing how it's going to get worse, so he's not wrong to not want to essentially wait and see and Shuri scoffing and dismissing his concerns as essentially unhinged was so reductive because they’re not.

It also annoyed me that they began conflating that with the desire for personal revenge, as if to say it's different sides of the same coin and it all leads to the same result, which it doesn't.

Were there things I thought he could let go? Yes. If it's bigger than Riri and it's more about what the West will do for resources then he could've let killing her go at least from a strategic standpoint to garner good faith with Wakanda, at the very least be like we won't kill her but she must stay in your country. I thought the insistence on killing her was very clearly DON'T FORGET HE'S THE VILLAIN OF THIS MOVIE.

I saw the movie with my mom who kept being like Namor didn't have to kill Ramonda, she was really mad about that (I thought of anons because when he tells her his life story the first thing my mom said is ooooooooooh they're about to hook up) I was less mad about it on a character level and more angry about it on a writing level, it's an old and lazy trope -- the older character sacrificing themselves for a younger one and it was entirely unnecessary? I don't read the comics so I don't know if Namor eventually does end up killing Ramonda but even if it is comic book canon, that could've waited, he's clearly going to make another appearance in the next instalment or a future instalment. It just seemed so tacked on and another DON'T FORGET, HE'S THE VILLAIN tactic that I couldn't even properly process it because it just didn't feel well-constructed.

When the final battle happened between the Wakandans and the Talokans I just kept being like, I don't know you all seem extremely ill-prepared and I don't see how you could be when you're the most advanced country in the world. You didn't have any backup technology in case the Talokans did what they did which is break that sonic weapon thing? Shuri, you didn't reinforce your ship or have a backup plan when you know that they ALSO have vibranium? If it was supposed to speak to Wakanda’s inherent arrogance because they'd never really come up against an actual opponent who could match their technology and their strength, it’s repetitive because the Talokans already attacked and killed their queen or if it was supposed to speak to how Shuri was clouded by rage that she didn't really think things through, that doesn't really keep in line with her character.

And watching the whole thing, I was like, you could've been fighting the people trying to take your vibranium instead of each other and that's not the messaging I'm supposed to take from this, but really! When they were intercutting between Wakanda and Talokan and the similarities both nations shared I just kept thinking and this is why you should be allies and stop the people trying to take your shit!

And then I had questions like you're the Black Panther and the Queen of Wakanda now and you can just ... go to Haiti?

All in all I had a good time watching it, I enjoyed it, I enjoyed the deeply-felt emotion of it, I enjoyed the messaging about loss and grief and family and love, but it could've been tighter.

[acacia-may]

How I deal with my most painful ship

 I also like to avoid shipping. Thus, if my shipping fail, I will be disappointed. However, I'm only human after all, hence I do get involved with shipping in my media consumption. Therefore, I like to stroll while daydreaming about a sad story. I love the feeling of the fresh air on my face since it helps to soothe my heart. Thus, I can walk far without feeling tired. When it was raining listening to the music that correlated with my story is also helping. Furthermore, I'm glad to read fanfiction and watch fanart about my ships. There are a lot of amazing writers and artists. I'm really thankful.

These is a trope I daydream about.

She fell too early, he fell too late

Right person, wrong time 

Unrequited love

 I'm an aspiring to write a good story in future. However, my idea disappearing when I hold a pen or keyboard to organize my thought. One of the way I deal with my painful ship too. (Hahaha)

Do you mind to share from which story that ships hurt you now?

Hi there, Anon-friend! Thank you so much for sending this ask in. I'll admit I've been wallowing a bit in shipping angst right now, so these were some lovely suggestions! 🥰 I've put my response under the cut since it got really long and rambling... 😅

(Warnings: brief/vague mentions of death, death games, trauma, and weapons. No specific spoilers but some vague ones for Danganronpa V3 and Omori).

I absolutely love listening to music that reminds me of my favorite stories, characters, and ships. I think that's probably my main method of coping--not just for romantic ships but for painful platonic relationships as well. (I can't tell you how much time I've spent crying over the song "Forest Fire" by Brighton (YouTube) and thinking about some of the most tragic sibling relationships--ouch!). I listen to a lot of happy/upbeat songs too, so it's not all depressing (though believe me, I have definitely gotten emotional over some happier songs as well).

Those tropes definitely sound like they have the potential to be soul-crushing. It got me thinking a little bit about the tropes surrounding my favorite tragic ships, and I think most of my tragic ships are torn apart by outside circumstances, trauma, and/or death, usually combination of several (i.e. Character A had a severely traumatic childhood which prevented them from fully opening up to and believing in the love of Character B until their dying moments so not only did they lose their beloved but also lost any chance they may have had to be happy together prior to losing them forever ect. Extra tragedy points if that then sends Character A on a downward spiral in which they lose themselves and become a bitter, depressed, and/or more villainous shell of their former selves. I've gotten attached to quite a few ships in this category over the years 😭).

I've also tend to have the misfortune of thinking a pairing is "The Ship"™️ only for the story to throw a curveball in the third act and decide "Nope. It's this one over here, actually." And I'm just left with surprised pikachu face and emotional whiplash, wondering if my love detector is broken. [And most frustrating of all, usually when this happens nothing ever gets "canon"-ed so it's all left up to speculation and now way more complicated than it needs to be 🙈].

(Actual footage of me when Sunny has a crush on Aubrey or Klaus likes Fiona or Tsubaki realizes she loves Kousei or Sparrow would rather date Holly than her sister, or David Copperfield freaking marries Dora Spenlow, or Naho marries Suwa in an alternate timeline or Finral wants to marry his brother's fiancée which he has somehow failed to mention this entire time... For the record, I actually like a lot of these ships too (not Fiona and Klaus that much though--it has issues but I threw it in there to note how this has been an ongoing problem since my childhood), but it's difficult not to feel a bit frustrated that they didn't just come right out with these relationships from the beginning so we could avoid the emotional whiplash of suddenly having to change directions and feeling like "Well I shipped this other thing before so I don't know what to do now..." 🤷‍♀️ The drama is just not worth it, and I find it exhausting--one of the big reasons I really don't like love shapes).

Anyway, I guess since I'm not usually that into shipping, I'm not very observant or very good at picking up the vibes of what will or will not be a ship, or maybe the universe is just conspiring against me and wants to make me feel stupid, I don't know. 😝😂 But I do think a lot of relationship drama in fiction is unnecessarily complicated when it doesn't need to be. For the most part though, when I talk about my tragic ships, they've mostly been separated by death or serious, tragic circumstances rather than their own stupidity or in favor of another ship (if that makes sense).

I would be happy to tell you the story/fandom my painful ships are from--thank you so much for asking! 🥰I have quite a few painful ships, but I will only list the three main ones I've taken on in the last month which have me feeling all broken up and emotional recently. 🙈😭

MomoHaru (Kaito Momota x Maki Harukawa) is from Danganronpa V3 which is a video game/visual novel I just finished earlier this month. It's probably my favorite ship not just in that game but in the entire Danganronpa series of games, and there are some pretty good ships in that series--none of which I got nearly as invested in as this one, however, since that's usually not my thing, but Kaito and Maki were special. It's definitely one of those opposites attract type relationships: he's incredibly outgoing and friendly and wants to be believe in the best in people, but she's very jaded, quiet, and closed off. He chooses to trust her when no one else does and doesn't give up on trying to befriend her, and eventually she slowly warms up to him and finds herself falling in love with the wonderful person that he is. Unfortunately, this all takes place during a death game where they are basically fighting for their lives so naturally there are a lot outside impediments to their romance and it's just heart-wrenching.

[This is them by the way (screenshot from the game on the wiki) She's showing him how to use a crossbow, the most inherently romantic of all weapons... (or so was the joke my sister & I made whilst playing the game)😅]

The other two are from another game called Omori. It's my sister favorite video game of all time which is saying a lot since she has played and loved many, many video games. 😊 I don't play a lot of games myself, but this year it has been a bit of a resolution of mine to try out some more games and we went through most of my list of games I wanted to play so I promised my sister I'd give this one a try too, and I just finished it last week. I don't think I was very good at it (at least not the battle aspect), but I did get the good ending so I think I must've done something right somewhere. 😅😁

I liked a lot of ships in this game, but my favorites were probably Kelbrey (Kel x Aubrey) and HeroMari (Hero x Mari).

Kel and Aubrey both have really strong personalities, and they're both pretty stubborn. Aubrey is a little bit bossy and Kel never stops talking, so they don't always see eye to eye, but at the end of the day they really do care about each other very much. One of my favorite moments is this cut scene where a young Aubrey starts to cry because their friend is lost and young Kel sort of panics--he tells her he doesn't like it when she cries and tries to his best to reassure her and make her happy again. It's very, very sweet. 🧡 Given the structure of the game, we get to see bits of both what they're like both as kids (preteens) and as older teens so that allows for some really interesting perspective, getting to watch them kind of grow and change over time. (There's also the difference between what the unreliable narrator character imagines/remembers them to be like versus what they are actually like now. It's really interesting). They were really good friends in their childhood but were torn apart by tragic circumstances they didn't have emotional maturity to deal with. In the vague-est terms, they suffered a serious trauma, and they were just kids at the time so, naturally, they didn't/couldn't handle it well and their friendship suffered for that. But eventually they do get to find each other again and start to rebuild that friendship and relationship. Though as I'm sure you can see here, they never really stop teasing and bothering each other. 😂

[These are some of my favorite screenshots from the game--these ones are from the wiki].

I love them as platonic friends as well, and I like a lot of Aubrey ships, honestly, so I think I'd be happy even if this one didn't sail, but there's just something about Kelbrey. It's called "Baseball Bat" in the fandom, and it's an appropriate name because it just hits really hard, I think. 😂 My sister and I feel a bit differently about it (in relation to some of the other possible ships especially), and so while we would usually commiserate together, I feel a bit like I'm suffering alone on this one. 🙈 Probably why I'm rambling about it on the internet lol... 😂

Then the final one, HeroMari is just this wonderful, beautiful, tragic ship between the kindest people who deserved so much better than what they got. I'm not the biggest shipper usually, but best friends to lovers can really get me sometimes when it's done well, and Hero and Mari were a great example of that trope--that romantic love slowly building over time on the foundation of a really solid and beautiful friendship. They are just so precious in the way they really built each other up and supported each other, and they also had this delightful playfulness and banter that was really cute and really fun too. But...yeah this one just really, really hurts. 😭 I'm going to start tearing up if I talk too much about it. But seriously look at them. They're so in love. 🥺😭💗

(This is a screenshot from the game too. Just leave me to cry... 😭)

I've been picking up a lot of ships that I like or are okay with recently, but these are probably my favorites and the ones causing me the most pain. Thank you so much for the excuse to ramble about them a little bit. It helps me feel a little better. 💕

I want to really encourage you in your writing as well. I know that writer's block can be difficult and I have spent a long time staring at blank pages when trying to write myself, but I find it is always worth it in the end. Truthfully, I think writing about my favorite dynamics is my favorite way to deal with all my feelings about them. I've started a Momoharu story (which I've fallen a bit behind on already, I'm afraid 🙈), and I would love to write for the others one of these days too. Just have to iron out some story ideas. I wish you the best of luck with your story ideas as well.

Thank you so much for the ask and for the opportunity to share a little bit about my most painful ships (from this month anyway 😅). Please feel free to drop by any time to chat. I'd love to hear about your painful ship too, if you don't mind sharing. 💕 Cheers and much love, friend! 🥰

#answered asks #acacia's ships #why am i like this #I want out of ship hell #send help #cries in heromari momoharu & kelbrey #heromari #momoharu #kelbrey #danganronpa v3 ships #omori ships #answered anons #acacia's ramblings